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Let me be honest - I love my boyfriend. He is an amazing person. However: I feel like the more I look into Leo's videos, and meditate, the more I realise that my true source of happiness is realising the Truth. My boyfriend does meditate but he doesn't take it very seriously. When I see him I have made an effort to make sure we meditate, but the issue is that maybe 5-10 minutes of meditating together, he starts to be suggestive and we just end up having sex. Whilst it is nice to have sex - It's just not fulfilling because I know that deep down, what would have made me happier is if we meditated for half an hour like we planned. I have told him that this is bothering me but I don't think he gets it. I don't want to be annoying and continue repeating myself because he is smart enough to comprehend me. this issue has been going on for months. I don't feel like he is making enough effort to meditate on his own. its just bothering me because I don't see us lasting if we aren't progressing at the same rate. Reasons why I feel like I shouldn't break up with him: 1. Instead of meditating, he is better at practicing mindfulness in daily life than me. I often find that I am so caught up in progressing with meditation etc that I neglect important things such as planning for a future, and succeeding in a career. I find it hard to work on my career/studies because I would just rather meditate. As a result - I am struggling to pay for things and always am stressed about money because I don't put much effort into improving my career. Being with him has taught me that it is important to have a career because it will take away a lot of stress within this physical life, as being an adult unfortunately involves having to pay rent/groceries/bills. Instead of having this idea that "i should be meditating" instead of studying, he reminds me through setting an example, that happiness is found with engaging in the present moment. 2. He is extroverted and better at engaging in this physical human existence. I have existential crises VERY OFTEN as a result of meditation and self inquiry. Because he doesn't meditate as much, he doesn't really get caught up in the emotions that come with ego death and is able to just BE in the moment. 3. He practices unconditional love for me. Here I am, complaining that he is not good enough, but despite my faults, he does love me. He finds it easier to experience 'oneness' with others, whilst I find it easier to sit in 'nothingness'. He teaches me that connection is one part of spiritual growth, whereas the path that I often go down is that everything is nothing and nothing is everything etc. Reasons why I should break up with him: 1. He doesn't watch any of Leo's video's that I send him because they are 'too long'. This bothers me so much because its like whats the point being together if we can't even talk about deep content. 2. He doesn't take meditation seriously and just wants to live in the moment. He doesn't do self-inquiry, just mindfulness meditation. 3. He wants us to have a future living together, have a family together etc one day. I am just not sure that that is my path. I just want to pursue spirituality deeper and that having a family to raise is just a waste of time. I feel like if I continue being with him, it might disappoint him one day because I can't give him the future he wants and he won't be happy with a future that I want (which is basically just to pursue truth all day every day but Im not sure how I can make this a full time lifestyle but its what I would want one day) I have expressed my opinions about the possibility of us breaking up. Because in reality, we don't NEED each other. We are complete on our own without needing another person. He has always convinced me that we are helping each other grow/develop and that no one is perfect.. Im just not sure. I want to be certain before I bring it up again. Any thoughts would be appreciated.

@Leo Gura Ok, this I know, but there is an absolute infinity, right? So, imaginary body is dead and illusions fade away, but what's there when illusions fades away - nothingness or infinite awareness?

Shiva is simply Nothingness. The Absolute. Truth. Absolute Infinity, without form, outside time, eternal. Shiva is the thing that's aware of this very sentence.

well i know its boring, but anyways once ur body is dead, what's ur experience gonna be like? would u be like one with absolute infinity and be aware of everything or would it be emptiness and nothingness?

@cetus56 This is an interesting thread. I would say, the Truth (nothingness / everythingness / God / Infinity / etc. / whatever you call it) is something we all have in common. If we all "experience the no-self," it would be very similar or the same -- because Truth is Truth; nothing goes beyond it. Why not? Truth cannot be debatable. It's like finding a life purpose. If one person finds his, and the other person finds hers, that cannot be debated. It goes without saying that everyone will have a different life purpose; it's meaningful; it will last a lifetime; etc. etc. The same goes for Truth -- except it's much harder because most are not even bothered by it and lots of disagreements, instead of just saying, 'ok maybe there's something else, and I need to search deeper.'

Yes you are right. Fear doesn't start when you see nothingness, it doesn't start even when you are sucked in a point, it starts when you feel your heart ripping your chest apart. It is perfectly normal to take a break for a period of time (even for years, if you still have deficiencies in Maslow hierarchy of needs), this is serious and challenging stuff.

