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Get a Bachelor's degree Get a Master's degree Get a job as a Software Engineer Move abroad Write a book *** I wrote the list above about 9-10 years ago, when I was in highschool. By the end of 2024 I achieved all of them. I am very grateful for this. These weren't easy goals by any means. Each of them took a very long time to achieve. Interestingly enough, the goal that was the least "practical", writing a book, was the one that fulfilled me the most. I wrote my first novel in 2022. Since then, I wrote 2 more novels. I enjoyed it so much that for a while I believed that it was my life purpose to become a writer. But there was something empty about it. I didn't get many readers. Only close relatives bothered to read my stories. The notion of investing a lot of time and energy into a project, and no one valuing it, it's sadder than I can describe. I don't say this out of ego. I don't even care about compliments or money. I wrote for the sake of writing. Art for the sake of art. But at some point I started wondering, is it truly art if no one appreciates it? If I were to paint the most beautiful painting in existence, and I put it in my basement, and no one ever got to see it, would it still be art? It doesn't matter how people spin this notion. That we "don't need others" to be happy. That we don't need validation from anyone. It doesn't matter how you spin it. Because it's not true. The concept of me spending hundreds or thousands of hours to write a novel, knowing very well that after I complete crafting it, no one or almost no one will bother to read it, it kills my drive. What now? What's my purpose? Do I go back to writing? That would be madness. My current "attempt" at a life purpose is to become a game developer. I've been spending a while lately, creating graphics for my first project. I believe it will be easier to find people who enjoy videogames than people who enjoy reading fiction. Nowadays, at least. The thing that bothers me is my day job. Arriving home at 8-9 pm, by that time my mind is too fucked to be productive. Even though I'm taking my life purpose as a hobby, and not as a career path, it's still difficult. The pragmatic aspects of survival get in the way often. Complete the course "React.JS" by Meta Complete the Master's thesis Save up 10k€ Complete creating the game "Space Prism" This is my list of goals for 2025. The first three will be a pain in the ass. I value all these goals "logically", not "emotionally". I'm only motivated by the latter one. I get optimistic each time I look at the protagonist's sprite (which took me way longer to create than I expected). It fuels my creativity. I'm just bitter over the fact I don't have more free time to work on this. As for my long term goals, past this year? It's like asking what's at the other side of nothingness. I have nothing to look forward to in the next 5 years, let alone in the next 10. Sometimes I'm wondering if this is how it should be, or if I'm doing something wrong. Should I perhaps have fewer "practical" goals and more "fun" ones? My left brain says that would be foolish.

The source of everything is just lack of limits, that is nothing. Existing is manifestation, but existence isn't absolute . Because Nonexistence is the source of existence. How? Because nonexistence is everything, existence is the part that appears from nonexistence, which is everything that could be and is not, therefore it is infinite and what is is finite. The point is that nonexistence is total potential, it lives, it is total and it is you. Nothingness is everything, is what you are and it's total. And Its impossible to grasp with the mind , because really it's nothing . Not emptiness, or void, or infinity, just nothing. And that's everything . And conciousness is just a facet, the facet that is conciouss of itself, that of course, is everything , because anything else is nothing , but same time is nothing, because it's just a possibility between infinite possibilities 😅.

You can conscious-ensleepen certain parts of the body where every spatial size of the body infinitely spirals out, is everywhere and nowhere, and everything collapses into nothingness. You do that with the nose and the nose at every scale of size, and then you no longer have a sense of having a nose. You do that with the lower back and then the lower back no longer has pain, or the lower back is asleep or completely put out of it. A total conscious sleep is where you would do this with the whole body. Doing this while standing up is the key. Nailing down what I already got lying down, and shifting it over to sitting, standing, and eventually walking positions and even running--full total relaxation and rejuvenation from running. A total reversal of evolutionary habit and human ordinary inertia.

@Sugarcoat it is the gift of Nothingness.

