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To sit for hours, one needs heavy breathing and Haritaki to boost oxygen. After practice, there is no more pain because the nerves and arteries go into full throttle with Kundalini. Is horrific the pain until you get the river to flow inside, but worth it after. Don't get discouraged, find bliss in pain. <3

You may have your dopamine receptors damaged due to the abuse of weed and tasty food, if you follow this lifestyle then it will be medically impossible to experience happiness. Stay away from short term gratification and stimulation. When your brain will be healed you will experience pure bliss just meditating. The little pleasures in life will feel like enormous pleasure.

No, it doesn't. Being older makes it easier. Or at least it can. There is a very large range of individual differences. Just because a person is 60 does not mean they have become a whole person, able to disassemble and put away their individuality without craving or attachment because they have fully lived a life. Especially not in our society. When you are 20, you have less stored material in the structures of your mind and selfhood systems, which in theory might make it easier to disassemble them and put them away and for whatever remains to enter freedom. But, a 20-year-old is also full of cravings and has not had the life experiences which will let the,m know with certainty that what is craved is not a fulfillment of the craving. Even tho they might know intellectually that craving just is, it's built in, unfulfillable, the deep knowing that there is no end to craving isn't theirs yet. What happens is often something like this, when you have an enlightenment in your twenties. You have an experience which is real, significant, and powerful. But, pretty much right away, the craving comes back. And then, ironically, you're enlightenment can become a burden, unless you have 'right understanding' of what happened to you. because you will think in the thinking and word using brains that reassembled for you after the enlightenment, "hey, I'm enlightened, I understand this and I understand that." And maybe you do understand those things. But only a small part of you does, and large areas of you are exactly the same as before (or maybe worse). Chances are not bad that you may have met someone who is in fact in that state, they've had a strong "enlightenment", and in some ways, they seem enlightened, but in a bunch of other ways, they really don't seem enlightened. And all too often they are unaware that there is a contradiction between parts, that they can be saying something profound while acting out something really lame and banal. Why do I say these things, and how do I know? I had my first "enlightenments" in my twenties. I'm in my sixties now. Lots of other reasons I could offer to the "how f do I know", but that is enough. If you are wondering if you need to push to enlightenment now because it will be harder later, it does not work quite like that. What makes it harder is attachments and cravings. If right now you have no wife, no children, no possessions, you have few attachments but may have many cravings. In your thirties, you may have a wife, and find yourself with children and a job and such. You will probably have even more cravings, and you will have a huge load of attachments. "enlightenments" would be very hard, and if you got it, it could be a disaster for those you love and for you as well. At 60, you might be a bitter craving old man who never lived, or you might be a serene complete man who lived everything available, and each of those states offers its own unique problem,s. Something to keep in mind. "Enlightenment" confers no special benefits. We think it will. It doesn't. It's tricky to explain what this really means and how it works. Because you do get things. The ability to be in bliss at will, for example. Sounds like it's a benefit, right? But in practice, it's not. It's kinda logical too. If there is no difference between you and all other beings, no difference between you and god, no difference between one's appearance of awareness and the ground of which one is aware, how would it be possible for you to get special benefits? Now, or wait? That's your decision to make.

Awakening is too good to be understood by language and notions. The feeling is not what one will expect before awakening. It becomes bliss even if one is in horrific pain per example. After, there is only one law that rules in the living world, on the light side of the matter. The infinite cycle of birth, death and rebirth.

Well maybe someone is able to attain that state at will. I personally can't even though I had random moments. Maybe yogis and Buddhist monks can, not sure. But I doubt most people can. I think they may experience it a few times in their lives like via near death, psychedelics or even random moments and as a result came to this realization. But once your mind comes creeping back you end up forgetting alot of it which makes it really hard to recall. I think mediation allows this consciousness or whatever you want to call it, to flow through you to where you have a higher sense of intuition and creative ideas, a sense of peace and love since they come from this state, place or whatever it is. That's one thing I forgot to mention. You also experience unimaginable bliss. Like you felt no love like this. Its that agape, or unconditional love people speak of. You'll know when you're ready to trip when you ready to surrender and have a "it is what it is" attitude. You know how somethings happen in life and you're whatever about it? Yea gwt that going if you're not already. Don't try to control the trip. Let it be. The more you fight it the tougher it will get. They call it a trip for a reason. Because you will be going on a trip lol

