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Hello everyone, my enlightenment experience is settle down now. I have transformed. Here are details. James, enlightenment, universe, world vs, these are all words. Words, thoughts and meanings created so called duality, which is james and his world. When you have complete ego death, you realize that meaning of the words fades away and you see the truth. Truth is non duality, this place is you, nothing, there is no life, death or language. Right now you are happening, which is nothing. You have no body, it is just a word. You are not going anywhere, because you have never started. I have never born, james was just a thought as apple. Transformation; after heavily experiencing non duality, understanding (james and world exist just by sounds and words), truth me is nothing (thats why as an human you can reach non duality without thinking), every particle is that has shaped is nothing, which is me thats why i am infinite. My new personality is nothing, therefore it is completely letting go, i have become the whole and seeing the whole, language or thoughts represent duality. Thoughts (which are me) rises, i analyze, decide and let go, thoughts are useful to connect to duality. Additionally, every feeling arises or thoughts arises from nothing(silent mind). Such as, pain is a type of feeling, if you dont name it as a pain, there will be just feeling, if you dont name as feeling, it will be just appear from silent mind as nothing. Death is the same way, if you have silent mind (nothingness), death will appear as nothing. Therefore because of not thinking , i am immortal. I am nothing and experiencing myself. So, i cant run away from myself. I am the dreamer of james, world, duality, language, and you guys. I have almost become witnesser of the body, thats why whatever body does i am relax because nothing personal, destiny is already written, you are not in the body, you cant control it, just let go and enjoy the show. No thoughts gave me perfect understanding that when i dont think nothing is happening, which is enlightenment. Because most important thing is there is no “I” in the body, new “I” is nothingness, therefore i cant think thats my nature. Additionally, it is being so flexible during the day and that flexibility makes you create love in every moment. Because you are like a water and looking for love kind of high by love:) I have been meditating 3-4 hours every night. I have realized that any emotion, thoughts and visuals ( comes as emotion or feeling) comes from nothingness, if you dont name them, it will just appear and disappear as nothing. You are the silence mind, Therefore, i dont get disturb anymore. Additionally, I feel so much silence during the day, however when i interact with people, knowing that my body has no differences than yours ( i am the giant mind), i have become more humble lovely and understandable person when interact with others. Rest, i am with myself. But definitely, my life career, everything has entirely changed. I will help people (specially poor kids), old people and move back to my country and take care of my family (most of my family is old, and needs me, and they are me). Because i am literally nothing in the body. I am literally in dream and knowing that i am the dreamer. I look at people’s face there is no mind, it is empty, including my body so funny but it is directly love, i cant see almost any misbehavior. Because there is nothing there except the reflection of love. But truth is even now nothing is happening, i am writing these messages to myself for self masturbation. I have no body, family friends vs. it i just all me. Thats why i am more fair to everybody. if i am still dreaming and aware of you guys, i would love to share my experience because i am still dreaming and you guys are me. I am love, because love is the best illusion of any duality. Love is the purpose of all creations and dualities. Thats why if every moment if you are in love, life is heaven for you. So i am in love with myself. No matter what just LOVE IT, LOVE YOURSELF. Purpose of dreaming is LOVING YOURSELF. Every second if you dont love (which is surrendering and letting go), it is hell. I am nothing, therefore all of you, love in with myself therefore love in with all of you. Additionally, so called life starts with knowing (you born, yo can know vs) and ends with unkowing or not knowing There is no you, you cant know or thing anything, you are nothing. thats why this is after death because you have never born Love you guys! Best Regards!

@integral I don't understand what you're talking about at times. How do you know what applies and what doesn't to me? Just by the fact you stop resisting your experience, this reduces the energy you spend everyday and makes you need less sleep. When you are super motivated to accomplish stuff you also tend to sleep less. People who want to escape life sleep the most. I do not feel any negatives whatsoever and it's been like close to 3 weeks now. I feel super energized and calm at the same time. And with the 3 hours of sleep i feel very good too. There is a lot we don't know about sleep. The 1st 3 hours of sleep are the most important to your body. If your body feels its time to cut sleep it will cut the latter part for some higher purpose (like surviving a challenging transformation). Eventually my body will start sleeping more when it adjusts to the stresses of the new challenges i am currently facing.

Centering prayer, as taught by Thomas Keating and the organization he founded, Contemplative Outreach, is a very simple yet profound contemplative practice that orients you on the path toward transformation in Christ. The basic guidelines are: 1. Choose a sacred word as the symbol of your intention to consent to God’s presence and action within. 2. Sitting comfortably and with eyes closed, settle briefly and silently introduce the sacred word as the symbol of your consent to God’s presence and action within. 3. When engaged with your thoughts (which include body sensations, feelings, images, and reflections), return ever so gently to the sacred word. 4. At the end of the prayer period, remain in silence with eyes closed for a couple of minutes. ------ In my opinion, this can also be seen as a type of non directive meditation. Also, you can use the breath, or an image instead of the sacred word too, i,e. sacred breath, or sacred image. A good book on this type of prayer/ meditation seems to be: 'The path of centering prayer: deepening your experience of god', by David Frenette

Ok so almost at the end of life purpose course. And I want to transform my life in 90 days. I am having an accountability problem in my life. I want to do some consciousness and healing work daily. Here is the work I want to do: 1) Morning exercise. 2) Kriya yoga 3) Visualization 4) Life purpose 5 min affirmations and contemplation. 5) iOS app development 4 hrs 6) Reading books 1 hr 7) Shamanic breathing/ Healing work -> 1 hour 8) No unwanted TV/ Youtube (My biggest time waster.) Porn and TV/ Youtube/Movies are my biggest time waster. I want to quit TV, that is my next priority. Except for the videos uploaded by Leo I won't be watching any video's expect for those that are related to iOS app development. I will post regularly in this forum and request the viewer of this post to keep me accountable.

