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Did some research, according to data, of all the people who enter an extremely negative situation in life in the UK and USA combined, lots commit suicide and it's not even reported. Of all of them, over the last 20 years, if 1% commit suicide that's 18,000, if 0.5% commit suicide that's 9,000 and if 0.1% commit suicide that's 1,800. From 2005. What's strange is, it doesn't get much media attention and that's a conservative estimation. There are different procedures in other countries. Namely, what is reported on

Diary: Medical School Journal. Chapter: Life in Experiential Recursion. Date: November 29th entry. Type: Brief Reflection. Entry number: #4. o————————O————————o This week I’ve felt cornered and out of touch in continuing my recovery, so I am taking a moment to re-centre and RR-calibrate over the weekend to better engineer for the week to come as opposed to focusing on much else despite ground made. Lamotrigine as an anti epileptic has been a life-saver compared to alternatives that nearly completely ruined my mind and any causal tie I had to existential reality. However the mountain still exists, it hasn’t magically immaterialised and so the road to my more or less full recovery (will still need to take lamotrigine for the years to come) and then some still needs to be walked, even intensely ran during stages. I’ve had a lot on my mind over the past week, great insights and tangential connections, though with one hand on the rail still being somewhat required I’m taking this weekend to just silently reflect. That comes especially after having shed a few unexpected tears following my listening to a live performance of *Linkin Park - Numb* (search YT quoted: “Numb (Live) - Linkin Park) by Emily Armstrong whom replaced lead singer Chester Bennington after his passing in 2017 due to suicide. I’d never heard her sing before, and growing up Linkin Park was my favourite band, so in the beginning I was like “Oh she’s not going to be able to… Oh she’s not truly hitting it…” but then towards the end out of no where I just felt the heart of the entire space, and that’s when the tears came. Chester’s been on my mind all week as well, and I just want to say, for anyone struggling with depression or just any mental struggle of any kind, you can fight through it. You can make the vision of your life at peace with the natural universe at your own will. Chester, experienced incredible life breakthroughs, and yet even Chester was still overcome with depression that eventually signed the last note for him without him leaving anything behind other than his legacy. His passing must be looked at objectively however in the context of the tragedy that took him. Post-2017 following Chester’s passing in July of that year there’s been just so many more new insights on depression that were not as fully integrated into our culture yet concerning rehabilitating the human condition from those states of consciousness. Exercise has proven to be a phenomenal remedy to depression alone outside of far more effective pharmaceuticals. Psychedelics as well with extremely disciplined use not for spiritual wandering, have also opened up new windows we’ve never peered through. Some may be like me where becsuse of my epilepsy for example psychedelics are too risky, in which case cognitive behavioural therapy combined with the first two as being the first strategic battleground established for your movement forward is also newly realised in only the last few years where in the past the intelligence on such conditions was severely lacking leaving any feeling hopeless around conditions like depression or those that overlap which is anything where anyone feels that sense of hopelessness. There is zero evidence that leaves one to suggest that Chester was an exercise junky for example, in fact quite the opposite. His performances actually reveal tremendous insight into his struggle that I don’t imagine has been truly examined. Chester had an extremely sensitive yet explosive personality that allowed him to channel his energy into his core focuses. In the context of a world culture had not made clear sense of and the growing disconnect following the early 2000’s that Linkin Park connected with their base on, the distance between the experiences of his lived performances, which were incredibly demanding because of the heights he could reach, and his regular life nested amidst what can now be seen as the beginning departure of what could have been genuine individualism into something that better reflects digital sheep’s of the modern era these days, his inner life would have found it extremely difficult to integrate all of his difficulties combined