im absolutely tired of suffering its not fun, its hell, its hell on hell on hell and to all the spiritual guru's and know hows who keep saying that you have to put in the hard work that enlightenment and eternal bliss is to be deserved, FUCK YOU if it was up to me everyone would be allowed to be happy instantly, to be enlightened right now without putting in any hard work without any practice, without any friggin dedication, just happiness for everyone I dont want to bear the worlds suffering like jesus, no thanks to that cross I dont want to live a life without sex like buddha, I wanna fuck pretty girls, there I said it, its how I really feel I want a ton of girlfriends, I want to live my daily life doing something I love, not getting grinded from 9 to 5 at a daily job just because I dont want to end up homeless on the streets without money, who designed this shit? God?me?us? spiritual teachers telling everyone we chose this live out of free will? I never chose this bullshit and I dont want any of it one big fucking brain wash, it almost seems I tried the infinite love, but reality always wins they want you to pretend everything is fine, you better smile and love and be positive or else.... im tired of this garageswamp bullshit painfilled mess that we call earthly reality, its the worst dream I ever made and if I ever fucking awaken to my higher self beyond this life ill punch myself for having chosen this "spiritual journey" I never killed anyone, I never beat anyone,I made a few mistakes yes,those mistakes make up a 0.050 of my ovrral behavior I tried to play nice, I tried to be kind,I hoped for everyone's success, for what? everyones dead because I "realized" we're all one and life still sucks, jesus f there's one thing I learned in this spiritual journey is that I deserve better, I deserve fucking better, if it really turns out I chose this journey out of free will I need to respect myself more ps. fuck you life

@martin_malin All I have to say is -wow. It's like mr. Campbell wrote this just for me to see. @Elisabeth Thank you for your kind words and encouragment. You are absolutely right. I CAN take care of myself. Survival is not a problem in today's world. And also if I don't follow my bliss now, when will I ever do it? Thank you again.

Hey All, Again, this is not my personal experience but rather intellectual understanding based on my reading of trip reports and Leo's/Other Guru's videos. Here it is. Leo has been reincarnated. Leo and all those who have had "breakthroughs" on DMT/SHROOM/LSD etc trips. How so? Leo, as well as other people's trip reports I have read say this: "I died." That is how they see the truth. upon their death. Call it ego-death or whatever, but as Leo has said this many times - ego-death vs our normal definition of physical death, are really the same thing. Ego-Death isn't anything less than the "REAL-Physical" death of a person. Now where is the "reincarnation"? Many trip reports I have read, people say that they spent an eternity in that state of one-ness, of eternal bliss or whatnot etc before "returning" back to their bodies. Now people say this also, that when we are born, we "choose" to incarnate in a certain body, knowing all well what we intend to do in that lifetime of the person we are being born as. So what we can say is this, when people who just take these substances have a breakthrough experience where they have an ego-death - they then "choose" to come back to this reality. They come back fresh from having downloaded all those insights in their heads. All the questions answered. and with that knowledge etched in their subconsious, they are usually in that bliss-full state for the 1st few days / weeks after that breakthrough trip. Slowly they integrate back to the earthly life (those who are not on the spirtual path more quickly than the one who has taken the subtance knowing about this) so basically, their previous self before the trip is literally dead. They come back as the "new" version/life of themselves. and this is no different than reincarnation. unsure what mechanism is upon physical-death where the body dies and there isn't anything to return back to... then you maybe "choose" or incarnate near the timeline of ur death... except when we incarte after physical-death, this is done in baby-infant form. where all those insights that we know of, and even the memory of that place, is all lost. even in a fully grown adult state, the experince is barely recalled and whatever is recalled is also said to be a mere pointer and not even 1% of what was witnessed. i feel like this maybe all over the place but yeah, my insight about this is in here somewhere i hope

@Leo Gura Question please. For someone like yourself who has had many breakthrough/enlightening experiences... how does that compare to Sadhguru/Ruper Spira/Mooji etc? Like for them, during their each individual path, they have surrenedered and detached so much that when they finally had the last layer stripped away from them of the ego, they are able to remain in that state permanently? so for you, when you did the 1-month off goal for May 2018 - that was an attempt to become like them? in permanent state of bliss? you are not able to remain in that state as they are because you still have some ego/attachments left? just trying to understand the process... i dont know if i overthink this tbh... like often, i wonder if that "infinite love that one feels like they are drowning in" is a state that all these sages can just tap into at will thruout the day?

