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Your intuition is the most dangerous thing to your survival. Your intuition is the most dangerous thing to whatever positonality you are in right now, it is the biggest threat to your social situation, your relational situation, your family situation, your job situation, what you believe about yourself, what you believe your purpose is and all that shit you have in your head Your intuition is literally the inner guru, it is highest form of intelligence within you. It is literally the lighthouse of God guiding you in your storm half sinking ship trying to return you the state of harmony/nonduality/stillness/childlike innocence The moment you realize how absolutely terrifying it is to trust yourself but you do it anyway is when you stop projecting your intuitive authority that is inherently inside of yourself to explore and think about how reality works for yourself - this is the end of validation seeking, and becoming a man who knows what he wants (or woman<3) and for those seeking life-purpose, your intuition is literally the calling to your life purpose and IT TAKES TIME for it blossom and unfold and have deeper realizations for why you are here, but it's so important to really begin to trust your gut feeling as much as you can for that blossoming to come, how many of you think you have found your purpose but have some backround doubts? , i don't exactly know how the life-purpose program works here but it's not difficult to realize truly what you as God wants for the world - what have you came here to give? give. give. give. give. Because your intuition as a child was guiding you until you got socialized and I bet if you REALLLLLLLY reflect back on your life SO many times you had this feeling that 'this is wrong' but you look around at everyone doing it and you naturally DISTRUST your own intuition, and so begins the creation of attachments and a seperate self that is being created to adapt to whatever everyone else in your environment is doing - all your 'self' is merely a product of your environment and most of you guys reading this have realized this is not you, and now you are working on detaching yourself from that - some of us have really dysfunctional and traumatized self but the intuition is returning to your essence/enlightenment/a non-dual state/harmony You stop adopting other people's paths in the mind and realize your intuition is the light under your feet right now showing you the path Of course if you're really far far gone into the mind, it's good to look for guidance, but it's so fucking limiting. It really is, and I bet a lot of the time you guys feel so unsatisfied and limited by things, like you had made such amazing inner progress but you seem stuck looking to go further. That is the calling for striving, and the intuition can emerge if you can listen. It literally is like your antidote to attachments to a self. your medicine to your seperateness, if you learn how to listen (entering a massive bumpy terrifying road) you begin to see the massive surge of love for yourself, the coke-like confidence emerge, everything you have been looking for, it is actual transformation. It is an inner bond unlike anything you will ever find, it IS THE connection you seek most of the time in other people. You don't worry about failing, you can always rely on yourself and fall back on yourself instead of this need to find a mommy and daddy, this is SELF LOVE. You do the right thing and build this trust in yourself to do what is right, and you stop being tortured by the fear you will do something wrong and revert to the emotional patterns that trap you --- that you will be rejected in society, you will be ridiculed, you will be unwanted, you will be left out, no one will like you, the fear of not being normal - it all begins to dissipate the more and more you trust in taking action through intuition https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScljRnoebQ0 Anyways I would be curious if any of you guys have thoughts about it or whatever, hope it sparked some thought for you

@Inliytened1 Hey! Hope you’ve been doing well Since you’re one of the mods, I’ll run this by you I don’t want this video to start a Nonduality war. I only want my testimony to open people’s minds to further possibilities to discover So if this thread turns into a close-minded fight, go ahead and lock And everyone, again, be open to what Leo says. But also be open to what else there could be for you to discover on your own?

