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That was a break-point we all have when pursuing enlightenment, there is no coming back from it and you kinda have to deal with it. Ignorance is a bliss, you may say. Everything in EGO life is meaningless once you have an enlightenment experience but remember: Yu body is a cage, that keeps you from dancing with the one you love, and your mind have the key. When trying to enlighten again, before any meditation you could try to create a shield for your body, that you can always go back, and that fear of stop existing suddenly will be less terrifying, mind and body are connected, they are part of the same organism, the conscious created the body and they are dependent . if the mind did not needed a body, universe itself would not exist at all, try giving you body ( ego life ) as much attention as you give your mind when meditating. If I make no sense at all, I could try to explain in some other ways

There are many important things in life that help use so much when optimised such as diet, exercise, relationships, sleep, life purpose, how we respond to what arises. It is true that a person who eats seasonally, raw, organic and nutritious food will have a calmer and healthier mind, and body. And for one living their life purpose as a creative artist will be happier than one who is a doctor by tradition. Yet, the most important question is: what is guiding us to change these areas of our life? Is it the ego (the part of us conditioned by the world to act and be a certain way) or our higher selves (the unlimited love and intelligence of the universe, that we are)? In fact the ego has 3 different parts of itself that we can see reality from which is the physical body, the emotional body, and the mental body. Most people in the world are influenced greatly by the physical body, which they identify the most with. This means they seek survival, take comfort in food, and focus on staying alive. When we are more identified with the emotional body, we seek states of happiness. We generally focus on not feeling bad, which leaves us prone to addictive tendencies such as eating, drinking, smoking, and thinking to change our emotional state. The mental body desires experiences, usually ones that make it feel powerful, or even at one. Since what we focus on is what we become, it's of the greatest importance to know where which body we are identified with. The last " body" to be identified with is the soul. Our souls desire unity, oneness, and love; and with it's wisdom second only to God in it's breathe, it always knows the most loving action to take. This is why enlightened masters don't tell us to focus so much on diet, exercise, relationships, or business because they understand this universal principle of focus. They instead tell us to constantly focus on ourselves as love which is located within the heart, so that we can reconnect with our souls in this way; even the zen practice of being the awareness, shikantaza, ultimately reunites us with our heart, where the soul is found, because it withdraws our awareness back to the source of it's origin, which is in the heart. Thus focusing on love of any kind, or excitement or any higher vibrational energies you resonate with will naturally put everything in life back into place. The natural intelligence of love will do this. Love is our true nature, and by focusing on it, everything becomes perfect, like it's always been, right in this moment. There is nothing to change, nothing to do, just you as a soul here to express itself for the benefit of every else still in this dream. This is the milestone I'm at in my journey, where it's almost nature to focus on my heart before thinking. Everything is peaceful, calm and blissful. And I am one with it. I am peace, oneness, love and bliss; and so is everything. This is what I use my free will for, to focus on the love in my heart, and what I am learning is how to trust it's intelligence more than relying on what the ego thinks I should do to be fulfilled. It is a rewiring of sorts, and right now, love is triumphing brilliantly; vibrating in every cell of my body when I surrender The mind is a good servant, but a bad master. We are all learning again to make the heart the master. Lots of love.

I wanted to create a new topic but I can accord to this one. I've just read the text about it. Depression after spiritual awakening is common. But who wants to talk about it publicly? You will hear endless accounts of bliss and oneness. But it’s not often that people want to talk about how difficult it can be to adjust. Yes, there is bliss and oneness but there can also be tremendous sorrow or disorientation or feelings of profound bleakness. Sometimes these bleak feelings even happen at the same time as bliss and oneness. People euphemistically call this The Dark Night Of The Soul. Well, that sounds poetic, doesn’t it? But it doesn’t feel so poetic when you are in the middle of it. Especially if you believe that it’s not supposed to be this way and that you are the only one. From https://modernawakenings.com/depression-after-spiritual-enlightenment/ Do the others also feel like that? I'm worried now. I did not have a retreat. But I meditate, focus on my breathing during the day, etc and also started to feel different. More sad and unhappy with no reason.

