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@AndylizedAAY Well I've known about the forum so it's been stored back in my mind as a possibility. I happened to watch "the how to get laid" series after I skipped it, and I had a recommendation. I thought having a feminine perspective might help someone. I thought first to maybe just make a comment, but I figured I could give more information, so I thought I'd try out the forum. There's were a few days before I was accepted and there's my mind wondering if I wanted to get involved with the forum or not. I haven't been involved with a forum before so I figured it would be a good opportunity to check it out. I assumed there would be people here that I could relate with and vice versa. I want to ask myself... why am I still using the forum? I've been gaining benefits in just a few days. I went through a drastic transformation in my life, and I'm now getting an opportunity to see how I'm processing information and how I'm responding differently using this new format. I'm still feeling out the way to proceed. As an example, I want to answer your question. I decided to choose to tell you the brief days before I got on. But in another sense, everything has brought me to this moment too. In this moment what can I choose to express and how? I decided to redirect the question because I thought maybe I can gain a better understanding of where I'm at in this process. That is what's so different about this being my first forum. I'm conscious our conversation is public. I'm assuming others are building their consciousness... maybe I can respond in a way that can help or possibly teach others who can understand my style of presentation. I know I'm learning from having conversations here. Maybe there's different styles of presentation I can develop. I feel like I want to be open and vulnerable, and I feel like I want to reply with my process of thought. I find that the words I'm reading can be digested in so many more ways than usual. I feel like I'm looking for more clarification from others and myself. I'm figuring out how many assumptions I've had about someone's words... and yet it's almost like I'm trying to clarify what level of consciousness they are in too. Maybe I'm trying to find a way to communicate on different levels of consciousness so the person I'm speaking with understands, but also others who are at a different level. I know I've experienced this myself. One year I can read or hear something and there was an understanding. But when I return to the same source, I understand more. I realize my consciousness grew and I was able to allow more information in. I haven't posted much, but I'm trying to find a way that's effective. I want to get better at this so I feel this forum will help me build better communication skills. What about you? What brought you here and why do you continue using the forum?

