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  1. Hey Guys, I'm new here, normaly I only watch Leos videos on youtube and I've never visited the actualized.org forum till now. But for the question I have, I had the feeling this is the right place to look for an answer. My person: I'm male, 22 years old, philosophy student in germany and spiritual seeker. I had several spititual experiences on psychedelics but also a few on meditation with music. My most glowing experience was on hawaiian baby woodrose seeds where i was close to ego death but in the last moment i literally dropped from my bed beacause my body moved so strong. For this time, I'm planning to take mdma, maybe combined with hawaiian baby woodrose seeds maybe alone. It depends on your answers So I have two things that I'm mainly unsure about the dosage of the MDMA Should I take the MDMA alone or combined with the LSA seeds I took MDMA about 10 times in my life. Most times in a club setting and a few times with some friends where we talked the whole night about the most personal shit in our lifes. I had some really awsome and growing experiences on it, but most of the time the intend was recreational. Even if some times the result of the trip was way more then just recreational use and having fun. I think the highest dose of MDMA i had so far was around 250-300mg But thats the point where it stops being recreational and funny for me and confusion and anxiety starts kicking in. The two times I took LSA seeds it was clearly a more spiritual intend. One time it was with my best friend at that time together. Just laying on the floor enjoing music and diving deep in ourselves. The second time on LSA was the one I had mentioned briefly above. There I had the clear intend to just lay on my bed for 6 hours and see what happens. It was so crazy I can hardly put it in words. Back to my plans for this experience: I was thinking about combining MDMA and the Hbwr seeds. Is there anyone who has experience with this combination and can tell me how these substances synergize with each other? Because of the factor that LSA seeds make you become really nauseous, I want to keep the dosage of it really low. Maybe 2-4 seeds. Then look how i feel and once im sure the nausea is over to take around 100-200 mg of MDMA. The idea behind it is to to have an slightly more psychedelic and slightly longer MDMA trip to get deeper then just with MDMA. For me LSA makes it really easy not to overthink shit and just focus on nothingness. Do you think I need the LSA in addition? Or is MDMA alone powerful enough to get me in a deep meditative state when i just lay down and focus on it? Are there any potential risks with combining these two substances? What do you think about an tripsitter? Often I have the feeling another person is distracting me from the work I have to doo. Especially on MDMA where it happens really easy that you talk 2 hours straight without beeing concious of it. If you have any suggestions for the dosage of the MDMA and the LSA combined and at which time I should take what I would be really glad of that Thanks for your time and your anwers Greetings from Germany
  2. Be carefull because it sounds like you're just blindly believing everything Leo says, and even then not actually understanding it properly. You need to realise that everything you're writing about is purely conceptual. All your ideas about 'enlightenment', about 'infinity', about 'consciousness', about 'nothingness' are all not what they are referring to, and are all just thoughts that are, to a certain degree, no use to you at all. They are guidelines that should be understood, but held loosely and not mistaken for whats actually true. This is all false and just assumptions that you're making about something which you have no direct experience of. You don't realise that you don't exist right now. There is no self right now, yet you still enjoy sex, family and everything else. Sensory and emotional pleasure are not affected by spiritual awakening. If anything you will enjoy them 100x more. 'I'm just consciousness' is just a thought, a belief. Drop it. You don't know what you are.
