I’m trying to make it

[Romer02]

 

I've been struggling on my journey to escape my 9-5 job. I've been diving into e-commerce for over a year and a half now, and it's been quite the journey. This journey has caused me to accumulate significant debt from buying courses and falling into the traps that exist. 

In my efforts to find the best fit for me, I found a course where the instructor connects you with brands to make 30 videos a month for TikTok and post on TikTok Shop. I've improved and am making more money than before, but I'm still not satisfied. I want to make the big bucks. As I write this, I realize I sound ridiculous in a way because I have only been making video ads for four months.

At the same time, I feel like a loser despite working non-stop, even on weekends. I feel like I'm letting down my family and my girlfriend, and that they deserve better.

Additionally, I've been struggling with personal development and figuring out how I should be acting and the decisions I should be making. Currently, I'm 26, making $18.60 per hour, but when I go home to make videos for brands, I earn an additional $2.2K. Last month, I made $6K, but it still feels like it's not enough because of the debt I accumulated from buying courses, books, and seminars.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm on the right track, but other times, I feel like I need to be doing something different. I still live with my parents in Miami, Florida. It's tough because, with the amount of work I've done, I feel like I should have made it already.

In regards to my personal development, I've been struggling with porn and masturbation. Sometimes I think that if I didn't give in to these temptations, my life would be amazing, and I'd be the person I've always wanted to be, with money and living on my own. I've also been struggling with food and the desire to feel satisfied. Despite this, I still work every day on my business. It's been a tough journey of ups and downs.

I'm seeking some guidance to see what important steps I could be taking to move forward

[WonderSeeker]

I skimmed your post and I have 3 thoughts.

1. Dude, you're 26, I'm 26. You're fine, we're babies.

2. You still live with your parents. Ok, is this helping you or is it holding you back? Personally the best thing I ever did was drive 38 hours away from my hometown and live in a new city.

3. On the addiction thing: ya it can be a bitch getting over your attachments. I used to smoke weed every day and wank it to adult vids every other day. Its taken like 3-4 years to taper down and I haven't done either of those, nor alcohol in 6 months now. And the last time I did weed/alcohol were around toxic family/friends, so watch who you're surrounded by. At first stopping will be hard, but over time you'll develop momentum and change for the better. Best part is if you reintroduce it after enough time since your last use, you'll see how retarded those vices actually are. They're all the devil but they feel good when you're enmeshed with them

Be realistic and gentle with yourself. You sound like you're hard on yourself. I wouldn't wanna be your child, lol. You're a smart, introspective, action taker. Clearly. Thats what i see. Tell yourself that and quit slamming yourself over the head my man

Edited June 12 by WonderSeeker

[Butters]

1. Get better at finances, you should have enough left to pay off debt while saving. Try to negotiate payments if necessary, and don't make more debt. 

2. Think long term. You're making 6k pm from home you said, that's really good. Choose the pain of discipline today over the pain of losing that entirely. 

3. You're over thinking a lot it seems, that's not going to get you anywhere. Even if you end up finding some LP that makes you totally happy, you're still better of maintaining the business and income. 

You can read my journal on this forum because I'm going through the same thing right now, but I'm in debt with almost no income so you have it really good actually. 

[Michael569]

On 12/06/2024 at 5:23 AM, Romer02 said:

Last month, I made $6K,

I think when it comes to money, you're doing reeeealy well for a 26 year old dude 

I think the reason for unhappiness might be that you've fallen for too scammy courses that promises you 30 grand a month. 

Or maybe the question you need to be asking yourself is this ecommerce business is aligned with your values or you subconsciously feel that you are "taking value" rather than" adding it" to people's life? Ecommerce can be a low consciousness way to make money because it is basically based on adding little to no value to your customer's life and just sort of pegging yourself into an existing supply chain of a multinational corporation like Amazon hoping to earn from it, kinda like Crypto. (not saying this is you btw, just my observation from what a few people I know do) 

...Its not bad or anything like that, lot of people do it, but it could, deep down, if you are in touch with your soul, be hurting you and distracting you from working on your true passion. 

Sounds like you need to do some journaling and self inquiry, I don't think the money itself is the issue, at least not the only issue. 

Edited June 13 by Michael569