What I am calling "stable enlightenment" here would be what the lives of some of the current spiritual leaders which come to mind may look like. Mooji, Ruper Spira, Sadhguru, Fred David, Adyashanti, Eckhart T. - list goes on Path A From what I have learned thus far and what it seems to me is that Path A to enlightenment is not common (yet) but maybe down the road it will be. There are people who know nothing about spirituality who take drugs like mushrooms/lsd/dmt for fun/tripping out etc Select few of these people may get a breakthrough experience in which they see the ALL/Absolute and learn about their true self and construct of reality as a result. you can see common trip reports of breakthroughs and becoming everything/everywhere/infinite. but these people normally return to their ego-self soon after 1-2 day 1 week or so... as they know not what they have witnessed.. being unaware of it, and not actively seeking it.. now this "glimpse" inducded and brought on by the susbtance consumed is not as strong as awakening brought on by Path B what is path B? that is the path where one learns about this information, and pursues it - chases it, looks for it in process, the person does many self-inquriy, meditations, exercises and goes thru a slow process of detachment and on this journey, as insights are recieved, they are slowly intergrated... now to that someone on this path, having already intergrated knowledge/teachings/insights into their life... when they see the absolute/have the awakening, it's rather easier for them to go into the stable enlightment state . the last state of bliss so my questions is that i have seen many videos on youtube where people during satsang/meets having moment of awakening and they just start laughing/crying same time but they are at peace vs not being at peace when they come up to ask the questions is this that person's first glimpse/awakening during their spirtual path? and now having seen the TRUTH they feel liberated in that moment - but it will again take time now to intergrate?

Kundalini, in essence, is: The energy for the nervous system that has the root at the base of the spine. So extending the focus attention after 1.Breath into that zone, 2.bone tail, channeling the energy of the sound and feeling of breath, one is capable to increase physical/mental energy many many times over, depending on practice. Is like a muscle, but can achieve faster mass by enduring pain, accommodation to a new level of awareness followed by bliss, then start again, if one wants to grow to a higher level. Or if one wishes, then the process can be done in a large period of time, with not much trouble with pain. To get over faster and less pain: alcohol in microdoses, cannabis, maybe opium, psychedelics in microdoses, natural plants with analgesics, etc.

Don’t turn it into an ideology. Follow your bliss doesn’t mean you ideologically cling to that. It just means that you slowly accept your authentic self and authentic life.

@SoonHei It happens when you let go of the illusion of this reality as being real. When you do a higher reality is revealed to you. I know that sounds kind of scary to let go of reality. That's why so few awaken. Compassion becomes prevalent. Love, peace and bliss. Sure that too. But there is no ownership. Yes love would be infinite. But not the kind of love that depends on physical circumstances. This love is from the absolute. That "higher reality" which is infinite and so the love is also.

@cetus56 hi question i suppose you're enlightened? or have had awakenings? please answer from what you know either from direct experience or your knowledge this: you said "Nothing changes in reality except for the way you see it." do you mean nothing changes on day-to-day when one is "living in the illusion" yet awake to it... like awake that one is "dreaming" so to speak? so when do those states occur, where one feels infinite love - job - peace - bliss is that a state which someone who is awakened/enlightened goes to when they decide to meditate or be more present? shift back/forth between those states?

When one synchronizes the chakras, at first is agony/fear pain/torture. Because the real you and the river flow again and need time to adjust the rewiring of the body/mind. After months of training, the bliss arises, for some it takes decades. Depending on how much is one willing to go straight to the wall so to speak.

No, I was never violent. There was much bliss and peace in those states of consciousness. It has no end bro, it goes on as long as you exist in this body form. Once you get there, once your kundalini is completely activated, only death can stop it.