Because nothing would then exist to be "experienced" or differentiated - it’s the classic "If a tree makes a sound and no one hears it, does it make a sound?" Consciousness, or "observance," requires two differentiated selves or points of view for each to exist. If no one were there to know of Sugarcoat, and if Sugarcoat weren’t defined by any bounds of reality, as an individuated self Sugarcoat couldn’t exist - she would dissolve into nothingness, emptiness, or God. Something must stubbornly remain one way and not another; this principle manifests in both the physical, emotional, and spiritual realms. If all physical objects were infinitely fluid, changeable, or transmutable, there would be constant chaos and no stable structures or rules to define reality. Similarly, if emotions lacked weight or meaning and were infinitely fluid (like a fleeting joke) then the depth of love, beauty, the pull of passion, and other profound feelings would not necessarily exist. This concept, though cliché in non-duality teachings—"without darkness, there can be no light"—holds deep truth, especially when contemplating the nature of the self in the highest spiritual sense. God "needs" to experience everything because He is everything and can only be everything. Hence, limitations and rigid, concrete, stable forms must also exist. Limitation provides depth as much as expansion can. We, as humans, (sadly or luckily) happen to resemble God more in this sense. We possess metacognition - the ability to think about our own thinking - a self-referential quality. Since God is infinite, those creatures in God’s mind had to eventually exist. Having a self or awareness is profoundly beautiful - the ability to take in the beauty of others into your own consciousness and merge with it to a delightful degree. The difficulty comes with suffering, but that’s the "deal" we get. You have a defined self that is conscious and can explore, take in the world, parts of God’s mind. But in being defined, vulnerable to change, needing specific requirements for a good life and survival - and in a universe that is infinitely impermanent - we suffer.

@Leo Gura Do you think the pyramids were built by humans? And if so, advanced humans or the less advanced humans history claims? I think the lowest energy state for a person thinking about this openly and with actual comprehension and stuff is just that it was not built by ordinary means, because of the size and precision of the cuts. If someone thinks otherwise it's just peer pressure. I also have a special book with the names written down of Donald John Trump, James David Vance (born James Donald Bowman), Elon Reeve Musk, every elected member of the new US Congress, many Russian generals and putin and security council, every single Ukrainian regiment in its military, Ukrainian generals and security council / Zelenskyy, the Knesset, the Hamas leaders in Turkey and Gaza, the Turkish president and cabinet and parliament, the Hezbollah leaders, the Iranian Expediency Council and Guardian Council and Khameini and Parliament and officers of the IRGC and Artesh and Basij and Police, the Chinese Central Committee and many Chinese generals, the King and Crown Prince of Saudi Arabia, the emir and deputy emir and prime minister of Qatar, as well as the emirs of the UAE. And Destiny. I'm able to put my consciousness inside the emanations of the person at various connections, using the names to keep track as a correlation, creating substance of what I'm conscious of. You can take the Infinity as a physicalized or mentalized substance that can be remotely transported. I take Infinite Intelligence of Nothingness and the infinite harmonics and change of this and interconnection and can put it into them at the levels of subatomic, atomic, molecular, organelles, cellular, tissues, higher-order structure (this just means size doesn't escape any of it). This Infinite Intelligence is different from the Infinite Intelligence that's already present, this is deeper, infinitely. And a specific will can be attached or had or been by the Infinite Intelligence placed within the person.

That was thought/mind. Realization could have happened, but after-interpretation (mind activity) recreates self. That´s why you can have 500 Samadhis in your lifetime and still Enlightment doesn't happen. Reaction to limited thought (In this case: I'm completely alone inside this state of consciousness.) The Nothing that you are is beyond the word nothing. Because the word nothing itself has meaning, in this case as you can see your mind interprets as something negative. Seeker: So Is empty? Buddha: Not Empty. Seeker: Nothingness? Buddha: Not Nothingness.

Yes. Letters of Bassui, in Kapleau, Three Pillars of Zen: 4. To a Dying Man Your Mind-essence is not subject to birth or death. It is neither being nor nothingness, neither emptiness nor form-and-color. Nor is it something that feels pain or joy. However much you try to know [with your rational mind] that which is now sick, you cannot. Yet if you think of nothing, wish for nothing, want to understand nothing, cling to nothing, and only ask yourself, “What is the true substance of the Mind and of this one who is now suffering?” ending your days like clouds fading in the sky, you will eventually be freed from your painful bondage to endless change. 8. First Letter to the Zen Priest Iguchi An ancient Zen master [Rinzai] said: “You should not cling to the idea that you are Pure-essence.” And again: “Your physical body, composed of the four basic elements, can’t hear or understand this preaching. The empty-space can’t understand this preaching. Then what is it that hears and understands?” Meditate fully and directly on these words. Take hold of this koan as though wielding the jewelsword of the Vajra king. Cut down whatever appears in the mind. When the thoughts of mundane matters arise, cut them off. When notions of Buddhism arise, likewise lop them off. In short, destroy all ideas, whether of realization, of Buddhas, or of devils, and all day long pursue the question “What is it that hears this preaching?” When you have eradicated every conception until only emptiness remains, and then cut through even the emptiness, your mind will burst open and that which hears will manifest itself. Persevere, persevere—never quit halfway—until you reach the point where you feel as though you have risen from the dead. Only then will you be able to wholly resolve the momentous question, “What is it that hears this preaching?” PS: The answer to every Koan is a state of being. Or rather, Being. Infinite Being. The answer can never be demonstated in a forum by text only. But they can be given or stated by text only. Who is Selling Water by the River? PS: I personally like more the (compared to Zen) much more technical way of Mahamudra for actual practice, especially Pointing out the Great Way style, which I consider more efficient for most. But the letters of Bassui are pure poetry for me. They express the essence, and they can touch deeply. Especially if there is an intuition of that which Bassui is aiming at. It seems "he" speaking to us across a distance of over half a millenia. Yet, his true essence is right here, right now. Always.

