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This topic of masturbation is bothering me these days as I'm trying to figure out the perfect lifestyle that resonates with me . Not all the information I will be giving here is confirmed by modern science. .but modern science is not perfect in my opinion and is limited to the material pradagim..and completely igoners spirituality and reilgions and metaphysics. According to eastern religions..especialy Hinduism(the oldest religion to ever exist ) there exist energy centers in your body called "chakras". 7 chakras .the root chakra(The sex centre).the sacral chakra .the solar plexus chakra .the heart chakra .the throat chakra. And the third eye chacrka. When your chakras are closed. You are asleep. Which means you are stuck in "maya" or illusion . The dream world of endless attachments and aversions .how you wake up to the truth?!..by opening your chakras. And this happens through sexual transmutaion .by rising your sexual energy (which Is life energy itself) up your chakras until the third eye. And when the third eye is open ..you discover the ultimate truth. Which is that the self is an illusion .The world is a dream. Your true nature is infinite unconditional and immortal awarness. You are god himself! . Now ..its impossible to achieve enlightenment if you waste your"virya " -semen.which is the sacred life giving energy inside of you.you have to preserve it and transumate it by mediation and yoga so you can achieve "nirvana"- the ultimate bliss. Semen retention is the first step towards achieving the goal of life itself . Either you use your semen to connect with your soul mate and create new life. Or you retain it to grow on every aspect. I want to know once and for all..is masturbation actually healthy and good for you or not ?

Had an unexpected experience while walking the dog. Let me try to put it into words: I was there. It was me and now, and I was consciousness. There was no division in my experience. My sense of self disappeared and yet I was there. Before the event, there was radical openness. I was simply "holding" the question of my nature in no particular form. There was also an unprecedented sense of freedom and bliss. The state of openness remained throughout the experience. It was profoundly beautiful. The aftereffect lasted for about two hours. I'm avoiding hype and misrepresentation as best as I can. Thoughts? Help me clarify what went on, if you will.