@cetus56 The other times that I had this experience I was feeling the the spaciousness and every thing expanding to nothingness (if that make sense), but the last one that we are talking about it felt different, It felt like nothingness was collapsing everything down to a point and that gave me a strong strong feeling of claustrophobia, even though it was the same experience.

There is little doubt that consciousness or the soul is eternal. I have experienced everything being IT (Call it whatever, nothingness, the absolute). So even an incest is the absolute , it's it. All that which is is it, there is nothing but it. And everything is made out of it (it was probably energy). But my consciousness didn't stop there, it went further, my journey stopped with God, the creator of all there is, that includes this nothingness which so many call the absolute, which somehow created itself and is everything. It doesn't stop with nothingness, nor does life stop with death, it is only upon death that we know reality as it is, that's when the truth about everything comes to the surface. Death is liberation, death is finally knowing Truth/Reality.

as I watch my breath, I fall of track. again and again. now I really get it: everything is a distraction. hell! what comes up as I observe my breath? that's the problem. I expect something big to come up. I expect something to hit me and blow me away. the problem: I expect something. what does actually come up? nothing. silence. boredom. emptiness. hell, have I been running away from all of that! it's all a distraction from that big, empty, boring nothing that arises. it's time to stop running. all those thought stories I've been living in, for years. (with the excuse that I have a very well developed fantasy and that life could never be as sweet as fantasies in my head) of course I lived in a never ending cycle of disappointment: life could never reach my perfect little fantasies. all those meanings and values I put on things. everything I do, just to give myself the feeling of worth. time to face exactly what arises. time to face nothingness. I will fail. ego doesn't like being empty and bored. but I will go back on track, as often as necessary!

Have you guys been following his interviews and stuff, I mean he is actually one of the very few celebrities who is into self actualization. What do you guys think about him and his his views of nothingness? I am just curious to know your opinions Here is a very short speech that actually got more meaning than what it just seems to be. PEACE

nature is a teacher we can learn so much from nature. silence, being, calmness. just being. nature is always fully present. we are caught by the past, the future or fantasy. yesterday I took a long walk through the forest and I could feel that we've been distancing ourselves from nature. I could see that pretty much everything in our lives is a huge distraction. it's all been a running away, it started when I was a little girl. but what are we running away from in modern society? what am I running away from? I asked myself that whilst walking through the woods. instinctively an answer came to my mind: nothing. at the beginning I thought oh, uff is that it? nothing? no answer? but no, I then realized that I was wrong. oh yes, that right there was the answer: what am I running away from? nothingness. emptiness. silence. the present moment. but why? why am I running away from that? that I don't know.. boredom? fear? if fear, what do I fear?

I had only one particularly strong trip. I took 3 gr of dried powdered mushrooms after having fasted for a week. I would not recommend this. I was physically too weak. But nonetheless i can give you a short trip report. First there were profound feelings of deep love, recognition, remembering and deep awe about the depth of knowledge and insight I was getting. The feling of love was soo unimagineable that it probably was the cause of my ego death. Love was literally ripping me apart. I had to process it in very strange ways. Like weird sounds and gestures. Until I felt like I became insane. At first it was fun. But there came a point where I wanted it to stop. Formerly I had no idea about what I really am. I was still believing i am the body. So the revelations where quite shocking. At the time it was frightening. The experience was looping infinitely. I was falling through nothingness forever, only to somehow arrive back at the place I call my life. It did not make any sense to me at the time. But it still was unmistakably correct and obvious. Thats it in short. Prepare yourself with the right mental construct and keep asking yourself what you are. Let go and let the experience happen. Watch leos videos on infinity. Good tripping and i am looking forward to your trip report.

Common sense tells me that the universe was not created out of nothing. Other than that, it's a nice theory. '' Awareness is only aware when it is born so basically we just jumped from life to life or reincarnated without ever knowing the in between. Basically we cannot experience real nothingness, only somethingness, thats why we will never die in my opinion, because we will be resurrected like flipping a switch.'' I agree with that, nothingness doesn't really exist, there has always only been something, and so it will be after death as well.

