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It could have something do with an inner transformation and as a result wanting to change the outer to align more with the inner. Also, it could just be that he wants to change things up and wants to wear a different shirt, lol. Don't overcomplicate everything.

Hard work, worth and progress This week I began working in a new ward at the Clinic I'm working at. Saying it was challenging is almost euphemistic, but I managed to do almost everything. I kept wondering what "working hard" really means and if I could say I was and am working hard. Because I know I could do more and also could have done more in the past. So what can be described as working hard enough? Two weeks ago I spent a few days in Sardinia, the official excuse being that I had to do some papers to move forward the validation in Switzerland of the two years on Internal Medicine I did in Italy. It ended up being mostly a few day of vacation to see friends and go out a bit. So instead of doing that I could have stayed home and study a bit or go on with work. A sort of answer came from the incredible Ali Abdaal quoting Derek Sivers: Never forget why you're really doing what you're doing. Are you helping people? Are they happy? Are you happy? Are you profitable? Isn't that enough?? So: I do what I do (in my work) to make people healthier through consciousness. I am helping people and I'm sometimes astonished at how little it takes sometimes (things like closing a window or just being there.. Nothing I learned in medical school but God if it changed the situation and made the patient healthier in the large sense comprising of "happier"...). I am happy and profitable too. Yet the question remains: should I just work/study more? Like abandon everything else and just work and study because I so much need to get better in my work. It's obvious that there is a way to find a balance but as always it takes some discipline... Things like: how did I end up spending four hours on online shopping today? Yes, there will be an event for which I'll need a formal dress on December 8th but... Yet again it's all about consciousness. I'm now conscious it wasn't as urgent as I decided to view it: even if I'll be on call next weekend and the one after I'll probably go back to Sardinia there still was the last weekend of November to do some shopping and I could also have worn something I already have here in case... So right now, things being as they are, should I go for a run or go on with some work? I'll do a 7 minutes workout and then work. Talking about work, there's a line that fascinated me listening to Mastery from Robert Greene: "The goal of an apprenticeship is not money, good position, a title or a diploma but rather the transformation of your mind and character, the first transformation on your way to Mastery." Transformation of mind and character. That's exactly what's happening. After this first six months in Switzerland and after this week in particular, I can see how I am more: courageous ( for example if I have to make a call to a consultant or for anything that makes me anxious I just do it instead of worrying and procrastinating); loving to myself. I also recover sooner from the little relapses of anxiety (I am more practical in a sense, I don't dwell on anxiety or how people could judge me); compassionate towards other people, I know we're all in the same boat so as I make mistakes sometimes so they sometimes and the only thing to to is to find a solution, being angry or similar is useless and counter-productive; wise. It's not something I relate so much to the work experience but rather to the experiences I had in general in the last six months. For example yesterday I went to a party and drank some alcool just because someone opened a bottle of sparkling wine I wanted to taste, not because I needed it to be more relaxed or enjoy the night. The only regret I have about last night is not talking to a guy who was just perfect, like perfection chez perfection.. The excuse I gave was that there will be other occasions to meet someone.. Yes, maybe.. But at the same time the only time I can actually experience is the present so next time I'll remember to take advantage of the present!! surrendering to reality, or Truth if I may.. I goes back to being courageous too.. I am more able to accept things (and people) as they are and deal with them without wishing they were otherwise. "Truth is consciousness. Truth is what I am. The cost of seeking the truth is my Self"...

