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Eternity? That's part of the "nothingness". I haven't been beyond realising this is a timeless empty singular dream. I'm terrified of it too. Time just standing still. I'm not aware of it right now though, just a memory Maybe you're describing something else, but how you describe it doesn't ring a bell.

When you look into my eyes do you see nothing? I hope you do. I hope you see everything that you are when our eyes meet. You know this happened to me once. I had no idea what it meant at the time. I just saw something so deep I couldn't see it at all. All I could tell was that he had seen some shit– at least that's what his eyes told me. But I also felt like they were looking at it. I don't know what they're looking at me for I have no idea about nothingness. What I do know is that I have never felt more seen in this moment with eternity. I wanted to say back to it, "I see you too." But again, I didn't know what it was at the time although I did. I knew the feeling it gave and I gave it back. I was with it forever. He for sure had no idea about any of this he just has taken too may trips to the moon. He doesn't know what he knows and now I know what we both didn't know. I know that I hope you see yourself when I look at you. I hope everybody who crosses my eyes meets themselves in eternity like I did in that moment. I hope they meet me there too... we can find the one in one another.

It's simple. Colors and sounds, all consciousness, which imagines scenes or dreams, and then inserts itself into the dream as the main character. We're in a VR-like reality/experience that was designed by consciousness to keep itself entertained for eternity through lifetimes. The color red isn't happening in your brain. It's happening on the screen that wraps around you and your field of vision. Your face is a void and you're projecting the color red (and your entire reality, for that matter) unto nothingness. That's why you can't see your face, because you see the world instead. There is nothing behind the red apple. It's just an appearance in this VR / dreamworld. Three-dimensionality does not exist. It's an illusion of materialism.

@Leo Gura Evening Leo (from Australia) Brilliant interview today ! I have a few hours remaining due to work, I'll keep this advice in mind, personally I don't drink, and in your interview you mentioned you'd go out and party and stuff and it frustrated me because I'm opposite of that to a degree - Anyways, you've clearly had experience, and your response that I don't need money is motivating, I've read Mark Manson's book called Models multiple times, and still not a lot of tangible success, but maybe it is overrated (except its in music, movies, t.v. and port easily accessible), I gotta get out there ,,, Thanks for taking time out to respond, I think the ability to make posts with a collective community is extroadinary unlike other interesting spiritualists I enjoy following, but all fasinating, I also have one question but no response is cool, infinite intelligence may eventually provide an answer, Alan Watts says we're all selfish, and its powerful to acknowledge that, and to try and not be selfish is still a selfsih motive, I've heard you discuss selflessness, and I 100 % get what you mean when one might become that and slip into infinitity as such, fasinating, but this has been a question if its really possible to be selfless, or maybe you mean selfless as in not having a self, therefore I guess becoming 'nothingness/love' so fasinating !!

God = Existence = Nothingness. Therfore God can't die. But when God imagines to be a human, God dies in some sense. Because God completely shapeshifts into that imagination. There is nothing behind the scenes, when God imagines to be not-God, all of God becomes not-God. In that way God can escape its eternity in some sense. But actually, not-God is still God, because all there is is God, therfore God can't actually become not-God. God can only create the illusion of becoming not-God (eg. human), and because imagination is reality, it becomes true in some sense. It's a bit paradoxical.

My friends I am truly despaired and in need of an external point of view on my life so far, I can't ignore it anymore. I feel helpness and I don't know what to do. This summer I started to have backlashes of suicidal thoughts. One day I was so low: I went in a camp with a knife and I called my country's suicide hotline for giving this life a last chance. I called twice but they did not respond. I don't reccomand a similar experience. Since then I talked about it only to my girlfriend and a friend and that has helped a little bit. I feel judged by people, I feel that I'm not in the way I'm supposed to be but at the same time I don't know "how" to be. I started my self-help journey when I was 16 (now I'm 19). Since then I watched a lot of Leo's videos, read about 50 books of the booklist and still do that daily (I started the booklist about a year ago), I take copius amounts of notes, I journal twice a day, make affermations, meditate, do cold showers... I devoted myself to make my life better but the only thing that I want right now is to end my life in brutal ways. I feel like I should not consume media, but create media. The only thing I do is sell custom t-shirts online. That earn me some money but I don't feel original and when I do the creation does not sell. I feel guilty because I'm chasing money and success; I know that they won't make me happy but I keep on doing that. I feel like a failure because my success comes from a single artwork and even if I put a lot of effort in expanding my business and creating more I don't get results. I also fear that one day I will be betrayed by my girlfriend, even though things are going well with her. I feel like I'm not enough for her. This week I wanted to be alone and focus on my work. But I ended up finishing my goals early in the day and then have nothing to do. I don't know I should I spend my time because I feel guilty in watching videos, tv series, ecc... I meditate and contemplate on what I am but not understanding what awereness, nothingness and God are. Staying with the not knowing and the confusion drives me crazy. I can't explain to myself why the only solution seems to kill myself. I try so hard to prevent that, but no matter what I do I feel like a failure and basically I'm living my life in a confirmation bias upon which I search for reasons and situation to prevent feeling like a failure and by doing so basically confirming that I am one. Sorry I know this is rough and a lot to digest but I needed a toilet where to puke all of this. Most of the times I feel good and happy to live my life but sometimes this shit happens and nothing seems to help. Feel free to tell me any thought that you have had

it's a real mindfuck to think about that. eternity ... the mind shudders, rejects the idea. There is no such thing as a beginning of God, since God is nothing. it was always there, because it is always right now, time is apparent. we are the pure, unfathomable and timeless nothingness that rejoices in its infinity. There is no before or after, there is only that, now, the totality

Oneness = Nothingness

@Adamq8 those were basically my insights with psychedelics as well. It can be total clarity. Which may also feel like total insanity from the egos point of view, but it may feel very true as the experience is happening. But that is the last mindfuck I realized about psychedelics. No matter how significant and true something feels and appears to be on psychedelics, still does not mean that it is. The sense of what's true is just another parameter of consciousness that gets turned up by psychedelics. In the end, even these seemingly most true insights dissolve into the nothingness/consciousness they came out of. I also agree that it is easy to fall into traps with psychedelics precisely because the insights one has on them feel so significant and true. Doesn't mean they are.