This knowledge comes from the Golden Chain of the Naqshbandi Order Dear reader, this is the most important message you have received in your life up to now. While writing this message, we assumed that you would have only reached a conclusion after reading the entire message. This text has been carefully put together so that the common reader can understand this extremely difficult subject with relative ease. Take your time. The following key points are addressed in this text: -The Coronavirus -Vaccinations -Nanobots / Chemtrails -Mind control -Weather manipulation by means of HAARP -Djinns / satans / shaytaan of the fourth dimension -The false phenomenon of enlightenment -The third eye / pineal gland as an instrument of the false messiah / antichrist / mesih ad-dajjal -The deceptive technique "Law of attraction" -The second coming of the real Messiah Jesus / Al Mesih Isa ibn Maryam -The Sunnah of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon Him) for protection against the fitna of dajjal " Oh, surely the friends of Allah have nothing to fear, nor shall they grieve." (Surah Yunus 10 verse 62) This text can be perceived as urgent. This is true in some respect, but that does not mean that you can sit back and take the time to study this information. If you have eyes to see and ears to hear, you will have noticed that the world is no longer what it used to be, and that it is changing very quickly. There are many different opinions and interpretations about the current status of the world with regards to the Coronavirus and everything related to it. We are convinced that there is much more going on in the background than a simple virus that has turned the whole world upside down. We will not withhold any information from you and we are straight to the point from the start. We live in the end times, which means there are going to be many drastic changes in the world. The start of these drastic changes is the CORONAVIRUS. The Coronavirus originates from the world of the jinns / satans (the fourth dimension). The Coronavirus is the FIRST SIGN OF THE DAY OF JUDGMENT. DABBAT UL ARD. The virus comes from the jinns / satans in order to further and more thoroughly realize their plans. This virus is a cause for many consequences that the world will experience. To finally complete the arrival of the ANTICHRIST aka AL MESIH AD DAJJAL. Who will declare himself as god from JERUSALEM. Before the antichrist can come to earth to declare himself "god", he will have to convince all mankind of his so-called status. This is the plan that he and Iblis and all of the satans have been working on for over a thousand years. They have access to four dimensional technologies. With these technologies they have an enormous influence in our current world. They greatly influence our thinking, beliefs, actions and deeds. They have achieved this by infiltrating all aspects of our lives, from the food we eat to the type of music we listen to and what entertainment we seek out. From the education system to the workplace. And even the air we breathe. They long for total control over the masses, control over how we think, what we eat, what we see, in short, the satans want control over all our senses, and especially control over our brain. They have already succeeded to a large extent. And the Corona virus will contribute a great deal to this; which silences us in many areas and takes away our normal rights. The whole world can now be easily steered in the direction the shaytaan/satans want. We warn You of the vaccinations being forced on all of humanity, which are going to prepare the human brain for total submission to their plan. let's talk a little bit about our basic need; air / oxygen: Our air has been sprayed for decades with nanobots and ultra-fine (nano) particles of metals (such as aluminum, strontium) and toxic substances by means of so-called chemtrails. These penetrate our body very easily and make the brain and its way of thinking docile, dependent, accommodating and naive. But more importantly make the body an antenna for very dangerous frequencies / mind control. Vaccinations are brimming with nanobots (billions) that will take over the heart and brain. The heart is sabotaged and manipulated. Many nanobots are stationed at strategic locations in the heart and brain to send signals, frequencies and electrical impulses. With the pure purpose of mind control. In order to whisper thoughts into the brain (these come from the world of the jinns), and to make these thoughts / whisperings seem as if they come from the HEART, with the result that the individual is completely manipulated to be convinced that these thoughts belong to oneself. The heart is much more than an organ. The heart is where Allah is. The whole plan of dajjal is to bypass the heart and its FEELINGS / REALIZATIONS and make the brain (and the third eye) master of the heart. This bypassing is accompanied by thoughts / logic that resembles a feeling but is in fact a thought from the brain. So in addition to forcing artificial and unnatural thoughts, the heart and its feelings and realizations are IMITATED. These signals that the nanobots receive and send come from the fourth dimension, the nanobots themselves are from the third dimension but they are designed by the jinns and receive assignments from the jinn world (the fourth dimension). NANOBOTS / NANOMATERIAL / NANO DUST / ULTRA FINE PARTICLES is in our food, in the air, and can also be carried in large numbers with weather conditions such as snow/blizzard or hail, these weather conditions are manufactured by highly advanced technology (HAARP). This means that this is artificial snow or hail. This kind of snow or hail remains intact for a very long time without melting. An example of this