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For the Totality/Wholeness of the Absolute and Manifest aspect: The gold (Absolute) and the ring (manifested side of the Absolute/arising/appearance) made out of gold metaphor. It is a Infinite Unity and Totality. Always gold, but the ring can appear or be gone. The nature/essence of the ring is gold. But not the other way round. And for equating anything with the Absolute (and not with its manifest side or potential): The Absolute is truly Infinite. It is neither this nor that, not even love. It is beyond it all. It couldn't be any different. It is your true BEING, but not what you think your being is right now. Realize it, then you will understand. The Absolute is beyond it all. If you would understand it, you would be enlightened right now. It can't be communicated in words. Once you start intuiting/realizing it, it will be totally clear. Where was unconditional love in deep sleep? Before your birth? After your death? These are all Koans that pointing directly to your truly Infinite Absolute Nature, which is literally right here right now, but covered under a myriad of clouds of mistaken identities (thoughts/feelings). These Koans have a very clear answer, just not one that can be carried with words and language/duality. A good approximation is: The Absolute is both totally empty (undescribeable) and also infinite potential. The Infinite Potential contains the potential for unconditional love, expressed then in the manifested side of the Absolute/Infinite Consciousness. But that is already to much concepts. The referent of the signifier must be there: Realization of the Absolute in an awakened state. That is then called Enlightenment (the full&final one). Sorry, language ends somewhere here. Maybe one more idea/metaphor: The blind men describing the elephant: One says its a hose, one says a trunk, and so on. The facets of Awakening. If the elephant is the manifested side of consciousness, then the whole (infinite) elephant has love as its essence so to say. Because fundamentally it is a nondual Unity. And where there is an other, there is fear (Upanishads somewhere). And if there is no other (nondual infinite unity), there is only love. And the Absolute would be the spaceless locationless unmanifest (no body, center, location, anything. FULLY EMPTY) Awareness of the elephant, "seeing itself", but also in nondual union with it. The gold from the ring-metaphor and the elephant the ring. And if the elephant is zapped out of existence, the Absolute Awareness is neither aware of the elephant, nor (and that is important) of itself. There is no time, no space, no nothing. But the POTENTIAL for sentience/awareness. Unaware of itself. But as soon as the elephant arises/manifests again (with love as its essence, see above), Absolute Awareness "sees" again - love. So it can only manifest as metaphysical love so to say. And now make elephant infinite (no boundaries) limitless... And there can only be love! Yet the Absolute can not be defined with love (only). Not even with (Self-)Consciousness/Awareness, since that doesn't happen when nothing arises/manifests. But with potential for Awareness if something arises. And since the separate-self-contraction is perfectly capable of clouding over the original state of infinite love&bliss (resulting from nondual infinite unity, aka "no other"), instead of doing all these metaphysical conceptual word-games, it would be better to sit down and practice cutting off the mindstream with all its illusion-arisings of the separate-self-contraction. And become empty nondual infinite impersonal Awareness itself. Then love will flow freely anyway, which is all that counts. Ok, now a Zen-Master or two are probably going to kill me....

ok I get that, so is this another way of putting it, the ramifications of pure love are as if you could take an infinite amount of MDMA and you never could never overdose and you could never build tolerance and the effects never wear off. I'm not saying you don't come down from pure love, just in this scenario. So say you start with 1gram dose in one go, and your writhing around in bliss, then you take a further 5 grams and now the feeling of love is so overwhelming that you can no longer move just your finger or even your eyes. Then a further 10 grams at which point the love is so powerful that its completely disintegrated all ego mind and your not even strong enough to produce a single thought like love is the sun and a thought is a droplet of water a metre from the suns surface which evaporates in less than a nanosecond. Now you take a further 50 grams, the love is so strong that your body is involuntarily convulsing and the feeling is so overwhelming that it feels like your body is being struck by lightning from a thousand thunderstorms simultaneously. The love is so pure and so powerful that its turned into a torture beyond any fathomable conception, so unbearable that you turn to the only option you've got left. You kill yourself. Is this the ramifications of LOVE? (I was also going to write that the love is so intense that you've completely forgotten all memory, all consensus reality has disintegrated, you forget that that you ever imagined anything (I don't mean realising that everything you knew was actually imaginary, but that consciousness never imagined anything at all). Your mind has turned into an uncontrollable rollercoaster of insanity that is going so fast that nothing can ever slow it down and continues on for eternity) Not sure about this bit, let me know if I've gone off topic to the essence of love that I described with the analogy.

