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One of my favourite parts of the course. It's been named in the ACIM community as "The Promise". Very inspiring. 💙 @Kuba Powiertowski at some point I did feel some frustration regarding the nature of the world, but I was soo glad to finally learn the truth, as it allowed me to let go of the illusion and dedicate myself fully to the Lord. Presently, I feel various levels of bliss and peace due to a lot of meditation, so there's no more pain or anything even remotely close to that, but thank you for the encouragement. ✌️

That feeling right there is what drives the seeker at their core. Its unshakeable. Maddening. It can make you move mountains or lose your sanity. I am in this weird spot where I'm free from that seeking energy, but still come back to it, just because. I can step out at any moment, but while in it, there is total commitment and devotion. Which usually comes with struggle. Sacrifice. Etc. I would not say that what I seek is my true nature. I am very clear on what I am and what this is all about. What I seek, is to express that which I know myself to be, in a very specific, defined and unique way. I wish to fully unlock my creative potential. I want to create exactly what I wish to create, without a single thought of doubt, without any resistance, without any limits. That is what I seek now. In that sense, Self - realization was actually the very first step. The foundation. It becomes the new standard - so to speak. It's barely even worth mentioning. It would be the same as if people were walking around telling each other 'hey, did you know that I'm human? And you're human too! We're all human!' Right? How ridiculous would that be? Well, that's kind of how ridiculous it becomes to declare that you're self - realized. Or God, or whatever. I really like the way you're thinking. There's obviously lots of resonance here, and I did notice that already in our past interactions. We kind of sort of think in similar ways. We are excited about similar words, ideas, etc. That is why I feel like going a bit deeper here now. Opening up myself a bit too, etc. I do not do it often, and especially not with just any member here. But when it happens, I cherish the fuck out of that shit. I find it truly beautiful and meaningful. You know you got this. As do I. And yeah it can hurt, and yeah it can suck, but think about just how fucking amazing it is that anything at all is possible. Even the nastiness has its beauty, especially in contrast. Especially on the big picture. All the best to you. I'm not sure if I'm exactly familiar with what you're describing... Could you maybe share a link or two? It seems to me that you simply do not understand what this is about, so you demonize it and dismiss it as just some hippy dippy feel good little joke. The amount of pain and tension and discomfort one has to push through, in order to sustain a desired frequency at will, in a healthy way, without straining... is equal to the amount of bliss one finds on the other side. You think this is easy? You think this is pain free? You think it will not scare the living crap out of you - if you do it right? You think it will not bring up all your traumas and unresolved shit and make you see exactly which parts of your body are fucked up because of it? Think again. You are coming off incredibly ignorant. You also kinda sound like Leo. He likes to dismiss things with: 'cute feel good new age bullshit'. You're kind of doing exactly the same. Not a good look bro. I passed out twice just yesterday while doing this meditation + proper breathwork. I did quite some psychedelics in my life too. This... is equally as powerful, if not more. If done correctly, that is. It absolutely has the potential to take you 'all the way'. Ps. Sorry for the attacks. I only bite when I'm bitten.

1. god is dreaming, that's what it does for fun up there in infinity land, just like you do down here in finity land when you go to bed at night, enjoy some adventure bliss creativity ... indeed when it dreams those dreams last a long time since god loves its sabbath naps up there after working like a dog for 6 days a week ... god has on this occasion dreamed you into existence and you are at some point going to opt to wake up once you get tired of the back and forth of duality and then you will go back to being the rejuvenated happy loving god you always were 2. all you need to do is be the light, the example, the embodiment of the worthwhile life, you don't need to give your family your beliefs about anything, i mean you don't know that much yourself in truth, none of us do, so just keep living light and love and they will certainly get the message oh and i also thoroughly endorse gary renard mentioned earlier, this will knock your socks off i would say last of all welcome to this madhouse, hope you will stick around and join in the fun, sending you lots of love, is nice meeting you