Yes they seem to have a more limited understanding yet more complex (trapped in the modality/box of treating symptoms), that video is pretty cringy for me to listen to ? Of course fruit is key to hydrating a stagnant lymphatic system. Plants do not help with the regenerative process like fasting. Herbs help with parasites and targeting specific areas of weakness. I used iridology to confirm the areas I am working on. Raw foodists are not necessarily detoxers but they understand how their body responds best to less acid forming foods, the role of gut bacteria on our food habits. Those who went through their detox process received such profound benefits from going off the food that (does not serve them) builds up acid in the lymph, drys out cells, stresses the organs, causes congestion, fungus, unwanted parasites/bacteria, and various impairments, they choose to lead by example as a raw foodist and educate others. Unfortunately it’s inevitable for our minds to create all these categories/fads/meanings in belief systems surrounding all the diets related Water is actually hard on our kidneys, water from fruit is better absorbed into the cells. For detox on a high fruit diet I hardly need any water and the key for detoxing effectively is filtering kidneys, which requires healthy adrenals. Dr Morse understands how all the organs impact each other. It’s funny we all have belief systems we operate from but they key is knowing we are not these beliefs and imo many raw foodists faced spiritual or existential shifts/obstacles aiding in their journey and psychological development if they went through detox. Detox is extremely challenging as it brings up all your weaknesses, even trauma attachment issues from childhood. Sure someone could go raw food without detox and be trapped in their religious beliefs but with detox there’s a purification process or transformation, which is a true test for the psyche

Not meaning to sound overly dramatic but this song has been a part of a repeated mystical experience. These guys got together for a short time in the 80's. George Harrison, Bob Dillon, Tom Petty wrote and put together a lot of their songs over a week long period at a reclusive rural location. I think they shared some psychedelics and produced a song about Alchemy and transformation of Consciouness. In my mind they were mystics hiding in plain sight. We become miserable living outside in but find peace when we live it inside out. ... A miracle inverts perception which was upside down before, and thus it ends the strange distortions that were manifest. Now is perception open to the truth. - From ACIM

‘The return’ is a transformation in one’s understanding of what was once believed to be... after this there may be several more awakenings and it’s all aimed at living one’s greatest joy beyond the relative truths what makes one more spiritual who understands how it is possible for there to be breatharians? They are no longer identified with their beliefs

To the ego the Holy Spirit described in ACIM might seem like a dictator. Dispenza said that in a collective consciousness everybody is the leader, so then the idea of the Holy Spirit being a leader is wrong in the narrow sense. And I came to think of how there will be an integration between the global ego and the emerging collective consciousness. So there will still be external authorities and such! Some kind of massive transformation will take place in the entire world I predict, yet it may be a fairly gradual process of integration.

Exactly. Once you start trusting yourself and the journey of transformation fear becomes a sign post you are headed in the right direction to achieve your goals. Stopping at the emotions along the way and resisting is only going to recreate the same obstacles you’ve made

these are the how does a person turn out to be good and the other bad. What causes this change in person to person . I know that parental upbringing and culture and genetic factors play a huge role but I'm also aware that there is more than only these. The nature of the spirit of how's it's acquired is a huge mystery the next mystery is the transformation. How does a transformation occur. That certain people when they are placed in certain circumstances they learn to survive and adapt and this causes spontaneous mutation and adaptation and transformation. I will call this spontaneous transformation. Yet this does not happen all the time. Certain harsh conditions can elicit a fatal response rather than invoke an adaptation response. Which means those harsh conditions can prove fatalistic and the person dies. There is no scope for adaptive mutation. So here is the mystery. What's the exact point that decides the difference between adaptive and fatalistic and how does this mutation or adaptive training occur. What set of conditions or caveats are needed for such a spontaneous beneficial or protective transformation to take place. There is always a threshold point. Below this threshold limit, the circumstances make you stronger. Beyond this threshold limit the circumstances can be fatalistic and cause demise.. .. The third mystery is about good and evil. Whether there is a good side to evil. I don't know how to question morality. This has been tough on me. To question morality. It's a struggle. If right or wrong is eternal and truth of the universe or if it's only invented for social reasons and has no divine aspect to it. This is just another mystery out of all the mysteries of life .

Transformation Series (by The Perception Trainers) Part 1: Awareness Practicing awareness comes easy to me. I often worry though that I don't do it correctly or that I am not going deep enough. Over the last few days I have been mainly focusing on awareness which makes me feel stable and calm. I also don't feel like I am going anywhere though. I feel like the mud has settled but like I am still there where I always was.