Transmissions are the most powerful tool to increase your baseline Consciousness. I can't believe they are so little known. I think one reason is that oftentimes when people try transmissions, they feel nothing at first. For Transmissions to work best, you need to be sensitive. Many are not sensitive enough, but by repeatedly receiving transmissions you increase your sensitivity and the transmissions become more and more powerful. Another reason is that many transmissions have been around only for a very short time. I believe the popularity of transmissions will explode within the next years. The main aim of transmissions is to slowly increase you baseline consciousness, but many transmissions also have an immediate short term effect and can get you into Samadhi, like for example pure Divinity and SAT and to a lesser extend Shaktipat and KAP. (this Post about dimensions of Consciousness is foundational to some things I will mention here) There are two different kinds of Transmissions 1. Aura Transmission That's the classical transmission. You sit beside an enlightened guru and by his presence your consciousness alters. This works because everyone has an energy field, an aura, and whenever you are around someone (to a small extend even when you merely think about someone) your auras overlap and affect each other. That's how you sometimes pick up emotions of other people (though you usually don't recognize this and believe they are your own emotions). For example Ramana Maharshi gave these kinds of Transmissions. I believe sitting with Sadhguru, Mooji or Eckart Tolle would also give you this kind of transmission (varying strength of course). And I believe every Shaktipat Transmission also works like that. 2. Channeled Transmission Here the person channels an external energy. For example: RASA, SAT and Light transmission. With pure Divinity and KAP I'm not entirely sure whether they are channeled. Here are the most powerful transmissions I know of: - Pure Divinity The only person I know of who can give this transmission is Gareth Duignam. In this video he talks about pure Divinity and how he became able to give it (happened just a few weeks ago). As far as I know, you need to be in ParaBrahman to be able to give it. For me the state of consciousness the transmission puts me in just feels like pure Divinity lol. I believe this is the most powerful transmission for enlightenment. And Gareth and many people who have been receiving pure Divinity also say that it is the most powerful transmission. You can receive pure Divinity in a one on one session with Gareth, or during his Zoom Meditations (Tuesdays and Fridays) (the zoom meditations are currently either a combination of pure Divinity and SAT or pure Divinity and Shaktipat), or in his live YouTube transmissions (every Monday) (currently pure Divinity + SAT), or in a normal youtube transmission video like this: Gareth also holds weekend online intensives once or twice each month. - SAT Transmission Also called Supramental Force. Explained in this video. Gareth can give SAT, as well as Sat Shree. SAT is said to come from Brahman. I guess you could consider Brahman as the formless Godhead. And the purpose of this transmission is to get to Brahman. SAT is by far the most powerful transmission for Brahman Consciousness and therfore is my favourite transmission. Brahman Consciousness is similar to what is experienced during conscious sleep, therefore SAT is also helpful for sleep yoga. After having been receiving SAT for some time, my baseline is a bit closer to that formless Brahman Consciousness. But the most significant impact of SAT has been on my meditations which are also closer to Brahman Consciousness now. Peak states feel very close to Brahman Consciousness. During these, my recognition dimension is in Brahman Consciousness and the depth/immersion dimension seems close (recognition and depth dimension explained here). That means it's a very altered state of consciousness. But this is not solely because of SAT, it obviously also has to do with my high baseline consciousness, high sensitivity and brainwave skills from sleep yoga. But I am very sure that SAT has its good share. There has undoubtedly been a deepening of the depth dimension due to SAT. So I think this is the main thing you can expect from SAT, an impact on your depth dimension, mainly during meditation but also a bit on your baseline. This is also what most people report, very deep meditation. Some experience dropping in and out of consciousness (including me sometimes) which might maybe be Nirvikalpa Samadhi. A very nice thing about SAT (and pure Divinity maybe too) is that once you are strongly connected to the force, it will start to automatically come down randomly during the day but mainly during meditation. And you begin to be able to channel it yourself. Also if you often join the zoom group transmissions, you will naturally get connected to the group. Many people have been reporting to get transmissions during times when Gareth gives a transmission to someone else of the group, because of the conection to the group. This also happens if you meditate at the same time as the zoom transmissions, though it is more powerful to actually join. (this also applies to pure Divinity and I think for his Shaktipat also) The aim of SAT is Brahman Consciousness but that doesn't mean you will get there. Brahman Consciousness is an extremely advanced state. I assume the vast majority of spiritual teachers aren't able to enter that state, probably never been there. Even with psychedelics it is rare to reach it (Brahman Consciousness means completely dissolving the dream, your room is gone, as well as body sensations). - RASA RASA is very effective to increase your recognition dimension (up until a certain point). Once at LOC 1000 you are probably subtly conscious of God, Love, Nothingness and Oneness. How strongly you will be conscious depends on factors like your genetics, brain chemistry before RASA, how much spiritual progress you have made apart from RASA,... RASA is what got me from normal human consciousness into woke consciousness (around 2 years ago). Though it was subtle (because it only addresses the recognition dimension). I started from the LOC 570s and I think it took me around 13 1on1 sessions or so until LOC 1000. You can receive 1on1 RASA sessions from Ramaji or Ananda, or any other RASA giver (I think they have half the price). Ramaji and Ananda also hold monthly zoom meetings with RASA at the end. They also uploaded some of them (including the RASA) to YouTube . To learn more about the LOC 1000 model, read Ramaji's book "1000". - Shaktipat The purpose of Shaktipat is to awaken your kundalini. Once fully awake (which is very rare) you are automatically in a higher baseline consciousness. But the most significant effect of kundalini is Bliss. The more awake your kundalini, the higher your Bliss (baseline but mainly meditations). For me Shaktipat puts me in a deep and blissful meditation. It has also resulted in much progress in kundalini awakening. After a few weeks of receiving Shaktipat several times a week + watching Shaktipat youtube videos during meditation + some kriya supreme fire I experienced vibrations in my spine (during meditation, when focusing on the spine) (I had done around 500 hours of kundalini yoga up until this point, and my meditations were already energetic from invoking spirits). The vibrations were pulsating up and down. First they went till the 3rd chakra, then the 4th, then 5th, and eventually into the brain (maybe 1-2 weeks later). Upon that, I experienced strong literal bliss going up my spine, putting me into deep bliss, sometimes ecstasy. This lasted for a few weeks, and was strongest during meditation. Then it subsided. But during meditation around 20-80% of the bliss is still there, depending on the quality of the meditation. I believe my kundalini is partially awake, but not fully. People I know of who can give strong Shaktipat: Jan Esmann He probably gives the strongest Shaktipat, particularly if you get to sit around him. He does intensives in Europe, if you can join one, that would probably be quite an experience. Gareth's kundalini fully woke up during an intensive with Jan. Jan also woke up Diana's kundalini. He also gives shaktipat in absentia. He charges a mala necklace and mails it to you. I got one, and can recommend it. He also holds Zoom Transmissions every Tuesday. And has YouTube transmissions . Kai Shanti