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Great post Robert! To me, a true hero is a person who is fully engaged in his myth while knowing it's just a game. As for Joe Campbell, he really seems to have been quite advanced. Take for example these two quotes from Pathways to Bliss : ''There is no experience of life that doesn't have dualism and yet doesn't have the experience of oneness behind the experience of dualism.'' ''Normally, Yahweh is the god of a moral order where there is good and evil. But look at his justification of his actions to Job, and you realize this is a power beyond morality.''

@starsofclayThe phrase "unconditional love" is pointing to an experience that no words can describe. It is synonymous with the words God/Bliss/Source/Excitement/Joy; all of which point to this experience of unconditional love. Thus it cannot be defined in a language rooted in duality such as this one. Some enlightened masters don't speak for this reason because their silence communicates the truth of this experience more directly. To get to this experience, which all human beings are seeking and which is much more important than talking about enlightenment, is quite simple: anchor love and oneness. Follow your greatest joy, focus on your heart, being kind are all "methods" that withdraw your awareness back to the source of your being, that unconditional love, found within the secret chamber of the heart (as called in christianity) or the spiritual heart (as Yogi's call it). I highly recommend you research this phenomenon for deeper understanding. Much love my friend.

The Start of Something New With this said, there is not much more to write about in regards to becoming enlightened. This where concepts end, and embodiment begins Myself especially included. My practice of remaining in the heart has been overshadowed by my need to find out how focusing on the heart will take me to the ultimate state of bliss, while still living a creative, and exciting life here on Earth. My understanding is that you can give the mind endless evidence that surrendering the mind to love is a good thing to do, yet you can see the conflict! When you have relied on your mind your entire life to live like me, transcending the mind is like saying goodbye to your whole identity and basic functioning. You start to trust, and feel; instead of conceptualising, analysing, and staying within the comfort of stories. We have known nothing other than the mind, and the heart is unknown. But if the heart's love was truly known, and truly experienced we would in a heartbeat choose that as our new home for our awareness. It is the fear of the unknown that keeps us in our comfort zones. Yet there is no place else for me to go now; there is nothing more to study or to learn, or to think about. It's either surrender into this moment, or stay in your thoughts. This is one case where there is a black and white; you are either present or are lost in a false sense of self. It's really strange, but now just feels like the right time to go within my heart, and stay there, just like how we usually stay within our minds. It feels right like a force is magnetically drawing me in, and as I get closer, the more I don't know who I am. Identifying with the heart instead of the mind is not a crazy jump, it is just a slight little change to where you place most of your awareness, which has the power to make you realise you are God. One thing I enjoy doing is seeing this in modern society. If it's ego driven then it should make our awareness go into our head. And what makes us go inside our heads more than fear? Haven't you noticed how people are always worried about something that doesn't exist? Or regret a past that is no longer in existance? Have you noticed how fear is everywhere you look. It surprises and shocks me every day how much fear very subtly is all around us; and fears derivatives which is anything negative such as anger, hate, jealousy, shame, guilt, sadness, suffering, envy, pride. It is helpful to see this because it will shock you how most of anything touched by society has this element of fear; because it was created by fear-based people, or people with egos. When I saw this suffering and fear, and still do, it wakes me up every time to love. How we can either choose love or fear by identifying with the heart, or following our highest excitement; or by living in a wild mind full of thoughts and emotions. There is no limit to how much you can express either; everyday when you wake up you have the opportunity to focus on love as much as you want! You can make it a game. How many compliments can I give today to myself and others? What is the most gentle and kind thing I can do for myself right now? Trust in love, and it will show you just how trustworthy, all-knowing, omnipresent, all-powerful, blissful, joyous, compassionate, expanding, gentle, soft, kind, and divine it truly is. Trust in fear, and the example of your life of suffering is suffice. Everyone is doing their best, with the understanding they have about themselves, to find happiness. Bringing love into this world or focusing on the love already in yourself whatever way you want, is the answer. There are many paths to get there, but all of them should make you feel more one and more loved. This ends my journey of gaining more information, or knowledge about love, and the beginning of embodying it with the intention of remaining in the vibration of pure oneness, and love in every moment; because I know that love is the only answer, and will always be so. How many more books, how many more glimpses do you need in order to trust your heart and surrender to love? Is the question I have kept asking myself for the last month. I now honour that desire in me, that is also the desire of all humans, to be one with God. As I descend into love, I will also see the deepest beliefs of separation within myself. This will be challenging not to identify with these beliefs, and remain in the heart, because one of those beliefs includes "I am a seperate being". The release of such a belief would mean that I would literally choose love over my very identity as someone who is disconnected from ALL THAT IS. I feel ready, and prepared with all that I know to face this belief I created when I was a child, and to finally transcend the minds limitations, and come into the divine realisation that I have always been the happiness and love I have always been looking for and always have deserved. Namaste beautiful expressions of oneness.

