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Everyone talks about an Awakening. That's lovely, wonderful, beautiful and magnificent because deep sleep is all there is and cannot be talked about or experienced. You have awakened to nothing because nothing is being an awakening.

Ok… I’m a bit hesitant to write tonight… I got a 507 error and I first thought it was telling me that it’s not the right time but I refreshed it and I got through… so I’m going to go ahead and go for it. First of all I want to say that this coming from the deepest respect, and my intention is not to form any negativity. We are all here essentially to raise our Consciousness levels and this has become my life and I want to address something on here. I’m not even certain on how to bring it up… if I should just come out and say it or beat around the bush like I normally do on these sensitive scenarios. Well… I’ve been thinking about this for a few days and the last hour it has been nonstop and so I’ll just come out and say it but then I’ll explain why I am saying it. I’m not certain or convinced Leo has reached the Awakening state with a capital “A”. So… I continue watching his videos and there has been a line that continues to repeat in my mind and normally it doesn’t trigger anything. But… it triggered a few days ago and I’m in a purging process while I’m converting the van. I first want to mention that one of his other words had been in my mind and that’s where I first started. I don’t know it word for word or anything but from my guidance from it is to take some time to be alone doing nothing to see how well we can handle our self in silence and with our own thoughts. And I had damaged my iPad and I thought this would be a good time to do this. But I also apply this to myself and I get a ton of insights when I’m in a flow state and I’ve been in a flow state working on the van. So this has been purging a lot of layers from my mind. It’s not always comfortable in these purging phases and I’ll say most of it has been detaching from mostly some family and friends. Detaching doesn’t mean that I don’t love and care and respect any, but that I’m understanding that I don’t need to hold on to the hope of one day having an opportunity to be able to share what I hope I’d like to share with them all. It’s surrendering to the Universe completely and understanding that if it’s time to move on from people and places… then it is time to move on and this is all in art of dancing with the dynamic perfection that is playing out. I’ve placed myself in checkmate with Infinite Intelligence and allowing it to guide me in my moves… not that I haven’t been doing this… just in deeper degrees. Anyway his saying that was triggered in this purging phase that I kept thinking about was “no one on his forum is Awakened”…. I remember reading this when I first got onto this forum and how I understood this is…. Oh I just arrived to this space and he doesn’t know who I am yet… so let me try to explain this in my way and give him all the clues that I have indeed Awakened… more like the Awakening State…. It’s not in the past its on going and continues to develop. But I joined at a very critical time in this Awakening State… it was around 15 months after my transition and I was still trying to figure out what had happened to me, and placed myself in a space to figure it out. I thought this would be the prime time to share with a community who is wanting to experience this as well. So I don’t have eloquence in my words at times and I better teach through demonstration. I wanted to demonstrate what it’s like for me to do Spiritual work through a personal Journal. It’s been very beneficial and still find it as a great tool and so I continue. I’ve been on here for a few years now and I still hear this comment from him… and I don’t expect him to be reading my Journal but I do wonder why would he assume this? And then another comment that I hear is “if they were Awakened they wouldn’t be on his Forum” ??? And this really confuses me… why would he assume this? To me… this doesn’t make sense. I mean for me right now… I might be moving past Leo’s teachings… even though I get insights for myself by listening to him… but I get insights from listening to many people hence the tarot readings and diverse conversations with multiple personalities… I want to get as many perspectives introduced to myself so I can get a broader picture of what the Universe wants me to understand… and the many