Here we go! first ever psychadelic trip experience! First a little background story,ive been practicing spirituality for 8+ years hardcore and in most of my day im in no mind and so called nothigness with being concious of infinity(not too strong) had over 10 enlightement experiences without drugs so i could compare it and knew whats happening...Considering that i didnt want to take even 1g because i knew it could open me up bad but didnt know how much, so i took close to 1g of dried mushrooms on the empty stomach as first try.I took it at 11:20 am,i started to feel changes 20 min after eating.What was left of ego started to melt and i already start to see infinity better nothing special but could feel changes...already in 40 minutes into a trip i went into what i was calling God head(but its not really just really weak one thats taking shape)everything was light and fun.My intent was to find out some queastions about authenticity and life and test how it will open me up since ego is not strong as regular person..in 50 min in it was still 2 steps back and stronger infinity experinece than 10min ago(as i compared it with my sober enlightment experience)... Suddenly i could feel vibrations through my fingertips and after each vibration i could feel joy/happiness, everything around me got a sense of erotic feeling(remembered Leo saying its like making love to reality thats what i thought atm but its not related)at this point everything was nice until suddenly i could feel the shift hour and 10 into a trip..Suddenly i wasnt conected with my body i could easily see im not the body and when looking at hands i could see those are not my hands(had that experience sober so nothing new)...until suddenly oh boy it hit me i was faced with my death all this thing called life dissaperead it was just pure experience and it was so shoking that it freaked me out...i was facing with my death no association to the body whatsoever and diassociated with this thing called life! At the time that was really tough thing to swallow,didnt know how i would relate to anybody and life in general because there is no life! And shock didnt end there i got face to face with Gods presence like never before and first thing i noticed how powerful he is (immidietly saw why they call him allmighty God) its so much power that all i could do is to go on my knees in his presence it felt like im just a spit of dust...you could feel how alive he is and that hes holding the strings of reality..this is what i wrote at the moment:"God is no joke hes all powerful Respect at his knees Now i get it!!! Face to face with god it was too much Im inside pure conciousness its unreal This is serious shit im not even kidding dude Im completely dead its so radical that its too much" At that moment realized why supressing experiences is a feature not a bug some experiences are too much to handle that its sometimes better to deny it to save yourself! At that point i started to pray to God please dont go deeper i dont know i can handle more its too much it was scary because i didnt know how deeper it will take me and it could take me much much deeper and i took close to 1g...this lasted 30 min or so but sense of time is seen as imagionary so i dont know...slowly it took me back to what i would say nonduality phase and there it was for 3 hours or so but big problem was that i got disconnected from my body and when you are,body sends signals of anxiety hits i would call like little knife..this lasted whole day it was like hell and i was doing grounding exercises to help with it some weird energy that was shooting in my legs got also fear that i wont get kundalini awakening or something ? whole trip lasted from 11:20am when i took it until 11pm when i went to sleep exhausted...my conciousness is still expanded until now... I dont think i would take psychadelics anymore mybe in a year or so because it opens me up so badly and Truth is so radical that when it hits you its so serious that its hard to stomach and you see why illusion/mixed with enlightement is best for me atm...next day it was freaky to talk to people because you can see that Gods speaking to you not a person ? It was lifechanging experience but wouldnt want to experience it again or rather not soon because i feel like i survived with my head almost chopped off?

@Alex_R A-dvai-ta (Sanskrit) means not-two-ness. It's basically a form of teaching nonduality where one constantly tries to point out the dualities of thought. May I introduce you to the legendary Neo-Advaita Bears?

I regret to inform you guys that I made the decision to demote Nahm from being a Mod. Since he is one of the biggest members of this community I know plenty of you may be upset by this, so here's my explanation: I have noticed over the last few years that Nahm's posts/advices were becoming more and more out of touch with people. Like he was talking at them or through them, not meeting people at the level they were at. Often his posts were cryptic and ambiguous to the point of confusion. I made several private messages to him about this over a year ago, hoping that he would see the problem and correct it. His posts and replies were becoming so out of touch at times that even I had trouble understanding him. It felt more and more like he was communicate from inside his own spiritual bubble, unable to see how his posts were failing to land with normal people, or even myself. Often I would read one of his posts and just have no idea what he was trying to say or how it would help. And if I fail to understand a post, I know 90%+ of others will not understand it or be helped by it. This failure to understand is not from lack of consciousness but from the style in which Nahm chooses to express himself. The issue isn't that Nahm is not a developed or conscious guy, but the obscure and nonsensical way he communicates. I turned I blind eye to this for several years, hoping it would correct itself naturally. Unfortunately it has gotten worse. The parroting of neo-Advaita platitudes in response to people's relative questions and problems has become too much, especially recently. When I explained this problem to Nahm via PM and tried to communicate with him about correcting it, he started to spout those same vapid neo-Advaita platitudes at me. This is not the kind of communication I can stomach from my Mods. It also became clear to me that he was not interested nor capable of changing his ways. Nor do I want to force him to change his ways if he doesn't do so of his own recognizance. The issue here being that platitudes such as "there is no you" or "that is just a thought" do not help people and in fact start to do the opposite. I do not like neo-Advaita style teachings and I do not want this forum to turn into the kind of place where some normie asks a straight forward question and the response is something like, "There is no you, that's just a thought, there is no one to awaken." These kinds of teachings do not lead to the God-realization I am trying to guide people towards. With that said, I have no personal ill feelings towards Nahm. He's got many wonderful qualities, most of all is his big heart. I have met him in-person and he's a great guy to hang out with. I know he's coming from good intentions, but his style of teaching nonduality simply does not align with what I am trying to teach about God-realization and the future direction of Actualized.org teachings about awakening. I know many of you love Nahm and I know he has helped many of you in various ways. I appreciate that and his service to this community since the forum's inception back in 2016. Unfortunately he can longer be a Mod and the situation may devolve to the point where I have to ask him to leave this forum entirely because he keeps parroting the same neo-Advaita platitudes in every situation and I don't know how much more of that I can tolerate. Honestly, I've been tolerating it for months already. I tried to turn a blind eye to it because he has a long history here, he's helped many people here, I consider him a friend, and many of you guys look up to him. But it's just clear to me that this is not going to work out long term because our styles are so different. What he teaches is not what I teach. And I am okay with that to some degree -- not everyone has to agree with me or teach spirituality like me -- but the vacuous neo-Advaita talk has become too much recently. This is a great example of the problem of conflating relative and absolute matters to the point of disconnect with the normal people. When a store clerk asks you to pay the bill, the proper response is not, "There is no one who can pay the bill, and no bill to pay." I know some will be upset by this and will disagree with my decision here. So, whatever your feelings are about this situation -- good or bad -- share them here or forever hold your peace. We will not be able to move on from this until the air has been cleared. So take the time to do that now. I'm sorry it has come to this. I wish Nahm the best. Nahm, I sincerely thank you for your years of service to this community. Really. You put in so much of your heart into this. And we all saw that. Attached is a screenshot of my last communication with Nahm on this matter so that you understand why I made the decision I did: https://i.imgur.com/3WKAELm.jpeg This was not a decision I wanted to make. Note: do not attack each other over this.