7.15.18 Greetings to everyone on this Actualized.org Community Forum Out of darkness, into the light. From the grossest ignorance into the bliss of transcendental realization. So once upon a time there was a Phable. Has anyone read Lois Lowry's book "The Giver"? More or less The Giver was the only one in the entire tribe who saw in color, and everyone else only saw in black and white. He was the repository of emotions for the tribe. The Giver felt all the emotions that the Tribe would not or could not feel. That is a good description about how I feel about my role in life. I am a storykeeper. I have kept a journal of my entire journey over the last 18 years. 7.17.18 Buddha said what?!!! So Buddha is translated as having said something along the lines of "Attachment to desire is the cause of all suffering. Abandon desire, abandon suffering!" And so that is quite the conundrum. However with some thought we can realize that total lack of desire is not lack of suffering either because if you refuse to breathe, drink, eat, if you don't move enough not to get bedsores, or if you refuse to defecate and urinate away from your body far enough so that you don't get sick from your own biological excretions and if you fail to move your body out of harms way if such circumstances arise, then you will suffocate, die of dehydration, starve, your flesh will dissolve, the stench will be unbearable and you will not avert harm... so total lack of desire is not total lack of suffering either. But lets say that you just maintain the basic human biological processes at their most simple level, only that which is absolutely required for maintaining homeostasis, and you just sat there at the most simple level, then you would not suffer very much altogether, you would have very few responsibilities or demands upon one. Many of the burdens that we associate with life in the modern world would not be yours. But in the modern society we have many vain and preposterous desires in addition to this most basic human maintenance. And every new desire added onto the basic foundation of actual human "needs" requires effort and energy to manifest and these desires will bring suffering if one does not gain them. Inevitably if one does no emotional alchemy then one gets angry to the same degree that they had desire for the thing denied. The vain desire itself, the striving, seeking, plotting, planning, struggling, conniving, the disappointment at not achieving ones desire, & the anger that follows are all energetically expensive. One must digest extra food to do all those extra activities. And if one is thwarted then it constitutes a tremendous waste of energy all together, and the anger and frustration can actually be detrimental to a person on their own. Not only did one not get what one wants, but one is afflicted and degraded by the entire process on a number of levels. Every desire we can surrender gives us energy to do something else. The fewer desires one has, the less the external environment can control and manipulate a person. The 5 Regulative Principles of Religious Life are generally : no illicit sex, no intoxication, no gambling, no meat eating, and no stockpiling or hoarding of gold. If one follows these principles one will have alot of time to meditate and to do service. There is a story I heard about Alexander "The Great" when he was marching around conquering the world. At a certain point he met a man sitting beneath a tree in a loincloth. Alexander stopped his army and went and sat with the man. Alexander asked the man if there was anything that Alexander could give him or do for him. And the man said, "No, I am fine the way I am am. There is nothing that I need." And Alexander was astounded at this and he said, "You know what? I am the master of all I survey but you have something that I want. I have the extent of my entire empire but you have inner peace." I don't know if this is a true story or not but all in all its a good allegory to illustrate this sort of Buddhic reasoning I am describing.