is the last snowstorm in early February 2021 in Western Europe. It was fabricated snow that did not contain water. Artificial snow does not contain water because nanobots and nanodust cannot withstand direct contact with water. Nanobots are very small, making it necessary to use a means of transport such as these weather conditions. By means of these manufactured blizzards, loads of nanobots can be transported to a specific place to target someone. They call this a "targeted individual". Or, for example; to flood a certain place in the world with nanobots. Nanobots contain very advanced technologies and are largely autonomous and can repair each other at a nanoscopic level and even build new nanobots from the nanomaterial, they can also perform certain tasks by through these frequencies/signals. These nanobots are made to enter an individual's body and to create havoc, but especially to make humans an antenna / receiver for signals and frequencies (these extremely low frequencies can also cause diseases and ailments such as cancer in the human body e.g. by mutating cells). These frequencies and signals come from cell towers and satellites. The bandwidth used is different from that we use for cellphone contact or internet. This technology originated in the fourth dimension and the jinns from the fourth dimension can use these transmission masts and cellphone towers as a portal / opening for their own frequencies and signals. This with the main goal of mass mind control and mass brainwashing. We live in a time where mass censorship is the norm. We live in a time where one is constantly influenced by the satans (jinns of the fourth dimension), a time where one has no opinion of his own and can think for himself, but belongs to a GROUP MENTALITY. This is exactly what iblis and dajjal want to make their plan work. We assure you that this plan will fail. The plan is to proclaim the FALSE MESSIAH as god on Earth, and to sabotage the heart of every individual to stop being able to distinguish the truth from falsehood. To create a false enlightenment in everyone so that one thinks that nirvana / eternal pleasure / bliss will come to Earth and that good and bad do not exist. That good deeds and bad deeds will both lead to enlightenment. So that no matter what you believe, no matter what norms and values you have, everyone has to accept each other for the choices they make, no matter how blasphemous and scandalous they are. This plan goes in conjunction with mainstream media and mega corporations. These are controlled by individuals with increasingly higher functions (pyramid system). Each time they in turn receive assignments from someone in a higher rank, those assignments ultimately come from the "elite". These are SATANISTS, whom have sold their souls for a small price. They in turn receive assignments from the fourth dimension or the world of the satans / jinns. This is a hierarchy that has existed for over a thousand years, and has been working on the dajjalic master plan for over a thousand years. his mission is to impersonalize the real MESSIAH. THE REAL MESSIAH IS JESUS / AL MESIH ISA IBN MARYAM (Peace be upon Him) who will come back to rectify his name. (The SECOND COMING of Christ). The false messiah / antichrist is a jinn who devised and executes this master plan from the fourth dimension, and who will eventually emerge in human form in the third dimension. The Holy Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon Him) said the following about this fitna (trial) in a hadith / tradition: "From the creation of Adam (Peace be upon Him) to the end of time there is no greater fitna than that of Dajjal." The Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon Him) has warned us of this, and has told us the following; "The dajjal (false messiah) will be blind in one eye, and between his eyes will be written Kaafir (denier)." You will have to interpret this literally. The dajjal in human form can be recognized by his left eye, the right eye is blind. The symbol of the ("all-seeing") eye can now be found everywhere in entertainment, such as music and movies. This is to prepare humanity for his coming. The "all-seeing eye" also has a deeper meaning; it stands for the third eye, or the pineal gland, which is an organ in the brain. This organ is calcified in 99% of humanity. The reason for calcification is the use of fluoride in our drinking water and toothpaste. Fluoride is very quickly attracted by the pineal gland, and fluoride in turn attracts calcium very quickly. The so-called "enlightened gurus" or "enlightened masters" all have an open third eye. These are FALSE PROPHETS. This third eye is also called "the seat of the soul". This is not the seat of the soul but a PORTAL / entrance to the fourth dimension or the dimension where the jinns / satans live. When this organ is decalcified, or "opened", the person comes into contact with the beings (satans / jinns) of the fourth dimension. This by means of visions, communication and four dimensional information that are, as it were, uploaded to the brain of that person. The phenomenon of "enlightenment" is nothing but a complete BLASPHEMY devised by satans to prepare humanity for the arrival of their leader: THE ANTICHRIST / DAJJAL / FALSE MESSIAH. Enlightenment is an artificial form of spirituality that goes against the will of Allah and is directed from the fourth dimension. The satans of the fourth dimension have very advanced technologies and simulations to send a lot of information to the third eye. This is a second way to sabotage humankind. For the non "spiritual" people there is a third form of blasphemy which prepares them for the coming of the false messiah; and that is the "LAW OF ATTRACTION" AKA MANIFESTATION. Law of