Over the past weeks I have been soaking up a lot of spiritual information (mainly 'the perception trainers' on YouTube). I definitely overdid it though and tried to apply everything all at once which led to a few crazy breakdowns I am ready to do things properly and to change my beliefs slowly and steadily, being gentle with myself. I started reading 'the transformation series' from the perception trainers again, which I funnily read over 1.5 years ago already. I dismissed it at the time because seeking external change still felt too real to me. I am excited to get back into it but I am also doubting myself. What if thsi is just another thing you are adding to your tools? What if you are not ready, what if you are moving too fast? The transformation series is basically all the information from the perception trainers put together in order so it's not even like I am jumoing into new tools but I am still questioning myself. I highly recommend looking up The Perception Trainers on YouTube! As radical and effective as spirituality and personal growth can get imo.

I also wanted to discuss this snowball effect in life. Where things go wrong in your life and then they continue to go wrong like a chain reaction set up. Especially with health problems In my childhood every day was like a bad day. There were no good days. So sometimes it feels like this whole life is a journey of waking up to a bad day . Like you are living just to feel bad every day. You are sick of feeling sick everyday. 2 mysteries these are the how does a person turn out to be good and the other bad. What causes this change in person to person . I know that parental upbringing and culture and genetic factors play a huge role but I'm also aware that there is more than only these. The nature of the spirit of how's it's acquired is a huge mystery the next mystery is the transformation. How does a transformation occur. That certain people when they are placed in certain circumstances they learn to survive and adapt and this causes spontaneous mutation and adaptation and transformation. I will call this spontaneous transformation. Yet this does not happen all the time. Certain harsh conditions can elicit a fatal response rather than invoke an adaptation response. Which means those harsh conditions can prove fatalistic and the person dies. There is no scope for adaptive mutation. So here is the mystery. What's the exact point that decides the difference between adaptive and fatalistic and how does this mutation or adaptive training occur. What set of conditions or caveats are needed for such a spontaneous beneficial or protective transformation to take place.

@DoubleYou I’ve been thinking about that too! But then I worry, I don’t want to lose everything I’ve worked for! So it’s kind of a two sided deal, I both want to give up and don’t want to haha. But I really have been trying to work with this idea of just letting go of all the ideas I have about myself, total transformation is upon me.

@Leo Gura contemplating for life purpose in the transformation of economics / commercial psychedelics. This story in particular caught my attention today: http://aurynfund.org/pala I am considering making video games that give people psychedelic experiences, but with so many psychedelic retreats becoming available online and around the globe, I'm starting to wonder if inventing new psychedelic business models is a more pressing need. Basically my question is, do you have any plan for a video, or direct action through your business, to help prevent what this story is portraying? (which is essentially the over-commercialization of the psychedelic industry by big pharma (see the story http://aurynfund.org/pala)) If you don't have time to read it that's OK, but it seems relevant to your mission and to the not so distant future of a society potentially lead by Bernie, that is growing up the spiral. Thanks for any input.

I would be cautious of creating a standard of success to be a permanent nirvana-like state in which I have zero "bad" desires and 100% "good" desires in which I am happily motivated to be productive all the time and spend 100% of my time being productive and engaging in self improvement and spiritual practices. That standard is just so unreasonable and it sets the person up for failure. . . It would be like me wanting to get back into good physical shape - yet my standard for being in good physical shape is: never missing a single day of working out under any circumstances, never eating any snacks or candy, having 5% body fat, bench pressing 150% of my body weight and winning an olympic gold medal in both weightlifting and the marathon. I would just be setting myself up for failure. With this standard of success, as soon as I fall short I will think "see, I knew I would fail. I might as well go back to playing video games all day and eating potato chips". For personal transformation, I think it's much better to develop healthy habits incrementally and have attainable goals - both short-term goals and long term goals - yet not be so demanding and rigid that I sabotage myself and set myself up for failure. For example, a goal of running at least 5 miles everyday is too rigid. What if I am sick one day and it would be unhealthy to run? What if I get a minor injury and running on it would seriously injure myself? A better goal might be "I am committed to 45min. of exercise five days a week". This provides structure, yet also flexibility. Regarding freedom of addiction, it depends. . . I still have desires that would be considered "spiritually incorrect". That is part of the human experience. I wouldn't want to live without some of those desires. Yet I also wouldn't want my life to be constantly driven by those desires. . . Regarding specific addictions, yes some can be completely overcome. The strongest addiction in my life was chewing tobacco. I was mentally and physically addicted hardcore. I tried to quit for many years and kept failing. . . Quitting that habit was one of the hardest thing I've ever done. My mind and body was obsessed and I thought I would never be free of the physical and mental addiction. Yet with time it got less and less intense. I would say it took about two years to become completely free. I have not had a single desire or craving to chew tobacco for over 15 years. I don't even think about it. Even the thought of it doesn't arise. It's a non-issue in my life. So yes, it is possible to become 100% free from an addiction.