with not only our lack of understanding on the condition but the cultural disconnect that also still existed concerning those with genuine struggles with mental challenges like these. In learning from Chester’s context then, I cannot stress enough the importance of people grounding their life difficulties not only on a personal existential level but also how the intelligence of your energy is spread in other areas. Taking responsibility for the use of your energy becomes its own weapon we can become its own sense of self-esteem for you. Moreover, your challenges must be seen through both our cultural limitations regarding the present inability to see you who you are through what best caters for your personal recovery but also through the progress that we have genuinely made in the related area as well to keep you open minded regarding potential interventions you can experiment with. This dual approach, combined with reorienting and re-matching the personal with the existential, fed through organising your time around the most intelligent use of your energy, flips hopelessness to conservative hope that only continually positively reinforces a slow and steady path towards restoring the you in who you are, regardless as to the body and mind we’re given to express that, and with that, your own unique sense of connection with the universe. A reconnection formed from a challenge thats grounded in what we can do culturally and who we can be in that path, while reconnecting with what can be done on a personal level that unites the paths overtime, consolidating a lost sense of agency which continual evidence to the contrary that now makes you feel more like the creator you are in your own way. Your life matters. You impact all of us in your own way. That is forever your power. As much as there is power in social unity, that social unity is only as strong as it teaches the individual to find unity within, this is a necessary separation with the collective that instructs external unity via shared individual sovereignty. Thus may we all find out path. And may wisdom be our teacher along that path. An individual must learn to understand their unique biological profile in the context of the environment in which it lives, to turn conformist living to adaptive individual thriving that brings the same harmony through their own unique symmetry with the environment. They must understand how their energy differs from others. What positive vs negative impact they can have with their energy on one person vs another. How their purpose is defined by who they are and what their environment genuinely needs more than who they have been told they are and what they have told to be or what they believe they must look up to. Following, everything shifts back and fourth between the balance of the life one has constructed through these forces and the impact this has on the environment around them, continually learning through the evolution. Depression often flips this narrative, and in Chester’s position he would have felt so incredibly alienated in spite of his supporting surroundings, the pull of the standards that he had reached combined with now the expectations of others, and the pull of his inner struggle that was there before his band even began together, paradoxically turned his acclaim into an irreconcilable stretch between the two poles. This eventually broke him. An individual must become the reaction upon their environment to truly live through the fire of their essence rather than having their natural fire turned against them. Nelson Mandela possessed a powerful, empathic, sensitive and disciplined personality, it was his discipline in navigating between the individual within and unifying it as a channeled social narrative outside that not only united him but brought strength and fuel to both causes. At first, bringing energy back to oneself from the core within will sometimes be more challenging than the struggles like that someone with depression can have, overcoming this threshold however is where the future stares back and the path becomes a clear path forward that instead of just being an upward climb on a mountain, refuels you properly through each life cycle. Which is precisely what life does and how life is meant to behave, intelligently meeting cycles with cycles to finish with the elegance of the symmetry of nature we are still to make sense of today, aligning with its laws as best as we can then, is the definition of our future harmony through the inner/outer integration from those initial required breakthrough periods. “Each one, teach one. May each, become my own lesson I must learn, study, revise. And… Be taught by.” Chester, one of my idols growing up. R.I.P Chester.