Hello. My name is Grant, I'm 20, and I'm from Vegas. I've been meditating daily for over a year, and practicing Kriya for 3 months. My psychedelic experience includes over a dozen trips mainly on LSD or 2-cb. My family owns a cabin in Utah situated on an acre of lush woodlands next to a large flowing creek. It's beautiful and serene- the perfect place for meditation, contemplation, relaxation, and tripping. Being my first retreat, I just wanted to get a taste of solitude, longer periods of meditation, take a break from marijuana, think about life, and relax into being. I used my phone for an audiobook (Frankenstein for an online class), to record some song ideas (I sing), and to take some pictures of flowers (I study herbal science/naturopathy). I read a dream-hacking booklet and a bit of a kriya book. Took a few notes. Fapped once mid-retreat. Practiced hatha yoga daily. No other distractions. I ate once a day at 9pm. I think this helped encourage that feeling of emptiness throughout the day, and idk about you guys but I can't meditate for shit after I eat. Techniques: kriya 3x a day, vipassina, and a novelty of mine: espresso shot then blindfolded reclined dark room meditation concentrating on nothingness. *** 4-aco-DMT trip report on Day 7 Day 1-3 Meditated a total of 5-6 hours a day Monkey mind slowed down a lot by the third day. It was really funny seeing how addicted I am to just doing things. "Grant go work out, go watch a movie, Grant ask that cashier out and fuck her, go find some weed, go read that entire book on bird identification". Many semi-mindful breaks wandering the property or wildlife watching. I was pretty exhausted with meditation by the last sit of each day. Day 4 (July 4th) I woke up feeling dull and empty as hell, sat down for vipassina, but couldn't be fucked meditating at all. I just rolled over on the carpet, stared at the wall, and fell asleep for a nice long depression nap. Then I had a lucid dream I was giving Leo a ride somewhere around Vegas, that actually brought my spirits up lol. In the dream he was taking suggestions so I said make a trippy video game and host workshops in Vegas. That reminded me of a crazy telepathic dream I had before.. Which inspired me to look into a dream-tripping booklet I brought. I'll be testing some "oneirogens" soon. If you're interested: http://oneironauticum.com/oneirogens/ Lots of insights and ideas about my life today. I took a couple notes. The day before leaving for my retreat I met a really amazing girl, so I couldn't help thinking about her. ***I practiced only Nadi, Ujjayi, and Talabya Kriya until this day- where I finally started pranayama. I think this was integral to my breakthrough 3 days later. That night was 4th of July, and in Brain Head they put on a huge fireworks show. I was going to go see it, but took a wrong turn on the way there from my cabin... I was feeling out of it... I ended up pulling over next to a lonely lake, where I decided to just sit and eat on the quiet shore. I remember pondering existence as I watched billions of stars explode the sky above. This contrasted deeply with the distant festive commotion and colorful lights from parties across the lake. I can't quite describe how I felt, but I'm glad it turned out that way. Day 5 Dosed 15mg of 4-aco-DMT. I allergy tested this substance a week prior, but this was my first real trip attempt. After about an hour of coming up and squirming around Martin Ball symmetrical-style on the floor/couch, trippy thoughts, slight visuals, I then leveled off and realized this was a small dose for me. Spent the rest of the day giggling and being grateful as hell for my life. It was wonderful to just enjoy doing nothing, smiling and laughing from realizing I can be perfectly happy by myself, without requiring anything or anyone. Being grateful for self-actualization/consciousness and how I could of just as easily been completely ignorant to this work, living an entirely different life. Walking around appreciating flowers, trees, deers and squirrels, balancing on the smooth rocks in the creek, being in the moment, doing whatever I want. Day 6 Kriya sessions, not much other meditation. Lots of life contemplation.. Time passes so slow. Every 3 days feels like a week. Went on a beautiful hike around a lake. I've never felt this lucid/peaceful in my entire life. I felt extremely healthy. ***During one of my Kriya sessions I noticed my hands involuntarily tense in a certain way but I thought it was nothing. Day 7 (Trip Report on 7/7)** Today I tripped again. I wanted to account for tolerance plus add a little more. 4-aco is one of the few psychedelics I don't get nauseous on. Also from memory of my one trip on shrooms, I can concur that 4-aco-DMT gives a similar or even identical flavor to that of mushrooms. 12:00- I drank 50mg 4-aco-DMT with some tea inclusive of lions mane, and took a hit from a CBD vaporizer to help with pre-trip anxiety. After dosing, I did my first Kriya routine of the day. It was pretty half assed because of anticipation of the trip. 12:30- I go outside and throw a big blanket out on the grass in the middle of the property. I lay down spread eagle, with the intention of coming up while watching the clouds and in nature. I lay in symmetry. Now unfolds the most amazing experience of my life to date. And I have had many beautiful psychedelic experiences, also scary mindfucks that I got a lot out of, but nothing compared to the awe and delight I got out of the next three hours. 1:00- After casually laying out enjoying the environment for about a half hour, I start coming up and notice the clouds start to swirl. I'm expecting a trip similar to my other outdoor experiences. Then just for fun and curiosity I start doing some spinal breathing, visualizing energy rising up through my chakras, ujjayi breaths. I focus on my third eye a little bit. I am ultra relaxed and have a strong intention to surrender and just be present. Within 2 minutes of doing this, my arms start to tense, my fingers start to situate into a certain mudra, and my eyes and awareness LOCK onto my third eye. There's no way I can accurately describe my amazement with what starts to happen. My hips suddenly start involuntarily shaking and bouncing, and I feel a lot of energy flaring from the bottom of my spine. As this begins to happen, I'm overcome by this wonderful feeling of awe and bliss. I mean BLISS!!!! Like I've never felt before- I start to laugh from amazement at the fact that my body is just moving by itself!? I have read about energy purges that psychedelics or kundalini activations can induce, but I've never experienced anything of the like- so it was really like WHOAAAA WTFFFF YESSSSSSS!!!!!!! My tongue involuntarily curls backward, and as this happens I start doing the most exorcist looking shit on the ground. I do all these symmetrical stretches: with my legs, arms, back, neck- all the while I am laughing my ASS off and CRYING tears of joy. Definitely looked possessed. I was very concerned with the chance of one of the neighbors (which were probably in earshot) disturbing me. But with that fear, I just surrendered more, and the more I let go of fear, the more energy would just geyser up from my abdomen. I experienced these EPIC HUGE yawns, where it would start at the base of my spine, then I'd feel an electric current go up through my neck at the top of the yawn, and my entire head and skull would violently vibrate as it felt like all the energy collected there. I have rudimentary experience with Kriya, kundalini energy, chakras, etc. and so during this time I really just kind of let my body do it's thing and intuitively went with the energy. Whenever it would sort of calm down, I would voluntarily breath into my abdomen, and the waves would start again. I didn't feel like I was tripping, which was odd- I felt very primal, but very myself, very centered in my nature it felt like, wild, ancestral, like being compelled by something "beyond me" even though it felt 100% me. In general my thoughts felt very integrated with my body, and my mind wasn't in control. It was observing, still commenting, but not distracting or compelling. Very very cool. I can see the appeal of being in a state like that all the time. Fractal CEVs At some point it starts pouring rain, but I didn't give a fuck, it felt great and completely in sync with the trip. I've never had a full body orgasm, but I would imagine it would be something like this haha. This went on for the ENTIRE trip - 3 hours straight of just blissful shaking, stretching, breathing, RELEASING. It was exhausting yet energizing, like sex. At some point I was compelled to sit up in full meditation posture, and the process continued. I did dozens of mudras, which blew my mind. I was also compelled to shove my tongue up my nasal pharynx with my fingers, and the instant it touched behind my uvulae an orgasmic wave surged up through my neck. Some spontaneous spitting and burping. Enormous feelings of release- I even noticed insecurities and odd childhood memories coming up. I just felt myself letting go of anything inauthentic and like zooming into my core. It was like I was letting pent up energy crack out, arise, then release and die. ***I've never felt so liberated in my life, but I should mention that all of this was completely in duality. I've never had a non-dual experience. But I am definitely looking forward to one. I am now extremely motivated to dive deeper into Kriya. 4:00- I finally stood up, and was hardly in control of my body. I pronounced this very regal posture, and my hands were guiding me and moving by themselves. I felt like I had just went through 100 therapy sessions, 100 spa sessions, 100 yoga sessions, and meditated for 100 hours. So freaking good, the best I've ever felt, like floating on clouds. 4:20- I went back to my cabin, noticed the time, and to my amazement my "hands" chose a tea and made it by themselves! My doing-mind was completely absent, I was just watching in awe. 4:45- I returned to voluntary control of my body, back to baseline, but still glowing with amazement. My evening Kriya session also engendered the same shaking energetic waves, and my eyelids fluttered upon focusing on my third eye. Day 8-9 Kriya Trip/K-activation integration Went on a couple beautiful hikes Clarity on some important life decisions, purpose, relationships Preparation for my return home the next morning, July 10th Overall there were many moments of extreme peace, tranquility, and lucidity. There were also many moments of restlessness, emptiness, and anxiety. I kept Kriya up everyday but gave up on other meditations after day 5. Definitely dicked around just wandering the cabin and property a lot, but I don't think that was a waste. This was a great introduction to retreats. It was very cool to get some actual results from this stuff. After all this was my first breakthrough experience I've ever had with anything energetic or spiritual. I'm happy it was such a positive release. From Leo's descriptions I assumed all of this work would be just a whole lot of shit dying and suffering to get results- and I'm sure that's especially true when it comes to non-dual things, which I know I am naive to, but I feel like this really grew me a lot and it wasn't like I had to kill myself for something to happen. But speaking of killing my self I really wanna try 5-meo now. Ever since that experience, my Kriya practice has been feeling powerful and looking really promising. I mean I JUST started with pranayama, but every session now I get involuntary movements and blatant awareness of energy that was absent prior to this experience. I also recently started Maha Mudra and am refining my routine through Santana Gamana's books. It's interesting that I didn't want weed at all on the retreat, but now that I'm back home I'm starting to want it to counteract stress from school and fam (my parents just told me 2 days ago they're getting divorced). I think keeping up kriya/meditation will be important for the coming future as I want to support them while keeping up with everything else I'm doing in life. Lastly, I now notice that throughout the day and especially during emotional experiences, my third eye just tingles a lot more. It's a very sensitive area that I become aware of all the time now. I would appreciate any advice, feedback, recommendations, criticisms, all that jazz. Would you call that a Kundalini activation? Thanks everyone!