Ashtavakra’s message is crystal clear. You won’t be able to add even a small bit of your own interpretation to it. ”IF YOU CAN SEPARATE YOURSELF FROM THE PHYSICAL BODY, AND REST IN CONSCIOUSNESS, THEN THIS VERY MOMENT YOU WILL BE HAPPY, AT PEACE, AND FREE OF BONDAGE. " ”OH EXPANSIVE ONE, RELIGION AND ATHEISM, HAPPINESS AND MISERY – ALL ARE OF THE MIND, THEY ARE NOT FOR YOU. YOU ARE NOT THE DOER NOR THE ENJOYER. YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN LIBERATED.” ”YOU ARE THE ONE OBSERVER OF ALL, AND IN REALITY ALWAYS FREE. YOUR BONDAGE IS THIS: YOU SEE THE OTHER – NOT YOURSELF – AS THE OBSERVER." ” ’I AM THE DOER,’ THUS HAS THE BLACK SERPENT OF EGO BITTEN YOU. ’I AM NOT THE DOER,’ DRINK THIS NECTAR OF TRUST AND BE HAPPY." ”THIS IMAGINARY WORLD IS PROJECTED LIKE A SNAKE ON A ROPE. KNOWING THIS YOU ARE BLISS, ULTIMATE BLISS, THUS WANDER HAPPILY. HE WHO CONSIDERS HIMSELF FREE IS FREE, AND HE WHO CONSIDERS HIMSELF BOUND IS BOUND; BECAUSE IN THIS WORLD THE PROVERB IS TRUE: ’AS YOU THINK SO YOU ARE’. " ”ATMA IS THE WITNESS, ALL-PERVADING, PERFECT, ONE, FREE, CONSCIOUS, FREE FROM DOING, NONATTACHED, DESIRELESS, PEACEFUL. BECAUSE OF ILLUSION, IT LOOKS LIKE THE WORLD." ” ’I AM AN INDIVIDUALLY PROJECTED LIFE,’ DROP THIS ILLUSION AND ALSO THE FEELING OF INNER AND OUTER, AND AWAKEN IN THE THOUGHT THAT YOU ARE THE UNCHANGING, CONSCIOUS, NON-DUAL ATMA.” From Ashtavakra Mahageeta (It is not Krishna's Geeta)

I look at it differently, for me all of reality is more of a play between dualism and non-dualism. Non-dualism is the potential of absolutely everything, and dualism is really then the expression of what we experience as consciousness. The physical world is part of that expression. For example if we look at an atom, it is very constraint in it's behavior. But it is ABSOLUTELY precise, it has ULTIMATE precision. It is dualism in perfection, it's action is limited to an infinite degree. That is one part of the spectrum, on the other is nothingness or non-dualism, the potential for everything, so no limitation whatsoever. As you go from dualism to non-dualism you find intelligence. Intelligence is not perfect, it is not limited in it's behavior. In fact intelligence is very much defined by the creative ability to come up with new things. So it is the potential that is manifested as actuality, as dualism. That is what the human consciousness does. When we solve problems we are creating the solution from unlimited potential, but that process is limited to a certain degree. That means it is not ultimately accurate like the behavior of atoms, but it has the potential to behave in many ways. That is basically what nature has been figuring out, the right play between potential and restriction. That is one of the many reasons why human beings are not really good at anything, but extremely good at doing things we are not really made to do. For example, a spider is extremely good at being a spider, it is in fact a perfect spider. It can do what it does perfectly. And a machine is even more restricted in that way, it is ABSOLUTELY precise at what it is doing. A human being is not, precisely because a human being is intelligent, precisely because a human being uses consciousness. If the boundaries of limitation start to cease, the potential becomes greater until it becomes pure nothingness. That is why in nothingness you do nothing. This is the whole point of enlightenment, the cessation of limits and duality into absolutely nothing, which is the potential of absolutely everything, or god. In other words, intelligence comes from god. That is why you are more creative when you are not restraint in a certain behavior, or when your mind is relaxed. For that reason we have the best ideas when we take a shower or are at peace on the toilet. You will hear this from Albert Einstein, Leonardo Da Vinci etc. Their intelligence does not come from the control of mind but the exact opposite. Look at the kingdom of animals and you will see that all animals that have a rigid mind do not act intelligently. Just look at a rock, all it does is being a rock. A rock does not have the potential to do anything but be a rock. But the rock is PERFECT at what it does, it makes no mistakes, it is godlike in it's precision. In our imagination we think that we can create an intelligence that is perfectly precise but also contains infinite potential. That it can do everything without failure but still come up with ideas that no being has previously thought of. It is very possible that these two things actually cancel each other out and that what instead is needed is a perfect balance between potential and limitation to have what we define as intelligent. Look at how the mind operates and think of how limited the way we think about intelligence actually is. No one would say that a buddhist monk is intelligent in his enlightened bliss, but maybe what the monk is experiencing is limitless intelligence, limitless potential. So limitless that it is not limited by the need of self-preservation and procreation. Because if you look at everything we define as intelligent, we call it intelligent for the one and only reason that it serves the purpose of self-preservation and procreation. If you take away these limitations action will not be taken. So counter-intuitively it requires ignorance (limitation) for intelligent behavior to emerge. The mind NEEDS to be limited for it the operate at all, because if it was limitless it would simply be nothingness. This is how I look at it at least, no idea if it's actually the case but it's interesting to think about it.

if for example I will do a whole year only self development work, meditating, yoga, balancing energies, getting my mind in order and become extremely peaceful, ecstatic, blissful, loving, etc. Will I continue to be like that after I come again to the "ordinary life"? suppose I keep practicing and trying my best to be present and such. Will I start to get upset sometimes? will I start to suffer? will I get out of peace and bliss?