There is not a ‘you’ and an ‘it’! There is thought attachment & projection, apparently. Nonduality! Not. Two. “Becoming more conscious” ? OMG to so much LOVE! ?

Nondualist & nonduality is a duality. ? ?

Nonduality of ‘goals’. Conscious creating. Dreamboard. SM58♥️

You clearly never read a word about Muhammad other than those from islamophobic propaganda. Muhammad is a serious spiritual teacher, He suffered a lot in the name of the Truth and the name of God. And he loved Jesus a lot, he always talked about him. He didn't breach nonduality, but he breached his version of the truth that suited the society he was living in. Study a little bit about Islam before making such bold claims. Almost every religion is found by Nobel figures, It is then gets corrupted by people. Shame seeing such ignorance from a mod.

That is not what Leo is saying, he is saying he believes what you think you are seeing right now is a lie, as only what he sees exists. People are watching this guy lose his mind from drugs and encouraging it? It doesn't seem like a good thing to do for someone lol. My ego would not care much about other people, I'm basically a hermit. Feeling at one with inanimate walls and cars was what bothered me. In my own experience, the existence of moments outside of this one right now was never shown to be false somehow. It's very difficult to remember as this is an experience from April or May 2020... But it was more like a sense that WE are one and are existence itself, since when I came back I wrote a trip report to other people rather than thinking they're p-zombies. So I guess as in, like I'm currently "talking to myself" whereby I post this, and then I read it from your end. Anyone who gets "there", I wrote shortly following, is completely equal such that a lifelong monk and serial killer are completely equal because all monkness and killerness is gone "there" and only their shared "beingness" remains. Something like that. I did not even know about nonduality at this time, so I called it Monism and it's only following this that I Googled for Monistic religions and found Advaita... My analysis that I wrote was of a tree, where we can believe we are leaves or realize ourselves to be the tree. Pushing any further on the dosing is blackout or whiteout city. I did not learn anything from exploding into neon and then blacking out on DMT. It was like being anaesthetized.

@Leo Gura The argument "you need to find out the truth yourself instead of listening to someone else/let someone else do it for you" doesn't make any sense. Because if nonduality and solipsism is true, then "everyone else" who teaches you are actually you, not anyone else. So Leo teaching is actually just me teaching myself. So I do discover the truth myself if I discover it by listening to Leo. So why delete the video?