@Michael Paul im not sure if I'm completely getting your question. But the thing that springs to mind for me is that we know there is no free will, that everything is conditioned patterns. The only way to change a pattern is not by resisting it and attempting to "do" something else, but to observe the pattern and the identification that keeps the pattern repeating itself. Then the pattern becomes integrated in time and new thoughts and behaviours emerge. I think that's the only instance in which we can say we can do things "differently". But that's just a way of symbolising the process. On close inspection we don't really "do" anything, everything is being done by existence itself, whether that serves us individually or not, even new behaviours. So the only options are internal struggle or acceptance and transformation . I chose the latter because that is the only real way that we can "change", because change is destined anyway, but change should happen according to how well we let life make the decision for us. Trying to force things just keeps the old habits and conditionings in place , even if the appear to be changing, they are not, not until they are made conscious

Looking at the polls indicates that Williamson will require a miracle to win in 2020. I have strong doubts about that happening, but who knows! My current guess is that Trump will remain President. Anyway, Marianne even being included in the first debates is a sign that integral spirituality is peeking into the big power structure. And historically it indicates that we are in a transformation of the whole world within a very short period of time. It will take many years before we see any radical changes, yet it's about decades at most, not 1,000 or even 100 years into the future so from a historical perspective my take is that it's a very fast and accelerating shift going on right now.

Become aware that there's no such thing as "depressive, yucky feelings." All feelings are neutral. "Depressive and yucky" is how your ego has labeled them. This doesn't mean that these feelings aren't intense or overwhelming. But more and more try to open to the possibility of accepting them as is. That's where transformation happens. When a small glimpse of no-self kicks in, the only thing that's happening right now is you resisting that which arises. In this case, these so called depressive feelings. So the only way to get comfortable in no-self, is to get comfortable in silence. The more you do, the more you start to trust it, because you become conscious of the fact that there's nothing there to be feared. And in time, this will accelerate the healing. This fear arises simply because you don't know what will happen when you let go. If you knew, you wouldn't fear it. So make it your goal to find out, to learn to trust it.