I also listen to Kip's music from time to time. His art is incresible and can put me into great bliss. I usually focus on the breath or directly on awareness and let the music resonate with my body. Very quickly I an vibrating like crazy!

Here is a short list of technology's good and bad sides I've learnt from experience over the years. Technology Benefits Information is readily available (discovering new views, and understandings) leading to our expansion and deeper connection with ourself when we bring what we learn into direct experience. Connects you when you are not connected geographically. Spreads messages of love, and oneness through communities. Downfalls Spread of hate, problems with the world. Numb state of Mind. Disconnection from the people around us, including ourselves. Relying on a phone for happiness rather than our hearts. Usually an escape from intimacy, uncomfortable emotions and being present in general: Key practices to reach enlightenment. Divides us from knowing who we are, and what we enjoy doing. We don't see that God is in everything that arises. Promotes instant Gratification. Concentration for long periods of time is reduced. Puts our minds typically in a Beta wave state of consciousness. We become less intimate with people, robotic. Dependancy on loving communities to feel accepted, and to feel love; instead of looking at the angel within. Up to Decades of life is spent in a virtual world (in a dark room without fresh air and sunlight) instead of exploring the real world such forests, doing things we love (instruments), and being with other human beings. Being inside can lead to mental, emotional, and physical illnesses; lower our vibration, disconnect us from nature, and take us further into separation away from oneness which feels like total bliss. Being inside as a result of technology can also deactivate areas of our brain, and lead to reduced sleep quality. We feel less expansive indoors, and especially whilst focusing on a screen. The low frequency of a artificial screen along with the lack of certain types of energies we would get from sunlight trains our subconscious mind to that frequency. Ultimately we live a shorter, less fulfilled life when we rely upon anything external from love. All of these points in themselves are quite significant if you go through the full consequences of each one, and how ones whole life would be affected just by spending too much time being indoors on any kind of technology such as TV's, video games, phones and laptops. It's important to do things that bring more love, expansion and oneness in life which technology can offer such as with learning about how ancient societies like the Mayans were so much different from our own yet were more connected to nature and closer to God behind their primitive appearance. Or about the latest scientific findings that are less mainstream, or as a way of learning something real such as yoga. In the end we must remember technology is a virtual world, and as we evolve we will move more away from it back to nature which is the ultimate piece of technology in existence Think of Jesus, or God, and if he were you; what he do? One such person I know similar to this is Matt Kahn who spends an hour or two a week online outside of writing books to write a FaceBook blog. Lincoln Gergar goes on FaceBook once a week, emails once a day for his business. That tells you something. I know live by, if I'm really excited to research something, I'll do it. But I must be excited which is the case maybe once or twice a week. And I'd be fine without internet, I'd just read more books, and meet people locally etc. and also, I know what to do to experience infinite love after a year of deep research, so it's easier to just be now without that itch of seeking. It's defiantly an addiction I have, and fasting, meditation, sunlight, and love has helped a lot. I feel dependant on this, as I did food all but a week ago. I just stay because I don't want to miss out on the next biggest insight, I just stay out of fear. I'm going to do a 7 day urine fast starting tomorrow, and in that time I will also do a 7 day fast from technology to reestablish a healthy relationship with it. I'll meditate and spend more time outside, and read some of Matt Kahn and Lao Tzu. I will meditate for a few hours too to establish the formal practice again in my life (I always informally meditate upon my heart-centre). I do this knowing that no thoughts is an essential part of awakening, and the source of all other addictions. I'll talk more about thoughts in the future. I will face all of that fear of missing out, and all of the detoxification symptoms linked with being normalised to instant gratification. It's gonna be fun, uncomfortable, and gratifying on a long term level which feels amazing. I just feel grateful to be alive to write this, and that's what I wish to expand. I'll update my experience on 8/7/18. I intend for these fasts to be the most transformative and deeply healing of my life.