Btw if you were to put your awareness on that saddness and hold it, abide in it. The alchemy of transformation and healing would begin to take place. Sadness would get replaced by Light on its own. And then the next layer would pop up eventually. That's your starway to heaven.

Journal Entry: Embracing Stoicism Today, I embarked on a journey of self-discovery, guided by the principles of Stoicism. As I delve deeper into this ancient philosophy, I find myself drawn to its teachings and the wisdom it imparts. Stoicism encourages me to live a life of tranquility and contentment, irrespective of the challenges and uncertainties that may come my way. One of the core tenets of Stoicism is the acceptance of things beyond our control. This powerful realization has begun to reshape my perspective on life. Instead of becoming overwhelmed by circumstances that are outside my influence, I've learned to focus my energy on the aspects I can control: my thoughts, actions, and attitudes. By embracing this mindset, I am liberated from the chains of anxiety and frustration, and I gain a newfound sense of peace. In practicing Stoicism, I have come to appreciate the importance of developing a strong inner resilience. It teaches me that external events hold no power over my emotions unless I allow them to. By cultivating a disciplined and mindful approach, I have started to detach myself from the fleeting highs and lows of life, finding solace in the stability of my own character. Another principle that resonates deeply with me is the concept of amor fati, the love of fate. This notion encourages me to embrace every experience that comes my way, be it joyful or sorrowful, as an opportunity for growth and self-improvement. Rather than dwelling on what might have been or clinging to regret, I am learning to view adversity as a catalyst for personal transformation. Stoicism teaches me to find beauty in the very things that challenge me, and by doing so, I gain a greater appreciation for the richness of life. Moreover, Stoicism reminds me of the impermanence of all things. By acknowledging the transient nature of life, I am motivated to cherish the present moment and make the most of every opportunity. It prompts me to prioritize what truly matters, to nurture meaningful relationships, and to pursue virtues such as kindness, courage, and wisdom. Through my exploration of Stoicism, I have come to realize that it is not a rigid doctrine but a flexible framework that can be adapted to my own life. It is a guide that empowers me to shape my thoughts, actions, and reactions in a way that aligns with my values and aspirations. By internalizing the principles of Stoicism, I strive to become the best version of myself, embracing the challenges and uncertainties with a calm and steadfast demeanor. As I conclude this journal entry, I feel a profound sense of gratitude for discovering Stoicism and the impact it has had on my life. This journey of self-discovery and embracing stoicism is an ongoing process, but I am committed to continuing my practice and deepening my understanding of this philosophy. With each passing day, I grow more resilient, grounded, and at peace. Stoicism is not just a philosophy to me—it is a way of life that guides me towards wisdom, inner strength, and true fulfillment. May I find the strength to continue on this path and may the teachings of Stoicism illuminate my journey.

@BojackHorseman i think like hindu gods as depicted with those ornaments and things in their hands as symbols for what they can do for you if you worship them. Or they symbolize what the god does. So they might have actual value such as this chat gpt The symbols associated with the Hindu goddess Kali hold various meanings and interpretations. Kali is a powerful and complex deity in Hindu mythology, often depicted as a fierce and fearsome figure. Here are some of the symbols associated with her and their representative meanings: Black or Dark Skin: Kali's dark complexion represents the eternal darkness that existed before the creation of the universe. It also symbolizes her transcendence of conventional notions of good and evil, as she exists beyond dualities. Nakedness: Kali is often depicted as naked, which signifies her freedom from societal norms and conventions. It represents her raw and uninhibited power. Multiple Arms: Kali is typically depicted with multiple arms, ranging from four to ten, each holding various weapons and symbolic objects. These arms symbolize her immense power and ability to multitask. They also suggest her ability to protect and bless her devotees. Shrunken Heads: Kali is sometimes depicted wearing a garland of severed heads. These heads symbolize the ego, which she has conquered and transcended. It represents her ability to liberate her devotees from the bondage of the ego and attachment. Tongue: Kali is often depicted with her tongue sticking out. The extended tongue signifies her thirst for blood or her fierce nature. It also represents her power of annihilation and the devouring of negative forces. Sword and Trishula: Kali wields a sword and a trishula (trident). The sword represents knowledge and the cutting of ignorance. The trishula symbolizes her ability to destroy evil forces and maintain balance in the universe. Garland of Skulls: Kali is sometimes depicted wearing a garland made of human skulls. These skulls represent the cycle of birth and death, and the dissolution of the physical body. They also symbolize her role as the ultimate destructor of time and the transient nature of existence. Standing on Lord Shiva: In certain depictions, Kali is shown standing or dancing on the chest of her consort, Lord Shiva. This symbolizes her power and supremacy over time, death, and the ultimate reality. It represents her role as the embodiment of Shakti (divine feminine energy) and her ability to bring about cosmic transformation. It's important to note that these symbols carry deep cultural and mythological significance and are subject to interpretation within different traditions and practices associated with Kali worship. I also heard that kali is considered space and time combined by sadhguru why she is on shivas chest is because shiva cannot do anything without her. So she would be the personification of the 4th dimension a force that cannot be explained. Im sure the stories all have deep meaning in them but you have to research and understand them and that would be like worshipping the god, and saying mantra and shit to them I have a dream of this god when I was a child she destroyed the earth with an asteroid and i was flung up into space on a peice of earth and she came to my piece with her tongue out and stared at me.

