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Information Update, I mentioned in the OP that I used a suicide website. On that website, I've been complaining about this problem since October of 2023. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-plan-to-kill-myself-this-weekend-but-im-worried-about-the-pain.150955/ https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/im-suicidal-due-to-academic-competition.138142/ https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-want-to-ctb-because-i-feel-inferior-to-my-peers-do-i-have-a-low-iq.136921/ https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/im-really-insecure-about-missing-out-on-the-college-experience.136792/

I am literally just as lazy, my mom helped me through highschool. It's horrible to not achieve results, I feel you there really. Failure has caused me so much so much pain, but bro, I don't think its enough to consider suicide.

I hear you, man, but I need you to listen to me straight-up. You've been hit hard, and the frustration and despair are real—I get it. But this situation isn't the end, no matter how much it feels like it right now. The fact is, you've faced a massive wall, and you're crushed because you care. You had a vision for your life, and right now it seems like it’s fallen apart. But let’s get something straight: this isn’t about your intelligence or your worth. You’ve been knocked down by some setbacks—calculus didn’t click, maybe you’ve got a mental block with calculations. That sucks, but it doesn’t define you. It's a problem to be solved, not a verdict on your future. Suicide? No. Absolutely not. That's a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and you'd be cutting off the possibility of figuring this out. Maybe physics isn't where your talents lie, maybe it is, but one class isn't the measure of your potential. The rope? Throw it out. There are people who want to help, even if it feels like you’re all alone. You need to reach out to a counselor, talk to someone about this crushing weight you’re feeling, because it’s lying to you. And let’s talk about sociology. Yeah, it’s not as glamorous as physics in terms of earning potential, but it’s not worthless. It’s another path, and if you're passionate about it, you can carve a niche where you’ll thrive. Passion plus hustle beats anything. And even if sociology isn't where you land long-term, it’s not the end. Your degree doesn’t define your entire future either. - I have a bachelors in sociology and I'm happy with it. But still I knew the job opportunities were limited, so I stacked on with other courses like psychology, neuropsychology, pedagogy and other stuff that I could tie into my life purpose. And now after a long route I finally have a really great job that I love, within the field I want to work in. So its not hopeless!! Here’s the real talk: You’ve hit a setback. A big one. But it’s not game over. You’re still breathing, which means you still have options. You have to dig deep, get the support you need, and live to fight another day. This world needs you in it, whether you see it right now or not.

In all honesty, your plan was poorly made to begin with. It should have been apparent since high school that you do not have an aptitude for mathematics and such, so why go to Physics? A dream job sure sounds nice, but it's an idea in your head, the reality may differ significantly. For a brief period my dream job was to become an accountant, then first semester of college after a few classes I realized how immensely boring it actually is, nothing like the picture I envisioned. The fact that you're now going to remain a loser after failing the degree is also something your mind has constructed. Are you a prophet? The future is fluid, and can change a lot in unexpected ways. Maybe when (IF) you're 35 and working at McDonald's barely able to afford rent in some shithole, revisit the suicide route. But right now your situation is not a dead end at all, in fact it's likely going to feel liberating once the initial depression wave passes. Hold tight and try ro recontextualize it into a positive. Few other things, there's no need to beat yourself up for repeating the same mistakes, in fact that's the best way to deeply learn a lesson for many people, you step into the same pile of shit over and over, and finally decide enough is enough, that determination will be so strong it'll hold for life. Also, practically speaking, an average sociologist has better employability prospects than an average physicist. You'd have to really excel to achieve the prestige you wanted, so simply passing a class wouldn't have made a difference in the end.

@Husseinisdoingfine Please seek professional help immediately and don't do anything stupid. Call 988 - the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Or, Text HOME to 741741 if you prefer texting over calling. Failing an exam or dropping out of university are not a big deal in the grand scheme of things. In hindsight, they can even be seen as valuable or necessary experiences. Of course, you are unable to see this at this point as you are extremely emotionally involved in the situation right now. And it sounds like your issue might even be fixed yet. In any case and however it turns out, you can and will find a way forward. This is not worth throwing your life away over.

First World proplems . You are so out of touch . People in 3d world countries and in Gaza are starving to death and you want to suicide yourself because you can't find a girlfriend? Boo fucking woo. I'm not judging you..but you are so ungrateful to what you have and you are out of touch with the world.

But this is like only 10-20% of all suicides. Most people who commit suicide have been suffering for years. It is the only way out for them.