  3. Heres the thing about the issue you're currently having. Leo is simply telling you to be open minded. To destroy your materialistic paradigm. So of course nothing makes sense right now, so that is why people responding "Do spiritual work" and "You will find it in yourself". I think the issue is that you feel like you have to try to exist. When you're talking about "how do I enjoy stuff", its the fact you're trying to enjoy stuff. You're "doing" to enjoy stuff rather than simply "enjoying". This is the main difference between "doing" and "being". You assume that since there is no ego after enlightenment, there is no enjoyment but you see after only you've been enlightened, you can finally understand why enjoyment is not needed, since there is no self. So HA, if there is no enjoyment, then why do I want to be enlightened! I won't be able to enjoy things anymore! But why do you want to enjoy things in the first place. EGO. That goes onto another point, then why bother doing anything if nothing I do is for me or if nothing is actually real?. THAT is the question you need to be asking. You must BE and not DO. Why bother doing things if it isn't real? It seems like its a chore. But that's way meditation is needed. That's why we need to think about why we do things. That is why we tell ourselves to clear our minds when we meditate, so we can "be" rather than thinking, which is essentially "doing". Only when we are true absence of the thoughts we are being. This is why we become mindful of our actions. What are we "doing". You see the common theme? You're doing. Not being. So I'm going to try to answer these questions in a way to keep you in line with actualized.org. To stop you from backsliding How can reality be nothing? The universe is created by the big bang. Outside of that is nothing. So if you want to apply logic to this question, the only way the universe could be made if it was equal to nothing. The big bang was nothing. Reality is nothing, because it was made from nothing. assume n is nothing and R is relationship. nRn. Nothing has a relation with nothing. But that doesn't make sense and hence you need to work on it by BEING. It is why you can't explain how reality can be nothing with Science. And if you use science to explain why reality exists, it goes backwards. OK how am I made? Atoms. How are atoms made? Stars. How are stars made? from the explosion of the big bang, antimatter and matter, collision. Ok? How is the big bag made? It's not, its made from nothing. So we are nothing. This makes no sense at all because of the materialistic and idea of "objective" paradigms. Find these answers, then you find why reality is nothing Why bother doing anything if nothing exists? You don't need to do anything even if reality does exist. Nothing is forcing you to do something but "yourself" which is the ego. You can just sit in silence and be content and one with the universe. That is what Leo actually promotes. Will this affect your day to day life to a point where your life is going to be ruined from doing nothing?!. No. Again, it's your ego saying "DO THINGS". It only affects your interpretation of the universe. You can still work in a 9-5 job or study at school but ultimately, you've realised that nothing exists, so I am just being and you become content. After enlightenment, there is no ego, there is no need for enjoyment The ego is all about "me". So you do not need enjoyment! You don't need to do anything! So is it shameful to enjoy things? No. But what is shameful is for not realising you're inline with the ego and doing. That is something you have to explore by yourself. But what I can say is that is a lot of these topics are repetitive, and you come to ask yourself the same questions... The same responses.. The same everything because you're questioning your logic in every way. You do not need enjoyment because there is no self. So what about it. Oh I won't enjoy things anymore, how sad. Again, your ego is telling you its bad to not enjoy things, and you get addicted to enjoying things and never become content with what you have. Nothing is sad. Nothing is real. This is a beautiful flow of nothingness! So with the Why Brains Doesn't Exist. Leo was really strong about the materialistic paradigm, the paradigm where we believe there must be some sort of material or substance to hold us all together. When we look at this more deeply, there is no such thing. The big bang supposedly "created" the universe. But where is the universe created from? Nothing. This is because the laws of science doesn't apply to outside of the universe. The "appearences" does not apply to the outside mythical universe. But heres the thing, there is no outside of the universe, this is only a manifestation. This is all a hallucination, its all for nothing. But that's the thing, if its all for nothing, and nothing is real, why do something. That is the point I'm trying to make with this post. There is no need to DO. There is only to BE because nothing exists. You can be nothing. Now to say nothing exists is never truly an correct answer. We just need to find out if what Leo said is true. Sorry for being naive if I am. If I am wrong in any way, PLEASE tell me. I am a new comer to the forums and haven't actually expressed my opinions before!
  4. Thanks for the thoughtful reply. To me, this is the old paradigm of enlightenment. What I've been learning for years. Basically how to make your life better, yourself more happy and how to be love. But, all of Actualized.org's videos tell us that all of that is a illusion. There is no Self, there is no such thing as love, there is no physical world. There is no being happier, cause there is no you to be happy. There is no use in better communication skills, as there are no people to communicate to. It's all a hallucination. So either Leo is right, and we are just nothingness and nothing in this life matter not one bit. Or the old paradigm is right, and I should continue to try and make my life better.
  5. I'm going directly off of Leo's videos. Namely the one on there is no brain, there is no free will, and the ones on infinity. According to these videos, there is no physical world. The whole world and everything in it, is a hallucination made by infinite consciousness, that is also nothingness. I do not know what nothingness experience is like, since I have not done the 10,000 hours of work it supposedly takes to experience it. Point of the post was, why would I want to experience it?
