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1. If we are all part of ONE consciousness, how are we able to have the visceral experience of being separate (I'm trying to figure out what the process that enables this to happen might look like)? 2. What is the thread that connects our small selves to the rest of the one consciousness (there MUST be a thread connecting our small selves to the rest of the whole if it is all truly ONE, but what is/are that/those thread(s))? 3. What's your best guess for what happens after death? 4. Is there any more detail you can shed on what the most original/pure form of consciousness is like (if there is such a thing)? 5. How is it that consciousness/existence came to be? It's so hard for me to wrap my mind around the idea that it has just always existed. At the same time, I can't think of a better alternative (ie consciousness/existing arising from unconsciousness/nonexistence, infinite regress, etc)? On some level, I get that I'm trying to use my dual mind/reality to try to understand nonduality and how that's fundamentally flawed, but I also have a strong intuition that more can be grasped/understood on this point. 6. How do we know that there's nothing else outside of 'god consciousness'? That the nondual/infinite god consciousness isn't just secretly nested inside of an even greater consciousness/reality? 7. Do you think there is a POV of consciousness that is the godhead POV (ie can see/experience everything at once), or is it just all fragmented? 8. How does god consciousness, in its purely nondual/infinite form, create the first duality? How does it even move/act to do that if there is no subject/object to begin with! What allows it to morph itself from nondual into dual? 9. What are some of the hard limits of the human mind (sober)? 10. Is there any more detail you can shed on what 'nothing' is? I know you've said that you mean 'formlessness' rather than actual non-existence, but I'm curious if there's some way that 'nothing' could truly mean 'non-existence.' I think it's worth probing deeper here (even though I know you disagree). 11. Do you think that everything ultimately is good, or at least neutral? I worry a lot about unbearable suffering for an infinite timeline. 12. How can people identify and overcome their greatest fears (it's often very hard to even identify root fears in the first place, because they hide)? 13. Does god consciousness even have free will (maybe not, because having free will might require subject/object, and god consciousness seems to be a nondual being)? 14. Bonus: Why do you think my mind is obsessed with all of these questions? Congrats on hitting 1M!

Hey guys, so these last two psilocybin trips I had start to unwire my brain rather rapidly and unexpected. I'm very thankful for this, as this is a great gift, but it feels like my brain is working overtime, without me controlling it. The combination of The Work by Byron Katie, Kriya Yoga & the two trips nuked my brain. Everyday I become more conscious of aspects of my being & personality. The subconscious gets flushed, awareness seems to rise a little bit and dualities start collapsing more and more. Not yet in an existential, "life-threatening" manner, but teeny-weeny mindblows. I now understand, that the psilocybin trip didn't only teach me how to meditate, but what nondual meditation is. Now this nondual breakdown doesn't happen at crazy depths (rather superficial or shallow even), but it happens without me consciously cracking them open. They just come. And I think that's partly because of The Work, because this rewires your brain and how you think subconsciously. Here are the dualities, which broke down to a higher perspective, one meta-level above, to nonduality. Most of them were delivered by the subconscious: Effortlessness vs. Effort Authenticity vs. Inauthenticity Comfortzone vs. Non-Comfortzone Security vs. Insecurity Truth vs. Falsehood (remember, shallow understanding!) Within reality vs. Without reality Being vs. Not-Being I'm pretty sure, if I'd inquire further in a conscious manner, way more dualities would break down. Now that I write this, I think for now I can at least slow down this process. But a few hours ago, I couldn't concentrate on anything other than that. I tried reading a book, but I only saw polarities which would break down. I kinda can't unsee it. Because of this, I couldn't really read the book and my focus was off, because my brain was/is rearranging itself. It's really tiring. So I fled to sleep and after that, I could read my book again. I just worked out and ate something and feel better now. I'm by no means against this process, but it's physically quite taxing. I don't know whether I'm fooling myself here or not, I'm just trying to describe what's happening as precisely as possible. Is a hurting brain to be expected, when it is rewiring itself? One thing is for sure, I won't actively inquire this deeper, at least not for the coming time, as this will only deepen the brain exhaustion. Even writing this feels a little taxing right now. What I will do though is to surrender. Any advice?

Look for one who has an understanding of spirituality/nonduality/meditation. And you really want to test a therapist, ask the therapist if you're God and observe their reaction. Ask them: What is love? What is God? What is truth? What is consciousness? What is reality? What is science? What is therapy? What is happiness? What is suffering? What is mind? What is ego? What is healing? And observe their responses. This will tell you everything about them.