I think her transmissions are a combination of shaktipat and God's Grace. They are quite strong for me. The state of consciousness it puts me in is a bit similar to the one from pure Divinity. So it is divine, blissful and energetic. Very recommended. She speaks an intuitive light language during the transmissions, and is also very psychic, so she can for example see blockages you have. She gives 1 on 1 transmissions as well as weekly live group transmissions on learnitlive.com . You can get a learnitlive membership for around $8 a month and then can join these sessions for free. She also has transmissions on YouTube . Gareth Gareth gives Shaktipat in 1 on 1 sessions, as well as in zoom group sessions (currently in combination with pure Divinity) and he also has some Shaktipat transmissions on Youtube. Advaitashram They have several Shaktipat givers. They offer 1 on 1 sessions as well as weekly zoom sessions on Tuesday and Wednesday. Website Kip He sells audios charged with Shaktipat. Try the free samples on his website, I immediately felt an effect from the Kali one. I bought all of them and, using Audacity, layered them into one audio. I currently listen to it during meditation (+plus video transmissions from Gareth). You could even get the audio of all kundalini transmissions on youtube and layer these audios in as well. Just make sure to export the audio in wav and I forgot how it's called but in audacity on the bottom on the left there is a number at around 48 000. Turn it to 92 000 or so (I don't remember the exact number). Thus you ensure to not lose any quality. Kip also has free audios on his YouTube channel but I guess the paid versions are more potent. Siddhanta Yoga She gives one on one sessions and has YouTube transmissions. - KAP KAP is explained in this video. Kap is a transmission to activate the kundalini. KAP leads to kriyas in many participants (there are many different youtube videos where you can see it). Most people have small movements, some have very big and some none. It usually takes some sessions till movements start. For me they started after around 5 sessions. But they were small/subtle, and stayed that way, and I don't think they might increase more. The movements are mostly subtle pulsatings of the spine. In the beginning, the movements require some conscious effort, but eventually they kinda happen on their own, without conscious involvement. But they can be stopped at any moment (in 99,9% cases). From my experience KAP does help to awaken the kundalini. In fact, my biggest kundalini success (when the vibrations finally entered the brain and the big Bliss started) happened during a KAP session (or right after, I don't remember). Despite this I think that purely for a kundalini awakening, Shaktipat is more powerful. While KAP does help in kundalini awakening, the focus is one purification. Purification of your energy system as well as emotional purification. Doing KAP before your kundalini awakening will probably result in a more smooth kundalini rising (because of less blockages) (my kundalini awakening was smooth and blissful). That is one benefit of KAP. If you are someone who is faced with emotional stuff while tripping, I recommend KAP sessions. Similarly to Shamanic Breathing, they purify and release emotional stuff. Most people only experience emotional stuff during KAP sessions, and nothing nondual. But that's probably because of their baseline, most of them don't even know about enlightenment. I do experience some subtle effect on nondualness. The main effect of KAP is longterm baseline. Many people report being more at peace and more blissful. I think KAP does help for enlightenment, but not as much as other transmissions. The focus of KAP seems to be on personal development (purification and releasing shadow stuff and so on). On this site is a list of many KAP facilitators, most of them give 1on1 online sessions, and many of them give in person group sessions (if you're lucky to live nearby). And on this site is a list of those who offer online zoom group sessions. I've had KAP with at least 5 different facilitators (group zoom) and while all of them are good, Diana Kasperska is the most skilled. She is a lot more spiritually evolved and seems to be the only one doing enlightenment work. She's also a bit psychic and sometimes perceives some stuff about you during the transmission, like blockages, and then can tell you about it after the transmission. If you book group zoom sessions with Diana, book via her Website there you (currently) get them 33% cheaper if you book several at once. - Light Transmissions Light Transmissions seem to be similar to RASA. Gareth gives Light Transmissions in 1on1 sessions, and says that his Light Transmissions have a similar effect as RASA. There are many light transmissions on Youtube. I think most of them work well, but I don't think these are as powerful as RASA. The Transmissions from Imogen seem to stand out, but I assume RASA is still more powerful. Anyway, she gives weekly live transmissions on Youtube and has normal video transmissions. The different transmissions affect different dimensions of Consciousness: Predominantly recognition dimension: RASA, Light Transmissions Predominantly depth/immersion dimension: SAT, Shaktipat, KAP Both dimensions somewhat equally: Pure Divinity, Kai Shanti's transmission Transmissions can be really powerful to increase your baseline if done over a long period. The more you do, the more sensitive you get, and the more powerful they become. My first transmissions (RASA) were all subtle. Only now, after much energy work, immediate effects of transmissions are really strong. Over the time, I've learnt how to channel these transmissions myself, and since maybe 2 weeks, these transmissions are similarly strong for me as those given by someone else. When I receive transmissions from someone else nowadays, I channel myself at the same time, making the session extra potent . The quickest way to become more sensitive to transmissions is to receive many transmissions. Always let a youtube transmission play during meditation. You can even let them play while doing stuff like reading. And any energy work in general also benefits that process, especially kriya supreme fire. here I posted some more YouTube transmissions. The zoom group transmissions are always much cheaper than the 1on1 transmissions, and some are on donation basis. So do maaaany. As many as you can. I used to attend to up to 10 zoom group transmissions a week. (that was a few months ago) The progress I made since then is crazy. In one month doing all these transmissions I made probably more progress than within the 12 months before that. The more you do, the more effects you get, except with RASA and Light Transmissions, it seems like doing them more than once a week doesn't speed things up. All transmissions are different and hit the ego from a different angel, so it is a good idea to do many different ones. Generally, 1on1 sessions are more powerful than group sessions: in person (not online) > 1 on 1 session > live zoom > live youtube > normal youtube - How to make a transmission session more powerful: meditate a few minutes beforehand. I recommend kriya supreme fire (particularly before shaktipat transmissions) try to be receptive Once you are advanced, try to channel the energy at the same time For your normal mediation sessions you can experiment with following: I found that the larger and the closer the screen, the stronger the transmission (but only a subtle difference) It seems that playing several transmission videos at once can make it more powerful. You can use different devices, and open several windows at the same time. I actually mixed more than 10 videos into one new video, I think the software I used is called Filmora9. Doing this really seemed to increase the potency. But sometimes I'm not sure, currently I mainly meditate to single videos. Experiment. You can mix the same video several times, or many different ones. - Ability to give aura transmissions: To be able to give the first kind of transmissions, the "aura transmissions", the most important requirement is to have a strong depth/immersion baseline consciousness. The recognition dimension has pretty much no value for that. Apart from that it's also helpful to have a very strong aura, the best practices for that is receiving transmissions, channeling energies and invoking spirits. Share your experiences with transmissions