attraction (manifestation) is by no means a law of the universe. It is a false technique of shaytaan / jinns of the fourth dimension and part of the fitna of dajjal. It prepares people to recognize themselves as god on earth and to believe that they themselves can manifest their destiny. The people who seem to succeed are helped (knowingly or mostly unknowingly) by these jinns of the fourth dimension to get certain things done, such as worldly success and wealth. The jinns can (even without the help of the aforementioned technologies) read people's thoughts, influence them and also whisper new thoughts. In this way they know the desires and wishes of the individual and will do everything they can to ensure that the "law of attraction" appears to be working. Our advice is: stay as far away from this fitna as possible. The first way to prepare people for the coming of the antichrist by means of / brainwashing / mind control: Placing billions of nanobots in humans so that one becomes an antenna for the four dimensional frequencies / mind control. This by means of food, air, vaccinations, medication, etc. The second way to prepare people for the antichrist: Making the path to enlightenment specious and worthwhile to them and subsequently making them open (decalcify) the third eye. As a result; the brain and with it the heart are hijacked, and it is very difficult for the person in question to escape this madness. The false messiah wants to make the world completely sacrilegious before his coming, and make all of mankind believe in enlightenment. The third way to prepare for the coming of the false messiah: To convince people they can manifest their own destiny and life circumstances, and that they are themselves the cause of their success and sustenance(rizq). This by means of the false "law of attraction". This technique will make it easier for these people to walk the path of false enlightenment and self-centered behavior. Enlightenment is to take away the feelings of the heart, and make the brain master over the heart. To recognize himself/herself as a god on earth and to be convinced that this life is the only life there will be, without consequences for your actions. That there are no good or bad deeds and that everything is a game of the mind. That the world is an illusion and that it doesn't matter what you do or believe in. This is complete and total BLASPHEMY. The above three ways are each in preparation for the false messiah's coming and for recognizing him as a god on Earth. He will proclaim himself from Jerusalem as god on earth. To impersonalize the REAL MESSIAH Al Mesih Isa ibn Maryam. The real messiah will descend to kill the dajjal and to restore his name from all that has been told of lies about him. THE REAL MESSIAH ISA IBN MARYAM DOES NOT BECOME GOD ON EARTH AND IS NOT THE SON OF GOD. This whole situation and even worse calamities will come to the earth because humanity does not follow the Sunnah (way of life) of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon Him). And have denied the signs of Allah. To give some examples; Gold and silver has been replaced by electronic money. Working in Allah's name has been replaced by 9 to 5 slavery in the workplace for a "boss". Spiritual knowledge and heavenly knowledge has been replaced by worldly education. Blessed clothing such as the turban and headscarf prescribed by Allah (swt) has been replaced by modern jeans and shirts. The recitation of the Holy Quran has been replaced by music. And there are countless more examples that can be cited. These substitutions are against the will of Allah and these are signs of the end times. Anyone who lives in this society without any rebellion or counter-will is contributing to this unblessed modern world in which we live. After reading this text you may wonder what the solution is to all this = THE SUNNAH OF THE PROPHET MOHAMMED (Peace be upon Him); A simple but very important example is the making of Wudu (the ritual washing), this washing has much more meanings than just washing body parts, the water contains realities of angels that we cannot comprehend. Making wudu preserves your energy and protects against diseases and shaytaan (satan) that want to attack you. And protection against the frequencies. Using the Miswak / Siwak (Islamic toothbrush) daily as all the prophets did and especially the Holy Prophet Muhammad (saw) is more than just cleaning the teeth and cleaning your speech. It is a way of grounding yourself from evil energies and electromagnetic frequencies being sent to your head and heart. Wearing a ring with Aqeeq (agate) protects you from the fitna of dajjal and ground and protects your heart and energy. The use of Musc (black musk) is to scare the bad jinns and to protect yourself against these frequencies. The Asaa (walking stick) is a way to ground yourself from these electromagnetic energies and frequencies. The Habbat Sawda (black seed oil) is to protect your skin from these frequencies so that it is more difficult to enter your body. And internally it will fight the diseases. All the Sunnahs of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (saw) are a protection against the fitna of dajjal with infinite wisdom and blessings that Allah has put into it. Sayyidina Muhammad (saw) was sent as a mercy to all mankind from Allah the one god. His Sunnah / way of life is therefore applicable to every age, and to every kind of fitna / trial, not just the fitna of dajjal. As it says in the Holy Quran: ‘And declare, “The truth has come and falsehood has vanished. Indeed, falsehood is bound to vanish.”’ Surah Al-Isra 17 verse 81) The ultimate peace and blessings to the Holy Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon Him). May the one god Allah protect you.