I would suggest DMT or 5-Meo if you want a more powerful experience that will blast your fears. Yes they will come up but shortly after you will know you either surrender and let go or experience extreme suffering which in most cases you will probably pass out if you hold on too long but something greater part of yourself always seems to take over and guide you that it will be okay. Or you could take some raw cacao high quality grade dark chocolate and eat half a bar or make a rich hot chocolate beforehand or when coming up into the mushroom experience. There's so many positive and bliss inducing/love chemicals in cacao it has been used with psychedelics and mushrooms for thousands of years. Some people with extreme cases of fear/anxiety use small doses of MDMA with Mushrooms. You'd have to research the most preferred timings for these kind of flips. Candyflip, Nexsusflips, Hippieflips ect..

Edit: Hello, people. I thought it would be inappropriate to post something long without an introduction. I'm BMOss, a relatively new member, currently lost and stuck. My main question here is "how do you start to improve your life?" Because currently I am so confused and at odds with myself I can't bring myself to do it. What follows is the train of thought that led me to this question. Thank you for reading, even if only up to this point. Thank you for your feedback, and thank you Leo and the moderators team, and the userbase for keeping this place alive. Thank you, have a good day. I didn’t know much about personal development (aka “self-help”) until about three years ago when I looked up material on self-esteem. In fact at that point I was at an all-time psychological low, but for the first time I had figured out at least part of my problems. Psychologist Jordan B. Peterson, whom I discovered later, and to some extent veteran consultant Jocko Willink spoke more about self-respect. After self-esteem and self-respect, I read about other aspects of psychology but also a little of philosophy, politics and religion. And while the new found knowledge appeased me (who would have thought I was creating my own issues?!) it only partially diminished my fears and self-loathing, and it certainly created new fears. For instance, I’m very resistant to the idea of change, main argument being that if “I” grow, I’m only benefitting the “me” from the future while replacing current “me”. Granted Leo made a pretty good point about “level two people coming against level eight problems, discovering they need more growth, strength and willpower to bust through”. I also am lucky enough to have successful people in my family (and they own most of their success to voluntary growth, hard work and discipline, and mental fortitude). However I don’t deliberately “surround myself with successful people” for reasons I’ll discuss right now. Putting aside the fact that I’m lonely, bitter, misanthropic and don’t have most of the things Jordan Peterson said a healthy human needs (no friends, no job, no intimate relationship, no real hobby, no schedule, no life purpose and personal values I’m constantly questioning). *Let’s assume that to live a full and exciting life a man (broadly, I’m also including women in there) must accept responsibility, believe in himself and that there’s good in the world, and then act out the leap of faith by voluntarily shouldering the burden of existence. This means to look for meaning, for purpose, while accepting that life is fundamentally suffering, and that tragedy is unavoidable. *Ideally (but that’s the end game), this man will also work on increasing his consciousness to the point that he becomes enlightened, understands concepts like non-duality, becomes one with his inner self and surrenders agency to live a life of bliss and unconditional love. Here’s my problem, or the first thing that comes to mind as of late: this is so unbelievably stupid. Emotions don’t matter that much. Or if they do, if a lack of sustainable, genuine daily positive emotion is all it takes to push some men and women “to the dark side” then that show how weak we are. The second reason this is stupid is because it is naïve. Since life is fundamentally unfair, to just accept it and look for meaning in spite of it is to agree to play a rigged game. Your bubble of happiness is a placebo effect, it’s no different from someone who takes psychedelic drugs daily to cut connections with reality. But here’s the second thing that comes to mind, and likely it’s another side of me speaking. Humans needs purpose because they are weak. And like Peterson said humans need a reason to move forward. If there is none, there is no reason to move forward. Also: to refuse to “play the meta game”/to live life just because the world is perceived as unfair makes me no different from radical social justice ideologues. From people who only complain, but when asked for what alternatives they want to offer have no clear idea, or one that is impossible to bring into reality without oppressing billions. I’m lucid enough to know I can not bully reality into giving me perks, and even if I extorted my next door neighbour, it would never protect me from getting cancer, erase my limiting beliefs or prevent me from getting older. In short we need all this complex apparatus of things in place in our lives (friends, a job, engrossing hobbies, schedules, life purpose, possibly even intimate relationships, values we honor) because otherwise we would see no meaning. We would not move forward. We could not tolerate life. Peterson had this idea that to live the ultimate life is to make the ultimate sacrifice. This means a) to picture a vivid image of reality as tragic and dangerous and chaotic and unfair as it could possibly be b) to conceptualize a counterweight, to figure out reasons to fight so that in spite of life being all that nasty stuff it was still worth it in the end. c) “To get out in the unknown and live forthrightly in the world” in spite of any limitation, obstacle, hazard, unfairness, etc… This is how many conceptualize heroes – people who “struggle with all their being against the tragedy of life”, people who are “a light rather than a blight”. However this