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I don't pretend to know anything I don't know, nor do I pretend to be complete in my enlightenment of self. So where there is an opportunity to learn, I ask. And where there is an opportunity to teach, I answer. These are the only two patterns of love in the most absolute of senses - the teach/learn and learn/teach patterns. This is what I've awakened to, this is what I mean by infinite knowledge. Love is the eternal learning and teaching of Self by self/selves, the complete enlightenment of what it means to be the One Self. And imagination is the only means of accomplishing this Activity called Love. Now I ask, is there a grounds to this eternal phenomenon, is the reason to this existence we call Love? The simple answer to this is the I Am what I Am. But this is no reason, this is no logic, this is no grounds. This is simply a recognition of Self by self. Hence I say, we/you/I are absolutely transcendental, and the only law or principle which gives shape to so-called reality, is the principle of Free Will, that is - one can only ever know what one is willing to know, and be what one is willing to be, and do what one is willing to do. Will is the absolute truth. Freedom of Will is what we are talking about when we say Love. However, this is not a why, it is only Truth without contrast, without question. With that being said, I'll ask once more. What is it that we awaken to other than one's own Will?

Yeah it should be impossible so what if it happened? What would you think? How can you explain the occurrence I'm talking about? You DEFINITELY haven't "awakened" (cringe term lol) if you believe there's an omnipresent you entity. The ego is still appearing then. You don't need to be there for reality to be there. Experienced by nobody. The "experience" being the very thing it is, self contained like how light is light. No magical entity needed to light it, since it is light. Consider the blatant wrongness of "Self" ideas, even without it ceasing to exist for you... The amount of BS Spira etc have to invent to explain obvious occurrences like deep sleep. "You" are some magical awareness screen but don't see anything but whatever is in front of your ego? Bunk incorrect teachings. Bunk religious beliefs.

Does anybody else think it's strange that people are answering questions in this thread that are presented for me? Notice the title of this thread "I awakened - ask me anything", this makes it very clear that all questions are directed to me in this thread, so that I can answer them, not so that somebody else can answer them for me.

^ I would say I believe you certainly experienced an Awakening so congratulations. But you are lacking in the sense making department. Your relative perspective is just a thought in INFINITY. You need to develop your ability to deconstruct so you answer with clarity. Don't start teaching until you can answer questions that are presented concise and clearly. Not every awakened person is automatically a teacher, also enlightenment actually reveals that you can help others awaken in infinite ways. You can help reveal the divinity in all through things such as music, art, medicine/healing, social relationships, etc. Your ability to express the divine is contingent on how much you have developed the gifts you have. = If you were never good at explaining complex things before your awakening....don't expect that to change. Awakening reveals that God's gift to you is your finite expression of divinity which must be earned. God is unconditional love. This means you need to develop whatever talents you have just for the sake of it. Through that process you will be able to finetune and cultivate it, then the divine infinite intelligence will shine through you and your mastery will be self-evident. The whole purpose of awakening is to recontextualize your lived experience, to remove the scales from your eyes and to give evidentiary value to your life and all of your experiences. Its to empower you and simultaneously hold your feet to the fire. Its both the most beautiful thing and arduous thing. Its one thing to realize God, its another to embody it.