https://www.politico.com/news/2025/10/14/private-chat-among-young-gop-club-members-00592146?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR6z5ke5GEyhK8QNtNCqy2RvK2Ca7iY0ehk5VcQm4L1x5Ep3lKUtAQlG-aOGlQ_aem_S-iEcpxGPkXYD3pubgQ3gA Exclusive ‘I love Hitler’: Leaked messages expose Young Republicans’ racist chat NEW YORK — Leaders of Young Republican groups throughout the country worried what would happen if their Telegram chat ever got leaked, but they kept typing anyway. They referred to Black people as monkeys and “the watermelon people” and mused about putting their political opponents in gas chambers. They talked about raping their enemies and driving them to suicide and lauded Republicans who they believed support slavery. William Hendrix, the Kansas Young Republicans’ vice chair, used the words “n--ga” and “n--guh,” variations of a racial slur, more than a dozen times in the chat. Bobby Walker, the vice chair of the New York State Young Republicans at the time, referred to rape as “epic.” Peter Giunta, who at the time was chair of the same organization, wrote in a message sent in June that “everyone that votes no is going to the gas chamber.”

@TheCloud I was just now doing some version of that again. Do you have a professional helping you do that? I was doing it alone again. Anyway, my findings were that I have a fixer who believes I am fundamentally broken and without the possibility of recovery I must be destroyed. I am trying to resolve my lack of self love through self destruction and ultimately suicide. I am basically trying to save myself through jumping off of a bridge while using self attacks disguised as love and care. There is a lot to it, but that is a bit of it. I feel calmer now.

I AM GOD! I AM CREATING EVERYTHING! ABSOLUTELY TOTAL! ABSOLUTELY SOVEREIGN! ABSOLUTE INSANITY! God is loving this reality. God doesn't care whether the human dies or not. However, suicide is a deception. God wants to experience and it designed the human experience. I'm hallucinating this human experience! I was able to awaken myself and go back to being human instantly. I tested that multiple times while tripping. Leo! I created you to remind me that I can wake up. God is a genius bastard. So much happened during the trip that I'm unable to write as of now! It was infinitely insane! I ate a cannabis gummy three hours after I consumed 150 mg N,N-DPT orally. It contained 5 mg THC, 5 mg CBD, and 5 mg CBG. My insane trip began 20-30 minutes after cannabis consumption. The peak lasted for two hours. But I'm still tripping. Almost all of my psychedelic experiences, although I've done very little before, are a joke compared to what I've experienced now. Ideas of psychedelic experiences are also a joke after you have an experience. Ideas of it will probably become an obstacle eventually without serious experience. Meditation will never, at least to me, be able to reveal something like that. My whole being wants to align with that experience. I feel a strong desire to emulate it.

I’m looking for direct and thoughtful answers to a few key questions about suicide, death, and what might come next. My aim is to strike at the core of these topics and get clarity. 1. What Happens After Death? Is it possible to return to "pure positive awareness," where there’s no resistance, need, or pain, only wholeness and joy? Or is death shaped by unresolved beliefs, leading to chaotic, illusory afterlife experiences? Are near-death experiences, spiritual teachings (e.g., Abraham Hicks, Bashar, David Hawkins), and other accounts reliable, or could they just be ego-driven hallucinations? 2. Suicide vs. Natural Death: Does suicide lead to a different afterlife experience than dying naturally? Does the intent behind death matter in shaping what happens next? Are there consequences or “karmic debts” for suicide, or is it just another form of transition? 3. Vibrations and Beliefs at Death: Do one’s beliefs or emotions at the moment of death determine their immediate afterlife experience? If so, how can someone shift their vibration to avoid “negative” outcomes like chaotic or hell-like states? 4. Choosing Death and Reincarnation: If life is chosen before birth, can death also be chosen? Can one align themselves with a peaceful exit and avoid future reincarnation altogether? Is it possible to fully escape the cycle of birth, death, and suffering, or is reincarnation unavoidable until “enlightenment”? 5. Ending the Experience Permanently: Does suicide provide a permanent end to the human experience, or does it simply lead to a new cycle of suffering in another form or life? How does one ensure they do not reincarnate or return to physical existence after deat?

TRIGGER WARNING DEATH AND SUICIDE !!! I’ve been watching gore since a teenager I’ve always been fascinated with death. From murders to suicide I don’t understand what’s so interesting about it. I guess it’s because I know it’s inevitable and one day will happen, Suicide has got to be my favorite of just being alive and boom pure nothingness etc. I know it’s not healthy but I love watching suicide videos I’ve thought about filming my death one day so I can be shared on the internet as a meme etc.

