An important video about schiophrenia and questions

[Hojo]

I have disassociated with God and believe to have caused myself mental torture via fear of death and trauma from a child. I beleive that I may have develeoped schizophrenic states because of this extreme fear and have entered states of madness and am currently in a state of madness. I saw God one day and it made me see what kind of state my mind was in from externally. It seems I have have these problems of self love too as after that experience I thought that God loved me. I know God loves me but often I feel myself crying because I feel the love I was filled with and cannot beleive that non existence isnt a void of nothing forever and that I can take part in non existence. Am I mad? I work and am communicable at work get along with everyone and hold conversations but what I really want is to sit all day with schizophrenic thoughts contemplating God and thanking God for non existence not being non existence. Should I just go outside more and say yes to everything? Is thinking or asking this question to other people madness? Or is questioning is sanity?

I feel I maybe am just releasing previous trauma from the fear of death but I am not sure.

Edited April 29 by Hojo

[abrakamowse]

Don't think about anything. There's not such a thing as nonexistence, that's just ideas. Existence is all there is.

There's a saying that it goes like this: God won't give you more than you can handle.

Zen masters used to use the common chores at home to keep calm and stay focused in reality. Remember budha he always recommended the middle way.

I think that's what Sadhguru is pointing to.

 

[Hojo]

@abrakamowse ty

[Razard86]

On 4/28/2024 at 11:30 PM, abrakamowse said:

Don't think about anything. There's not such a thing as nonexistence, that's just ideas. Existence is all there is.

There's a saying that it goes like this: God won't give you more than you can handle.

Zen masters used to use the common chores at home to keep calm and stay focused in reality. Remember budha he always recommended the middle way.

I think that's what Sadhguru is pointing to.

 

Well it depends on how you define non-existence. 99.9% of humans define existence as appearance. They ignore the underlying non-appearance that also exists. The whole point of the spiritual path is to raise your ability to detect subtlety. This is done by quieting the mind and halting physical activities and staying very still. Do it long enough with enough practice and you can realize that disappearance or the absence of perception, what I like to call the blank...exists.

So yes all there is, is existence, but that has to be realized. Until a human recognizes lack of appearance as also existence then they will always fear death as they believe that if their body disappears that they disappear not realizing that they are not an appearance. They are the lack of all appearance, that eternally appears and since it has no contrast, it never changes. 

This is the only major block, attachment to form, attachment to other that keeps fear of death and suffering continuing. 

[abrakamowse]

On 5/2/2024 at 2:07 AM, Razard86 said:

This is done by quieting the mind and halting physical activities and staying very still.

Exactly, that's what I was trying to say when I said "Don't think" but you said it better than me. Just being present and paying attention to reality.

 

[abrakamowse]

@Hojo YW

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