Yeah. That's the saddest aspect of suicide. The mind is clouded.

There are some people who commit suicide as an irrational emotional reaction to a sudeen event. A girl throw herself from a bridge because her boyfriend left her.

This is a frustrating situation that I'm in, but here we go. So the University I attend is part of the University System of Maryland. This matters because in this system, there is a policy in which a student must not be allowed to repeat a course more than three times. The first time I took Calculus I, I dropped it (counts as first attempt) because there were too many classes on my schedule and I was overwhelmed. The second time, I accidentally missed my final exam and scored and F in the class. The third time just happened, and I scored a D. It was a reduced 6-week summer session. I should have visited the office hours of the professor, as well as the supplemental instruction, but didn't because I thought my knowledge from the previous attempt would transfer over. I needed at least a C grade in order to qualify for Calculus II and Physics II. I earned a B in Physics I, but because my grade in Calculus I is a D, I no longer am eligible to earn a Physics degree at this University as I have failed to earn the requirement. I filled out a petition requesting that my major be changed to Sociology, for which I'm very unhappy about. Sociology is not a profitable degree, its practically on the same tier as Gender studies. I chose it because its my other passion, part from Physics. Because Sociology is not a degree which can earn me a good job out of college, I feel very hopeless and distressed. I also feel very inferior, how was I not able to pass Calculus I for fucks sake, what is wrong with me. That's a freshman throwaway class! I don't understand this about myself, but anything that involved Calculations, I simply cannot do. I remember I had to do take a mandatory Computer Science class, for which I scored a D in. We had to solve binary problems, converting 1's and 0's into numbers, and vice versa. I rehearsed this numerous times the day before, but on the day of the test I simply looked looked at the paper and I couldn't remember what I had just rehearsed the day before at all. On my second attempt of Calculus I, I had failed every single weekly quiz, how does that happen? Not one quiz did I score an A grade on. Even in my mandatory chemistry class, I scored a D because the highest grade I got on any exam was a C, despite going to office hours and studying for each test two weeks in advance. Because in chemistry, there are calculations required to balance the different electrons and such. On my final exam day, I just walked out the room with half the test blank because I looked at the page, and I couldn't remember anything! I had studied, studied a lot, but the individual calculations I couldn't remember, despite practicing the week before. My original plan to ensure my survival of working for SpaceEx or something like that just flew out the window, and the only forceable solution for my situation is suicide. Even if I do complete this degree in Sociology, what am I supposed to do with it? I have already bought a rope, for which I have tied into a slipknot, and saved into my backpack. I printed out a note, explaining my justifications and reasonings. I as well have a location and a plan. I will simply go to the stairwell of the on campus apartments, and hang myself from the metal beams comprising the staircase railings. The advice on how to hang myself comes from this website: *Edit: link deleted, but it was a suicide website which provided explicit instructions on how to commit suicide* Edit | tldr: My university has a policy preventing students from re-taking a course more than three times. I failed to pass calculus I with a grade of C or better on my third attempt, meaning I'm ineligible for a Physics degree as Calculus I is mandatory. I switched my major to my other passion, Sociology, but Sociology is not a profitable major. With my career plans in the toilet, I have decided that my only option is suicide.

God would. Suicide IS Love There, I said it!

Happy Suicide Prevention Month I love you thank you for being here with me

Happy Suicide Prevention Month!

I don't think that an eternal god who desires things, like living a human adventure or whatever, is possible even as an idea. He would have already lived infinite human adventures. If that god acts for "fun", he would be immersed in the absolute horror of eternal existence, after infinite human "adventures", the adventure of a Japanese office worker with suicidal depression number infinite would be equivalent to absolute cosmic horror and that god would only want to commit suicide and nothing else Id say that the thing is totally different : Given the absence of limits, reality is, and is absolute. There is only one reality, the absolute, and it is you and you can realize it right now. Now, given the absence of limits, there are infinite manifestations of that infinite absolute, in infinite directions and dimensions. All of them are the absolute, and all of them, infinite, which is unimaginable, are coordinated in an absolutely perfect way by total intelligence, inevitable since it is a consequence of the infinitude. We can call this god, but it is a god that does not want anything, that does not decide anything, that cannot help being, nor does it want to, it simply unfolds infinitely without beginning or end, which is not understandable by the mind, and here I am typing on a phone, which is a manifestation among infinite manifestations, so it has a meaning equivalent to zero, and an essence equivalent to infinity: the total absolute.