  6. “At the center of our being is a point of nothingness which is untouched by sin and by illusion, a point of pure truth, a point or spark which belongs entirely to God, which is never at our disposal, from which God disposes of our lives, which is inaccessible to the fantasies of our own mind or the brutalities of our own will. This little point of nothingness and of absolute poverty is the pure glory of God in us. It is so to speak His name written in us, as our poverty, as our indigence, as our dependence, as our sonship. It is like a pure diamond, blazing with the invisible light of heaven. It is in everybody, and if we could see it we would see these billions of points of light coming together in the face and blaze of a sun that would make all the darkness and cruelty of life vanish completely ... I have no program for this seeing. It is only given. But the gate of heaven is every- where.” ― Thomas Merton
  7. That's exactly my point though. Why would I dedicate my life to learning and achieving Enlightenment, if enlightenment is the literal destruction of everything it means to be a human, and give me infinite nothingness? You can say 'you won't know till you know, so just trust it's good', but my original point was why would anyone actually want this?
  8. Buddhism died in India, and one of the basic reasons was Buddha’s way of putting his philosophy. All other philosophies were so positivistic, and all their positivism was turning into stronger and stronger egos. He moved to the other extreme, seeing that positivism is going to give you egoistic ideas — and that is a hindrance between you and existence. To stop this idea he became totally negative. Many came to Buddha and turned away, because nobody can make nothingness be his life’s achievement — for what? So much discipline and so much great trouble in getting into meditation just to find out that you are not… strange kind of man this Gautam Buddha. We are good as we are, what is the need of digging so deep that you find there is nothing? Even if we are dreaming, at least there is something. You are nothing. You don’t have a self because you are part of a great self, the whole. You cannot have any separate, private, self of your own.It is a tremendous achievement to understand that you are part of the whole, that the whole belongs to you, that you belong to the whole.
  9. Don't only rely on one source, otherwise it will really become a cult. Actualized.org is useful to understand reality and spirituality as a sort of deconstruction or cleaning up everything until nothing remains so you can have clean view, but you also need to combine this radical non-dual approach to spirituality with other things: religions, scriptures, psychology, art, science etc. etc etc Because if you only have nothingness then you will turn ideas that people share on this forum into dogmas. Because you need ground anyway, and its important to update ground all the time. Don't follow into reductionism trap, coz model is required to navigate, you just need to update your model, never settle for anything even if you are super-enlightened. And nonduality is quite useless without traditional spirituality, modern teachings are useless without ancient teachings. Because these all are signs, maps, some better some worse. And always think for yourself, deconstruct all of that and then intuitively integrate each in one another, nothing can really be thrown away, its all has reason for existence, even if seems like archaic non-sense to you. And do this not for entertainment but well to survive spiritually, and to live like you were designed to live, and to find what you lost, and for that you need to understand what our life is about, and what is the true way, what is the narrow gate? To do that one need to think like child (have no prejudices and have 'magical' or symbolic thinking) patient, humble and mindful to his ideas, thoughts, experiences, even his 'truth-realisations', feelings, emotions, and even mindful to his mindfulness, and of course follow your silent soul within heart, its like compass without form, words, voice, it can somehow show you the way if you are mindful enough to follow it. Life is a puzzle and we are here to undertake journey, we don't really know what we are seeking, and dedicate yourself fully to the path, make it your life and mind that spiritual path is not just techniques, it is life, it is quest of life, its not just to be better person, it is really a game, a quest, a transformation from Pinocchio into a real boy, Jesus said only few will find the narrow path. While most on the path will be deceived by themselves, by their own experiences, by their own happiness.