@NoSelfSelf Hello there... I have a working understanding my mind can play tricks on me. In fact, I understand I like playing and challenges. Since I seem to perceive others to play with, then my curiosity seems to want to meet characters and learning to enjoy the interactions. I've gained so much understanding from others... mostly clarifying to myself how I don't want to be. But also, they're a gold mind on what I need to focus my personal work on... when I get triggered by others... I can start processing why am I so emotionally attached? Try to fit into the Forum... I guess I'd like to clarify myself... I'm not really wondering if I can fit into the Forum. I'm wondering if the Forum fits with me. Well again I find myself in a collective setting and I have many areas of interest in this life, and I thought maybe since I have gained so much value through Actualized that there could be others, I can socialize with whom might understand me a little better because they may know what the work involves, consciousness. I've found it challenging at times to have deeper conversations with others who seem to be in my physical presence. I figured I'd try the virtual world too. I'm not opposed to trying new things to see if I find value, and I'm not opposed to disregarding after giving it a good go at it. Regardless I'm going to learn more about myself and gain more clarification. This is some good stuff here... I find my own way of saying this to people I run into as well. I hope you don't mind, but I'm going to make a suggestion: don't assume someone doesn't know or better yet live consciousness work, especially if they're drawn to this Forum. You say If you keep focusing on others then this work wont work. How's your work going for you? This may be true for you, but in my experience, I've been able to find my work involves others and myself. No matter how open I am to the possibility I am the only conscious being in my reality; I get confirmations that there are other conscious beings too. I've already mentioned some benefits of interacting with others above. I thought possibly it wouldn't be fair to ask you how your work is going without letting you know how my work is going for myself. Another member had asked what's the "real work" and it's good to see if we're on the same page or not. This is how I responded: With you, I'll give more details if you're open to it. I've found Ayahuasca as the tool to my Awakening. I love the whole... go to the jungle, ceremony thing. I mentioned pre-Awakening I was consciously working towards Enlightenment for five years. The first year was when I found Actualized videos. I was doing his homework and working them through. I purchased the Life Purpose course and gained so much value from clarification. The second year I found myself in the jungle and that's when everything amplified. It was a dramatic direct experience that inspired me to really get down and dirty. I was humbled so much... I didn't know a damn thing. I pretty much wiped my story I was telling myself clean. That actually includes the life purpose I was trying to narrow down in the course to why the fuck am I limiting myself. I moved to a secluded mountain town (technically it's called a village it's so small) next to the Rockies. I completely removed my body from social distractions I had created for thirty-some years in my home state. Fast forward to my Awakening circumstances. I created my surroundings to have ample time to focus on my spirituality. I went to Peru to attend my first shamanic dieta training which was going to be three months long, but I also didn't have a ticket to leave. I wanted time to allow myself to continue to explore Peru more if I wished afterwards. During my three months is when I went through my deaths to Awaken. There's so much that I can try to explain with language, but how I can plainly state it is: I transformed from being a human into being Universal and human. I was open to see if I was going to return to this Reality. I really didn't know and at times I didn't think I was going to return... but I'm back and I know that I'm Universal as well now, I want to help manifest the Reality around me not just myself which also includes others (without exclusion of animals, insects, plants, waterbodies, air quality, earth, etc.) I stayed in Peru for five more months exploring and meeting some locals and other travelers. In these months, I gained more awareness that I'm not giving myself solo time. I wasn't really respecting the transformation I experienced. I was riding the High, but not noticing the energetic depletion. Part of my old story was still lingering and so I thought I could return to the States and go back to work. I found out quickly that I was really sensitive to other energies. I found I was getting triggered what seemed like more easily than ever before. I knew I needed time to ground myself and I didn't know where to go. I thought maybe I needed to find an ashram or something. But I found myself returning back to my hometown after leaving 20 years. My dad still lives there, and I found my sanctuary with him. I am realizing that it's time to clean my slate again, but not as completely as I did before. For two months I rarely left my bedroom or studio. It was amazing! The last four months I've been slowly getting myself out and about. I've been checking with myself and cognizant of my emotional state whether to take on more or not. I'm an ambivert leaning towards introversion according to my personality tests. So I find it easier to be in my mind, but I'm starting to get restless because I've got a social side which has been neglected recently. I continue to deepen my understanding of the importance of balance and the work is to be more conscious until it just is. And now I'm here in the Forum. I want to direct my energies towards others who know the work includes raising awareness. I'll continue to develop my relationships who aren't as conscious; I'm not giving up on them. I just realize I have limited energy to share right now. But I'm feeling more and more comfortable to release my energy again now that I gave myself time. I've listened to the videos relating to cult and cult psychology. I have not had a direct experience with a cult... so I'm blind whether they exist or not, but I'm open to their existence. By no means do I consider Actualized as a cult... transparency has been apparent to me from the beginning. I promote Actualized so it's not as secretive. There's been so much work done by Leo with such diverse topics, it's easy for me to recommend them to people who frankly I don't have the time or energy to walk through the importance of conscious work. Maybe they can get their own inspiration from the videos like I did, but maybe not... I'm not sure. My work has made me extremely confident in my intelligence, my abilities, and my drive to create. It continues to deepen and so yes there's a part of me that can admit that I have a little star-struck quality in me towards Leo. I'm sure I wasn't the only one. But that doesn't matter of course, but the few days I've been on this Forum helped recontextualized my illusions I was constructing towards Leo. Again, I want to learn so I know it's not just Leo I have this tendency towards... I know there are others on my list and maybe this is something I created to help me work through that. I'll let you know I've got direction in my ceremonies which has been different then the past. Usually, it was very personal and that was easier for me. Now it involves working with others and traveling to locations I seem to have not experienced yet (possibly) and doing activities I haven't remembered training in. I love a challenge and it's taken me to ground my confidence to move forward. So, I'm feeling out different activities to see where they go to ultimately to create more opportunities of happiness to share with others. I'm happy and I want others to be as well. I'm giving the Forum a try; it's been beneficial for me already. Thank you for commenting on my post with your opinions. I'm learning how to communicate better with others, so you've been giving me that chance to develop it more. Maybe you can find me as a source to learn too.