It’s not ‘the one’, it’s ‘oneness’. I understand what you are referencing here and I’ve experienced it both with and without another person. The state itself is certainly, energetically orgasmic but it is not god itself. it’s a likeness of a god state. Mystical unity is an experience of consciousness, and consciousness does not suddenly depend on genital dimorphism to reach non-duality. If that were true, intersex people, queer people, trans people, celibates, mystics, and entire traditions of monks would be metaphysically barred from God. This clearly isn’t the case. Sex can express unity — it is not the source of unity. People contain both masculine and feminine potentials within their own psyche.Jung, Tantra, Taoism, Hermeticism, and even the Platonic tradition all make this explicit.No external partner is required to complete an internal polarity. After years of deliberately avoiding anything to do with sex because I was born with a DSD, I went from hating anything to do with it to unconsciously exploring it out of desire. On the run up to my awakening, I was celibate for several years and certainly very peaceful and had a God realisation during that time. on the return journey I realised I’d made the mistake most Buddhists make by completely dismissing reality as an illusion and bypassing the experience of everything I had deconstructed to get a glimpse of the source. After reintegrating and understanding the facets of reality and that it is there literally for the infinite exploration of conscious experience, I understood ‘meaning and purpose’ in a reality with no inherent meaning or purpose. My choice to explore and be and that path for each person is personal. What is sacred to me is not to someone else. God doesn’t need to explore the same thing through every being. men going their own way and feminism in its own right is not deluded, but extremes of them are, due to extreme polarity bias separating from its opposite instead of realising it exists in contrast ( the whole). From personal experience, when I stopped projecting need for attention and intimacy onto my wife and instead turned the energetic flow of ‘love’ back into myself, it became a healing self love that completed and fulfilled me without the need of another. My wife did not need to do or be anything for me to love her because I was already in that state. It opened my heart and overflowed meaning there was love there for whoever came into my space. There’s a difference in love as projection and love as being. When I realised that state, my wife became more attracted to me. She felt safe and actually loved because she wasn’t being ‘needed’ or expected of. That made me, my personality and mood more stable and confident which was perceived as a strength to her. It also fully awakened my sexuality which in contrast before was completely shut down. It gave me an animation and vitality I’d never had before. However it is a very volatile energy that can not only create but destroy and too many gurus fall into manipulation to satisfy themselves. I am now a very sexual, sensual and intimate person ( that energy is there with or without others, male, female, anything in between, doesn’t matter) but it takes remaining conscious of internal psychological mechanism to not fall back into projection. The one thing that doesn’t happen is that even if I have moments of very strong urge, desire or desperation to experience intimacy with someone, my conscience won’t allow me to carry out any act of manipulation for my own satisfaction purely because I would never want to experience a unity with someone that didn’t genuinely want to connect at a deeper level with me. To me it is sacred, to me it’s god loving itself but that doesn’t mean it is to someone else. sex can mean very different things to different people. Many people do not obsess over sex. Trauma, conditioning, developmental stage, culture, and personal lived experience all drastically shift the role sex plays in someone’s psyche. It might be god to someone and absolute hell leading to suicide for someone else… Sex and intimacy can be sacred but only when approached consciously.They are not intrinsically sacred by default. People can experience unity through, meditation, contemplation, breath, stillness, creativity, service, psychedelic states, mystical encounters, emotional intimacy or through sex. Sex is one path among many.Beautiful, powerful, transformative — yes. Ontologically necessary — no.The danger is when something deeply meaningful to one person is assumed to be a cosmic law for everyone else.

If you guys wanna put it like that then obviously you won't die without it . Although I just read recently on the news a guy committed suicide because his fiancé left him. Maybe "love" is a real thing .

It’s like you are saying that everything arises from death and falls to death. Everything comes from death and returns to death. And death is God. The body being the thing that is the rotting corpse of God. Paraphrasing the German philosopher “Philip Mainlander” who too committed suicide along with his God. R.I.P. Peace.