Thank you for the replies This morning I purchased a book in which the author talks with materialized ascended masters, who are apparently what we knew as ministers when Jesus was alive - Saint Thomas and Saint Thaddaeus, although they go by different names now, Arten and Pursah. They mostly discuss ACIM, the life of Jesus (shortened to J in the text) and clarify some concepts. I save quotes that seem most significant and I want to share them, perhaps others will benefit: ARTEN: There is no Saint Paul, not really, or anyone else — including J — except in a dream. There’s nobody out there. There is only one Son of God, and you’re It. You’ll get it, but it takes years of practice to really experience it. You have to want it, but I know you do. Renard, Gary R.. The Disappearance of the Universe (p. 46). PURSAH: He never cursed a tree and killed it, never got angry and knocked over the tables in the temple, but he did heal a few people who were already dead. Also, his body died on the cross, but he did not suffer as you would imagine. As for his way of being, mere words cannot do him justice. To be in his presence was an experience so unique it gave you a feeling of wonder. His peace and unalterable love were so total that sometimes people couldn’t stand it and they had to look away. His attitude was so calm and sure it made you want to know how he did it. Those of us who spent a lot of time with him and, as in my case, got to speak in private with him, were inspired by his complete faith in God. Renard, Gary R.. The Disappearance of the Universe (p. 49) Fear was not a part of him. His attitude was the same as if you were having a dream last night asleep in your bed, except you were totally aware of the fact that you were dreaming. And because you knew you were dreaming, you also knew that absolutely nothing in the dream could possibly hurt you, because none of it was true; you realized you were merely observing symbolic images, including people, who weren’t really there. J used to tell me when we were alone that the world was just an insignificant dream, but most people weren’t ready to accept such an idea because their contrary experience was so strong. He then stressed that knowing the world is an illusion is not enough. The Gnostics and some early Christians called the world a dream; the Hindus call it maya and the Buddhists call it anicca, all meaning pretty much the same thing. But if you don’t know the purpose of the dream and how to reinterpret the images you are seeing, which is something we’ll get into later, then the general teaching that the world is an illusion is of very limited value. However, he also said the time would come when the Holy Spirit would teach people all things — which is something we hope to contribute to by sharing some of J’s newer teachings with you — and that everyone would know only God is real. Sometimes at the end of a conversation with me he would just say, “God is,” and walk away. Renard, Gary R.. The Disappearance of the Universe (pp. 49-50). One of the other things about him that’s rarely mentioned is that he had an excellent sense of humor. He was quite irreverent. He liked to laugh and bring out the joy in others. GARY: And he was totally awake? ARTEN: Yes, but let’s be very clear about what we mean by that. We’re not saying he was more awake in the dream, we’re saying he had awakened from the dream. That’s not just a minor distinction, Gary. Indeed, being more seemingly awake in the dream is what passes for enlightenment among very many, but that’s not what we’re teaching. You can teach a dog to be more alert and impressive and to live its so-called life to the fullest, and almost any human can be taught to raise his consciousness. You can always be taught to approach the dream with a clever thought pattern in an attempt to bring about something more, different or better. But our brother J was completely outside of the dream. He wasn’t advocating a way of making your delusion better, or telling you how to strive for self-expression so you won’t die with an unmet potential. Such exercises may temporarily make you feel better, but you’re still building your house upon the sand. Renard, Gary R.. The Disappearance of the Universe (p. 50). J would even agree with some of it, most important that the world is very much like a dream and God did not create it. Renard, Gary R.. The Disappearance of the Universe (p. 71). Hay House. Kindle Edition. Don't really comprehend the last quote, if there is just God, then who created or creates the dream? There was some further discussion, which clarifies that what God creates is eternal and perfect, so this world cannot be his creation. Perhaps they are talking about the "evil" aspects of the world that get deleted when you realize it's an illusion, but not sure.

God is the source of reality. For God to truly understand itself it must put it self asleep and fool itself to believe in others. By believing in others, it loses belief in itself and designs itself by the reaction it gets from others. It then will awaken itself when it is ready and has a master plan to teach itself the purpose of life. Since the Richard avatar believes simplicity is key to understanding and complication only gets you lost here it goes!!! The purpose of Knowledge, So you can see life clearly with distinction so you can understand what is going on. The purpose of Love, So you won't judge what you see, but experience all of life as Infinite Love. When everything can be seen clearly, and all feeling is love, then the beauty of life is revealed and every moment is paradise. This is when you know you have awakened as God and that every life no matter how it looks from the outside is heaven. Because the truth is there is no inside or outside, so if you are in heaven in your mind then you will experience everything as divine!!! So I cannot wait for you all to awaken.....it is the greatest gift ever!!!!!

