Stuck In A Rut

[Ang9010]

I'm needing assistance today, and I will try my very best to keep the conversation away from mental illness as much as I can. But today, I am feeling depressed, today I am having an off day. So.. Maybe this is not the place for me right now, because I know there are several issues that are causing me to feel this way, and I hope that I can address them individually to help figure out what to do about them. But for right this moment I am only about to feel sadness, lonely, anger, depression. For right this moment I just don't know what to do. I learned that just talking things out is a good coping skill for me, but I don't want to "bask in the depression". It wouldn't be my intention, but I'm feeling so lost at the moment. Probably if I had to make this about one thing, to improve myself on; I'd ask, how do I make friends? More importantly friends who want to talk to me or spend time with me on a regular basis? Or should I be asking, how do I become okay with being alone? Honestly, I don't know if these are the right things to be asking. All I can think about is how I want to stop feeling so hurt and crazy. I'm trying to hard to self improve, I have a lot to deal with, and I've come a long way already, but for today, this is where I'm stuck. I'm sorry.

[Ang9010]

nevermind. There are more important things to cover in my life. Friends are important and being lonely truly sucks. But I think I need to do something different for myself. Not sure where to start though. Loving myself is as far as I've gotten with self improvement.

[Abeo Maria]

@Ang9010 first and foremost know that you're not a lot. I deal with this on a pretty consistent basis. Understand that it's normal firstly. If you've thought or had emotions like this for a long, it's only natural that it would be difficult to move past them. I would highly recommend meditation. I know it's the last thing most people want to do, but honestly, it's important to just let the emotions run free and cry them, scream them, journal them out of your system. Let those emotions express themselves. 
Keeping them at bay only hides them for another day. I'd write a journal. Start off with a paragraph or two about exactly how you feel. Read it at the end of the day.
As far as friendships go, know that most of the time we attract people into our lives based on our state of mind. If we really want friends because we feel partially incomplete without them, then it may be time to switch your mindset to enjoying alone time. 
If alone time feels weird, it's most likely due to our inability to like ourselves or the way we think when we are by ourselves. But the more time you spend in silence, or with music or making a cup of tea and reading a book, shutting off your phone etc; i've noticed a huge difference personally. It doesn't happen over night, but eventually the thoughts get clearer and more content, and naturally you will attract people to your life when you are in a more positive state of mind. 
I hope this helps and just know that you are not alone. 

[Ang9010]

Thank you. It does help! I will do my best to remember your advice for the next time I am feeling this way.