People misunderstand blissfulness. The pain will not cease to exist, the anger, the frustration. But for the awakened ones, they are blissful even in rage. Duality is being positive or negative all the time. Transcendence is to integrate both polarities, see the world from the 3rd perspective, then go higher into a 4th, after is infinite. So the key is 1st chakra (red pill), and all the negative and positive will pass through there and will reach the brain in a state of bliss rather than anxiety. This happens after the healing of the body. Maybe some will take 2-5 years or for others decades. Depending on how much one is willing to go to the inner personal world and rewind all the traumas and dramas. Only after the integration and understanding of the personal traumas, one will be totally different and see, feel, etc the world as it is. It is easy to see the truth of reality using drugs but is not easy to heal the body and achieve the same levels of consciousness or even higher in a natural, awake state, being in trance at the same time and function day by day.

Funny thing is, as much as perpetual bliss might sound great - it's not really.. not sure how to explain this exactly, but if the potential for sadness is gone.. 'bliss' also ceases to exist.. can't have one without the other, it's contrast that gives these things meanings - yea you can have more of one than the other, but the potential must remain

You might not exacly "go back to your old ways". Some change might have occured, but nothing as radical as perpetual bliss. I don't know much about Sadhguru, so I cannot answer your first question. All I know is that he's a savvy businessman and a charismatic, entertaining speaker. I don't know anything about his emotional health tho. If he occasionally suffers, it probably wouldn't be rational for him to admit it anyway. I assume that would be bad for business. When you are in the business of selling fantasies of emotional perfection, you need to uphold a certain image.

@Erlend K well, do you think sadhguru ever suffers? or is he not in perpetual bliss? What I mean is suppose someone grows a lot in an ashram or something, doesnt suffer, is in perpetual bliss as long as he's in the ashram. If he gets out of the ashram and continues to practice and try to grow, will he go back to his old ways?

Im not 100%"sure I understand your question then. Of course you will get upset and suffer. No, you will not live in a state of perpetual bliss.