I mean sure you're right but we can still talk about it relatively. I don't really need to know exactly how it works, why it does and etc. I just want to know if it can pull (or is) infinitely many more out of its own nothingness that may have 0 to do with its current finite experience (Universe, Finity, Duality). Like is this the only form of finite existence that can be? I doubt it, but if it is so then why?

@The0Self You saying it's impossible to know nothingness ? but how do you know that it's impossible to know isn't that itself knowing what's not knowable ?

According to many channelings, God or Source were in a state of nothingness, it was just being. But then came the idea to experience something more than this being. So then the Mother and Father God were created from that source, and they created angelic creator gods that created more and so on. Go into a deep Samadhi meditation and see for yourself!

@IAmReallyImportant No. Don't worry, I scored high as well, but I have HFA not psychopathy. There are too many variables, all people are too unique for simplified tests like this. All the actually important values: like, not screwing people over, caring if you see animals/humans abused, ect, I agree with. A psychopath would not care. I feel more emotional range as well. I love my pets. I love my family, even if they get on my nerves. I did come from a very messed up home, but I have come very far from where I used to be when I was younger. I worked on it. Some of the questions are things a person has done in the past and it doesn't take account of the changes a person can make in their lives over time. I acted in ways that were unempathetic, but when I felt the results of my actions I did not like what I saw and made adjustments. I continue to do this, but I'm not very skilled at it unless I know a person or a pet very well. Then I can build a library of what to do and eventually I do feel more authentic. I think when I am calm and in a good place that I am very nice and agreeable. As for darkness, it's not something to mess with unless you accidently find it, and you have to use it purely for good, or it monkey paws on you later down the road, karmically. It has to choose you. An initiation with it. And it's more of an impartial judge than anything else. Ignorance, childlikeness, illness, that isn't used against you if you find it, just general true malice. There is a lot of wiggle room when it comes to darkness. If you use it wrong it will devour you in some way later on down the road through karmic retribution, though. I've experienced this as a cosmic warning before, for messing with things I wasn't supposed to. It's hard to explain. It is like a material, the material magicians and alchemists use. It's an energy , just like anything else and has a bad reputation, or is turned into something angsty or Hollywood - but it's simply a more "thick" boomerang manifesting energy. It's also a nothingness, that can sometimes come in through a personal tautology.

Sounds finite, but then again, why "that can be imagined" if it is unlimited? Or is it only so relative to our perspective? Is God simply an infinitely bigger version of a human mind that can "run" paradoxes and be composed out of nothingness? Yep, I understand that's what it's composed of, but let's please stay within relativity here. I know in absolute terms this discussion and whatever God is or isn't is pointless which is why I'm not talking in absolutes. Well the different types of psychedelics yield different experiences and while you may get to this conclusion on say 5-Meo or NN-Dmt you could get the complete opposite of love from say Salvia. Unless you mean "Love" in absolute terms where a child getting mutilated is an act of love. But like I said, from a relative standpoint this isn't it. Okay, why is it that way based on your experiences? If the answer is that it "couldn't have been any other way" then what exactly is it bounding it to be a certain way if there can't exist anything outside of it to do so? And if we go by the "Love and Good are absolutes" and "reality is designed to maximize love" premise which really is just to be at peace with itself regardless of what's going on then there shouldn't be a limit or any absolutes in any other sense simply because it's cool with whatever is going down. How exactly do you experience Absolute Infinity if it's really infinite unless it's simply a finite amount of things being repeated over and over again to a point where you're like: "oh ok this is it then"? And I'm not actually making distinctions I do understand that everything is one but whether it be by perception or else reality holds different attributes and/or qualities. Language simply fails me here. True, I remember you saying this: "The craziest part is that space and time are just two of infinitely many aspects of infinity. Infinity is not subject to space or time. Those are finities." Which really is what I've been trying to say all along and if we go by this then you're agreeing with me I believe... I just think that it's dumb to think that Infinity is simply a 4-D Space-Time Universe program with biological agents running itself start to finish over and over again ad infinitum and boom that's it. This is also would contradict another thing you said about it which was: "No wonder the mind cannot grasp it. It's infinitely beyond the mind. A billion minds working for a billion years will never even make 0.00000000001% progress towards grasping it." If it were simply: Good and Love are absolutes, the universe is it, time is eternal and self-repeating... boom. Then I see no reason why a billion minds working for a billion years couldn't figure it out lol. By the way, you said a lotta other things about it which were beautifully put and really moved me. Cheers.

I’d be interested to hear about when you close your eyes and materialism disappears, how as consciousness we can experience physical experience through the eyes of others (so to speak), is there a level of consciousness that a self can retain itself whilst being aware enough to the point that he/she can experience other as one? Will ego/identification always be the final illusion before absolute oneness? I guess I’d like to know how God can experience at all if it is completely selfless, if there is no attachment to even itself.. Infinite nothingness vs infinite somethingness. what’s the actual evolution of universal spirit and why does anything have preference?

I spent a lot of time on a beautiful beach today. 8 hours, or so. Loved it. Listened to epic music, drank and ate, walked in slow motion, absorbed a lot of sunlight. I was sensing eyes on me, frequently. There were so many people out. I was observing them too, for a few moments. Fascinating beings. But mainly; I was looking right through reality, the whole time. Staring into the endless nothingness. Lost in the reverberation. Towards the end, I had a wonderful meditation session. A solid hour and a half. I went so deep, I completely forgot where or who I was. Theta waves in my ears, of course. My favorite. Did not sync with a metronome, but I'm guessing the pulse was around 90bpm, since I was breathing pretty deep. A few options for work opened, already. Again I am in a position where I can choose. Being careful not to find myself paralyzed by choice. Taking a step forward tomorrow in regards to that. No rush though. Finding an apartment should be easy, too. It's a big city, there's plenty of options. But first I must secure that job. Some interaction/socialization. I enjoyed it. Looking forward to meeting someone who I could hang out with, soon. I only need one cool person, and they will pull me in and connect me with groups. That's how it always goes, any time I move some place new. Some unexpected money found its way to me, again. Very, very nice. At times I could burst with gratitude. And other times, I just want more. Much, much more. I finally feel worthy of it all. Except when I don't. Good news; regardless of how I feel or what I think... I just keep going. Infinite Will. The Heart started a fire that cannot be extinguished.