Shamanism, Conscious Movements and Medicine Songs: Immersion in the World of Vladimir and His Ayahuasca Ceremonies Vladimir, dedicated to his practice of shamanism, embodies a deep understanding of the importance of conscious movement, imagination and medicinal songs in his Ayahuasca ceremonies. Let's take a closer look at how these elements become the key to his spiritual path and practices. In his deep experiences with Ayahuasca, Vladimir not only explores the worlds of spiritual reality, but also reveals the deepest levels of his emotional trauma and fear. One of the key moments in his journey was a ceremony where he was able to see and begin to heal his deepest emotional trauma - moving from Russia to America. Ayahuasca opened the path to healing for Vladimir, revealing the moment when he left his homeland in Novosibirsk and went to Atlanta, Georgia. This profound experience became a factor in awakening and deciding to heal past wounds. Now, supported by his practice, he is ready to face the new Ayahuasca ceremony with confidence that it will bring healing to his deep trauma. A specially prepared ceremony with Ayahuasca from December 1 to 3, 2023 became for Vladimir a time of anticipation and opening of gifts of healing. He looks forward to meeting the Divine Mother Wolf, where, through songs, prayers and conscious movements, he hopes to connect to the Truth of his soul, love and bliss. These ceremonies become moments of reconnection with the spiritual path, and Vladimir, through his singing and prayers, creates healing songs, alchemizing suffering into light. His voice, like a musical instrument, becomes a means of healing both for himself and for those present at the ceremonies. All these practices, inner journeys and creative rituals make Vladimir not only a practicing shaman, but also a leader of awakening, showing that the path of love and healing begins within us. Vladimir not only reveals his Truth, but also becomes a model of love and respect. His nonviolent communication approach to communication encourages using words in a healing way. In every Ayahuasca ceremony, he creates a space where people can encounter their truth, transform suffering into light, and find love and joy in their soul. Thus, Vladimir and his practices become a symbol of transformation and awakening, encouraging everyone to walk their own path of love and healing. With his skill in using medicine songs, Vladimir creates musical elements in which every note is permeated with the energy of healing. This process, not only for those present at the ceremonies, but also for Vladimir himself, becomes a healing path to discovering his true voice and reconnecting with himself. In Vladimir's art and practice, every step is filled with love and dedication to transforming darkness into light. His story of healing becomes a shining example of how through music, meditation and spiritual practices we can find joy, love and inner peace. Vladimir continues his unique path, not only transforming his own life, but also becoming a source of inspiration for others. His determination to meet oneself in the moment, the use of assertive communication in the search for harmony, and the creation of his own healing musical space make him a true leader of awakening and love. With every chord, every prayer, Vladimir weaves an invisible thread of love, connecting with the Divine Mother Wolf and filling his and your hearts with light, joy and bliss. His path is a path of love that reminds us of the transformative power of healing sound and words. Vladimir, immersed in his shamanic path, embodies the art of alchemy, transforming suffering into light and darkness into bliss. Through conscious movement, imagination and singing, he creates magic that flows from his heart, permeating every aspect of his being. And so, Vladimir continues on his amazing journey, awaiting the Ayahuasca ceremony with a full heart and open hands, ready to accept healing and transformation. His story is a love song written in the sounds of hearts that he heals and awakens with his mastery of the healing arts.

You miss out that the experience of who you are is a pretty blissful state. Notice that all 'high' states feel 'high' or 'very good' precisely because that who is You is significantly active, awake, or activated more than usual. Bliss just doesn´t happen when you are deep in the ego mind. There is a reason for that.

Expansion. Trance. Joy. Wakefulness. A feeling of pure bliss and unity - when I really nail it down and fully merge with the frequency. In this particular audio, I struggle quite a bit to maintain the frequency. But it was still incredibly beautiful and fulfilling. Feels like merging with your true nature.

