March | Pisces | 28 🌌♓

[Sabth]

Should I move to the next room? 

[Sabth]

Still having a lot of trauma

[Sabth]

I really don't know how to make my life's worth it anymore. From now on. For all the things I've lost. 

I couldn't start a new. That would make me poorer and poorer. 

I'm 28. 28 years of life. I should have been accumulating a lot by now. 

Edited March 19 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I had a fight with my mom in my dream . Throwing a dust at each other. 

Edited March 19 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I am being sedentary... 

[Sabth]

I am so hungry, even though I am not fasting.

[Sabth]

I feel like I wanna move to x and start my *independent* life there. I am not growing or doing anything at home. There is nobody to teach me driving or working or doing anything. Pretty much anything. 

At least if I'm in x I can use public transport. And I can look for work and live independently. At least I can learn. Now I am not doing anything. Not growing. 

[Sabth]

7:23PM. I don't usually like soup but this is so good. Maybe cuz I was hungry. But it's good. It doesn't taste bland like a "soup"

[Sabth]

I am almost on my "day 10" which means, I am already 10% done. Which is equivalent to 100,000 x. Tomorrow. Let's see what happened. 

[Sabth]

4:40AM

Do you think sibling rivalry is real?

I never felt it but.... 

In my dream, I saw something. These days I've been dreaming something that otherwise I wouldn't realize in real life. It opened my eyes to a lot of things. Things I wouldn't know. like human nature. The nature of real things. It all appeared in my dreams. And made me rethink everything. It shows what wouldn't show in real life. I don't know. 

[Sabth]

I wish I wouldn't lose. 

[Sabth]

My counter break at 93k +

I need to use a new one. And my mom give me a new one. I always ask her for it. She buy it in bulk and always had it. And she give me the last one , that is yellow 💛. And I had to fight it with my nephew and niece because they took it when my mom want to give it to me . But I had it in the end. I don't know if I should just let them take it or use it. But in the end I took it because I'm gonna use it anyway. Petty things but ion wanna miss my 10 thousand per day ~ 

Edited March 20 by Sabth

[Sabth]

This fast lane book...  Well I can't drive~~

Anyway, it has arrived at 10PM just now. A little late at night. But anyway, its here now. 

[Sabth]

It is a little bit old fashioned this book.. 

[Sabth]

I got a bad dream a really bad dream 😟

[Sabth]

Today I was shocked with a skin diseases. There was a patch of it on my neck. And my mom immediately went to the pharmacy to buy the medicine for it. And I think it will be fine. Aloe vera plus some pills. I already felt better . 

 

And my nephew fight for my counter yet again today, so I just gave him the yellow one. The last counter we had. And my mom wanna buy a new one for me. I want to buy it at some shop today because I want it early. But my mom buy it online instead. This time it was a slightly good quality one. I never use it. A new type of counter. Idk. 

And for now, surprisingly, a counter that I use in 2021 that was no longer working, suddenly work just fine when I look for it yesterday. I don't know why it suddenly came back to life . Back then, as far as I remember , both had broken. But now it has work just fine again, so I guess I'll use it for now. 

I wanna buy a new one at a shop as soon as possible🥺

5:53PM

[Sabth]

It's almost 12AM and I hadn't finished my ten thousand. Because my counter keeps changing. And this one, it is not good. It is covered. So I can't see the number clearly. For the time being I had to use it. I got no choice. I had given the yellow one to my neph. 

Anyway, I was distracted bout my clothing this year. I'm gonna wear a super traditional clothes. Haha

I do wish I could buy the super expensive ones though. But the ones that I bought is fine too.. 

[Sabth]

I wanna get my life together... 

[Sabth]

I think integration is the worst thing in life.

Things are good when it's original. 

[Sabth]

I wanna earn money and make my parents proud

Instead of having them buying me everything.