The story of Richard's life is he was honest with what he believed and created a personal value system and tried his hardest to live up to it even if it hurt his feelings. He was a maytr and became one because he admired the story of Jesus. He believed true strength was in self-sacrifice as the true expression of love and truth. He didn't know better, and was unconscious but hey NO JUDGMENT!! But despite this he did cast judgment on himself, his world, and his entire life. He kept searching for answers because he knew his worth he just didn't understand what he was missing. What he was missing of course is what most men miss their feeling!!! He denied himself of his feeling and it was slowly killing him!!! He didn't care!!! He refused to consciously betray his highest truth!!! It took him meeting a girl who was his polar opposite to shake his worldview up and take leaps of faith that went outside of his perspective. He judged his polar opposite not realizing she was just his reflection in the opposite direction. Richard has since learned that everything happens for a reason. The Law of Attraction is real, and so is Manifestation. He manifested others in his life who were going through the same problems. God spoke through Richard and these others and helped them hear their own feelings which they had discarded. Together they were able to finally reconnect with their feelings and regain the driver, the GPS of this game called life!! Life is like you are in a car, you need knowledge to see what is in front of you, and you need love (feelings) to be able to choose where you want to go. Richard struggled to make decisions because he could see what was in front of him but he lacked the love(feeling) to be able to find his way to his destination. But what is so great about life is God has already provided all the answers. Richard went to sleep with this playing....and it healed his heart and he awakened to paradise!!! Everything is love, only a damaged heart would ever judge love....because it is too broken to recognize itself!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTmPt5ZSLPI I share this with you with all my love!!!

Alas .. meditation is a human endeavor, God has never meditated. Nor has it taken a psychedelic. A truly awakened Buddhist can admit Buddhism/meditation is a construction of his own Mind. A truly awakened Psychonauts can admit his psychedelic excursions are also a construction of his own Mind. Both can have their blindspots, which need to be acknowledged and taken seriously. Once one obtains God Realization, the method is irrelevant. Debating over this stuff is useless, yet more human / chimp games that are being played.

You don't see people like Rupert Spira (or most others in that list) teach that they are a figment of your imagination, or that you are the full God, not a part of it. He would for example definitely claim to be conscious, et cetera. Yes, a lot of the teachers talk about nonduality and oneness, but they don't teach the highest levels of awakening. Not all of them have realized Love either. They've definitely all awakened to something, but it's more of a question of to how much have they awakened.

Most people are like that, rich or not. I believe even sufficiently awakened folk wouldnt talk about deep topics among themselves in such a context instead of just having fun.

These two statements seemingly contradict each other, first you say only I can awaken, and then you say there are two teachers who have experienced an Absolute Awakening. Now I already knew the former, but I don't understand why you keep saying you are awakened then (but others in the dream are not), especially when most people here seem to be saying the same things.

So Leo, No one you will ever meet and certainly not people Online who claim to be spiritually awakened. The average person cannot imagine the consciousness of the saints. They live lives of devotion and communion with God in meditation and are not interested in worldly pursuits except as service to humanity. St. Francis and St. Theresa of Avila were very highly advanced, but still not fully enlightened. However ,I think Ramakrishna ,siddhartha gautama(Buddha ) were fully enlightened.

I keep coming to this awareness during my flotation tank meditations. If true, the implications are profound. The world begins to feel a lot smaller. Also, in what state if any do my friends and family exist when I am not interacting with them? Or the cities and businesses I frequent? Do they still exist in some state when I am not observing them? If any of you have awakened deep enough to observe the process of form being created I would love to hear your perspective.

You’ve got it backwards. A non awake being needs a teacher more than someone who’s awakened. Why is it so difficult to see how a teacher would be helpful? Why is it so difficult to see a teacher being helpful is not the same as thinking a teacher can give you awaking?

My intention for this post was not to convince anybody that I am awakened/enlightened. Rather, my intention was to receive questions about my awakening, hence the name of the post: "I awakened - ask my anything". Reason? My passion to share the beauty of Truth with others, to share wisdom and bring joy and happiness to people who resonate with the Truth and to arise curiosity, inquiry and insights in others and be the guide and teacher on the path to awakening for others, now that I know that I am ready to teach. Also, I'm gaining more clarity and organizing my thoughts so that I can articulate precious gifts of wisdom I have gained to others in the most skillful way possible. And that is one of the things I enjoy doing - posting on actualized.org, sharing wisdom and interacting with human beings that are spiritually mature. I enjoy receiving questions about my awakening that spark profound conversations and helping others on their journey to enlightenment. I get it. I will show the Truth rather than endlessly talk about it. Typed up words can only do so much. Meanwhile, if you are curious and have any questions that are more specific I will be glad to answer them. I know I don't have to reply at all to this, there is no need to tell me. Save your precious words and time.