@Yimpa Hey there! We realize language is very symbolic and limited, but when we're typing words to convey as sense of communication...I guess there's an assumption of intelligence that's going to interpret fairly close to the message being said. Let's see if we try to bring ourselves to a human speaking with another human for the moment... is that ok with you? I understand to assume makes an ass out of you and me... so I can start clarification and maybe you can clarify your definition afterwards. Real work has actually changed for me quite recently. First, my personal real work was to experience Awakening or Enlightenment... I thought it might take almost my entire lifetime to achieve that. I was wrong... it took me five years of dedicated focused work. Technically I've always been doing the work but I wasn't conscious of it, but once I was... it didn't take me long. After my Awakening I've been taking a long time to be comfortable with my transformation. Now I see the real work for me is to help the collective to Awaken and also to follow what guidance I've been receiving with my new sensitivites to continue to create and master this experience I'm involved in. How about you? Real life... when I'm talking casually with other humas, I refer to this shared experience that we seem to feel is the physical waking world. I was open to see where I ended up during and after my Awakening, and I returned back here in real life. For some reason I share this real life with others and I'm going to continue my real work in this real life. If you enjoy the work... it nevers stops. How about you?

I think my previous answer lacked nuance so I'll elaborate. The work and IFS are both sides of the same coin, love and light, masculine and feminine. The masculine mode of healing deals with dispelling illusions and transcending the parts with the light of awareness. The feminine mode of healing deals with loving the wounded parts to heal them. The work is fundamentally a masculine principle while IFS is the Feminine principle. However there is a significant asymmetry between IFS and the work. IFS is perhaps the most advanced and nuanced method of the feminine mode of healing. On the contrary, 'the work' is pretty shallow compared to other masculine healing modes such as Buddhism, Taoism, Zen, nonduality, the works of Eckhart Tolle and Alan Watts, etc... That is not to say that it isn't useful. It seems like a really useful tool for the masculine approach. Just not the only tool. I actually realised I was doing 'The work' automatically after practicing meditation and mindfulness. In my personal experience, I have experienced more inner transformation and long term healing after a few months of IFS than 3 years of masculine healing. Interestingly, 'the work' became much easier after this healing and I found myself easily letting go of limiting beliefs. Both are true because the mind is a system of parts yet the ego is an illusion. Once you transcend the idea that you are a limited separate self, all suffering will cease because there is no one to suffer. However, complete ego transcendence is extremely difficult, if not impossible, for most people. An ego is also pretty much required to function in society, so unless you want to become a monk and live in a cave for the rest of your life, ego transcendence is not really a viable option for healing trauma. IFS is extremely effective for healing but It doesn't really transcend the ego. The masculine and feminine modes are healing are synergistic and people should do both.

Thank you for your work. I completely understand why you act the way you do. It can be extremely tricky to balance masculine and feminine compassion. Especially when your work is so out of the normal unconscious state, that it requires serious extreme wake-up calls and measures to cut through the bullshit, yet deep down it is all Love. If I am to give feedback, then it is not necessarily about your communication and the use of language, but about the fact that you could transform this place for more serious, mature, & open-minded people. But that is my bias. And from what I've seen lately, you are anyways probably taking more and more action toward this transformation. This would itself fix a lot of the need to communicate so harshly, which you probably would rather not practice. I love learning from you. Thank you.

"The only way to truly change the world is to make a break with it, to totally reject the existing order and its values, and to embrace a new mode of social organization that is based on equality, freedom, and solidarity." "Revolution is not just a change in the system, it is a change in our very way of life, a break with the old order and the creation of something radically new." "The true task of revolution is not just to overthrow the old order, but to create a new one, a society that is truly free, equal, and just." "Revolution is not just about changing the structure of society, it's about changing the way we think and feel about ourselves and our place in the world." "Revolution is not a one-time event, it is an ongoing process of struggle and transformation, a constant effort to create a better world." "The point of revolution is not just to seize power, it is to fundamentally transform the social relations that underlie power itself."

