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Hey there, hope all is well. I will try not to make this post too long but there are some things that I wonder and constantly ask and research about myself regarding reality (or Absolute Infinity as Leo calls it) that I can't seem to find an answer to. And really I feel like close to no one wonders about it for some reason. Anyway, here we go: I assume there are a few things about Infinity that we can all agree with, and that is that it is absolutely infinite, it's paradoxical, it's nonsensical, it's unlimited and not bound by anything at all as it all there is. Basically, if we were to reduce it to language or concepts it's more like magic and divinity than it is science or equations A.K.A. it cannot be understood. Now here comes the tricky part... apparently reality is infinite because it has nothing to bound it otherwise it wouldn't be the ultimate reality. At the same time, it is everything and nothing. 'Nothing' being absolutely nothing at all; void of qualities. What then, is the "everything" side of it according to us? I feel like people describe their "infinity" trip report experiences as simply never-ending/eternal rather than IT being infinitely many more. And by that, I don't mean the usual "time is infinite", "space is infinite", "everything that can happen exists simultaneously" that I've read many many many times over. No. I mean like there being infinitely many more beyond what we can conceive. People describe Absolute Infinity as either a multiverse of universes or an infinite amount of finite things. And boom there you have it, that's it that's Absolute Infinity/Reality. If it is unlimited and has nothing to be bound by then there should be many more "things" than a 4D Space-Time Universe even in all its different configurations. Infinitely so. People say "everything that can be, is", the "can" being restricting. In infinity, there shouldn't be no "can be's" because there's nothing outside of it to bound the "can's", rather, it should be "everything is because it is", point. I read a trip report here, saying that the matter that created the universe did so because it had nothing else to do and nowhere else to go. Couldn't just "God" decide to wipe it if it wanted to? It could just create it back from the nothingness if it wanted to at some point. It doesn't have to make sense because something can come from nothing, just because, for no reason at all. What I'm trying to say is, Absolute Infinity and the "why is reality the way it is?" question do not blend together. It is because it is and it is also infinitely more, and not. And beyond. Or at least it should be. What is beyond the "can be's"? What is beyond the "it is this way because XYZ excuse"? Why is it either duality or non-duality and not infinitely more in between those states as well as previously and after them? Why is it either good or bad and not an infinite amount of other "emotions" that are no better or worse than the 2 main ones we know and can experience? Why would reality be a fractal and not infinitely beyond it? Why would Absolute Infinity be the ending point and not something beyond it? Surely we can't conceive there being something beyond Absolute Infinity because we can't understand it but we don't have to... and who's to say there isn't? If you can't make sense of what I just said: is Absolute Infinity a complete mystery in the sense that at some point after "my" death or multiple deaths I will no longer wake up in this Universe as a human and instead be or experience something that we as humans have absolutely and will never have any point of reference for? No spatial dimensions, no senses, no concepts, etc (what we could boil down our existence to)... and despite this, whatever this other thing is it wouldn't be abstract, it would be... something else entirely? And then something new again and again ad infinitum. Or, is Absolute Infinity simply Dual/Non-dual 4D Space-Time Universe(s), self-repeating for eternity because there's nothing else that could've been? This contradicts what some describe this Infinity to be like. I'd love the input of people who feel, think, or are completely sure they've experienced "All-That-Is" or "Absolute Infinity" whatever that may be for them. Thanks!

I mean sure you're right but we can still talk about it relatively. I don't really need to know exactly how it works, why it does and etc. I just want to know if it can pull (or is) infinitely many more out of its own nothingness that may have 0 to do with its current finite experience (Universe, Finity, Duality). Like is this the only form of finite existence that can be? I doubt it, but if it is so then why?

@The0Self You saying it's impossible to know nothingness ? but how do you know that it's impossible to know isn't that itself knowing what's not knowable ?

According to many channelings, God or Source were in a state of nothingness, it was just being. But then came the idea to experience something more than this being. So then the Mother and Father God were created from that source, and they created angelic creator gods that created more and so on. Go into a deep Samadhi meditation and see for yourself!

@IAmReallyImportant No. Don't worry, I scored high as well, but I have HFA not psychopathy. There are too many variables, all people are too unique for simplified tests like this. All the actually important values: like, not screwing people over, caring if you see animals/humans abused, ect, I agree with. A psychopath would not care. I feel more emotional range as well. I love my pets. I love my family, even if they get on my nerves. I did come from a very messed up home, but I have come very far from where I used to be when I was younger. I worked on it. Some of the questions are things a person has done in the past and it doesn't take account of the changes a person can make in their lives over time. I acted in ways that were unempathetic, but when I felt the results of my actions I did not like what I saw and made adjustments. I continue to do this, but I'm not very skilled at it unless I know a person or a pet very well. Then I can build a library of what to do and eventually I do feel more authentic. I think when I am calm and in a good place that I am very nice and agreeable. As for darkness, it's not something to mess with unless you accidently find it, and you have to use it purely for good, or it monkey paws on you later down the road, karmically. It has to choose you. An initiation with it. And it's more of an impartial judge than anything else. Ignorance, childlikeness, illness, that isn't used against you if you find it, just general true malice. There is a lot of wiggle room when it comes to darkness. If you use it wrong it will devour you in some way later on down the road through karmic retribution, though. I've experienced this as a cosmic warning before, for messing with things I wasn't supposed to. It's hard to explain. It is like a material, the material magicians and alchemists use. It's an energy , just like anything else and has a bad reputation, or is turned into something angsty or Hollywood - but it's simply a more "thick" boomerang manifesting energy. It's also a nothingness, that can sometimes come in through a personal tautology.