Not only do crystals come in all sorts of colors (amethyst, rose, aquamarine) and serve different intended purposes (improved sleep, added protection, attracting abundance), but they’re also found in many different shape formations. Just like the colors of the crystals convey unique meanings (since they often signify what type of stone, exactly, it is), crystal shapes also matter. Experts say the structure of a crystal doesn’t change the type of energy it emits, but the shape does affect the way you receive said energy. “Crystal shapes can help to amplify your intention and your experience with them,” says Heather Askinosie, crystal expert, co-founder of Energy Muse, and author of CRYSTAL365. “Choosing a crystal shape that pairs well with your intention will enhance and magnify your transformation.” Below, a few experts weigh in to help demystify the different crystal shapes, what they mean, and how to use them. It’s great intel to note next time you find yourself roaming the shelves of a metaphysical shop in search of a new crystal or simply perusing your own crystal collection. Learn what 7 common crystal shapes mean—and how to best use them. 1. Cubes If you need some grounding vibes in your life (don’t we all?), a cube-shaped crystal might be the perfect gemstone companion for you. Askinosie says meditating with cubic crystals in your hands can help you connect to the energy of the Earth. You can also place them in each corner of a room to protect the space. 2. Pyramids Crystal pyramids are said to be powerful for manifesting your desires. “Their strong base acts as an anchor for your intention,” says Amber-Lee Lyons, chakra expert and founder of Chakra Girl. “The apex of the pyramid sends the intention out into the universe. Whether it’s a self-serving stack of cash you want to manifest or to send out love to the collective, pyramid crystals will take you to that next level.” 3. Spheres “The crystal sphere reminds you that you are a part of the greater whole connected to all the energies in your surroundings,” Askinonsie says. “You can imagine that you are holding the world in the palm of your hand.” The Zen vibe these magical crystal balls give off also makes them great meditation buddies. Amber-Lee Lyons says adding a small one to your crystal collection that fits nicely in your hand while you meditate can also double as a mini massage ball to relax any tense muscles. 4. Tumbled stones Consider tumbled stones as stepping stones into the wonderful world of crystals. “Some may call them basic, but I call them practical,” Amber-Lee Lyons says. The small, smooth crystals tend to skew inexpensive and easy to find online or at your local crystal boutique. But don’t be fooled by their size—these travel-friendly stones are indeed powerful. Amber-Lee Lyons says what’s especially great about them is how mobile they are. You can easily carry them in your pocket or purse, or even tuck them inside your bra to help you connect with the energy all day long. Having one so close, maybe even touching you directly, can act as a reminder of your intention. 5. Crystal points As its name suggests, a crystal point keeps you sharp and on point. It’s your BFF whenever you need to stay uber-focused on something. Mariah K. Lyons, crystal healer and founder of ASTARA, says to use these powerful points for manifestation purposes. “Write down a mantra, affirmation, or desire on a piece of paper,” she says. “Fold the paper and place the crystal point on top, pointing up. This acts like a pyramid, directing all the energy from the intention on the paper upward into the cosmos and radiating out into the surrounding environment.” 6. Hearts Heart-shaped crystals are not naturally occurring; they’re cut and polished into this shape, but they still radiate a strong love energy. Mariah K. Lyons says to meditate with a heart-shaped crystal to activate your heart chakra. “Focus your energy and attention on your heart and imagine filling your heart with pure loving light,” she says. “Imagine the light fills your heart and weaves in and out clearing any old wounds and traumas and bringing healing and peace into the heart and body.” 7. Clusters This is, as you’d expect, a cluster of crystal points in their natural form (and they’re oh-so pretty to look at thanks to their sparkle and mystical vibes). “A cluster is great for bringing unity to a space,” Mariah K. Lyons says. “Place a cluster crystal on your family dining table, living room table, or other communal spaces in the home. It’s also great to place in conference rooms in an office or places where people come together. It helps create a space of open dialogue and community.”