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(Didn't post this properly the first time. Also needed a re-edit.) 440. Summary: How To Forgive Anyone Who Hurt You - A Powerful Trauma Release Exercise “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” -Luke 23:24 Forgiveness is a very powerful tool that can help you heal and reach new levels of consciousness and fulfilment in life. This exercise is a template for how to heal any situation in which anyone has ever wronged you or hurt you in some way. 1) Pick a person and a situation you want to work on forgiving. Probably an immediate family member. It can be a major or minor event, as long as there’s hurt, emotional baggage or lingering injustice. 2) Don’t start with something super heavy or traumatic. This exercise can stir up a lot of repressed emotion and memories. You should see a therapist for super heavy, traumatic stuff. Forgiveness Meditation (Meditation Begins at 7:27) ○ Replay the memory as you’re listening to the guided meditation. If the situation is really painful, you can relive the situation from a third-person perspective to get some emotional distance. ○ Notice your true feelings towards this person as a result of this situation. You might love this person, but deep down there may be some suppressed resentment that you tried to ignore or never fully aired out. ○ Don't try to act tough or pretend like you're invincible. Allow yourself to feel the hurt. ○ Notice the judgments you have. How did he or she fail you? What did you want from them that they failed to give you in this situation? ○ Now ask yourself, do I want to forgive this person for this situation: yes or no? If you don’t, that’s okay, but let’s look a little deeper. (14:00) What does forgiveness mean here? What are you saying yes or no to? Are you willing to let go of what they did to you without holding it against them in anyway anymore? Are you willing to let go of the hurt, the sense of injustice and the need to get even? Are you willing to stop demonizing them? To understand the situation from their point of view? Are you willing to extend your mercy to that person? Why would you say yes to forgiveness? Notice that your hate, resentment and judgment weighs you down in life. Forgiveness will make you stronger. Replay the situation in your mind, considering all these extra factors: Do you want to be a strong person or a weak person? Do you want to be a hateful person or a loving person? Do you want to continue being traumatized? Do you want to clear the air and maybe rebuild that relationship? You can hold on to that resentment until your deathbed, but is that really what you want? Keep looking at this situation until you realize that you want to be strong and not small, which means you want to forgive. So if you're still resisting, keep looking deeper and deeper until your mind realizes that forgiveness is the wisest course of action. If you're unsure, be courageous and take a gamble. After all, if you think the forgiveness was a mistake you can pick your resentment back up later. The Five Reasons People Hurt You Now let's look at the other person's point of view (22:19). Deeply contemplate: why did this person hurt you? Notice that they didn't want to hurt you. Most of the evil stuff people do is just action out of ignorance, fear, selfishness, the need for and lack of love, and lack of consciousness. These are universal truths about human behavior that cover many situations. 1. Ignorance. They were doing their best to do good, but given their limited capabilities the result wasn't good for you. They were ignorant, so their best wasn't very good. If they're in a low state of consciousness what they think is best for you might be the exact opposite. 2. Weakness and Fear. If they did something nasty to you, it's probably because they were weak in that moment. They succumbed to some kind of fear or temptation, therefore they hurt you. 3. Selfishness. 4. Lack of Love and because of that, a desperate desire to get love. Deep down they were lacking in love and they wanted love from you, but because they're ignorant, selfish and weak they didn't know how to properly get the love they wanted. Usually when somebody does something “evil” it's because they want love, but don't know how to get it except through selfish actions. 5. Lack of Consciousness. This was not a high consciousness person. At that time and situation, if the person was in a more developed state, they would have behaved very differently. If you still can't see this, keep replaying and contemplating the situation deeper until you see that this is true. All people are seeking love in one form or another (31:50). Can you see how in this situation this person was not being evil, but actually this person was trying to be good? This person was seeking love in ignorant ways. It might be in the form of money, sex, a relationship, a favour, a business opportunity, fame, pleasure, etc. These are all just different forms of love. You can't just assume that the person is identical to you and should have acted the way you would have. To say “they shouldn't have done that” ignores their entire life history. People are different, so how you handle a situation is very different from how someone else might. People have different strengths, weaknesses, genetics, upbringing, personality, capabilities, talents, experiences, resources, more money, less money, more status, less status, different gender. The Struggle for Love is Universal Now, bring to mind all of the times when you have acted out of ignorance, weakness, fear, selfishness, unconsciousness and a need for love. (36:00) Draw that direct connection, that commonality, between this person and yourself. You weren't hurt because somebody wanted to hurt you. They were just acting out universal dynamics of human behavior. So it's really not personal, and likewise you've done the same thing. It might seem like, “shouldn’t it be obvious that this person hurt me?” Not to that person, because they have a different world view. They're so preoccupied with fulfilling their need for love that they’re unaware of the collateral damage of their actions. That is ignorance and lack of consciousness in a nutshell. Notice how in your life you try to be good most of the time (40:05). Almost never do you intentionally try to hurt others. If you do it's usually accidental, out of ignorance of some kind. Now apply this principle to this person in this situation. Notice that when you do something “bad” in your life, you’re still fundamentally good. The bad that you do is a mistake. It's a failure, an oversight due to your weakness, fear and ignorance. All you ever want is to be good. The problem is it’s difficult to be good. Notice that this person who hurt you is also fundamentally good. They are trying to be good, but doing it through their worldview. Just like you, all this person ever wanted from life was love. If they lied, cheated, manipulated or bullied you, it’s because they wanted love. What we all have in common is that we're all struggling for love. Try to find that common thread between your behaviors and this person's behaviors and really all human behaviors. We all fear. We're all ignorant, selfish and unconscious to various degrees (43:00). Granted, some are less ignorant and selfish than others, but why? It’s because they’re born in different circumstances. Your parents were born in a different time where it might have been much more difficult to survive, requiring them to be more blunt in their approach. You know these limitations intimately, so you should be able to draw a deep, existential, common link between your struggles and the struggles of this person. Fundamentally, the struggle is the same. It just manifests itself in different ways. How can you hold a grudge against this person for being desperate for love when you have been that way your entire life? Are you willing to be so merciful, so strong that you even drop the need to get even? Can you forgive a human for being scared, ignorant, unconscious, wanting love and for trying to be good but failing along the way? A selfish, hurt person wants to get even. A generous, strong person can extend mercy without needing to get even. The highest strength you can possess is to be hurt by another and to not need to retaliate, because you're secure in yourself. A Chain of Hurt Hurt people hurt people (48:20). Notice that if you were hurt, the person who hurt you was probably hurt by someone else. It's a chain of hurt. So, are you willing to be strong enough to break this chain of hurt? Or, are you going to be a link in this toxic chain and pass the hurt on to somebody else? The people closest to you will get hurt the most by the hurt that you refuse to let go of. When you don't forgive, that hurt bubbles up in unconscious, ignorant ways. It affects your behavior and inadvertently hurts others, like your children, spouse and friends. Do you want to infect others like a virus, or do you want to be strong, cut the chain and save somebody else from incurring your hurt? A Conscious Choice You have the option to make a conscious choice, but look at your options (50:45). Do you choose to keep judging this person who hurt you and not forgive them? If so, notice that you're choosing that out of weakness, selfishness, fear and ignorance. On the other hand, you could choose to be selfless and good, to heal yourself and let go of this resentment. To break the chain of hurt, in which case you choose consciousness, wisdom and love over fear. Now that you’re aware of the consequences of your choices, you can make a conscious decision. Do you want to choose fear and selfishness, or do you choose selflessness and love? Don't feel forced here. This has to be a conscious free choice. Are you loving and selfless enough to embrace the one who hurt you? People act out of fear and a need for love, and sometimes they'll cause collateral damage towards you. Will you let that debase you or will you rise above that? Weak or Strong? Are you strong enough to love even when others are too weak to love you, or are you so weak that you're going to wait for others to love you before you extend your love to them (54:00). Are you strong enough to be able to love without requiring your love to be returned back to you immediately? Recognize that if you don't forgive you are being less than your highest self. You are being less than you are fully capable of because you are capable of love. If you reject this forgiveness you're doing so out of fear, the fear of what would happen if you loved somebody who hurt you or somebody who was ignorant. This is the very same cycle that led to you being hurt in the first place by this person. Right now you can consciously break this cycle of ignorance, so make your choice. Whatever choice you make is fine—no judgments. If you still decide not to forgive, then that's just where you're at. Forgive Yourself First Before you can fully forgive the other person you must first forgive yourself (56:20). Forgive yourself for all the times that you have been ignorant, selfish, fearful, unconscious and needy for love. Forgive yourself for all the times that you have inadvertently hurt others. Now why would you forgive yourself for this? Because that's life! Because life has put you in this existential