Grounding journal

[Oppositionless]

consciousness exists as a kind of monad in an intimate relationship of an infinitely loving, intfinitely intelligent, infinitely complex organism 

consciousness can become infinitely more conscious of itself. 

awareness comes and goes and yet it only inhabits the single space and always arrives in exactly the same state

Edited April 4 by Oppositionless

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impermanence is Your, God’s, infinite love of novelty

death is the ultimate expression of Love

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Not checking the forum for a month was very nice

Ive done more socializing

Learning how to dj

Got a fulltime job as a software engineer

Now I understand why people start their own business

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As someone who vapes , I completely agree with Leo

vaping is stupid, pointless. It doesn't even get me buzzed anymore

I vape because if I don't I get withdrawls. And I started because I wanted to maintain my oral fixation after quitting weed.

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You're God, but you don't know yourself, nor can you. So praying to God, specifically asking for God's help to be happy and know God's will, is hugely beneficial.

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It's almost impossible to be a 20 something and not have a massive ego.

My 30 year old rave buddy told me that straight up .

He said "you want to fuck and have a relationship, but  your walls are up. You think you're better than these people because you're an engineer, you're smart, and you're into spirituality. Drop that shit. People are stupid, people are morons, people suck. But you're not better than them. As soon as you realize that you'll get as many girls as you want."

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Weed addiction 

 

To raise my self esteem

To stop being ambivalent 

To kill my self

To have profound insights 

To stop existing 

To experience another dimension

To have a separate personality 

To take ownership

To stop being ambivalent 

To do something productive

To be creative 

To write 

To go for the things I want 

 To feel like a god

To become god

To merge with infinite consciousness 

To live in a privately defined world 

 

Cons

Ending up in hell

Solipsism 

Telepathy

Thought broadcasting 

Feeling like god around others

Alien hell , telepathic meaaages

They Know 

Paranoid delusions

Being torn apart by infinite information

Nodes of consciousness overwhelm all my senses and I become omniscient toward human beings connecting to a telepathic superhighway

Edited May 24 by Oppositionless

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I thought I sucked at pickup , but really it was all about location 

I went to places with cliquey vibes in my work/college town and generally got nowhere. As soon as I went to a tourist club in my hometown, the year of work I've put in began to show off. 
 

Then when I got home , I listened to some emotional acoustic music, because I realized I'll never see the girl I met last night again. What I really want is a long term relationship. But I didn't know that until last night.

So right now I'm looking for a place to do pickup with the intention of getting in a serious relationship . I could do pretty well on dating apps but it wouldn't satisfy my urge to experience the real world and have actual conversations. The kava bar is okay but so far it's very much like a family, with the same regulars always coming.

Edited May 27 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

 

In your gaze I see 

Myself reflected, refracted 

Spread out in array 

In all beings 

The unborn

The undying 

The never ending dance 

 

I am you and you are

The organic 

Eternal whole 

The infinite 

Loving God mind 

 

We are 

Ancient and invincible 

Spirit beyond spirit 

Before the beginning of time

Living forever 

Loving forever 

United at last and for always

I love you 

 

Under silk covers we consummate the eternal presence and unite the four corners of God's infinite grace 

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"Under the hood", prior to the perception-level of consciousness, all sorts of calculations are occurring to make this illusion happen

thats what most enlightened Buddhists and nondualists are missing. That's why the philosophy of someone like Bernardo Kastrup has almost as much in common with materialism as with the philosophy of someone who is awake. Both materialists and Kastrup believe reality is fundamentally stupid.

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Crocodiles are more closely related to birds (dinosaurs) than to lizards. 
 

 

Terror Bird

Deinosuchus chomping on edmontasaurus 

Edited July 5 by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

Archosaurs are a group of diapsid reptiles that include all extinct dinosaurs, pterosaurs, and modern birds and crocodilians. The name "Archosaur" means "ruling lizards," and these creatures are characterized by their distinct skeletal features, such as an opening in front of the eyes (antorbital fenestra), teeth set in sockets, and a semi-erect or fully erect posture.

### Key Points about Archosaurs:

1. **Classification**:
   - **Pseudosuchia**: This subgroup includes modern crocodilians and their extinct relatives.
   - **Avemetatarsalia (or Ornithodira)**: This subgroup includes pterosaurs and dinosaurs, with the latter giving rise to modern birds.

2. **Evolutionary Significance**:
   - Archosaurs first appeared in the late Permian period, around 250 million years ago.
   - They became the dominant terrestrial vertebrates in the Mesozoic era (the age of dinosaurs).

3. **Anatomy and Adaptations**:
   - **Antorbital fenestra**: A key feature, this hole in the skull in front of the eyes reduces the weight of the skull.
   - **Teeth in sockets** (thecodont dentition): This feature provides a strong attachment for teeth.
   - **Erect posture**: This allows for more efficient movement and breathing, distinguishing them from other reptiles like lizards and snakes that have a sprawling posture.