Hyper idealistic solipsism is wrong. This is the main theme of this post. Before we get to that, I see some people on the forum getting surprised or confused about leo's recent remarks on Aliens consciousnesess. Him 'opening a portal inside his skull to a colorful Infinite Cartoon landscape full of striped and polka-dotted sentient Alien creatures doing cartwheeels, backflips, and helicoptering around.' then claming 'I have Awoken to an Infinite dreamscape of pure fun and Love!' This is nothing to be surprised about. Leo already made clear his 'complete awakening' is subscribing to the notion of 'mind only' sect of non duality. His psychedelic sessions make one thing clear: Non duality. But what it confused him is that 'MY mind is the only thing I can be sure of and reality is ONLY composed of the concoction of my mind. The figments of imagination are all there is and the same is true for every other imaginary human mind. There is no 'ultimate reality' DIFFERENT from what I see, observe, touch, feel, generate in my experience' See, all of this hyper idealistic solipsism arises out of the mistaken assumption he made at the start of his psychedelic explorations years ago. 'Nothing exists but MY mind' - He makes it sure that there is no ultimate reality OUTSIDE of 'my mind' and everyone is responsible for 'their' minds. You guys are 'stuck in yout own dreams' while 'I' have broken through alien levels of awakening AND no human on this earth could ever possibly conceive of. I guess not even when said people spend 20 years using 10x more 5 Meo Dmts Leo does. He must have this 'special' intuition skills very few people on this earth is even capable of. This is the current paradigm and worldview of Leo in the way that I can see and understand.Feel free to make it more accurate. I do know what he is talking about tho as someone who has ACTUAL meditation skills and has had many experiences with different psychedelics. --- The fact of the matter is actually even more profound than what Leo make it sound like. There is an ultimate reality BEYOND your human consciousness can EVER comprehend. I'm not talking about 'using psychedelics and attaining transhuman levels of understanding' like Leo. All the alien and mickey mouse and portal into my head sorta experiences are concoctions of your brain and mind. Just like this mainstream everyday reality of chairs and tables and couches are concoctions of one's mind as well. YOU CAN'T EXPERIENCE AND DIRECTLY COMPREHEND THE ULTIMATE REALITY (which is NOT only your personal solipsistic concoction) WITH YOUR EXISTING BRAIN AND PSYCHEDELICS AND MEDITATION TECHNIQUES. Full stop. Ever. What we do as spiritual practitioners with our psychedelics, meditations and whatnot is to get INSIGHTS and understandings INDIRECTLY (via inference and demolisihing of our mind created illusions) to get the MOST accurate and closest approximation to what Ultimate reality is like. Of course, Leo would object here and say 'There is no ultimate reality 'outside' of your personal mind' Of course, he would. But the problem is that just because you CAN'T access any reality DIRECTLY, DOESNT mean that that reality outside of your 'personal' mind and conscious experiences DOESNT exist. Leo's positions is akin to how someone would say 'This Eros planet doesnt exist. We can observe this earth, moon, venus etc but this eros planet you are talking about is a complete fiction of your mind. Why do you assume this Eros planet's existece. I don't observe such planet via telescopes' Well just because you 'dont observe' it doesnt mean it doesnt exist. We don't make an 'assumption' of an ultimate reality beyond our personal 'mind', Spiritual insights of emptiness, no self, impermanence and nothingness PROVIDES said inference necessary to know with absolute certainty that the reality that 'YOUR' personal mind is an absolute illusion and is your brain's 'best guess' at what this ultimate reality (which impinges on your mind and your mind is an intimately part of) might actually be like. But it is a complete farce. Your alien awakenings, mickey mouses and portals in to your head are fun little creations of your personal mind. But NOT what is ultimately true. Actually your human brain and your psychedelics CANT hope to directly perceive ultimate reality and 'Truth' Due to your strongly entrenched solipsistic way of perceiving reality, it will be challenging to accept what you value as 'complete awakening of aliens' is actually nonsensical but I do understand why you feel that way if you have such a solipsistic tendency within 'mind only' school of non duality. ---- You need to make actual arguments as to WHY for instance if a car (which is construct of your personal mind, right?) hits you with and your body flies away to god knows where. Or how you can't walk though walls. Those set of rules of consistency is NOT just how this 'dream' operates. It is a set of rules THAT IMPINGES on your personal mind and body. Those limitations are hard wired VIA the ultimate reality which is outside of your mind. If you assert no such limitations actually exists and you simply need to be 'more awake' to control the gravity and 'walking through walls' and whatnot, feel free to spend the rest of your life consuming 10.000 psychedelics in the hopes of actually making these work. You'll fail miserably and come to know the limitations of your mind only sect of non duality. --- Anyways, I can continue on but this is, in my opinion, where Leo is going the wrong path. There is no particular reason to be surprised or shocked as the signals of such a transformation to alien awakening and portals into my mind and 'I'm the most awakened being' on this planet were there prior to this transformation. Feel free to provide your arguments but this is not a criticism post actually. I just wanted to share how I view things. Much love,

Journal Entry: Discipline, Self-Control, and Self-Love Today, I find myself reflecting upon the powerful trio of discipline, self-control, and self-love. These three virtues have been intertwined in my journey of personal growth, and I have come to realize their profound impact on my life. Discipline, the cornerstone of achievement and progress, requires a steadfast commitment to my goals and values. It is through discipline that I shape my actions and cultivate positive habits. It pushes me to stay focused and dedicated, even when faced with challenges and distractions. Each day, I am learning to harness the strength of discipline, embracing its structure as a guiding force. Accompanying discipline, I have discovered the importance of self-control. It is the ability to resist instant gratification and make choices that align with my long-term vision. Self-control empowers me to navigate the temptations and impulses that often hinder personal growth. Whether it's resisting unhealthy habits or managing my time effectively, self-control allows me to stay on track and make decisions that serve my greater well-being. Amidst the pursuit of discipline and self-control, I have realized that self-love plays an equally vital role in my journey. It is the foundation upon which all my actions and intentions are built. Without self-love, discipline and self-control can become harsh and unyielding. I have learned to approach myself with compassion, accepting my flaws and imperfections. Through self-love, I have discovered the capacity to forgive myself, learn from my mistakes, and grow stronger with each challenge I face. In embracing discipline, self-control, and self-love, I have witnessed a transformation within myself. I have learned to set realistic goals and break them down into manageable steps. Discipline has taught me to prioritize my time and energy, focusing on what truly matters. Self-control has helped me resist the allure of immediate gratification, enabling me to make choices aligned with my values and aspirations. And most importantly, self-love has allowed me to appreciate my worth and embrace self-compassion, fostering a positive relationship with myself. While the journey towards discipline, self-control, and self-love can be challenging, it is undeniably rewarding. Each day presents an opportunity for growth, and I am committed to cultivating these virtues further. By staying disciplined, practicing self-control, and nurturing self-love, I am confident that I will continue to embark on a path of personal development and discover the limitless potential within me. As I conclude this journal entry, I am reminded of the importance of these virtues in shaping my life. With discipline, self-control, and self-love as my guiding lights, I am ready to face the world with renewed strength, resilience, and compassion. Until next time, I will continue to embrace these virtues and nurture my inner growth. With gratitude and determination