Yes, of course, but that's still not the same as omniscience. Omniscience is more than self-realization. It's knowing every single thing within the game. Every useless fact. I thought that's what he meant. But again that's not omniscience. I've had many "expanded awareness" experiences with euphoria, bliss, sudden big realizations, sudden understanding of concepts, but I never knew every fact about life, so I could never claim to have experienced omniscience. @Leo Gura is there a more accurate word, or do you really mean "knowing everything there is to know in existence, including everything outside your own direct experience / perspective"? I may not be within Leo's experience right now, but if I flew to his house tomorrow, the information about me right now would have a direct impact on Leo's experience tomorrow. Information about me right now would be processed within Leo's reality, even though I'm not real to him. If I was planning to do something bad to him, and I'm on the road travelling to his house, even though I'm not in his experience, the facts surrounding my actions are within his experience, and will have real consequences.

@Inliytened1 @Inliytened1why was my Absolute Solipsism awakening the most terrifying experience of my entire life? Like I've had these minor awakenings where I felt the Love etc. But Absolute Solipsism was maddening.. didn't feel this eternal Bliss at all

No it's because your work here is not done in this dream. When it's done you will once again become God in its fullness. Only then will you dream again but you will forget everything again. You see the problem with being Infinity is you cannot escape yourself. All you can do is realize yourself over and over again for eternity. And that is infinite Love. You being yourself and realizing that you are God is eternal bliss - so you recreate this realization to eternity.

yes it is obviously problematic for some but for me is not an issue as i want my partner's greatest fulfillment that is perfectly acceptable and understandable and highly possible ... if with another is where their heart and bliss lies, then that is an expedient development how does one limit and proscribe love and deep attraction? do you enjoy the same meat and vegetables every night?

Just follow your bliss man I once came across a comment of Abraham Hicks I liked, it went something like this 'look at you no longer trying to control things, because you understand the universe has an infinite number of ways to bring you what you want. Wisdom looks good on you'

agreed with @Osaid its mostly metaphorical . Although, doesnt seem to prevent the terror from getting through! According to this, I am sooo going to burn in eternal hell :-D But Also maybe whatever you believe becomes your next dream? and perhaps only when you awaken yourself, you recognise yourself as god and then get lost in the eternal bliss and love.. Just a thought.. !

At this time, nothing resonates with me more than the focus on allignment. In other words this could also be more or less translated as just being yourself, as you are/following your bliss/going with the flow. You can make it your work to just allign your thoughts and actions with what resonates most with you/is most you. Via that approach you start thus to allign more and more with your own design, and thus come more and more into the expanded space of what is you. If you try to make things happen, you train away from your own inner guidance system and your own design. My approach: don't try to make life happen, relax, support yourself emotionally/be there for yourself and expand your comfort zone by stepping more into your passion/attraction when those oppurtinities arise.

Insights this week Spirituality has many aspects. Some of these aspects are Morality and conscience The state of bliss. I'll call this the Blissful Awakening Charity or giving back to the universe Serving the divine order(creating a great place) To achieve blissful awakening there are many roads or ways These are Serious contemplation work Spiritual practices of meditation Worship of God or Bhakti method Eternal Romance(strong romantic attraction and love) Detachment and nihilism Melancholic poetic state (acceptance of sorrow) Deep introversion(introverted state) Psychedelics and alcohol like drugs that produce euphoria Three major aspects guide life and the universe on a deeper level Divine Masculine (part of Romans ) Divine Feminine (part of Samaritans ) Divine wisdom (part of Acutians) There are body parts associated with these 3 aspects (or tools) The Soul/conscience(divine Masculine ) The heart (divine feminine) The wisdom center(divine wisdom) How do we take care of these 3 parts Taking care of the Soul/conscience and spirit Align these parts to Divine Masculine and embody the divine Masculine in these parts Taking care of the intellect(the crown chakra) and heart and the subconscious mind Align these parts to Divine feminine and embody the divine feminine in these parts Taking care of the wisdom center Align these parts to Divine wisdom and taming of the heart and intellect