  10. Firstly, thanks @Leo Gura for bringing this technique into my awareness, I’ve done Wim Hoff breathing techniques in the past which made me high but I didn’t know much about these long duration shamanic breathing techniques. My trip report: Tried it now for 45 minutes. I entered a state of flow, so time flew by fast. Tip 1: keep focusing on the breathing technique, if you don’t you will probably slow down your breathing and your trip will start to calm down or stabilize. Effects I felt: Lost sense of some limbs (similar to dead arm) Tingling Fingers curling up without my consent Time slowed down, felt like bullet time in the matrix Shutdown of logical mind and thinking Pressure and tingling in head Entered blissfulness / no mind / non-existent state As always even in my meditations I entered nothingness, I can’t describe it because at that point there is no ego, or no questions, just being, this is what I am fundamentally before body and perceptions take place. I feel like the people who see things or get “insights” is actually just using bits of the mind and ego to come up with stuff because they are seeking insight. I never get anything because I’m not even sure what I’m seeking besides nothingness. After 45 minutes I stopped and timed myself. I spent about 35 minutes before I neutralized, 15 minute in deep meditation (no mindedness) and 20 minutes’ nap lol. Tip 2: After you’re done maybe sit upright so you don’t fall asleep whilst tripping. Negative Side effects: Nausea (Leo didn’t mention this; but I recommend leaving a big gap after a meal) Dizziness and head pressure. Headaches Shivering (might be the room tempature, my hands and feet were cold) Drowsiness Lost of ability to control the body naturally Lingering side effects up to an hour after finishing: Headache Nausea Tip 3: Tribal drumming music can be cool n all that but I recommend something else, listening to drumming for 45+ minutes contributed to my headache even though it wasn’t loud. My question to @Leo Gura and experienced breathers: Is this technique dangerous? Can you actually kill yourself using this technique as a normal healthy individual? Or would you faint/fall unconscious before anything dangerous can happen? My ego kept reminding me how I want to be alive after this and not disappear forever.
  11. I remember a video you did where you talked about arationality. Often thinking about morality, philosophy & metaphysics causes one big jumble. Though tend to think of the line "Take the pain!" from Platoon. Metaphysically I'm personally at Incompatiblism or Illusionism. Freewill an Illusion, a potentiality not an actuality. Perhaps like infinity as a potentiality not actuality? God as Chance? Kind of addicted to the search for understanding, comprehension... I don't really know what. "The farther one travels the less one knows." The Inner Light (The Beatles) - paraphrasing the Tao Te Ching. Greed for more(Supersize me). So much content online of J Peterson, would seem to take a life time to think about all the stuff he covers. "You are not you--you have no body, no blood, no bones, you are but a thought. I myself have no existence; I am but a dream--your dream, a creature of your imagination. In a moment you will have realized this, then you will banish me from your visions and I shall dissolve into the nothingness out of which you made me." Satan, The Mysterious Stranger (Mark Twain)
  12. Tonight I did the shamanic breathing technique mentioned in Leo’s video and I made it close to 30 minutes this time. There was a lot of emotion that came up and it was mostly good. I started to feel extremely thankful for life and all of the opportunities I’ve been given. I felt love for those who I’ve had trouble forgiving. I realized how much I’m yearning for my mother’s love and how much I want to hug her and tell her I love her. Amazing memories came up both good and bad and it was absolutely beautiful to remember them. I probably cried/laughed for a solid 20-30 minutes afterward. At one point I recall becoming aware of the pain I was feeling and disidentifying with it. I felt a space of emptiness around me like I’ve never felt before. I closed my eyes and saw nothingness and felt completely alone. I felt myself settle into the deep vibrating sound of Om. I’ve never heard it as clearly as I did just now and it was quite a cool experience. I just focused on the sound for a little while until it faded and now here I am writing this. If you haven’t tried the breathing exercise yet I highly recommend it. I feel like so much emotion was purged tonight after doing this and it was such a beautiful experience. Everyone should try it!
  13. I think about morality and freewill just like you. I also wonder what the "nothingness" and "emptiness" is. I've had occasions where I have become aware of this pure endless space. And I just want to understand that, but with everything else in context. I have had multiple insight about reality, but my ego just doesn't know what to make of it.
  14. Realization of nondual awareness and ultimate reality as Oneness of impersonal Brahman is only one out of three aspects of Absolute Truth. And its not the main and final aspect but only a first step towards the highest form of spiritual realization which is realization of Bhagavan - forming personal relationship with God - with the Supreme Person/Lord aspect of God. Buddha's realization was of ultimate oneness - of Brahman or of Paramatma, but it wasn't perfect and highest from the perspective of natural spiritual evolution. While Jesus went beyond Buddha, he realized God in its highest form as a supreme person (Lord, God-the-Father). So beyond undifferentiated impersonal oneness of Absolute there is differentiated relationship between human and God as Lord and Servant, Father and Son, Friend and his little human Friend. 'God is the dude in the sky!' is actually end up as the most accurate metaphor of absolute. While infinity, nothingness, consciousness, impersonal Brahman aspects are only half of the story. https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/its-all-onenot-vaishnava-response-advaita-vedanta-steven-rosen “It's All One”—Not! (A Vaishnava Response to Advaita Vedanta) Krishna in Bhagavat Gita also said that realization of relationship with personal Absolute God is higher than realization of impersonal aspect of Brahman. And forming such obedient relationship can itself lead to spiritual realizations. So monotheism of Judeo-Christian and Islamic traditions based on faith, total submission and obedience to Supreme Being were indeed the highest form and understanding of all spiritual seeking of human history. For any being to live in this reality in its most proper and natural and apparently the most happiest way is to fit himself in the hierarchical order of God and Human - reality simply works in such hierarchical order, adult-child, adult is personal aspect of God and child is human-being. God the adult is the one who does everything and child is one who simply plays while doing what God 'tells' him (God's will = nonpsychological actions not based on mind's stereotypes and desires) without being bothered by all the adult-staff. Truly, reality is simple and genious. God is simple, its not complicated. Reality in its true design is the eternal childhood with God-the-Father watching after his kids while kids obey and trust to the father. Archetypes of lost divine father makes sense now.