Sure, but it clearly shows you what is Absolute (or fundamental, or Reality itself) and what is just a temporary arising within it (as it of course, but still within it). It clearly shows (or makes one realize and understand) which is eternal, omnipresent, timeless, changeless, infinite. And that is how you can define Reality, or God. In other words: It shows what is always there, and can not not be there. Which funnily is also the True You. Metaphysical love: Lets do a thought experiment like the following: When nothing arising, you don't know that you exist. Deep Sleep. Yet you are. You reappear every morning. So even a very subtle (self-)consciousness is an arising IN Reality. That becomes very clear once having had these states in meditation. So when anything at all, however subtle arises, a "you", a consciousness "of" can appear. Or just the colour red for example, without self-consciousness (in an animal for example). But it arises and is being "awared". That is manifestation/arising. And as soon as there is red (or any other arising for that matter), there is also underlying fundamental love. Because the reality in which it arises, that which arises, and the Awareness of it is a Unity, and love is the opposite of division/duality. It is the intuition, experience, and pull back of/from this underlying nondual Unity. The Totality pulls all beings with that love back home to their True Being. And that is why love is as fundamental as any other of the first manifestations occuring in the Infinite (like space, time, first forms/archetypes of manifestation). How that works in practice: Feel in certain empty awakened states into an appearance, and use something like the Koan "what is this really". The answer will be something like you & light of Reality & love. But that is not the fundamental Infinite Absolute. The Infinite is really fully infinite or empty, or not definable. It is YOU. And YOU can't "see" YOU as an object. The eye can't see itself. Everything you see is illusion-arising-manifestation IN True You. At that point you have fully realized how "you" (small y) can be fully switched off in deep sleep and yet True You (capital y) still be there as the Absolute Infinite. That realization is a beyond a mere conceptual-insight, and can't be fully explained. It is a realization which can only be had in infinite boundless nondual mere appearance awakened states, and then asking what is "beyond" that, or what is True Me. You have to BE it, and then ask yourself what IS it. And then "you" or It can realise itself, but only out of this certain states. But that you is not a thought. That you already has to be the Totality in a nondual way. And to get to these states, you need a lot of training in getting an empty mindstream and cutting off each and any blabla concept in the mindstream. Psychedelics get you to these nondual states, but its not empty/impersonal enough to realize what is "beyond" that. And then one confuses the Totality of Manifestation with the Infinite Absolute Unchanging Timeless beyond. The real realization is a very clear and simple answer, a direct realization, without any FURTHER or beyond or n+1. And it is not a fundamental reductionistic baseline, because it is the Realization of Reality itself, and of realizing the essence of every arising in it. General Omniscience so to say. Not the content of all realms, but the essence/suchness/substance of every possible manifestation. In other words, of anything possible at all. That is why its final, and why Osaid said that once the Ultimate Truth is realized, its done. Everything else is just content/manifestation/realms: Fun to explore, but why grasp & suffer doing it? God is doing the evaluation of its endless potential anyway, and will never(!) run out of worlds/realms to explore (remember, its infinite). And God is doing a better job at it with more grace than currently Leo, who does this clearly in a grasping and suffering way. But declaring that project higher than realizing Ultimate Truth. A perfect recipe for suffering: Declaring/confusing the lower (Manifested Side of Infinite Consciousness) with the higher (Absolute, totally empty and infinite at the same time, without opposite). Ok, back to love: So love is so fundamental that as soon as any manifestation arises it is there. One could say that the Absolute is love. But on the other side it is not, since the Absolute can be without any arising. So its a question of what is more fundamental. And since the realization of this Absolute is the all deciding "point", a pointer saying the Absolute is love is rejected as a non-efficient pointer by most enlightened persons. Yet, it is a very difficult topic, because one could validly say that the Absolute is maybe not love, but its first manifestation is love, the essence of any manifestation is love, the essence of any possible world is love, love is what got the whole game going and what makes the Universe evolve back to its source, grow in complexity so that it can realize its own Unity in the form of enlightened beings. And in practical daily life, as we have heard thousands of times before, all that matters is love. That is true! The only remark is: To fully love all the time, the separate-self-contraction has to be fully transcended, since it keeps the game going with unloving periods, and its "projects" chasing experiences to get back the love/bliss. Selling Water by the River PS: And the realization that you can not not be there, even if unaware in Deep Sleep: That is really coming home, You can NEVER loose yourself, and never did. The world becomes home, all separate-self-contractions that were the essence of "un-love" or "masked" the natural and inherent flow of love stop, the underlying infinite Unity becomes apparent, and the mindstream becomes love & bliss. For some, even divine/celestial perception showing how universal consciousness rolls out reality starts, like Harri Aalto or David Buckland for example. That is where Leo thinks he is the only one exploring these realms with psychedelics, but that is wrong. Life then becomes the celebration that its meant to be. And that is not the "end" of Enlightenment, but just the start of all which comes after, this life and the following ones. Each being expresses this realization differently, since individuality as separation gets lost, and not individuality as being/mindstream. Each one will express his/her enlightened love differently.