I am making a big leap tomorrow that I've been holding off. I am transitioning to become a Breatharian, only drinking urine, and a tea at night. I am coming completely offline in response to the high heart rates I'm having which is my body telling me that being here is separating me further from God. In addition in a recent transmission from the blue avians, they have said that especially technology, but also lots of other distractions and addictions such as food, is moving us away from the centre of our beings, our hearts, and that we need to just let go of it for our own good. If there is someone I need to talk to, I will walk to their home if necessary, and feel the air on my skin, and the sun on my face as I do so. I am also dedicating most of my day to formal meditation upon my heart, because I desire to end this suffering my mind is creating, and be in a constant state of bliss. When I know a constant state of bliss is possible, and that meditation is the only way to get there on the deepest level, I just can't not meditate, it would be insane for me to not prioritise meditation as the number one most important thing for me to do. Of course, I use meditation as a tool to become truly enlightened and won't be doing it for decades of my life for the whole day, but I'm willing to commit to most of my day for the next few years in meditation. I have set up a beautiful and calm environment in my bedroom to do this, with soundproofing on my door, some house plants, lots of crystals and inspiring books I've read to make my room conducive for this deep work. This is my greatest dream, and if my family can't even allow me one room to actualise this dream then I will go to this retreat centre nearby: http://medini.dhamma.org Here are some pictures: http://medini.dhamma.org/centre-2/. The centre is deep in the woods, in natural scenery, and it seems just lovely. If these guys do not accept me there are many more forest temples a few hours south of where I am that I can stay at for a few years Likely I will end up here, as I need to be able to concentrate for long hours on my heart, but I'm open to giving it a go at home. My life purpose has always been to experience God on the deepest level possible, and then to express his love purely and effortlessly through myself. It confuses me why other people who are twice my age still haven't understood this, that the heart is the key to end suffering. Why do they so stay within the limitations of their mind? I want to help them, once I'm fully in the heart. There is little point teaching someone how to get into the heart from the limitations of the mind I feel. So I am going to enjoy my last meal tonight with my Mum, and Grandparents; and my last moment of allowing myself to be anywhere but the heart. For tomorrow I will focus on the heart and stay there for all of eternity, even once I've awakened from the dream will my focus be there. I will not eat ever again, for I am fully feed and satiated by the love within my heart. Our potential as human beings is far greater than what we imagine, and I am excited to be maybe one of the first modern explorers of those deepest layers. We live but in a 3rd dimensional reality, animals live in the 2nd dimension, and I want to explore greater than the 11th dimension, to a place where there is only love, such that even the reality of "dimensions" does not exist. We have all of this and more already inside our hearts, just waiting to be explored through the simple act of placing our attention on it. When at the highest level there is only love, why not just focus on love? That's why this practice is simple, because there can be no other practice but the experience of love in the highest realms of this reality. Thats's why love is always the only answer. Acting from the heart, embracing separation from the heart; and making being in the heart the highest priority, so that it eventually becomes the only priority, and then, all you do. You can still be in the heart and live in this world, there is no implication, for the hearts intelligence will speak every word for you, guide you in every step, all without thoughts and emotions which are so used to being slaves of. For we become the heart, and so too, we become it's intelligence in it's full glory. And when I feel my heart, and when I meditate, I will continue to remind myself that any resistance I feel when focusing on oneness could only be the healing of the inner child within, whose prison of conditioning is dissolving by the love I allow to flow through myself. When focused on love, all of the lower dimensional frequencies in ourselves are brought to light, and we experience them as they are being healed, and released, this there is nothing to be afraid of, only infinite gifts to bless as they leave and return to the source from whence they came. I'll remember this while feeling these frequencies leave, and know them as gifts of deep inner healing. And so I'm free; goodbye everyone; love you. Use this journal for wisdom, I'll keep writing in it for as long as people are benefiting from it, and moving more into the oneness and love that they already are. I too use what I write to keep me grounded, some of the stuff comes from a part of myself that is much more intelligent, which I'm moving into, so in effect, it's been really helpful in guiding "me" (as the personal self) as well God Bless guys.

On the deepest level, there is no purpose On the other hand, your deepest desire is Bliss/Love and that, only God/Dao can provide: "Most people do not bother with these things because they think they have already found the Truth or something else is more important to them. Beliefs, however, are futile. The times will come where beliefs start to crumble or get destroyed. As basing one's psyche on beliefs isn't wise, one starts to search for the Indestructible." - and spirituality and meditation, with patience and presence, will reveal the Indestructible.

Oh shit. What have I gotten myself into? This god is weird. I can't imagine why god would really want to intentionally split its perception into infinitely many perspectives. This human experience feels unnecessary if I am really god. I want to regain godhood already. Does the bliss of reunion have some purpose? If I was god, why could I not fathom my own intentions? Is it intentional amnesia? Leo is right. I am not ready for enlightenment, yet. I need 10 years of personal development and career development before even thinking about enlightenment.

He teaches the advaita union with brahman, which is in the class of moksha enlightenments, yes. He's using modern language and modern practices, I think. I have not yet studied this in detail. I want to remain in a state of unknowing for a bit longer, and directly experience what people are doing. From what I have gathered, he doesn't seem to emphasize the original language and theory, which is the realization that atman, the individual soul which survives death and is reborn, was always an illusion. there was always only brahman, ultimate self inhabiting ultimate reality, one and only one. Everything is already god, is a way of thinking about this. Always was, always will be, nothing but god. You are god, I am god. The appearance of not being god, and of being two seperate beings, is a mistake that god makes intentionally so that he/we can have the bliss of reunion. Advaita has a specific and interesting approach to the problem of liberation. It also has some specific problems, that sometimes are not noticed for quite a while. We are in seamless unity. What is, all that is, is god. If there is a million deaths from a war, that is god. If you have a friend who can't get laid and kills himself over a girl, that's god. If a country dumps nuclear waste into the ocean and kills all the life their, and the whole world eventually dies from the loss of the base of the food pyramid, that is god. Everything that happens must happen, because it is brahman. it was a perfect philosophy for seekers in Shankaras time. Maybe even in the bhagvhan's time - the person who renamed himself osho ended up teaching mostly a variant of advaita. But. advaita is one school out of several dozen, each with a slightly different, or very different idea about how to attain moksha liberation. Now we are here, at this time in history, and we have the ability to know that there are competing models of enlightenment. Should we still make the choice to pick one as true, and declare the other's false?

