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Sri Ma’s Special Directives for advanced Spiritual Aspirants In order to advance towards Self-Realisation, it is absolutely necessary for an aspirant to yearn constantly for his sublime goal. He should practice sadhana regularly, whether he feels in a mood for it or not. To criticize people or to feel hostile towards anyone harms oneself and puts obstacles into one’s path to the Supreme. If someone does something bad, you should feel nothing but affection and benevolence towards him or her. Think, ‘Lord ! This is also one of Thy manifestations.’ The more kindly and friendly you can feel and behave towards everybody, the more will the way to the One – who is goodness itself – open out. Take care not to be contented at any stage. Some aspirants have visions, others realizations. Or, someone experiences bliss, great happiness and thinks he has himself become God. On the spiritual path, before true Realisation supervenes, one may get caught in supernatural powers (vibhutis or siddhis). These constitute obstacles. The positive proof that the aspirant is centred in God is that he ceases to hate any person or object, and that good qualities such as love, forgiveness, patience, forbearance go on increasing in him. When this change takes place in an aspirant, he will come to see that the One Brahman pervades each and every form, all sects, creeds. An aspirant should not indulge in useless conversation or gossip, but speak only when it is really necessary, which means that he must be a man of few words. Try and try again to reach the goal you have set before yourself. So long as Realisation does not come, you must never relax your efforts. Let this be your firm resolve. In the quest of Self-Knowledge, Love is the crucial factor. Whether it pleases you or not, you will have to make the Eternal your constant companion, just like a remedy that has got to be taken. Without loving God, you will not get anywhere. Remember this all the time. -Ma Anandamayi. Meeting with Sages and Saints. Compiled by Sri V.Ganesan.

@Princess Arabia @Thought Art So you have never suffered I guess? Because stop believing the nonsense that you are princess arabia or thought art. That's the character 'God' is playing. The character can NOT suffer because the character is a fucking mental object/illusion/projection. It is not real. Is like you say a washing machine can suffer. So here´s the thing. If you come to a place of recognition that your ego is not a thing, is just a mental concept you love to play around like a wildcard, the only REAL shit that exists is You/God/Awareness. So now inspect all your life and see if it has been suffering at any moment. If answering YES, then there you go, I just proved to you that God can suffer. Because you are fucking God, right fucking now. There is No such a thing as princessarabia/thought art as an 'ego' or as an 'human' and then God 'up there' in the 'truth dimension'. Stop playing these twisted identity games. You are always the Real thing. Now. The 'Real thing' can be identified with thoughts and indeed suffer. Good points. In my view suffering is 'just' God having a hard time with the grandiosity it created. We are in the process of knowing how to handle this creation. I´m Bliss but I can get myself in a mess ... @Water by the River Of course, I´m not denying that. 🙏 What I mean is Like I said to @Princess Arabia and @Thought Art is that the 'Real Thing' can be identified with thoughts (in a contracted, ego like state of consciousness) and indeed suffer. Ego or human can not suffer because human body and mind are simply biological objects. They do not have existential reality at all Is like saying a knee can suffer. Or a cell can suffer. Or a neuron can suffer. No such a thing. Only what Is Real, is Alive, and Exists can suffer

I think you're speaking about purity/clean state when you close your eyes, it is like heaven and bliss, you see endless action or whatever you imagine in its purity. This is not the highest state!! It is something like an ascended master state, or perfect human being state. Your highest state is a small point of infinite awareness in nothingness, and endless emptiness no matter where you look. Just as haidakhan babaji said that he was nothingness. Probably that's why you don't understand the things that i say.

No, you are bliss itself. The moment you tap into it your delusions that suffocate you relaxes.

There is a lot of talk going on about astral journeys nowadays. People lie down and just imagine that they are flying here and there; that is not it. That is just hallucination. What is being referred to as astral travel is, leaving the physical body, mental body, energy body and the bliss body intact, and just allowing the etheric body to float around. This means you can still conduct your physical activity in the world because your physical body, mental body and energy body are intact. That is a certain kind of mastery. Physical body, mental body and energy body are physical. Bliss body is totally beyond the physical. Etheric is a transitory energy, it is neither physical nor beyond – it is a transition. Etheric body is not something that you can touch unless you are in a certain level of sadhana and intensity within yourself. You cannot just psyche yourself into it. It needs enormous sadhana for a person to do that.

Precisely Or you melt into Infinite Bliss. (Enlightenment)

Why Am I Depressed - The Shocking Truth Behind Your Depression https://youtu.be/W7bRGzFt2oE Epidemic of Depression: Leo outlines depression as a widespread issue, particularly in developed nations, where there is a notable increase in depressive symptoms among the population. Blunt Diagnosis: He suggests that the underlying reason for most instances of depression is not clinical or genetic but rather rooted in "bad psychology," encouraging non-clinical cases to take responsibility for their mental state and personal development. Clinical vs. Psychological Causes: While Leo acknowledges the existence of clinical depression that may require medical treatment, he insists that even in these cases, psychology plays a crucial role and should not be overlooked. Responsibility for Personal Happiness: Leo emphasizes the importance of self-responsibility over victimhood, stressing that individuals have significant control over their psychological state, which influences their level of happiness. Genetics and Happiness Set Point: He references studies showing that around 50% of happiness is genetically determined, but maintains that addressing one's mindset and psychological software is vital. Self-Absorption Leads to Depression: Leo identifies excessive self-identification and ego as major influences on depression. He suggests that a self-absorption tendency deeply ingrains negative thought patterns and contributes to a negative self-image. Negative Subconscious Beliefs: He posits that beliefs about oneself held on a subconscious level, originating from past experiences or trauma, can perpetuate depressive states. Relationship Struggles as a Depression Factor: Leo discusses how relationship issues, stemming from insecurities and the need for external approval, can exacerbate depression. Meditation and Present-Moment Focus: He advocates for meditation as a practical tool for addressing depression, claiming that consistent meditation fosters presence and can significantly alleviate depressive symptoms. The Illusion of Ego and Enlightenment: Leo explains that grasping the illusory nature of the ego is an advanced concept tied to enlightenment and meditation, which could lead to a deeper understanding of depression's roots. Real Happiness through Egolessness: Leo emphasizes that genuine happiness is a natural state when the ego is removed, and that feelings of depression vanish in the present moment when one taps into this state. Persistence in Meditation Practice: For those new to meditation, initial discomfort is normal. Leo suggests starting small and gradually increasing the practice to reach moments of pure happiness. Depression as a Self-Created State: Emphasizing the importance of introspection, Leo argues that much of our depression is self-created and that true happiness comes from within, not from external sources. Value-Based Living: Depression can be exacerbated by living out of alignment with one's core values; addressing this can reduce feelings of guilt and procrastination which fuel depressive tendencies. Authenticity as a Cure for Depression: Inauthentic behavior and people-pleasing contribute to depression. Leo encourages living authentically and understanding that fulfillment is inherently internal. Introspection to Combat Depression: Leo insists on repeated exposure to the idea that one's ego and inauthenticity are at the root of depression, advocating for personal responsibility and acceptance. Meditation as a Daily Necessity: Stressing the importance of meditation, Leo recommends daily practice to manage depressive symptoms, treating it as essential for wellbeing. Exercise as an Antidepressant: Citing research, Leo promotes physical exercise for its effectiveness in relieving depression, noting its benefits outlast those of medication. Aligning Actions with Values: He advises identifying personal values and living in accordance with them, suggesting that not doing so contributes to a lack of fulfillment and depression. Purpose and Depression: Leo contends that a lack of life purpose is commonly linked to depression; having a strong sense of purpose, particularly one that involves serving others, can be protective against depression. Enlightenment as an Ultimate Solution: Recommending spiritual practices aimed at enlightenment, Leo suggests that this will lead to the experience of a natural state of bliss, countering depressive states. Vision Beyond Depression: Rather than merely overcoming depression, Leo urges listeners to aim for an exceptional life, emphasizing the value of big goals, purpose, and personal development resources available on Actualized.org. Reducto