Nice i enjoy this discussion between consciousness and nothingness. Although i think it’s leading nowhere (because there is nowhere)

but its hard to argue against the fact that behind your eyes, there is Nothingness. in deep sleep, there is Nothingness. and Nothingness, in virtue of it being Nothing, permiates all of existence. I think its fair to draw a distinction between Nothingness and consciousness, but also notice that the Nothingness EXISTS. which to me indicates that it is still a certain degree of consciousness, and thus consciousness can plausibly be viewed a the Absolute imo. But one should not lightly cast away the notion of Nothingness, since it is the closest thing to an antithesis of consciousness that exists

@Leo Gura whats ur take on the Absolute being Nothingness, beyond consciousness? several spiritual traditions seem to point to this

The problem with these methods is that every mind is different, with profound differences. For me, trying to focus the mind is torture and impossible. True meditation began in a way that seems quite silly, reciting a mantra while walking down the street constantly: nothing means nothing. Little by little I was accepting this fact. It doesn't mean that nothing means anything in general, but that I want to put myself in a state of mind in which meaning is deactivated. When you deactivate meaning, the mind stops creating conceptual thought threads, they fade away naturally. This doesn't mean that you have broken through the mental boundaries completely, but that you have gone down from the superficial conceptual layer, you are outside of it, the mind becomes liquid, fluid, but it is still limited. You can go for quite a long time without any thoughts, because if they don't mean anything, you don't need them to survive. Then you can try something else: you become aware of your sensory perception, of sounds, the sensation of your body, the sensation of the flow of reality. Is this the reality? Or are you the one who perceives these sensations? Are you the witness of the flow that occurs, of perception? So, without this flow, this witness, what is it? If you separate yourself from perception, the perceiver reveals himself as a non-existent point, there is no perceiver without perception, there is absolutely nothing. Is this nothing the final realization? No you have to be able to bear this, because the first time is horrible, it is perceived as death. If you are able to bear the sensations of absolute absence, horror of emptiness, it happens that nothingness reveals itself as the absolute, the absence of limits implies the total, then nothingness opens up and reveals itself as everything. It's like the nothingness opens and it's full. Full of what? Of you. You are that, the absolute

Exactly, without duality conciousness ceases. You could say: really there is not duality because everything is the same, etc, but anyway the appearance of two is needed. Without consciousness there is cessation, but cessation simply means absence of consciousness, not absence of absolute reality. Awakening, or enlightenment on whatever you want to call knowing your true nature means realizing that the reality beyond perception, nothingness, not the void in which you are aware of the void, but nothingness, meaning nothingness as the absence of any perception, is the living totality, the absolute potential. It is not a logical mental understanding, it is an opening that occurs in you when you transcend precisely the consciousness

ive been contemplating this consciousness duality. the fact that without an object of consciousness, consciousness ceases. im not sure i think thats true. i think it can be argued that consciousness actually IS the absolute, unchanging true Nothingness/deep sleep, from which all things, including experience emerge. the nature of consciousness is simply such that if it has nothing to know itself in relation to (duality), it cannot know that it itself actually exists. so the vast Nothingness without apperances (absolute) is actually pure consciousness. but its consciousness which is not aware of itself, since consciousness only can know that it exists through duality. Nothingness still has to be Something, since it is something that can actually be experienced, through cessation or deep sleep, meaning there is still a degree of sentience present.