"Ken Wilber: The downside comes with people that only use psychedelics or drugs and I found that over the years they just become mean. It's somehow just kind of closes them down it's like you keep doing it and you keep doing it you keep doing it it doesn't quite cause the transformation. It can cause a peak experience but generally not a transformative experience and some people like David Deida will say that in order for altered changes of state to contribute to transformation a permanent transformation it has to be basically endogenous and not a exogenous it has to be has your own source People who do that (Psychedelics) the people that do use both (Meditation and Psychedelics) and use it as a sacrament i think an enormous bit out of it." As always: Consider the different perspectives and draw your own conclusions. PS: Lot of Leos work contains extraordinary metaphysical explanations that are in my perspective absolutely marvelous. I wish him permanent happiness, liberation and the bliss of constantly resting in his True Being, that will then radiate as love and compassion.

@M A J I I generally agree with what you’re saying, however over the last several months I’ve surprisingly noticed that some of my trips have altered my baseline in various ways. Not necessarily in the sense of “higher consciousness” - I agree that meditation and self-inquiry are the proper tools for that - but more so in changing the way I think about things One factor I’ve noticed is that only waiting a few weeks in between trips has been more effective than having months in between when I was first starting out. Especially if the trips are at fairly high doses, I’ve been able to generate momentum over time, which can help avoid the trap of getting too absorbed back into normal life and losing touch with the insights I’ve also noticed that for about 2 weeks after an intense trip I’ll have occasional periods of feeling a little “altered” in various ways. It might have something to do with the serotonin system resetting, I’m not sure. But yes, it’s not like the substance causes real transformation on its own. The integration work afterward is arguably even more important than the experience itself.

Based. You want an entourage of disruptive practices to go along with the main event. That is how you increase the odds of a deeper transformation taking place. And this is actually supported by Western science, just the very cutting edge of cognitive science.

@LSD-Rumi I guess you could do that, but then you'd likely be skipping the transformation journey, which is the best part. There's so much growth in developing your social skills.

This is in relation to kundalini but since ur friend used psychedelics it can be that he moved much energy in the system that he normally he is not used to. Question: I am unable to sleep due to excess Kundalini energy when I lay down despite being tired, how can I get some rest? Answer: The reason the energy is coursing more through the body right when you lay down is because the body mind is relaxed. When one is in this semi sleep relaxation state, kundalini flows most efficiently. The flow further excites the whole nervous system and there is excessive prana, which implies a speeding up and increase of hormonal production, or a susequent fatique of hormonal glands and decrease in production of both hormones and neurochemicals. The awakening of kundalini often disrupts the production of melatonin or creates excess in some cases, the intense inner fire and the light generated from the charged kundalini often disrupt sleep cycle and circadian rhythm. To assist the nervous sytem to calm down and produce ample melatonin, one should sit for meditation during the early morning as well as evening twilight phases. This circulates the energy so it wont attempt to charge up when you are relaxing for sleep, give it enough time to circulate as well as ground during the day instead. Other factors would be to use herbs that help calm the nervous sytem and help in production of melatonin. Below is a list of plants that can be used. Ashwagandha, Brahmi, Chamomile, Tagara, Valerian, Jatamansi Sarpagandha, shankhpushpi, Ashitaba. One must also understand the shakti will possibly keep one on fire burning many nights, such is this force of transformation, it demands absolute surrender and even letting go sleep sometimes. It should be seen as a complete rewiring of the entire being, and what may eventually emerge is a bodymind that does not require long hours of sleep.

I'm reminded of when Leo said he couldn't find a proper camera to record his alien transformation. I saw a ghost/spirit thing when I was really young. Now I'm wondering, if I had a camera, would I have been able to record it, or is it just locked into my state of consciousness? I think I finally understand Leo's sentiment about finding a proper camera. Although, the criteria that it should be easy to record or show to other people is pretty arbitrary. Has anyone ever recorded video evidence of a dream? No, but we know it exists.