@Highest You could also reason the following: -If natures is an act of balance then the sum of all forces of the universe would count up to zero. -The universe was created out of nothing. -We arise from nothing and are born in a something. -We die and become nothing. -If infinity is endless, we will arise from nothingness infinite times. Even if the universe dies out of heat death, or a mega blackhole, or going being a cyclical event. Infinity holds everything, you could be dead for infinite time, but then there is light! Awareness is only aware when it is born so basically we just jumped from life to life or reincarnated without ever knowing the in between. Basically we cannot experience real nothingness, only somethingness, thats why we will never die in my opinion, because we will be resurrected like flipping a switch. It's funny to think about this, but also challenges what I think how life should be lived and whether it's even needed to worry about any death. Feels like one big game to me.

@ajasatya that's a good point! I guess trying to label thoughts as ego or true self could be seen as merely an arbitrary distinction. All thoughts by definition come from our true nature of nothingness.

Death means liberation, true life is what follows death. There is an afterlife, experience and deep intuitive knowledge tells me so, I have nothing to be afraid about. If there is one thing I await, it is death - this body and life is meaningless without death, wouldn't mean anything at all, wouldn't be any reason to breathe if nothingness is all there is after death, or any reason to even exist in the first place.

I wanted to get your guys' take on this question. In my experience, most thoughts come from the ego but occasionally thoughts arise that seem to be more inspired from the true self rather than the separate self. An example could be teachings of Matt Kahn that are about loving yourself. It is still the mind stating the love, but wouldn't that thought be more truth inspired rather than ego inspired? Now I get that in a sense thoughts are by definition not your true self because they are content in awareness rather than the nothingness. But in my opinion that statement oversimplifies how the mind can be useful in discovering your true nature. And doesn't non-duality include the content in awareness as well? What are your guys' thoughts on this?

@egoless Where do you get the infromation from that every single universe has to differ somehow? As I said it is very well possibile that every single universe exists an infinite number of times in the exact same way, we are not talking about simple infinity, we are talking about absolute infinity. They are not designed by any means, that is the point of that explanation, the only way nothing has to be designed by something is either nothingness or absolute infinity. As I said even if those universes would exist just once, by free-will decisions you would automatically create new parallel realities all the time. I really like what Nahm said, obviously absolute infinity would include versions of each universe where you would have free will. You only don't exist from the highest dimensional perspective or perspectives. In our dimensional perspective which we are physically bound to we can't go much beyond the illusion, the illusion doesn't mean we don't exist it is just like a smokescreen for god himself in order to limit himself, so we do exist as the one in the highest perspective, and as the mind+body egos guided by consciousness in our perspective.

Even the pure awareness - or being - is not constant. When we are in deep sleep, there is nothing. Absolutely nothing. So am I actually NOTHING where all this life (my life) appears? If that's the case, how this NOTHINGNESS connects to all other things in existence? It seems to be ONLY the void where Klaudia's life appears. Is the mind creating the separation? Like cutting a slice of the infinite nothingness? The mind is unable to solve this mystery. And as I can see, all we can use, is our mind. The mind is the one who wants to know the truth and finally realizes that it is incapable of seeing out of it boundaries. Actually the mind realizes that its own existence is the reason of not seeing the Truth.

Good question. When you are in the present moment, you may become aware of two things -- what to do next (authentic self) or no-self. If you are lucky enough to experience the full-fledged no-self (formlessness/nothingness), that's awesome. No-self is always present. However, when you're fully in the present moment, with very little thinking and analyzing of the past or future, with very little stories in your mind (monkey-mind) because you dropped them, you will be able to clearly do your next step. That is your authentic self. Examples - "It's time to exercise." "It's time to go to my backpack and work on my life purpose." "It's time to cook something healthy." "It's time to clean out that box in the corner." "It's time to meditate." Etc., etc., etc.

Did you ever notice how incredibly amazing it is that we exist in the first place? That anything is even possible to exist or not exist? I thought about this already a long time ago but for the first time I really felt it inside of me, I was literally disturbed by existence. Disturbed in a good way in the end because it is simply amazing to have this opportunity to live! To clarify what I mean, how is it possible for consciousness, absolute infinity, nothingness, everything, source, god, whatever you think it is, to emerge in the first place? I know this is a beginner question if it is merely a thought, even I as a kid already thought about this, but if you really manage to experience the disturbing nature of this and feel this, probably single unknown answer even for consciousness itself, it becomes a really deep insight. Even using intuition, this is the first question that really doesen't even have random creative explanations to be thrown around. Now don't start with saying that everything is an illusion please, illusions are just a distortion of something that has to be there in some form or another. Illusions surely don't answer this fundamental question of all questions.