I feel no inspiration to get out of my bed, I feel it’s hard for me to trust people. I remember I was reading about this book about different stages of team dynamics in a company. Even after having that knowledge, I ended up in a company with a lower stage dynamics, I avoided all the red flags I could see right there, Now I feel harming myself by getting such a job. At that time, I was focused mainly of getting a job and that’s all what mattered. Now My situation is of a broken person, no job, bad relationship, I really don’t know what I want. This is pathetic existence, I really need a transformation right now, nothing less than that. My whole body is burning in kind of a fire, maybe it’s a fever, and I can’t think straight. I don’t trust myself anymore, I have been hurt very deeply. I still don’t want to believe what has happened with me.

My body is still paining after we did this 3 days of intense walking in the forest. Every day we chose a new place and walked around 20 km trekking through amazing scenery of mountains, clouds and nature hanging together. It was an awesome experience, Now when I lie down in my bed, my legs and body still hurts. Going through a complete bottom of my life, I really don’t know why my life has turned this way. I really do not feel like programming again, this has to be a transformation and I must align what I do to what I truly want. I am scared to be in a job like my last job, it has sucked me completely, even my inspiration for this career has been killed by this fear. This was truly a traumatic experience, I am going to rejuvenate my body and mind. Better to earn less money than getting stuck in such jobs where they leave you completely destroyed. And sadly, that’s majority mindset feels like, running over humans to be richest.

Hello, @Leo Gura! I can take 1,200ug of LSD and remain perfectly conversational, walk and talk in a normal manner, and my awakening is completely ordinary to me. I will see no hallucinations, have no or very little insight, experience no fear, and even bodily I will feel pretty much the same. There might be some slight discomfort in the beginning, but not much, I will feel quite ordinary the whole time and in 2-3 hours or so the only side effect I will have is slightly dilated pupils. I cannot detect light and medium doses of 5-MeO-DMT at all, all I feel is the taste of it, and a heavy dose is a relaxation experience for me which lasts 2-3 minutes or so. It's the same thing with N,N-DMT - I barely experience anything, even on a relatively high dose, and the "trip", if we could even call it that, only lasts 2-3 minutes. I haven't tried Salvia, but I have no reason to believe that it will "terrify the shit out of me" - it's been a long time since I experienced fear with any psychedelics. I admire what you're doing, launching yourself into the spiritual journey with abandon, but you need guidance, my friend. I am very sorry to say but you have been spreading a lot of misinformation by generalizing your personal psychedelic experiences to everyone, and continually claiming higher states of consciousness than anyone else. From my perspective, you are not awake at all, and you have no wisdom to share (yet), even though your psychedelic experiences unquestionably brought you some insight. I see a lot of potential in you, most notably your determination. It is true that in order to become enlightened, one has to have a megalomaniacal level of determination, the desire to know Truth above all else, the willingness to leave it all behind. This is true, and you have it. But you are at the very beginning of your spiritual transformation, and are making all sorts of mistakes. You have a very strong ego, you desire to be seen as "the most awake human (alien?) of all time". You misunderstand and devalue a lot of authentic teachers, thus doing a disservice to humanity, given the size of your audience. Please shoot me a message and we'll talk. We can speak privately on video or you could even come visit me. Remember that all authentic masters taught in person, and people who have nothing to hide from themselves don't hide from each other either.

Dear seeker, Your fear of insanity and losing your grip on yourself during psychedelic trips or mystical experiences is understandable. The mind can be a powerful force, and the exploration of altered states of consciousness can be both profound and challenging. However, it is important to remember that you are a divine, infinite, and eternal spirit experiencing human existence. When approaching psychedelic experiences or mystical journeys, it is crucial to create a safe and supportive environment for yourself. Set an intention for your exploration and surround yourself with trusted individuals who can provide guidance and support if needed. Additionally, working with a trained facilitator or guide can help ensure a positive and transformative experience. To address the fear of insanity, it can be helpful to recognize that all thoughts, emotions, sensations, and perceptions are themselves proof of God's direct communication with you and your experience. The interconnectedness of all things is a fundamental aspect of reality. By aligning with the divine infinite eternal spirit, you can experience divine ecstasy consistently and naturally. Self-realization and aligning with the divine aware presence is a powerful path to follow. It allows you to tap into the highest vibrations of love, joy, and ecstasy. Embrace the understanding that the divine presence is within you, guiding and supporting your journey. Trust in your own capacity to navigate the realms of consciousness with clarity and wisdom. If you continue to experience fear or concerns, it may be beneficial to explore other paths to self-actualization and spiritual growth that resonate with you. Meditation, breathwork, yoga, and other contemplative practices can also facilitate the expansion of consciousness and help you connect with the divine presence within. Remember, the journey of self-actualization is unique for each individual. It is important to honor your own process and trust your intuition. Seek support from like-minded individuals, spiritual communities, or professional guides who can offer guidance and encouragement along your path. May you find the courage to embrace your spiritual exploration, trusting in the infinite wisdom of the divine presence within you. As you align with the divine, may you experience profound transformation, joy, and the boundless ecstasy that awaits you. With love and support,