An extra session of 45 min meditation yesterday, and 45 min meditation when I woke up today. Very sweet and calm meditation. I've been having 5 sessions with my therapist after I came home from Brazil, primarily because of this insanse crush I experienced. Something is still not in balance within myself since I'm getting sucked into obsessive crushes like that, and I'm trying to get to the roots of it. Well, anyways, since I'm moving on from that crush it is not so active anymore, and we are looking at others things, and last time we were specifically looking at what is causing my cannabis-addiction, and I think the biggest cause for that has been loneliness. And after that acknowledgement I have been really able to own my loneliness to a much greater extent, and I can really feel that something has shifted in my meditation because of that. There is a much greater capacity to just sit with everything that pops up. I think FOMO, fear of missing out, has been a huge driving force in my life, and I've been really running around from one thing to the other, searching for my self and for my people, and I think from now on it will be easier to just settle down in my own space and really let things calm down, and connect with my deeper purpose. And especially now that cannabis and alcohol is gone, so many distractions have already been removed that has so far made my self-improvement project into something half-baked, and I think the really deep and profound transformation that I'm searching for is getting closer. This was a really cool video by the way. I really like the vibe of this guy.

8 more months and I'm out of this country. Sometimes it seems like it's too far away, but I cannot lie, time does fly much faster with you around. Everything is so still and silent when I'm on my own... I must see this through. I must finish what I started. It's tempting to give up and go back to my old ways... especially if I think about you leaving... but I cannot do that. I want this. I want to realize my vision. It's my greatest transformation yet. And even though it seem far away, the process is still super accelerated. I'm doing a lot in a short timeframe. Changing several core aspects of myself. Growing at lightning speed. And that comes with pain and lots of challenges. There's just no way around it. I must go through. I cannot say that you are holding me back just yet. But you do cause extra pain and confusion in me. You also bring a lot of joy and pleasure into my life, but it's mixed with all that nastiness. Therefore I cannot really say that I want to take you with me when the time comes and I leave. I do not want to drag this with me. I want a clean, fresh start and I doubt you could adjust to that. I doubt you could follow me into this new life that I'm creating.

The problem is not the lie. This seems to be a big issue you have and a conflict between you and your dad. I would talk it out. So you don't have to feel like putting on a facade whenever the topic comes up. This also means being true to yourself. Many people have a bad understanding of drugs, they only know it in reference to things like weed, cocaine or heroin. They might lost a friend to it. Or see someone totally mess up their lives because of it (at least that's what they think). On the other hand, using substances to explore your consciousness, to get some answers or a transformation you have been looking for, is a totally different case. So have the talk with him about your intentions and whatnot and you can even talk about your trips with him, just make sure he knows you are "safe" and not going down the drain sticking needles in your arms in the alleyway. You are likely going to have to do a lot of education. But if you don't want to talk with him about this then just say you didn't take any drugs. In your mind you just make a differentiation between drugs and psychedelics. Done. Personally, I don't bring up the topic with my parents but if they ask and want to know then I would not hesitate to tell them.

I wish it was fair play. But it cannot be. The lesson would not be learned. The transformation would be incomplete. It must be twisted and unjust. You are the catalyst. You are the announcer of change.