Do this mental exercise: imagine that you would be yourself without sensory perception. Then imagine yourself without memory, then without mental movement. What would you be aware of? Absolutely nothing. Your field of perception would be nothing, so there would be no time, but this would be the absolute, the total potential from which infinite manifestations can emerge. This is the absolute, the nothingness that is everything, something outside the possibilities of thought or imagination, you could be open to it but not perceive it because perception, or conciousness, are happenings that happens in that potential Of course conciousness "always" happens, because no conciousness is out of time, then without conciousness it's not happening, but it doesn't mean than conciousness is absolute, it's just an arising, but this arising always happens because when it's not happening is not "when", it's never, but this never is the absolute. Some meditation is needed The human mind needs a concious cause for the cosmos, because an unconscious cause can't be imagined, but this concious cause would be relative. Absolute means total, don't need intention, be aware of itself, just because it's absolute. It is without will or awareness, it's because can't not be, then don't need any conciousness, conciousness just arises, as anything else Real awakening means be open to the absolute in yourself. You are that absolute that can't be thought or imagined, and for "you" is the same be conscious or unconscious. It's just difference of state.

The Bliss that is being talked about is Braman itself, is not a psychological Happy state, like the one could get from transactions in the world. Bliss is a natural result of You losing identification with anything, and is identical to ultimate Liberation and Enlightment. How would It feel to finally be Free? Blissful, of course. Nirvana Shatakam mantra says: "I am the form of consciousness and Bliss, I am Shiva (that which is Not)". Nice you mention Sadhguru, here's his take on It: Nirvana means "formless." The Nirvana Shatakam is towards this – you don’t want to be either this or that. If you don’t want to be this nor that, then what do you want to be? Your mind cannot understand this because your mind always wants to be something. If I say, “I don’t want to be this; I don’t want to be that,” you would think, “Oh something super!” Not super. “Oh, so emptiness?” Not emptiness.“Nothingness?” Not nothingness. That’s what is being conveyed through this chant.

12th name Amrita Varshini It's a name given to Devi, which means "the one who showers Amritam". Amritam represents a liquid which is the pinnacle of sweetness and pleasantness and is also considered to be the elixir of immortality. Varshini is term used to describe the 'goddess of the rains'. Devi is believed to shower an abundance of Amritam on her devotees, if they are open and receptive to receiving it. 13th name Bhakta Rakshini Bhakta Rakshini - the fierce goddess known for the unwavering protection of Her devotees. She is revered as the ultimate mother and guardian of the five fundamental elements of nature and the entire cosmos.Bhairavi devotees can experience her protective nature through consecrated forms such as The Bhairavi Raksha or a Devi Yantra. Additionally,physical contact with a consecrated form of Devi can create a protective cocoon around the devotee. 14th name Saubhagya Dayini The name means - The Bestower of Good Fortune.Devi is the one who grants prosperity, happiness,and success, not just in material aspects but also in terms of life and its fulfillment. With Devi Bhairavi's Grace, good luck is showered on her devotees, blessing them success beyond their own capabilities and efforts. She is the ultimate Giver of all that is essential for one's growth and blossoming from various walks of life. 15th name Sarva Janani Sarva Janani is the name of Devi that personifies her as a mother of all. Sarva means all and Janani means one who gives Janma or birth. So Devi is the one to breed, nourish and sustain life, not just of human beings but of the entire Earth. As a mother is tender, nourishing, and fiercely protective, Janani also pertains to all women and denotes the feminine nature to the closest. 16th name Garbha Dayini The name means bestower of the womb. 'Garbha' refers to womb. 'Dayini' means the bestower. As Devi is the ultimate mother of all life here, she is also the one to bestow this gift of motherhood.She is the womb where existence happens, a space where all creation is. So, she is also the one who provides the power to procreate in all life forms. 17th name Shoonya Vasini This name means the one who dwells in shoonya or emptiness. Out of all the words that we can use to describe shoonya - the origin, infinity, emptiness, void, vacuum, nothingness - Shoonya is the vast nothingness from which the creation was born. In Sanskrit, shoonya implies empty space or void. In mathematics also, shoonya denotes zero, the ultimate number that has no value of iits own but can add value to any other number. As creation happens in the lap of this vast limitless void, Devi dwells in shoonya. In this very source of all creation, She opens it up as a possibility for all. 18th name Maha Nandini This name is the praise to Devi as one who is a great giver of joy, pleasantness, and happiness. 'Nand' means delight/ joy. Literally, nandinī means a woman who brings joy. It also specifically refers to a daughter, as a daughter brings joy to the family. In the Hindu religion, Goddess Parvati is often addressed by this name as Nandini refers to one of the eight eternal companions (Ashtanayika)of Goddess Parvati. 19th name Vameshwari Vama means the left side, and Ishwari means The Goddess. Goddess Parvati is referred to as Vameshwari because she sits on the left side of Shiva, she indicates that the left side of the human body is feminine. Even today, in our culture married women are made to sit on the left of their husbands.Vama also means occult or path of tantra. As Vameshwari, Devi is also the basis of all occult and Tantra. 20th name Karma Palini Goddess Bhairavi is the ruler of karma, which is the basis of everything that you are today. Devï's grace can dissolve ones karma and hasten their spiritual growth. 21st name Yonishwari - This name describes Devi as the womb of the,whole creation. Yoni' in Sanskrit is a word for the womb of all mobile and immobile beings.Yoni is also the female counterpart of the Linga. Linga is penis and scrotum. And Yoni is the Vagina. As the genesis of the whole material world, she is the space and source where the creation resides. And as the Goddess of all wombs, she is the bestower of the power to procreate and produce. 22nd name Linga Roopini Roopini means form and this name means her original Linga Bhairavi form in which all her attributes are unified into one. Her original self.