For the next week or so, among other things, in this journal, I will post word for word some of my favourite passages from my favourite books. These are things that resonate with me on a massive scale, that I try to action and implement in my life. Meditations - Marcus Aurelius Ego & Humility • The mind without ego is a fortress. No place is more secure. Once we take refuge there we are safe forever • If you stick to your Truth’s, you will be a new person with a new life. It won’t matter if others do not know the Truth. You will set sail and steer a steady course toward freedom • Do what’s right, accept what happens, and speak the truth Compassion & Forgiveness • Just do the right thing. The rest doesn’t matter. Cold or warm. Tired or well rested. Despised or honoured. Busy or not Others • If you stick to your values, you can find fulfilment in anything you do. No one can prevent that • In a sense, people are our proper occupation. Our job is to do them good and put up with them • It’s silly to try and escape other people’s faults. They are inescapable. Just try to escape your own • You’ve given aid and they’ve retrieved it. And yet, like an idiot, you keep holding out for me: to be credited with a Good Deed, to be repaid in kind. Why? • Let it not make one bit of difference if other people blame you for doing what is right • Some people with their resentments are like pigs about to be slaughtered. Kicking and squealing until the bitter end • It isn’t me who is harmed by that. It is you • When someone appears to have tried to harm you, rest assured that he’s already been tried and convicted – by themselves Spirituality & Fear • To be the same in all circumstances • Concentrate on doing what’s in front of you. Do it with justice, precision, and willingness. Free yourself from distractions as if it were to be the last thing you would do on this Earth. Stop letting your emotions and thoughts overwhelm you. If you manage this, that’s all even God can ask of you • Don’t be dependent on anyone else doing something or not doing it • What stands in the way becomes the way • The first step: Don’t be anxious. Nature controls it all • If it’s endurable, then endure it and stop complaining. If it’s unendurable, then your transformation will fix it, so stop complaining General • To read attentively – not to be satisfied with “just getting the gist of it” Letting Go • Objective judgment, now, at this very moment. Unselfish action, now, at this very moment. Willing acceptance, now, at this very moment. That’s all you need • Blot your imagination. Turn your desire to stone. Quench your appetites. Keep your mind centred on itself

One advantage of an integral approach instead of a pure ACIM following is that it makes my ego a part of me instead of something that is deemed as bad. Sure, from a higher perspective the ego IS insane. Still, from an even larger perspective the ego is perfectly healthy and a necessary part of reality. So one trick I came to think of is to just keep identifying with my ego and let the transformation happen automatically. And to focus on inner peace.

There are two people, who is more "evolved"? Person A: Person A decided to stop wearing fur clothing because they saw how terrible animals are treated in the fur industry. Person A is talking about on facebook and shaming others for doing so, because of how much empathy Person A is feeling towards the animals that are abused in fur factories. Person B: Person B does not care about animals at all, yet Person B points out Person As hypocrisy. How can Person A stop wearing fur if they are the same time are eating meat? It's hypocrisy! And not wearing fur won't change anything. Perso B continues to wear fur and eat meat, and uses the hypocrisy of Person A to justify that. Notice that Person B is right that Person A is a hypocrate, yet Person A cares more about animals than Person B. Person A is in that sense a "better" person, they have taken a step towards less cruelty, even if they are currently remaining in an inconsistent position which actually doesn't change anything about the situation. Eventually Person A might stop even to eat meat, because they take one step further to reduce the impact they have on others. In the meantime, Person B has remained at their position, both wearing fur and eating animals. In a similar vein, people who are very much concerned about things like cultural appropriation and the like, even if it is neither the most effective way to reduce suffering and maybe means they become hypocrites, they are still more evolved than people who do not care about it at all, who use that hypocrisy as an excuse not to bother to think about the impact they have on others. Sure, sometimes the more evolved person might be overconcerned, but that is part of their evolution, of their increase compassion. You frame it as if these people were less evolved "hiding their white guilt", so you can comfortably remain where you are and dismiss any of these concerns as non-issues. It is fundamentally your frame of mind that is "less" evolved, even if this particular issue was a non-issue, the fact that you so easily dismiss it and show no concern and interest in it's possible validity is essentially what is "less" evolved about you. You concern is primarily individualistic, you have a priority about what you as a individual can and cannot do over what will have a better impact on others. You do not see it, but you are arguing from that desire and it determines how you speak, what arguments you provide, what things you view as non-issues and which you view as issues. It's not merely in this particular situation in which you show these individualistic, freedom, stage orange value tendencies. You have brought them up in our conversation about animal rights too. You put your individualistic needs infront of the life and suffering of others. We of course do that too, but to a lesser degree. We are concerned about these issues, we try to find validity in them, while you are biased towards rejecting them because they limit your freedom. This mechanism is what eventually leads, on a larger scale, to for example complacency towards the treatment of billions of individuals, like the animals we are putting in factories. For you that is pretty much a non-issue, as long as you don't contribute to it, you can do whatever you want in your life. However, if you truly were concerned without bias, you would see it as a problem, you would feel (!) it to be a problem. A huge problem, that does not just require an absence of action on your part, but an actual proactive approach so as to mitigate that kind of discrimination of suffering. It is not enough to simply not eat factory farmed meat, it is paramount to actually make others not eat factory farmed meat and to generally make efforts to reduce that kind of suffering. This is stage green, it is not about "live and let live", it is about "Help those who need the help most". It is a deep desire to involve yourself in the increasing of well-being of those who suffering the most. Orange is only interested in not being "hypocritical", in not being immoral, in not being "bad". See how self-centered that is? For green it is about actively identifying the issues, of actively going against discrimination, of actively participating in these movements which solve social issues. You show only very minor interest in that, which allows you to dismiss issues like cultural appropriation as non-issues. While I agree that there are far bigger problems that need to be solved, I cannot simply dismiss it like you anymore. I could have probably even a year ago, but now I feel like I need to take these issues seriously. It is an emotional transformation, which again will determine what kind of arguments you will find appealing in what you will view and dismiss as non-issues. I have noticed this shift in myself very radically the past few months. While previously I would have seen a insect and might not have bothered to help it because "I would be kind of a hypocrate if I helped this insect while eating products that kill insects", that kind of mentality just became obsolete. I helped the insect, even a tiny fruit fly, out of an innate desire to help that insect. I required no justification, there was a motivation that was just present. I did, at that moment, not care about what kind of person that action would make me, I just did what I felt was best. The carnist will focus on the hypocrisy of the vegan to justify his habits. This is hugely important. The carnist will be most concerned about "what kind of person" he will be in his own and other eyes. The vegan does not care that much, one that is truly concerned about animals. They will backwards rationalized to help the animals at any means possible. A very interesting shift, because many vegans start being vegan because of their own identity attachment, because "they dont want to be animal abuses". A more fully green person will be detached from that, they will help because of a desire to help, because of true empathy towards these beings, whether they viewed as "hypocrates" or the like is secondary and only relevant to the point it will be a detriment to the animals.