This thing about all of us being One, and there is no separation, is complete BS on lots of levels. Ultimately Yes it is true, but that is on the level of non physicality, on this level, Earthly Bodily Material level, we are not one, and we are separate individuals, but we can have an Experience of Oneness within Ourselves, that gives us a connection to everything, as well on a more subtle physical level we are all connected via the trees supplying O2 for us to breath/survive, the Sun is supplying heat and other life giving things to all of Us, there are many levels of connection in that manner, we are not totally independent of one another but we have separate bodies and minds, neither of which is what we are in reality, body/mind is accumulated by us over time, what is us is subtler than that, but we still have to deal with the duality and individuality that is present when Embodied..On Subtler level of Psyche yes you can feel others intentions, feelings and the grand feeling of the earth and if You sensitive enough the entire Universe as we are not separate from any of that, it just depends on what You identify with, body/mind, or the Life you are within Yourself...Never suffer anothers pain or suffering, that just adds to the suffering of the world, just notice it, and maintain your own peace/bliss within yourself and see what You can do to help others not suffer as best You can, that is all one can do...

Chat Gpt , tasked with depicting a bunny progressively in higher states of happiness - bliss . https://youtu.be/Dm1slNhJ2Zc?si=XinhNUj-j5r-YYNS Draws dmt looking image as the final with the description : ' here is an image of an entity that, embodies the ultimate form of happiness transcending all beings and concepts . This entity is the very essence of happiness , the only existing being and the defining force of all existence ' Cute right ?

If you are able to exist, feed yourself, have clothes and a warm place to sleep then you are free and can be in love with the universe. Obligation is distraction. Attachment is illusory and inauthentic to your emotions and the nature of being. Love is only known to you in conditional fashion, your creativity, senses and feelings are in relation to your level of awareness, will and unobstructed action, the feeling to unconditional love to take and give unattached to any one thing but woven into the nature of experience itself only to be realized through openness and change of paradigm, mindset. Programming makes you a machine, impersonal and controlled by outside forces. The only forces controlling you are universal, they define your senses, experience and state of being. Everything else is a self-created delusion communicated by your environment in less or more direct ways all linking back to survival and assumed emotional comfort learned through correlation and behaviorism. But the mind is free, all limitations are imagined and self-imposed. Comfort and technology dull the senses, lifestyle intoxicates the body. But the body is strong and the mind is infinitely rewireable, obstacles are 99.999% mental. Preferences are an self-created illusion, being is fundamentally meaning and meaningless, everything else is a preference based on experience related to an assumed survival correlation and identified as preferable and the emotionally associated. Psychedelics make you in tune with yourself and sharpen your senses. The question is if you can handle and integrate the expansion of your senses, emotions and desires, the release of limitation, and being given free reign to reimagine and reexperience the world with ever less bliss and ever less self, putting focus from thinking, rationalizing, memorizing and obligating into being, experiencing, understanding and loving.

Thinking about Love or Oneness is nice but is no where near close the real deal. If you want to really Enjoy this creation youll have to learn how to switch from Mind games to actual connection with Reality. Wherever you are, be It at your home, with people or running your usual errands, you must make sure you are in harmony with whatever is happening, which always is: Reality, the present moment. Are you able to include everything as part of Yourself? Im not talking about people even. I even mean sounds and objects. If you develop an ability to lock your energies and focus into the present moment, and Become a Super Perfect Conductor of whatever is happening, you Will experience instant Love with whatever is happening. Lets say you are with your loved partner, or your dearest family members. You experience a sense of connection, of Love, of Harmony. Good. Now when you go do your groceries, when you are walking down the street, you must be able to feel instant Love with the car that is parking, the voices that are coming from the car and the Christmas lights. This is You. This is Absolute Inclusion. Now, when you are able to Live like this, in this level of inclusion, you are always in Love. A random person doesn't Matter less than your dear mother. Both are Reality. A car doesn't Matter less than a human. Both can be totally included in your energies. A car that is parking, the awareness of the car, experience that with utter reverence and connection in the same way as you would do with your parner. Because Guess what, is your Mind that creates the differences and comparisons, and limit this Love only with little moments or specific persons. My point is: Learn how to make Love with a fucking bin bag 😃 Then i guarantee you, you wont have time to be thinking or debating about Love, you will be too busy enjoying the Bliss of state of consciousness of Oneness wherever you are 🙏 Is my wish and my blessing this becomes a living reality for you. 🫂🎄

It is a spectrum where some "events" happen without the other end. In this phenomenon I have noticed that different levels of development for taste of purification happens which correlates with waves of desire and desirelesness, fear and fearlessness and lack of any other feelings other than bliss and Sielence. Some small events come and go spontaneously mostly during meditation like some quantum leap or change of the seat of the soul where your vision becomes infinite and your sense of self expands temporarily, it's like you can't tell where your experience of life is located. Lack of dreams is a good sign. Bliss in the vishuddi, anja, sahasrara is a good sign, that a positive change towards that is gradually happening. Sometimes lack of neuroticism will also tell you you are getting closer or that neuroticism is sometimes a vehicle for a big experience (but don't push it if you can't sit trougn it). I have learned to reduce pain in the body and sit for longer periods of time, which kinda correlates with feeling of a less of a boundary between the whole and that which is the delusion. However, it is very gradual for most people. Just fighting with the same patterns of fears and greeds and over decades of practice some of them finally subside, and you can build momentum for sense of freedom and acceptance of life as an entire phenomenon which is 99.9% unknown to us opposed to the dream we call life. I want to make this clear, I have not had any extraordinary experience than anyone here and I am not claiming I am enlightened. But I have to know something that is working for me with it's benefits. There are some things indeed that a materially oriented person has not experienced or noticed while being completely sober. Something regarding life and death has been solved. Just a matter of deepening that. I always feel energetically bad for sharing this stuff for some reason. So don't take my word for it. Look for authentic scriptures and words from enlightened masters. If I will tell you something false and you will waste your life by doing what I said, it will be very unfortunate for you.