  15. I know of many people that has realised absolute infinity but then gone beyond it and into the personal god. It's a direct experiance, of seeing the 'personal' god in nothingness. I would say realise absolue infinity, then dont stop you Journey. Stare at a picture of someone like anandamayi ma, Jesus, krishna or ramana maharshi and connect to them. This will trigger purging, and more will be revealed.
  16. My opinion and experience told me that doesn't matter much. Just practice the Do Nothing technique and you will be fine. Your ego will become Nothingness and you will start to see Nothingness everywhere. Whereas previously you saw Ego which then intern created more Ego. Ego loves to cling to a certain perspective and then projects that perspective into reality. Try to meditate and not to cling to a certain perspective so that you will become every perspective and neither perspective at the same time.
  17. Wow, it's funny you ask I have tried this recently and feel like "deadly combo" is a highly accurate description. I was tripping hard, listening to music and playing rocket league. It was hitting me how absolutely insane it was that I was alive in that moment, with all of the incredibly beautiful colors and music and how immensely fun it was, and felt an intensely deep feeling of gratitude as I had the most real sense of "melting into my experience". It was absolutely amazing and pure bliss. I stopped and thought it would be a great time to do some Kriya yoga, as something of a sacrifice and to show my appreciation for the life I've been handed. I was performing the first Kriya initiation (for what it's worth I wear grounding straps when doing yoga), only got to Om Japa when things started getting really weird... I was in the corner of my room, sunlight coming through the windows and mini trampoline in front of me... and it started feeling like I was floating up high above in some sort of nature scene (despite being inside my room). And that everything around me was "mind stuff" and a dream which had quite literally been thought into existence by me (maybe reading Arthur Eddington's section in Quantum Questions prior to tripping intensified this feeling). The floating sensation was intense, it felt like I had absolutely nothing to hold on to. It felt like I was sorta floating over a road (again was inside) kind of about to leave earth. It was at once really cool, and then the next moment really freaky and scary. It felt like the first lucid dreams I'd had, in which I would immediately get scared once I realized I was dreaming. I tried to have pleasant thoughts about it, as it felt like I was sort of floating in nothingness, with all of this mind stuff surrounding me. I started feeling like I was leaving my body, and it hit me hard (whether or not this was an accurate description of what was happening), that I was dying. I was like oh so this is it, I'm having a death experience. Kriya became too powerful, and I asked sorta fearfully like "should I be laying down for this?" I did lay down for a while and it continued, as I sorta went back and forth from something of a non dual state to "real life" (which was seeming more unreal than it ever had before). My breath felt like my connection between me, awareness (aka source or whatever you wanna call it) and me the ego. I felt intense purging of negative emotions as I tried to let go and surrender. I was a bit too freaked out so I got up and started walking around in my apartment. Pacing back and forth felt like I was walking through infinity. I felt trapped and like I'd been running around for an eternity. What was "killing" me was that I'd completely lost it, and felt completely insane and like there was no going back from this. It still felt like I was dying. Like there'd be no return to normal life after this. I was a bit tired and thought to nap, but it occurred to me that going to sleep would kill me. It was all a bit much for me at the time, it felt like external forces were leading the way and I was helplessly trapped in eternal moments, and that in one breath I would feel and think soooo much. I kept thinking that it would pass and I would be back down to earth eventually, but that wasn't very consoling. I was thinking like "please go easy on me" and "this is a lot for me, I'd be okay with more slow spiritual growth through yoga and meditation, and right living." It felt like the external forces (my higher self? Aliens?) were communicating to me through my heart. I would ask questions about what to do in life, some things I've been struggling with going back and forth on having cognitive dissonance over, and my heart would start beating super fast as I thought about different answers to my questions. I felt intense sorrow for the wrongs I'd committed in my life, and the most overwhelming feelings of hoping the absolute best for everyone and all of existence. And to be purified and to only have the most benevolent intentions, and to do whatever was best for the highest good. I decided to get in bed for 20 minutes. Put my sleep mask on and closed my eyes. It felt almost eternal. Feelings of existential despair ensued, it wasn't super pleasant. But I found comfort knowing it was extinguishing karma and would pass. Eventually the 20 minutes were up. I was still in this feeling dead state, but tried to go about my day. Got a more thorough walk in which felt great, some healthy food, meditated deeply later at night, and went to bed. It was profound to say the least and something I'll not soon forget. Trip safely!
