March | Pisces | 28 🌌♓

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My life should only be richer with age , but

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Some more things from my childhood. 

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When I get older I no longer use pencil box : 

This is the last "pencil box" that I have, that I use to put my camera in it. As I no longer needed a pencil box. 

When its new (2013)

Idk

I used to be an artist

Nah I love film making and photography. 

But then.... 

my broken childhood cameras

Edited March 24 by Sabth

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Idk I should have worked since I was young .

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My life should be upgraded to a newer kind of things. Higher quality everything. Camera laptop etc. 

Idk. I should have had my art studio. But now..  before even that happened my collections are already stolen. 

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I want more skates more camera more everything. Lol

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I use an Acer 

Then Lenovo

And then a custom made PC 

This is when I lose touch with my intuition. As I said my life is already (or only) crumbling. We had a choice, between two desktop. The case one is small and the other bulkier and bigger. I had always want and like a compact and smallest things , as I was physically not a big person so I like my tools to be small and compact, easier to carry around. But this time, the shop keeper and my mom pressured me to choose the big one. And I was already crumbling , my life, my personality at this time I don't have a strong opinion, so I followed them. And this one that he gave me had a crack on its side. So it was already not good. My life was already bad. Making bad decision. 

So I have this PC that are not in it's best condition. It has a scratch on the side. I only wish that I would have choose the small PC. And I move places quite a bit so I had to bring this PC travel. So that's it. It's such a big PC. And later my father destroyed the box so I can no longer change it's location . I even thought that I wanna sent it back to the shop. 

But couldn't because the box had been destroyed. And it doesn't work just fine too. Having a loose wire that it will shut down on its own a lot. Until last year when I brought it to a local shop (not the shop that I buy it from) and the person said that there is nothings wrong with it. He upgraded my PC and suddenly this problem is gone. Weird. But true. It no longer shut down on its own. 

But I don't use this PC much.

Edited March 24 by Sabth

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The moment I leave the world

Is the moment I get back into my serious mode. For real things to happen.

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I am blessed with all these songs. back then. 

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My goal

But I am so hopeless~

Edited March 24 by Sabth

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Well, I have read part 7 of this book : 

Millionaire fastlane. Well, it's good. But, idk. 

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My eyes becomes worser when I read a book. Than if I'm just looking at my phone or doing other stuff. 

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I def can work on my own but I needed to renovate my original room. It's the biggest room. But had been altered. So now I think it needs to be a little different. For me to want to stay in that room . 

But I don't know. I don't know if my mom would allow it since I have change this room that I'm staying in. I have painted it according to my colour. So if I wanna change back to my room.. 

And a lot had to be done to that room. 

Edited March 24 by Sabth

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I'm imagining all the things that I wanna buy, it wouldn't fit this room. At all. I needed my original room for it to work. 

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And that room is at the corner. Surrounded by neighbours. And this room is in the middle. It is slightly isolated. With a backyard away from neighbours. And it is the only room that is in its original state. Not renovated. 

Edited March 24 by Sabth

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I don't wanna do or accumulate something new here because there is a thief in the house. They might accuse me of being crazy again and put me into a mental hospital and steal everything from me yet again. And I will be left with nothing. Again. Over again. So I might as well start in another place. If I were to do something new. Which I wouldn't. 

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When you are meant to die you will die. 

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And the reason of death would be others taking your life's. Essence? Or your spirit. Or your soul. Your breath away. The Muslims call these others the angel of death but I call them others. Because it is literally others killing you. 

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And you take the lives of others that's why you're still living.