rating: 6.5-7/10 Just finished reading The Religion of Tomorrow. -- so keep in mind that this review is ad hoc and not well-thought out yet. Just general first impressions. Phew. Goddamn that was a piece of work. Lots of words, that's fosho. My dislikes/issues with it: I guess my general first impression is that the first 3/4 or so was just repeating a lot of stuff ad nauseum, as well as a bit of self-promoting (which I think is throughout the book and his work in general). It could've been condensed down to 1/4 the size in my opinion. Also, there was lots of more passion-infused writing talking about God which, to me, could have been significantly shortened which, in my opinion, would have preserved the message's quality. Rather, it came off a bit overboard, excessive, and extravagant. Here's an example paragraph of what I'm talking about in terms of being a bit too superfluous in his writing sometimes, rather than educational and informative (remember, this is one of many): "But as the leading edge of evolution itself (uniting both the highest structure and the highest state in an ongoing, unfolding manner- fully bringing together Growing up and Waking up for the first time in all of Kosmic history), the Supermind is an embodiment and epitome of the outrageous miracle that evolution itself is: the single, greatest, all-pervading, driving force (Eros, Spirit-in-action) running through out the universe in literally all domains the one imprint that no existing phenomenon anywhere in the universe does not feel; the bright Brilliance of the nondual union of the ultimate, infinite Divine Reality with its everyday, ordinary, finite operations; the intersection of the unimaginable creative involutionary currents (creating Something out of Nothing) and the equally creative evolutionary drives (creating Something out of Everything), each serving the other in the most intimate of ways; the radical nonduality of an Absolute Truth in desperate love with the productions of Relative Truth, which themselves are in helpless adoration of their Lover; the very mechanism where, in a sense, the entire Kosmos reaches down (Agape) and pushes up (Eros) in the creation and manifestation of each and every single new entity and event; the Kosmic Address where can be found the perfect intersection of the Mind of God and the mind of Humanity as they become perfectly indistinguishable' and the cutting, biting, leading edge of an unfolding Humanity on the verge of moving into its own Sperhumanity, a trans-transhuman superfuture in which an entirely new era in the history of the Kosmos beings unfolding, in which the two fundamental dimensions of Reality disclosed thus far - Absolute and Relative - come into a nondual binding junction that will henceforth be the always present, all-pervading, common unity-ground of each and every thing unfolding during that subsequent era (and hence allowing a new dimension, a new Ground, of all previous Grounds to come into actuality, and hence an entirely new and profound and even Greater Liberation).? ...Phew! holy crap. lol. Ok... sooo... you get my drift now? I dunno, I just think using words like "superfuture" decreases his credibility. Like, for me anyways, it just seems too "out there" and extravagant. I also don't want to "dig" him or his book too much, since I believe he's a good dude doing some good work, with a few things I think he can improve on. My two cents. There was a lot of work done with it, it seemed anyways. the parts I liked best I think the last 1/4 of the book was my favorite as he introduced new concepts and didn't go over the same-old same-old. Things like semiotics (the study of languages) and how he sees that tying into his ontology, as well as how that could help improve our current spiritualities and human development. It was also nice to go through the section on dysfunctions to get a more specific understanding of how he views neuroses, including going over several types of neuroses and how they connect with and are characteristic of certain levels of development. Though I think I notice him referring to the same people, studies, and concepts a good amount, he did introduce some new thinkers, books, and theories to investigate further. People I've never heard of, which I can research further to broaden my exposure to new ideas. I might try to compile all the concepts from his book (or the ones I remember) into bite-sized pieces with summarized definitions so people can scan through them in "chunks" without having to read the whole thing. Hopefully this helps people get the gist of what was in it. Then I might try to connect conceptual "chunks" together where necessary. Not sure yet though. If I do, I might just do it under these notes. Or maybe it makes more sense to create a new post in the High Consciousness Resources section. General impressions Overall, maybe it wasn't the most useful or practical book for me right now. But, it was on my mind for a while so I thought I'd just knock it out of the park and see what I thought. It was enjoyable, frustrating, boring, long, interesting, repetitive, and extravagant. I think it's strength is probably mostly as an introduction to certain ideas and thinkers in a general sense. Which, therefore, it lacks in certain spots specificity in explanations. I question how practical it is in terms of psychologists or spiritual teachers using it. Yes, perhaps it does provide frames for explaining reality in a very comprehensive way. But as for actual usage, I'm suspect. Jamie Wheal speaks to this in an interview with Rebel Wisdom where he said, since he was a student of Wilber's, that he had taken the AQAL framework to try and improve some organizations. They found that, ultimately, to get any practical results happening, they had to simplify the model down to A) individuals, B) groups, and C) organizations. But as a spiritual, psychological, model nerd, ya, it's nice for sure . Anyways, give it a go if you feel up for it. I got it at the library here so it wasn't a huge investment. Maybe not the best choice for people who are not super serious about spirituality and psychology. You'll probably get more benefit from reading the regular self-help stuff. But still, you never know, it's not like there's nothing worthwhile in the book. It's just dense and, ya, you heard the shpeel already. Enjoy.

Solipsism is an ism, a belief, the activity of thought. Nonduality points to, ‘not two’, allowing the self discovery of actuality, ? vs adherence to a conceptual belief. (Just advice) Never suppress discord. Explore it, understand. https://www.actualityofbeing.com/the-emotional-scale If it’s aligned, if it resonates in feeling… ‘my perceptual bubble’ is already believing in conceptual. Let that go all together. Ime, make a dreamboard. Allow the revealing of truth directly via conscious creating… the life you desire to experience. Truth is ‘known’ as feeling… and not ideas shared.