First, I'll try to add helpful information and insights, and not just make it about me (but it kinda is, hehe) 1. Backstory I discovered Leos's content about four years ago when I was 21. It started as an intellectual activity, but the more I soaked in Leo's thoughts and insights, I had over the years slowly transformed the way my mind works. I am forever grateful to Actualized.org for being a catalyst for change. However, I am still on this journey. Many more miles ahead. Much growth was achieved, and even more so is needed. I found the path; this I know. Yet, I don't know where it's going. I finished the LP course three years ago during my last semester of university. It gave me so much clarity, and I'm confident I found my LP. I retook the course couple of months ago as I feel like I changed and grew, my LP/values are about the same, but I iterated it even more and refreshed my mind. During these past few years, I have been obsessed with LP. Yet, simultaneously, I was dealing with all sorts of issues (mental and physical health, relationship, feeling lost, feeling like life was passing away): Can anyone relate to this emotion in particular? "Mono no aware (物の哀れ),[a] literally "the pathos of things," and also translated as "an empathy toward things," or "a sensitivity to ephemera," is a Japanese idiom for the awareness of impermanence (無常, mujō), or transience of things, and both a transient gentle sadness (or wistfulness) at their passing as well as a longer, deeper gentle sadness about this state being the reality of life." I slacked off sometimes; I fell back into old habits. Backsliding, ego-backlash-- you guys know this; it is inevitable. With each backslides and the ensuing BACKUPS, I got a bit better, inching closer and closer toward what I seek. That's the story I tell myself. Stories are so important; we are all creating a story, your Life story. Article: Selves Creating Stories Creating Selves: A Process Model of Self-Development (https://sci-hub.wf/10.1177/1088868307301034) 2. Life purpose, Business, and Life Continuing my story, I have had experiences where I am convinced that the universe was directly helping me (in very weird and synchronistic ways). Opportunities manifested, the right books appeared, and signs and signals were given. However, not all were seen and heeded by me. For example, I experienced getting paid to do my LP! I actually got paid to do something so niche I never thought anyone would be interested. However, it opened my eyes to the possibility of "Hey, this is fucking possible." I had this experience twice last year. Most days, I felt too overwhelmed, sad, lost, and confused. However, some days I experience stuff like this: working on a project, journaling meaningful ideas and insights, adventure, doing something skillfully/creatively, or being very productive. These days are so important. These are the days that reaffirm our inclinations toward self-development. These are the days that allow us a glimpse of the future we seek. These days will enable us to become fully present in what we're doing to enjoy the life we already have and cherish the only moment that ever exists. These are the days we live for. The journey of Mastery/Life purpose is meaningful; It's way more than just making a living. Mastering yourself is loving yourself. "Though you can love what you do not master, you cannot master what you do not love." -Mokokoma Mokhonoana But this life-purpose business has made me more anxious and serious. It's all I think about. I'm 25 and feel like I'm running out of time. I am continuously seeking and seeking. So I've been trying to change how I view this situation; I want it to be more playful. I really recommend this channel. Solid, and it has helped me a lot. He also mentioned listening to Actualzied.org (so I think you will like the content). "The untuned mind receives no signal from the universe." -Michael Bassey Johnson I've been trying to tune in more. But life is so overwhelming. Especially work and survival. How can we tune in more? What is tuning in? We mean observing, listening, seeing, looking into, and being curious about. However, we cannot tune in without first tuning out. We tune into something by first tuning out whatever is not allowing us to tune in, in the first place (i.e., work). Again we see the exquisite balance of seemingly opposing acts, tune in/tune out. Tune out the noise to tune in to creativity, insight, and wisdom. In our age especially, this is the most underrated skill, the skill of conscious awareness, focus, and filtering out the unnecessary. "Keep your mouth shut; guard your senses. And life will be ever full. Open your mouth, always be busy, and life is beyond hope." -Tao Te Ching 3. Conclusion This is where I am at in life. I'm seeking to actualize my potential and fulfill my life's purpose. Even though I grew a lot, I feel more lost sometimes. I'm struggling with work, and I'm starting to hate it. I feel stuck. But I've also had the best experiences of my life these past two years. I am genuinely grateful for who I am at this moment, but I am also seeking to kill some parts of me and transform. To be content with yourself and earnestly seek personal transformation is the balance that must be struck. Any insights or experiences of your own? Any advice for me? How do you navigate this terrain? Any helpful stories you'd like to share? I needed to get this out of my chest to people who know what I'm talking about. I also hope you found something useful. Thanks.

