Agoraphobia

[Brazilianguy]

Today I had my first panic attack. Two years ago, I started gambling and lost a lot of money. After losing all my money, I got depressed and didn't want to leave the house, so I quit my job. The last time I left my house was 10 months ago to go to my brother's wedding. Since then, I've been inside my room, ignoring my family's requests to go outside, socialize, etc. I live with my parents, and they think I just don't want to go outside because I want to spend all day on the computer. Recently, I've discovered that I have agoraphobia, and I cry every time I search for this subject on the internet. My parents are old-school religious, and I am afraid to tell them that I am sick and need help. This panic attack episode was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I didn't know that such a thing existed. It was horrible. The fear took over my body; I could not breathe, and I cried a lot during the whole thing. During this panic attack, I felt something really weird: a desire to tell my family that I love them and that I need them; a desire to tell them that I need help. It was almost like I surrendered to love. I felt humble at that moment, despite the fear. After the panic attack all I felt was shame, I know I need help, but I don't know how to tell my family.

[max duewel]

Hey man.. That sounds thought. I am sorry you are going through this right now. Its. strong from you to share that here with us and the first big step in getting better. I can imagine that it must be really hard to open up to your family about that. Do you have friends that you can open up to first or did you consider getting professional help? Psychologists are trained to deal with agoraphobia and its very treatable

[Brazilianguy]

Thank you for the reply, I want to get treatment, but I'm scared to open up to my family. Despite all of that, I'm feeling confident.

[max duewel]

Man, im rooting for you. Im sure you gather the courage to talk to you family about it. Baby steps out of this hole your in right now you will be so much stronger afterwards

[Hojo]

When you are having a panic attack you are subconciously creating the symptoms of a panic attack. I dealt with them for a very long time. Basically you get a thought of just fear and then your breathing begins to change you enter fight or flight and then since your breathing is changing you get light headed and then since that is happening you think you are going to die or pass out. Breathe into a paper bag when this is happening it helps as it limits your air supply and slow your breathing down.

There is nothing there but fear nothing bad is happening there is just a massive fear entity in front of you but its not you. Watch the fear and let it pass and breath into paper bag if you have to. If you are mentally powerful you can stop this fear right now. Nothing will happen its just mind stuff.

One time i had one at work and freaked out and called the ambulance and it was very embarrassing but I dealt with this stuff without any help for 20 plus years. And I was paying attention to what was happening so I can reflect on what is happening during panic attack.

Most of the panic attack is dealt with by breathe control

Edited June 4, 2024 by Hojo

[Raze]

Get ifs therapy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4VohoFTz5w

 

[WritingHands]

Glad I'm not alone on this forum about this.

[Vibes]

24 minutes ago, WritingHands said:

Glad I'm not alone on this forum about this.

Stop watching gore, it'll make you less fearful.

[WritingHands]

1 minute ago, Vibes said:

Stop watching gore, it'll make you less fearful.

how come

wasnt it the opposite, the more you expose yourself to the subject the less u fear it

[Vibes]

Just now, WritingHands said:

how come

wasnt it the opposite, the more you expose yourself to the subject the less u fear it

You being a body and watching / remembering all the ways you can experience agony, despair, pain, suffering is not gonna make you strong, it'll make you circulate fearful thoughts even more.

[Vibes]

You might be dissociated about it, but notice how you feel in your body when you watch such things. Notice how your consciousness changes... 

Edited October 26, 2024 by Vibes

[WritingHands]

12 minutes ago, Vibes said:

 

4 minutes ago, Vibes said:

You might be dissociated about it, but notice how you feel when you watch such things. Notice how your consciousness changes... 

i feel great actually, i'm anticlimatic and misanthropic. i envy those who kill in the content.

gore has nothing to do with my fear but in fact an antidote to my other fears - the judgement of others and inceldom related things.

always been into bad vibes

Edited October 26, 2024 by WritingHands

[Vibes]

8 minutes ago, WritingHands said:

i feel great actually, i'm anticlimatic and misanthropic. i envy those who kill in the content.

gore has nothing to do with my fear but in fact an antidote to my other fears - the judgement of others and inceldom related things.

always been into bad vibes

Well... Good luck on your journey.

[Cireeric]

On 26.10.2024 at 5:14 AM, WritingHands said:

i feel great actually, i'm anticlimatic and misanthropic. i envy those who kill in the content.

gore has nothing to do with my fear but in fact an antidote to my other fears - the judgement of others and inceldom related things.

always been into bad vibes

I cant tell if youre trolling or if youre serious... If youre serious, then what you even do on this forum? If you orient yourself anywhere near the goals of most people on this forum you should see that what youre doing is the polar opposite and antithetical to the work of actualizing yourself. If you admit to yourself that youre engaged in very unhealthy stuff and habits and youre on the journey of changing yourself fine, but if not why engage here?

[lostingenosmaze]

@Cireeric Why gatekeep so hard, people of all kinds of backgrounds and upbringings can post here. Plenty of people vent about their shit all the time, be it their illnesses, traumas, suicidal ideations, their sinful urges. So long as it doesn't violate the guidelines.

So funny that we've cultivated a place where we can look beyond their race, sex, orientation and beliefs free from judgement, only to judge and discriminate them from their stage of development or consciousness. Absurd.

[DreamScape]

Stop seeking that the answers are attacking you and start seeking that the answers are for you. For example, the reason you could be doing these things could be that you're seeking something else. Religious fears are true, but they're not what they seem. It's actually deep conformity and groupthink happening. You don't need to be afraid, it's your family.

[WritingHands]

On 11/7/2024 at 11:37 PM, DreamScape said:

Stop seeking that the answers are attacking you and start seeking that the answers are for you. 

Umh... Well To be frank theres no answer that doesn't attack really, in my instance especially.

 

 

[WritingHands]

On 10/28/2024 at 8:02 AM, lostingenosmaze said:

@Cireeric Why gatekeep so hard, people of all kinds of backgrounds and upbringings can post here. 

This tbh.

Wasn't actualized's protocol was being on being radically open minded.

It's like setting boundaries for what there is 

[WritingHands]

On 10/26/2024 at 6:23 AM, Vibes said:

Well... Good luck on your journey.

Thank you.