Er... first post. Sorry for the length. It's not a light topic; I tried to keep it concise, but it's philosophy. Also, this is the philosophy of enlightenment. I get the difference between thinking about the concept of truth vs direct awareness of the self. This is a mental circle-jerk, but it's fun and interesting, so here it is anyway. I’ve heard a lot of people say “you don’t attain enlightenment; there’s nobody to be enlightened.” Many instructors really harp on this point. I get the gist of this as a helpful pointer for the grasping ego, but I don’t know that I entirely agree with it as a true statement. That's what this post is all about. First, enlightenment. I like Leo’s analogy of it being like The Matrix. The truth is not that you’re an ego trapped within the matrix, but that you are The Matrix. The matrix (your true self) isn’t a giant machine, but is the infinite nothingness in which all exists. I’m seeing the world from one person’s perspective, and mistakenly imagining that this person is all that I am, but the truth is the little me is just me experiencing myself through a story. The trick with that is becoming aware of the matrix as the matrix. I’ve heard this same analogy as a TV screen, but again, you are the screen. There’s nothing really conceptual that captures that last part of nothingness observing nothingness, which I think is what makes the journey so hard. Second, the brain/body is (in)deterministic. There’s no comprehensible concept of “choice” or “will” in a purely material universe, not to mention there’s no way for our brain to act independently of all outside influences. I’m a programmer, so it’s easy for me to think about determinism in a technical context. A light switch doesn’t have choice; a calculator is a fancy series of light switches; a chess playing computer is really just an extension of the same concept. QM and relativity are a bit more mind bending, but are also entirely logical and (in)deterministic. Given a set of inputs, you get a known output (or probability in the case of QM). The only differences with our brain is that it’s a very advanced, purposeful computer, and it has a heck of a lot inputs; so many inputs that it appears to act independently of its surroundings. So, basically, our brain/body is a sort of natural automaton. Some combo of my DNA, childhood, friends, family, pressures, failures, successes, books I’ve read, things I’ve watched, and an unimaginable myriad of other factors brought me to where I am today, practicing mindfulness and self-inquiry, going on and on about philosophy, and posting to this forum. Enlightenment is non-duel, all one, monism. I don't know that I'm entirely convinced of this yet; philosophically, it seems possible to me (at the moment) that consciousness and matter could have separate objective existence, and consciousness could somehow influence matter (dualism). But, either way, materialism doesn't lead to "choice," and the ego only mistakenly believes its in control. So, given these, what is enlightenment really? Who is there to become enlightened? I see two ways of looking at it, which both seem true. 1) My true self. Awareness that I am the nothingness in which all things are. “God.” This can only be direct awareness; the infinite observing the infinite. Any kind of conceptualization of this is a blinder. This is the typical guidance on the topic, and I can see how this is necessarily so. 2) This little automaton. Just like Google stores facts, analyzes, and “learns,” so does my mind. The experience of self-awareness itself escapes the mind, but the idea/thought/concept of awareness doesn’t entirely escape the mind. If it did, none of us would be able to think about this stuff enough to talk about it. I imagine it’s somewhat like waking from and remembering a dream, where your waking consciousness gets enough hints and ideas of the dream to know that it happened. Whether that's an accurate analogy or not, I don't know, but it necessarily seems like something in the finite has to shift for anybody to ever be aware that reality is infinite. So, “there’s nobody to become enlightened?” I don’t know about that. No true self, no consciousness, but something in the brain necessarily shifts. I (ego) may never directly know truth, but I would have to know the idea of truth. That's not even mentioning the tangible little-self changes. Agree? Disagree? Thoughts?

Let me contemplate a bit. These are my thoughts and I don't claim it's true, but makes sense in my own mind. You wanted an intellectual answer anyway so don't be surprised if it's complete bs ? Perhaps because there is no you to be aware of them and no "their perspective", because there is no them either. There is also no you to be aware of "your" experience, there's just what's happening, with no-one that it's happening to. It's a who's experience, but objectively, not subjectively. You are no longer a subject when you see that the who's experience, the I, is simply an experience happening to nobody and therefore that nobody is God, the creator. It's not you with your limited name and form. We are all but avatars of the supreme nothingness. Hallucination is the lower self, nothingness is the higher self. And you are both and neither. Is no-one big or small? It can be seen as nothing or as everything, since everyone's true nature is that they are no-one, so every who's or subjective experience is happening in no-one or nothing or emptiness. Is your experience in space and time? What does space and time exist in? If it's in something, what does that something exist in? Could there be a separate "I" beyond space and time? For separation you need the illusion of Space and time which in term produces separate subjective experiences What we are left with now is just the illusion of a subject made out of matter (the body) or the more advanced, but still illusory - a subject made out of mind. A subject that exists subtly. This is where we most are. The true Self alone doesn't have a subjective experience, because it is all that is, it can only be. ?

