MDMA trip report

[emil1234]

so yesterday i did mdma for the first time in 7 years. back in the days i used to do A LOT of mdma, me and my friends. back then we always had this thing that we used to call the "mdma personality", because you would always enter your own individual specific personality everytime you did the drug. we were quite young, immature and inexperienced back then, like 18 years ish. 

so what was very interesting yesterday, is that i was expecting to enter into the same "mdma personality" as i did 7 years ago, however thats not actually what happened. my mdma personality had changed, and i realized that MDMA truly brings you into complete peace and harmony with your current subjective "i thought" personality. i just become a complete embodiment of the character that i am today, which was actually very confirming. it was pretty insane observing how much my personality had changed during the last 7 years, actually quite fucking mindblowing. it reaaallly made me get in touch with my human character "small self" personality, which was really delicious actually.

i really wasnt expecting any insights like that, back in the day we used to do it just because it was fucking fun. but yesterday turned out as a super fucking valuable lesson.

mdma REALLY brings out your true personality, however still quite ego identified. yet still very valuable because its the true character that you are right at this point in time

just wanted to share

also have anyone experienced a better body feeling ever than MDMA? like isnt this the fucking top of the cake in terms of that? holy shit that shit is delicious.

 

 

Edited June 2 by emil1234

[bambi]

Ive taken MDMA so many times in my 20s, I see it as a recreational drug. Alcohol can make you feel your authentic or real self too. 

Maybe it has its uses in some situations, like Ketamine. But it feels toxic on the system/body, and feels like a temporary bypass to me.

[emil1234]

@bambi i definetely agree that it shouldnt be taken more than at MAX a couple of times a year, since it has high potential for abuse and it also fucks the body and mind in the long run.

however i think theres a HUGE difference between the true personality revealed by alcohol and MDMA, they're not even in the same category. and i live in denmark, where we drink a lot of alcohol lol.

but yea, i also view it as a recreational drug, not at all as a tool for self development. however i must admit that yesterday was an extremely valuable experience, which i really did not expect. i think what did it was the 7 year gap since my last trip, which allowed me to observe my own personal development that happened in between the two trips

Edited June 2 by emil1234

[LambdaDelta]

That's an interesting experience. I agree that it makes you very comfortable with whatever you're doing and feeling in the moment, like a flow state. Recently I took some and went to gamble at a casino, something I usually never do, but on molly it was super fun and felt natural. Definitely more of a recreational substance, yet it can also be very therapeutic for some people. The neurotoxicity is a large disadvantage though. Plus that horrid sweet smell, gives me nausea just thinking about it. There's 6-APB which has a better safety profile and similar effects, but it's also a good deal weaker.

The body sensations are sure nice, though I've had better on DMT once. Also apparently 5-MeO-MiPT is stronger in that regard, plus there's all the opis, especially the zene territory, if one's reckless enough to go there

[Butters]

I think MDMA can be good if you haven't opened your heart in some time. It can make you accept life for how it is and have some empathy for the Whole.  But it's extreme stimulation of serotonin, dopamine and norepinephrine, of course that feels fantastic but has a downside the days / weeks after and as you said easy to abuse. 

Edited June 2 by Butters