I noticed that my conscious suffering method is very similar to Leo's explanation of going from Derrida's deconstruction all the way into nonduality. So I will experiment with making the method more ambitious and still keep it simple. The crystallized ego has a rigid and inflexible structure that needs to be broken down (deconstructed) all the way down to nonduality. I will make the conscious suffering method cover the whole personal stage which means the physical, emotional and also mental level. And it's an experiment, so my attempt might fail but even then I will have learned something.

Yes! Just like Emptiness = Form. It has been said that mind/unreality happens within reality. But it’s just as accurate to say that reality happens within mind/unreality, since if there is no thought there is nothing. That is the very essence of liberation, emptiness, and nonduality.

I had heard the term deconstructionalism before but hadn't looked into it. And maybe that was probably good, haha, because it's really complicated to read Derrida's writings about it. Leo made the seemingly complicated very clear. My interpretation is that deconstructionalism says that all words form an entangled web without any foundation. So for example, the word "iPhone" has meaning in relation to all other words in the total web of words. This means that the word iPhone isn't only a definite thing, a label. It's also an evolving interconnected web of relationships. But how to use deconstructionalism is practice? Leo mentioned that Derrida's work can be taken one step further and then it leads to: nonduality! Not only words can be deconstructed, but the whole of reality can. And I came to think of a very practical application of deconstruction, namely money. The first observation is that society is a "separate" thing struggling against nature and disorder. From a nonduality and fully deconstructive perspective that's a false duality. And money is a part of society, both as the word "money" and also as actual money. But what is actual money? The truth is that money connects with everything else. And since society is a false duality and money being a huge part of it, money exist in us not only as thoughts but also as tensions in the body. What we think of as "my money" isn't as separate as one might first believe. Our personal money is a part of the immense struggle of our entire society against perceived disorder. So we literally hold money as a part of society's struggle in us as tensions. This makes the theoretical knowledge about deconstruction useful and it can be used for improving one's practice of dissolving tensions within oneself by deconstructing money. To make it simpler, tensions in the body can be recognized as being connected to our thoughts about money. Here the ultimate deconstruction is that order and disorder are the same nondual reality. In short, the struggle we have with money is fake! And this makes "the love of money is the root of all evil" clearly explained. Love of money is simply us (as a part of society) clinging onto money as if it was separate from for example a pile of dirt. It isn't! What appears as disorder and mess is as ordered as money is.

... But you have to do them In order to be able to grasp nonduality experientially one needs to turn the attention of the mind Inwards. The nature of the mind is to seek outside and by not doing anything it will continue to do so. By saying that there's nothing to be done some teachers are lying, in a way, or are speaking to someone who already has their mind introverted. Self inquiry and Do nothing are such example of a spiritual practice (Sadhana) - there is a lot written on this forum about them, not going to repeat what is probably already common knowledge for members here. But those are not really a doing, the very practice is to go away from the doing and into the being/subject that holds the doing. They are used to go deeper into the heart of experience NOW rather than go outwards into mind concepts and perceived substances and experiences of this world. But if you don't do the practice, the mind will be naturally inclined, due to conditioning, to look in the wrong direction. Truth is there, but if you are looking in the other direction, you won't be able to recognize it. /peace

Yes, but I am not in a state of infinite consciousness / God-consciousness. It's not a distraction as long as one is aware of the ultimate nonduality of things.

Educate me. I only know that which is eternal and ever present. The rest is up for debate. Even the 3d. g0d Btw if you ever achieve true knowledge you would not respond in such a reactive manner. You are showing a very low consciousness attitude so there is more work to do. If you are a rich man and I am a poor man and you show me gold and tell me: Look Gold is real you know nothing of Gold. But you are attached to the gold... Then you are lower state of consciousness than the poor man, (unless the poor man is also attached to his small possessions ) So that's why I said you are going the wrong direction. You seem to be more interested in some object in awareness (4d) rather than awareness (0d) . Nonduality tips! Maybe you need to plug some more psychedelics tho

I don't know that there was any one key for him. I don't see how it makes a difference. You can crank up the plugged dose as high as you want. A longer trip is not going to dissolve the ego any less than a short trip, just the opposite. It's not like you will come back from a 4 hour 5-MeO trip and be like, "Well, that was full nonduality, but it lasted for 4 hours instead of 15 minutes, therefore it isn't permanent enlightenment."