When I would get sleep paralysis I would get it so much that I started playing with it and I would go into it then force myself out and go into it and force myself out. When forcing myself out I would get the sensation of being in a car on a highway with all the windows rolled down. Maybe your higher self was forcing itself out of this. It is very scary to enter the nothingness but the bright side is the universe cant stay the same so if you get rid of that fear then you can hopefully jump into it without the fear. This is essentially spirituality getting used to jumping into the nothingness with no fear and trust in God. Thats where trust in God comes from jumping in there happy. Cool that it happened randomly but also scary, to be in the middle of a conversation and just start dissapearing would be awkward.

twice in my life I've had near ego death. It happened the same way both times but different locations. Both times I was dead sober, infact I've never done psychedelics before. The first was when I was skipping class and laying on my back in the back of my car. Suddenly I felt my body begin to vibrate. Not subtly but very violently as if I was strapped to a plate compactor. I could also here a loud whirring sound, as if you were on an airplane and the window next to you were to break off. I could sit up but I wanted to ride this out. Then a portal of indescribably intense white light surrounded by fractals opened up above me and began to pull me. The closer I got the more amnesia I developed, I could no longer remeber names of family members, where I was. As I got closer the amnesia deepened I couldn't even recall my name at this point and was losing grasp even of the concept that I am a human being. I was becoming nothingness. Now shapes and sounds continued, sensations continued but the entity that was there to observe them and give meaning to them which I call "I" was dissipating. As I got closer I knew I was only a step away from absolute cessation and I began to panic that's when I snapped out of it and the portal closed and everything went back to normal. The second time I was laying in bed and snapped myself out very quickly cause I knew where it was leading. I don't think this experience made my more spiritual. Instead it frightened me, I don't want to go into cessation and become nothingness. It honestly felt terrifying and disappointing. I imagined my first spiritual experience would be fantastical. The feeling of my consciousness being elevated and become more aware. Instead it was the opposite and felt like everything was closing in including my sense of self. I hated it, I hated the fact that reality could even produce such an experience. I honestly wish I had just been raised some fundamentalist christian and had a simple world view that made me feel secure. That I could believe in heaven. Instead I was raised agnostic and have had to battle this existential dread and uncertainty around death my whole life. However I have no choice, you can't force belief.

@Princess Arabia If such a narrative, such a perception of things serves you, no problem, good for you. For me it is useless and that's it. Of course, I do not mean to prove that this or that person was exceptional because, first of all, everyone is exceptional, secondly, whether this exceptionality means something to us, each of us assesses it ourselves and this is everyone's sacred right to their own opinion. I simply believe that freedom, in order to be freedom, must be fully conscious as a fundamental feature of our true nature. One cannot be partially free, therefore in the full realization of freedom circumstances cease to play a role. We have examples in our history of people who bore witness to this authentic, inner freedom regardless of the circumstances in which they had to live. And in many cases these were very difficult circumstances. You see, I am interested in what is authentic. What is authentic and true is, as it turns out, very practical and has the power of real change and transformation. I do not see such potential in the constant repetition of phrases about absolute nothingness, non-dual emptiness. Sometimes it looks like well-disguised nihilism resulting from inner suffering. Where is this supposed to lead? The fact is that we are here and now on Earth, in a divine dream. I have said many times that if a dream is a relative reality, you cannot claim that it does not happen. I understand that this is a difficult experience and I myself want to get the hell out of here more than once, but I feel that this is not the point. Of course, I may be wrong, just like you😉