Yes, but you are teaching a dangerous psychedelic path to the masses, claiming it as superior to anything else (including Full Enlightenment). Don't be so sure that nobody else is doing the (psychedelic) path of exploring higher realms or has done it. Christopher Bache, Stanislav Grof. Harri Aalto. David Buckland. And many more, on request. From all I can see, the forum is flooded with egos who think they are God in narcicisstic and solipsistic way. Boosting their ego, not transcending it. That goes on your Karmic bill. Read a bit of Jürgen Ziewe how these negative energies caused by the suicides and other trainwrecks when your fanclub destroys their life on a relative level will haunt you (literally) in the afterlife and next life. I live by this here: Although my view is higher than the sky, My respect for the cause and effect of actions is as fine as grains of flour. – Padmasambhava And it has served me very well. I have a beautiful life on the relative level, and the bliss of Reality has become very very stable in my mindstream. For heavens sake, stay a bit agnostic on the topic of superiority of Full Enlightenment vs. AWAKENING n+1, and put some warnings/disclaimers on this dangerous path of yours for your followers. And maybe a little bit tell your following that the ego/separate-self is supposed to be transcended and let go, and not boosted to solipsistic narcicisstic God-like dimensions. Water by the River

Of-fucking-course! Everything I talk about in this domain is not just a direct awakening but direct awakening on top of direct awakening until you are shitting blood on the floor. You guys cannot begin to imagine my awakening. Bliss is a valid thing, but it is not the same thing as realizing that Consciousness is Love. You can have one without the other and vice versa. Bliss is best associated with feelings. Bliss comes and goes as a feeling.

Did you have a direct awakening that told you that? No. A direct awakening is a complete understanding of reality. This is pure bliss. But you will never awaken as God to something that will say "this is Love". Because God doesn't work like that. You will become God. And you will become Love. So if you want to say God is Love I won't disagree but I prefer to call it Absolute Bliss. Because it will not be something you become directly conscious of. You will become directly conscious of the nature of reality and what it is.

Ralston is correct. Enlightenment does not include notions of Love. Because it is prior to notions. And yet - there is pure Understanding. For at its core that is what Consciousness and/or Being is. And part of this understanding is realizing you are God. Not the word God but the realization without notions or words. This, in essence, is Love - but not the word Love - rather pure bliss. Unity is bliss. Ralston still has a notion of other because he still teaches. Leo has stopped teaching altogether. This tells me he has more understanding than Ralston. Ralston's awakening was half baked. But then he went on to teach what he could. In none of his teachings will you find that all other exists within his mind. This is because he did not realize he was God. He did not fully awaken from the dream that is reality. Ask him that - rather than fooling with the notion of Love. For it matters not.

Ok. Thank you. I am working on my reactionary time to how I respond to circumstances, people, places and things. Before I wasn't as aware, I didn't notice certain things. Now my awareness has expanded and my level of consciousness has become a bit elevated (if those are the right terms), it's not so comfortable anymore. They say ignorance is bliss and I can see why. But, at the same time, I don't want to be ignorant I want to become, i want to bloom, I want to shine. I AM these things, so I'm aware I have to wipe the windshield off in order to see clearly, to direct my energy where I can become a better version of all that I AM. This is a life-long journey and I have seen the difference in how I relate to myself and others already, but there is still growth to be made but I understand it's not more adding on but subtracting. I'm a perfectly made being because God is perfect. I am made in God's image so I am perfect, it's my perceptions and veils that I have to change not my BEINGNESS. The ISNESS just is, I am so excited to exist, I'm so excited to BE, so excited that sometimes I don't want to, sometimes I feel like I'm not living up to my true potential, sometimes I feel disappointed in myself, sometimes I feel I am letting down my true nature as God. Not morally, but existentially, he has given me life and I feel sometimes I'm not honoring that. The love I feel for God is beyond words, that sometimes I feel like I'm disappointing him. There's no guilt or shame, just ignorance. That's why my thirst for knowledge is so high. I feel his love inside of me everyday, minute and second, but I have conditioned that love and now I want to recondition it. This is why I'm still here, this is why I've developed courage and trying to understand, understand myself and the people around me. If not, there's no point. No point in existing, because I've given up on my own purpose of existence. I'm more concerned with how can I serve God for giving me this gift. This gift of life. How can I represent him. So that us my life purpose. My purpose driven life. My goal, Even though I understand that I AM the goal. That's why I want to recognize my true nature as God. God is thee only thing that's real to me, because it's all I see, INWARDLY. Thanks for reading this. It wasn't expected, just came out. Thank you Leo for the space in which to do this as I am not good at journalling on my own.