bind where you have to survive and where you start life from total ignorance. Survival is complex, counterintuitive and it takes trial and error to learn how to navigate life. So, are you gonna judge yourself for having been born in ignorance? Others are doing the same thing and this generates the full gamut of life, the highs and the lows. So are you willing to forgive yourself for being ignorant and selfish and fearful and needy for love? Why would you not? If you're able to forgive yourself then notice that you simultaneously forgive the other person as well. There's no difference between forgiving self and forgiving other. You’re not just forgiving a specific situation. You’re forgiving the general universal principles of ignorance, selfishness, fear, unconsciousness and craving for love. These are much easier things to forgive when you frame it in this universal way, because these are like forces of nature. It's sort of like forgiving gravity. Gravity is just a force of nature. It's not personal. People are Different You might know how to cope with a situation in a healthy way but don't assume that others do. (ep: Why People Seem Crazy) eg: Don’t assume that your parents or people from a prior generation to you have that kind of knowledge and wisdom. Your parents couldn't just google how to cope with depression, alcoholism, etc. They weren’t lucky enough to come across personal development, spirituality or awakening. Your parents probably had to suffer through that for 40 years until they had you and then they transferred the hurt onto you because they didn't know better. So, keep replaying this situation with this person until you realize that anything short of total forgiveness in this situation would be beneath you. You are too good and too strong not to forgive this person. If any hurt remains keep going through this process, like a cycle. Just keep contemplating it deeper and deeper and deeper. You may need to do this a few times. Awakening and Forgiveness There's an even deeper version of this exercise for those of you who had some degree of awakening. If you haven’t had that this section might not make much sense (1:03:10). At the existential level, the boundary between self and other is not real. You can do this exercise again, but notice that the person you were hurt by is literally you. So, you hurt yourself. You have been resenting yourself. You were both the hurter and the one who was hurt and the hurt that was felt. Existentially, this hurt happened because both parts of reality, of consciousness, was asleep, divided and fragmented. You merge yourself with the other and notice that you and other are one. You finally reunite the two. You notice that everything is You with a capital y, or God with a capital g. Also, if you've become highly conscious, you know that reality, self and God are completely inevitable. There's no other way that this situation could be, so what happened to you couldn't have been otherwise. It was perfect, because it was necessary for your awakening, and for you to have further and deeper awakenings. You can recontextualize this situation as necessary to make you more compassionate, to overcome the situation, forgive, let go, be merciful and realize a deeper form of yourself as love. If you've had an awakening you know that you are love. So, forgiveness is nothing other than you being love. Love is the expression of the entire universe, such that no matter what happens it is love. There's absolutely nothing to forgive, because everything that ever happened to you was love, and at this point you have accepted yourself completely as what you truly are, which is love! When you realize this, you go full circle. You’re completely whole, healed and nobody can hurt you. You look back and realize that nothing really hurt you, because it was all just necessary for you to learn a deeper form of love. So who got hurt? This last part here is some advanced stuff. If this doesn't resonate with you, just keep working on the psychological level, that’s powerful enough by itself. Future Practice 1) Do this exercise multiple times until you get the hang of it (1:09:40). You can do a simplified version of it. Basically, you’re drawing a commonality between the one who hurt you and you who got hurt. You're bringing the two closer and closer until they merge into a unity that nullifies and cancels itself out. It heals itself in unity. 2) Practice this on multiple significant people in your life (mother, father, siblings, ex spouse, partner). Like those you were closest to in childhood, those who caused the most pain. You have more people to forgive than you think. 3) Practice this on individual traumatic events. What happened with your father when you were 5 years old, 10 years old, 15 years old, 20 years old, etc. It's also going to depend on how traumatic your childhood was. The more ignorant, unconscious, fearful and selfish your parents were, the more trauma and hurt they transferred on to you inadvertently. Therefore, the more work you're gonna have to do to let it all go, but also the deeper your lessons will be. Don't think that if you have all this trauma that somehow you're in some terrible situation. No, the upside to having a very traumatic childhood is that, although it was terrible, if you're able to overcome and heal it all, you will be so powerful, so much more powerful than a person who had it easy. If you work through everything on your plate you can become really strong. Invest in Your Future Make this investment in the future of your life (1:12:40). Doing all this forgiveness work should be enough to cauterize a lot of those old wounds. If you focus, this can take as little as a week or up to a month. Think of how much this is going to free up your life going forward. It’ll free up your family and intimate relationships. It'll make you more loving, easy going and peaceful. Otherwise this trauma accumulates and doesn't get processed fully. It robs you of energy, making you bitter, petty, depressed and cynical. You’ve been so hurt by life that you lash out and want to hurt others, and that cycle perpetuates itself. The Power of Understanding Notice the power of understanding (1:14:30). Draw a connection between how a deep, proper understanding of a situation removes all the baggage and enables you to heal. If you think that reality is this terrible awful thing, that's simply because you lack a high enough, existential understanding of life and other people. If you did, it would heal you and you would be loving. God is mercy because God has infinite self understanding. There's nothing left to forgive, because you completely accept yourself as what you truly are. Which is the Truth, the Absolute and Oneness with the Universe. When you're Everything, what is there to judge? Resentment only exists within duality. Anything you resent would just be you shooting yourself in the foot. Realize that forgiveness is nothing other than self-love, self-acceptance, unity, truth and consciousness. You're so conscious that you have nothing left to hate. To reject the absolute, to reject the inevitable is insanity. A Warning about Forgiveness Don’t use this technique to tolerate some jerk who is actively abusing, mistreating or not appreciating you (1:18:00). To keep excusing and suffering his abuse is a misuse of forgiveness. You being loving doesn't mean you have to be someone else’s slave. That’s a common misunderstanding. Leaving a toxic relationship is love. Acknowledge first that you're in an abusive relationship that’s not going to work out. Muster the courage to leave and then you can practice forgiveness all you want, from a safe distance away from the abuser. You can forgive yourself for getting into this terrible relationship. You can forgive this boyfriend or spouse, but first you must recognize that there’s such a thing as physical and emotional danger. You don't want to use forgiveness to maintain a bad, objectively unhealthy situation. If this person is just totally selfish, abusive, blaming, unwilling to work on himself and communicate with you, you need to leave. The most loving action here is to realize that this person is not right for you and this won’t work out. Psychedelics and Forgiveness Try doing this exercise while doing psychedelics (1:21:25). Psychedelics raise your consciousness and open your mind to God, Love, to the ignorance that others are in and that you’ve been in your whole life. Non-Duality is Not Nihilistic Non-duality is not some dry, cold, philosophical nihilism (1:25:00). With awakening you don't awaken to some bleak, nihilistic reality. You awaken to love. Enlightenment is healing. You become complete, you become God, you become Love. You become whole again. Your birth was like a fracture in universal mind. It gets put back together with enlightenment, or with death. Reality is not this neutral thing that materialists and scientists have taught you to believe. Buddhists also talk about reality being emptiness. Of course love is emptiness, love is nothingness, consciousness is nothingness. It's just that “emptiness” has a lot of bad connotations to it. It's often confused with nihilism. People who've never fully, deeply experienced emptiness don't understand that it's love. That's the miracle of awakening. Awakening is so good that you die by drowning in an ocean of infinite goodness. Then you become nothing. You become God. What kind of sick, twisted universe would this be if it wasn't pure love? The twisted, sickness of it wasn't in the universe itself. It was in your perception of it. So, when you unravel your ego you see reality as it is: just pure love. (ep: The Structure of Reality) Why Work So Hard To Awaken? “But Leo, if awakening and death are the same thing, why work so hard to awaken? I'll just wait to die and it'll be the same thing as working really hard for enlightenment today.” So you want to live a miserable life for the next 50, 60, 80 years where you never see the infinite love that is all around? That’s your life strategy? (1:30:00) Imagine you were born an orphan, but had a 100 billion dollar trust fund. People told you to check your trust fund, but you said, “that’s bs. I'm gonna keep struggling and going to a minimum wage job.” Then on your deathbed you finally check your trust fund and realize it had 100 billion dollars in it. Then you die. That would be the most tragic situation, but that's exactly what you're doing when you're postponing your awakening. Every minute that you're not awake you're living through an unnecessary hell, not realizing the love that is all around you. You could do that if you're a masochist. So, what do you do after awakening? You appreciate the love and then you radiate the love and you participate in the love and that's how life should be. The problem is humans are so scared of love that they spend their whole lives running away from it. God can't force the love on you. God can nudge you, but denial is a very powerful force. As long as you're in denial about truth and full of fear and selfishness, even God himself cannot make you realize that it's all love. You have to open your mind and let go of fear, hurt, frustration, bitterness and forgive yourself and others. Then you will make yourself whole and you'll realize love. That's the point of awakening.