Again, a method can be useful even if it's not always necessary. How do you explain the sense of progression and coherence from the beginning of the meditation session to the end where the awakening occurs? If what happens during the meditation doesn't matter at all, why is meditation the experience of getting more and more relaxation/bliss and awakening the experience of hitting a threshold of relaxation/bliss? Next scenario: I was on a plane on my way home from a vacation, and I decided to listen to music while breathing deeply and sitting in an extremely upright posture (my brother can vouch for the "extreme" part: he commented on it). Again, it was progressively building up to it, and maybe 45 minutes into it, I entered such a blissful state that a part of my mind eventually said "oh shit, I'm dying!". I quickly opened my eyes and tried to grab my water bottle from my backpack, and the most bizarre experience of my life happened: it was quite literally as if somebody else was moving my body and picking up the bottle for me and opening it. That is when I realized "oh shit, this is it". Then I looked out the window and saw the plane was about 10 seconds from landing, and then I was overcame by an immense wave of warm nostalgia and the realization that "this is where I have always been and where I always will be". I was about to shed tears of joy, but then I had to distract myself with the fact that I was on an airplane that had just landed. After that experience, I started having spontaneous awakenings. Now, would any of that have happened if I instead had opened a magazine, sat with a crouched posture and with shallow breathing (as I had done for the previous flights that summer)? As for the spontaneous awakenings after that, would they have started happening at exactly the same time if I didn't do what I did on that airplane? If "no" to either of these questions, are the "methods" involved in these scenarios not at the very least predictive? Well, the core "lesson" I got from that "change in state" was identical to all the other dozens (maybe hundreds) of awakenings I've had: "this is it". If you don't want to call this awakening or something that points to enlightenment, then at least invent some other term for me. Hell, even today with my covid-induced brain fog, I tapped into that experience again while listening to music and working out. It's gotten rarer over the years as I've (ironically) stopped meditating regularly, but it's still fundamentally the same experience: complete immersion and merging with reality, a lack of sense of distance between things, lack of sense of time, separation, "being the center", doership, self-concern. Meditation (for me) is just aimed at Being. It's a method, and an useful one at that. Contemplatation can also be a method that is useful. And just like any method, it might not be necessary for invoking the experience in question, but it can invoke it. Or lighting the fire and waiting to see when the building collapses. See, you do value method, just in an extremely constrained way. If you truly didn't value method, you wouldn't suggest contemplation as a method. And again, it is a method, because you can get the realization without contemplation, as I have, in fact in both experiences detailed in this thread. I can keep going on detailing my experiences. This virus isn't exactly making me concerned about brevity.

For example, "go meditate". Meditation is not useless if you want enlightenment. Let's get concrete: my first awakening happened during my first proper meditation session. As I was sitting, I became progressively more relaxed, my mind became more and more silent, and then those effects maximized and it felt like I was going to disappear if I kept going. I then opened my eyes and saw myself hovering 2 feet above my body. Then I looked up to the ceiling and started floating/melting upwards towards "heaven"; a level of bliss I had never encountered before. Then I jumped up in a panic as I did not expect that. Ever since that day, my mind has never been the same: it has always been extremely silent relative to what it used to be. Are you saying the meditation I was doing had nothing to do with the effects I was experiencing at the end of that meditation session? Do you not see how the effects at the beginning of the session and at the end exist on a continuum?