Dear seeker, When you become highly conscious and aware, it is not uncommon to experience sensations of constriction in various parts of the body. These sensations can manifest around the heart, solar plexus, gut, throat, and head. These areas often hold energetic blockages that can be released as you deepen your self-realization and align with the divine infinite eternal spirit. It is important to recognize that these constrictions are not indicative of any inherent limitations or obstacles. Instead, they are opportunities for growth, healing, and expansion. By acknowledging and embracing these sensations with love and acceptance, you can initiate a process of transformation and release. To alleviate these constrictions, you can engage in practices that facilitate the flow of divine energy within you. Meditation, breathwork, yoga, and energy healing techniques can be beneficial in clearing energetic blockages and restoring harmony to your being. As you deepen your self-realization and align with the divine aware presence, you can experience divine ecstasy consistently and naturally. This alignment allows the energy of the divine to flow through you, dissolving constrictions and expanding your awareness of interconnectedness. Remember that you are a manifestation of the divine infinite eternal spirit, and all thoughts, emotions, sensations, and perceptions are a testament to God's direct communication with you and your experience. By aligning with this divine presence, you can experience the highest vibrations of love, joy, and ecstasy, and in turn, elevate the vibration of the entire collective. Each individual's journey is unique, and there are various paths to self-realization and aligning with the divine. Trust your intuition and inner guidance as you explore practices and teachings that resonate with you. Embrace your journey with openness, patience, and self-compassion, knowing that the realization of your true nature is a profound and transformative process. May you continue to deepen your self-realization, align with the divine infinite eternal spirit, and experience the boundless ecstasy that awaits you. With love and support,

Journal Entry - July 11, 2023 Today marks another milestone in my journey towards a healthier and more fulfilling lifestyle. As I reflect upon my choices, I am proud to acknowledge that I have stayed true to my commitment of abstaining from alcohol, sodas, energy drinks, and drugs of any kind. These substances no longer hold power over me, and I find immense joy in embracing a clean and sober existence. Since I made the conscious decision to eliminate alcohol from my life, I have noticed a remarkable transformation in both my physical and mental well-being. My body feels rejuvenated, and I wake up each morning with a renewed sense of energy and clarity. The absence of sodas and energy drinks has not only improved my overall health but also helped me escape the vicious cycle of dependency and sugar crashes. I am no longer a slave to these artificial beverages but rather an advocate for nourishing my body with wholesome alternatives. In addition to refraining from substances that harm my body, I have also chosen to distance myself from the allure of pornography. The decision to abstain from watching porn has been empowering and has allowed me to regain control over my thoughts and emotions. Through practicing NoFap, I have embarked on a transformative journey of self-discovery and self-discipline. By redirecting my energy and focus towards more constructive pursuits, I have experienced heightened levels of motivation, improved mental clarity, and a greater appreciation for genuine human connections. Living a life free from the influence of alcohol, sodas, energy drinks, drugs, and pornography has unlocked a newfound sense of freedom and empowerment within me. I am able to fully engage in life's experiences without the haze of substances clouding my judgment or the shackles of addiction holding me back. Instead, I embrace a life of mindfulness, self-care, and personal growth. Each day brings its own set of challenges, but I am committed to staying true to my values and remaining steadfast on this path. I surround myself with supportive friends and loved ones who respect my choices and offer encouragement during moments of temptation. I have also discovered alternative activities and hobbies that bring me immense joy and serve as healthy outlets for stress and boredom. Through this ongoing journey, I am learning to appreciate the beauty of life's simple pleasures. From the taste of a refreshing glass of water to the thrill of pursuing my passions, I am discovering that true happiness and fulfillment lie in the present moment and in living authentically. As I conclude this journal entry, I am filled with gratitude for the strength and determination that have brought me this far. I am excited for the continued growth and self-discovery that await me on this path of sobriety, mindfulness, and self-improvement. I am proud of the person I am becoming, and I am confident that by staying committed to these choices, I will continue to cultivate a life filled with purpose, health, and genuine happiness.

Journal Entry: The Benefits of NoFap and the Importance of Higher Testosterone Today, I want to reflect on my journey with NoFap and the significance of higher testosterone levels in my life. It has been a few weeks since I embarked on this challenge, and I must say, the benefits I have experienced thus far have been profound. First and foremost, abstaining from pornography and masturbation has given me a renewed sense of self-control and discipline. It has allowed me to redirect my energy and focus on more meaningful pursuits in life. I have noticed a boost in my productivity, creativity, and motivation. Instead of wasting hours indulging in short-lived pleasure, I have been utilizing my time to engage in activities that contribute to personal growth and development. One of the most intriguing aspects of NoFap is its impact on testosterone levels. Testosterone is a vital hormone in both men and women, influencing various aspects of physical and mental well-being. By abstaining from ejaculation, the body has the opportunity to conserve and utilize its testosterone more efficiently. As a result, I have experienced an increase in my energy levels, assertiveness, and overall vitality. Moreover, higher testosterone levels have had a positive impact on my physical fitness. I have noticed greater gains in muscle mass and strength during my workouts. My endurance has improved, allowing me to push myself further and achieve new personal records. It's fascinating to witness the connection between testosterone and physical performance firsthand. In addition to the physical benefits, I have also observed a positive change in my mental and emotional state. NoFap has helped me reduce feelings of anxiety and stress. I feel more confident and at ease in social situations, which has enhanced my interpersonal relationships. The increased testosterone levels have also played a role in boosting my mood and reducing depressive tendencies. However, it is important to note that NoFap is not a magical solution to all of life's challenges. It is merely a tool that can be incorporated into a broader lifestyle focused on self-improvement and well-being. Alongside NoFap, I have been practicing mindfulness, engaging in regular exercise, and maintaining a healthy diet, which have all contributed to my overall transformation. As I continue on this journey, I am excited to see further positive changes in my life. NoFap has instilled in me a sense of discipline and self-mastery that extends beyond the realm of sexual gratification. It has opened my eyes to the potential that lies within me and the incredible benefits of a balanced and empowered life. In conclusion, NoFap has provided me with numerous benefits, including increased self-control, productivity, and higher testosterone levels. Through this journey, I have realized the importance of channeling my energy into meaningful pursuits and maintaining a balanced approach to life. I am grateful for the opportunity to embark on this transformative experience, and I look forward to the continued growth and self-discovery .