In the end of stage turquoise Leo mentioned that you should read at least 30 books on non-duality if you are serious about awakening. I would like to get some perspective on this. Several teachers I have studied joke/talk something along the lines of "the truth is not found in any (sacred) book". I heard a story from somewhere where Ramana told his pupils to throw their spiritual books into a river. I have had a few experiences myself where I realized how silly it was to look for myself anywhere but within. Early this summer I had an LSD/meditation induced awakening where I basically exploded out of bliss, and at that moment I thought to myself "If/when this has faded, if there is one thing I must not forget, it's this: it is within" I reached a point early on this year where I was practicing quite hard for my level, and studying theory and listening to teachers. I felt like all the knowledge was starting to be really distracting, like my monkey mind was constantly blabbering about non-dual theory. Now I have not read any non-dual books for a while nor listened to teachers and I feel like my mind is clearer and I can focus on my actual experience better. Is this a path thing, or is there some crucial value in books that I'm not getting? I understand that books can point out potential traps of the work, but... I don't know. Anyone here who has awakened and can say that books helped in that process? @Leo Gura is the only person I have encountered who has recommended extensive reading on the topic. Anyone here who has read very few books and has had success just by practicing? I'm not interested in speculation from users who have intentionally read/not read books and had awakening spiritually, sorry. You are all great but I don't think you can give much value here, as I said it's more of a speculation than an opinion from experience.

