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You should check out this vid/YT channel. She was part of what awakened some of my psychic/spiritual abilities and connections to higher consciousness beings. I imagine her advice could really be the start to getting in touch with this stuff for yourself.

it is a pleasure and privilege to join this forum. I am so pleased to announce that my inner self recently rejected the ego machinery that has kept me unconscious for the last few years. Having chosen to be nothing and create life as a game in the mid 2000s , there were incredible and miraculous experiences experienced. over the last 5 or so years , I took a step back into an unconscious life. safe to say as I approached my late 30s (I'm 43 in 6 days), slowly the space for transformation closed up and meaning, fear and significance took over. I would say there was an event that I did not powerfully deal with, which was the passing of my father in August 2016 that was a turning point. luckily it was less of a challenge as I was blessed with the birth of a child at the end of November and that event made being unconscious just fine. all was great for a couple of years until the untrained ego machinery that runs the programming started to unravel quite significantly. with no conscious self involved, the primitive and limiting ego began struggling to make things work. the consequences were a marriage that was over in everything except title. living in separate parts of the house and just raising a daughter together. the ego continued to sabotage the plans that had been set by pushing for moving jobs and then not being satisfied and quitting said jobs. part of me that was conscious very rarely could see the machinery in action but no actions were taken to put my life plans back on the rails. when the lockdowns began in the UK, i was out of work for around 3 months. I found a new vice which was an online game that I began dedicating every waking moment to. to then make matters worse ( or exactly what was needed), through this online game, I managed to meet "the love of my life"in mid October. the human chemicals and machinery ran wild and we were addicted to each other like heroine addicts. she had a daughter and we discussed a life together. the only trouble was how to exit my current life. all my wealth, assets and fear of losing access to my daughter made the push for a quick divorce stall. by the end of January , my mistress, if I can call her that , was convinced that I would never leave my wife and I think decided to move on. from us permanently being joined at the hip on telegram and being in eachothers arms as often as we could, she lived 150 miles away, all contact was broken. in the realisation of that moment, something amazing happened. my self created identity completely unravelled and before I knew it, I was lost in a story of "intense grief". like a true drug addict, the withdrawal symptoms left my life void of any pleasure. I couldn't relate to my environment including my daughter. I went through fits of trying to contact her and initially she was receptive as she dealt with things on her side but eventually she had had enough of the intense neediness which is really the worst quality a partner can possess. a little light inside told me this was an opportunity to take control of my life. choose whether it was right to be in a marriage like this anymore. to get my career back on track and to awaken from this destructive slumber. within me was a sense of complete dissatisfaction around this ego based existence and this false construct of identity that had unravelled. initially on 26th January, I chose not to confront the inauthentic story regarding my relationship with Roo, while from a physical and mental perspective, she seemed the most compatible woman on every level I had ever met , I held onto the story that she had wronged me and abandoned me for someone else. that context around which I had set my belief system had me firmly trapped in the most intense grief and heartbreak I have ever experienced. from fits of despair and constant tears throughout the day , I chose to use exercise as therapy. that was all fine except there was not enough body to handle the level of exercise required to distract me from the despair. in the meantime I tried to push for a divorce too in case this would change Roo's mind. it didn't. the walls were closing in and all that existed was darkness. I was asleep. completely asleep. meditation and self hypnosis was the next fix, however, within the context of "the love of my life has abandoned me", the results were non consequential. it was only through confronting the lie, the lie that I had made up about my life and this situation and in fact my whole existence that finally created the space for something else to be possible. as a Buddhist may argue that any attachment outside ones self will lead to suffering and the conventional form of love, isnt true love. true love is unconditional. that is something I simply could not experience around Roo. I was completely addicted and was trapped in the human machinery. the ego led existence was in turmoil and disarray. something else is always possible... if you choose to see that your life is a construct and an interpretation of life which is not life. the big lie is the duality of having self being separate from the world. through this journey , I have discovered some amazing tools that I hope to share with anyone interested and this journal is mainly to chart my progress into acknowledging the wholeness and completeness of life , and also the wealth of resources out there. I am truly thankful and blessed to have met Roo, for not only is she true beauty wrapped in human form, but without her , I would not have opened this door into being awakened. I am at a stage where I can pray for her health, happiness and fulfillment and especially that she finds love in her life, someone that can be there for her and support her and love her and her beautiful child. I love you Roo, you saved me. you are my miracle and I acknowledge your immense strength, character and your delicious inner kindness and sensuality which I never knew could exist. I fell asleep at the wheel and you were the catalyst that led to my reawakening. I now am where I always dreamed to be... nowhere. I am who I always wanted to be...no one. my life has all the meaning I could hope for... it means absolutely nothing.