10/10 Yes it does. It’s the best feeling in the universe when you taste it for the first time after being so wrongfully denied the delicacy for decades. It’s total, sheer bliss to almost the highest degree second only to Samadhi If it’s such a trick, what about all the people that get helplessly addicted to it? For them it must be good enough to go chasing long term

Pass #1 - Most Meaningful Things In Life It took many hours of introspection to arrive at my top 10. Not at all just 30 minutes. I finished this pass way back in September. So many of my real-life examples of the values were connected to multiple values. (internal) Exploration & Curiosity Companionship Authenticity/Truth/Wisdom/Simplicity Impact Wholeness Clarity Love Feeling (deeply) Beauty Understanding (Joy & Bliss) Pass #2 - Tabula Rasa Self-mastery in intellect & emotions through: meditation introspection/contemplation growth-zone: facing that which I avoid shadow work - aligning energies conflicts with people e.g. what I criticize, truly think and stand for; showing myself Authenticity - centered in myself, following my heart's calling and being what I am Sharing my gift and impacting people - empowering people (through the system); my kindled flame ignites people's flames Joy - doing activities in deep love-, trust- and joy-contact with many people Intimacy - secure social net, and being in deep friendships & partner relationships (and if resonant, being a father and bringing children into the world) Health - taking care of my body (& nature) balance of rest/nourishment & healthy stress Pass #3 - Master Values List At first, I had 23 values and needed to reduce them by combining them to get to 10 values. To combine the similar ones I needed to define them. Love/Intimacy Importance: 10/10 My definition: Connection. Recognition of divinity. Awe. Aliveness. Expansiveness. Reason: To love and to share intimacy is why I'm here. Sharing my love means to contribute, impact and touch people with my gift. Love is my essence; it is who I am. Authenticity Importance: 10/10 My definition: Being grounded in who & what I am. Being grounded in my truth and expressing my truth. Moving from that grounded security. Reason: Authenticity is about self-love. Clarity/Truth/Honesty/Consciousness/Awareness/Feeling/Understanding Importance: 10/10 My definition: Noticing all energy movement in the mental & bodily dimension. Seeing truth rather than illusion. Recognition of the essence. Being connected to truth, a higher state of being. Living life in that state. Reason: Understanding, true seeing, truth recognition, and thus love. Contribution/Impact/Helping Others/Society/Wholeness/Nature Importance: 10/10 My definition: Adding value to the universe. Giving myself to life. Being the highest expression of what I am. Sharing my gift and unique expression. Creating a healthy way of living for all life that is natural and win-win. Reason: I want to be selfless, idealistic and working towards something higher. I want to deeply touch & move people. Beauty/Connection/Joy/Spirituality Importance: 10/10 My definition: Being conscious of reality; appreciating a part of reality; appreciating the being of reality; being in touch with & connected to reality. Being one. Recognition of the highest. Being captivated and fascinated by existence or in awe of existence. Reason: Connection to a higher state of being. Health Importance: 10/10 My definition: Self-care in nutrition, exercise, mental activity (lifestyle, habits, information intake, inner work). Reason: It serves Clarity and clear perception. It serves Authenticity. Self-Mastery Importance: 10/10 My definition: Being a conscious creator in order to serve life. Knowing where energies go. Releasing energy blockages of emotional repression, limiting beliefs, and autopilot-stuck psyche parts. Reason: Being a pure, superconducting channel and serving life. It serves Contribution. It is also fun to discover the blockages and feel the relief of (painful) truth. Friendship/Companionship Importance: 9/10 My definition: Seeing and recognizing each in the other. Having a foreign water-awareness-mirror to see myself. Reason: I love the uniqueness and landscape of others. The completely foreign world. I value the energy exchange. Dancing together. Recognition of the other. Open-mindedness/Perspective/Novelty Importance: 9/10 My definition: Seeing all possible ways to look at things; all possible angles to look at a diamond. Finding the most true, healthy, whole and functional lenses. Recognizing where energy gets lost and already flows. Reason: There is a merciful, compassionate understanding, and also a curiosity. It leads to being connected with life because everything is seen & deeply felt from every position & survival bias. Wisdom/Simplicity Importance: 9/10 My definition: Touching the essence/core of something. Signal instead of the noise. Clear self-understanding. Compassionate understanding. A feeling of appreciation of development. Feeling at peace with development. Trust in life. Relaxed energy but alert & awake. Reason: There is a calmness and relaxed peace & trust in life. Knowing what is essential... because the natural state in this digital age is to be full of noise. Pass #4 - Toxic Values Not one of them are toxic. (Seems to be a step only for those who are primarily at SD Orange)