Notice that you're actually not aware of yourself as "Endangered-Ego" until you focus your awareness on it. You actually forget your human self while you're going about your day, doing mundane tasks. But if I stop you and ask you, Do you know you are Endangered-Ego? You will say, of course. It's the same way for me with God. When I'm doing mundane tasks, the notion of me being God drops away. But if I stop and ask myself, "Am I God?", the answer is, "Of course! All this is God." I can sort of focus my awareness on various facets of God. I can look at a chair and notice the fact that a chair is God, or I can notice the fact that it is Love, or I can notice the fact that is Nothingness, or I can notice the fact that it is Infinity, or I can notice the fact that it is Me, or I can notice the fact that it is all those things simultaneously, or I can just see it as a boring old chair (which is how I typically experience chairs). It usually take a slight bit of effort to see a chair as God. I can't lose interest in God. I am endlessly interested in it. If I just sit around or stand around in line, I can't help noticing things as parts of God. This fills with me endless curiosity and wonder. But I'm not constantly doing this because I got business handle. When I'm lost in the flow of doing business, I'm not aware of God, in the same way that you are not aware of your human self when you're in flow. So it does take some self-reflective effort to notice God. Even though God is always present. Notice that you're not aware of your ass most of the time until you focus on your ass.

@Leo Gura Okay interesting, so with focus IN on absolute truth: Is that the same type of focus as focusing on an object, or is it more like a retraction of focus from any object? Does it need effort or is the effort collapsing during concentration? I'm very vague but I don't know how to put it in better words. Is it more a going IN or allowing to be absorbed by it? Also, if you just wait somewhere and don't want to do anything, are you constantly absorbed by it, or is the awareness absorbed by the sense of self? You mentioned cessation/nothingness is going down and god is going up. Is there a difference between concentrating IN and and being absorbed between the 2? Or was this just to show the distinctions and the awareness does the same in both cases? Imagine you lost interest in experiments in consciousness. You've had so many God realisations that every part of you is bored or not really interested in it anymore. Would there be a collapse of the focusing on being-god and being focused on ego-mind? Would it switch naturally between ego self and god? Would it only be ego-self, or would it only be god? I'm asking that, because for me it's kind of the opposite. Reality loses it's meaning and substance, once I am fed up with playing with awareness. There's nothing I can do to make it real again, and once it gets too weird, my ego self automatically jumps in and prevents the getting absorbed into the absolute now.