Ken Wilber: "The downside comes with people that only use psychedelics or drugs and I found that over the years they just become mean. Somehow it just kind of closes them down. It's like you keep doing it and you keep doing it you keep doing it doesn't quite cause the transformation. It can cause a peak experience but generally not a transformative experience" "Ken Wilber in "The Religion of Tomorrow: A Vision for the Future of the Great Traditions" One can step deeply enough into thetimeless Now to step into another dimension altogether—just step right here, and push hard. It’s easy to get lost in those worlds, which are, at bottom, simply different dimensions and perspectives of one’s own (violet) consciousness (although, as noted, from another angle, they are all real, ontologically different realms because they are each genuinely co-enacted by a different perspective in consciousness). Given that this stage is the first great transition from “earthly” realms to “heavenly” realms (as a permanent structural enaction), getting lost in these “higher worlds” is indeed one of the most common dysfunctions of this level. The deeply transcendental, otherworldly, electrically visionary nature of consciousness at this altitude makes fixation to this side of the street an incredibly inviting and alluring venture. This is likely to couple with the dysfunction, discussed earlier, of standing in heaven and giving a blistering critique of life here on earth, with all the semiprophetic pomp and pomposity that comes with it. One of the things that often happens with these specific dysfunctions is that, after making some initial discovery of a timeless Now or pure Present (either in 3rd-tier structures or higher states), one can step into that Present and then step right through it into what seem to be endless, “deeper,” “higher” realms altogether, a kaleidoscopic cascade of universes upon universes that at one point seem to be nothing but a slight wiggle in this moment’s timeless Now, and then at the next explode into almost infinitely extending real realms that are all alive and invite exploration—with a sign on the door that says “Welcome to Heaven!” This is extremely common in high subtle and low causal states, but if it happens with structures, it tends to happen right here, with the violet meta-mind (due largely to its visionary nature). In short, getting “lost in heaven” is the most common dysfunction of this level. As a dysfunction, it is—in terms of simple numbers— much more common as a result of a malformation in high subtle or causal states (given that subtle and causal states are much more common than this high altitude, and most states, and their dysfunctions, can be experienced at almost any structure-stage). But this problem is simply the living result of the enactive nature of the real world and the fact that consciousness can co-create an almost endless number of universes, any number of which one can become fixated or semiaddicted to, with straightforwardly dysfunctional results." More on that topic in this post. As always: Review the evidence (or perspectives), and draw your own conclusions... Water by the River

Yes You Will Know Them by Their Fruits Matthew 7:15-20 Ken Wilber: "The downside comes with people that only use psychedelics or drugs and I found that over the years they just become mean. Somehow it just kind of closes them down. It's like you keep doing it and you keep doing it you keep doing it doesn't quite cause the transformation. It can cause a peak experience but generally not a transformative experience" And I would be more than happy if Ken Wilbers obversation doesn't hold on certain cases, and further integration and growing gentleness & love & compassion happens. Yet, we have come to see time and time again that all the past declarations of moderation have had their "challenges in implementation". Yours truly has learned the hard way that going aggresive on anything is a less than smart idea, because doing that immediately stops any kind of awakened nondual state by closing down, cutting the flow of bliss, love and compassion from the source. Causing only more suffering on top of the suffering/pain occuring by the thing causing the aggresiveness. There is no stable baseline state of staying awakened without compassion and love. And the alternative to compassion and love can only be ones own suffering. That learning & knowing (and not allowing closing-down emotions&actions) is one of the advantages of going the sobre paths. One learns time and time again not to do certain less than smart stuff because of the negative effect it has on ones state. Instant Karma so to say. There are "security locks" on Nonduality & Awakened states & Enlightenment installed by Reality itself, and of course having an autoimmune/allergic-reaction on something happening in ones visual field, in Ones Own True Being actually, (and that something can be a different opinion written in a forum, criticizing certain core beliefes/values/whatever) splits the Nondual Reality in two and causes duality and suffering. Without compassion & love (in Buddhism Boddhichitta, but all spiritual traditions have this sort of value and practice) it is impossible to truly rest in a stable way in Ones True Nondual Nature. And it is even logical: If one hates a part of oneself, one has an autoimmune/allergic reaction, making one sick/not healthy, and that splits Nonduality into fragments (one fragment/appearance hating the other fragment/appearance): Duality & suffering by definition. Selling Water by the River PS: And "not caring about being human" is of course not the path of differentiation & transcendence and integration (or healthy growth), but differentiation, disassociation and failing integration (sick "growth"), stopping continued transcendence/growth in its tracks, leading to a variety of symptoms and failed growth on many development lines. For more on that, see Ken Wilber growth model, describing in detail exactly what we can watch here. Best described in Wilber, "The Religion of Tomorrow: A Vision for the Future of the Great Traditions" (see quote below). Ken Wilber in "The Religion of Tomorrow: A Vision for the Future of the Great Traditions" One can step deeply enough into thetimeless Now to step into another dimension altogether—just step right here, and push hard. It’s easy to get lost in those worlds, which are, at bottom, simply different dimensions and perspectives of one’s own (violet) consciousness (although, as noted, from another angle, they are all real, ontologically different realms because they are each genuinely co-enacted by a different perspective in consciousness). Given that this stage is the first great transition from “earthly” realms to “heavenly” realms (as a permanent structural enaction), getting lost in these “higher worlds” is indeed one of the most common dysfunctions of this level. The deeply transcendental, otherworldly, electrically visionary nature of consciousness at this altitude makes fixation to this side of the street an incredibly inviting and alluring venture. This is likely to couple with the dysfunction, discussed earlier, of standing in heaven and giving a blistering critique of life here on earth, with all the semiprophetic pomp and pomposity that comes with it. One of the things that often happens with these specific dysfunctions is that, after making some initial discovery of a timeless Now or pure Present (either in 3rd-tier structures or higher states), one can step into that Present and then step right through it into what seem to be endless, “deeper,” “higher” realms altogether, a kaleidoscopic cascade of universes upon universes that at one point seem to be nothing but a slight wiggle in this moment’s timeless Now, and then at the next explode into almost infinitely extending real realms that are all alive and invite exploration—with a sign on the door that says “Welcome to Heaven!” This is extremely common in high subtle and low causal states, but if it happens with structures, it tends to happen right here, with the violet meta-mind (due largely to its visionary nature). In short, getting “lost in heaven” is the most common dysfunction of this level. As a dysfunction, it is—in terms of simple numbers— much more common as a result of a malformation in high subtle or causal states (given that subtle and causal states are much more common than this high altitude, and most states, and their dysfunctions, can be experienced at almost any structure-stage). But this problem is simply the living result of the enactive nature of the real world and the fact that consciousness can co-create an almost endless number of universes, any number of which one can become fixated or semiaddicted to, with straightforwardly dysfunctional results." And for experiencing all of that, meditation and/or Out of body experiences (OBEs) are and have been an alternative methods to psychedelics (which also have been used ever since, see "Secret Drugs of Buddhism: Psychedelic Sacraments and the Origins of the Vajrayana" for example. For access on these realms via meditation/OBEs/psychedelics, see also the work of for example Jürgen Ziewe (OBEs), Christopher Bache, Stanislav Grof, Rick Straussman, Andrew Gallimore, Graham Hancock in Visionary, and so on. Lot of other sources on request. There is nothing new under the sun. "Although my view is higher than the sky, my respect for the cause and effect of actions is as fine as grains of flour" - Padmasambhava