Sounds finite, but then again, why "that can be imagined" if it is unlimited? Or is it only so relative to our perspective? Is God simply an infinitely bigger version of a human mind that can "run" paradoxes and be composed out of nothingness? Yep, I understand that's what it's composed of, but let's please stay within relativity here. I know in absolute terms this discussion and whatever God is or isn't is pointless which is why I'm not talking in absolutes. Well the different types of psychedelics yield different experiences and while you may get to this conclusion on say 5-Meo or NN-Dmt you could get the complete opposite of love from say Salvia. Unless you mean "Love" in absolute terms where a child getting mutilated is an act of love. But like I said, from a relative standpoint this isn't it. Okay, why is it that way based on your experiences? If the answer is that it "couldn't have been any other way" then what exactly is it bounding it to be a certain way if there can't exist anything outside of it to do so? And if we go by the "Love and Good are absolutes" and "reality is designed to maximize love" premise which really is just to be at peace with itself regardless of what's going on then there shouldn't be a limit or any absolutes in any other sense simply because it's cool with whatever is going down. How exactly do you experience Absolute Infinity if it's really infinite unless it's simply a finite amount of things being repeated over and over again to a point where you're like: "oh ok this is it then"? And I'm not actually making distinctions I do understand that everything is one but whether it be by perception or else reality holds different attributes and/or qualities. Language simply fails me here. True, I remember you saying this: "The craziest part is that space and time are just two of infinitely many aspects of infinity. Infinity is not subject to space or time. Those are finities." Which really is what I've been trying to say all along and if we go by this then you're agreeing with me I believe... I just think that it's dumb to think that Infinity is simply a 4-D Space-Time Universe program with biological agents running itself start to finish over and over again ad infinitum and boom that's it. This is also would contradict another thing you said about it which was: "No wonder the mind cannot grasp it. It's infinitely beyond the mind. A billion minds working for a billion years will never even make 0.00000000001% progress towards grasping it." If it were simply: Good and Love are absolutes, the universe is it, time is eternal and self-repeating... boom. Then I see no reason why a billion minds working for a billion years couldn't figure it out lol. By the way, you said a lotta other things about it which were beautifully put and really moved me. Cheers.

I’d be interested to hear about when you close your eyes and materialism disappears, how as consciousness we can experience physical experience through the eyes of others (so to speak), is there a level of consciousness that a self can retain itself whilst being aware enough to the point that he/she can experience other as one? Will ego/identification always be the final illusion before absolute oneness? I guess I’d like to know how God can experience at all if it is completely selfless, if there is no attachment to even itself.. Infinite nothingness vs infinite somethingness. what’s the actual evolution of universal spirit and why does anything have preference?

I spent a lot of time on a beautiful beach today. 8 hours, or so. Loved it. Listened to epic music, drank and ate, walked in slow motion, absorbed a lot of sunlight. I was sensing eyes on me, frequently. There were so many people out. I was observing them too, for a few moments. Fascinating beings. But mainly; I was looking right through reality, the whole time. Staring into the endless nothingness. Lost in the reverberation. Towards the end, I had a wonderful meditation session. A solid hour and a half. I went so deep, I completely forgot where or who I was. Theta waves in my ears, of course. My favorite. Did not sync with a metronome, but I'm guessing the pulse was around 90bpm, since I was breathing pretty deep. A few options for work opened, already. Again I am in a position where I can choose. Being careful not to find myself paralyzed by choice. Taking a step forward tomorrow in regards to that. No rush though. Finding an apartment should be easy, too. It's a big city, there's plenty of options. But first I must secure that job. Some interaction/socialization. I enjoyed it. Looking forward to meeting someone who I could hang out with, soon. I only need one cool person, and they will pull me in and connect me with groups. That's how it always goes, any time I move some place new. Some unexpected money found its way to me, again. Very, very nice. At times I could burst with gratitude. And other times, I just want more. Much, much more. I finally feel worthy of it all. Except when I don't. Good news; regardless of how I feel or what I think... I just keep going. Infinite Will. The Heart started a fire that cannot be extinguished.