@Stretch You’re right There never was a “you” to begin with. This separate identity is an illusion. But that dosen’t mean you won’t have individuality once you become enlightened for that is apart of our true identity as the soul. When there is no separate identity, there is nothing in the way for the love of you, as your soul, to fully express itself in this material world. Thus you will always be in a natural state of joy and bliss. One is only afraid of the emptiness when they have the illusory identity of a separate self. All of your fears will be healed and resolved through surrender, that you can trust. Love is always the only answer you’ll find. No matter how much you try to conveptualize enlightenment, the mind cannot come to a certain conclusion due to its limitations. That’s why you’re much better off meditating rather than thinking about what enlightenment is. If you can describe it with words, it’s not enlightenment. Love, and oneness.

We are unlimited beings of love, peace and oneness. You can’t define your true nature as the divine by any colour, for it is all colours. Such system can only define your lower self/ego when the moment you choose to focus on love, you transcend all of this. Only bliss permeates your experience, and the love of God as yourself. Many blessings growing souls. May you realize yourselves now as the infinitely powerful, all-loving, and all-knowing light for which you are, will be, and always were. My love goes to all of you.

@Silvester you can attain enlightenment and live in 100% bliss all day.

@Victor Mgazi Ohhhh yes, it was hurting like hell when I tapped into the Absolute the first time. From what you wrote, it sounds like you experienced that - what do you think? I was experiencing this involuntarily many, many times in my life and it was always hurting like hell. Until one day (15 January 2017) when I starred death in the face literally (I actually had a hemorrhagic stroke / brain bleed). After that, tapping into the Absolute turned into bliss because I realized that as long as I can feel this, I'm actually alive. And since then I kept doing it more and more often, so that nowadays "I'm living this dream" almost every moment, even right now. It's the ultimate way for me to let go of my story and identity. Does that make any sense to you? When it comes to my (seriously crazy) dreams - I have only just started a dream diary and figuring out what my dreams tell me about my subconscious mind. I can usually remember them quite easily in the morning but until recently I didn't bother to "keep dreaming" once I realized I was in a dream. It opens up a whole new world....

@Aakash Vijayan I am also an INFP, and I struggle with many of the things you have mentioned. I have found that it is important to act on inspiration when it arises. There comes a time on the awakening journey where it becomes more and more difficult to do things that you are not passionate about. Ask yourself if you are truly still passionate about medicine, and observe how your emotional body reacts. If your body has a negative reaction, then maybe you do want to truly reconsider your life purpose. To quote Teal Swan, follow your bliss. If music is what you are truly passionate about, continue pursuing it and you will find your niche, even if you have to slowly ween yourself off of things you are not passionate about. Regarding your negative emotions, sit with them. Most INFP's are empaths, myself included. I highly recommend Matt Kahn's videos on YouTube for any INFP. Ask your negative emotions why they want your attention and what you can do for them, either on the physical or psychological level. View them as a distressed child. They are trying to inform you on what aspects of yourself are requesting integration. Don't underestimate how powerful this process can be. Anything you feel that will help you is correct, just listen to how your being reacts. I also recommend continuing enlightenment work because you will continue to gain insight into what you and your emotions truly are, allowing you to integrate them more efficiently. Lastly, don't be afraid to take action. It may be painful at first, but just allow the pain to be and follow your highest wisdom. Take it one minute at a time and trust that the universe is leading you down the correct path. It always is