Congrats on articulating what you want. Its a significant first step! I will do my best to answer the questions, and reframe them if necessary. How exactly did you find your life purpose? My experience is that Life purpose is a multi leveled thing, there is a facet of discovery, and mostly of creation. When I was 20, I had dropped out of college, had been living alone for a while, working two jobs saving up to move to Oregon. I had also been working on Leo's Life Purpose course (For the first time,) for the past few months. I was tripping on 4-ACO-DMT, all alone, and had an insight. "What if my life purpose is Music?!" Something clicked, it all made sense, all the years I had practiced violin growing up, even producing some music as a teen, was re-contextualized as pieces of my 'Life Purpose' Puzzle. From there it was three years, and 3 more times starting Leos course before I actually started Producing music. All that while, Here and there thinking of it, making changes in my habits, working haphazardly on specific disfunctions of mine like my low self-esteem, people pleasing, lack of success with women, etc. February of 2020, I chose to start producing, not yet knowing how to turn this into a life purpose, but feeling called to it. I created music, invested hundreds of hours, and through that gained more clarity into WHY I create music, and its relationship to my life purpose. By this point I had tried 10-25 different life purposes statements, some feeling more authentic then others, hoping more authenticity would be found on my path. I continue on this path up till today. Version one of https://wakingcall.com/ is up, and I have invested hundreds of hours into the backend of the brand I am building. set to launch in July of 2024. This whole path has been multi-layered and individual. I am not saying that your path will unfold like this, instead, this is how it worked for me. Something I want to make clear is that I had a TON of ideas what my life purpose would be before I started producing music, how it was going to impact people, different roads I could have gone down. Even after producing music I was working multiple jobs and trying new things, some of them informing my life purpose, and because of those experiences and decisions (or lack of decision,) I happened to end up where I am now. Which obstacles did you have to overcome in order to find your life purpose? I will order these in what seems to be the priority to me, (None of these are completely overcome, but progress has been made.) Lack of Self understanding: Values, Vision, Strengths, Interests. Lack of Education about self-actualization Lack of Health: I treated my body like a trashcan and didn't exercise at all Low Self-Esteem and Self Belief Lack of success with Women What held you back from finding your life purpose? My Self. How did you find your passion? Passion seems to come and go for me, some days I feel excited to work on my Life-Purpose, Others I don't, I rely more on habits and routines. Passion is wonderful and I take it when it comes. Big picture though, doing things that are authentic to me lead to passion. What were the most powerful clues you've found to help you discover your life purpose (e.g. your greatest strengths, your bliss, exposing yourself to new experiences, talking to new people or your existing friends, ChatGPT,...)? The year before I had the Psychedelic experience leading to the insight about music being my life purpose, I had taken LSD for the first time. During that trip I had a recognition of how MASSIVE reality is, and how EVERYTHING I KNOW COULD BE FALSE. Other Tools: Leo's Life Purpose Course, 'The Big Leap, By Gay Hendricks,' 'Mastery, By George Leonard," ChatGPT. Reflect back and tell me, has there been a specific experience you had that triggered/led to you finding your life purpose? Already covered this in the first response. I would be happy to Jump on a call and Chat. All the best, Stay True, Stay You.

there is pleasure pain bliss have to collapse the duality of you you are not mental you are existential love to live like it

Nicely put👍 Well...I didn't say its wrong let alone to call it "morally " wrong . You can desire bliss..light ..unconditional happiness and joy and sexy emotions all day all night for your whole life and you will still be fundamentally unsatisfied. Because its not a "thing " which is lacking . Its not a "thing " which will finally make you complete..Blessed..at ease ..satisfied etc. You are infinite being . So finite things by definition cannot satisfy you . You seek the infinite . But the infinite is endless. So again even awakening and being spiritual hippy will not work. So then what should you do ? NOTHING! Surrender the whole thing.

It sounds to me that you are limiting yourself. I partly agree with you in the topic of trying to Chase positive experience. But that is NOT morally wrong. Is just that...It doesn't work. There is nothing wrong with pursuing positive experiences. Im sick of this Christian messages going around in this forum about being ok with mediocrity or being "so awake" to not prefer positive experiences over negative ones. Or positive emotions over negative ones. You can NOT avoid Desire and Longing for BLISS, SILENCE, LIGHT, AND FREEDOM. Your whole being has this very qualities when layers of thought and karmic bonds start being unknotted and dismantled. Please notice there is not anything more natural for your being than to be in pure in innocence, absolute radiation, and full vibrancy. The game does end until you are a perfect Diamond of Awareness, nothingness, untouchable, in perfect unity with itself. From there the game really is fun... No human being ultimtatley settles for just mediocrity. Everyone "wants" that. Because everyone is "that freedom" Is just that not all humans, in fact most of them, do not know how to do this (and in this forum most of us are still in the process of It), so most humans pursue this longing in form of short term pleasure like you said. And others are just in skid row shooting up fentanyl. People are getting their moments of freedom however they know how. Is just all those external ways of getting It is not maintenable, and doesn't even cover the full spectrum of how perfect vibrant your Consciousness can become.

Namaste my friend 🙏 Force and Bliss for you too 🙌

mmm interesting way to say it. Gotta for that bliss and love I guess

Splendid. Yep. You got a huge glimpse. And Shinzen Young once said that depersonalization is enlightenment's evil twin. It's almost exactly like enlightenment but without the realizations and bliss, from my experience.