  18. LWAM Season 1, episode 3 I willingly exited reality. Now what? What the hell is this? Old reality vanished along with anything familiar. I feel like something launched me into the unknown. If I got abducated by aliens it'd be less radical than this. The driving force of my life is gone - the self. To use Adya's analogy, it's like picking up a dead cat and expecting it to walk. I can't even imagine how long it'll take me to learn how to function in this 'state'. I only know how to operate in the dream and old ways do not work here. I'm nearly waiting for the honeymoon period to settle down and to be stopped by the nondual police with a sign: Not so fast young lady. To get to you a taste of the unknown, this is what fell away: No subject- object relationship No perceptions/ perceiver. No other people. No other period. No space/ physical reality/ boundaries. No time. I feel stuck in the present moment, I can entertain ideas about the past and the future, but they are disregarded as being fictional. My memories appear like quick flashes that have no substance and are ultimately dissmissed as unreal. When I'm talking about my past experiences, it feels like I'm talking about someone else. No beliefs/ positions - I come empty - handed, I have no passion nor will to have a stance on things and believe it's valid and convince others it's true. No highs and lows. It's all the same thing. I'm actually starting to look at sadness with nostalgia. No empathy. This one mindfucked me because I used to consider myself an empath, but that had to go along with everything else I identified myself as. People's suffering doesn't effect me the way it did before, I can't see it as wrong or sad. It is what it is. It just looks delusional. I used to do good things for others because I had that label, but now I'm doing more "good" than ever and this time it's completely spontaneous. No morality. Since I can't draw the distinction between good and evil, it's all acceptable. Murder, rape, pedophilia, getting rick rolled, anything you think of as obscene and evil is the same as anything good. That distinction is imaginary. No meaning. Not only life's meaningless, but the idea of meaning is absurd!!! Only humans can come up with such a ridiculous notion. Meaning is merely a part of the package that comes with the other countless delusions. No suffering. You cannot suffer without a story, it's impossible. Give it your best shot! No ownership. Not over body, not over what you call mind, not over people. Nothing is yours. No life/ no death. There is an illusion of things being created and destroyed, people being born and dying, but in actuality all that ever is nothingness; for eternity. Here's what arose: Detachment- from people, things, values, beliefs, everything. It arose from the no ownership. Songs, movies, people, values, traits I thought of as being mine or 'me' stopped being me and from there a huge level of detachment came. Openness/being expressive - because the editing process is gone, I've been spitting out truth at everyone and much to my surprise, people like it (so far ). People are drawn to authenticity like flies to scheisse. Humility. I permanently got rid off the idea I got this life handled and know things. Acceptance. Everything is welcomed with open arms. Unconditional love for whatever arises. Automatic surrender. I used to practice surrender, now it comes naturally. I know on a very deep level that things can't be otherwise, so I don't see the point of resisting anything. Feeling of wholeness. Pretty indescribable - even though existence is empty, it's so FULL of life. I finally know who I am and I'll never mistake myself for the character I'm playing, but I just started. I may be done with the whole exhaustive spiritual seeking, but now have even more work to do. Closing credits: Void, void, void I'm looking for a good time. Directed by God, the only prankster in existence.