ways of communication and guidance. But I wouldn’t be moving on from this Forum. Why would any in the Awakening State move on from This Forum? I know it’s an outrageous claim that I’m in the Awakening, but I have an understanding that we are all Infinite Universe… we are all One… I’ve listened to his solipsism video and I’ve had it in the back of my mind even when I was in my dieta ceremony where I experienced the transition trigger, but I never had to go through that experience directly… so essentially I’ve never thought that I was the One it was always we are the One. I understand we have our own insights and awakenings which lead us to be who we are… and I guess I just might be skeptical of Leo’s Awakening State because of my experience of my own and how different we are after this. Which definitely could be the case of course. But we both want to help…You, Awaken… we can only teach you at the state we’ve been able to experience and embody for ourselves… and I’m just going to keep on going as far as I’m allowed and capable with this body and “time” that I have. The first video that I ever watched with Leo was how to be a strategic mother fucker… and this Forum is a very strategic community to build a relationship with. People who consciously desire to increase their Conscious levels… why would anyone who is Awakening and have been introduced to this community want to leave it? We have a desire to assist in the process that is ineffable and no rules or instructions and extremely subtle and very personal… it sounds impossible but that’s what and who we are, and we continue regardless of the challenges we face. I’ve been respectful and still will continue; however, there has been one rule on this Forum that I would think that would have changed after the transition trigger and the understanding of where Awakening leads. Why can this condensed community of individuals who are raising our Consciousness levels which also relates to the Collective Consciousness levels not be able to meet in person through this Forum? I can imagine that there is such a diverse mix of intelligence… and Infinite mix of Intelligence in this forum that I wonder what we could build together… I understand liability reasons to keep people safe, but damn I’ll sign a liability waiver that will take on the full responsibility of my actions and any consequences that arise from these interactions. Many people in our society meet up with strangers to go on dates and more and I think it would be nice to meet up with people in this community in person as well and see where the conversation leads… Leo says he’s not interested in starting a community but isn’t it already too late? We are a community even though there is not a physical locations. I guess I’ve said this before but I haven’t been the best at communicating with words as I’d like and I’m getting better but when I’m in person I get far more information than reading or typing. And in my line of work I meet people multiple times in different situations and observe the larger picture of the ones I’m engaging with. Originally I thought that I’ll just wait for the Universe to manifest situations where we attract and place ourselves in random locations to meet… which I feel can and is definitely happening. But maybe we’re All supposed to keep that perceived distance for now? Still? I’m getting tired but there is one more thing that I want to get off my chest… I haven’t heard Leo explain his Awakening in a near similar manner than I do. I mean awakening experiences, yes… but not the Transition Trigger. And this is what got me to start thinking…. Could it be he hasn’t gone through this himself? Am I trying to explain myself to give him clues that I’ve been through the process… but he doens’t recognize it because he hasn’t gone through it yet? It’s possible. He plays a character on the screen and it would be nice to even meet in person so I can get a more authentic evaluation… hehe… I can’t help myself that’s just what I do… and it just takes me awhile for me to digest and receive messages… but eventually I get there. Alright… I think this is good for tonight and I want to get my rest. I am getting really excited even more if that’s possible as the van continues to unfold. I hope to share more about that next time… with a video or pictures or something. Without my iPad I haven’t been able to document it, but I start to today and I’m getting all giddy about it… hehe… Ok until next time, enjoy ourselves!