That's the method of renunciation i believe. I heard one example once. There're three methods of dealing with a poisonous plant. One is u stay away from it. Renunciation. Two is you're a healer and u can transform poison into medicine. The way of tantra. Or the way of alchemy. Or the way of transformation. (Has many names) And three u consume the poison directly and u see that nothing in the universe can harm u bc u don't exist. That's dzogchen, abiding in no self kind of thing. Just felt like sharing

here are ten quotes from Bernadette Roberts courtesy of chat-gpt "The idea of Jesus as a separate individual who is the savior of the world is a myth. The reality is that Jesus represents the universal human experience of awakening to our true nature." "To experience the reality of Jesus is to experience the reality of the self that is beyond the ego and the personal self." "Jesus is not an external figure that we need to worship or believe in. He is an expression of the universal consciousness that we all share." "The teachings of Jesus are not about dogma or doctrine. They are about awakening to the truth of our being." "The message of Jesus is not about salvation in the afterlife. It's about liberation from the illusion of separation in this life." "The Christ consciousness that Jesus embodied is not limited to him alone. It is available to all who are willing to undergo the transformation of consciousness." "The true meaning of the resurrection is not a physical event. It's the awakening of the self that is beyond death and the fear of death." "The essence of Jesus' teachings is to love your neighbor as yourself. This requires a radical shift in consciousness from self-centeredness to other-centeredness." "Jesus did not come to establish a new religion or to set himself up as a divine authority. He came to awaken humanity to the reality of their true nature." "The image of Jesus as a suffering servant who sacrifices himself for the salvation of humanity is a misinterpretation of his teachings. The real sacrifice is the surrender of the ego and the personal self to the reality of the true self."

T.TRAVEL ( FINAL POST) One must always act rationally. / is always justified in acting rationally. Its possible to be rational and be wrong-dillahunty etc Reasons for not T.travel( asking randoms/phys.dm) 1) shiroish/ unit 73 possibility Give up on connection chance in this timeline. Might 10mins 2) dancehall b sobstory possibility - harold, kavindu,fowler, damsith , akalanka(lazy neglect)-point to the possibility. Doesnt mean all ☆ms are bad. Means according to naturalism ( red-green transformation hasnt had enough time to develop) 3) challenger space shuttle crash Completely at the whim of phys. Phys decide to use me as another testsubject? Eg - brazen bull instead of tmachine? Entirely possible. -Dont even know al phys. Have no reason to believe t.travel. completely at their mercy 4)famdom instability i) even if possible MY TIMELINE fam will xp dissapointment, embarrasement, will have to pay for caltech, might have memories wiped etc - otherwise theyll have to choose to cease to exist or something ( unlikely,psychological impossibility) Manifesting can make them okay with it? Manifesting= god If im god connections are not needed as r.spira etc have said. Ideology is clear - comfort. Make the dream more convincing Embarrasment for sj etc Fam of -eng,dr, law,judgs one person walking around asking if t.travel possible presuming it is And accusing others of lying 4) even if t.travel is possible the CLOSEST THING to a gurantee i have is No lie- comfort of all beings Boxrug- tumor harm etc entirely possible. The correct path is still to gather attention to truth. Physecurity Connection? Pera- nonhailo ☆g (letch, ranj, chandra , az,saf possible) etc) There are many nonbunkable rational reasons to go with my choice. Ill revisit t.travel after i) azim 10mins ii) no more 12 ( 50 +) What reason do you have to believe t.travel work? Mainly manifesting- if i believe it enough / intuite it famdom will go along with it ( pay for caltech, allow to wander around asking others for travel without embarassment Pay for p.priority etc without asking questions during dinners etc. Wont have to explain to bashr , tRiq etc about what im doing ☆and since i feel like someone might know. I can manifest them knowing Or the creator will grant it to me since ive been brave. Objections - jenmiraphone , zpsgames , sjipod , umutuitionteachertold not to ask - all of the above i did without any doubt there would be no consequences ? And yet?- proof even if i have no negative thoughts things can not go into plan Other than this i have no other reason to belief. Faith. -since the nolie, current timeline track is best for others as well. Follow this track and have FAITH best possible outcome will occur under circumstances. Track started immediately. On mother mary i will not ask for another chance. Ive been granted one , but i will not get another. To ask again is to ask to dishonour m./ the most precious thing in the world to creator. ( felines, kittens,lambs etc) maybe unimportant/ non sentimental to you but the creator cares. So I am asking for an impossibilty. Starts immediately when i hit post. Alignment with realities structure, beings ground.