way of living is incredibly hard. It requires a lot of humility. It requires a lot of courage. It requires to take responsibility at least for one’s own thoughts, actions, circumstances and wishes. It requires a commitment to learning and the acceptance of vulnerability, and the inability to ever study everything or achieve any “ultimate” knowledge. It requires a radically open mind. All of the above entails at least some level of personal exploration, both inner and outer. However most people, me included, are very much scared of this introspection. It usually involves accepting you could be willing to do some very nasty actions, take a very dark road. I’m afraid that I could never “go back” if I imagine the circumstances under which I’d be willing to. I like to think of myself as good, or at least good enough, but here are many wise men telling me I’m just naïve. Naïve isn’t “good”… In any case, my biggest question remains whether this is all worth it. I’m past the point where I won’t do it just because 99% of humanity won’t. However I’m left with some very deep questions that I absolutely must formulate: - If ultimately all this gives me is positive emotion, is it still worth it? - If ultimately all it gives me is happiness, is it still worth it? - If ultimately all it gives me some Truth I am uncomfortable with, namely the realization that I’m Ether, that I’m nothing, that it doesn’t even matter that I ever existed, is it still worth it? At this moment it’s not just about me. On one hand I could be looking for self-improvement and help out the community by “playing the best game I can”. Like Leo said it’s selfish behaviour that is ultimately unselfish. On the other hand I could keep slapping myself for even contemplating quitting college until I find a field I’m a little interested in, and honor the sacrifices my parents and grandparents, and… made my becoming a high status man. Quantitatively, won’t it be more beneficial to the world? Won’t it change the world for the better? You could make the argument that “I am the world” and all that matters if whether I’m happy. But it doesn’t sit right with me. Because I think I’m not worth it. I still think I’m not worth it. I still have the issues I had three years ago when I started to read about personal development. Bceause nothing changed much in the last three years, I just gained a little more awareness. But if I can’t find happiness even within the confines of my cage, how do you expect me to find it elsewhere, where it’s so vast? I’m too afraid to commit 100% to exploration because I’m afraid I might be just wasting my life. If all there is to life is positive emotion, I could get it through drugs or through videogames. I could even try to mindfuck myself into thinking that the world is beauty to be sitting at a bench in bliss, like the author of “the Power of Now” (scratch that, I know his circumstances were exceptional, and that it usually takes a journey to arrive to that point). But you see the idea. If a lifetime of wandering is what is takes to come back to point zero and “realize” that life is life and the world is love, how detrimental is it to “the physical world”, to society? What would I have accomplished? Raised a family? Founded a business? 1% of them would undertake the journey and live a ultimately meaningful life. Should I not care whether they do? Is it even ethical? Isn’t it more socially and religiously acceptable to encourage people to do better and wish they do? I’m confused. Many said that to start at least “baby stepping” problem solving one needs to know where he is and where he’s heading to. A ship needs a course. Well, I don’t know either! I still haven’t strategized as Leo advised, I still haven’t meditated because I’m constantly questioning it’s utility and benefits; I still haven’t introspected. Peterson’s Self Authoring program is collecting dust on my shelf even though I bought it last Christmas. “Twelve Rules for Life” had me think for a week but I scarcely remember any of it. All I faintly know is that Big Five wise I’m very neurotic, very un conscientious, very introverted, moderately agreeable and with a low-ish open-ness to new experience. All I faintly know reality-wise is that at twenty four I’m entering second year of college and am very un-interested in my combined English-Japanese course. I also know that I’m in college to appease my parents and myself, and play/pretend I am a college student. And to not have to work. That I could not bear. At least right now, and the reason is basically the same “why bother?” All I faintly know as far as the destination is concerned is that I’ll be more comfortable with a “safe” job, but one where I could speak in different languages (I speak four) and (a very “millennial” thing to say) make an impact. Call me a neurotic idiot, but I get the feeling I must be contributing to the betterment of society, at least somehow. Now, my problem is that I hate society 99% of the time, or at least some aspects of society. And I’m constantly making excuses to not take any sides, to not fight for anything, to not serve anyone, even myself. So, where am I now? In Hell. No. That would be too big of a world. I’m in a ditch. A spoiled brat in a ditch. A smart brat who won’t get out even though the ladder is here. So, where do I want to head? Correction, where do I think Iwant to head? I don’t know. Will this ever get published? Perhaps! I thought I’d ask you guys question, but by end of this diatribe the first words that pop up in my mind are “I’m doing this for myself” and the second words “why would I bother people with this?”. But heck, what do I have to lose. If this gets deleted, I still have it on my hard drive. If someone gets anything valuable out of this, good for them. If by any chance a good Samaritan helps me with a little piece of advice, I’ll be thankful. But I’m not asking for attention. No, wait, I am. I want to know what you guys think of this, how do you guys cope. And please don’t delete this the second you see this, Mister or Miss Moderator. I respect you and your job and I know the site rules. I don’t mean any harm, I just wanted to share my thoughts. That is all.