The need for physical experiences is a dream. It is a nice dream, one can grow and expand from tasting the variety and abundance of human culture and the Earths natural environment, but from what place do you desire this? For myself I love the oneness I feel in meditation. Reality becomes soft and malleable, and I feel like I’m on a cloud. This peace is what I seek beyond any physical experience for I know that most of not all my desires right now are not rooted in oneness, which is why I meditate with such passion so to speak. I want my mind to be purified of all beleifs it has rooted in separation; so that the oneness of my higher self that I am can shine through my heart in every single moment without an obstacle my mind imposes. I want to be that free, powerful creator; to have but everything to embrace with love, and nothing left that I reject in myself. And I know in my heart, that surrendering down into my heart purifies, heals, and releases all ancestral lineages, all karmic ties, and any deep wounds in my being in the most soft, gentle, and accelerated way that I deserve. How can I live my life without thoughts? Is a common fear that arises when I am thoughtless. Yet it’s not thoughts that guide us, it is feelings. It is the higher self within the heart. It has always been that way, but the mind sometimes ignored this guidance, or thought that such guidance care from itself. The heart is the true master, much stronger in influencing even those with a strong ego than the ego itself. We can fall off track from the heart, and we start to feel something other than love, but never can we dwell too far, because the heart is more powerful than our egos. I trust my heart now to tell me through feelings when to eat, sleep, “do”, or be. If in doubt I meditate. Now my beloveds take this knowledge and put it into your life. Don’t read this for entertainment, don’t come here to serve your addiction for spiritual knowledge which I had too, and do the inner work. Focus on your heart, or your breathe, or the awareness as much as possible. Choose one, and stick with it until you awaken to the infinite within. All are equal in power, and all will lead to everlasting happiness. There is little more for me to write, just focus on either of those 3. I use my chest, the sensation of air filling my lungs, the feeling of it rising and falling, even the pulsing of my heart, and the energy of love in there, all which I focus on 24/7. Even when I dream now, I still gently focus on my heart! The heart is the beginning and the end of the spiritual path. It can take you to the highest dimensions of reality and beyond that. This love is more than infinite, because even the infinite will return to source. It is pure bliss. It IS. This world we live in dosen't matter. What you do dosen't matter. What you know dosen’t matter, or learn. Only your connection to your heart matters. The rest is fun and play, and can only be fun and play when connected to the heart. Therefore it is so simple, there is no confusion, or exception, or a “but wait, there’s more!”; it literally comes down to how connected you are to your heart through focusing on your heart, breathe or awareness; and perhaps expressing love, smiling, complimenting (although this is not necessary at all). There is no judgement, love from the ego if that’s the reality you want to create, or live from the heart. But ultimately, we will all return to our hearts, thst is the natural state. We just have amnesia, and are learning to focus within. In time we shall be awakened and be free from a false idea in sin. sayōnara.

I usually stop the attention of the mind and go full breath deepening kundalini, it hurts a great deal at first, but after the pain comes bliss.

Indeed. When you become whole you feel complete, nothing is needed for you to feel any more complete. You can still enjoy things you used to do but they become more sacred and empowering than ever before and you do them more for a greater purpose than a personal one. So you are more likely to experience them far less often which doesn't devalue your existence or nature of enjoyment or pleasure whatsoever as when you become whole you feel like you are in a constant state bliss anyway so nothing outside of yourself is necessarily needed to feel amazing all the time.

@saraprTime for an energy release. When everyone is out of the house, or somewhere where no-one can here you just have a rage about how hopeless you are. Make it strong and powerful, and blame everything and everyone possible; such as your family, the society you are in etc. Behind hopelessness there is lots of repressed passion, which you can release by being angry. Next I would love for you to establish a proper meditation practice with a proper technique because I wish for you to experience yourself as the pure and infinite love and oneness that you already are. Once you experience that love, every single worry, concern and fear will be released; and the experience of bliss will permeate your reality Sara. The best technique is just to focus on the rising and falling of your chest. This is because the buddhist techniques of focusing on yourself as awareness are too nuanced for most people, and not obvious enough, yet focusing on the chest is just as powerful. I've used it for many months and still fall asleep every time because it relaxes me so (which is a good sign). Do this for at least 20 minutes first thing upon waking up. The technique is very important. Once you've had a rage and start consistent daily meditation; we must realise that every emotional upheaval is temporary and will pass in it's own time. We all have these deep emotional wounds in our hearts that stop us from feeling love, and so when we get closer to love, these wounds start to open and we start to feel what we repressed in the past because it was too painful to feel. Every emotional pain thus, is a confirmation that you are healing and evolving like never before, and means you are ascending. These emotions are like new born babies that have just been born, and are crying in your hands as the mother. Hold this crying baby in your arms until it stops. When you repress it, it's like throwing it on the floor and walking way. To truly hold it all we gotta do is just let it be, knowing it's like a newborn baby; that is all. Trust that this intention will heal it. Many blessings. Lots of love.