Anxiety about what? I am going to bet it is not about atman and brahman. Not about no-self. Mind and it's contents is very large. Ridiculously large. You have done a practice for a while. Not long by most standards. You can create a state. How far into the mind and its contents do you figure that state that you can create goes? You are in your state, made possible by practice. "However, my negative thinking/anxiety usually pops up in this 'no self' state and pulls me out of it. My anxiety seems to be getting stronger the deeper the more I seem to awaken." Where do the anxieties come from? They are habits and patterns of thinking, coming from the body-mind. You have practiced them for many years. With those years of practice, it's pretty easy for you to attain the state of anxieties inside of the state of no-self. The anxiety skills you have are out there in the vast mind and its contents. You enter no-self - or you enter some state. It attracts those skilled anxiety states like a light attracts moths. They come running to play in the light. That's why they are getting stronger. You are feeding them. You concentrate your attention, using your practice, and create a pool of focused attention. Is there anything an anxiety loves more than attention? Do some work on the anxieties. Resolve when can be resolved. Correct errors, if you can. Face problems that are real and can be faced. Make changes in the infrastructure of your attention and emotions. This is one of the things that people tend to overlook with advaita influenced practice and it's results. What is, is brahman. What occurs, is brahman. Your anxieties intruding, is brahman. Brahman is not an escape from problems. Brahman is bliss, and brahman is problems. Brahman's problems are your problems. ???????????????????????????????????????????? How large is the mind and it's contents? There are many ways to look at this and look for information on it that may be useful in one's practice. Mandalas, thangkas, temple paintings, and characteristic sacred art offers some models hat the cultures that invented many of our favorite systems seemed to prefer for representing the size of mindspace. Look at the backgrounds of many of the mandalas so valued that they were turned into important sacred objects. What do you see? Dozens to hundreds of figures, many tiny scenes and stories, all dynamically active and filling every otherwise unfilled square inch. That's a representation of what is within us. Here's an example:

Okay so it's been one week now of me doing nothing and just wandering around. I feel board enough to get back to some more goal oriented tasks. My chick died today I was listening to one of Leo's old videos about passion and I guess I am that lucky person who happened to find her passion as the first thing to come in contact with. However, I do believe that what I think I'm passionate about needs refining and revisiting but overall the main core has never changed not even once, for me it can't be anything else. So the reason I wanted to watch that passion video was because of this. I was thinking about how my life would unfold and everything and the thing about it was what I want is sth that is not offered in a direct way and if I'm not vigilante enough as I get older I could easily go in all the wrong ways so even in my mind when following up on the normal routine path I could go in, what I was left with in the end was a dead end with nothing satisfying or meaningful in any way I would like so that made me quite depressed until I realized the reason for that sadness was that I had lost my vision even in my mind and realized that, that path was never supposed to be the path I go in so for that reason suddenly everything seemed so bleak and hopeless cause it was totally out of alignment with the original vision of mine. So tomorrow I'm gonna do some real deep visualization plus some long meditation cause I haven't been meditating for a while now and really miss that bliss of being in the moment with no thoughts and also try setting some helpful goals for the moment and keep productive cause I can't stomach this anymore, not that I can't but I'm more worried it would go down a negative spiral after a certain amount of time of wandering around. One more thing is me not being able to gather information on some pivotal subjects almost no where and I just don't have access to the right information in order to identify my limiting beliefs about how some things work cause I actually don't know and the thing is I've realized what tends to be sth everyone talks about is almost always wrong but I wouldn't know that unless I have a very legit source to prove me wrong and in some cases, I've seen how prevalent some misinformation can be among people but other cases that I need some accurate information in, I can't know for sure and there's literally no way I can think of to get the right access and that's a pain in the ass. Besides all that, as if that weren't bad enough, everything around here is so unstable that would kill any attempt for planing for your future and that's sth every young adult has to deal with and that's what's making everyone so pissed off. I mean everything's hard right now like super hard and the trouble comes when you know that it's that hard only for you and other people in other countries don't actually have to deal with the things I have to deal with and that pisses anyone off even more than they already are and that's just becoming intolerable now. That means I don't know anything anymore, I just don't and no one does either and all I can do is to just wait for the next best thing I can do and that's as far as I can go, only one other move ahead and that's it and I know uncertainty doesn't always have to be a problem and successful people have a high tolerance for uncertainty but this is actually different and I'm not that crazy about it but still certain things are so stable in some countries that the way those successful people deal with uncertainty is by relying on some of the basics which they know won't change and to me at this point those basic stuff are just a luxery I can't afford. I don't mean to be so naggy about all that but those are just the brutal realities of my life which makes me bleak and hopeless and it can really rub me off of my energy which I could otherwise invest in some more profitable areas so yes it's gonna hurt me and not just me you know Whatever, I'm at least optimistic even in a situation like this where no hope can survive, it really can't and you know in the past I would think that there has to be a way, there's always a way but now I realize if others don't want that they can actually control you way easier than you'd ever think possible. It's actually much easier than you think to corner someone so bad that all they can do is to accept, just accept the situation and say what come may, that could literally be all you could do about it. And I'm not talking about victim mentality here, it can literally be the case just take Saudi Arabia for example, they don't allow women to have separate bank accounts or to drive a car( at least couple years ago that was the case) or to rent houses if they're not married so what other options do you think a person like that can have to break free, nothing specially if it were also the case that they couldn't leave the country easily so then it would be a very miserable life to live with no actual options of being untraditional, you see? Now that is not my situation but sth quite similar so you know, basically I can do nothing but to shut up and accept the situation, that's it, only with the hope of a better tomorrow.