Fully agreed and to add to this is there are some type of people that can sometimes be more neuro-divergent or mentally ill or just weird type, people like me actually begin more on the right side of the extreme and because spirituality is geared towards the left side when I started out at 11 years old I instantly reached an awakening peak the very first time I meditated after I read an osho's book on witnessing so I went off too hardcore to the right over time, every time anything was wrong or if I was trying to evolve further I always tried to get more spiritual when what I might have needed even from before I had an awakening was actually more ego, more assertiveness, more self centeredness and less uncontrolled empathy, more physicality, I needed less surrendering and of course because of this there is almost no advice regarding people who genuinely begin from the right side, because nobody teaches you how to consciously and skillfully hate or dislike something, I was overly optimistic to a stupid extreme that I would ignore any physical strain/pain that would challenge my love, surrender and optimism for what I thought was my self and others, It's almost complicated, but that's only because there's almost no advice on how being more egotistical is actually real evolution for people like me, it has negative connotations and what people can't understand is that actually it is supposed to have, the negativity itself doesn't imply suffering it implies difference and individuality, I assume it's partially because the feminine side and the post scarcity of a major part of humanity has only been active for maybe 70 years so we've been teaching ourselves how to be more feminine but not how to be consciously "masculine" especially because most of the ego and masculinity teaching are presented too sexually instead of from wholesale mechanical usefulness side that applies to every aspect of life, Accepting your hate and your biases doesn't just mean you stop being biased, you actually also become more biased by being unbiased, the degree of evolution is about the connection between simple and complicated, both have to exist always moving away from suffering and towards whatever(because there's no singular word for the good stuff), it is utterly irrelevant what form is either right now, even if something was good a moment ago and suddenly isn't then that is simply the truth, repetition is irrelevant, things don't have to be new, they don't have to be different and they don't have to be the same either, we just obey pleasure and pain 100% of time, why? Because I have not known any other single thing except what this confusion is trying to teach me, time, memory, imagination, multiple selves from where there are more types of pleasures and more vectors for reducing suffering(reducing suffering does not necessitate for there to be a suffering to reduce, you can remove suffering from nothing or even from bliss because it's just an expression/reaction of a type of action/form which in itself is a type of specific pleasure). Thank you for reading my cringe lol, because genuine social interaction is cringe even through a safe screen to me am I roight?

Authenticity destroys our narcissistic tendencies. The only real superpower us as monkeys can gain from this is deep peace and bliss, and from that place we can be a little bit less of an asshole.

For sure a valid experience description. The bold markings are by me. Merging implies a Unity = something merges with something. And has an experience. The Absolute by definition is always right here right know, and is either known/understood/realized, or covered under clouds of ignorance or mistaken (separate) identity. The Absolute (Reality itself) is not affected wether love arises in the mindstream of a being or not. Equating the Absolute with anything, be it an experience, a certain state, love, bliss, unity, whatever, n+1, anything non-permanent (aka anything at all) is... not the Absolute in which and as which all of that arises in a nondual way. When talking about anything specific we are talking (maximum, if at all) about one of the first "roll-out" elements of the Absolute doing its job of manifesting a manifested reality WITHIN ITSELF. Space, time, dimensions, love, bliss, subtle arisings, and so on... Spiritual Teachers and Traditions tell since the dawn of time about the utmost importance love, and how it is divine. Because love IS a fundamental property of any manifestation/universe. Love stabilizes awakened states, opens awakened states, and is definitely there to awe-inspiring degrees at the higher realms/states of reality. If one is so inclined, one could even say the essence of everything IS love. There is no manifestation without love as its essence, saturating it, pulling it all back to realize its source. So a necessary ground for every manifestation, showing its essential unity. Yet, it arises IN the Absolute. Where else could it arise? It is of the same essence as the Absolute, but WITHIN IT. And if that Absolute is not realized and always available right here right now as ones True Essence... one tends to talk about the first roll-outs of manifestation, the highest archetypes, the first arisings necessary to get a manifestation going... Selling Water .... PS; And talking about Absolutes in the plural, like x/y/z "is an absolute", is a joke in itself. The Absolute is One without a second. It is not even one. It is that which has no opposite. And no plural. All the rest are manifestations within it, tendencies, or primal manifestation archetypes.