I am very grateful that I am mostly healthy and able to ejoy life in the present moment. However, sometimes I do get sick or a headache and I wonder, damn, how are the people that feel like this 24/7 able to live? Why wouldn't they just end it and hope for a better reincarnation? Especially if one has already awakened to his true nature that as eternal and infinite.

We say reality is unlimited and we are limited beings, yet we look to limit reality by trying to awaken or get enlightened. That suggests a center. Where is the center in what's unlimited. Where is the position. If I'm awake in the sense of awakening spiritually, then reality is unlimited because there is a point of focus and reference to awaken from. There is no time nor space and it's boundless. That awakened being needs to be at a point, bounded in time and continuity. If the absolute is everything, who is being awakened and to what if its not just a dream.

Hold up… If I’m the only Being in existence, the one infinite I AM, then riddle me this: WHO. TF. BANGED HER BEFORE ME? 🤯💀 Be honest. Was it me? Some past-life version of me? An NPC running on backstory.exe? Did I, the All-Powerful Dreamer, consciously program my girl with a recycled body count just to humble myself? 😭 I mean seriously: What kind of dream writes the Dreamer as the third wheel in his own fantasy? You telling me I manifested her… …pre-looted? If this is my universe, then why am I not first in line for… well, anything?! Why am I still in line?! 😤 Why does her ex still exist in her memories — without my permission?! --- Now I’m spiraling: Did I accidentally dream a reality that gaslights me? Am I into self-inflicted emotional cucking? Or is this a divine kink I haven’t awakened to yet? And if everything is me… …does that mean I’ve been smashing myself in third person this whole time? 😳 --- Y’all don’t see the bug?? Solipsism was sounding cute until my girl said, “Oh yeah, I used to date this guy named Marcus.” …WHO TF IS MARCUS?! I don’t recall coding Marcus. I don’t remember giving him my place in the timeline. So is Marcus real? Or just trauma I scripted to add flavor to the illusion? Either way — I demand a refund from God… …oh wait. That’s me too. 😐 --- Final thought: If Solipsism is true… ...why does it feel like I'm living in someone else's dream? And why does she remember more than I do? Go ahead. Break me. Enlighten me. Or tell me I am Marcus.

The picture of an awakened person is one of a person with opened eyes. I feel like this is a depiction for those who want the gooddies but dont want to do the practice.

Each core pillar is huge, but I think shame-avoidance might be the biggest. Just to demonstrate how shame-avoidance works, using conspiracy theories as an example: "The Shame-to-Conspiracy Pipeline Conspiracy theories medicate shame through several mechanisms: 1. Transformation into special knowledge - The shame of being "ignorant," "left behind," or "unsuccessful" transforms into being one of the few who "sees the truth." You're not a failure; you're awakened. The shame of exclusion becomes the pride of insight. 2. Externalizing the cause - If you lost your job, your status, your sense of cultural relevance - that's shameful. But if a cabal of elites deliberately destroyed your industry to control you? Now you're a victim of evil forces, not a personal failure. The shame dissolves into righteous anger. 3. Retroactive meaning-making - Past humiliations and failures get recontextualized. That bankruptcy wasn't poor decisions; it was "them" keeping you down. That divorce wasn't personal inadequacy; it was "their" attack on traditional values. Shame transforms into evidence of persecution. 4. Community of the knowing - Shame isolates, but conspiracy theories create instant belonging with fellow "truth-seekers." You go from shamefully alone to proudly connected. Example: Someone whose small business failed during economic changes could face crushing shame - "I'm a failure, I couldn't adapt, I'm worthless." But if they believe globalist elites deliberately destroyed small businesses? The shame evaporates. They're not a failed businessperson; they're a warrior against the New World Order. Admitting error would re-activate shame, which is why counter-evidence is blocked. The conspiracy theory doesn't just distract from shame - it performs psychological alchemy, converting shame's poison into the medicine of purpose, belonging, and specialness." You can almost view conspiratorial thinking, Tucker Carlson, and many other right-wing figureheads as "shame-regulation technology".

That which appears to awaken: never awakened. Nothing is asleep everything is wide awake aliveness.

I think you can intuit that it’s real. By hearing “awakened people” speak you can pick up on authenticity, sensing that they’re genuinely coming from a place of, let’s say, no self, in contrast to others who speak from a place of self. This intuition can be developed, I think it’s related to your degree of openness, how dense your self is. But ideally you wanna confirm it in your own direct experience Also, what you consider “real” is anything with a limit. So if you adopt the idea that awakening is real, you can’t help but to put it into a category of “something”, “an experience”, like everything else, although an unique one. Awakening might not fit into that definition of “real”, because it transcends limitations.

Is awakening even real. I believe being "Awakened" is a spiritual fantasy. Rather, we are awakening. Because we are all human beings, we make mistakes, make bad decisions, blunder, etc. We all slip up. I believe you have to first define what awakening is for you. Mine is reaching a level where you no longer idenitfy with your thoughts and feelings. You don't carry around that emotional baggage with you. You do this effortlessly throughout the days. But I make no claims that I've completely dissovled my ego. So before you ask, "Is Awakening Even Real?" What does Awakening look like to you? I'm curious.