🤣🤣🤣🤣 I hope that those men, after a while with you, have not committed suicide due to extreme humiliation. It's hard be a weak man, There is a lot of talk about how men should be vulnerable, not be afraid of being emotionally weak, of our insecurities. No way, if you are like that, you only get dissatisfaction, problems and misery in relationships. Better not to have them until you are a solid man, if you can. but the fact is that the weaker, the more in need of ties.

Physical, Conceptual, or even Ego-Suicide We don't know what comes after, nor aware of why we're here Suicide means to end the nature of the current experience It is rather foolish not to exhaust all of one's options first But nothing is ever foolish if you embody the perspective "A suicide may bring about his own death because he rejects existence on any but highly specific terms chosen by himself. Many others, however, choose to deny experience while within the physical system, committing suicide quite as effectively while still physically alive."

hamas is very active in the west bank. In fact most of the suicide bombing in the 90s and early 00s came from there, what forced Israel to enter this area much deeper, actually until this day.

I agree with your points that we need high conscious ppl in control but the solution is def not no censorship. Think about the implications of that Threats of violence, coercing ppl to commit suicide, organizing terrorist attacks, nazi propaganda Etc. Etc. Like imagine we couldn't censor ppl for giving out nuke codes lol

Not to sound pessimistic..I'm just saying..both life &death don't actually present peace and happiness. I'm not depressed . But I'm really bumped out by the suicide of the user Buba and his suffering with continuous unexplainable pain . Like what kind of sick God created this shithole called this life ? In life you are suffering and the more you age the worse it gets . Now what's the other option? Killing yourself ? It doesn't really matter cuz you gonna die in the end anyways and death itself is such a mind boggling existential dilemma that makes you piss and shit your pants just by thinking about ..let alone actually dying. It seems to me that we are stuck and there is no salvation in any form of existence.

OK help me set this straight ..you're saying : life is a dream..therefore its illusory..therefore death itself is a dream . But so what ? Imagine that you're having a nightmare in a nightly dream and you are being raped and tortured and even burned or castrated..now I come to you in your dream and tell you: hey! This is all a dream .don't worry. Etc That doesn't help ..I understand that everyone and everything is being dreamt up on the fly RIGHT FUCKING NOW and so there is actually no such thing as yesterday or no such thing as WW2 or Hitler's holocaust etc..but this is only from the absolute perspective as you said . So please tell yourself that when you are suffering and contemplating suicide and see that it doesn't alleviate the suffering.

My therapist would kill me if I told them that suicide is imaginary. They couldn't even handle me saying that I am no different than the walls.

Can you explain suicide? Or you're just above it?

This may seem a bit silly, but are we the cells of the make up of the Universe. Just like we have cells in our physical bodies, we can look at the Universe as the "body of existence" and we, the human bodies are the cells and operate just like our own cells do. There are cells within our bodies that commit suicide and cells talk to each other. Humans do the same. They communicate and go at war with invaders and repair themselves and fight off free radicals. We do the exact same thing in life when you really examine how we live. Cells clean up the environment within the body and we also clean up our environment. Without going through the intricate details of how our cells operate, just think about it and you'll see a lot of similarities. Might just be a coincidence, idk, but it sure does have a lot of similarities. The different organs within the body serves their own unique purposes and just like how the blood is responsible for supplying oxygen to the cells, the trees and plants are responsible for supplying oxygen to the Universe. The insects would be considered the free radicals that clean up the environment and plants like mushrooms and fungi would be considered good bacteria and certain things bad bacteria just like within our bodies. All for the existence of Mother Nature. Anybody else that sees any other similarities, feel free to add them and this is just food for thought and just something that came to mind when I thought about suicide and why this happens and that our cells also commit suicide on their own. This doesn't take away from the fact that there's still God and consciousness and awareness and the mind and the I AM, etc. Infact, this is not about that, we're discussing the human body and all the other creatures and living things within nature serving as surviving systems for the planet and the Universe.

If Meta decides to boost posts that encourage suicide and spread them long and frequently enough, we will see suicide rates skyrocket. These mega corporations possess a power never seen before in humanity's history, would you prefer a handful of stage-orange greedy billionaires like Zuckerberg and Elon Musk with this kind of power deciding freely how to use it or the Government?

If solipsism is true its only you and suicide is imaginary.