Nonduality doesn't get lost in religion, it gets lost in the mind. If you go deep enough into anything at all, it's there... or rather duality is not there. The Gospel of Thomas has the clearest nondual pointers but plenty of them survived in the four gospels. They are easily missed... here's a good example. “Foxes have dens and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.” Luke 9:56 To the mind this means Jesus has no home. Go deep enough in non duality and you realize the son of man doesn't just refer to Jesus himself but something profound and Jesus is essentially saying here, "you don't have a brain, your brain is a belief." In other words, that mind I just said nonduality gets lost in... never existed anyway.

Leo mentioned in his latest video that there can be an awakening of the mind and that there can also be an awakening of the heart. Nonduality teacher Roger Castillo said that consciousness can move from the head down into the heart area. Spiritual teacher Nukunu described awakening like having eyes and ears in the heart. And several people have mentioned that the heart chakra is what can unite the lower chakras with the higher chakras. Neuroscientist Candace Pert was shown by a spiritual guru a drawing of the chakras that they compared with an image of the human nervous system, and nerve centers along the spine lined up with the chakras! That made Candace start taking eastern traditions more seriously. I wrote earlier how we can't feel pain in the heart and only feel so-called referred pain. So our heart feelings are blocked! At least pain is block which could indicate that even the other feelings from the heart are also blocked. I have started feeling something in the heart area but it's mostly a nasty feeling which is a bit scary and even fear and dread is felt there. Dr. Bruce Lipton described his awakening as a heart orgasm, not a peaceful one but one that he was down on the floor wriggling. Even Eckhart Tolle described how his spiritual awakening was initiated by increasing fear in his chest area until he passed out! So it seems to be a very powerful kind of energy related to heart awakening.

@nitramadas alright it seems like in every post of yours you will spend a few Paragraphs rambling about how fucking intelligent you are and even better than Leo in understanding nonduality and how ignorant the other person who you are responding to is.... To ignore list my friend you ain't worth wasting my time. You won't last long here if you keep this up btw.

Hawkin was a very good scientist and a really brilliant person, but his ego wasn't so spiritually developed as it needed to be to accept and understand nonduality teachings and relativism. Don't confuse ego development, wisdom and consciousness for boldness, IQ or intelligence. These are separate metrics. You can have a low iq, but have much wisdom and consciousness (eg indian mystical, shamans and such) and viceversa. This topic is disscussed in Leo's latest video about ego development in depth

@James123 I'm not in the mood to argue a nonduality war rn. Moreover ideas about "right" or "wrong" perspectives of reality as ultimates is more hilarious than absurd.

Consciousness is nothing. If it were something, it would be in consciousness, thus, from a certain perspective, not consciousness itself. All this talk is just precipitating out of the solution of nonduality.

Thanks for the post and for sharing! I did similar inner child work years ago that was very helpful to awakening to my deeper seeded beliefs, patterns, feelings and emotions. It was a stepping stone, amongst many, to help me awaken to the idea that we “create our own Reality”, and that this current reality that we share is an independent reality within a collective reality that we co-create together with our thoughts, ideas, imagination, beliefs, feelings and emotions. Having said that, once I started to become aware of these deep seeded beliefs, patterns, feelings and emotions, “I” started to become more conscious of a much deeper awareness. I started questioning; Who and what is an “inner child”? where did I get these thoughts, ideas and beliefs of an inner child? I see you, Who is seeing who? Where did I get the thoughts, ideas and belief that there is someone see someone? I love you, Who is loving who? Where does this love come from? what is love on a human level? Nonduality level? Etc. And I am here with you… Who is the “I” that is here with you? Who is the you? I am here with you, because I love you, I am here, where is here? Who are you? Why is there a “because”? And in being with you, I finally see you fully. Are you being with you in form, formlessness, duality, nonduality, spirit, consciousness, awareness etc? What is being? What is “With”? I finally see you fully. What is finally? Why only now? What is fully? Just sharing a few thoughts! There are no right or wrong answers. You can only find them within! Truth is always expanding! Awareness is limitless and always expanding! God’s consciousness is always expanding! There is no end! Enjoy your current limited, but expanding conscious journey!

Nonduality teacher Roger Castillo and other spiritual teachers have said that anger can arise as a biological reaction even in the enlightened state. Then how can I claim that anger is a sign of the personal stage of development and that the transpersonal stage is free from anger? Because as I discovered and mentioned earlier there is a difference between spiritual enlightenment and the transpersonal stage. As Ken Wilber has pointed out, there can be spiritual enlightenment at different levels of personal development. So when anger arises and a biological reaction, then that's because the person is at the personal stage of development, even when enlightened. At the transpersonal stage anger is only an additional expression, not something fundamental to the stage. So expressions of anger can appear even at the transpersonal stage, not as an instinctual biological reaction since there is harmony but as reactions to particular situations for impersonal reasons.