Thanks for the question. Like i said your personal traits are not who you are because they are added into you ..."installed " if you will We are basically programming souls (our true most essential nature) into socially survival-oriented robots (ego) without telling these souls that we did it. all of your beliefs..age ..memories...it's all conditioning. And you didn't code it yourself (most of it not at least). Age? Who gives a fuck about age. Career? Who gives a fuck about your career. Beliefs? Who gives a fuck about what you believe in. Success..money.. your outward fake appearance? Who gives a damn I don't..cos I'm not sleeping in ego anymor.. but most people actually seem to take all these stories seriously.. and they seem to be happy with it (being robots..being asleep). But when it dawns on you one day.. that the whole of your life has been nothing but code/programming..well that fucking hurts. That fucking hurts. Ignorance is Bliss as they say. But when you have that realization..you are basically beginning to wake up. And when you are completely tired of fake games and being inauthentic then then you're gonna wake up.

Jed McKenna Interlude: No Belief is True "Self-realization, truth realization isn't a state of consciousness. You want to bring this whole thing down to a level that you can deal with it. But that's not possible.. truth isn't an idea or a concept. It's not in libraries or in the words of sages. It doesn't come in a flash of insight or a peak experience. Its not a feeling of bliss or ecstacy. It's not a concept to be understood or a feeling to be experienced. It's not in your heart or your mind. It's further. We're talking about lies, important lies. Lies right at the heart of who and what we are. We're making serious accusations. We're committing heresy because that's what heresy is, truth talk in the dream state. Spiritual awakening is about discovering what's true. Anything that's not about getting to the truth must be discarded. Truth isn't about knowing things. You already know too much. It's about unknowing. It's not about becoming true, it's about unbecoming false, so that all that's left is truth. If you want to become a priest or a lama or a rabbi or a theologian then there's a lot to learn, tons and tons. But if you want to figure out what's true, then it's a whole different process, and the last thing you need is more knowledge. Beliefs are candles that man uses to ward off the surrounding darkness. They are the charms that we use to hold infinity at bay, to dispell the black cloud that hovers over every head. Your moments of blackest despair are really your most honest moments, your most lucid moments. That's what you're seeing without your protective lenses. That's when you pull back the curtain and see things as they are. No belief is true. No. Belief. Is. True. All beliefs, all concepts, all thoughts, yes, they're all false. All bullshit. Of course they are. Not just religions and spiritual teachings but all philosophies, all ideas, all opinions. If you're going for the truth, you're not taking any of them with you. Nothing that says two, not one.. survives. That's what I say. It rings true because it is true." ~ From one of Jed McKenna's books

@OBEler Ignorance is indeed bliss.

Good that you deleted Instagram and keep in mind that parties, alcohol, sex is all just a waste of time and energy, it doesnt lead to ultimate happiness so those things don't matter, focus on the actual thing that is gonna give you happiness and actual pleasure which is going within and reconnecting with your higher self, you can do this with the best tool which is Brahmacharya of course, meditation, introspection, diet that makes you feel light and doesn't take too much energy to digest, quality sleep, not taking any substances like alcohol or drugs, and just making your life as pure as possible, the more pure it is, the more connected you are, the more bliss you will experience in you baseline state, anxiety, OCD and all those types of negative disorders will be fully gone, the less you will desire all the clickbait pleasures like alcohol, sex, parties and because humility will naturally come as well with a healthier lifestyle your pride will naturally also be gone which is what makes you feel bad about the quality of your college and will naturally remove the jelaousy because you will know that you found what you and everyone is looking for through things like parties, sex, alcohol, higher universities which they never find in those things and waste their life away which is ultimate happiness, your true self. You are not stupid for being academically "weak", the fact that you can self-reflect like this and do it on this forum tells me that very probably you are above most of your peers and those people who attend fancier schools are not necessarily smarter than you for that same reason above, consciousness and wisdom>smartness even tho both sides are good, but going to a fancier university won't make someone figure out the ultimate happiness aka our true nature and then aligning our practical life with it's wisdom which is basically kinda the goal of life, and you are closer to achiving that goal than most of those people, but that doesn't make those people stupid either, it's just a matter of destiny, and in that sense people like you, me and many on this forum are luckier then them so use that luck and of course don't kill yourself, you like all of us will die anyway one day so may as well go full out in life and give your best no matter what, especially when your destiny gives you a golden ticket in life which is being lucky enough to even know about a source of information like this channel and forum which helps you know about what to even do with life which most people don't and then waste it.