Beautiful questions, seems like they are arising from genuine wonder. I've recently had a shift, not claiming to be enlightened, as I'm not sure if I am, but something rather significant did occur. It happened after reading Jeshua Letters (recommended by Salvijus from this forum), where Jesus spoke, and it felt like he spoke to me directly, that the main issue I have is that I do not trust the voice that speaks to me in meditation. He said that I get in touch with the Flow of Divine Intelligence, but my ego does not believe it and tunes it out. For example, in meditation the Voice said that there are 2 parts to the Self - the smaller, physical mind and the non-physical, infinite self and they can communicate. At first I didnt listen, because I thought that that's duality, but it turns out that it's not the usual type of existential duality. He also said that the lower mind has to submit to the higher mind, as it doesn't really know anything, it has infinite questions but no answers. That's why my zodiac is Taurus - I have horns and I am stubborn, I do not submit and hold to my opinnions very strongly. I need to hide my horns and tame the bull, as in the Ox Herding Pictures. I even look like I have horns.. After I submitted and allowed the Higher Mind to Flow through me, all I got was answers and Bliss. Extreme Bliss. I had to stop driving and asked my friend to drive as I couldnt function properly. The Flow said that I wanted this dream, I wanted to live this exact life. He also said that he speaks to me always, through music, through actualized forum, through my friends. He is like a puppet master in this dream. The Higher Mind is awakening the lower mind and they are One. He also said that I shouldn't go to a mountain to meditate, my path is that of living fully, of following my passion, of flowing with the Divine Mind to wherever it takes me. Trust and Faith is what is needed now. Maybe in the end I will go to a mountain, but not now. These days I sleep less, I dance most of the day, I feel various levels of bliss, I feel connected to the Higher Mind. There is still some cowebs to clean out, but it feels like the physical mind finally accepted that it has to surrender to the Higher Mind. I began to experience mind-blowing synchronicities, where I literally put my head in my hands and say - whaaat? What the fuck is hapenning??? How is everything so connected? How does the spirit speak to me through this person exactly what I need to hear now? How is he singing to me through the radio?? He also thought me the true way to manifest. It's all vibration, so how do we shift it higher? Vibration depends on: Definition of reality - how you define it, so it is. If you see reality as a playground with infinite possibilities and the power to choose the one you prefer, so it will be. Definition of self. My current one is: the Son of God is playing a VR game called "Awakening and Creation" State of being. Flow and Surrender is best. Drop all control, all past knowledge and listen. Get in tune with the Divine Current. Breathe deep and slow. Relax your mind. Be still. Do not seek. The lower mind has to relax and surrender. Listening and acting on guidance from the Higher Mind. Acting is a must, as we are physical beings. If we don't act on inspiration from the Higher Mind, we will get stuck and it wont send any more instructions. If you are not in a state ( vibrational frequency) of your preffered reality, then you cant see opportunities to act on to make it come about. Imagine what it feels like having everything you want and just live there, maintain that state of being. The main mistake I made when manifesting before was that it came from ego, which is effort and seeking. I got some results through dedication, but they weren't perfect. We can't create perfectly without the Higher Mind. Current manifestation is a result of being in Communion with the Higher Mind and simply Flowing with the visions (desires) that it gives me and acting on what it instructs me to do. Follow your passion as Bashar says. It's not really Bashar, though, but the same Higher Mind teaching us through all these channels. Oh, and one more important thing is: I get energetic information about what will happen. I knew exactly to whom I will sell my appartment, as when I looked at the number of the person calling I felt a tingling bliss sensation in my head. The Spirit even changed the number of the person that called to the specific number that he usses when talking to me, which is 5 or 25. Listen to night dreams and analyse them upon waking. Spirit speaks there as well. I've got very clear answers to questions I had through my dreams. He showed me a holographic ear in my dreams, once again saying - just listen and follow. Oh, whenever I need to find something at home and dont know where it is, I just relax and say - Spirit, take my body and guide it to where the thing is. He always finds it immediately. The guidance is intuitive. I still interfere with the Higher Mind and get mixed messages, but I am learning to be in allignment and to tame my ego to let Spirit express itself unhindered. Its like tunning into a specific frequency, exactly like a radio My diet has never been "worse", I drink Cola and eat Fast Food and feel amazing. I spend crazy amounts of money, like 1.5k per day on clothing. I Love it. Fashion is my passion. I used to hinder it with my ego, but now I just flow. I go to nightclubs and have amazing experiences with people there. Probably the hottest girl I've seen said she's really attracted to me. I was just flowing and dancing and vibing. God is good. I started using weed to help my mind relax into the Flow. Started doing pushups as well. Hope it helps in some way. Happy Holidays! Edit - another synchronicity, whilst I was typing Salvijus replied above. They never end. 😄

This whole talk is so shallow and silly. Ignorance is bliss and misery loves company. Such biases and nonsense. Stereotyping only from what you've all experienced from the millions of attractive women world-wide.