  19. I would give up thinking of reincarnation in conceptual terms because it is not something the body and mind can use. You've already reincarnated an infinite amount what recollection do you currently have of it? Probably none if you're being purely honest. You're already an alien on a planet in infinite space, if you're thinking about other aliens you've just grown bored of your current experience. There is nothing you can hold on to, absolutely nothing, everything you do in this body is temporary and nothing will be kept permanently, your true self is the nothingness or whatever else you want to call it. And the death of this body will not only mean you lose the body and experience but the entire reality, literally meaning any history till this date is lost in an infinite amount of possibilities, even people like the Jesus or Buddha are only relevant within this experience.
  20. That was very inspiring in the first half for me, then when he started to get into nothingness.. I got lost and very drained honestly. I will not be involved in discussions about it, but as someone who came from middle east to America, I can easily see why the western world won't get it.
  21. The recent videos Leo has been making basically proving everything is ungrounded, including logic has been fascinating. I posted this a while ago that all logic is circular, which was an insight that came to me after watching the strange loop videos. If reality is a strange loop, then anything inside of reality must also be a strange loop, so even logic itself. I myself am a very logical person, as an INTP personality type, that is how I primarily see the world, yet there I saw, my own world be destroyed with the very thing I use lol. It is funny, but sad. The infinite strange loop is essentially this: no matter what level we achieve, we go back to level one, and level one is also the last level. Just imagine that shit, like playing the old Nintendo game Super Mario Brothers, and just running across the screen to pop up on the other side, forever. What a terrible and torturous existence this is. I lately have said to myself, why even exist at all? The utter peace of nothingness before I was born must be way better than being stuck in a strange loop. And the fact I was not asked to come to this existence, is almost like a form of slavery I was put in against my will in hindsight. Of course I had no will when I didn't exist, and I was created to now have one, which apparently isn't mine. I actually partially feel bad I had a child and I hope my son doesn't think like I do about this life. Now I see why these logicians got depressed, some have even killed themselves, and no wonder why these 'idiots' we see in the world, seem so happy. Well maybe it is because they believe the illusion is real! Ignorance seems to be bliss for sure. Yet we came looking for truths and we certainly got them, and here we are depressed as fuck learning it. So now what? We can't even take the blue bill to go back to our ignorance. Is there a happy ending to this post? Depends. Even though knowing the nature of reality sucks, and that literally nothing has any meaning, this allows us to play demi-gods. Since we know this reality is fake, we can "game genie" this bitch and make it how we please. We can assign our own meaning and know that this is essentially the greatest video game we will ever play in. We can write our story as we please and live life however we wish. This is not to say that the matrix won't fuck us up with consequences of our actions, so we have to be careful because we do not control the absolute infinite, nor could we ever even fully control ourselves, as we are infinite. To me, it seems the most logical decision rather than offing ourselves is to make the best of this game, to enjoy maximum pleasure and reduce suffering as much as we can. WE cannot reduce physical suffering, especially if it is inflicted upon us, but we can certainly reduce our own mental suffering, which accounts for most of our suffering. And if we can teach others the same knowledge we have, we can help them do the same, and further level-up this reality....but of course, once we do that, we will be back where were started. Nooses anyone?
  22. 1. Psilocybin cubensis + Cannabis 2. About 6-7 grams of mushrooms made into tea, gravity bong hit of cannabis 3. I was young, stupid and irresponsible. Really had no idea what I am going into. I drank the tea and in a few minutes took the bong hit. I think I literally blacked out for a moment or two and when I came back I couldn't really recognize my room or the reality at all. Few more minutes in I managed to get to my bed, where I melted into all of existence and laid there as Nothingness for hours. It would take a few years for me to understand what happened. At that time I kept telling my friends: "My body was gone, my mind was gone, but I was still there!". They thought I was nuts. 4. Yes, but please have some more theoretical understanding of non-duality before you do
  23. @Nahm honestly I don’t understand when people say ‘there is only being’. What is being? And don’t expect me to understand ‘god, superposition, nothingness.’ Please talk from your own direct experience using only your words. @Truth Addict but did it really happen? I’m starting to doubt it did.
  24. @How to be wise The past does not exist, but neither does the present. Present is a relative term to past and future, present is a term that describes you. You, exist, and are nothingness, nonexistence. It is the formless appearance in form. Spacetime is a form. Light is a form. Etc. Quantum erasure is useful in opening this freedom.