Yeah shrooms basically make you feel like shit for the first 1-2 hours and you're asking yourself why you even did them, and then once you've worked through the tough part the euphoria and bliss kicks in. Not every time though. But when it does I'm like why the hell do I bother with MDMA?! This shit works and feels better and I can grow it in my house

I have the exact same experience. You are not alone. Terrance McKenna often referred to the "meat locker." If you trip and tell yourself not to think of a pink elephant, you're gonna think of a pink elephant. You may be stuck in a loop. You may be greedy for the euphoria and bliss. You are trying to control the trip. You have expectations. The cosmos always has control. You must embrace and inhabit your insignificance. Have patience. Give yourself a 50 year plan. Work on your chakras. Do yoga. Study yoga. Study chakras. Let go of your schedule and your plan. Let the universe come to you. Do not go looking for the universe. Let go. The lesson here is to surrender control. All will be revealed. You are not ready. You are skipping steps. Open your eyes. Accept the message. Show respect for the cosmos and the monad. This is not a game. There are no shortcuts. Explore your shadow. Get therapy. Read self help books. You have a calling. You have been chosen. This is not about recreation. These drugs are a tool. This is not escapism. Pack your bags. Buy the ticket. Take the ride. Hang in there. We've all been there.

I get what you mean but no, diet is much more subjective and depends more on an individual than Brahmacharya, Brahmacharya is an universal tool that's objectively the best tool every human can access for getting the most possible bliss/happiness/pleasure out of life, diet depends more on the genetics, saving sexual energy absolutely doesn't

I don't recommend tantric sex, it's an excuse for still having sex but making it "spiritual", it's better to have actual sex than having tantric sex, because even tho you don't lose your semen as a guy you still lose sexual energy/ojas so it doesn't matter that much that you don't literally release. It's either you have sex or you don't, no in between. To answer the 2nd part, the whole reason why i and basically everyone who is doing brahmacharya does it is for spirituality, for spiritual benefits, it's not to get women (even tho brahmacharya will metaphysically attract women to you so it's easy if a person really wants to use it as a tool for sex), the bliss/peace/energy combo that one gets from brahmacharya is better than sex or any other pleasure there is, that combo is happening in your baseline state 24/7 and until the day you release the sexual energy, this is why i'm so promotive of brahmacharya, because it's literally heaven on earth, God shines through you fully at all times, this is what everyone is looking for one way or another, even in sex, the reason why one has and desires sex is because it feels GOOD, but Brahmacharya is the number one sources of that GOODNESS that a human being can access, it's 24/7 feeling of the highest/best feeling of "GOODNESS" there is, and it's not something that's dependent on the outside world, you don't need another human to get this source of goodness/pleasure, you don't need pornography, you don't need an icecream, you don't need a dopamine hit, you don't need pleasure from watching a movie, because none of these things compare to the pleasure, to the goodness one gets from Brahmacharya, and one gets it from within, and this makes it fair because basically everyone can access it if they want to but they have to make a big sacrifice by giving up probably their biggest source of pleasure in life which is overall release of sexual energy, and it's not only a matter of Brahmacharya being better but it's also the ultimate thing because it's infinite, it's the access to the infinite, access to God and when one cuts that access they will go back to hell, back to the life of worldy pleasures which aren't ultimate, they can't ever fully satisfy a person, sex can't do this, ice cream can't do this, a movie can't do this, money can't do this, because all these things come and go, they don't last until the next round, until the next sex session, until the next ice cream cone, until the next movie, and at some point a person realizes that they still don't feel satisfied no matter what they try so they usually do 2 things: kill themselves or try spirituality(and spiritiuality is about making the connection with the infinite and the best way to make that connection is brahmacharya, there is nothing that will give you better connection with the source than sacrificing your sexual energy, and if a person doesn't do this they still may get a decent connection with God but it will never reach anywhere near their full potential, they will never get that 24/7 baseline state combo of bliss, peace and energy, they may get a low budget version of it, but it doesn't compare to the high budget version, to the ultimate budget version, to Brahmacharya, and all of this i'm speaking from experience, i know the contrast between my baseline state before and after Brahmacharya and those 2 things are literally HELL and HEAVEN, that's how big of a difference there is, you may think you feel good right now in your baseline state without Brahmacharya but i'm telling you the way you would feel a few months to a few years on ths lifestyle would be an insane difference in happiness/pleasure, i would never ever go back to the life without Brahmacharya, not because i don't allow myself but because i can't do it, this state that i'm in right now is the greatest thing there is in life and i can't give it up, i literally love this state too much, sex is laughable in comparison, you could offer me my perfect soulmate girlfriend with who i would have the greatest sex ever and i would decline because nothing compares to Brahmacharya, to 24/7 God presence intensified to the max