I only came here due to drug revelations, it is the sole reason I have any interest in nonduality at all. The trips I had strip ego and do all sorts of bizarre things alien to our daily lives. I think very mentally unwell people seeking "help" from spirituality will probably just drive themselves into psychosis. As such if you need advice you should probably see a medically trained psychiatrist. I don't believe OCD and schizophrenic people read some "spiritual" stuff and are suddenly well. The highest I ever got was taking 5 hits of acid and then smoking a breakthrough dose of DMT at the peak. That is when I reached a place where the ego was left behind, and coming back from that were several realizations... E.g. the irony of monks meditating for their entire lives, when all monk-ness to that monk is just part of the separate self, and in actuality that monk is equal to a murderer child rapist junkie, because it is just existence itself and alone. The monk and murderer and all of that, is like a mask on top of pure being that falls away like all things. That is the type of solipsism I encountered personally. That is the type of solipsism discussed by figures like Rupert Spira, and ancient mystics. "No others" is not meant to mean that everyone is an NPC but you. That is when the ego, which is of course limited (ALL appearances are finite, infinity = nothingness substantially) attempts to comandeer control of the infinite. Which is impossible because it's like a character on a screen trying to somehow comandeer control of the screen. Appearance trying to somehow become the infinite which is inherently total nothingness, non-appearance. It's just an appearance, zero causative power of any kind!!!!

Interesting discussion. Either Leo is one of the most awake humans that ever walked this universe, or he is a complete nuthead who managed to delude himself to a level never seen before. Those are the 2 cards on the table - and both are kinda fascinating. I have always wondered about this "spiritual one-upmanship". There are so many accounts of mystics/enlightened teachers and realized individuals who discredit each others experiences as some form of "lower understanding". I mean, yes - there definitely are levels to this, of course. But even if you study really famous examples of highly realized beings like Rumi, Maharshi, Gotama - who were able to put these truths in such elegant language - you will still find some really crucial differences in how they lay out nonduality.

Between age 16 and 22, I would go on crazy visionary adventures with psychedelics -- seemingly met aliens, etc. It seems I hit some kind of event horizon at age 23 and from then on, psychedelics got about 50x stronger -- but no more visuals, only God / nonduality / infinity / pure ineffability. n,n-DMT is no more visual than any other psychedelics for me now (well, as of about a year ago), it's just the same kind of "God blast" that 5-MeO-DMT gives except a little weirder feeling. No more aliens (and there definitely used to be). TLDR psychedelics can change over time. I used to get fully immersive visuals off a couple hundred ug LSD-25 -- to the point where I'd see angels shooting me with bows and arrows. When the trips got stronger, the visuals stopped, as did any sense of other-ness. So ime, for instance, to say one chem is more visual than another, kind of doesn't even resonate here anymore. Idk.

@Nahm so can you give me a brief description of what you think about this topic (AI and consciousness). And the conflict between materialism and nonduality in Regards to explaining the origin of consciousness and how it works. Materialism basically says that reality is unconscious in it's "essence" .. It's made up of atoms and molecules.. And those are not what you think they are lol. They are not the phenomenon of course or those pictures that you see in science books (because the phenomenon is Consciousness =qualia lol ).. They are hidden metaphysical aspects which are the essence of reality that no one has ever seen or can ever see lol ..and they are unconscious. And SOMEHOW those unconscious elements developed consciousness lol. Of course this is absurdly funny. It's like saying I have put some rocks together.. And those rocks somehow turned into a unicorn lol. It doesn't make sense how inherently unconscious reality developed consciousness. On the other side there is a problem with artificial intelligence. I'm not aware if science created self-aware robots (robots that have perception) (i guess not) .. But if they did.. Wouldn't that be actually suggesting that this phenomenon that we call consciousness (Color sound smell taste touch thought) are actually being generated from a basic underlying "matter" that is inherently not "conscious". Or at least not in the ordinary sense of what we understand from the word consciousness (the opposite of the blankness of deep sleep ). What would creating self-aware robots mean to our understanding of consciousness?