Of course, it depends on where you choose to go on your aya-retreat. Not every retreat is filled with "a bunch of tourists". Some are filled with likeminded people. I believe there is a lot to learn from the experience of taking psychedelics with a group - and the group you end up with, will of course not be random but perfectly assembled by the universe... The people in your group will all be potential teachers of yours and this alone can be a very profound experience. When I first came to the center for my aya-trip I was very judgemental about everyone and thought they were just a bunch of lazy hippies/stupid/did not know what it was all about... Haha... And then I met Aya.. and the next day (the retreat was 4 days with 2 ceremonies) I realized that this group had come together not at all by accident, I learned so much from everyone and the experience taught me a lot about nonduality but also how we as separate beings need to meet each other and gaze at ourselves through each other's eyes. The experience of going on a trip as a group was very different from tripping alone. One way is not better than another, but I guess it can be helpful to experiment with both. It was for me at least.

Another insight I got is what nonduality teacher Roger Castillo recommended which is to do whatever we feel like in each moment. This can be put in the context of personal developmental stages! At the personal stage there is the belief in being a separate doer. Roger says that there isn't any separate doer. And that's consistent with the transpersonal stage. And to do whatever we feel like can from the personal perspective easily be interpreted as impulsive and reckless action. That's a pre-trans fallacy. Because conflict is a result of the belief in being a separate entity. And in the transpersonal stage that belief is transcended so to do what one feels like then becomes harmonious action. AND, another very interesting observation is that doing what we feel like doing that is NOT choice, unless there is confusion. When there is confusion the mind starts to think and compare several options, so the direct action is lost, the flow is lost, the feelings are distrusted and we become trapped in the personal stage. And it's necessary at the personal stage to think and compare different choices, because otherwise it's a regression into the impulsive ego stage which is an even lower stage of development. That's the pre-conceptual stage. The trans-conceptual stage is doing what we feel like without confusion and without conflict.

I have used several spiritual sources for getting a grasp of what the transpersonal stage is. There are also atheistic explanations possible. I believe that the Wolfram Physics Project has a more correct interpretation of quantum mechanics without the need for randomness or confusion about collapsing states and uncertainty. However there is also this traditional mainstream observation made by physicist Hugh Everett: So even from an ordinary scientific perspective reality can be seen as a single wave function. That's nonduality! And if we think of reality as a single ongoing "collapse" of the universal wave function, then that also explains time. We are the universal wave function in an ongoing collapse that happened now. The single collapse of the universal wave function is perhaps not mainstream science, I haven't looked into it, but that's precisely a representation of the transpersonal stage since there isn't the universal wave function plus a separate ego. There is only the universal wave function.

You are Jesus. Jesus is I am. The shrooms have failed you this time padawan try again. No one is better or worse than you. That's nonduality 101

The personal stage has a lack of Self-Love. For example hardly anyone is satisfied with his or her physical body. And I came to think of how that's necessary! Because if we had beautiful physical bodies then there is a grave risk of remaining stuck at the personal stage of development. One idea I have is that our physical bodies will become beautiful when we are at the transpersonal stage. I know that this is a very radical idea that hardly any spiritual teacher talks about except perhaps a few New Age gurus who most people think of as woo woo. The physical body is I believe only an appearance in consciousness so it's the level of mind that determines the state of the body. Going to the gym, diets, plastic surgery and so on are actually then from the bigger picture delusional methods of improving the body. The mind makes it real, so for example eating too much food will likely make most people fat for example. So it's not something that can be changed by wishful thinking. With the mind as the true cause, and actually Mind being the true cause which is nonduality, it means that even the personal mind being a cause is a false perspective. So we can't enter the transpersonal stage by personal effort on the level of the separate self. Instead the effort has to be to allow the separate self to dissolve! Otherwise the crystallized ego blocks the development of a fluid ego, which is necessary for truly actualizing Self-Love. What I mean by Self-Love is the universal self recognizing its own infinite capacity for intelligence, evolution, creation, beauty etc. I think that is at least similar to how Leo explains Self-Love in this video:

And that's a common dogma of nonduality. A lightning bolt is no less true than anything else, and it only lasts less than a second. Fast things are no less true than long things -- since all things are eternal regardless of how long they last. If you ever get hit by a lightning bolt, that will be the strongest dose of truth you ever get

As are we all. LOL! Nonduality 101 does.... (talking about "true", no idea what "valid" means)