I will share an experience with you why this is the exact attitude life forms of higher intelligence wont come down to save humans, its not their duty. Its your duty to evolve and expand your consciousness to the level required where you are closer to their frequency, maybe then they will consider it. Aliens exist and have been visiting earth for many for thousands of years, but more in private, only those who are of the correct frequency, who are not in deficiency and victim-hood. Why would you interact with ants that still war over race and religion and other petty nonsense humans argue and complain over today. We destroy our planet just to please our taste buds and feed our greed. The story goes a little like this: After going through the most challenging time of her life, full of darkness, rage, suicide, betrayal, heartbreak, she finally rose and stated that she will no longer give her power away to anyone or anything and believe anything or anyone is of a higher power, and rather she will only choose herself and truth and no longer fall for the bait, and even if aliens show up now I don't need them nor want their help, i can do it on my own. In that moment a bunch of orbs showed up in the sky that radiated a beautiful warm energy, but she stood firm and said: NO! not now, now i stand for myself. In that moment I got the message that because of this response, now they are even more curious about her than ever before, that most people will either run in fear or blindly bow to the higher lights, and yet she said: No thank you, and they vanished shortly after. Now they are impressed with that level of consciousness and stance, that is what draws them, when humans can stand in their own sovereignty and not need anyone or anything else but themselves to stand in love and truth. That is a trait of a high consciousness that they find admirable and worthwhile. Most people never attract such things because they are simply not ready for it, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and energetically, their entire system would overload under such radiance, and they don't like to dim down their vibration, they rather see your greater potential shine through. Eventually all humanity will rise to the collective level for open contact, but first everyone has to face all their darkness.

But isn't there some kind of progression ? Don't you need to evolve over many lifetimes before fully merging with infinity again ? And isn't it true that people who do the suicide thing need to come back for another round ? (To be honest i felt some great relief when i read your words, fear of death seemed to dissolve, but i also feel hesitant, residues of religeous conditioning still running deep.)

You're neuroleptic-pilled on genetics: if your identical twin has schizophrenia, you have a 40-50% chance of getting it. That's still a lot, but it's still not a perfectly genetic disorder (unlike say Huntington's disease). Severe (hospitalizable) depression has essentially identical numbers to schizophrenia (40-50% monozygotic twin concordance and 5-10% life expectancy reduction adjusted for suicide, smoking and obesity [AI]). It goes to show that even in the most severe forms of mental distress, on average, people seem to manage it quite well. But again, averages are illusive: if you go to the extremes of the extremes (say the top 1% of most severe depression), that's probably not anywhere you want to be. Same with smoking 3 packs of cigarettes a day or weighing 600 lbs.

I don't think people appreciate how profound conflict can break your health. People with schizophrenia have a ~15 years shorter livespan on average (granted like 70% of them smoke, but still). Actually, adjusting for suicide, smoking and obesity, probably 5-10 years lifespan reduction remains [AI]. That's on a similar level as lifelong smoking and severe obesity. But that's just an average, and the thing is people aren't usually in a state of conflict all the time, people are actually quite resilient, those who survive of course. Those who get truly stuck in conflict I think deterioate very quickly and die, but those cases are extremely rare.

If you want to commit suicide you've already done it; the pleasure here is in exposing it (in this case, on an online forum). There are plenty of ways to lose yourself, free yourself, and cumming without committing suicide. The world does indeed impose a certain degree of castration; you can't kill people for example lol; but you overestimate it, which pushes you toward psychotic episodes; because of decompression. You have no idea what will happen after death, and you only have this idea because something is pushing you in that direction, and what's pushing you in that direction is the belief that you can't express your energy in the world.

Keep fucking with me I am on the brink of suicide and you keep fucking with me you are just like nahm when soonhei ended up jumping you are about to be my own NAHM I hate you