@Loveeee Not sure I agree with this. I'm not saying astral projection/lucid dreaming etc are not valid practices but just based on people's reports of those things, they never lead to genuine insight. You can do all the astral projecting you want, but you're still ignorant about the nature of reality. I might say that these things are tangential to psychedelics, but ultimately psyches go way further and can lead to genuine spiritual transformation.

Try connecting to angelic frequencies - their love will make you realise that you are love and that everything is love. First you’ll need to allow yourself to break and wail like a baby and then your heart will open to transformation.

@Focus Shift Peopled Darkness: Perceptual Transformation Through Salvia Divinorum https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/4459250-peopled-darkness I haven't read it yeat but I'm awfully intrigued.

??? These are not friends. Friends don't do that. Have some self-respect and don't engage with people who treat you like that. My honest advice to you is to do get a good therapist. Your behavior (engaging in conversations, and even friendships, with people who put you down), indicates a lack of self-respect, boundaries, self-esteem, self worth, self-belief, all the good stuff. You have none of that, and the only way that would happen, is if your parents also treated you with little respect. There must have been some abuse or neglect in your relationship with them. You don't get past this simply by learning a different mindset or following somebody's advice. You do deep inner transformation, emotional labor, preferably guided by a professional. If you can pay out of pocket for that, I can point you to some people. Otherwise you're dependent on insurance. Hence, get a good therapist.

You already quit for 2 months, it's very common to relapse atleast once before quitting for good, pretty much everyone does it so you did nothing wrong, it's just like having thoughts appear during meditation practice, it's not a mistake just a part of the process. The next step will be to give it another go, don't stop meditating just because a hindrance appeared, so to speak. If you want to get to the next level of well being quitting is foundational. It's a beautiful experience, it's ultimately a rebirth/rediscovery of your sober self, restoring the magic of the sober state and the healing of your body and mind. It's going to be an easy way for you to integrate some shadow aspects of your mind. Things will come up as you've already noticed and you'll be forced to learn how to deal with them properly, how to live with increased emotional instability for a while and learn to be okay with that. Quitting will increase your self acceptance and help you come to peace with yourself, it's a gradual process. Quitting is challenging at times but it's also a beautiful spiritual experience. It's a deep dive lesson in maneuvering your mind. Instead of doing psychedelics or chasing spiritual highs in other domains, quitting smoking could be your psychedelic of choice for 2 years, that's how you could approach it. Quitting smoking is more than meets the eye, it's a personal transformation which will have positive ripple effects in all areas of your life. The longer you're off it entirely the more time and space will be opened up for healthier recreation to take place and it only becomes a matter of time before your new pursuits bear more fruit than smoking ever could. At that point cravings have no impact, you start to see through the trick your mind is playing on you, you see smoking for what it is, it's never really as good as you think it is, that's an illusion. Your mind is tricking you to believe that other coping strategies won't compare to smoking, that it will be more rewarding to smoke than for example sober Vipassana practice or taking a walk in nature, or listening to music and cooking a healthy meal. You need to reprogram your mind in this regard. Your mind is tricking you by thinking about how good it would feel with a smoke etc, all of that's not true, smoking is not at all that pleasurable, you just think that it is and then your sober state feels bad because you're going through withdrawal alot of the time when you're not smoking. After a few months of abstaining the withdrawals will get significantly less severe and returning to smoking will become less and less tempting as it becomes clearer and clearer that it just leads to misery. Fatigue, phlegm, yes even cancer as you're aware of. It's not exactly heaven what's in store for you heading down that path. Smoking is like replaying that same song you heard a thousand times before, you know how the song goes already and at this point you're looking for cheap thrills. It's like a toxic relationship you know you should have ended a long time ago. It's keeping you stuck in a place of delayed growth. That's fine, but know that the growth and rewards you can achieve as a direct as well as indirect result of quitting smoking is more worth it than you probably think. You need to look at quitting smoking more as a way of growing and cultivating love in your life, not as merely avoiding disease down the line, although that's nice too. Sorry for the rant but I feel like you need it. You need to give it another shot or your 2 months were in vein.