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(Didn't post this properly the first time. Also needed a re-edit.) 440. Summary: How To Forgive Anyone Who Hurt You - A Powerful Trauma Release Exercise “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” -Luke 23:24 Forgiveness is a very powerful tool that can help you heal and reach new levels of consciousness and fulfilment in life. This exercise is a template for how to heal any situation in which anyone has ever wronged you or hurt you in some way. 1) Pick a person and a situation you want to work on forgiving. Probably an immediate family member. It can be a major or minor event, as long as there’s hurt, emotional baggage or lingering injustice. 2) Don’t start with something super heavy or traumatic. This exercise can stir up a lot of repressed emotion and memories. You should see a therapist for super heavy, traumatic stuff. Forgiveness Meditation (Meditation Begins at 7:27) ○ Replay the memory as you’re listening to the guided meditation. If the situation is really painful, you can relive the situation from a third-person perspective to get some emotional distance. ○ Notice your true feelings towards this person as a result of this situation. You might love this person, but deep down there may be some suppressed resentment that you tried to ignore or never fully aired out. ○ Don't try to act tough or pretend like you're invincible. Allow yourself to feel the hurt. ○ Notice the judgments you have. How did he or she fail you? What did you want from them that they failed to give you in this situation? ○ Now ask yourself, do I want to forgive this person for this situation: yes or no? If you don’t, that’s okay, but let’s look a little deeper. (14:00) What does forgiveness mean here? What are you saying yes or no to? Are you willing to let go of what they did to you without holding it against them in anyway anymore? Are you willing to let go of the hurt, the sense of injustice and the need to get even? Are you willing to stop demonizing them? To understand the situation from their point of view? Are you willing to extend your mercy to that person? Why would you say yes to forgiveness? Notice that your hate, resentment and judgment weighs you down in life. Forgiveness will make you stronger. Replay the situation in your mind, considering all these extra factors: Do you want to be a strong person or a weak person? Do you want to be a hateful person or a loving person? Do you want to continue being traumatized? Do you want to clear the air and maybe rebuild that relationship? You can hold on to that resentment until your deathbed, but is that really what you want? Keep looking at this situation until you realize that you want to be strong and not small, which means you want to forgive. So if you're still resisting, keep looking deeper and deeper until your mind realizes that forgiveness is the wisest course of action. If you're unsure, be courageous and take a gamble. After all, if you think the forgiveness was a mistake you can pick your resentment back up later. The Five Reasons People Hurt You Now let's look at the other person's point of view (22:19). Deeply contemplate: why did this person hurt you? Notice that they didn't want to hurt you. Most of the evil stuff people do is just action out of ignorance, fear, selfishness, the need for and lack of love, and lack of consciousness. These are universal truths about human behavior that cover many situations. 1. Ignorance. They were doing their best to do good, but given their limited capabilities the result wasn't good for you. They were ignorant, so their best wasn't very good. If they're in a low state of consciousness what they think is best for you might be the exact opposite. 2. Weakness and Fear. If they did something nasty to you, it's probably because they were weak in that moment. They succumbed to some kind of fear or temptation, therefore they hurt you. 3. Selfishness. 4. Lack of Love and because of that, a desperate desire to get love. Deep down they were lacking in love and they wanted love from you, but because they're ignorant, selfish and weak they didn't know how to properly get the love they wanted. Usually when somebody does something “evil” it's because they want love, but don't know how to get it except through selfish actions. 5. Lack of Consciousness. This was not a high consciousness person. At that time and situation, if the person was in a more developed state, they would have behaved very differently. If you still can't see this, keep replaying and contemplating the situation deeper until you see that this is true. All people are seeking love in one form or another (31:50). Can you see how in this situation this person was not being evil, but actually this person was trying to be good? This person was seeking love in ignorant ways. It might be in the form of money, sex, a relationship, a favour, a business opportunity, fame, pleasure, etc. These are all just different forms of love. You can't just assume that the person is identical to you and should have acted the way you would have. To say “they shouldn't have done that” ignores their entire life history. People are different, so how you handle a situation is very different from how someone else might. People have different strengths, weaknesses, genetics, upbringing, personality, capabilities, talents, experiences, resources, more money, less money, more status, less status, different gender. The Struggle for Love is Universal Now, bring to mind all of the times when you have acted out of ignorance, weakness, fear, selfishness, unconsciousness and a need for love. (36:00) Draw that direct connection, that commonality, between this person and yourself. You weren't hurt because somebody wanted to hurt you. They were just acting out universal dynamics of human behavior. So it's really not personal, and likewise you've done the same thing. It might seem like, “shouldn’t it be obvious that this person hurt me?” Not to that person, because they have a different world view. They're so preoccupied with fulfilling their need for love that they’re unaware of the collateral damage of their actions. That is ignorance and lack of consciousness in a nutshell. Notice how in your life you try to be good most of the time (40:05). Almost never do you intentionally try to hurt others. If you do it's usually accidental, out of ignorance of some kind. Now apply this principle to this person in this situation. Notice that when you do something “bad” in your life, you’re still fundamentally good. The bad that you do is a mistake. It's a failure, an oversight due to your weakness, fear and ignorance. All you ever want is to be good. The problem is it’s difficult to be good. Notice that this person who hurt you is also fundamentally good. They are trying to be good, but doing it through their worldview. Just like you, all this person ever wanted from life was love. If they lied, cheated, manipulated or bullied you, it’s because they wanted love. What we all have in common is that we're all struggling for love. Try to find that common thread between your behaviors and this person's behaviors and really all human behaviors. We all fear. We're all ignorant, selfish and unconscious to various degrees (43:00). Granted, some are less ignorant and selfish than others, but why? It’s because they’re born in different circumstances. Your parents were born in a different time where it might have been much more difficult to survive, requiring them to be more blunt in their approach. You know these