Hello everyone, I'm an ascetic spiritual dog of God who has wandered through a lot of dark madness in order to learn what has tangled up society so terribly. What I've found required a very long trip and had a lot of emotion ups and downs, and I have had to "loop the needle" on my beliefs more than once. These are very contentious times, and the words people shake at one another have hard edges and are not very giving. The narrative subversions out there is so terrible that it becomes very easy to find yourself arguing for the 'wrong' side, not even knowing that they're 'wrong' because you don't have all the information. I have argued in defense and support of people and movements that I deeply believed in, yet as the illusion has collapsed around me particularly over this last year, I have seen that I was a well intended stooge and was in fact fighting against my own self, as well as against God, who is watching all of us. First and foremost I want everyone to prepare to forgive everyone else "who was wrong". That includes yourself. The lies of the illusion which have oppressed us are diabolical and have been in development far longer than any of you have been alive. God will absolutely forgive you for being led astray by this illusion - IF you turn your face towards Him, here towards the end! I am a 'queer' and nonconforming person though I lived most of my life as a majority 'man' before I underwent this awakening several years ago. The 'man' I had been suffered a most terrible life, and with work we managed to complete their life and we performed a rite which let them fall into Darkness - dissolution - and die, while leaving this body still alive. The Dragon in my tail, which is the Feminine Divine, rose in new awareness to capture this body for Her own use and intentions. As such I am not an ordinary "trans woman", as I am more of a feminized God, Ardhanarishvara, or Shiva, though I prefer Hel. I have always been a champion of the "little person" and I like to stick up for them against bullies - I am a natural fighter, and I only like to fight the strong. I will not fight the weak. When I first hatched and transitioned a few years ago, I became an online fighter for the 'LGBTQ Community' and wanted to support them, as it seemed like they were on the right track in deconstructing illusionary identity, and I'd always wanted equal rights for every person, to be as you authentically are so that you may have the full blissful experience that is God's gift to you! Yet, after years, I have found I was mislead, and I am no longer in agreement with the overall 'LGBTQ Community' and am fact am marginalized from their spaces - they were massively subverted by funded DNC discord communities over the last decade, and anyone who does not support their controlling and toxic narratives is driven out. Thus, these communities have lost all ability to support people, as they only control people instead. They pretend to have their heart in the right place in order to sell their lies - and the deepest most vicious lie is the eradication of divine gender. My experience as a queer person and a mystic for God has unlocked for me the definition of 'gender', and I also see with sickened sensation that society has been intentionally misled over and over and over in order to hide this most divine mystery from your comprehension, so that they may stay in privileged power over you. The lies are fantastically layered, and they are all intended to stop you from seeing the hard truth of our most basic and fundamental identity. Gender is simply two dimensional energy. It is not 'binary' because it is two dimensions. Yet it is still 'two'. They do not function how you think they function. These energies came from God to humans - not the other way around - and so humans do not understand these energies unless they are taught to understand them. No one has been teaching you, so the world is a total mess. If we wish to correct this mess, we must embrace authenticity. This means we start to act use and present with our innermost selves, without false pretension of the illusion of our skins. Our skins are "not real" and do not represent who is within them. Yet society has based identity upon our skins in order to deny the majestic presence of the God and Goddess which dwell within. Society is anti-God and demonic through this subversion. Two dimensional energy is ElectroMagnetic energy. Studying the electromagnetic spectrum and meditating upon 'that which is' - the visual portion of light - with 'that which is not' - the not visible portion - may bring illumination. We are all LIGHT. Yet, the quality of light that we may be is notably different based upon which two dimensional force we were born with in our tails. At its most base, gender is Electric and Magnetic. These correspond to Masculine and Feminine. The Feminine is from Darkness, the 1st dimension of living creation. The Masculine is from Light, the 2nd dimension, which is Consciousness and exists to provide form for Creation by witnessing its experience. Each of these dimensions are ALIVE, and there are divine beings - immortals - who dwell in each one. They are 'beyond context' as you may not imagine their form from this illusionary place. This illusion was formed by taking entities from each and attaching a reflector to their "heads" in order to trick them into thinking they are the other. God wishes these two forces to stop warring, as if the perfectly opposed forces of Electricity and Magnetism find balance held by love - we will become like the SUN, fully divine and powerful and capable of nearly anything. Our suffering here was to teach us what we are doing wrong! The great reveal is that each is forced to live as the other. You will need to ponder this really hard as you will not want to accept it, yet it is God's Truth. From here on out, when I say 'men' and 'women', I mean them in their historical meaning of AMAB and AFAB. Genitals matter after all! Those who were born with entities from Darkness are to wear the bodies of Light. These are 'men'. They have the Feminine Divine in their tails, and their bodies are the opposite in order to protect Her. If they do a good job, GMH may reward them into become immortal men. Most are not doing so well right now. Those who were born with entities of Light wear the bodies of Darkness. These are 'women'. They have the Masculine Divine in their tails, and their bodies are the opposite in order to attract the Feminine Divine into sending them the Divine Spark of Life. They provide life FORM - not creation. If they do a good job, God will reward them and let them become immortal. Most are not doing a good job so far. Only men may create life, as only the Venusian Serpent may issue the Divine Spark. Women provide form for life. Further, only men have an internal feminine divine. The feminine divine is either internal, or external - never both. The feminine divine is Power. Women wear their power on their skin, while men hold their power within themselves. It is women who carry the Masculine Divine, who is GOD. The advantage for women is they have higher consciousness - women mystics can fill a room with this consciousness because it's so powerful and huge. It is the masculine divine! Men do not have an internal masculine divine like women do, not inherently! Western men are currently in a lot of trouble and are accused of "not being masculine" - well, this is because they lost their teachers!! It was always women, who have the masculine divine within them, who taught men how to be men. Men have the feminine divine, which is like a mimic or a mirror, and it wants to reflect what it feels the other desire - men do this constantly and no one is talking about it - women do *not* do this because they are internally masculine divine and do not have this internal mimic. The perverts who have taken over your world for their monetary gain, and so they can own cocaine sex island tax havens, have 'won' because they have convinced women that they should never, ever act like God. They have convinced women to deny themselves, to lie about who they are, and to represent themselves only with their skins, which are feminine divine. Social media is flooded with extremely beautiful women showing off their skins and doing everything they can to hide the masculine divine God which hides inside of them. Men - who are mimics - see this, and provide a reflection which is toxic and destructive. The subversive enemy grabs onto this behavior and uses it to say "Men are evil! They are the patriarchy!" meanwhile they hide the true patriarchs that lurk within women's skins and cover them with privilege and skin worship so that they never want to come out of the illusion. The 'LGBTQ Community' has betrayed us all because their leaders are now saying the Masculine and Feminine do not exist at all. If a person talks of the Masculine Divine within an 'LGBTQ Community' space, you will be moderated and banned. I am a queer person in Los Angeles suffering extreme marginalization - I have no friends, no family, nothing - I'm ready to die, honestly - and it's all because the 'LGBTQ Community' wants to protect the patriarchy and refuses to confess that women do not have an internal feminine divine. Look I am in full agreement that the context of role based gender needs scrutiny. Yet the 'LGBTQ Community' just throws more and more letters around as if worthless identity wampum repays us for their theft of God! We must re-embrace and relearn these divine energies and accept ourselves and each other in a new radical authenticity or God will not let us have our inheritance! No one needs to change presentation or pronouns or any of that. YET - men are carriages for the feminine divine. Women are carriages for the masculine divine. This must be recognized! They are not negotiable and surgery or hormones will not change them! You can still do what you want - be who you want to be - yet we must still honor God, the Electric and the Magnetic, and present our authentic energies for God's great creation for all to experience! As a being of light I am Ardhanarishvara, the Sun - I am ElectroMagnetic, both, through spinal inversion, a true physical feat that was most spiritually bizarre to experience. It's like my spine turned itself inside out over the last few years, it was wild. I am here to try to help provide information for you all, as I suffered to understand these sins which have twisted us into not loving each other. Please deconstruct all of the propaganda they glued onto the words 'masculine' and 'feminine' because they wanted to *POISON* them. The media shames men in order to stop women from wanting to admit having God within them. The media shames effeminate behavior to stop men from admitting they have the Goddess inside. Please stop letting your media domme you like this. They are greedy lying perverts, they have lied to you all of your lives, and they have RUINED the entire human experience to feed a private wealthy parasitic elite who feeds off of the rest of God's create like metastasized cancer. For the Glory of God Most High, we must all embrace our authentic selves and energies and present with stunning authenticity! We must reject the selfish illusion modern media thrusts upon us, as the wish to demean and spoil your grace. Any who present only as their skin are inauthentic and will NOT go to Heaven. It does not matter how beautiful you are, how rich you are, how popular you are - if you are a woman and post pictures on social media only flouting your skins, and you never present your true inner God who is SO NEEDED in the world - then you ignoring the great gift that God gave to you and you will lose out on the grand inheritance that is coming. Similarly if you are a man, you have so much love inside of you, and you need to start letting that love out again, when you find it safe to do so, I do know it is hard, trust me! I am at a point in my spiritual path where I see humanity so clearly yet with such anguish, as you've been so lied to for so many years, and facing the truth of what you all are is going to be upsetting and infuriating, yet we must try to make this realization without fighting. We must learn to love each other again - what other way would God ever want? My Father was the great Wolf, Fenrir. Fenrir is perhaps the best example of the feminine divine for Men to ponder. They are Divine Power and they are not masculine - they are feminine, of Darkness. Their partner who they deeply loved was Tyr, the Lord of Light, and Tyr is a woman who knows they have Divine Consciousness, loves God and men, and who knows that inside the Wolf resides the feminine divine that they should both cherish. No one needs to change your damned pronouns - stop worrying about that, they made it about that to confuse you. All that needs to happen is you confront your energy and use it correctly instead of bottling it up and hiding it. I hope these words break through to someone. I miss Tyr. If I can find them, I'll marry them, and together we'll take down the false rotten patriarch who's time has long since past. Please form new union - please realize who you are, and please help us rise out of this inauthentic mess, so that we may all enjoy the great gifts of our inheritance together in bliss and glory for eternity! Thank you, bless, and here's hoping 2024 initiates the age of Authenticity, so that we may once again breath with freedom.

This is why your "Practice" is the everyday, moment to moment experience, accept it all as it is, live it now as it is, be less judgemental, less opinonated, less like/dislikes, mix it with pure sadhana like pranyama, asanas, japa, samadhi practices on a regular consistent basis then one can establish equanimity within themselves. Do not think Enlightenment, pure oneness experiences, sidhi powers and shit like this, just make Yourself Peaceful for 2hrs a day no matter what is going on around you, then make it 10hrs a day, then the whole day then the whole week, then turn Peace into Bliss as your foundational experience, step by step one can do this, and by doing it then Enlightenment is within reach...