Names have been changed for the sake of privacy ---- Saturday, January 29th my son and I smoked 5-MeO-DMT in the form of toad venom I am a 60 year old man living in Los Angeles, in good health without significant disease. I am taking only thyroid hormone replacement and am not using any other herbs or supplements. I have a history of what would probably be called recreational psychedelic use stretching back to 17 years of age when I began experimenting with various substances including psilocybin, LSD, and mescaline. Usually these were taken in a party setting in conjunction with alcohol and later, often along with cocaine and methamphetamine, and although managing to shine through with some profound existential glow, they were not employed with the intent of formal spiritual quest other than that of absolute freedom. I am an alcoholic and have been sober since 1992. This includes all other drug and psychedelic compounds. Until recently. My son, Mason, with whom I share a deep connection, had also been sitting with various psychedelics since he was 16. While I was busy with work and raising his younger brothers and sisters, he was finding his way along the esoteric pathways of stoicism, hermeticism and the myriad ancient and resurgent wisdom traditions loosely aligned with nonduality. By this point I had been a rational material atheist for the majority of my life having grown disaffected and suspicious of the edicts, expectations, and explanations offered during my Catholic upbringing. This would change in a ten minute span. 3 years ago, Mason informed me he was thinking about extracting and working with N,N-Dimethyltryptamine (DMT). He asked me what I thought of it and, of course, I supported him. He perfected the extraction on his own, engaged with the substance, and would frequently report back the wild details of his travels. I asked him if he thought that I might benefit and he felt that I would. Despite some initial late life trepidation, my experience was transformative. In ten minutes I was shown there is a transcendent other; layers of etheric energy beings both within and without us, up through to the source of all creation, which is not separate from us. I was shown how life was a gift we were giving ourselves. That it is a game written in light. That there is nothing to worry about. Life and death are just part of the dream. And because everything unfolds in the service of love. We shared plant medicine both together and separately until, 3 months ago, the opportunity came to sit with a team offering 5meo DMT of the Incilius alvarius variety. Our experience together was deeply profound and reaffirmed the root truth of all mystical teachings. That we are all manifestation of the One loving intelligence. And that despite our seeming struggles, we are always safe. Always peaceful. Eternal. Details of this encounter can be found in my son’s eloquent and moving trip report entitled “The Toad, 5-MeO-DMT Trip Report” After a 3 month period of integration we were called to sit with the medicine once again. I set an intention for the service. Surrender. My first encounter had been quite gentle, having no memory of the rapid come up until I was revealed as pure loving presence. This time I hoped to be able to face the unnamable such that I might lose myself more consciously into it. ---- In a short period of time we found ourselves back in the arms of our loving team. Jeremy, which also happens to be my name, Alicia, and Luna. The ceremony was, again, to be held at Luna’s warm and inviting home which sits in natural organic resonance on the cliffs over the ocean. “What do you think about doing a meditation dose to begin with”, Jeremy asked both Luna, Mason and I together?. I am always nervous prior to both plant and toad medicine ceremonies and this seemed like a good way to relax into the experience. “Just a little handshake to focus on the breathing and center the heart”, Jeremy said. “You’ll be aware throughout”. “Some people don’t feel the need to go further in afterwards so we will check in with you after a few minutes“. The sun had just set. The two great west facing windows stare like eyes, out over the steely ocean. Orange, red and yellow stained glass shards of light dancing on the surface, out into the infinite. ---- My son and I were cleansed with sage and Florida water. Seated cross-legged in meditation position side by side on soft floor mats adorned with the visage of Ganesha. As I had been served first previously, Mason would begin tonight. He was offered and received the small dose via the eclipse vaporizer in one inhalation without disturbance in his peace or posture I was offered the medicine and received it in kind. Immediately my inner and outer world became a cathedral of shadowed silver latticework. My heart quickened and I focused on my breathing. There was the knowing of a great power just beyond my senses. Ancient. Aware. I fought the urge to fall backward into it, wanting to save my surrender for the breakthrough dose. Rather than being a gentle handshake, my ego was on high alert, sensing its perilous position. I considered not continuing further but soon was aware of my son, standing, folded hands holding the medicine close to his heart and reading the prayer from the card before him. We were both to take the medicine standing and to fall back into the arms of our guides as the substance took hold. Music came up. Soft and supportive. First two deep practice breaths and then. One. Long. Gentle. Inhale. Deep into the diaphragm. Arms being assisted out and up over his head. Then, falling back into the cradle of life. There was some initial hushed busying around him. Pillows to support. Arms into surrender pose. The silence was broken by a scream. “Jesus!” Mason yelled in utter astonishment. The sound was of a man facing the unthinkable. “Jesus!. He sat