This post caught my attention, because I am now trying to incorporate peripheral vision to my enlightenment work. I am peripherally aware in that way of the nothingness beyond what even my peripheral vision can see, which is like peripherally seeing what I project as the ultimate, or God, or Source. Perhaps you are too interested in looking at forms. Try to soften your gaze and view the static infront of objects instead. I will give you a video that might change your life. All the best!

10th Sep, 2017 I directly experienced God, Him, The Absolute, The Void, The Hole, The Singularity, Nothingness, The Infinite, The Godhead, The Supreme, The Grand Architect, Source, Truth. Lately I have been longing to get out of the city and away from all of its egoism and to spend some more time in nature. Last week I had a dream where I was driving along a road through a forest. I decided I wanted to get out and ride my bike on the bright green grass. I failed to slow down enough when pulling off the road so my car slid across the grass; I managed to keep control of the car and stop. I drove a little down the road, down a hill and park behind a car at the side of the road. My dad is in the car. I ask him if this is the road that leads back to Melbourne, apparently it was not and that I should have turned onto a road further back. I decided that I was going to continue on this road instead of going back to the city, but first spend some time in the forest around me which made me feel warm, at peace, and nostalgic. I can remember in the dream looking at a GPS map of my location. It was directly north of Melbourne and on a road that travelled west-east. A few days after the dream I saw a post on Reddit displaying pictures of the snow at Mt Macedon. It looked beautiful and I had only ever seen snow one when I was a kid, so I looked up the location of Mt Macedon, it was north-west of Melbourne and not very far away. It wasn’t in the exact location of the place in my dream, but quiet close. This Saturday I made the trip out to Mt Macedon, I had set myself two goals for this journey which were to spend some more time in nature, away from the heavily egoic city, and to see the snow (the snow had cleared up by the time I got there). The road there went along the top of a mountain with a drop and then more mountains on either side. It was a beautiful drive; exactly what I longed for. I parked at the top of Mt Macedon and decided to take some mushrooms, I ate ten (Psilocybe Subaeruginosa) with many small mushrooms, a few medium sized, and no large, so what was supposed to be a fairly mild to moderate dose. I was hiking down a trail when I started to come up. I noticed profoundly the silence of the forest and rapidly became more and more aware of The Void. I had never been so enveloped in Nothingness before, I (my ego) was dying; I was scared. Luckily I was quiet educated about ego death and knew not overreact. I turned back and headed toward the top of the mountain. Suddenly I became overwhelmed by symbolism, not only mentally but in the physical environment as well. I felt as if every fundamental question I ever had (ie. Who am I? What is the universe? Why does anything exist at all? What is consciousness?) was leading up to this point. It became clear to me that I was lost; spiritually lost. The fact that I now found myself in a forest with no one else in sight and no trace of civilisation was representative of that. I kept repeating in my mind ‘I’m so lost, I’m so lost’. For the past few years I have found myself on the spiritual path. I was now on a path heading up a mountain which at its peak housed the Memorial Cross; a monument in the form of a massive cross. I made my way back to the car park trying as hard as I could to hold my consciousness intact; I thought I was about to go hyper-dimensional (the DMT-like hallucinogenic experience) which I was not prepared for. I pleaded ‘I don’t want to go, please don’t take me, I want to stay here’. After a while I realised I wasn’t going anywhere, I took a look around and realised that my ordinary reality was still here and I was in fact not tripping all that strongly (tripping in the usual sense as in visual and auditory hallucination, headspace, ect.). What had happened was that I had been unveiled. I could see God, the source of all things. I had direct consciousness. I was no longer a person. My reaction was ‘I see. I SEE.’ While I am not a Christian (and was even a militant atheist at one point); the most natural word for what I saw was God. God is not a person as we think of it in the Christian sense. God is a Singularity yet simultaneously a Void. God is Infinite yet Nothing. I could see that this Singularity was the Source of my existence and of the world I see around me. The world around me was being “spewed out” of this Hole. I saw that I am that Hole. This is my True Self unveiled. Nature, the trees around me, other people, society, my own identity, the fact that I am a person, time and space are all manifestations of The Hole. This life, this reality is just one limitation within the greater Infinity, for The Infinite contains every limitation. What would you do if you were God; an all powerful Singularity that can do anything, be