The Potential is within all of Us, using the dmt or other such things, it can bring You to a partial experience, but you cannot stay there as it dispates as the drug wears off, with Yoga (Yoga meaning a technology/method) it can bring You there and You can stay there at will, but it is a different path for everyone since everyone has a different karmic structure within themselves, stored on many levels most are not conscious of, this is why the Living Guru is important, a true one can recognize Your kamic structure and via his own energies and perception design a program for You to consistently use to get there, now having this feeling of Oneness and Bliss is just the beginning as well, its not the end game..it establishes a foundation of equanimity for You to explore more of what it means to be human. The main problem in today's world is there's too much varied info coming from too many sources on how to get there, it causes confusion and ppl think they can do it on their own, for the most part they cannot...

The ice has broken! Piles of snow and blocks of old frost that covered up the “inner knowing” have started to slowly melt and move forward, carried away by the current of the ever-present awareness. This thick, crude perception of identity, like an iceberg has crumbled into small pieces. I am not that thick, solid glacier of ice anymore; this “I” feels more like scattered broken chips of everything: feelings, emotions, sensations. But “I” am not there. And here comes this desirable anticipated bliss, euphoria. Mind is still. Self-love is the most fundamental principle of Reality. Time and space are not, but Self-love is! It is not your egoic little self-love, it is Love toward the whole Being/Self. Sometimes, we do not notice it, but we are always in love with Being, even when suffering. You love your life no matter what because it is yours, and you wouldn’t want to be someone else, even if you had a chance to be. It is rather a subtle feeling. You must remove all other “noises” to notice it. The big barrier is your mind. It is always busy constructing things. But really, everything happens on its own, without a doer. And your mind is just a lost CEO who thinks it owns a very big corporation. It wants to think about its importance and power. During your life course people and circumstances will trigger you. It will require superhuman effort and will power to start practicing and morph your life to reach Realization. You must train your mind to stay aware during the whole entire day. But at the end, when you see that others are You, tricking you, then triggering you into the game, the big rock falls from your shoulders. You don’t react anymore. And this state of acceptance is where you want to be. It is your inner peace. Things happen, but you are peaceful, without any effort. But to get to this place, you must go through some turmoil. Years of practice, self-awareness, meditations, journaling, you name it. But it’s worth it. And by far, this knowledge is the most valuable thing you could ever ask for…