up, bending at the waist and met by the tender, silent care of our attendants. Then, “Jeremy! ” Mason shouted. I froze, stunned by the invocation of the name; both mine and that of our shaman. Two more times, “Jeremy!” “Jeremy!” By this point I am sobbing softly to myself. Partly because my son is calling me and I will claw through heaven and earth to find him. Mostly, though, I am crying because I know. He is staring at the face of God. "Jai!" (victory) "Jai! " (victory) I look at Luna worriedly but she places a hand on her heart and shakes her head, no. “Just keep meditating”, offers Alicia in a whisper. In a moment he is at peace, remembering who he is. ---- Now it is my turn. I stand up, a little shaken. “I’m anxious,” I whisper to Alicia. “It's normal “she smiles. They are moving me forward with steady reassurance. “Hold the medicine between your palms and read this aloud”. “Will this be like before? “, I ask Jeremy. “Oh yeah!” he reassures. It will be beautiful. Alicia will serve. Jeremy will catch. “Hold the medicine close to your heart”. I read the prayer out loud. “I accept that the joy that I have longed for is already in my life" "I accepted the love for which I have prayed is already within me..." The first two practice breaths, then one long slow deep inhalation. “More”. “More”. “A little more”. “Good, now hold!". The features of the room become defined by the same, silver lattice energy. Then, POP! Arms now outstretched like bird wings I fall back into oblivion. I am aware of being safely caught, lowered and positioned on the ground. Then it comes. Not in images so much, but as an energetic presence bearing down fast. I begin to feel my body, my sense of self, unraveling. Suddenly it is upon me. Unimaginable beauty, unfathomable complexity, unbearable power and infinite expanse. Roiling like the sun. Shape-shifting into impossible dimensionality. It is light beyond seeing. Presence beyond boundary. It is taking me apart one atom at a time and it is demanding my surrender. There is an emotion different from fear. An existential dread. There is no previous similar experience with which to measure and compare. I have been deposited directly into the heart of the unmanifest, preconditional, thermonuclear everything generator, and unrelenting grist mill of reality. And I am resisting. It is like holding back an exploding star, though, and soon there is not enough left of me to distinguish. In a heartbeat, there is complete obliteration of self, and annihilation of all subject object relationships. I scream at the top of my lungs. A scream of resignation. An offering of energy. The final exhalation/exaltation. The acceptance of death. I am gone. In my place is a unification with, and as, all of the unbridled, roaring, infinite power of unmanifest being. With the collapse of space/time comes omnipotence, omnipresence, omniscience. Immediate understanding of everything that has ever been. And of why. Which is, of course, the expression of unconditional love. But not love as a desire. Not love as a stroll with a lover through a Parisian garden. Not even as love between mother and child. But love as a locomotive tearing up the tracks of conceptualization and judgement. Love as recognition and celebration of the glory of its own unfathomable, miraculous being. A power that calls itself into manifestation, expressed as infinite distinctions, dancing through relationships. Impossible to experience as a “me” or a “you", yet present in contracted form, as all things. Each particle of perfection plotting its path home. Sometimes this looks like suffering. Sometimes this looks like bliss. Each distinction giving birth to and informing its opposite until they meet, surrendering their separateness, collapsing, liberated in the heart. Just as we must inevitably surrender our distinctions. Our opposing qualities. Life and death. This is a gift from you to you. A game of losing and finding. Sleeping and waking. Forgetting and remembering. What is asked is the surrender of everything. What you get in return is yourself. ---- At last, fully surrendered I became it Completely free "I'm so happy" it said through me. Not as a statement of experience, but as an expression of its essence. That happiness is simply what we are once all fear is gone. "I'm so happy" we continued, "I'm so happy" “I’m so happy” I became aware that I was sobbing Fighting the urge to get up now I allowed myself the gift of fingerpainting with my mind, the details of reality. I looked into, and became my wife. I saw her goodness, beauty and strength. I saw how we had created each other and felt her love for me as real and pure. And began to weep again. I started moving in and out of all of the people I have known, friends, family, and even public figures: Jesus, Hitler and such… to know myself as them. To demystify and de-monster-fy them in shared humanness and divinity. As the medicine lay me back gently Into my body Into my life I held onto the deep knowing, that there is nothing, and has never been anything, but the one self, which manifests as this dream of doing and being. A living that can never be threatened. Always both lover and beloved, dancing together alone. “There is no power but you” came the silent wisdom “There is no power but you!” I yelled. Then two more times “There is no power but you!” “There is no power but you!” The simple truth of it was undeniable "This time I'm going to bring it back", I said, "But they're never going to believe me" “they’re never going to believe me” “they’re never going to believe me” Now back in my body, I considered my predicament. All of manifest reality, from God to God particle telescoping up and down, nested and interpenetrating through me, as me. I thought about the everyday worries that I had dragged with me into this space. "I surrender," I whispered out loud. And was released.