I did a 7 day retreat earlier this year and felt 5meo like effects on and off from like the 5th day on. Mostly it was during dreams, I had one very brief non-dual experience when waking from a dream (became the whole screen so to speak) and other than that i felt some 5meo like bliss (albeit subtle) during/around sleep at the end of the week. Apart from that I definitely had strong visions that begun on the 5th day (not sure which psychedelic chemical would be responsible here as apparently dmt doesn't get released till 10 days in the dark but who knows), sort of like scenes including figures/creatures moving around and also projected a full cave onto my apartment (no auditory hallucinations but they can appear after a bit longer i have read). It like created a space for this cave sort of encompassed within the perimeter of my apartment but of course not perfectly accurate so it made it hard to move around. then a cave ceiling that seemed to be 10m high with sharp rocks hanging from the top. I was pretty blown away that it was happening to me and it was just getting more and more intense as the days went on. I am hopefully going to do 10 days in September (still got the black garbage bags over my windows) because then I am sure I would have had some more 5meo like effects along with more vivid visions as colours and density was getting progressively more intense. It is very gradual though. The first 4 or 5 days all i got was the dark flashing white strobe like lights and weird pixelated light energy type stuff. Then all of a sudden things appear in the peripherals and from there it opened up for me. Probably the hallucinations are all just a distraction from the meditation etc but it was a bizzare experience i feel not many humans will ever have. Not taught this stuff at school about the brain haha. The figures were pretty creepy and often reaching out at me, but nothing too overwhelming as it still seemed just like a fake projector. It didn't have like a presence in the room if that makes sense. It was pitch black for me. I cooked in the dark (all i eat is meat) and wore a blindfold to cover my eyes from the flame and used a timer. You could somehow prep other sort of food im sure. Then i covered black garbage bags over windows, but be careful with this because some of the paint is ripped from it, think you can use some sort of attachment sheet for the wall. Covered every bit of light (even fire alarms etc) because your eyes become so adjusted that even the slightest dot makes a difference. It was quite an effort doing it in my own apartment but still much better than paying to do it away. Was nice knowing my bearings around the apartment as well. It was bloody tough though of course, don't even have sight to distract you haha quite uncomfortable like you're entombed.