4. **Modern Descendants**:
   - **Birds**: Modern birds are the direct descendants of theropod dinosaurs and are the only surviving dinosaurs.
   - **Crocodilians**: This group includes crocodiles, alligators, caimans, and gharials.

5. **Extinct Members**:
   - **Dinosaurs**: This diverse group included species ranging from the giant sauropods to small, feathered therapods.

 

Edited July 7 by Oppositionless

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A window into the past. John Chau was a fool.

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The **Megalodon (Otodus megalodon)** is indeed considered one of the largest predators in history, with some estimates placing it at more than three times the size of a **Tyrannosaurus rex** and even larger than the largest toothed whale, the **Sperm Whale**.

### Megalodon
- **Size**: Estimates suggest the Megalodon could reach lengths of up to 60 feet (18 meters).
- **Weight**: It is believed to have weighed between 50 to 70 tons.
- **Habitat**: Megalodons lived approximately 23 to 3.6 million years ago during the Miocene and Pliocene epochs.
- **Diet**: They preyed on large marine mammals, including whales, seals, and large fish.
- **Sources**: [National Geographic](https://www.nationalgeographic.com/animals/article/megalodon-sharks-ancient-predator), [Smithsonian Ocean](https://ocean.si.edu/ocean-life/sharks-rays/megalodon).

### Tyrannosaurus rex
- **Size**: Around 40 feet (12 meters) in length and 12 to 20 feet (3.6 to 6 meters) in height.
- **Weight**: Approximately 9 tons.
- **Habitat**: Lived around 68 to 66 million years ago during the late Cretaceous period.
- **Diet**: Carnivorous, feeding on large dinosaurs and possibly scavenging.
- **Sources**: [Natural History Museum](https://www.nhm.ac.uk/discover/dino-directory/tyrannosaurus.html), [Smithsonian Institution](https://www.si.edu/spotlight/trex).

### Largest Toothed Whale - Sperm Whale
- **Size**: Sperm whales can reach lengths of up to 52 feet (16 meters) for males.
- **Weight**: They can weigh up to 45 tons.
- **Diet**: Primarily giant squid and other large deep-sea creatures.
- **Habitat**: Sperm whales are found in oceans worldwide.
- **Sources**: [National Geographic](https://www.nationalgeographic.com/animals/mammals/facts/sperm-whale), [Whale and Dolphin Conservation](https://us.whales.org/whales-dolphins/species-guide/sperm-whale/).

### Comparison
- **Megalodon vs. T. rex**: Megalodon, at up to 60 feet, is significantly longer than T. rex, which was around 40 feet in length. The weight comparison also favors Megalodon, which could weigh up to 70 tons compared to T. rex's 9 tons.
- **Megalodon vs. Sperm Whale**: Megalodon is slightly longer than the largest male sperm whales, which reach up to 52 feet. Additionally, the Megalodon could weigh more than a sperm whale, making it a more massive predator.

These comparisons highlight the incredible size and power of the Megalodon, cementing its status as one of the most formidable predators in Earth's history.

[Oppositionless]

I wish I was never born

Ive been spending so much time researching near death experiences 

Thinking about how great it will be to finally be free 

[Oppositionless]

On 7/24/2024 at 9:20 PM, Oppositionless said:

I wish I was never born

Ive been spending so much time researching near death experiences 

Thinking about how great it will be to finally be free 

I actually feel worse today, but also I have more desire to live,

right now I just need some buzzfeed spirituality to distract me from the worst depression I've felt in years.

 

 

God I miss 2019. I had everything I could have wanted. If I only just got my head out of my ass and didn't abuse weed it could have been the greatest time of my life. Now everything is so much harder. My addiction is causing more problems than ever, I can barely get a week sober. I'm fucking DROWNING and Im so SICK OF IT!

Edited July 28 by Oppositionless

[Yimpa]

7 minutes ago, Oppositionless said:

I actually feel worse today, but also I have more desire to live,

My partner says: “Yay, that’s a big improvement!! I’m very proud of you. It’s not easy.”

Edited July 28 by Yimpa

[Oppositionless]

9 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

My partner says: “Yay, that’s a big improvement!!”

I had no idea anyone read this.

I'm honored, thank you.

 

[Oppositionless]

I wanna get high I don't wanna get high I wanna get high I don't wanna get high I wanna get high I don't wanna get high I wanna get high I don't want to have another anxiety attack if I get high im gonna have an anxiety attack 

[Oppositionless]

Life lessons from my wrestling coach

"Your mind always lies"

"Stop feeling sorry for yourself"

"The only thing harder than wrestling is life itself"

 

Nowadays it's easy for me to wish I did musical theatre or band in high school because it would help me with my goal of being a famous musician. But if I'm honest, those activities wouldn't have given me the fortitude to survive the severe mental illness I've experienced . Had it not been for wrestling and distance running, I don't know if I'd still be here.

Edited August 9 by Oppositionless