@Shakazulu Got you, yes I will give it a year then. To answer your previous question, I started reading pickup materials since May and have been tuning into RSD programs/contents for 3 months now. So I'm pretty new to it all. At least I'm glad that I'm aware when I start feeling needy every now and then even though I cant do much to change it every time. Also, I recently got Julien's transformation mastery program. Although that has hot nothing to do with pickup and girls, it has brought into my awareness the frame of scarcity vs abundance. And it's really helpful to let go of my infatuation for the girl which comes from a scarcity mindset.

Hi people If you had the chance which of these spirits would you rather recommend for deep healing, transformation, self knowledge, spiritual growth? Which one offers more guidance? Also which country suits better to travel to for the spiritual growth. These spirits lie in different regions as well. Would you say ayahuasca is rather heavy?

The transformation towards santa muerte came around October 10 and 11 and October 12. ..... October 9 I was still skeptical. The videos that caused that transformation from skepticism to acceptance are

@Nahm OMG you and @Leo Gura went to All phases. Source took over me. OMFG. Help All that is you. Do God's work. It's happen ing, It's actually happening. OMG I dunno where this leads. But you guys know it. You went All way through. How deep this is. OMG. OK ok I get it. Serve Reality, Serve Reality OMG and I can't stop with work. God force It's God force. Thanks a lot. IS there more? Super Nova Heart Halo Awareness and Wings. Wings, I got wings hahaha can't beleive this. I know wings were missing. Ok this is so cool. Ok expect crush but crush is Just unfoldment. Some sort of development you gone through before every transformation. Wow. God is amazing. Fuck it I Will offer my head and be on knees everytime for it. It's All Well deserved. OK bit late lets see where it leads. It's quite fucking amazing. Yeah Kinda like that biblical Lucifer lol. Good story like really really good story. If anything it is romantic Selfless story. Yeah Light (Love) bringer. Ha. Just amazing. Once devil now angel WTF is All of THIS. ? IT is so great, so great. Love is great and amazing. Love is Everything.