I have direct experience in this area. From the beginning of this year to about 3 months ago I worked everyday to open certain chakras. I used the Bija mantras, LAM for Muladhara, VAM for Swadishthana etc etc. I would feel the elements becoming more prevalent in my body just after 3 hours of chanting. When I chanted HAM(Vishuddhi) for example, I would feel the space element growing in my almost as if nothingness was coursing through my veins. I was staying with parents one day, and I had chanted HAM for about 90 minutes, then my dad was looking for a lost TV remote with no sucess. He was talking about buying a new one. I said "You'll order the new remote, then later find the old one and it'll be for naught. The next morning, he had a vision of the remote sitting on a couch and proceeded to find it hidden under it. Funny, he was convinced no one would believe him, not realizing he had been influenced by me.

Hmm, if I have to summarize Truth vs Falsehood and ways to distinguish truth from falsehood. Falsehood is biases that cosplays as truth. Since falsehood acts as an overlay on top of truth, like wearing rose coloured glasses, the idea is to remove the glasses rather than searching the answer in the rose colored world Now, all of them have different ways to go about removing the glasses (this is where the concept of letting go comes in) After you removed all the glasses you were wearing that color your perspective, you get Truth/Love/God/Nothingness/Emptiness etc etc that's about what everyone is doing in this work

@Leo Gura Is there still an experience of "self" in you, or is it gone for good? Because people like Sam Harris, they say that if they put their awareness on itself they see the emptiness, but it's still a doing. Is there still the illusion of self seeking, or is just seeking happening? I'm not talking about infinite consciousness all the time, but more like automatic awareness of nothingness. It's really confusing to always need to compare teachers, also using the same words "knowing", "being", "emptiness", "nothing", "nothingness", "no-thing-ness" with different meanings attached to it. Also the difference between the illusory dog chasing it's illusory tail (There's nothing you can do to get enlightened) and not burning the boat before crossing the river. I listen to both. Before I meditate I am a seeker, and after meditation I watch videos pointing towards the illusory dog chasing it's illusory tail. Also, what's your take on the liberation from suffering.

Hey there, hope all is well. I will try not to make this post too long but there are some things that I wonder and constantly ask and research about myself regarding reality (or Absolute Infinity as Leo calls it) that I can't seem to find an answer to. And really I feel like close to no one wonders about it for some reason. Anyway, here we go: I assume there are a few things about Infinity that we can all agree with, and that is that it is absolutely infinite, it's paradoxical, it's nonsensical, it's unlimited and not bound by anything at all as it all there is. Basically, if we were to reduce it to language or concepts it's more like magic and divinity than it is science or equations A.K.A. it cannot be understood. Now here comes the tricky part... apparently reality is infinite because it has nothing to bound it otherwise it wouldn't be the ultimate reality. At the same time, it is everything and nothing. 'Nothing' being absolutely nothing at all; void of qualities. What then, is the "everything" side of it according to us? I feel like people describe their "infinity" trip report experiences as simply never-ending/eternal rather than IT being infinitely many more. And by that, I don't mean the usual "time is infinite", "space is infinite", "everything that can happen exists simultaneously" that I've read many many many times over. No. I mean like there being infinitely many more beyond what we can conceive. People describe Absolute Infinity as either a multiverse of universes or an infinite amount of finite things. And boom there you have it, that's it that's Absolute Infinity/Reality. If it is unlimited and has nothing to be bound by then there should be many more "things" than a 4D Space-Time Universe even in all its different configurations. Infinitely so. People say "everything that can be, is", the "can" being restricting. In infinity, there shouldn't be no "can be's" because there's nothing outside of it to bound the "can's", rather, it should be "everything is because it is", point. I read a trip report here, saying that the matter that created the universe did so because it had nothing else to do and nowhere else to go. Couldn't just "God" decide to wipe it if it wanted to? It could just create it back from the nothingness if it wanted to at some point. It doesn't have to make sense because something can come from nothing, just because, for no reason at all. What I'm trying to say is, Absolute Infinity and the "why is reality the way it is?" question do not blend together. It is because it is and it is also infinitely more, and not. And beyond. Or at least it should be. What is beyond the "can be's"? What is beyond the "it is this way because XYZ excuse"? Why is it either duality or non-duality and not infinitely more in between those states as well as previously and after them? Why is it either good or bad and not an infinite amount of other "emotions" that are no better or worse than the 2 main ones we know and can experience? Why would reality be a fractal and not infinitely beyond it? Why would Absolute Infinity be the ending point and not something beyond it? Surely we can't conceive there being something beyond Absolute Infinity because we can't understand it but we don't have to... and who's to say there isn't? If you can't make sense of what I just said: is Absolute Infinity a complete mystery in the sense that at some point after "my" death or multiple deaths I will no longer wake up in this Universe as a human and instead be or experience something that we as humans have absolutely and will never have any point of reference for? No spatial dimensions, no senses, no concepts, etc (what we could boil down our existence to)... and despite this, whatever this other thing is it wouldn't be abstract, it would be... something else entirely? And then something new again and again ad infinitum. Or, is Absolute Infinity simply Dual/Non-dual 4D Space-Time Universe(s), self-repeating for eternity because there's nothing else that could've been? This contradicts what some describe this Infinity to be like. I'd love the input of people who feel, think, or are completely sure they've experienced "All-That-Is" or "Absolute Infinity" whatever that may be for them. Thanks!