I agree with y'all. I don't believe he is fully awakened, never said so either, but still interesting to listen to. He even mentions in other videos that he has not reached a full awakening.

The Law of One gives profoundly convincing and almost intuitively obvious reasons for this. I highly recommend you look into it... It's more involved than anything I can explain here. Not presenting it as fact, just saying...take a gander at it. Aaron Abke has an amazing and fun intro series on it, on his YT channel. We're talking about an infinite universe of infinite intelligence -- rest assured, if ET's want to remain hidden, hidden they shall remain. If they didn't slowly open the minds of an unknowing civilization, the shock would cause major civil unrest and destabilization. If these beings/complexes have transcended time and space, distance is completely irrelevant. Positive, ultra-highly-developed multi-beings (merged via shared ego-death) may quarantine uninitiated planetary civilizations, so that other slightly-less-highly-developed negative beings/multi-beings don't enslave these civilizations (such as Earth). Supposedly, our planetary civilization is destined to become one of these multi-beings millions of years from now, if we don't kill ourselves before we become an awakened society. The Law of One calls these multi-beings "social memory complexes" -- all your memories and actions will eventually be known by the entire civilization, and our civilization can merge with other social memory complexes, and so on all the way to the infinite creator mind.

Well I am mostly speaking from my own experience. To put it into context, I was very happy last sommer. Felt like 24/7 ecstasy almost. Felt like I had awakened. "Thought" 'I' was "done", enlightened. I had a very deep 2cb trip in June. Yet, when winter came, from September-February, I was very very depressed. Worst period was October-January, just 3-4 months filled with suicidal thoughts almost every hour I was awake. Wasn't that far from actually doing it - when it was worst, I planned it deliberately, and almost followed through. I suffered a lot. Deepest pit of depression. Yet, when I look back now, at my suffering, at all my major suicidal depressions (3 now, last 3 winters in fact), I can only see them as humbling, teaching experience. I have managed to transform the suffering into deep healing, wisdom, greater self-knowledge and more appreciation for my shadow and for - in general - what it means to be human.

I have been working on the LP course and have been deeply contemplating my life purpose. I feel various events in my life point to my purpose is within investing. I am just not sure how it can be done consciously. I am sure the LP will answer this as I continue my work. I bought the LP to see if this is truly my calling or if it is ego or survival driving this. I've been reading various things on the Forum regarding investing and it seems that the consensus of those I follow is it is a get rich quick scheme and not creative. That nothing from investing is being creative that adds value or contributes to the world. As a longtime investor, I would agree in many aspects. I started investing when I was in the military back in 2004-2008 after earning extra money overseas. For over a decade, I was obsessed and identified myself with building wealth. I am not wealthy, but have done well. I was fired from my job as an analyst in 2017 due to a trading error. My firing was also due to my opposition of a poor performing product that was to be included in the model portfolios which I strongly apposed and every other member of the committee approved. This didn't sit well with my boss, and the trading error was an excuse to fire me. Good news though!!! It triggered my awakening and this has been the most amazing, beautiful thing to ever happen to me. It was the fork in the road to a path which is guiding me to the Truth. Since the start of my awakening, my attachment to money has dissolved. I used to put on a pedestal milestones of account values. I just hit one of them, but it didn't matter to me. I invested without restriction for a long time, but as I've awakened, this has changed. I am much more mindful of what I invest in, for instance, no oil companies, tobacco, etc. My 2020 performance was really life transforming which led me to the urge and feeling that I need to do this for others, not just me. To many people are under-served. I feel the financial services industry is loaded with people with massive egos (I was one of them ). I take the investing approach as being more of a business rather than ownership in paper. True ownership of a business, impacting lives all around. Some companies I've owned for over 10 years. The investment industry has much regulation (rightfully so) so creative power is limited. This is an issue if always had with the business. I work as a credit analyst now. I feel the organization is conscious, but the work is limited. I can do far, far more and it is time to move on. Perhaps helping no profits would be a niche for me. For an example, I guided a non-profit on how to sell their Bitcoin, they had no idea how to do it. I could manage portfolios with companies that have high consciousness values. This isn't new, but would be a way. Could it be just through conscious, deeply present interactions with clients along with a conscious investment philosophy? I've thought starting a YouTube channel and still might, but feel there are many out there but I feel most are low consciousness, click bait, talking up what they own type of Channels. There are many paths I outline here. By no means am I starting a business in investing now or perhaps ever. It depends what the Life Purpose Course result will be. I love the idea of spiritual teaching as I have healed from a lot of trauma from the military, but that's what Leo is for Right now, I am doing the LPC and contemplating this as a possible life purpose given my path thus far, skills, passion, and intuition. I just need to see if it is correct. Soooooo... Does a conscious investing Life Purpose exist?