limitations intimately, so you should be able to draw a deep, existential, common link between your struggles and the struggles of this person. Fundamentally, the struggle is the same. It just manifests itself in different ways. How can you hold a grudge against this person for being desperate for love when you have been that way your entire life? Are you willing to be so merciful, so strong that you even drop the need to get even? Can you forgive a human for being scared, ignorant, unconscious, wanting love and for trying to be good but failing along the way? A selfish, hurt person wants to get even. A generous, strong person can extend mercy without needing to get even. The highest strength you can possess is to be hurt by another and to not need to retaliate, because you're secure in yourself. A Chain of Hurt Hurt people hurt people (48:20). Notice that if you were hurt, the person who hurt you was probably hurt by someone else. It's a chain of hurt. So, are you willing to be strong enough to break this chain of hurt? Or, are you going to be a link in this toxic chain and pass the hurt on to somebody else? The people closest to you will get hurt the most by the hurt that you refuse to let go of. When you don't forgive, that hurt bubbles up in unconscious, ignorant ways. It affects your behavior and inadvertently hurts others, like your children, spouse and friends. Do you want to infect others like a virus, or do you want to be strong, cut the chain and save somebody else from incurring your hurt? A Conscious Choice You have the option to make a conscious choice, but look at your options (50:45). Do you choose to keep judging this person who hurt you and not forgive them? If so, notice that you're choosing that out of weakness, selfishness, fear and ignorance. On the other hand, you could choose to be selfless and good, to heal yourself and let go of this resentment. To break the chain of hurt, in which case you choose consciousness, wisdom and love over fear. Now that you’re aware of the consequences of your choices, you can make a conscious decision. Do you want to choose fear and selfishness, or do you choose selflessness and love? Don't feel forced here. This has to be a conscious free choice. Are you loving and selfless enough to embrace the one who hurt you? People act out of fear and a need for love, and sometimes they'll cause collateral damage towards you. Will you let that debase you or will you rise above that? Weak or Strong? Are you strong enough to love even when others are too weak to love you, or are you so weak that you're going to wait for others to love you before you extend your love to them (54:00). Are you strong enough to be able to love without requiring your love to be returned back to you immediately? Recognize that if you don't forgive you are being less than your highest self. You are being less than you are fully capable of because you are capable of love. If you reject this forgiveness you're doing so out of fear, the fear of what would happen if you loved somebody who hurt you or somebody who was ignorant. This is the very same cycle that led to you being hurt in the first place by this person. Right now you can consciously break this cycle of ignorance, so make your choice. Whatever choice you make is fine—no judgments. If you still decide not to forgive, then that's just where you're at. Forgive Yourself First Before you can fully forgive the other person you must first forgive yourself (56:20). Forgive yourself for all the times that you have been ignorant, selfish, fearful, unconscious and needy for love. Forgive yourself for all the times that you have inadvertently hurt others. Now why would you forgive yourself for this? Because that's life! Because life has put you in this existential bind where you have to survive and where you start life from total ignorance. Survival is complex, counterintuitive and it takes trial and error to learn how to navigate life. So, are you gonna judge yourself for having been born in ignorance? Others are doing the same thing and this generates the full gamut of life, the highs and the lows. So are you willing to forgive yourself for being ignorant and selfish and fearful and needy for love? Why would you not? If you're able to forgive yourself then notice that you simultaneously forgive the other person as well. There's no difference between forgiving self and forgiving other. You’re not just forgiving a specific situation. You’re forgiving the general universal principles of ignorance, selfishness, fear, unconsciousness and craving for love. These are much easier things to forgive when you frame it in this universal way, because these are like forces of nature. It's sort of like forgiving gravity. Gravity is just a force of nature. It's not personal. People are Different You might know how to cope with a situation in a healthy way but don't assume that others do. (ep: Why People Seem Crazy) eg: Don’t assume that your parents or people from a prior generation to you have that kind of knowledge and wisdom. Your parents couldn't just google how to cope with depression, alcoholism, etc. They weren’t lucky enough to come across personal development, spirituality or awakening. Your parents probably had to suffer through that for 40 years until they had you and then they transferred the hurt onto you because they didn't know better. So, keep replaying this situation with this person until you realize that anything short of total forgiveness in this situation would be beneath you. You are too good and too strong not to forgive this person. If any hurt remains keep going through this process, like a cycle. Just keep contemplating it deeper and deeper and deeper. You may need to do this a few times. Awakening and Forgiveness There's an even deeper version of this exercise for those of you who had some degree of awakening. If you haven’t had that this section might not make much sense (1:03:10). At the existential level, the boundary between self and other is not real. You can do this exercise again, but notice that the person you were hurt by is literally you. So, you hurt yourself. You have been resenting yourself. You were both the hurter and the one who was hurt and the hurt that was felt. Existentially, this hurt happened because both parts of reality, of consciousness, was asleep, divided and fragmented. You merge yourself with the other and notice that you and other are one. You finally reunite the two. You notice that everything is You with a capital y, or God with a capital g. Also, if you've become highly conscious, you know that reality, self and God are completely inevitable. There's no other way that this situation could be, so what happened to you couldn't have been otherwise. It was perfect, because it was necessary for your awakening, and for you to have further and deeper awakenings. You can recontextualize this situation as necessary to make you more compassionate, to overcome the situation, forgive, let go, be merciful and realize a deeper form of yourself as love. If you've had an awakening you know that you are love. So, forgiveness is nothing other than you being love. Love is the expression of the entire universe, such that no matter what happens it is love. There's absolutely nothing to forgive, because everything that ever happened to you was love, and at this point you have accepted yourself completely as what you truly are, which is love! When you realize this, you go full circle. You’re completely whole, healed and nobody can hurt you. You look back and realize that nothing really hurt you, because it was all just necessary for you to learn a deeper form of love. So who got hurt? This last part here is some advanced stuff. If this doesn't resonate with you, just keep working on the psychological level, that’s powerful enough by itself. Future Practice 1) Do this exercise multiple times until you get the hang of it (1:09:40). You can do a simplified version of it. Basically, you’re drawing a commonality between the one who hurt you and you who got hurt. You're bringing the two closer and closer until they merge into a unity that nullifies and cancels itself out. It heals itself in unity. 