anything? Perhaps you would create a beautiful landscape with nature and trees and animals and set limitations or laws to this little world you’ve created. Perhaps you would create people to amuse you with all sorts of drama and antics. But maybe after a few trillion years you begin to get a little bored and you get the idea ‘maybe it’ll be exciting to forget that I’m God for a while’. This is by far God’s greatest trick; you have actually managed to fool yourself into believing that you’re not God. Amazing. Truly incredible. People are God playing ‘I’m not God’. This is the great cosmic joke. I was deeply impressed, I could do nothing more than applaud. To be completely convince this whole time that I was just this little ego while in fact being God; truly impressive. I want to see that trick again for sure. I realised that everything around me was all my doing, I was creating it. The bench I was sitting on, the trees around me were all my manifestations. The birds flew by; I was doing that. When I looked at people all I could see was me, they are all God. You are me. You are God, you are creating it all and you don’t even know it. We are all God and don’t realise it. A very peculiar shift in approach towards other people occurs when you have this realisation. Seeing that they are all God, it is as if you are role playing with yourself. People are the masks you put on, but underneath the mask you see God; behind the act you feel the underlying connectedness, an underlying love. I made my way over to the viewing area. The view was sublime. I spent some time basking in the magnificence of what the Singularity has architected. I then headed over to the massive cross monument. The plaque read ‘To the glory of God’. I find it amusing; God pretends He is not God and builds monuments to worship Himself. I inspected the view around this part of the mountain, I could see Melbourne in the distance, it was cloudy where I was, though in the distance there was a break in the clouds so sunrays shone down on the city. I thought to myself ‘what a wonderful little gem’. The spiritual quest is a search for yourself; a search for God. Many times I have experienced some degree of ego death since embarking on the spiritual path and over time the death got progressively deeper. Now I know that the ego goes much deeper than I initially expected. The ego is your whole life; the mere fact that you’re a human being. The vast majority of the contents of our lives are distractions from our true selves (including many of the things our egos pretend are spiritual; the ego is remarkably resilient, each time we experience a partial ego death the ego redefines itself, moving up a “spiritual” level, turning your spiritual answers into the new ego). Way back in the furthest recesses of our minds is the sneaking suspicion that there is more to us; this is the catalyst for the spiritual quest. The ego will do anything to distract us from following this intuition. The high ego density of the cities makes distraction inevitable, this is why nature and isolation are important in the spiritual quest; you are further away from the system which is constantly reinforcing your ego, you are cut off from the endless stream of distractions which is keeping you from your true nature. With this revelation, I no longer had any more questions. All of my spiritual questions had been answered. What is there left to do now? Well, perhaps I could continue being human, live out a human existence and partake in the act. Birth and Death do not exist. They are nothing. There is nowhere you could possibly go. The Void likes to manifest itself as a personality in a physical world and thoroughly convince itself that it is this identity and that it needs to survive. This has been going on for an eternity. ‘For the time it take for a bird to wear away a mountain by dropping a scarf on it every 10000 years; that’s how long this has been going on for’. Though, even this analogy is inaccurate, since the Singularity is both timeless and spaceless. Everything and Nothing are all contained within an instant. I must stress that I am trying to speak as literally as I am capable of. There is no metaphor intended in my writing here. Words cannot do justice, for The Absolute is truly ineffable. A day has already pasted since my revelation and already I am well and truly veiled again. My experience of The Godhead is now a fading memory. I am not sure why a relatively small dose of mushrooms caused me to unveil. I have taken mushrooms dozens of times, often at much higher doses, and have never experienced anything like this. The last time I did mushroom I had a much stronger trip than what would be expected for the does. I became hyper-dimensional on what should have been a strong, but grounded in reality, trip, and so did my friends whom I took them with. I intuit that whatever is happening to me with the mushroom is contagious; that if I take the mushrooms with someone else they too will unveil The Godhead. It’s a shame, I really liked mushrooms but now I don’t believe I can ever use them in the same way I used to. Interestingly, the other psychedelics I have used recently (ie. DMT and 2C-B) have not produced an awakening of this sort.