@Inliytened1@ i can't remove the tag i just write my thoughts on the topic. Well yes there is no free will. There is suffering that happens to people and some people are able to wake up while some are not. I would say that brains don't play a role (unless a genetic freak) but rather the experiences someone has, the suffering that is experienced, the discovery of the right spiritual teaching at the right time, a willingness to stop the suffering and the basic intelligence to understand a simple teaching. Maybe it has more to do with luck after all that generates the desire and gives the right tools. I'm not an Eckhart Tolle funboy i just know that applying his books someone can awaken. Let's leave the deeper stages out, still awakening is powerful. It has to do with returning in the now and eventually living only in the now while deconstructing the ego bit by bit. It's basically meditating and self inquiring always or another way to put it only now from now on. How can someone not awaken when this is understood and there is the desire to awaken. It's just developing the ability to go meta on every emotion, thought, belief or ego games returning to the now. The i don't belong to the spiritually gifted people is an identity and a limiting belief that can be let go off by self inquiring. It's just the art of letting go everything and living in the now. This is what i experienced. This can become a way of living. I can't talk about psychedelics because my experience is small but glimpses didn't stay in the now after the high unless they do but this wasn't my experience. If i could trip i would. Maybe in the future. I feel the need to write this. I am not awakened. I was 10 years ago for 1 month and it was something unforgettable. My life was complicated that's why it was harder to sustain it. However trying to practice this only for one day recently was extremely effective. I do feel that i have a choice in the matter even if that means me finding out again that i am not real. In a sense i know this and just pretend that i don't.

Tho there is no end to personal development, there is a definitive point that limiting beliefs, grief, fear, insecurities, and shadow work as a whole reach an end. Where most of your experience will no longer be affected by any of it, it happens when you are fully developed and awakened. So follow your heart and keep working at it.

@BipolarGrowth nicely said but I don't 100% agree with the statement that a finite self cannot preserve goodness up to the human limit without it being super ego. I mean yes you will never be 100% selfless without accepting ABSOLUTELY everything...but then again the doing so would be, in the end, humanities undoing. (imo) ..humans are humans afterall.. I think when you have a society of all awakened beings I think it could flourish because all actions would be coming through the direct manifestation of the Godhead while still taking care to preserve survival. It is indeed, a delicate balance. Just my take. This is very advanced stuff

Just my 2 cents Head voice = ego, superego, and uncontrolled imagination Heart voice = awakened conscience and purified emotional center In spiritual sleep, conscience is buried in the subconscious.