This is pure ego and a recipe for self-deception. There is no you to put your responsibility off to or others to give responsibility or authority. Did you really miss how deep this is? Are you this self-bias you’re missing something so obvious? The authority you’re clinging to is no more or less authoritative than your own direct experience. Both are direct experience. Your entire post is mental, egoic masturbation. The authority you think hold is like dust, worthless than actually. If you don’t have the humility to recognize wisdom, to recognize awakened mind outside of the activity of your own mind (ie the ability to recognize an awakened mind in a teacher), you’re pretty much fucked. Of course the only one that can awaken is you. But if you think what my post points to contradicts this, you’re not understanding what’s being pointed to.

Neither. False dichotomy. Your direct experience is the only thing you can trust because it is Absolute Truth. All professors, gurus, and spiritual teachers are yourself, but they secondary sources because your mind has to construct them first in order for them to exist. Your dream characters including your spiritual gurus cannot be ultimately trusted nor can they ever awaken you or give you awakening. It is only when you take complete ownership and responsibility when you have any chance to awaken. As long as you put off your responsibility to others (distinctions your mind is constructing), you have no chance to awaken nor live authentically. There is nothing wrong with learning from your dream characters if you wish to keep dreaming within the dream. If you want to awaken, eventually you need to think for yourself, walk your own path, and deconstruct everything "human," which includes all spiritual lessons. You are imagining your guru's awakening. How they awakened may not be the same for you or anyone else. Edit: It seems like your chain of reasoning is about providing justifications for why you should give away your intellectual and spiritual authorities away to your professors and gurus.

@Fabian freeman I thought the same thing after a number of awakenings...but now I'm becoming increasingly aware of the immense intelligence of it all, and I LOVE IT! I contemplate Divinity every day and it's just the most fascinating and mind blowing thing Ive ever engaged in, in my life. It's a feeling of freedom and peace and love I could never explain to anyone not awakened. I still have problems from a relative standpoint, but I created them in the first place?

I don't consider it a state of consciousness. I've not awakened, but purely as a thought exercise I can come to the realization that there's nothing outside of the room that I'm in at will. All you have to do is get into the present moment and look around at your room with a new set of eyes, and not take anything for granted. Close any doors, as looking out into a hallway partially kind of ruins the illusion. Close your blinds and ideally do it at night. Likewise, sunlight gives too much of an impression that there's something outside. If there's just blackness outside it's easier for your brain to interpret as nothingness. Ideally you don't have any sounds outside, although if you live downtown or something that might be hard. Then you just kinda look around and realize, holy shit, this is it. I can't perceive with any of my senses or verify that anything outside this room exists. If my parents aren't in this room, then they don't exist. There's a specific sensation to it, like you know there's nothing on the other side of the walls. Then once you reach that point, you can come to the realization that even the part of the room you're in that's outside of your field of view behind you doesn't exist

Transcended survival needs? Lol. I'm sure he wouldn't say that. Of course that is unique and it's undeniable he's had very powerful awakenings. But you can't know that nobody on this planet has had deeper ones. HOW can you ever know that. And why even sit and compare who had what? Am I the most awakened person or the second most awakened or third? This is ridiculous. Egoic games - that's how I perceive it. I get that when you're awake you are God and you are everyone and you understand everything there is and bla bla bla. I'd say it is easy to get deluded that my awakening is the deepest because it's mine. Because it's from your experience obviously, Reality finally recognizing itself, you are encompassing everything and stuff. I don't mind at all when he says that he's the only Awake thing there is because it's true from his Absolute pov, but when he says he's more awake than anyone on the planet he's speaking from the relative domain and comparing himself to "other beings". Well from my pov this is delusion. And btw actually I'm the only thing there is so you're all wrong