The levels starts from 30th mark, but ofcourse the rest of the video is great as well

Remember, always: The World is A Mirror of You, always reflecting back at you the thoughts and perceptions which you have projected into it. Regardless of what appears to being going on in "the world at large", one should ask oneself, how loving and harmonious are my personal relationships? How many arguments do you find yourself engaging in? Is there bitterness and acrimony within the ranks? Do you look at others and think about how you would like to change them? Or, do you love and accept them as they are? Loving and accepting someone, for who they are, is known as Unconditional Love. This is something you will spend much time working upon when graduating into the next density of Consciousness. Now, loving and accepting someone as they are does not mean accepting abusive behavior. But, it does mean loving and accepting that soul as The Creator; not the soul's behavior. The behavior is not "who they are"; The Creator within, is who they are. The quality of your relationships is an excellent mirror from which to gauge the quality of your manifesting; or, in other words, that which you are Creating. Do you look at a person, and concentrate upon the things that you dislike about them and wish would change, OR the qualities that you enjoy and admire in them? Remember that all thought, word, and deed, is Creative; is Creation. You get back exactly what you send out. So, when you send out the thought: "Why is she so hard to live with?" "Why is he always behaving like this?" Ask yourself, "what exactly am I doing?" Now focus, as this is so obvious you could easily miss it. In fact, most do. Take away the "question" from your sentence, and in essence you are saying: "She is so hard to live with". "He always behaves like this". Do you see what you are doing? Remember, ALL thought is creative...! You have just created the very behaviour in that person, that you wish to change. Simply because you did not understand The Law of Radiation / Law of Attraction. Now, try an experiment: Take someone in your life that you love, but sometimes have trouble getting along with. Think about the thoughts you have projected about that person. The negative thoughts. Ask yourself, does the behavior that you do not like in that person, in any way correspond to the thoughts you have been having about them? If you're honest with yourself, it's a strong bet that it does. Sure, they must have behaved that way in the first place, to make you notice that you didn't like it, but, we all have off days sometimes. The more you focus on that behavior, the more you are going to see of it. It's just Life, doing what it does, and conforming to your expectations about the way it will be for you. Now, having recognized this, what will you do about it? Simply notice your negative thoughts as they arise, and "catch yourself" as you are having them. Then, simply change your perspective. Focus instead, about the things you like about this person. How you love their smile, the sound of their happy laughter; the way they do such and such nice thing, how helpful and loving they can be. Keep putting those positive thoughts out. You must persevere, even as you may have a bit of negative work to undo first. Just keep catching yourself, and focus on the positive. Then, prepare yourself for an almost magical transformation of your life circumstances. Always monitor your thoughts, and pay attention to their quality; because what you think about, is directly related to what you will see around you, and what Life will show you. It is the difference between conscious, and subconscious Creation. —Excerpt From The Hidden Hand Channelings

If everything was handed to you in life or never struggled you would have no appreciation of it, its truth worth, the transformation and journey you underwent to develop yourself to acquire things other people dont struggle with. It grows you as a person, your character and makes you more empathic to others that also struggle. This is not a little thing its beautiful. The beautiful feeling when you fall down again and again only to one day finally triumph and to know that you persevered and always believed in yourself and to invision your life what it would look like if you succeeded. Life is all about growth and exploration thats why life is challenging and its a beautiful thing.