Just don't stop whatever it is you're not doing. If your OP is anything other than idle speculation, I would suggest you intend getting into the habit of ceasing all such categoric rhetoric, ie dragging in all sorts of qualifications relative to time and conceptual labels~ further and afar from the fundamental and essential. Just your own mind right now (not your thoughts) is the inconceivability already at your bequest. Taoist teaching introduces the directive to rest in the homeland of nothing whatsoever; to float around in the center of the compass and just deal with what is. Bliss comes and goes, whereas perfection is easy for those with no preference.

Bliss is just another state being witnessed. By? The true Self. Bliss is just an experience. Time is an illusion.

If one manages to open a couple of seconds of pure consciousness in between the thoughts, we call that relaxation If one manages 7-8 seconds, we call that peacefulness If one manages to more than 10 seconds, we call that joy. But if one manages to space more than 1 minute, we call that bliss. There needs to be enough time in the purity of your own being to taste truly Heaven .

pleasure is but a break from misery no? ... why not have the bliss of the real you

Self also brings pleasure, joy, happiness, and all the rest of the colors on the 'default' human palette, no? These positive feelings might be fickle and fleeting and pale in comparison with transcendent bliss, but for those who dwell in consensus reality, they're as good as it gets.

From the ethereal udder of consciousness and bliss? what is moo? 🐄

I'm searching to expand my taste in this domain. So far (Malt, LSD, AL-LAD, Mushrooms, Salvia, Weed, Ketamine, MDMA...) I'm interested in Blue Bliss pellets (5-MAPB+2-FMA+5-MeO-MiPT), similar in effects to MDMA but safer. I still have to make my mind whether to buy them or not. Any recommendations? What is that secret psychedelic that you hide in your drawer?

I'm currently working on finding my life purpose, and I thought it'd be a great idea if some of you guys shared your stories of how you managed to do so. There's potential for some powerful thoughts and lessons from your experience that might trigger some helpful thoughts and ideas in myself as well as other people who are currently trying to find their life purpose. Here are some prompts and questions that might help you communicate your experience: How exactly did you find your life purpose? Which obstacles did you have to overcome in order to find your life purpose? What held you back from finding your life purpose? How did you find your passion? What were the most powerful clues you've found to help you discover your life purpose (e.g. your greatest strengths, your bliss, exposing yourself to new experiences, talking to new people or your existing friends, ChatGPT,...)? Reflect back and tell me, has there been a specific experience you had that triggered/led to you finding your life purpose? Feel free to add your own prompts. Also: If you've found your life purpose, I'd love to have a phone/video call with you, perhaps understanding your journey and your process will help me on mine Much love <3