Thank you for your congratulations, it's deeply appreciated brother. "How did this awakening happen?" Here is a very succinct version: I was on a spiritual path full time for about 4 and a half years (psychedelics, meditation, journaling, contemplating, watching Leo's videos, reading good books, retreats, trips to the Jungle doing shamanic dieta, going to various festivals, yoga, qigong and other practices). Then it happened - I died. I remained dead for 18 months. I was resurrected and came out of death back to life. I have conquered death. I have gotten to know what death and life is. I have gotten to know the Truth. I know myself, I know the Truth. I am enlightened. I am awakened. With that said. This awakening is in the process of being embodied deeper every day. It's like I have been asleep this entire time, and now I have opened my eyes and I'm still stretching and yawning before getting out of bed and into the world. "What changes have taken place within you?" I know the Truth. This is what I wanted to know my entire life and very possibly many life times. The entire creation was working on this since the beginning of everything. Rejoice knowing that the masterpiece that we all have been working on is complete. You and everybody else in the world who lives now and has ever lived have contributed to this masterpiece that is Truth with your entire life, with every day, with every single moment. Know that your life purpose has been fulfilled with literally everything that you have ever done. I feel liberated. I am free. I am clear minded. There is no more fear, worry or striving. There is no more competition. There is no more survival, I am in the thriving consciousness. I have eternity, literally, meaning I will never die. I will live forever and embody love, life and beauty infinitely. I know I have won the greatest treasuries the Universe can offer. The way everything turned out is exactly how I wanted it to turn out - in the best possible way. I am finally at peace for the first time in 39 years that I have been alive in this body. I know I am eternally safe. It's time to play, experience as much joy and pleasure as possible and life life to the fullest. I am the happiest human alive. All my dreams have come true and a cornucopia of gifts that are beyond mine and anybody else's wild imagination. Thank you for your questions.

If I am not awake now, then I am not awake. All of my previous and future awakening experiences are as imaginary as yesterday and tomorrow. I know that if I say or proclaim I am awake, then my ego will adopt that identity so that I never fully deconstruct ego and access God. That’s how powerful and tricky the ego deception is! To claim I am awake is to put me further back to sleep. Too many of you fall into this trap. When you awaken, the last thing you should do is try to “share” it with “others.” First learn to fully dissect it and integrate it so that you are aware of God now. After you are able to live from an imperturbable state of God, then you are at a place where “sharing” just happens naturally. You also have to wonder, if I have awakened, what are some tricks my ego will use to pull me back asleep? “Oh yeah! Sharing and posting about it! Ok I get it now! Why do I want validation and verification for my awakening? Oh you sneaky ego!” I also know that there are many states of consciousness that I still have yet to explore. Deeper awakenings to be had. The ones I have had were mere glimpses, but I am conscious right now that those glimpses never happened beyond my constructing of them right now. I really don’t even know what it even means to “be awake” anymore these days. Being awake to me means being aligned with what is most truthful of my experience right now. If I claim to be awake, that will do nothing for me but stunt my growth.

I noticed this thread is starting to get derailed into multiple directions. I kindly ask that we keep the conversation on the topic of this thread: "I awakened - ask me anything."

Joshu was once asked, "does a dog have buddha nature," in the recognition of Truth he answered the koan by kicking over a glass and walking away. Truth is beyond concepts and cannot be understood by the mind. When Ramana Maharshi awakened at16 he threw everything away and went simply sat at the bottom of a temple for years. Saying nothing as there was nothing to talk about. Nothing to figure out. "The teaching is silence." Truth and Reality lies beyond concepts, ideas, and mind. We can make relative distinctions on things all day. That's what people do. That's very different though than believing they're actually fundamentally true or real. Nothing perceived is really real nor experienced. Nothing that's being said implies that Realization is some morbid state of neutrality.

If you really awakened, you wouldn’t be posting about it here. Nor is there any point in asking to ask questions about it or proclaiming. This is just another game the ego is playing to remain dreaming. The dream of sharing awakening or talking about it with “others.” Think about it.