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@Buba I edited my last post to give more insight so read that. And the whole point is for you (ego) to cease functioning, and surrendering to the real You (the self). Not gonna lie. It will feel like dying. Like actually dying. But if you just let go, death is bliss. This is all the advice I can give you: Let go.

Hey guys. While I was having trip on mushrooms two days ago I promised myself to share this wisdom and love to the whole world so here I am. I'm not a native English speaker so I apologize for mistakes . ( I always feel like my English sounds like 5 year old child speaking ) First attempt - 2 grams Everything happened two days ago in my apartment. Firstly I didn't want go crazy and decided to try just 2 grams of Golden Teacher mushrooms since that was my first time . I eat them. After waiting for an hour nothing special was going on , just colors had become vivid and gotten kind of purple-greenish shade. After I turned the shamanic music on I noticed that shamanic faces and forms started appearing on a curtain , on a wall , wherever I was staring at there were these faces.The fact that they were appearing out of nothing amazed me. At that moment that was obvious to me that they were my ancestors and they had been all my life with me and never left me. I felt a strong connection with them on spiritual level.But the thing was that they were laughing at me lol. Second attempt - 5 grams And I was like hm ok ,why are you laughing ? I felt like I had a conversation with them and their response was "Stop create boundaries and let your ego go, your ego is the reason why we are laughing " . And I started to laugh along with them . After that the effect was slowing down . I decided to eat 5g more (!) . I did it and an hour later I laid down on my bed and stared at ceiling which was zooming out and the whole room was zoomed out as well and breathing in tune with me. There were fascinating patterns and forms arising on the ceiling , the walls and everywhere . I felt like ''Yeahh this is it . That's what I was expecting from mushrooms. There was a strong inner awareness that I was a disciple and mushrooms were teaching me something which I was not able to understand to but it was definitely something beautiful and indescribable. Tears flowed down my cheeks.I started to speak loud saying "Thank you , thank you ,thank you" . Shamanic music was still playing . I closed my eyes and ...ohh man.. I can't even describe that feeling . I saw .. no .. rather I felt that I was the music (sounds weird but it was such a strong clear feeling). I was the patterns that the music was creating . I found myself in kind of 3D world consisted of patterns,thoughts, dreams, music, and universe . These were all mixed together and I was all of them . I was breathing out the Universe accompanied by movements of my mouth and head. For some time I was just enjoining this beauty . Looove... My heart and soul were never ever filled with sooo much love. Just an unconditional love for everybody and everything: people, animals,birds, sky,moon,sunrise, whole Universe. ( Even now while I'm writing I've come to realize that the word "Universe" itself sounds so beautifully amazing. Mushrooms are still working ) I also felt much love and appreciation for Golden Teachers . They were like my gurus that would never let me down. (Times to times I would start crying and then suddenly stop . And then again cry over and over.. I felt a ton of appreciation for each circumstance that happened in my life. I even felt you guys. This was so cool to realize that there is a community where people genuinely sharing their spiritual experiences and wisdom. Flashbacks of childhood I had a lot of flashbacks of my childhood. It felt like I was moved into old movie of my childhood and seeing it from the perspective of a viewer . It felt so amazing .My grandfather was good at painting . And he would always paint something for me and brother when we were kids. I saw that and a felt so much love. I saw my great grandparents . They were telling me something but I would never understand what. I had realized that their bodies were dead but not souls. Souls never die. God and Universe Once again there was Universe whatever I was looking at (cracks,patterns, skin,everything). And yeah . There was such a vivid realization deep deep inside me that I am the Artist of my life and I could paint everything I want in my life . I had a paint brush in my hands and was waving my hands in the air. I I would look a my hands and see the whole universe in them . I was God . I could add any color I wish and make this planet brighter. I was on the most beatiful I'm a monkey Then I would fall down on the floor and would stare at a crack and Universe inside it forr like 10 minutes I found myself with my hand in my mouth . I was chewing my hand O_o . I was drooling and rolling on the floor . It was a very weird animal attitude . But so familiar . It felt good being an animal . It was monkey attitude I would say. If somebody had seen me I would have been immediately sent to a mental hospital . While I was having the trip I would repeatedly start laughing and then cry. In the end of the trip my reality and ego were coming back which was a little sad But at the same time I felt amazing and also exhausted emotionally . Honestly I was a piece of meat and could do nothing . Question : Has any of you guys ever felt so exhausted emotionally and psychologically after a trip? Is it normal? After having such an experience I think it is.It was painful ..fortunately I fell asleep soon . On the next day I had a little headache but mostly was in a great mood still filled with so much joy and bliss . My takeaway from the experience : First of all there was far more to take away from this experience and I feel it . Which makes me more aware about what consciousness is. There is too much to expand . I discovered some of my boundaries and fears that I was creating all the time . My breathing has become smoother and deeper. I can feel connection between me and Universe which is now in tuned with my breathing . That tension in my stomach had magically disappeared and now I . I got grounded to the present moment even more . I can feel this very moment. That infinity . My body movements have become more authentic . That a little noise that constantly is saying "What people think of you" started disappearing in the way that I quickly become aware of these kind of thoughts. Being strongly aware of it helps me to get back to the moment , to the breathing , to infinity . I have become aware of this unconditional love when I just want to give to this world and people not getting anything in return. Eye contact has become not that scary that it used to be. Before the trip I was reading a lot of self-help books especially books about creativity . Now I feel like I don't need those books anymore . Process of creation is being God. That's all I can say. So being creative in no matter you do (washing dishes , sweeping , painting , selling ) is what means to be God for me now. In the end I would say taking mushrooms was the best decision I've ever made . It has healed and changed me. For those who is going to try it first time just have respect and appreciation for mushrooms . It's not just a psychedelic for fun and party . It 's a food of goods . Gift of nature. And be ready to fly Of course it's better to start with small dose and get to know what it feels like . Don't be me. Thank you @Leo Gura for introducing to me what psychedelics are and you guys for sharing your love and wisdom. I would have never thought that I would say this but Love is all we need. And it's in our hand to share this love .