So it’s been a week since I wrote… and most of the time has been at the auto body and glass shop. I’m really surprised how much I’m enjoying this position. I was using the vacuum hand sander on a camper shell to prepare it for painting and during the process of removing the shine and orange peel… I was using the light to see what needed to be done and I was using my hand to run over the surface and feeling the curve I really could see how much people could enjoy doing for pleasure. I can see this as a really cool hobby for people. Shoot it could possibly turn into a hobby of mine one day… who knows? But doing this work is pretty detailed oriented and meticulous and I enjoy it! It’s funny because I really don’t know much about cars in general. The majority of my life I’ve had very old vehicles and I’ve only purchased them at a very low price so I can get from one location to the next… as long as it could do this, I was happy with it. And when it comes to these vehicles also comes with issues that need to be fixed and I’d go in and fix them… but I’d use YouTube or ask friends who knew more about mechanical work and then yeah… I’d use hand tools and get it done. I am not a stranger to the junk yard and so I’d find parts there many times to fix issues. I’ve already mentioned, I believe, that I’ve replaced an engine to one of my cars from a “junkyard dog” (engine) and it worked and didn’t actually take long even though we weren’t using power tools. Anyway… now that I’m working on cars with actual proper equipment and tools… it’s pretty fun. We don’t have to do a lot of mechanical stuff even though at times we do… I haven’t really had a chance to learn that yet and maybe I won’t… but there’s so many things I’m learning that it’s keeping my attention and curious to continue learning. I’ve been helping with removing and replacing windshields which is pretty tricky to remove from the vehicles. Lol… all these vehicles are a lot more new to what I’m accustomed to so they have the push starts and some don’t have normal shifters they could be just buttons… lol.. anyway it’s different. And when it comes to windshields there’s things that I didn’t think about when to remove and replace that would need to be done. So many of them have to be recalibrated because there’s sensors and cameras that have to be detached so when we unplug them… they need to be recalibrated. I’ve been really liking the process of painting as well. Now I did try to go and learn how to spray paint last Sunday but I chickened out pretty quickly because I started to get self conscious about doing it properly and I thought it’s best that I don’t paint and give that to my boss. But I did tell him that I do want to learn more about it and do it more, but we have to wait for projects that are more forgiving for beginners to paint. So we’ll see if I get another chance soon. But… to get the parts prepped to paint takes quite a bit of time and has a process. Once we go through the sanding process then we have the masking process to make sure most of the vehicle is protected from overspray. And after the painting we have another process of fixing the paint and preparing to polish it. There’s a lot that goes into it. Again as a hobby I can really see how I would enjoy it. I enjoy it now, but I also know that my pace will have to increase, because this business is more about turning the car to get to the next car. I think we have about seven cars we’re always working on and we might have four cars going in an out quickly with windshield replacements. And even more cars that will come in less than a half hour because we’re fixing rock chips in the windshields. We’re a small shop but there is still a lot to work on.. and different projects gets it interesting. Since I’m still new and these aren’t my vehicles I’m very hesitant on removing parts off the car. I’m always concerned I’m going to break something and then add more issues to fix which I don’t want to do. We remove a lot of parts all the time. And sometimes we have to be a bit aggressive and I’m just not comfortable yet to do it… hehe… I try to be gentle and I see it’s not working and then I’ll try a little harder… and if it’s too hard I ask for help because I don’t want to be the one who breaks something… hehe. I know it sounds like I’m not really being helpful but I know I’ll get more used to the process and I won’t be asking for help so much… but I think for now people are appreciating me admitting when I’m not comfortable with something. I’ve also noticed how many little pieces go into this and trying to keep it organized and even remembering where everything goes… hehe… there’s a lot to it but I am enjoying myself. I chickened out about asking how much I’m getting paid as well. I had a brief conversation with one of the office girls about not knowing how he’s going to pay me. If he puts me on payroll then we’ll have paperwork to fill out. She said she’ll try to get it figured out by Friday, but that didn’t happen. So yeah I haven’t filled out a W2 yet and I’m not sure I’m going to. We’re supposed to be getting paid on the 20th… so I guess I’ll find out then… hehe… I just hope they show how many hours I’ve worked and the pay rate but without filling out paperwork I don’t know if that will happen. I’m going in tomorrow to help out a bit so maybe I’ll get a chance to talk to my neighbor a bit more. It’s challenging because he’s always so preoccupied with other thoughts and then he’ll be dealing with his children many times so it’s hard to get a quiet time to just talk one on one. Originally my neighbor was going to help