2) Practice this on multiple significant people in your life (mother, father, siblings, ex spouse, partner). Like those you were closest to in childhood, those who caused the most pain. You have more people to forgive than you think. 3) Practice this on individual traumatic events. What happened with your father when you were 5 years old, 10 years old, 15 years old, 20 years old, etc. It's also going to depend on how traumatic your childhood was. The more ignorant, unconscious, fearful and selfish your parents were, the more trauma and hurt they transferred on to you inadvertently. Therefore, the more work you're gonna have to do to let it all go, but also the deeper your lessons will be. Don't think that if you have all this trauma that somehow you're in some terrible situation. No, the upside to having a very traumatic childhood is that, although it was terrible, if you're able to overcome and heal it all, you will be so powerful, so much more powerful than a person who had it easy. If you work through everything on your plate you can become really strong. Invest in Your Future Make this investment in the future of your life (1:12:40). Doing all this forgiveness work should be enough to cauterize a lot of those old wounds. If you focus, this can take as little as a week or up to a month. Think of how much this is going to free up your life going forward. It’ll free up your family and intimate relationships. It'll make you more loving, easy going and peaceful. Otherwise this trauma accumulates and doesn't get processed fully. It robs you of energy, making you bitter, petty, depressed and cynical. You’ve been so hurt by life that you lash out and want to hurt others, and that cycle perpetuates itself. The Power of Understanding Notice the power of understanding (1:14:30). Draw a connection between how a deep, proper understanding of a situation removes all the baggage and enables you to heal. If you think that reality is this terrible awful thing, that's simply because you lack a high enough, existential understanding of life and other people. If you did, it would heal you and you would be loving. God is mercy because God has infinite self understanding. There's nothing left to forgive, because you completely accept yourself as what you truly are. Which is the Truth, the Absolute and Oneness with the Universe. When you're Everything, what is there to judge? Resentment only exists within duality. Anything you resent would just be you shooting yourself in the foot. Realize that forgiveness is nothing other than self-love, self-acceptance, unity, truth and consciousness. You're so conscious that you have nothing left to hate. To reject the absolute, to reject the inevitable is insanity. A Warning about Forgiveness Don’t use this technique to tolerate some jerk who is actively abusing, mistreating or not appreciating you (1:18:00). To keep excusing and suffering his abuse is a misuse of forgiveness. You being loving doesn't mean you have to be someone else’s slave. That’s a common misunderstanding. Leaving a toxic relationship is love. Acknowledge first that you're in an abusive relationship that’s not going to work out. Muster the courage to leave and then you can practice forgiveness all you want, from a safe distance away from the abuser. You can forgive yourself for getting into this terrible relationship. You can forgive this boyfriend or spouse, but first you must recognize that there’s such a thing as physical and emotional danger. You don't want to use forgiveness to maintain a bad, objectively unhealthy situation. If this person is just totally selfish, abusive, blaming, unwilling to work on himself and communicate with you, you need to leave. The most loving action here is to realize that this person is not right for you and this won’t work out. Psychedelics and Forgiveness Try doing this exercise while doing psychedelics (1:21:25). Psychedelics raise your consciousness and open your mind to God, Love, to the ignorance that others are in and that you’ve been in your whole life. Non-Duality is Not Nihilistic Non-duality is not some dry, cold, philosophical nihilism (1:25:00). With awakening you don't awaken to some bleak, nihilistic reality. You awaken to love. Enlightenment is healing. You become complete, you become God, you become Love. You become whole again. Your birth was like a fracture in universal mind. It gets put back together with enlightenment, or with death. Reality is not this neutral thing that materialists and scientists have taught you to believe. Buddhists also talk about reality being emptiness. Of course love is emptiness, love is nothingness, consciousness is nothingness. It's just that “emptiness” has a lot of bad connotations to it. It's often confused with nihilism. People who've never fully, deeply experienced emptiness don't understand that it's love. That's the miracle of awakening. Awakening is so good that you die by drowning in an ocean of infinite goodness. Then you become nothing. You become God. What kind of sick, twisted universe would this be if it wasn't pure love? The twisted, sickness of it wasn't in the universe itself. It was in your perception of it. So, when you unravel your ego you see reality as it is: just pure love. (ep: The Structure of Reality) Why Work So Hard To Awaken? “But Leo, if awakening and death are the same thing, why work so hard to awaken? I'll just wait to die and it'll be the same thing as working really hard for enlightenment today.” So you want to live a miserable life for the next 50, 60, 80 years where you never see the infinite love that is all around? That’s your life strategy? (1:30:00) Imagine you were born an orphan, but had a 100 billion dollar trust fund. People told you to check your trust fund, but you said, “that’s bs. I'm gonna keep struggling and going to a minimum wage job.” Then on your deathbed you finally check your trust fund and realize it had 100 billion dollars in it. Then you die. That would be the most tragic situation, but that's exactly what you're doing when you're postponing your awakening. Every minute that you're not awake you're living through an unnecessary hell, not realizing the love that is all around you. You could do that if you're a masochist. So, what do you do after awakening? You appreciate the love and then you radiate the love and you participate in the love and that's how life should be. The problem is humans are so scared of love that they spend their whole lives running away from it. God can't force the love on you. God can nudge you, but denial is a very powerful force. As long as you're in denial about truth and full of fear and selfishness, even God himself cannot make you realize that it's all love. You have to open your mind and let go of fear, hurt, frustration, bitterness and forgive yourself and others. Then you will make yourself whole and you'll realize love. That's the point of awakening.