I love this page because it clearly tells you what the higher self is: https://higherselfteachings.com/about/ "The Higher Self The Higher Self is the super-conscious, higher mind part of ourselves that is the full expression of Divine Love, spiritual wisdom, and creative power. As we work to purify ourselves and remove our egos, we embody more of our eternal self that lives in conscious union with God. Spiritual and religious traditions throughout history have spoken of the Higher Self within each of us. The Christians call it the Holy Spirit. The New Age calls it Christ Consciousness, Over Soul, Monad or Enlightenment. Buddhism labels it Buddha (The Awakened One). Hinduism calls it Atman, the Self or Krishna Consciousness. There are many terms given in various cultures for the same experience. The Higher Self is the direct personal realization and embodiment of the deepest spiritual aspect of ourselves – our Eternal Self that is in conscious union with the Creator God and all of life. Spiritual seekers have consciously sought the Higher Self awakening experience, dedicating lifetimes to spiritual knowledge, personal healing and purification, ecstatic energy promotion and light body activation. Those dedicated enough to the spiritual path and fortunate enough to receive support by Higher Self within and by others, physically and non-physically, were able to reach remarkable spiritual heights. Some of those teachers have changed the course of human history forever. Some of those teachers continue to assist humanity’s growth. When asked “what is enlightenment like?”, many awakened teachers used words like bliss, love, peace, purity, oneness, and God. Some teachers chose to remain silent, conveying that words could never explain this state of Self-realization. To assist the spiritual development of their students, awakened teachers would share verbal and written teachings and deeply tranforming practices like meditation and energy cultivation exercises. Some teachers would even offer direct energy transmissions and empowerments to more quickly purify and advance the students who were ready. The common bond between all Higher Self-awakened teachers was that the teachers would allow the Universal Intelligence and Universal Creative Energy to flow through themselves, unblocked and unchanged by their own personal self. The depths of ego purification in the teachers were great enough to allow the Higher Self to communicate and purify through them, using their human mind-body system as the channel. By surrendering their own self to the Higher Self, the awakened teacher would be of the greatest service to their students. With this understanding in mind and intention at heart, Lincoln Gergar has chosen to surrender himself into the Higher Self to share knowledge, energy, peace and healing to all sincere spiritual seekers who feel drawn to awaken their Higher Self state of consciousness. The Higher Self is within us all. This knowledge, peace and blissful Love is our eternal birthright. With proper guidance any student can be led into their own Spiritual Heart center to awaken their blissful connection to God – the Higher Self. Surrendering in this way returns us to Pure Consciousness, original state of God." We are all seeking to be one with the higher self in this life. And all the is required is to gently focus on the heart (which is the higher self) as much as possible. There are other ways, but this is the one recommended by the higher self because of it's directness.

That day for me, it began, still suffering in bliss, every single moment.

That was a break-point we all have when pursuing enlightenment, there is no coming back from it and you kinda have to deal with it. Ignorance is a bliss, you may say. Everything in EGO life is meaningless once you have an enlightenment experience but remember: Yu body is a cage, that keeps you from dancing with the one you love, and your mind have the key. When trying to enlighten again, before any meditation you could try to create a shield for your body, that you can always go back, and that fear of stop existing suddenly will be less terrifying, mind and body are connected, they are part of the same organism, the conscious created the body and they are dependent . if the mind did not needed a body, universe itself would not exist at all, try giving you body ( ego life ) as much attention as you give your mind when meditating. If I make no sense at all, I could try to explain in some other ways

There are many important things in life that help use so much when optimised such as diet, exercise, relationships, sleep, life purpose, how we respond to what arises. It is true that a person who eats seasonally, raw, organic and nutritious food will have a calmer and healthier mind, and body. And for one living their life purpose as a creative artist will be happier than one who is a doctor by tradition. Yet, the most important question is: what is guiding us to change these areas of our life? Is it the ego (the part of us conditioned by the world to act and be a certain way) or our higher selves (the unlimited love and intelligence of the universe, that we are)? In fact the ego has 3 different parts of itself that we can see reality from which is the physical body, the emotional body, and the mental body. Most people in the world are influenced greatly by the physical body, which they identify the most with. This means they seek survival, take comfort in food, and focus on staying alive. When we are more identified with the emotional body, we seek states of happiness. We generally focus on not feeling bad, which leaves us prone to addictive tendencies such as eating, drinking, smoking, and thinking to change our emotional state. The mental body desires experiences, usually ones that make it feel powerful, or even at one. Since what we focus on is what we become, it's of the greatest importance to know where which body we are identified with. The last " body" to be identified with is the soul. Our souls desire unity, oneness, and love; and with it's wisdom second only to God in it's breathe, it always knows the most loving action to take. This is why enlightened masters don't tell us to focus so much on diet, exercise, relationships, or business because they understand this universal principle of focus. They instead tell us to constantly focus on ourselves as love which is located within the heart, so that we can reconnect with our souls in this way; even the zen practice of being the awareness, shikantaza, ultimately reunites us with our heart, where the soul is found, because it withdraws our awareness back to the source of it's origin, which is in the heart. Thus focusing on love of any kind, or excitement or any higher vibrational energies you resonate with will naturally put everything in life back into place. The natural intelligence of love will do this. Love is our true nature, and by focusing on it, everything becomes perfect, like it's always been, right in this moment. There is nothing to change, nothing to do, just you as a soul here to express itself for the benefit of every else still in this dream. This is the milestone I'm at in my journey, where it's almost nature to focus on my heart before thinking. Everything is peaceful, calm and blissful. And I am one with it. I am peace, oneness, love and bliss; and so is everything. This is what I use my free will for, to focus on the love in my heart, and what I am learning is how to trust it's intelligence more than relying on what the ego thinks I should do to be fulfilled. It is a rewiring of sorts, and right now, love is triumphing brilliantly; vibrating in every cell of my body when I surrender The mind is a good servant, but a bad master. We are all learning again to make the heart the master. Lots of love.