TWO AND ONLY TWO PATHS-------------------------------------------UC's response on Manas da's post on yogi and devotee------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ As we have two Self---------the false Self (ego) and the real Self (inner self), there are only two basic paths, diametrically opposite----- the path of surrender and the path of will. But they reach to the same goal.--------------------------------------------------- The path of will starts with the inner Self. To be aware of our acts, is directly concerned with awakening our inner Self. If the inner Self is awakened, the ego disappears. If the light is brought, the darkness disappears.----------------------------------------- The path of surrender is directly concerned with the ego, not with the Self. When the ego disappears, the inner Self is awakened automatically. When the darkness goes, the light shines.------------------- The yogi is on the path of will and the bhakta is on the path of surrender. The yogi is trying to be aware and the bhakta is trying to be totally lost. -UC K

Weird haven't watched this dude in a while, used to be really good as he interviewed some great guests and asked thought provoking questions, even liked his documentaries. Did he have this in him all along or was it something Dan Pena awakened and fueled because he was nowhere near the person he was now like 2 years ago

Persistent baseline non-duality (I initially hesitated to write that, idk why), meaning ~95% of the time (or when blood sugar is stable). It's essentially when you stabilize around the most basic experience of no self. So-called "awakened people" stabilize right below that threshold and may dip in and out ("awakenings"). This is still just the most basic level. There are deeper levels (various maps and disciplines have described this), and in some sense, it's infinite.

Im awakened to fucking everything. My ego has shut down its connection to love. The universe said to me very explicitly, I just need a little patience and then I will get high on love. Thats all. God's Ego is out and materialized into this post ha.

As I've shared before, I find little value in esoteric explorations. I don't discredit them, I just don't see them as helpful for spiritual growth. Levitating "for real" doesn't lessen suffering, or develop unconditional love. The Buddha didn't teach most of what he knew. He restricted his teachings to the dharma, or the spiritual path out of suffering and into enlightenment. Seeking a miracle will never deliver true freedom, which is only directly realized from within. Siddhis are supernatural powers, which some rare few are capable of. From my perspective, they can be dangerous, unless someone is truly awakened, because there is a significant risk that they will amplify the ego. It is easy to fall into the trap of feeling special when one is gifted in a particular siddhi. Specialness is the calling card of the ego, and the opposite of awakening.

I don't know where to post this, but it's about "kriyas" (sponatenous movements caused by kundalini energy). This singer is what you could consider a one in a million natural talent, but what I'm interested about is her hand movements. It reminds me very much of kriyas in the sense that they're fast-paced, smooth and erratic all at the same time. Might she have an awakened kundalini? I tend to get a really a substantial "contact high" so to speak from listening to her. Maybe she was born with it as well (could explain her unique talent and personality). I know of one other person who claims he was born with an awakened kundalini (Jan Esmann), and he is a professional hyperrealist painter, extremely talented.

I've made the most progress with a therapist that is green/yellow that does MDMA therapy and psychedelics. I personally look for someone spiritually awakened. It may not be the case for you and if someone that isn't helps you that is great. I personally have felt emotionally cold and neglected around CBT heavy stage orange rational therapists. They are at a stage where they aren't emotionally developed enough to give the reflection I look for in a therapist. Not for me, transpersonal from here on out but not someone who is cringy tryhard overly positive green. There are spiritually awake, mature yellow therapists out there. Takes time to find though.

@ShugendoRa I've been scammed by awakened beings. Imagine what a tarot girl would do.

How about the millions of natives/ancestors who fucking loved psychedelics to the point they were in many cases central parts of their culture? Stop giving a shit what these disconnected & ethnocentric “nondual” teachers say in all scenarios. They have a system or ideology to promote and are aligned against anything outside of that whether they are awakened or not. Just one example — the Aztecs called psilocybin mushrooms Teonanácatl. This means either flesh of the gods or flesh of god.

therapy with a conscious professional who is holistic and accounts for spirituality in their practice and has awakened themselves. the modality itself usually isn't what is most important I've found.

