I Actually went out tonight

[Thought Art]

I’ve gone out tonight. Spoken to a few people. It’s still pretty early. I’m gonna push myself to stay out until 2am no matter what. I’ve talk to 4 guys to start warming up. 
 

My Plan to is socialize, get used to being out, and speak to at least 10 girls. I am also open to making some guy friends. 
 

here we go..

I keep telling myself that 28 is not too old. I will let direct experience be my king.

[Thought Art]

Might hide this. This may be more of a journal thing. But, I’ve wanted to go out for a long time. So far I feel awkward, nervous, a little creepy. However, the longer I’ve been out can sense some subtle confidence building. I know I can develop a more playful state but it will take time. 
 

People seem to be around 25 years old. That is interesting. 

[Thought Art]

Honestly, I’m already losing interest 

I feel scared, uncomfortable and weird. These don’t look like girls I am interested in either…

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[Thought Art]

I hate waiting in lines 

[Thought Art]

Retreated to a pizza shop. 
 

These girls look too young. I feel tired.

[Thought Art]

Okay so, I’m on the fence about this whole thing. I’m too afraid to approach. 
 

So… what now?

[mr_engineer]

Just now, Thought Art said:

Okay so, I’m on the fence about this whole thing. I’m too afraid to approach. 
 

So… what now?

A suggestion to develop state - focus on what you have to offer to them. 

[Thought Art]

So, this happens every time. I go out, I feel weird, I go home. 
 

I KNOW now I want to speak to more women. But, when I see them wearing these outfits, drinking alcohol I just think “this is so dumb”… maybe clubs aren’t for me? 
 

I don’t know what to say, I even got some eye contact from some girls but I get too scared. This is such a dumb way to be. Is the club dumb or me? Hah
 

I don’t know what to do. I need to find a way to meet more girls that is authentic to me.

But, also… maybe I need to grow through discomfort? Like, it’s confusing.

There is no getting around if I want to meet more girls… I have to approach and talk to them.

When I look in the mirror I think “I look old and intimidating”. What? 
 

Maybe, I hear back tonight and rest. And, tomorrow try some day game approaches? 

Edited March 17 by Thought Art

[Leo Gura]

Just turn off your mind and approach. Don't think about it.

The mind is your enemy, not the girls.

Edited March 17 by Leo Gura

[Thought Art]

8 minutes ago, mr_engineer said:

A suggestion to develop state - focus on what you have to offer to them. 

I don’t even know what that is? What does a club girl find valuable? Ugh. I really hate this.

[Thought Art]

Should I drink a beer? I don’t drink as a general rule…

[Thought Art]

I’ve caught a second wind

second tallest guy in line

girls tend to smile at me

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[mr_engineer]

12 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

I don’t even know what that is? What does a club girl find valuable? Ugh. I really hate this.

Offer a drink, maybe?! I'm not sure, I've never paid for booze cuz I don't drink myself. I've heard friends tell me that it works. 

[Princess Arabia]

This is actually funny to witness in real time. Hilarious as something just like going out to try and meet people is so nerve-racking for us. See everybody naked. That'll calm your nerves. Or see everybody else as nervous as you. They really don't give a shit, they're just worried about what they look like, not you. You're a handsome dude, don't be so hard on yourself, even if you weren't.

[Princess Arabia]

4 minutes ago, mr_engineer said:

Offer a drink, maybe?! I'm not sure, I've never paid for booze cuz I don't drink myself. I've heard friends tell me that it works. 

You never bought a girl a drink because you don't drink?

[Princess Arabia]

8 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

I’ve caught a second wind

second tallest guy in line

girls tend to smile at me

You're handsome without a cockiness to it, girls love that.

[Leo Gura]

9 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

second tallest guy in line

Lol.

No one cares.

[Thought Art]

the line has been pretty fun, speaking to a group of girls 

meow, when you see a 10 approaching an 11 

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[mr_engineer]

15 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

You never bought a girl a drink because you don't drink?

I don't stand for it in my personal life, it's a no-no for me. I don't want to date girls who drink. 

[Princess Arabia]

Just now, mr_engineer said:

I don't stand for it in my personal life, it's a no-no for me. I don't want to date girls who drink. 

oh ok.