### Owen Cook's "Endless Motivation" Masterclass: The Complete Breakdown (2025 Cut) This is the single most confrontational, high-octane, no-bullshit execution talk Owen has ever delivered. It’s not feel-good spirituality. It’s not another “meditate and manifest” video. It’s a war cry against the modern trance state he calls “derping” — and a complete system to become a relentless executor who actually gets massive results in every area of life. Core Framework: The Three States 1. Derper – Passive, numb, autopilot, path of least resistance. Driven by junk food, dopamine hits, short attention spans, fear of thinking (cortisol). Most of society lives here. This is the “2 + 2 = 5 because they said so” zombie mode. 2. Executor – You accept the cortisol of thinking. You force yourself to stay conscious. You fight the derp every single day with religious intensity. This is the foundation. 3. Transcendent – The higher spiritual states only become stably accessible AFTER you master execution. You can’t transcend while you’re still a derper eating Cheetos and forgetting where you put your keys. Key Insight Execution itself is a meditation. Sitting on a cushion for 20 minutes is great for ego dissolution, but if you’re still derping the other 23 hours and 40 minutes, you’re deluding yourself. Execution meditation (constantly breaking autopilot, asserting, auditing, pushing resistance) is the skeleton that allows real transcendence to grow flesh on it. The 25 Execution Meditation Practices (The Actual System) 1. Assert yourself in every situation (move chairs, lead the group, give energy). 2. Write everything down immediately — billionaires do, broke people think they’re too smart to need to. 3. Double/triple/quadruple check everything. Assume your brain is trying to trick you into laziness. 4. Do new things daily that scare your autopilot (left-hand brushing, cold showers, harder routes). 5. Constantly ask: “What else could I be doing with this time right now?” 6. Ruthlessly cut time-wasting activities (gossip, victimhood, mindless scrolling = spiritual suicide). 7. Audit in advance: “What could go wrong? How could this be misinterpreted?” 8. Extend your attention span deliberately — read the hardest books (Ulysses, Atlas Shrugged) until your brain stops begging for a nap. 9. Always choose the path of most resistance and most effort (stairs, not elevator; fix the thing now, not later). 10. Take total responsibility for yourself AND everyone around you — anticipate their derping too. 11. Proactively raise your emotional ceiling — get addicted to 9/10 states, not 5/10 numbness. 12. Stick to your principles even when it’s socially costly (don’t get dragged into pig-wrestling). 13. Seek truth, not popularity. Train yourself to think “Is this accurate?” not “Will this get me approved?” 14. Solve the hardest version of every problem (film in grizzly country, not your bedroom). 15. Think from other people’s paradigms constantly — marketing, leadership, conflict resolution all come from this. 16. Stop seeking ego-stroking “How was that?” from friends. Know your own standard. 17. Access transcendent states through flow, contribution, and pushing your edge — not just substances. 18. Install new empowering beliefs deliberately. 19. Seek brutal feedback only from people whose results you respect. 20. Connect every present action to its future consequence in real time. 21. When the inner voice says “you’re being lazy,” obey it instantly — no negotiation. 22. Test yourself in fluid, chaotic situations (sports, nightlife, crises) — normalcy bias kills. 23. Practice holding 20+ spinning plates in your mind at once. 24. Take extreme ownership — you are the white ball on the pool table, not the colored one. 25. Realize, multiple times per day, that you are in a trance — and snap out of it immediately. The Brutal Truth Owen Hammered Home Society is engineered to keep you derping (garbage food, jump-cut media, degenerate role models, fear porn). The people at the very top do not respect you. They think you’re food. They are correct — until you prove otherwise by executing so hard you become undeniable. Most “spiritual” content keeps you comfortable in derp mode because that’s where the money is (twin flames, LOA parking-spot manifestation, etc.). Real awakening requires you to first become a conscious executor who refuses the trance. Final Line That Should Be Tattooed on Your Brain “Any failure you have from this day forward is 100% on you. I just spent hours screaming this in your face. There’s nothing more a human can do.” If you actually implement even half of these 25 practices for 90 days, your life will be unrecognizable. Most people will watch this, nod, feel motivated for 12 hours… then go right back to derping. Don’t be most people. Fight the derp until you die. Your future self (and the world) is begging you to.

To not commit suicide, And boy is it hard..