I wanted to create a new topic but I can accord to this one. I've just read the text about it. Depression after spiritual awakening is common. But who wants to talk about it publicly? You will hear endless accounts of bliss and oneness. But it’s not often that people want to talk about how difficult it can be to adjust. Yes, there is bliss and oneness but there can also be tremendous sorrow or disorientation or feelings of profound bleakness. Sometimes these bleak feelings even happen at the same time as bliss and oneness. People euphemistically call this The Dark Night Of The Soul. Well, that sounds poetic, doesn’t it? But it doesn’t feel so poetic when you are in the middle of it. Especially if you believe that it’s not supposed to be this way and that you are the only one. From https://modernawakenings.com/depression-after-spiritual-enlightenment/ Do the others also feel like that? I'm worried now. I did not have a retreat. But I meditate, focus on my breathing during the day, etc and also started to feel different. More sad and unhappy with no reason.

Kundalini, in essence, is: The energy for the nervous system that has the root at the base of the spine. So extending the focus attention after 1.Breath into that zone, 2.bone tail, channeling the energy of the sound and feeling of breath, one is capable to increase physical/mental energy many many times over, depending on practice. Is like a muscle, but can achieve faster mass by enduring pain, accommodation to a new level of awareness followed by bliss, then start again, if one wants to grow to a higher level. Or if one wishes, then the process can be done in a large period of time, with not much trouble with pain. To get over faster and less pain: alcohol in microdoses, cannabis, maybe opium, psychedelics in microdoses, natural plants with analgesics, etc.

Don’t turn it into an ideology. Follow your bliss doesn’t mean you ideologically cling to that. It just means that you slowly accept your authentic self and authentic life.

What I am calling "stable enlightenment" here would be what the lives of some of the current spiritual leaders which come to mind may look like. Mooji, Ruper Spira, Sadhguru, Fred David, Adyashanti, Eckhart T. - list goes on Path A From what I have learned thus far and what it seems to me is that Path A to enlightenment is not common (yet) but maybe down the road it will be. There are people who know nothing about spirituality who take drugs like mushrooms/lsd/dmt for fun/tripping out etc Select few of these people may get a breakthrough experience in which they see the ALL/Absolute and learn about their true self and construct of reality as a result. you can see common trip reports of breakthroughs and becoming everything/everywhere/infinite. but these people normally return to their ego-self soon after 1-2 day 1 week or so... as they know not what they have witnessed.. being unaware of it, and not actively seeking it.. now this "glimpse" inducded and brought on by the susbtance consumed is not as strong as awakening brought on by Path B what is path B? that is the path where one learns about this information, and pursues it - chases it, looks for it in process, the person does many self-inquriy, meditations, exercises and goes thru a slow process of detachment and on this journey, as insights are recieved, they are slowly intergrated... now to that someone on this path, having already intergrated knowledge/teachings/insights into their life... when they see the absolute/have the awakening, it's rather easier for them to go into the stable enlightment state . the last state of bliss so my questions is that i have seen many videos on youtube where people during satsang/meets having moment of awakening and they just start laughing/crying same time but they are at peace vs not being at peace when they come up to ask the questions is this that person's first glimpse/awakening during their spirtual path? and now having seen the TRUTH they feel liberated in that moment - but it will again take time now to intergrate?

@SoonHei It happens when you let go of the illusion of this reality as being real. When you do a higher reality is revealed to you. I know that sounds kind of scary to let go of reality. That's why so few awaken. Compassion becomes prevalent. Love, peace and bliss. Sure that too. But there is no ownership. Yes love would be infinite. But not the kind of love that depends on physical circumstances. This love is from the absolute. That "higher reality" which is infinite and so the love is also.

@cetus56 hi question i suppose you're enlightened? or have had awakenings? please answer from what you know either from direct experience or your knowledge this: you said "Nothing changes in reality except for the way you see it." do you mean nothing changes on day-to-day when one is "living in the illusion" yet awake to it... like awake that one is "dreaming" so to speak? so when do those states occur, where one feels infinite love - job - peace - bliss is that a state which someone who is awakened/enlightened goes to when they decide to meditate or be more present? shift back/forth between those states?