Another entry, for this forum alone: The idea of fulfilling one's desires in life, I have found, to definitely be a pre-requisite before any focused enlightened endeavor. After listening to two audiobooks that happened to center around the masters of Himalayas, I was reminded how deep consciousness can expand into. I have always longed to retreat into some kind of monastery, and the better it would be, if I was taught by great masters. Masters who have realized beyond many physical limitations. But, this idea, I have finally realized is far too lofty for me to undergo at this time. Perhaps, even within this life (though I am not so sure of that conviction...). During the winter I decided to stop doing any creative works, after finishing my fledgling video game "World Tree". During these meditations I definitely found (and continue to find) a profound sense of bliss and perfection. And yet, most days my mind would wander into ideas of material advancement. "Will I ever afford a house?" "Maybe, I would enjoy the experience of a family?" "Will my creative works ever give me an income?" "What do I need to focus on in order to become someone who makes an impact within the world?" (or if not the world, at least the internet!! HA! Ha!) These questions would arise even when I attempted to convince myself I was done looking for anything other than Enlightenment. My meditation was just simply not becoming any deeper or more profound than it already was. Thus, the futility in the idea I would ever make a good monk, at the moment. Work has to be done, and I am glad I was able to realize that by posting about my struggles in a more inquisitive way on this very forum (instead of usually being the one with the answers). For of course, I see many questions of which I know the answer to. Absolutely know, and without doubt, because I have already gone through the experience the questioner is struggling with. But, for ways to make an income? I have no answer as of yet. Only many suggestions. So after talking with Consept (member of this forum), the pendulum of my life swung to the opposite extreme and I had completely forgotten all my mindfulness work up until that point. I was filled with so much energy I didn't know what to do with it, and my mind was in a haze from lack of focus on my energy body. Yet, I was able to create many things during this time, and garner ideas of what I could do to improve my work. I came up with several animations: I also decided to do some quick informative videos: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtifZ23cZn_gyMGMnHryHsQ As well as record several podcasts: https://anchor.fm/auramystica Along with a bit of writing: https://jaronfund.com/phoenix-tome/ You may give me your opinion, so I can improve my work. I am not so sure what will allow me the most success, so I still find myself exploring a variety of content. Though definitely, I feel as though I need to focus on my animations and podcast the most for whatever reason. It has also been challenging to realize that perhaps more research of trends will be needed, and ways to attract more people to my content. As well, difficult to see how poor my animation/video quality is compared to the more popular content out there. I trust I no longer have to delete anything from embarrassment. All that i have to do, is make the next piece of content better than before. All I can do is what I know to do in the moment. I am glad now, that i have begun my regular meditation practice again. Focusing on my energy body whenever I can, as well as sitting for several hours a day. Rhythm has certainly compensated the extremity of my recent experiences. I also had one of the greatest lucid/astral dreams I have ever had in awhile when I begun this journey. An ET like lady caressed me, and pulled me out of my body into an enchanted tree. I felt as though, this entirely new dimension I found myself in, was created for me and because of me. As though, there was some kind of future cult that found my work most useful (hard to imagine that as being real.) I will continue to find ways of improving my work, if at all possible. And then, perhaps I will be able to finally afford that house. Certainly if I succeed, I will stop posting these journals. I am 33 years old. 33 being the master builder number, gives me some sense of balance in the process. "One step thou has gained on the long pathway upward, infinite now is the mountain of Light. Each step thou taketh but heightens the mountain; all of thy progress but lengthens the goal. Approach ye ever the infinite Wisdom, ever before thee recedes the goal. " - Thoth the Atlantean

@mojsterr fuck dmt man. you dont get bliss if you push harder you just get more directionless chaos and terror haha. fuck that. what your talking about (pushing through the terror till the breakthrough to get to bliss) is 5meo. Ive never had a good experience with DMT really...unless i take 150mg MDMA an hour before hand. Im off all psychs atm, need to build my egoic existence a bit before i tear it to shreds (which i still very much intend to do).