I found this post on reddit and want to know what ya'll think about it... 25 years of Trump & Epstein "Friendship"! 2000: Trump learns Epstein trafficked and "stole" underaged masseuse Virginia Giuffre from Trump's adult spa. 2002: Trump says “I’ve known Jeff for 15 years. Terrific guy. He’s a lot of fun to be with. It is even said that he likes beautiful women as much as I do, and many of them are on the younger side.” 2003: Trump sends note to Epstein: "may every day be another wonderful secret". 2007: Trump Bans Epstein from mar-a-lago after Trump got into a bidding war for a mansion they both were interested in. Epstein indicted. Epstein is tipped off in advance that he is about to be raided, and hires cleaners to wipe his hard drives and remove everything. Nevertheless, there is so much evidence that the police still found tons of homemade child porn and other incriminating documents, including instructions how to take delivery of a girl he bought in Thailand. 2008: Prosecutor Alex Acosta gave Epstein a sweet plea deal that destroyed all the evidence, and, get this: granted immunity to any unindicted co-conspirators. You read that right, Epstein's original FL plea deal not only wiped his record and gave him immunity, it also gave immunity to everyone he committed crimes and raped kids with, known and unknown! 2017: Acosta, who gave Epstein and all his co-child rapists immunity, becomes Trump's Secretary of Labor. 2019: Epstein is jailed again on new sex-trafficking charges. Under Trump's command, the federal prison where Epstein is being held takes him off suicide watch, moves him to a solitary cell where the cameras outside are not working, and forgets to make their rounds at the same that three minutes of camera footage are deleted from the hallway camera, during which Epstein dies. 2020-2024: The Biden administration prosecutes and convicts Ghislaine Maxwell, and begins sealed grand-jury investigations against other co-conspirators, in addition to releasing the largest trove of Epstein-related documents to date, including the "Epstein Tapes" in which Jeff Epstein (RIPiss) calls Trump his "closest friend for ten years". Trump campaigns on releasing ALL of the Epstein Files. Investigators find over 1.5$ BILLION USD of transactions connected to Epsteins bank accounts and are pursuing leads to find owners and recipients of those funds. 2025: Trump cancels the grand-jury investigations, fires the prosecutor, and claims Epstein is a "hoax" made up by Obama. Entire GOP votes to shut down the government in order to prevent a vote on the Epstein files. Trump DOJ has a secret meeting with Ghislaine and moves her to a fenceless minimum-security "club Fed" with work-release privileges. Trump administration intervenes to allow child sex-predator Tom Artiom Alexandrovich to flee to Israel in order to avoid criminal charges in Nevada. GOP Speaker of the house claims Trump was the FBI informant who brought down Epstein despite the same "informant" claiming it being a hoax by Obama... Which he is backtracked 2 days later. Trump ordered his DOJ and FBI to use over 1,000 FBI agents to redact his name from the Epstein files. Republicans voted to protect child rapists on Sep 10th. And have kept the government closed since October to prevent the seating of a elected democrat that would break the tie vote to release the epstein files. GOP is the party of pedophiles. Thoughts?

He doxxed the girlfriends and wives of multiple dating coaches and posted their photos to insult their looks, and I know another dating coach who said he had students who were arrested for following his advice. He also used the suicide of a social skills coach to insult him and advertise himself.

I went through a deep hopelessness this week. I think travelling I don’t sleep properly for 3 days. Then, starting this new job which is only for money I realized how I’ll have to endure actually doing it everyday…. I hate being a slave. Dark times, suicidal thoughts, hopelessness. Things which I feel from time to time. I lose the big picture of my dreams and how I strategically chose these jobs to solve problems. It’s just u sense I’m getting older which creates this panic of running out of time. Old age does scared me and I worry I’ll be too old before my dreams can be made real. Then, suicide is the only option because I’m not living a shithole old age wage slave life. I’m gonna keep focusing on sleep because that seems to be the thing that’s helping me bounce back. I also enjoy breathwork, Qigong, acupressure and journaling to help ground me. …. life should be profound and awesome. I don’t want a boring life tbh. I want success, creativity, and to make and share music in a meaningful way. Unfortunately, for whatever reason that isn’t guaranteed which is really stupid design. Again, solipsism and tinnitus, and how fucking hard reality is is a stupid design. I’m not saying it should be so easy to not have value but… tinnitus is a stupid feature to reality. Fuck God for tinnitus. anyway, I’m off to be a fucking wage slave.