Transmissions are the most powerful tool to increase your baseline Consciousness. I can't believe they are so little known. I think one reason is that oftentimes when people try transmissions, they feel nothing at first. For Transmissions to work best, you need to be sensitive. Many are not sensitive enough, but by repeatedly receiving transmissions you increase your sensitivity and the transmissions become more and more powerful. Another reason is that many transmissions have been around only for a very short time. I believe the popularity of transmissions will explode within the next years. The main aim of transmissions is to slowly increase you baseline consciousness, but many transmissions also have an immediate short term effect and can get you into Samadhi, like for example pure Divinity and SAT and to a lesser extend Shaktipat and KAP. (this Post about dimensions of Consciousness is foundational to some things I will mention here) There are two different kinds of Transmissions 1. Aura Transmission That's the classical transmission. You sit beside an enlightened guru and by his presence your consciousness alters. This works because everyone has an energy field, an aura, and whenever you are around someone (to a small extend even when you merely think about someone) your auras overlap and affect each other. That's how you sometimes pick up emotions of other people (though you usually don't recognize this and believe they are your own emotions). For example Ramana Maharshi gave these kinds of Transmissions. I believe sitting with Sadhguru, Mooji or Eckart Tolle would also give you this kind of transmission (varying strength of course). And I believe every Shaktipat Transmission also works like that. 2. Channeled Transmission Here the person channels an external energy. For example: RASA, SAT and Light transmission. With pure Divinity and KAP I'm not entirely sure whether they are channeled. Here are the most powerful transmissions I know of: - Pure Divinity The only person I know of who can give this transmission is Gareth Duignam. In this video he talks about pure Divinity and how he became able to give it (happened just a few weeks ago). As far as I know, you need to be in ParaBrahman to be able to give it. For me the state of consciousness the transmission puts me in just feels like pure Divinity lol. I believe this is the most powerful transmission for enlightenment. And Gareth and many people who have been receiving pure Divinity also say that it is the most powerful transmission. You can receive pure Divinity in a one on one session with Gareth, or during his Zoom Meditations (Tuesdays and Fridays) (the zoom meditations are currently either a combination of pure Divinity and SAT or pure Divinity and Shaktipat), or in his live YouTube transmissions (every Monday) (currently pure Divinity + SAT), or in a normal youtube transmission video like this: Gareth also holds weekend online intensives once or twice each month. - SAT Transmission Also called Supramental Force. Explained in this video. Gareth can give SAT, as well as Sat Shree. SAT is said to come from Brahman. I guess you could consider Brahman as the formless Godhead. And the purpose of this transmission is to get to Brahman. SAT is by far the most powerful transmission for Brahman Consciousness and therfore is my favourite transmission. Brahman Consciousness is similar to what is experienced during conscious sleep, therefore SAT is also helpful for sleep yoga. After having been receiving SAT for some time, my baseline is a bit closer to that formless Brahman Consciousness. But the most significant impact of SAT has been on my meditations which are also closer to Brahman Consciousness now. Peak states feel very close to Brahman Consciousness. During these, my recognition dimension is in Brahman Consciousness and the depth/immersion dimension seems close (recognition and depth dimension explained here). That means it's a very altered state of consciousness. But this is not solely because of SAT, it obviously also has to do with my high baseline consciousness, high sensitivity and brainwave skills from sleep yoga. But I am very sure that SAT has its good share. There has undoubtedly been a deepening of the depth dimension due to SAT. So I think this is the main thing you can expect from SAT, an impact on your depth dimension, mainly during meditation but also a bit on your baseline. This is also what most people report, very deep meditation. Some experience dropping in and out of consciousness (including me sometimes) which might maybe be Nirvikalpa Samadhi. A very nice thing about SAT (and pure Divinity maybe too) is that once you are strongly connected to the force, it will start to automatically come down randomly during the day but mainly during meditation. And you begin to be able to channel it yourself. Also if you often join the zoom group transmissions, you will naturally get connected to the group. Many people have been reporting to get transmissions during times when Gareth gives a transmission to someone else of the group, because of the conection to the group. This also happens if you meditate at the same time as the zoom transmissions, though it is more powerful to actually join. (this also applies to pure Divinity and I think for his Shaktipat also) The aim of SAT is Brahman Consciousness but that doesn't mean you will get there. Brahman Consciousness is an extremely advanced state. I assume the vast majority of spiritual teachers aren't able to enter that state, probably never been there. Even with psychedelics it is rare to reach it (Brahman Consciousness means completely dissolving the dream, your room is gone, as well as body sensations). - RASA RASA is very effective to increase your recognition dimension (up until a certain point). Once at LOC 1000 you are probably subtly conscious of God, Love, Nothingness and Oneness. How strongly you will be conscious depends on factors like your genetics, brain chemistry before RASA, how much spiritual progress you have made apart from RASA,... RASA is what got me from normal human consciousness into woke consciousness (around 2 years ago). Though it was subtle (because it only addresses the recognition dimension). I started from the LOC 570s and I think it took me around 13 1on1 sessions or so until LOC 1000. You can receive 1on1 RASA sessions from Ramaji or Ananda, or any other RASA giver (I think they have half the price). Ramaji and Ananda also hold monthly zoom meetings with RASA at the end. They also uploaded some of them (including the RASA) to YouTube . To learn more about the LOC 1000 model, read Ramaji's book "1000". - Shaktipat The purpose of Shaktipat is to awaken your kundalini. Once fully awake (which is very rare) you are automatically in a higher baseline consciousness. But the most significant effect of kundalini is Bliss. The more awake your kundalini, the higher your Bliss (baseline but mainly meditations). For me Shaktipat puts me in a deep and blissful meditation. It has also resulted in much progress in kundalini awakening. After a few weeks of receiving Shaktipat several times a week + watching Shaktipat youtube videos during meditation + some kriya supreme fire I experienced vibrations in my spine (during meditation, when focusing on the spine) (I had done around 500 hours of kundalini yoga up until this point, and my meditations were already energetic from invoking spirits). The vibrations were pulsating up and down. First they went till the 3rd chakra, then the 4th, then 5th, and eventually into the brain (maybe 1-2 weeks later). Upon that, I experienced strong literal bliss going up my spine, putting me into deep bliss, sometimes ecstasy. This lasted for a few weeks, and was strongest during meditation. Then it subsided. But during meditation around 20-80% of the bliss is still there, depending on the quality of the meditation. I believe my kundalini is partially awake, but not fully. People I know of who can give strong Shaktipat: Jan Esmann He probably gives the strongest Shaktipat, particularly if you get to sit around him. He does intensives in Europe, if you can join one, that would probably be quite an experience. Gareth's kundalini fully woke up during an intensive with Jan. Jan also woke up Diana's kundalini. He also gives shaktipat in absentia. He charges a mala necklace and mails it to you. I got one, and can recommend it. He also holds Zoom Transmissions every Tuesday. And has YouTube transmissions . Kai Shanti I think her transmissions are a combination of shaktipat and God's Grace. They are quite strong for me. The state of consciousness it puts me in is a bit similar to the one from pure Divinity. So it is divine, blissful and energetic. Very recommended. She speaks an intuitive light language during the transmissions, and is also very psychic, so she can for example see blockages you have. She gives 1 on 1 transmissions as well as weekly live group transmissions on learnitlive.com . You can get a learnitlive membership for around $8 a month and then can join these sessions for free. She also has transmissions on YouTube . Gareth Gareth gives Shaktipat in 1 on 1 sessions, as well as in zoom group sessions (currently in combination with pure Divinity) and he also has some Shaktipat transmissions on Youtube. Advaitashram They have several Shaktipat givers. They offer 1 on 1 sessions as well as weekly zoom sessions on Tuesday and Wednesday. Website Kip He sells audios charged with Shaktipat. Try the free samples on his website, I immediately felt an effect from the Kali one. I bought all of them and, using Audacity, layered them into one audio. I currently listen to it during meditation (+plus video transmissions from Gareth). You could even get the audio of all kundalini transmissions on youtube and layer these audios in as well. Just make sure to export the audio in wav and I forgot how it's called but in audacity on the bottom on the left there is a number at around 48 000. Turn it to 92 000 or so (I don't remember the exact number). Thus you ensure to not lose any quality. Kip also has free audios on his YouTube channel but I guess the paid versions are more potent. Siddhanta Yoga She gives one on one sessions and has YouTube transmissions. - KAP KAP is explained in this video. Kap is a transmission to activate the kundalini. KAP leads to kriyas in many participants (there are many different youtube videos where you can see it). Most people have small movements, some have very big and some none. It usually takes some sessions till movements start. For me they started after around 5 sessions. But they were small/subtle, and stayed that way, and I don't think they might increase more. The movements are mostly subtle pulsatings of the spine. In the beginning, the movements require some conscious effort, but eventually they kinda happen on their own, without conscious involvement. But they can be stopped at any moment (in 99,9% cases). From my experience KAP does help to awaken the kundalini. In fact, my biggest kundalini success (when the vibrations finally entered the brain and the big Bliss started) happened during a KAP session (or right after, I don't remember). Despite this I think that purely for a kundalini awakening, Shaktipat is more powerful. While KAP does help in kundalini awakening, the focus is one purification. Purification of your energy system as well as emotional purification. Doing KAP before your kundalini awakening will probably result in a more smooth kundalini rising (because of less blockages) (my kundalini awakening was smooth and blissful). That is one benefit of KAP. If you are someone who is faced with emotional stuff while tripping, I recommend KAP sessions. Similarly to Shamanic Breathing, they purify and release emotional stuff. Most people only experience emotional stuff during KAP sessions, and nothing nondual. But that's probably because of their baseline, most of them don't even know about enlightenment. I do experience some subtle effect on nondualness. The main effect of KAP is longterm baseline. Many people report being more at peace and more blissful. I think KAP does help for enlightenment, but not as much as other transmissions. The focus of KAP seems to be on personal development (purification and releasing shadow stuff and so on). On this site is a list of many KAP facilitators, most of them give 1on1 online sessions, and many of them give in person group sessions (if you're lucky to live nearby). And on this site is a list of those who offer online zoom group sessions. I've had KAP with at least 5 different facilitators (group zoom) and while all of them are good, Diana Kasperska is the most skilled. She is a lot more spiritually evolved and seems to be the only one doing enlightenment work. She's also a bit psychic and sometimes perceives some stuff about you during the transmission, like blockages, and then can tell you about it after the transmission. If you book group zoom sessions with Diana, book via her Website there you (currently) get them 33% cheaper if you book several at once. - Light Transmissions Light Transmissions seem to be similar to RASA. Gareth gives Light Transmissions in 1on1 sessions, and says that his Light Transmissions have a similar effect as RASA. There are many light transmissions on Youtube. I think most of them work well, but I don't think these are as powerful as RASA. The Transmissions from Imogen seem to stand out, but I assume RASA is still more powerful. Anyway, she gives weekly live transmissions on Youtube and has normal video transmissions. The different transmissions affect different dimensions of Consciousness: Predominantly recognition dimension: RASA, Light Transmissions Predominantly depth/immersion dimension: SAT, Shaktipat, KAP Both dimensions somewhat equally: Pure Divinity, Kai Shanti's transmission Transmissions can be really powerful to increase your baseline if done over a long period. The more you do, the more sensitive you get, and the more powerful they become. My first transmissions (RASA) were all subtle. Only now, after much energy work, immediate effects of transmissions are really strong. Over the time, I've learnt how to channel these transmissions myself, and since maybe 2 weeks, these transmissions are similarly strong for me as those given by someone else. When I receive transmissions from someone else nowadays, I channel myself at the same time, making the session extra potent . The quickest way to become more sensitive to transmissions is to receive many transmissions. Always let a youtube transmission play during meditation. You can even let them play while doing stuff like reading. And any energy work in general also benefits that process, especially kriya supreme fire. here I posted some more YouTube transmissions. The zoom group transmissions are always much cheaper than the 1on1 transmissions, and some are on donation basis. So do maaaany. As many as you can. I used to attend to up to 10 zoom group transmissions a week. (that was a few months ago) The progress I made since then is crazy. In one month doing all these transmissions I made probably more progress than within the 12 months before that. The more you do, the more effects you get, except with RASA and Light Transmissions, it seems like doing them more than once a week doesn't speed things up. All transmissions are different and hit the ego from a different angel, so it is a good idea to do many different ones. Generally, 1on1 sessions are more powerful than group sessions: in person (not online) > 1 on 1 session > live zoom > live youtube > normal youtube - How to make a transmission session more powerful: meditate a few minutes beforehand. I recommend kriya supreme fire (particularly before shaktipat transmissions) try to be receptive Once you are advanced, try to channel the energy at the same time For your normal mediation sessions you can experiment with following: I found that the larger and the closer the screen, the stronger the transmission (but only a subtle difference) It seems that playing several transmission videos at once can make it more powerful. You can use different devices, and open several windows at the same time. I actually mixed more than 10 videos into one new video, I think the software I used is called Filmora9. Doing this really seemed to increase the potency. But sometimes I'm not sure, currently I mainly meditate to single videos. Experiment. You can mix the same video several times, or many different ones. - Ability to give aura transmissions: To be able to give the first kind of transmissions, the "aura transmissions", the most important requirement is to have a strong depth/immersion baseline consciousness. The recognition dimension has pretty much no value for that. Apart from that it's also helpful to have a very strong aura, the best practices for that is receiving transmissions, channeling energies and invoking spirits. Share your experiences with transmissions