You mistake yourself for actions, thoughts and others philosophies. How do you know that you are the devil? Because you do things that are out of alignment with your desire to be kind & loving? Does that not tell you that your basic inclination is Love? That what you really want is to love your brothers and sisters, including yourself? Does not sound like a devil to me, more like a case of mistaken identity. You are trying to understand that you are God through intellectual understanding. It won't happen. God is prior to intellect, and also prior to everything anyone ever says. I do not care who says it. God is prior to what I say too. You are not the devil. You are not God either. You do not exist. You are only a fiction in the mind, and so is Leo, and me. Can you for a moment seize striving? Seize trying? I really mean it. What if you do not need anyone's conceptual understanding or framework? No matter how lofty and beautiful. Trust in The God Within to guide you instead of humans. Yes, humans are a manifestation of God, but humans are not God any more than plants are. Everyone and Everything is God, yes. But only God is YOUR God. Only God is ultimately reliable, and always True. Humans are wonderful and fickle. We keep changing our minds. We have loads of opinions and assumptions. Even "after" Awakening we carry a lot of our notions and beliefs with us, and translate them into "Awakened" lingo. God Within you is your Guru and True Teacher. God may (and does) teach you through "other" human beings. All are your teachers, but only God is The Teacher. Talk to God, your Heart, your True Being. Tell Him (I like the word Him, but obviously God is him/she/it, all of it and none of it) that you want to come to know what your Heart already knows, knowingly. Ask to see what God sees. Ask God to show you that you are already God and to take you beyond all concepts and ideas. Including the concept and the idea of you. Just remain open, and keep talking to God. Forget about the "how's" and the "why's". Remain open, willing and innocent. Like a Child. A Child of God who wants to know its Source and Origin. Who longs to know The Truth that only God Is. Surrender to your Inner Being, do not surrender to anyone else. Do not surrender to me. Only to God. Read this with an open heart and a mind that is willing: http://heavenletters.org/the-one-god.html

I’ve already said that I rightly belong within some category of rednecks and there is a wide variety of categories. The same goes with Academics. Leo raked Academics in general over the coals pretty good in his last video. I put in that little preamble/disclaimer, what ever it is, so I could take the opportunity to pile on. In his book Higher Being Bodies, Ocke de Boer discuses the differing views of two well known Dutch Scientists. One a cardiologist and the others neurologist. When the neurologist starts making fun of the cardiologist for stating that consciousness can be seen apart from the brain and he begins to comment on spirituality, Ocke says he begins to embody a strange mixture of arrogance and humbleness— so often to be found in academics. That little quote really stuck with me. Probably because I got a big chuckle out of it This is the section of the book where Ocke is discussing the scale of Being. Human #4 is someone who has balanced their centers and is awoke somewhat.Human #4 knows that they are in Plato’s cave. This is a big achievement. Humans #1, #2, and #3 are lopsided in one of the centers, instinctual, emotional, or intellectual. Anyone who is awakened, which are humans #5 #6, and #7 knows that real intelligence means the position of a phenomenon in the scale of Being, and the influences to which this phenomenon is open in relation to higher worlds. They also know that they have to hide, if they don’t want to be pecked to death. For anyone who has studied Gurdjieff or the Fourth Way, I highly recommend Ocke de Boers two books. Higher Being Bodies and Two Souls. If you haven’t already studied Gurdjieff’s Works, I don’t think you’ll get much from them. I have to confess though that I’m somewhere between believing and knowing Some of the phenomena I know, but not all.

The best for humanity is that politicians say that they want, spiritual master wants you to wake up. i have listened to shadguru many times and I always see that he treats you like a child. waking up is not for you, for you there are certain practices to live better. true awakening is for higher beings, like him, who remembers his reincarnations in which he had a guru, and that is why in this life he has awakened without a guru, and the superpowers..... do you believe it? It's your decision.

Kinda hate to break it to ya, but you’re focusing on thoughts & beliefs which don’t feel good to you... which don’t feel good...because they are...off...and using “awakening” or “having awakened to young / early” as the reason. It’s not the reason, it’s just that the thoughts are off. Humble pie tastes like liberation, the recognition control, death, etc, are thoughts, while reality is pure spontaneous infinite love. Rather than ‘coping’ as a remedy... inspect the non-resonating thoughts directly...and it is found there is nothing in need of coping with. “Epistemic truth paradox” is also just one thought...which can be inspected, scrutinized, realized, as there ultimately are not any paradoxes.

@Carl-Richard this is awesome This decade we will constantly see “more” awakened Actors, athletes, celebrities etc etc Of course we can’t have more as we are all that! ? But, more will become conscious of their own being, and I can’t wait for it!