Yes you're right by well being i meant happiness not confort. Yes but I'll tell you that it's because what matters is social relationships, money, stress, etc. While you propose idealistic assumptions; we're back to square one. Btw if you look at suicide statistics worldwide, there is no significant correlation between suicide and lifestyle. https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Liste_des_pays_par_taux_de_suicide#/media/Fichier:Map_of_countries_by_suicide_rate,_WHO_(2019).svg Worst than that; if you take the european map of suicide rate (https://partibreton.bzh/disparition-du-docteur-philippe-carrer-le-parti-breton-salue-le-travail-eclairant-de-lethnopsychiatre/carte-taux-de-suicide-en-europe/) you see that actually the areas with the lowest suicide rates are modern and densely populated regions. In France, the rural and sparsely populated west (Bretagne, Normandie...) has a high suicide rate, while Île-de-France—the wealthiest and most densely populated region, where Paris is located—has the lowest suicide rate. The same is true in Poland if you compare the rate in the Warsaw region to other, less developed regions; the same is true in Spain, Italy, Romania, and most countries except Germany, although the region around Berlin always has an "abnormally" low rate. Great Britain, which is quite densely populated and has one of the smallest and most closely packed houses in Europe, has one of the lowest suicide rates; despite the weather, lol. Conversely the highest rates are in Northern Europe and even (though not as clearly seen) in Russia, in supposedly traditional northern qnd eastern regions. The more traditional and sparsely populated the regions, the more people tend to commit suicide; the suicide rate in Moscow is one of the lowest in Russia. https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Taux_régionaux_de_suicide_en_Russie_(2015).png

I'm moving away from insisting on a mechanically comprehensible meaning of life. The meaning of my life is whatever I'm doing right now. My reason to keep living is to keep doing whatever that happens to be. I know I'm going to die one day, but I don't know when or how. Insisting on knowing everything ultimately leads to insisting on knowing when and how I'm going to die, which is simply an act of suicide.

Thoughts aren't actually real, which is the point, but they do drive you into action and create your reality. You don't really need to "respect" thoughts in my opinion in any kind of sense. Just change what you focus on. You can literally talk yourself out of a thought pattern like your talking to ChatGPT, to use a modern day example. Being suicidal is when you are run by negative thought patterns that interpret reality in such a way that you feel suicide is the only option. Suicide in of itself is a natural response to the sense of a helpless situation. The issue is that thoughts may or may not correspond with reality. At least to a certain degree, you are free to interpret reality however you want, which is especially true in first world countries where we have the free time to ponder while at the same time being socially isolate. Granted, I'm not a mentally ill person, so mileage may vary, but in my experience you have a lot of power to change your mind by changing what you focus on, thereby changing your reality. That is the power of mind. If you are seriously mentally ill then you probably would benefit from professional treatment. My perspective is not meant to belittle or undermine the difficulty of a sick mind, but I do believe that you have more power over your situation than you tend to think you do in most situations.

It seems contradictory to me to say both "The mind is very powerful" and "It's all in your head" in the same argument. In my experience, "It's all in your head" is typically a statement that dismisses the power of the mind. I'd rather lean toward the mind being very powerful, which is why I suggest facing thoughts with due respect as such. Some thoughts, including thoughts of suicide, can be very slippery and don't want to be faced because they're used to their anonymous power. They don't easily share their secrets. It can be tricky to get to them and find out what you describe of them using the idea of suicide for catharsis or control or escape or whatever it is they really happen to be doing outside the light. I don't really disagree with you, I just want to acknowledge that thoughts are to be first respected, even if they are then to be dismissed.