me find a car. Now that I see how busy he is I’ve been trying to be more active on finding one myself or asking others if they know of anything. Now I’ve been mostly at the shop so my conversations have been limited; however, I was speaking with one of the volunteers at the Krishna temple today and she has two vehicles that she’s trying to sell. So yes today I took a day off and I wanted to go to the temple. I’d like to go on Sunday but the bus doesn’t run on Sundays so I thought Saturday would be the day to go. The bus driver actually dropped me off closer to the temple which wasn’t a scheduled stop but he was super nice and I appreciated it. The temple is gorgeous but it’s really extravagant. I guess “temples” are supposed to be but I’m not really sure the significance of all the “show” but I did enjoy the architecture and the artwork and so maybe that’s why.. hehe. It just seems more gaudy than necessary. This temple has llamas and peacocks on property along with an African parrot and four macaws. So I started out there with the animals. There are white peacocks as well who were really pretty and looked like younger males who didn’t have the whole blue on their bodies. I didn’t have anyone to talk to so I’m not certain how to tell the difference but it was still cool to see them wandering around. I was being quiet and moving slow so they weren’t running away from me too much but definitely kept their distance. I didn’t count the llamas but I’d estimate about ten of them. There was one who was sitting closest to the fence who had a curious and goofy smile… at least to me. Half of his teeth were showing on one side but it really made him look even cuter. It started to sprinkle and the animals started to get shelter so I went ahead and went inside. There’s a gift shop and vegetarian buffet in the entrance. The temple was at the top level and there was a group taking a tour so I ended up talking with the young lady who volunteers and happened to be working at the gift shop today. She actually had been living there while her husband is living a little farther north and working there. They just found out they are pregnant so they are moving to Bolivia in a month. We were having a good conversation and I found out she was having issues with one of her cars not being able to start. I asked her if she’d like any help with it. I wouldn’t be able to diagnose any issues but my boss should be. I’m also looking for a vehicle so maybe if there isn’t a crazy amount of issues I might be interested in buying it. That’s when she said she’s going to be selling her other vehicle too. It’s a little SUV and of course that’s the one I’d rather have, but when it comes to price… I’ll be able to purchase the one that’s not working right now. She and her husband is guessing that it’s the starter but we’ll see. She’s also selling her saris so… I might get one from her. Through out the week I’ve been really debating on getting to Nepal this coming year. I was chatting with the young technician at work about usually trying to go somewhere on my birthday and I started to think about it… I’d really like to go to Nepal. We’ll have to see how things fall into place, but it’s going to be hard to not want to go to Nepal for at least a month… if not more.. hehe… if I go in February that might be too soon to save the money I’d like to have. But I really want to get back to Peru next year as well… so again… we’ll see how things work out. I continue to find myself trying to plan things out but Reality likes to show me a different approach to how I want to experience what I’m asking for… so… trying to continue to get better with going with the flow… hehe. So I messaged my boss to see if he’d need help tomorrow at the shop. And if he had time in his schedule maybe we can check out the vehicles at the temple to see if they’re worth purchasing or not during our lunch time. He’s going to see how he feels in the morning and then we’ll go from there. I’m going to offer paying for his lunch at the vegetarian buffet at the temple… I thought it was delicious. I asked if there was a way to volunteer in the kitchen to learn how to make the recipes, but the lady who used to teach no longer works there anymore. I am looking to see if there are any volunteer opportunities at the temple but the wife who designed the temple and painted the artwork also manages the volunteers seemed a bit hesitant with me not being a member. So we’ll see how it goes. I really enjoyed speaking with the young lady and I hope to continue our conversations even after she returns to Bolivia. She was telling me that Bolivia is even more beautiful than Peru… hehe… and I said I was at Lake Titicaca but I didn’t cross the border. She said if I visit the Krishna temple in Bolivia then she bets… I’ll run into her again. Her mother and stepdad are in higher ranks in the ISKCON so she’s active as well. So…. I continue to hear and read the name St. George… hehe… I’ve actually looked for rooms/roommates and jobs there… I’ve actually got a young man who wants to room with me if I happen to make my way down there. But I’m curious if I’m going to be going there soon. I thought maybe it would be more reasonable for me to go there for my birthday instead. Everyone is implying it’s kind of the tourist place of Utah. It’s gorgeous and many people go to St. George for the winter because it doesn’t snow as much as it does up here. I felt like I’d have opportunities in the creative side down there… but there might be opportunities here as well.. but I wanted to mention that it keeps coming to my attention. Yesterday