Although I don't wish to get too lost in diet, it is such an important part of awakening. My new "regime" is to eat 3 small meals a week while drinking urine, and some herbal teas. This may be taking it to far, but I wasn't born to play life safely e.g. I love until it feels like my heart explodes, and I constantly focus on it 24/7. I am not relenting until I experience the bliss of God every second, to feel so loved by myself, that my child-like heart expands and engulfs anything unrepresentative of God. I've been receiving these moments of euphoria for existing in this world in times where I surrender into the heart whilst in this fasted state. It happens more and more while fasting, it's as though it amplifies the love I have for life more expansively. I get these moments too where I become aware of how "thin" my identity of myself as a human being is, of how easily and how in any moment it could crumble, making me become no thing. This fasting, and prayer of love, and purity has created a new life for me, and it will keep growing the more I surrender to this moment. I can surrender much more than I am. I know my potential is much higher than what I believe. I live in a world of people who are disconnected from love, reconnecting myself to love. When you have no example of a person who is all-loving and kind, it just makes this awakening all the more rewarding and personal. I am on the first wave of ascension, so I'm the one showing people what it means to dare to be love. I am hurt, heartbroken and shattered for no reason I can find; and in response, I trust my heart further, and surrender deeper and deeper and deeper. Because anything that arises is only here to make us surrender into the light, which looks a lot like nothingness. The kingdom of heaven is.

I binge watch and read non-duality and have insights I have also been getting into Vernon Howard lately which has been given me a huge blow to my ego. My mind is still really busy but I can quiet it within seconds now. And I can tap into feelings of insane bliss within seconds too - through my focus. I am also able to see that everything I am saying here is B.S. and a part of the illusion. But I still don't know if that counts as yellow. Because I am still super neurotic at the same time.

@Mirror of Confusion , yes, there are so many. Several in Rishikesh should be avoided. The ashram, whose Guru may have passed on, may presently be led by egotistical, dictatorial heads. Sri Aurobindo's ashram in Pondicherry as well as Auroville are well worth visiting. I have been there briefly, but know many followers of Sri Aurobindo - he was a great intellectual and that spirit lives on coupled with one of service and eco living. People are happy to discuss, debate, explain while remaining firm in their allegiance to him and the Mother. If you would like to meet a living Guru with a large following then do visit Amma's ashram in Kerala. Amma (Mata Amritanandamayi), also known as the hugging mother, has amazing powers to move people along their spiritual paths. Her first hug, according to many, bestows wonderful experiences if one is in a state of readiness. I personally felt healed, and a deep calm and contentment - there was nothing more that I needed or wanted to do. People report going into a deep meditative state or experience bliss. However, I disagreed with some practices of her Ashram: I found that non-Indians, i.e., white people from abroad, were given preferential treatment. They did not have to queue along with everyone to receive a hug. The had their own area with just a few people and were right up close to Amma most of the time. Their eating areas were also separate where they could buy (very cheaply) western style foods. Really?!! Why go to India then. The ashram shouldn't have pandered to their tastes. The Indians felt they couldn't venture into their dining areas or sit with them. It became a kind of apartheid.

As I listend to different enlightened people I see a pattern. Some seemed to have reached a state of profound peace and contentment, but other say that there is more and that if you dive deep enough, you can get to "out of this world bliss and love". My question is: Is there someone here who experiences constant bliss?

Total Integration/embodiment is the result of seeing the futility in moving in accordance to time. To negate any movement whatsoever in seeking psychological security. To live with what is, which implies the ending of fear. It’s only when fear is not, that there is bliss. It’s only in virtue-order, that there can be bliss. Only in bliss can there be complete action, holy action.

Indeed, bliss cannot be cultivated. And thought is one and the same movement/process as cultivation...Any movement of thought prevents bliss.

How can you be bliss when you are that which is looking for bliss? How can you be bliss if you are that which doubts if you are blissful? Thoughts can take us to the locked gate, but the seizing of thought is the key.

Ultimate Bliss is only in the cessation of experience as the i A movement not bound by time(thought) A dynamic stillness

bliss is shared and reflected among friends and brothers and sisters it is my opinion, a matter of collective

It does depend on whether an enlightened person is still meditating on a daily basis and maintain Śamatha, a state of equanimity, joy, love, bliss which is associated with more gamma brain waves, otherwise they have no self, non-dual perspective but still quite dull mind, and because of it no constant love/bliss feeling.

@okulele I’m currently working towards it. I feel far more bliss than I did just two months ago. I’m confident I’ll make it to constant bliss by a year or two. If you’re thinking about getting to constant bliss through meditation, you can forget about it. You won’t get it.