Notice that you're actually not aware of yourself as "Endangered-Ego" until you focus your awareness on it. You actually forget your human self while you're going about your day, doing mundane tasks. But if I stop you and ask you, Do you know you are Endangered-Ego? You will say, of course. It's the same way for me with God. When I'm doing mundane tasks, the notion of me being God drops away. But if I stop and ask myself, "Am I God?", the answer is, "Of course! All this is God." I can sort of focus my awareness on various facets of God. I can look at a chair and notice the fact that a chair is God, or I can notice the fact that it is Love, or I can notice the fact that is Nothingness, or I can notice the fact that it is Infinity, or I can notice the fact that it is Me, or I can notice the fact that it is all those things simultaneously, or I can just see it as a boring old chair (which is how I typically experience chairs). It usually take a slight bit of effort to see a chair as God. I can't lose interest in God. I am endlessly interested in it. If I just sit around or stand around in line, I can't help noticing things as parts of God. This fills with me endless curiosity and wonder. But I'm not constantly doing this because I got business handle. When I'm lost in the flow of doing business, I'm not aware of God, in the same way that you are not aware of your human self when you're in flow. So it does take some self-reflective effort to notice God. Even though God is always present. Notice that you're not aware of your ass most of the time until you focus on your ass.

@Leo Gura Okay interesting, so with focus IN on absolute truth: Is that the same type of focus as focusing on an object, or is it more like a retraction of focus from any object? Does it need effort or is the effort collapsing during concentration? I'm very vague but I don't know how to put it in better words. Is it more a going IN or allowing to be absorbed by it? Also, if you just wait somewhere and don't want to do anything, are you constantly absorbed by it, or is the awareness absorbed by the sense of self? You mentioned cessation/nothingness is going down and god is going up. Is there a difference between concentrating IN and and being absorbed between the 2? Or was this just to show the distinctions and the awareness does the same in both cases? Imagine you lost interest in experiments in consciousness. You've had so many God realisations that every part of you is bored or not really interested in it anymore. Would there be a collapse of the focusing on being-god and being focused on ego-mind? Would it switch naturally between ego self and god? Would it only be ego-self, or would it only be god? I'm asking that, because for me it's kind of the opposite. Reality loses it's meaning and substance, once I am fed up with playing with awareness. There's nothing I can do to make it real again, and once it gets too weird, my ego self automatically jumps in and prevents the getting absorbed into the absolute now.