1. a suicide bomber, after his death, will be in "heaven" and get his 72 virgins. 2. heaven with gardens, fruits, milk-lakes (Quran/Bible version of Heaven) exists. about # 1 first. How can this be? the bomber is claiming so many innocent lives - how can such a person go to heaven? The answer: he goes to his version of heaven. We know that from God's point of view, there is no good/evil - it's all one, no distinctions So what appears to us in our experience is what we expect (law of attraction) What really drives this manifestation to reality is the BELIEF in it. We expect to die when we go in the water and cannot breath, or jump off a sky-scraper... (sounds silly, i know) but this expectation is another word for blind-belief, without a shred of a doubt... most suicide bombers/terrorists - especially in Afghanistan/Iraq etc are BRAINWASHED by another, promising heaven/72 virgins in the afterlife if they do this deed for the sake of God/Allah what we must realize is that these persons reach levels of belief that is unbroken, it is a 100% surety for them. some of these were taught when they were young kids... they have been grown up as lamb for slaughterING - so to them, it is an absolute truth that the end result is heaven their consiousness is clear - there is no guilt. only guilt needs to be gotten rid of. guilt/good/bad feelings are all illusiory... so provided that they have 100% belief in the end result, that is what they will manifest/see after death. that due to his/her deed, she/he is now in heaven (in the way it is consturcted in their mind - with other souls also living in that place jsut as others live among us in this dream of the "world" ) and in that construct of heaven, he/she will live eternally - he/she may never recognize the true nature/essence of us (may eventually) but that is the reality in which she/he lives after death AS THEIR MIND EXPECTS IT TO also. to those who practice law of attraction/manifestation. it only works if you have undying belief in the process not just that, if i think about being rich or getting money outta nowhere, it will happen. if you somehow became aware of the mechanics of this, and did believe as strongly as you do about dying if jumping outta building, then you will manifest that reality infront of you almost instantly about # 2 if one takes the pious/normal route to death and again, she/he is a believer of the heaven promised by Quran/bible - then that is where she/he will dwell allow me to ask you this. sure all that would/could be another construct of reality which is all illusiory - but given the option, would you not take it? that you can never die - live eternally in bliss and harmony - live with whoever you wish/will, marry or whatever as many women as you please (because that's the law of the land - in heaven, as we are told and as is constructed in your mind) in short: one having not a firm enough believe may not get this version of heaven after life, it is ultimately our beliefs which define our reality very important to note that this promised heaven is still illusiory but who will complain if one lives in eternal illusion if there is no pain, hungery, violence and nothing but fun,sex,food, no disease, no dirt, peace the higher level of full transesnedant out of the illusion to the god-head / oneness state is still the most higher level but this path/end still awaits to those souls who would be having this experinince knowing reality as all possiblities that can be, and all are now - then these states i describe above absoultely do exist. nothing can not exist. just the road-way, pathway to there needs to be taken - mechanism and belief is the key