It's true that you can become more angry if you go for longer but if you control yourself and don't ejaculate even that anger will go away after some time and you will be at peace, you can always go more than 2 weeks, i personally do it at all times, if it happens that i have a wet dream (which happens really rarely) so be it but other than that i don't really ever ejaculate and i'm good, don't remember the last time i was angry, just natural purity, peace, bliss and a lot of energy

Hi everyone, I already wrote about following the microdosing protocol which activated some negative emotions from the past. Suicidal thoughts, hopelessness, depression, anxiety. I was offered to start taking SSRIs but refused because psychedelics deserved a chance. Link to my previous Topic: Childhood trauma, depression and 5meo -I believe that having suicidal thoughts should be used as an opportunity to reach ego death because there is already a great magnitude pulling you towards it. I would feel wrong if I accepted medication to pull me back. I am grateful for negative experiences because they set me on this journey. This is my personal opinion based on my own experience, not advice for anybody else. Yesterday evening I had my first trip ever. This is how I started: I experimented with plugging 5meo MALT for 2 weeks. I did it in a fasted state and I took a piece of ginger 30 min before plugging. 1. Attempt I started small with 6mgs and decided to add 6mgs to see if anything would change. I felt nothing special. 2. Attempt 18mgs, I started to feel "something" And it was not a pleasant experience. I felt nausea and anxiety, and I was in an incredibly low state of awareness, a bit confused and disoriented but it was manageable. 3. Attempt I started with 24mgs and waited 15 min. Again, I felt just nausea and decided to plug +6mgs in the hope it would synergize with the previous dose. I finally started feeling that it was kicking in, so I waited 10-15 min. I was not fully satisfied with the result, and I felt confident to add 12mgs more. -It finally worked My threshold dose was 42mgs overall. 6mg micro scoop used for measuring. TRIP REPORT I lay on the floor in my hut which is located on an isolated piece of land. I was alone, closed all windows, locked the doors, and left just a tiny bit of light on in case it went wrong. (I was not very aware of the time, but when I try to remember the longevity of being in those states it feels like this:) First 15 min: I was hyper-aware. No thoughts were going through my head, and when one came, I could observe it like an entity that was separated from me. I had no past, no future. There was just now. after 30 min: I decided to sit and go deeper in meditation, it was so effortless. I felt weightless. Every move that I was making felt so magnificent. Just taking a breath or spreading my arms was pure joy. after 45 min: I am sitting in a meditative pose. Time slowed down drastically. The feeling of "I" was slowly getting lost and soon after that a short phase of laughing started. And the reason that there was laugh was: I will not call it awakening. It was more like "remembering". Of course. Of course, there is only me. after 1 hour, I carefully stood up to see how much control over my body I had. I was functioning fine. I went out of my hut and saw that the sky looked nicer than ever, it looked Godly. I never saw so many stars due to the lack of light pollution in that area. I decided to lie on the floor outside and admire the stars. I spent at least 1 hour lying on the concrete floor just admiring the stars, not judging, not much thinking, and not being bothered by the hard floor I was lying on, just enjoying the bliss of presence. It felt like the period of my life when I was practicing meditation for 1-2 hours daily for 2 months, but deeper and, with no effort at all. After 3 hours or something I wanted to go for 50+ mgs because I felt I could go so much deeper but I remembered that I had a dentist appointment the next day early in the morning so I decided to go home and get some sleep. On the next day, I woke up still very present even tho I had little sleep. Thank you for your patience and guidance @OBEler , @mpechura Questions: 1. I used a bunch of 5meo MALT to find my threshold dose. Is there a point for me in trying something else when my batch is empty, or should I stick with MALT and increase the dosage until I cannot handle it? 2. I still want to face my fears, traumas from childhood, experience non-duality for a longer period, psychological death, and of course some mind fuckery. Will it be possible with this chemical in higher doses? 3. Can I make myself more sensitive to this chemical? It will become a very costly hobby if I need 100mg every time I want to go deep. 4. Is it possible to increase my baseline of awareness/meditatives by using this substance?