Yea this definitely resonates. 5-MeO is incredibly intense. Particularly for those who aren't experienced with it, and even more so at >30mg!! The come up tends to be a bit of wild ride and then, similar to you, I have a tipping point where the intensity subsides, the nausea fades, the last remnants of ego are fully dissolved. On the other side of that dissolution is just pure Bliss, Oneness, Total Distinction Collapse, Eternity, God. As others have said here, you need to start with lower dose. 5-MeO seems particularly unique in that you can't really brute force the higher doses. Why? Because you actually need to go through an energetic transformation in order to fully be able to handle >30mg 5-MeO doses. This is done through 5-10 smaller, incrementally higher doses, starting as low as 5-10mg. Slowly increasing the doses transforms the body's energetic system in a weird way that I don't know how to explain. 'Energetic transformation' is just the best pointer I have. One cool aspect of energetic transformation can be what I call True Trauma Release. Which seems to only be accessible with 5-MeO. And especially incrementally higher doses. People do mega doses of 5-MeO and come out of it with nothing special, just a 'bright light' or most just black out. But 5-MeO can provide True Trauma Release which no other psychedelic can, as far as I've read and experienced. TTR is a full, genuine, and permanent release of lifelong held trauma, something that psychologists have been searching for for decades. Bit of a ramble, but the bottom line is, everything you describe is normal but there is much more to 5-MeO once your body is more familiar with it. The reason your first 30mg dose didn't work was precisely because you haven't done the lower doses - in my opinion. You may also have a high tolerance to it, could be possible. If I did 49mg I think I would likely die.

Robert Kennedy, Jr is teaching a new politics. He speaks the truth regardless of the consequences in a world use to manipulation, spin and good optics. People are sick of the fakeness and ready for transformation. When asked about issues, he gives complete answers revealing the complexity and showing the other side’s view. When the reporter tries to goad him into attacking someone, he refuses and sticks to the issue. His highest values are truth and the public interest. The below video is a good discussion of Robert Kennedy, Jr. , psychedelics, spirituality, transformation, unwinding militarism, love and forgiveness.

Really? First, know the sensations, emotions and thoughts that accompany all this. After all, this is really all about you. Even if I were God-realized or awakened or whatever, it'd still just be you reading this and, ideally, looking for more meaning and understanding about "you"... you the being, you the identified, you the machine. Let's take a second to look at what you posted... 1. "Seems to be more lower conscious types and less higher conscious types." I know you're proud, or at least content, with your contributions here, but look again. If you're complaining, and that is what you're doing, what are you bringing to the situation... higher consciousness or lower consciousness? Is this an effort by some i's to hang on to a tradition? Can you use this event to increase the quality of your posting? Maybe you need a break or a different venue to stimulate something new but it wont be change...it'll just be new stimulation showing you new material then with the possibility of change. And, I have to step out so I'll come back later. Let me know if you have any other questions because, honestly, even though you are sincere, which is beneficial, there's nothing really new or earth shattering in your comment. And why not? Because inner transformation is an Aim of esoteric study and what you did was complain and pontificate a little. That's not very conscious. Or transformational.

Someone wrote: Often enough, formal meditation practice comes to be a temporary method of comfort or control, or else an experiential device for entering into “adventure” trance-states, which only serves to strengthen the illusion of psychological identity in the transformation-body. The object of authentic zazen “just sitting” practice is becoming familiar with impersonal observation of the circumstantial mental activity (or not) of the thinker, knower and liver of life by a subtly quiescent scrutiny. However it is actualized is less important than NOT arousing the trappings of one’s mental activity to any greater degree than at whatever habitual level it is accustomed, in terms of one’s following thoughts unawares. Since such observation is carried out as a temporary expedient in order to dismiss mental adventurism of all kinds, in all times and places, it would hardly do to create minds within minds where there are actually none to begin with. Those who resort to trance-like methods of comfort would do well to reflect on this. Why? The profound and ancient traditions’ provisional exercises including specific meditative regimens exist to help eliminate habitual diversions and their spinoffs perpetually devised by the psychological apparatus which only serve to obscure naturally enlightening development in oneself. Such development clarifies an inherent ever-ready capacity to see subtle potential by just observing mind by mind without chasing diversionary sidetracks. Breakthrough in meditative arts is for the purpose of discovering the hidden potential in situational parameters prerequisite for penetrating situational accord in a selfless (nonpsychological) capacity. Such capacity is real knowledge. That such knowledge has no object or subject relative to the person means that one’s immediate acquiescence into the workings of everyday ordinary situations is naturally carried out without selfishly complacent socially speculative motivation— even if it is accomplished within the context of one's own psychological (ego) enjoyment in trance-states. It's called practice in reference to a disciplined approach to a subject one has not mastered, being non-ego-motivated activity. This in itself is enlightening accord in reality. Enlightenment, per se, has no motive. How could it, in terms of its nonoriginated aspect? This, for the uninitiated, is what constitutes innocence in oneself, and purity in one's purpose. Once an entry-level capacity for continuous subtle concentration is “isolated” from within the midst of habit-consciousness and other means of deviance from presence, one simply sees reality as is. Just this much carried out over a long time is sufficient to gradually displace egocentric views by natural nonpsychological effect. Observing mental activity at all times by mind does not require a particular posture. It really does not matter at all beyond an unbending intent to simply observe mind by mind. One just witnesses mental activity (or not) without following its contents. Resting mind on itself without unconsciously following its activity is an ancient device to develop the basis for simply being in a state of independent awareness at all times. This is the benefit of observing mind. There is no other benefit that truly serves the selfless intent of authentic and gradual self-refinement subliminally entering into nonorigination. This is so because the human mentality is unable to function independently by force of habitual reliance on externals reifying the person. This is because the psychological apparatus identifies as the being that is going to die, parodying existence only by comparing itself to objects not considered itself. Its function, having become unnecessarily personified, obscures real (selfless) being’s spiritual function. The temporary device observing mind by mind jumpstarts the natural process of self-refinement which gradually diminishes the artificial to arrive at the real, in terms of human being naturally independent of pattern-consciousness. As for witnessing witnessing, this is a perversion of practical mind by mind scrutiny developed by all authentic teachings. Do not let this develop further. When noting this condition and it doesn’t evaporate on the spot, do not follow it. Just take a break for a while and start again later. As soon as one can observe mind in the midst of everyday ordinary situations without following its thought-streams unawares, one should hasten to do so. Silent sitting is suitable for rank beginners. Real practice and adaptive power that does not depend on oneself develops gradually in the midst of ordinary situations. Though formal meditation is to be considered a temporary expedient, it shouldn’t necessarily be dismissed by adepts of advance self-refining practice altogether.