@mojsterr Perhaps a memory and feelings from a past life that you need to integrate before you can really feel that bliss. You may wanna try MDMA.

Hi, the ACC FB group seems pretty hostile to the provoked urine test, can anyone direct me to how I can interpret it? The lab analysis seems quite useless. I've taken the equivalent of a round of DMSA 25 at once, sampled it over the next two days while also directly doing my first round. I've done all the research and all the symptoms are there, mostly cognitive. Side effects during and off round were there, mostly sluggishness, intense tiredness, but also glimpses of euphoria and bliss. So i'll definitely keep doing it. If anyone has experience it would be greatly appreciated. Seems like Aluminum (72 ug/g), Chrome (0.9ug/g), Nickel (4.54 ug/g) are high, not sure about the Mercury (1.1 ug/g). Thanks Leo for sharing this stuff, and anyone who can help.

Is it useful to describe this in human language? Is your purpose to get intellectualized understanding or to achieve liberation? If you are not filled with bliss, then you didn’t get it. The mind has no power to make itself disappear and anything told to it just becomes another category, intellectualized distortion, or imagined fear (e.g., “solipsism”). Zen makes more sense. There is limited talking and an enlightened master gives you instructions on what to practice next.

Have you ever experienced DP? I have. And i have also experienced awakening to no self. They are almost identical with the exception with raw DP you do not become Awareness itself..or Consciousness itself. (Aka God)You are depersonalized but instead of a shift in identity there is simply no identity. So it's a rather depersonalized experience no pun intended. There is no bliss. There is no Divinity or no Love. But so it's like enlightenment without enlightenment so to speak. When you do awake you will experience a type of DP + God realization. You guys might disagree but I have experienced both.

Existential Ecstasy. Bliss beyond words, there are no struggles.

Understanding IS the ultimate Bliss. If you were to become totally omniscient you would also realize Absolute Love, and Yourself as God. Only awakening proper will do here and I would second @Michael Jackson here and leverage all the tools available to you for awakening. This will allow you to awaken to no self, Infinity, Love. You said you did but if you did you would have died and thus you would no longer have any questions about death. The pbysical body is imagined along with pnysical death. When you directly realize the self is an illusion it dies and you brcome God. There never was physical death. Death is a concept just as the small self is a concept. There can only be the falling away of concepts because all is Mind.

This is a big question, but the one biggest thing that I'd say helped (then again there are many), is look into the outlook of stocism. Get comfortable with imperfection and not quite the way you'd like. Embrace a little soreness, backache, fatigue, disapointment. Get comfortable or at least understanding/more relaxed about that neighbor or dog that keeps barking outside. Once you see that the neighbor and the dog barkin outside are not different than the sounds/feelings/thoughts of "ego" supposedly inside your head/body, you may see it that its possible to relax if its there, or at-least appears to be there. Also let go of expectations and beliefs that something else should be happening like bliss or non-ending comfort. This is just a distraction, a longing that in the end you may find is just creating a discomfort, which funny enough is the opposite of the very comfort your wanting.

For siloed consciousness (i.e. you as a human), physical pain happens whenever you push closer to the boundary of self. Pain lets you know where those boundaries are. For example, in the movie The Truman Show, Truman's emotional pain massively increased the closer he got to escaping the dome. A hand held over a flame for long enough will be maximally painful because pretty quickly it will no longer be a hand, and eventually it will burn away into nothing at all. Physical pain is only troubling to the individual, and only as long as the individual believes itself to be there. From a higher consciousness, physical pain is on the same ontological level as a chair, a table, an oak tree, or a cloud passing in the sky. It is possible to observe pain from the outside, and react to it as you might react to a cloud passing in the sky. It is within everyone's grasp to experience this phenomenon directly with strong-determination-sitting meditation (SDS). Actually, SDS can completely recalibrate your sense of what it means to suffer by enormously increasing your emotional and physical pain tolerance. In so doing, if kept up, then eventually (and inevitably) it leads to total bliss, total love, total compassion. Suicide is pointless. You'll just find yourself somewhere else, and you'll have to deal with all of this again (and again, and again). No fear, enlightenment eventually comes to everyone. EDIT: Just realised this thread goes back to 2018...