You keep thinking like the character, you need to think like a creator. When you write a story, if the character always lived in bliss...there is no story. If you started up Netflix and there was a story of a guy who always had from his perspective favorable outcomes and never any adversity...would you watch it? No!!! It would bore you!! If someone told you that somewhere in that movie that he discovers he is God you would say that it was bad writing because of course he is God everything is always going his way!!! Now notice what I just said? Understand that the ego is a construction of God...but also a limited, through both love and intelligence version of God. The ego is naturally a conditional, loving and honest actor. For it to develop it must be placed in varying conditions. This is why from the Absolute perspective feeling terrible is no better or worse is not better than feeling good because the purpose is not how you feel, the purpose is how close or far are you aligned with truth. The way awakening is set up, the way God Realization is set up, it is a complex mental construction of trickery done by YOU!!! YOU have tricked yourself. We can call this you, the higher self or collective intelligence. What you think of yourself is a compartmentalization, the ego, and this compartmentalization needs to be deconstructed so you can access the infinite and awaken. Now every thought, emotion, and action is watched by your higher self for its INTENTION. You literally cannot lie to your higher self if you want to awaken. Your higher self KNOWS what you can handle and KNOW what you cannot as it can see INFINITE STEPS ahead. Awakening is the process of you learning to TRUST YOUR SELF. Notice that theme has always played out when it came to dealing with fear. A lack of trust in yourself, is self-judgment. A lack of faith in the awakening process is SELF-JUDGMENT with a capital S. Both SELF-JUDGMENT, and self-judgment are mirror reflections of each other. The only way to awaken is with a deep surrender. You have to OPEN YOUR HEART, with a desire to freely fall into the warm embrace of all that is with complete trust that Love will conquer all. Basically the path to God is an INNER ROMANCE.

This drug was designed to substitute MDMA without the side effects. I plan on trying it after AL-LAD Blue Bliss pellets (5-MAPB+2-FMA+5-MeO-MiPT)

Interesting read. I liked it a lot. Eye opening. I never really delved into the makings of the Spiritual Ego or read too much about it, so thank you for posting this. You see, everything serves it's purpose. Maybe I wouldn't have seen this article if Mr. Messiah here didn't erupt from his volcano and started spreading his ashes. So, we need to see worth in everything. Is that Spiritual Ego talking. Or toxic positivity, or I am better than you syndrome. Sometimes its probably best to know nothing at all 'cause ignorance is bliss and now I'm gonna start analyzing myself for Spiritual Egotism. Not really 'cause I have different styles of communicating, so if I'm doing that, the other ways will cancel that out and I'll be in balance. Hehe

I wouldn't say that porn is the symptom, it's definitely the problem itself, it's impossible to have self-love and watch porn in any way whatsoever, doesn't matter if it comes from the point of view of art or addiction it will take some of your energy nevertheless which is the reason why a person would be watching it in the first place, it's because it's going to give them some type of pleasant feeling in exchange for some of their sexual energy, doesn't have to be an orgasm, just a nice feeling is enough. Our natural state is pure, innocent bliss, it's the state one is born in, when we are younger it's the state every single person was in (bar anomalies that were really extremely abused or had some hard disease from the start) And throughout our youth and teens this bliss really gradually gets lost through bad habits, bad habits are things that give pleasure (of any degree, it can be subtle pleasure (like watching a cartoon for the sake of entertainment) or it can be extreme (orgasm) ) in exchange for that blissful energy and sexual energy is the by far the biggest source of energy which is why society is and has always been so sexually oriented, more oriented towards it than any other pleasure in the world (procreation argument aka "it's natural to want to have sex because of procreation" is bad argument because 99% of time when people have sex it's for the sake of pleasure not procreation which is basically people overusing their instinct to cope with life, if people only had sex to create children that would be a good argument of course) And because of this something like porn is the problem, it shouldn't be accepted in any way whatsoever, it shouldn't be demonized either but one should always have the intention to remove porn out of their life because it's another parasite that drains ones energy no matter from which perspective they go about watching it, doesn't matter if they are lustful or artful, their blissful energy will be taken as a consequence which means their self-love which is a natural state of being of every being will weaken, and slightly little by little lead toward self-hate if a person accepts a parasite like that for a long time, same goes for every other pleasure there is that drains energy, even if it's just little amount, it still shouldn't be accepted, assuming that one wants so self-actualize and be self-loving. We have to be practical about things like these and eliminate the things that are parasites of our natural self-love and not just accept anything in our relative lives because the absolute has that perspective, and counter-intuitively by not accepting those parasites in our lives (aka by not being loving towards them) we will experience much more self-love than if we kept those things in our life and tried loving them, porn is a problem no matter if we give it power or not and one should have the intention of removing it out of their life, end of story.