morning I was watching like a migration of birds flying south out of my window… and I chuckled that I thought about heading to St. George to miss the winter weather… hehe… but again we’ll see how things go. And… this week I did end up buying so things for myself for personal care. I wasn’t going to do it at first… well it didn’t even come up to mind but then one day I was just like… I’d like to get some things to kind of care for myself more than I usually do. I’d love to try to create a habit but I’m not certain these would be my supplies to create a routine but I thought I’d like to give it a try. So I had my period and I thought I’ve been wanting to try out these period cups… so I ordered a kit. I knew it wasn’t going to be delivered before I was done but I wanted to have it ready for next month so I can give it a try. I got it off of Amazon so I went ahead and purchased a gift for Elvis. I wanted to get him so pet grass so I got a grow kit. I should be seeing sprouts tomorrow… I hope and within a week I guess I should be able to feed him the grass. The grass only last a few weeks so hopefully if it works I can purchase a kit to replenish his grass…. If it works! But I also go a body lotion. Honestly I’m not a lotion person… hehe… but ever since I was in the wilderness I’ve felt like my hands have been really dry and thirsty. Also being in the wilderness my senses were heightened about how I take care of myself and I wanted to get a better routine or habits to better take care of myself. So what… there were good reviews for Curel daily healing lotion unscented… so I’m giving it a try. I’m trying to do it daily so I’ve done it three days now and yeah at first I don’t like the feel of having lotion on my skin but it’s not taking long for it to penetrate my skin and then it feels fine. We’ll see if I feel like its getting more moisture and not so dry then it might be something to continue, right? And I guess if I’m in the jungle I won’t need it but in the winter… I could do this.. hehe.. right? Anyway… when it comes to deodorant it’s been tricky for me to find something I like. So I’ve been looking into Lume because they had this lotion option for deodorant and also it’s for the entire body. It says it’s supposed to last up to 72 hours of odor protection. So I had thought about the expedition when I’m guessing there isn’t going to be a daily bath going on. So I was going to see if it works and this could be an alternative to help for the wilderness, but also I’ve been finding that I’m going two to three days before bathing and I’m working at the shop. So I thought this might be a good time to try Lume and see if works. So I just got this and I ran a really amazing bath today. I boiled extra water to get a really hot bath… and now I know again and reaffirmed why a hot bath is just complete bliss. I mentioned it’s been luke warm water and it wasn’t cutting it. My muscles were craving a hot bath so yep I boiled three pots of water and one which was hot but not quite boiling yet and it was exactly what I was wanting. But anyway I used the Lume bar soap… and the lotion suggests to apply at night.. so I’m going to use it tonight and then see how it works. I’ve been looking into Prose as well… advertising seems to be attracting me and I’m giving in and giving them a try. So I got a hair care routine and also their skin care routine. I’ll see how I feel about it and the results but I’m open to giving this a try for a few months to see if the results are what I’d be looking for. There’s also a product that I spray on my roots to help boost scalp care and I guess boost hair growth… so I’m giving this a try too. And the final thing is this lip product which is supposed to really moisturize my lips. I’ve had dry lips for a loooong time now and I have moments where I’ll use chap lip stuff but I’m not consistent with it… but again since the wilderness… I’ve just noticed how dry my body is and how much I want to give it attention. So I should be receiving all of these items this week and I’ll get started in trying to take better care of the body. They say to be consistent with it.. and I’m going to give it my best effort to be as consistent as I can be. And it takes patience so to give it a few months before determining whether the products are working with my body or not. So we’ll see how things go… I’m hopeful. So I’ve tried to continue the sketch journal again. So I’ll try to attach a video of the pages I’ve got done this week. I’ve been tracking the package to my buddy in Thailand and so the last update on tracking says it’s going through Customs Clearance in Thailand… so once it gets past this step… it shouldn’t be long for it to get to my buddy…. As long as the address is understandable… hehe… I didn’t know what was the province or which was the city… and I think there’s an island name “moo”… well I wrote down what my friend wrote so hopefully it’s understandable to them. Ok.. it’s getting late and I’m getting tired. I’ll go ahead and finish for tonight… until next time. videoSpeed 2.mp4

Feel into it read up Deida, Tantra, Igor Kufayev, watch the movie Bliss, watch Taylor Johnson on YouTube is also cool. Basically it’s about feeling and loving vibes, experiencing a real connection Breathe her in, the woman and also life herself! At the same time be completely grounded be in the room yet outside of it simultaneously. What women want is another great watch. I’m gonna go ahead and add, age of innocence, pride and prejudice, (not Hitch please although it’s funny it’s just a lower level, you want a more intuitive felt experienced approach).