Contemplation with a journal will generate more insights than you can integrate. Watch out for the trap of getting frustrated because you can't integrate what you realized. Begin with the topics Leo offered in the video to start training your introspection muscle. Then go more into the direction of identity, perception and choice. When you contemplate rather than thinking about things, meditate on a question. Focus on your awareness. Focus on the tranquil water. Something will arise from the depths of your awareness and give form to a sentence. You feel the form and know immediately what thoughts describe that. You know the validity of these thoughts by looking at your direct experience. Do that and you will download stuff you never knew. Watch out for the trap of believing to be brilliant because you are generating these insights. No, you are only a transistor for the insights. Rather than getting frustrated because of cutting it dead in one moment and being lost again, better just stay in the present and focus on what you do. You do to come to the breath every time when you are noticing a thought. Only that. There are no judgemental thoughts of past meditation needed. Funny enough, letting go of these judgemental thoughts will skyrocket your practice. It's like a self-steering ship. The difference between expanded and contracted times in meditation is there for you to know what you don't want. Expansion and contraction are, like unity and division, always oscillating. That's a feature of limitation. Just stay at it. Only when you look back at notes of how your meditation went from months ago, then you'll be able to see the improved quality of your practice. How are you bringing your meditation into every day life? Do you notice that you can better choose the reality you want to experience? You'll see the extent of these questions when you are in an expanded state of consciousness, like in shamanic breathing or on psychedelics. The questions then hit more home and you see the impact of them more clearly. It's like dropping a stone into water while sober and only noticing that it's gone. Then you can also do the same on psychedelics and see the extent of it. The ripple effects of the stone are quite literally the ripples and waves of the water. In an expanded state you'll see the ripple effect of these questions more clearly because you have access to more holistic perception. Use expanded states like a telescope: You want to spot a planet and use a telescope for it. After looking through it, you can take a step back and find the planet with your eyes because you know where to look. You know where to focus on in meditation & self-inquiry. That's also the case for contemplation. Notice that you get frustrated when you believe the thought "I am not improving". It is entirely optional to get an emotion because of a thought. When you notice that you don't feel good & suffer because of the thought, then just cut it dead like in meditation. The fact is that "I am improving" is more so the case because you came here to ask In general, expand your requisite variety. Get more different experiences of spiritual practices. And don't only limit yourself to shamanic breathing or psychedelics. Explore and notice what works for you. Perhaps yoga is your bliss, who knows. All the best.

Trip that started with people and material reality disintegrating like holograms and hearing "none of this is real" led me to looking back at the world from Gods perspective and realizing the "truth" is extremely lonely when you realize you are the only real thing in the universe. Went from beyond bliss for 95% of my journey and my desire for the truth kept me going until I reached the end. The aloneness was more real than anything I've ever felt. Even though I knew the characters in the dream were not real I didn't want to hurt them by not coming back. Very similar to the girl in the dream from Infinity Chamber. When I finally started coming back in and out of material reality I realized that the ego was simply a protection mechanism to make this life more real and meaningful. It’s like an anti-virus program meant for a positive purpose but can also get a little out of control. Has anyone else experienced similar insights?

I have accessed my core before...without even meditation and was filled with a ridiculous amount of bliss and unconditional love. What I discovered is what the spiritual teachers teach is true...we are literally bliss and unconditional love and we block it from ourselves. We can access it at anytime and the kicker is....you don't have to meditate or use any drug to access it. You literally can just choose to experience it....AND YOU WILL.

LSD+MDMA+Nitrous produced a stillness and bliss in me so profound it was almost too much to handle