You will know you astral projected if you observe things/people then confirm with them the next day by asking where they were or what they were doing/wearing and such around that time of the day or night compared to a lucid dream. A good method is to awaken relatively early in the morning around 4 - 5 am and lay on your back, hands to the side or facing up, set the intention to leave the body and astral project, and enter a deep meditative state by doing some slow and deep breaths and then willingly moving your body out of your body without actually moving your physical body. I did this a few times, it does take some practice, sometimes it happens by accident too where you even let go of willingly trying to get up and just continue the breaths. This was before the energy of enlightenment and higher consciousness took over and I dissolved into nothingness for a while, before that I was all into this stuff but eventually you realize its all ego-desires and mind-stuff which can be very fun and appealing, its not the true path to peace and freedom. Somethings I feel the devil or mind is offering psychic abilities and powers(fancy spiritual stuff) where the heart or god is offering inner-peace and freedom of being, simple yet appearing very ordinary stuff that is far more great than all the powers and abilities in the world as it may just distract you more from the fundamental truths of being.

For me enlightenment is being open to the absolute, that's a reality, and it doesn't depends exactly of your level of consciousness. It is rather the rupture of a pattern of perception, the pattern involves perceiving as a "happening", as a chain of events. You can have a very high level of consciousness of what your experience is, but you cannot get out of the experience. the absolute is not experience, this is very difficult to see but it is obvious. What is an experience? something that happens, that goes from point A to B. The absolute is dimensionless, therefore it does not occur, it does not move, it is immutable. Imagine that your experience is always exactly the same, would it be an experience? would it be something? For reality to appear as something must change and any change is relative. Openness to the absolute is not perceiving the absolute because perceiving requires change, you cannot perceive nothingness, or deep sleep, or death, which are simply absence of change, you can be open to it, because you really are that. Everything become nothing, infinity and zero are the same in the sense of absence of "happening", and absolute potential. In infinity nothing happens because it encompass any possibile happening, it already happened infinite times, then, it's the same than no happening. There is not movement, any movement is just apparent, relative to a reference point, but not real, then it's homogeneous and immutable, same than the nothingness. Nothingness is everything, everything is nothingness, and this is the absolute, that is, you.

You mean nothingness? We agree the body does not reincarnate because once it dies it gets dissolved into the earth . I think you'd have to posit an eternal primordial substance that doesn't die .

@Javfly33 @Ishanga @Breakingthewall In Buddhism they believe in reincarnation and karma. You keep reincarnating after death until you "pay" all your karma and then you stop and cease to exist completely. That state of cessation and nothingness is called "Nirvana ". It's basically a form of salvation and being free from the sufferings of life. (because according to Buddhism.. life is suffering). I was raised as a Hindu. Hinduism also have moksha . Which is when the self realises its The Self .when the drop realises its the entire ocean and dissolves into infinity . Its also in Hinduism called when atman (the human self ) awakens to the realization that its Brahman (the universal Self or the "all") What do you think of the Buddhist and Hindu narrative? And what is your own definition of Nirvana? Of course anyone is free to comment..maybe Leo or @Princess Arabia or @Davino or @Hojo or @Razard86etc . But I tagged these three members on top because I read them using these terms often and i want to get a full comprehensive idea of how this works . To me..life is not a video game ..with past lives and accumulated karma and shit like that . We just born ..live ..die ..and disappear as a finite human..and then you exist as formless consciousness forever. But then again why the hell shouldn't a limited form exist again ? Bottom line is consciousness is immortal .it can't die in its most basic absolute form .but the details remain a mystery. I guess we all gonna die and find out .or...?

When I created the topic about mahasamadhi or ultimate mukti I was not talking about disappearing as being destroyed, but as a losing the anchor to a limited form. Which, in a way, it is being destroyed, because all we know as egos is limited forms and anchors. But anyways, ultimate goal is complete bliss, which means not taking more limited forms. For sure, I´m not there yet at all. There is not stability still, There is a lot of distractions and going back and forth. You could say Im prolonging the inevitable, but is also true as an ego I don´t have a choice or control in the timings. nothingness seems negative and 'small', thats why maybe seems contradictory to 'everythingness'. My main point is that Reality is real, is awareness and is alive. And that finite reality or identification with form is a delusion.