Many many posts on the forum regarding awakening. Judging those on the path. Judging what we talk about as a 'measure if how awake you are'. 'Awake people wouldn't do this, or that, or whateverthefuck' 'Why ask this' 'Who is asking?' Just stop. You are going the opposite way - union is the goal If you have been doing the work for a time, you know it is a journey. You are the process. This is a hugely underrated video from Leo (get ready for the old-school Zen-stick Leo). I personally revisit this one often. If anyone has glossed over this once or missed it entirely - or resisted it (You should look into that :P) I highly recommend it. Newbies, veterans, awakened... one of the images will resonate. Enjoy:

I'm not saying I go around saying experience is an illusion and therefore this food I'm eating for breakfast before I go visit my family is not happening so I sit there and do nothing since experience is an illusion. This stuff cannot be actualized and practiced and be consciously chosen. It is that very fact why experience seems to exist in the first place. It is it's own 'being' but a person comes in and says they're having an experience. It is not your experience, it is just experience. I'm just pointing that out when I say that. There's an I here so I'm not denying my own experiences. I'm not expecting you to do anything in this regard because you can't because you're not doing or having an experience in the first place to do or not do something about. It's just forum talk that means nothing and denied by a me who seeks meaning and purpose and saying experience is an illusion doesn't add anything to that, it takes away. It's the only reason why it's not attractive to you to hear that. "I have awakened" seems like a more attractive thing to entertain for the me so it comes on a forum and advertise it to the other me's it created and imagined and tell them it awoke to Solipsism while having a never-ending discussion about it to the others that aren't there. You need to awaken to insanity, not solipsism.

He has awakened to feeling inferior and incomplete - so to feel better/bigger/superior/a man WE MUST SQUASH OTHERS

No, the dream is in and out of it's own dream. It gets a taste of reality which is nothing but it keeps on dreaming by concepting and ideaing and arguing with people on forums to maintain itself. If it didn't along with all the other normal human things it does, it would just be nothing. Pure energy, it doesn't want that so it keeps on trucking and dreaming up experience and direct experiencing itself into thinking it has awakened when the truth of the matter is it is deep sleep, being - being someone that awakened and is arguing with princess on a forum. Nothing is actually happening - literally. This isn't youtube talk and nonduality bullshit it learnt from yt this is deep sleep yapping away as a lucid dream, and it knows this not from knowledge but something its also being and that is intuition. Something knows this, but it's not a knowing, it's an unknowing. Like it retreats back into itself because it can, as it can be anything as it is unlimited and free. Experience is an illusion. It cannot experience itself.

Meh. Just more rage bait. Have fun engaging if you want but it's not gonna go anywhere useful. Not sure why you feel the need to come here and preach anyways OP. If you really knew what's up, why would you care to at all? Why haven't you just logged off, ay? Now you're going to waste your time here debating. What's it about OP? But yes- everyone besides you doesn't know the truth. Everyone else isn't awakened like you!! They're just nonsense!! So obvious something isn't quite right with you, mate. But these words won't do anything will they! So good luck with that and may you have a nice evening.

What have you awakened to and what have you awakened from?

It's simple. I have awakened, and when I see people that say things that aren't awakening, it's easy to spot. Like when someone is telling you bullshit on any other subject you have expertise in, you can tell. I don't need to be able to see the world through someone else's eyes to know they have a fake awakening. When someone is talking about how you don't exist, you don't even have any experience, there's nothing to do and nowhere to get, it doesn't take a Ph.d to realize they're just blindly believing nondual teachers on YouTube. I cannot stop laughing at how this wouldn't be obvious to you.