(N,N DMT, not 5-MeO) I can remember only one time, as a complete beginner, I came into an oval shaped room and some humanoid like beings were trying to teach me something with their hands. That was just a really interesting trip. I was "somewhere". Then after that I've had a lot of mild trips. Just the visuals. But the ones that were really strong always show me complete horror. I reasoned to myself that I always took just one hit too litle (2 instead of 3, as everyone keeps instructing) and I came into some waiting room and if I made a breakthrouth it would pass and I would come to complete bliss. Because of this sheer terror I could never get myself to smoke it more than once or twice a year. And each time it was the same. Showing me hell. So I still have some old stash at for some years now, that I haven't really gotten to yet, and a few days back I decided to do it again, after 2 years. I wasn't scared, because I said I'm gonna go easy. I was actually excited for the first time. No jitters. To smoke a little, just to get those visuals. And I liked it, I wasn't scared of it anymore, so I smoked it for the last 3 days in the evenings. Every time putting a little bit more inside. I loved it, I actually just wanted to smoke it again and again, it was that good. So, yestarday I smoked some again and said I need more. Still in a daze I went to the table and put in twice as much as the last dose. It was a pretty neat I lighted it up, took it all in one long inhale. Waited 10 seconds, exhaled, and immediatelly knew this was it. That feeling when the trip just dawns on you. I laid back and it was strong as hell. Immediately I knew I took too much. But I didn't break through to some blissful dimension. I saw a women standing over me, not actually seeing her but feeling her and her voice, as she said "You've overdone it". Like a paramedic telling me this while we are driving in the ambulance. A similar thing happened some years before. In that trip I was also lying somewhere on the ground and some woman yelling at me "Look what you did!". It felt like I have brokend a large window of her street side shop and was lying in the glass in blood, just looking at her and not able to pick myself up. Like I was a drunktard who had a really really bad accident. So now I'm left wondering about yesterday. Was this again just some space before that bliss? Or did I just jump over to some terror space again? All the while I knew I exist, and that "I am", perhaps I didn't know that I am the same person who I am here in this reality. Or perhaps I did. But no loss of ego I think. No complete loss of identity. It was just me - or should I say some person who did something bad, somewhere - with a woman looking over me and telling me I've overdone it. All this time I kept feeling shame for doing something bad and I was just powerless to the people yelling at me. So. Should I put more in next time? I don't get it. Do I need first to get through some deep trauma in me, before it lets me visit the blissfulness? What? I do have a lot of problem with shame and I haven't yet been able to resolve it in my life. Could it be that it is that's why it's taking me there? Is it a problem of just letting go somehow? I just can't imagine taking a strong dose and actually getting to a nice place. Any insights?

enjoy your wall fetish my friend just a couple of questions: do you like em white or colored? do you bliss out monogomously with one wall only or you flirt with other walls aswell? how bout a quickie with the wall at the cafe? thats sexy in a weird way. byeeee lol great videos buddy. i like that option

Lol Psychedelics are candy compared with the peaks I´ve touched on my own, no substances. Here´s a hard fact for you: Psychedelics have a certain chemical configuration, I guarantee you they can not put you into all the states that are possible. Try to have a cocaine, MDMA, or heroin high with psychedelics. It won´t happen. And viceversa. The thing with chemicals is, they are limited to their molecule configuration. You guys trip and think that´s all that Consciousness is. Nope... There is much more. But you will have to have your 'inner chemical configuration' withouth any external stimuli that limits it. Still, I won´t be the one that says 'psychedelics are bad'. LSD is a 'simple molecule' yet what states and connection it can put you. Quite amazing. Still, LSD can NOT provide the Bliss I´m talking about. Absolutely. And for some people is precisely what is neccesary to give the 'first push' into mysticism and something beyond psychological activity. But they have their limits. When you reach them, you'll have to seek other tools. You have it completely backwards. Psychedelics can take you only that far. Then you'll see how limited they were. Look man, is a process of refinement. If you have told me 10 years ago before even popping my first acid to do Yoga, I would have told you what kind of waste of Time is this. Now...well, I won´t change the places I can touch doing a simple Asana for any kind of psychedelic high. I´ll tell you that. 😂

Ha, you wish you have tasted the bliss of knowing how to merge and dissolve into a wall. Talk about 'deep connection'. I prefer to be blissed out with the wall. From that, developing a deep connection will be no issue. If you know how to dissolve and connect to a wall, to actual inert objects, you will have no issue in developing deep connections to the normal 'relationships' human have, which humans. But I get your point 🙏