I have direct experience in this area. From the beginning of this year to about 3 months ago I worked everyday to open certain chakras. I used the Bija mantras, LAM for Muladhara, VAM for Swadishthana etc etc. I would feel the elements becoming more prevalent in my body just after 3 hours of chanting. When I chanted HAM(Vishuddhi) for example, I would feel the space element growing in my almost as if nothingness was coursing through my veins. I was staying with parents one day, and I had chanted HAM for about 90 minutes, then my dad was looking for a lost TV remote with no sucess. He was talking about buying a new one. I said "You'll order the new remote, then later find the old one and it'll be for naught. The next morning, he had a vision of the remote sitting on a couch and proceeded to find it hidden under it. Funny, he was convinced no one would believe him, not realizing he had been influenced by me.

Hmm, if I have to summarize Truth vs Falsehood and ways to distinguish truth from falsehood. Falsehood is biases that cosplays as truth. Since falsehood acts as an overlay on top of truth, like wearing rose coloured glasses, the idea is to remove the glasses rather than searching the answer in the rose colored world Now, all of them have different ways to go about removing the glasses (this is where the concept of letting go comes in) After you removed all the glasses you were wearing that color your perspective, you get Truth/Love/God/Nothingness/Emptiness etc etc that's about what everyone is doing in this work

@Leo Gura Is there still an experience of "self" in you, or is it gone for good? Because people like Sam Harris, they say that if they put their awareness on itself they see the emptiness, but it's still a doing. Is there still the illusion of self seeking, or is just seeking happening? I'm not talking about infinite consciousness all the time, but more like automatic awareness of nothingness. It's really confusing to always need to compare teachers, also using the same words "knowing", "being", "emptiness", "nothing", "nothingness", "no-thing-ness" with different meanings attached to it. Also the difference between the illusory dog chasing it's illusory tail (There's nothing you can do to get enlightened) and not burning the boat before crossing the river. I listen to both. Before I meditate I am a seeker, and after meditation I watch videos pointing towards the illusory dog chasing it's illusory tail. Also, what's your take on the liberation from suffering.

Hey, hope you're doing good. I noticed that a lot of times in your talks you say that we are "imagining" things. Presumably you do not mean the human mind but the God-mind. It seems you may subscribe to Berkeley's Idealism with a twist... For example like Rupert Spira perhaps you would say a brain is what a human mind looks like from a second person perspective inside this "dream"? Or regarding Qualia. Perhaps you would say that specific wavelengths of light are what color looks like through the filter of a human mind. But the things that we cannot perceive without tools such as a singular photon, or whatever other subatomic particle (quarks???? Higgs Boson????) what is going on with them? Are they a paradoxical type of "existent nothingness" like consciousness? Are they existent within infinity but not existent as "things" when not perceived? I've often wonderes how UV rays give us sunburn and such even when we do not perceive these things with our limited human mind.

Three questions about Leo's latest video: 1. He speaks about how unconditional Love would just as much enjoy eating dog shit as sushi. But wouldn't unconditional Love also love my bias for sushi? 2. Second question, if God doesn't prefer life over death (or Somethingness over Nothingness), why is there anything at all? Is there not some preference on some level for something to be rather than just pure nothingness? 3. Lastly, why did the Buddha want to end suffering if not suffering is not better than suffering? Thanks!

As far as we know our universe started spontaneously for no reason as an explosion out of nothingness, the big bang. So sure it could happen again many times. A big bang could even happen inside an existing universe, with different laws getting mixed up. What a way to go if a big bang happens here tomorrow ? The word universe should refer to everything, so it's outlived it's etymology, rather like atom, which originally meant the smallest indivisible particle.

here is the main misunderstanding. the nothingness is, and it is you. This is not a matter of logic, it is a realization, mystical experience, or whatever you want to call it. it is to realize the being, the existence, what you are. nonexistence cannot be thought, it does not exist unless it is eternal and it cannot be eternal since then there couldn't be existence. if now you immerse yourself in non-existence, and then come out of it, how long have you been in non-existence? No time, zero. because it does not exist. The empty existence, the void is not temporary, is eternal. it is what there is, and it is still being, it does not pass, it is reality. I said that a second is the same as a thousand, but it is a bad example because there are no seconds. is, period. you can say: it is temporary because it fills up with things, here we are. but it's not like that. that's why they call it a dream. It's emptiness right now, seeming like it's not Yeah, because it's Impossible to contemplate the non existence. It doesn't exist

@Breakingthewall I define non-existence as the same as nothingness, that which is before the big bang so to speak, and synonymous to the "void", because it's to avoid misunderstanding from where I'm coming from when I say non-existence. Firstly, from your point of view, you set the standard for your imagination to not be possible to imagine that reality was non-existence and suddenly existence emerges as a emergent property of non-existence. That, and not knowing how you define non-existence for you, makes this very hard to reply. Are you assuming that you can have 1 without first the 0? Secondly, while it's true that existence in now is undeniable, there are many factors involved in making that so, and other factors that could also make that not so. If you are faced with something horrible, can you deny and distract yourself from that? Thirdly, "if there is existence, there was never existence, due to the very nature of nonexistence(no exist)." is not accurate logic. the order is this instead: Non-existence=no exist, therefore, if true, therefore there is existence, which equals no existence. Even here, there is an error. This is like saying that 0=nothing, so if I see a 1, then there never was a 0, but that assumes existence of 0 came after 1, or there isn't a 0. fourthly, another logical contradiction. You claim that most importantly, there never will be non-existence because the current existence is not temporary, but then you say it doesn't last long. Are you referring to existence not lasting long? If you are, then existence is impermanent, which eventually means that existence itself will die, and become nothing. If not, and you're referring to non-existence as temporary, when what you're claiming is that the very bed rock of all of existence, nothingness, the void, is temporary, and not permanent, which contradicts current spiritual teachings about the world, and the nature of no-self as a temporary thing, which contradicts. In conclusion, I think we still need to contemplate non-existence if there's still difficulty in grasping non-existence. P.S. The main problem when I contemplate non-existence, is that I run into immediate trouble, that I'm surrounded, in me, and around me, with existence, or 'something(s)'. So many somethings, somethings that cause and effect other things, and many somethings that correlate with other things, with little evidence of non-existence. I see a lot of conflation with non-existence too, that it's also synonymous with illusion of the self, or the illusion of the world due to maybe the impermanence. Is this the case?