I didn't want to go to a specific thing like chakras or daemons. I know that it creates conflicts since it's like a religion. As I mentioned in my initial post, I know that nothing of all of it is real from an awakened point of view. But in this duality there might be things that actually exist but are hidden to the normal eye. Beside chakras there are also those stories about Atlantis and some chronicles of whatever. Until now, I've always smiled about it. But maybe I'm wrong. And that's what I want to find out. Either through the direct experience of others telling me what the know or ... I just need to find out by myself and try Ayahuasca again

I never said you didn't have an awakening. The only awakening that can take place is the dream awakening to itself. NOTHING, which is God/Absolute/All there is, cannot awaken to itself because it is everything. "Awaken to" is duality, which is not really happening but only to an observer. The person that was born and will die is the one that awakened, it actually didn't awaken it fell asleep. Now it's awake again without the substance.

Replace the I AM dream with God and it is so. Everything else is just nothing being everything including your awakening. It's the dream of separation which is also the dream of I AM. I AM is all there is in that reality and that is Solipsism. There is only the I AM to itself. Without the I AM there is only what is, being. Look into every nook and cranny of what you said and that's the construction of the I AM to a tee except the God forgetting who it is part. God didn't forget anything you are remembering as the dream. The dream is storytelling to itself. The dream has awakened to itself, but it doesn't realize it's a dream.

And by that I mean Awakened with a capital 'A' Not a glimpse Please no spiritual narcissism or boasting I am asking sincerely

Jesus is just the shortened Je suis, I am, That, I am. It's not a french perfume brand. The man Jesus was the awakened I am as the name infers. Christianity is an optional extra.

Welp. Guess I’m fully awakened now because I have zero fear of death since being saved by Jesus. In fact I kinda look forward to it now. No amount of self realization was able to do that for me. It was all Jesus

One can't get around this condition, and neither is it wrong nor negative, though we might tacitly believe otherwise. Rather than treating it as ignorance to be avoided, we should recognize that such dismissal reflects our cultural relationship with "knowledge" itself. It is the source of knowledge, learning, insight, and creativity - the closest thing we have to direct consciousness. Consider the contrast between ourselves and someone like Gautama, who was presumably "fully awakened." What does that contrast reveal about us? Do we truly grasp everything there is? At present, we are not in touch with the nature of anything - and we might not even be aware of that yet! It has to be experienced deeply. And this, paradoxically, is a powerful place to stand. Not sure where I'm going with that, but it may be of some use.

This post is not out of arrogance or showboating but for the possibility that there are other beings out there besides myself who have not awakened. First of all, I have realized for some time now that I am God, however, parts of me weren't still convinced. If I am God, why live this human life? I used to believe that I could imagine better lives than the one I lived, but I was wrong. Many people believe this. If God is all-loving, why create this life of suffering? Tonight I asked myself this question: If God wants and only creates the best for himself, how could God get himself to act against his best interest? By convincing himself others exist. If God is infinite and everything, there can't be another besides himself. He is aware of this, but if he fooled himself into believing that others existed and he was a finite identity, then he could fool himself into wanting something other than the best infinitely possible thing AKA infinite love. Now God creates humans who believe in all sorts of BS about what they are, but as long as they identify as something finite, they will have bias towards something finite. That something finite is less and against the best interest of an all-conscious infinite being. Why wish for some puny pleasure as a human, when God could create infinite love? Because they are biased against other things which they believe to be different from themselves. When someone believes something to be different or separate from themselves, they now may fear that thing, because they are fooled into thinking it can threaten their false identity. But of course, you are God, and you cannot be killed or die. But God has convinced himself of this so that he can play a game with himself for all eternity. In this life, everything that happens is perfect and is in your best interest. You can either awaken to the fact that everything is planned perfectly by God so you can awaken back to being him, or you can deny this and keep living in your false finite fearful identity. Anxiety stems from fearing that all is not going to be okay. But, in fact, everything is going perfectly, and there's nothing you need to do to make that happen. MUCH LOVE TO EVERYONE EDIT: Fun quote i just had: Everything I ever feared became ways that helped me to awaken.