I first encountered her message 1 year ago when her videos were all about ascension, love chakra meditations... They worked a little bit on this character at that time, I even saved some of them to playlists. That's how I see most of those videos she has now deleted, and she switched to a more non compromising message, which seems more authentic. She's not ugly, of course, just not my type. I don't think I found any of the nonduality speakers attractive, Teal Swan, Lisa Cairns... The latter gets a bit annoying sometimes insisting the feelings I have for her are normal, but that I should see through them as being towards a teacher that also happens to be young and beautiful.... Maybe, except those feelings are lacking here. If anything, Lisa seems to be moving in the opposite direction, from non compromising, to going more and more into the story and fixing the character ... Speaking of which... Any latinas talking about non duality ? Besides Andreina de Luxe I mean ?

the person in the video is a salafi scholar .salafi is a group of islam founded in 1900s in egypt. one of the core salafi belief is that after 3 genration of islam , the rest are all wrong or they corrupted islam and it is the salafis who are correct and it is their duty to fix all other groups of islam for the sake of allah. this philosophy is problamatic. salafis are heavily funded by western powers to divide islam from within. the biggest group in islam is ahlu sunnah wal jamah. this group embrace sufism. sufis siants are highly respected. after prophet , the next most important people are the greate scholars and the greate sufi siants. in sufism there is things like nirvikalpaka samadhi, nonduality , godrealization , ego etc. in sufism ego is divided into 7 levels. in the 7th level , enlightment happens. majority of people here are at 3rd level.sufi saints who reach enlightment live by islam , pray five times, give charity, live by farz and sunnath and do not commit haram , fear god etc

Any distinction(s) between nonduality and unconditional love, are conditions, thoughts. Including ‘them’. If nonduality were an experience, that’d be two. If unconditional love were an experience, that’d be a condition. Consciousness is conscious of the thoughts, ‘my consciousness’, ‘my human experience’, and ‘death’.

That's exactly the problem that I'm trying to solve. If there isn't anybody to listen to the sound of a tree, then nobody experiences the sound, but it doesn't change the fact that there is a sound, waiting for someone to be heard. Let me explain little bit more: let's say I'm grabbing a stick of wood. From the materialistic point of view, my brains generate consciousness inside my body. There isn't consciousness in that stick since it doesn't have a brain. Then, when I grab this stick, some nerves tell my brains something is being touched by my hand. Then the brains generate this experience in my consciousness, which sounds plausible for me. From the nondualistic point of view, both "I" and the stick are made out of consciousness. So, when I grab the stick I have the experience of having something on my hand, which is also plausible for me!! But it seems that the prerequisite for the statement "consciousness is ever-present" to be true is that the same statement is true (also happens for the materialistic point of view). Let me explain why I think this way: if I grab that stick, in order to have the experience of feeling that stick, it has to be true that consciousness is ever-present. But think on this: let's suppose we have a stick outside consciousness, nothing and nobody knows that there is something outside consciousness because nothing can experience it, (unless the materialistic point of view is true!), but it doesn't change the fact that there is something outside consciousness. Therefore, either consciousness is not infinite or consciousness must be infinite in order to be infinite... It's like saying that the Bible tells the truth just because the Bible says that it tells the truth. Please don't think I'm trying to argue against nonduality teachings, in fact this understanding seems more possible for me than the materialistic understanding... But I need to have all the pieces of my puzzle. Thanks

Oh man. I think you got my point. I feel like awareness is not only inside my head but also in my whole body and, in a sense, outside my body but only in my closest space, let's say the space where I can hear a sound from. But some piece is missing on my puzzle. How can I realize through my experience that awareness is everywhere. Rather than that, how do I know that consciousness is more elemental than matter. Or, in other words: how can I conclude that awareness is ever present? Or: why just can't be a "space" or "something" without awareness. What is the grounding of awareness?... Maybe this is ungraspable I'm just trying to deconstruct my materialistic idea of the universe not for the sake of nonduality but for the sake of my own truth but I still feel trapped on this idea that consciousness come from the interaction between matter... Something like pansychism... I've been doing meditation and I think that this is a very powerful tool to approach little bit into truth.

Ultimately there are no insights to gain. You can't experience lack of illusion and illusion at the same time - that's why you can't maintain nonduality. What happens is your really becomes less solid. Yes, I can experience 5 MeO DMT without using the substance. That's because this is just my excuse to experience God. It's suprisingly easy, I'm not advanced at all. I disbelieve and forget who I am, but each time I trip I'm getting closer and closer.

Hello everyone. I found in my journey this information about nonduality and ancient beliefs that comprise the idea of the consciousness being the most fundamental substance of reality. Although for me it is a very logical conclusion I cannot grasp it. So here is the problem: when I meditate and focus my attention on my awareness I notice that in fact I'm being aware through my senses. I can hear, I can feel, etc. But I still can't be aware of my awareness without my senses (I don't even know if it is possible) and it makes me feel that my body is more fundamental than my awareness. the problem lies on that point: if I am aware through my senses, it makes me think that awareness is only through my body. How can I leave my senses aside to feel awareness indeed? And the other question is: if awareness is the immutable substance of the whole, what happens when I'm not aware, let's say in a deep sleep? Or, in other words: if awareness is everywhere. Why it seems that my body is always attached to the "same part" of awareness? Why I am always aware that this awareness is always the same? I mean, I moved from Mexico to California and I still feel that I am I. The same part of the whole consciousness. Of course there's a lot of information out there in the world but I don't want to just believe it dogmatically. I want to grasp it because if not, it is only a bunch of information that only confuses me