IMO it is void as in literally nothing. And when we are conscious of something, we know total absolute nothingness by being it... As in, without things, nothing would never be known. What is something with literally no properties whatsoever? The void has no properties not even being like an infinite blackness. It's just nothing. It seems to me nothingness EQUALS the subject portion of awareness. It seems they are literally the same. It seems the existence of perception necessitates a subject to perceive these objects, but the subject is simply nothing at all. And that's what we are. To me the nothing appears the ground of existence: There literally could never be more than one "absolute nothing" could there? It would be an impossibility? Then if every human's "consciousness" subject is found to be literal nothing, then it MUST be the same by the sheer fact there can't be multiple separate nothings because it's just nothing. I'm not even sure it exists per sé because it might be that perceiving which springs from the void necessitates perceiver, and that portion is basically an illusion. Like the existence of perceiving necessarily created perceiver and perceived so itself can be. Without things the "subject" would not exist it'd just be void with no content. So I think we might be experiencing existent non-existence.

Former self is vanishing, slowly but surely. Soon to be fully disintegrated back into the endless nothingness. A new Sun is to be born. I am present with myself, throughout this whole process. I would not dare to turn my back onto the one who's dying, and is in pain. I am right here, on my own and by my side. The new is exciting. Unlimited potential. But it cannot fully blossom until the old dies out. Thank you for blessing me with the ability to feel this deeply, Father. Thank you for purging me of these old patterns and conditions. I know that it is only your unconditional love for me, that is disguised as this pain in my heart. Take it all, Father. Clear these pathways. Let the river run free.

@NahmIn Absolute sense everything except God/Consciousness/Nothingness is "thought" of it, but isn't it helpful first to recognise what is happening right now. Lot of spiritual teachings are misleading, because they try to say things as simple as possible. If "you" say for example that hand is thought. Okay. Hand is thought, but whose thought it is. It is not thought of ego. It is Thought of God. And if everything there is, is thought then it doesn't change anything, because that way it becomes nondual. For example it does not make sense to say that everything is dream unless we can compare it to something. There is still possibility that "you" mean hand as a concept is thought of ego and that "I" agree, because without thinking there is no difference between anything and there wouldn't be any names for the things. But while speaking me must say word "hand" so we can translate information.

This is a duality in language only, which you are pointing out. You could say "non" or "not" anything you like, like non-nothingness, it is fiction. Most dualities come out of language use. Illusion is only recognised retrospectively. So before illusion is recognised for what it is, it is real. But consciousness is self-referential, so it has the ability to recognise stuff - an observer isn't necessary. To itself, i.e. it wasn't an illusion before it was recognised to be one. Maybe I see the shadow of a man in a dark alley at night (real), and then I realise it was just a cat walking along a wall throwing a shadow (illusion). Yeah moment is the wrong word, because it has a connotation of "snapshot" or "slice" in time. It's no such thing, moments are a fiction of language. But I was talking within a paradigm of "moments". For something to stop existing, a comparison has to be made between two things: existence and non-existence. For a comparison to be made, we need to remember the state of something before it changed. So we are reliant on memory (possibly a fiction) to say that "moments" go into oblivion. That presupposes that "moments" exist, which they don't, but we can discuss things as if they do exist. The appearance of movement, space and time are all real, they are the content of experience, the illusory nature of them is only recognised after you have experienced them. They are real and unreal. Agreed, both are the case simultaneously. There is a static (persistent) quality to experience as well as a fluid one. There is a subtle interplay of the two: energy (movement) is conserved (static).

All difference is imaginary. Oneness/Existence/Consciousness/Love/God (/w/e label you find fitting for the fundamental nature of reality) is the Truth: i.e. it is everything. Everything is it. It's this, this eternal moment wherein everything appears and out of which everything appears. Pure magic. Pure mystery, yet as obvious as the blue sky. All difference within Oneness/Existence/You (with capital Y, not your identity) is a game, a play. Imaginary. It isn't real in any absolute sense. So in that way, the difference you imagine there is between 'existence' and 'non-existence' isn't real: it's imaginary. Non-existence/nothingness IS THIS; it's identical with what you call existence or being. Being is non-being. Non-being is being. Speaking in purely philosophical, logical terms, of course non-existence (death, deep sleep) and existence (life, consciousness) are polar opposites. But the only one that's interested in logic to rubricize Oneness into categories is the ego that wants to survive. It's a game. And you are not part of the game or outside the game. You are IT. The only thing that can die is that separate self which thinks it were born and which thinks it's real. That's just God playing a game with Itself; a game which, often, "seems" very, very, very serious and full of horror: only so You can then, eventually, *actually grasp* how freakingly amazing You in Truth are and how freakingly non-serious, loving and infinite and good You/Existence actually is. >>Contrast<<<. Imagined. Play. Existence is inherently playful. All purposes are imaginary, i.e.: play. It's an infinite strange loop, where you can lose and find 'yourself' (as 'something') for eternity.