If you're an individual, then I think it's like a package deal. ? I'd like to have the ego 'al a carte' and customize, but I think if you had to look it as simply as possible, you got two menu options: Love - Comes with the peace of God, a side of joy, your choice of ecstasy or bliss, and all of eternity. Oh, and a choice of side salad or fries. Fear - Comes with a finite existence, a side of misery, your choice of major depression or schizophrenia, all served on top of certain death, lightly topped with mango salsa and creme fraiche. ?

Escaping wage slavery is only for beginners, if you truly want to ascend to the next stage of development then you must do some serious inquiry Right Now! How to escape real life? The thing you are in right now, observe your every day behavior using your memory. Now stop that. Stop doing everything and you will have escaped real life. Every movement you take is a distraction. Every thought you think is a distraction. Morpheus said it very clearly yet most people overlooked it ; " It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the Truth " . Reality is so Bright and Crisp and Juicy and Dark and full of content that you totally get lost within it thinking that you must do anything, following a structure, reacting to stuff, like a chemical reaction. Watch this video, people are genuinely reacting and being offended at a guy holding up a camera and just filming them in public. Every '' person '' you see outside is an NPC { NON-PLAYER-CHARACTER } meaning there is no true self inside of them, their behavior/reaction can be accurately predicted up to 99%. The same applies for literally every organization, every church , every mosque , every buddhist temple , every businesses, everyone in their car, everyone walking down the street, every government. Reality is a structured simulation full of regulations & rules that only "privileges" the ones who are naturally gifted in one way or another, even being able to work hard is a gift, not everyone can do that, and the system is designed that way, and by system i mean the entire human grid. Now let's look at the privileges because that's the entire reason you even cling to life. 1. Food shelter & security 2. A sense of belonging to a tribe, organization , the human race , culture 3. Sex, porn , music , movies, amusements of all sorts 4. Enlightenment, mystical experiences of all sort , relaxation , feeling good , feeling bliss and union of any kind 5. Intelligence, being a know-it-all , being a master, owning stuff That's it, this is the game, and you're stuck in it. The game's gravitation is so strong that you keep getting pulled back into it, many people try to escape it and they just end up killing themselves because of how hard it is to get off this game. Remember, even Donald Trump, or the richest man alive is a slave to his desires, even if it feels good. It's literally impossible for 99,999999% of people to escape this. How could you? Are you truly willing to give up your entire existence for this? Are you starting to see how every people act like an NPC? There is no '' person '' , they're just heavily configured nervous systems/brains going along their way doing what they are designed to do like an NPC in a videogame. How will you get out? Certainly not through meditation.

If I were you, then I would have digged the skeletons out of the grave and sniff it for a good 2-3 hours to get a taste of that absolute infinity/bliss.

Hi everyone, I know meditation is extremely important in self development I tend to over analyze everything. I meditate regularly, but i find it extremely difficult to go beyond 10 minutes...(been meditating a while) General thoughts I have: ok watch thoughts, ok focus on breathing, ok clear mind, ok focus on feeling and just try to be aware of thoughts but i seem to always stop, and give into the mind. Should their be a goal in meditation? Im extremely analytical, and my thoughts are wild, I have a hard time being present, and when i have glimpses its pure bliss. I just want to increase the presence and focus in my life on daily task, but my mind influences me in crazy ways. Any insight and criticism is welcome...

How? When? Guesses? (TBH, I'M UNSURE AS I HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED NON-DUALITY / NOTHINGNESS DIRECTLY, BUT I'M PRETTY WHAT I SAY BELOW IS CORRECT) SO... If you guessed Sleep, then You're right! The deep-sleep "experience" or rather "non-experience" is what IT is. You know that feeling when we have all had to get up in the morning, but snooze our alarms just to get Even 1-2 minutes more of sleep, that's you wanting that peace/bliss/utter pure stillness . the infinite love/bliss/just being in that restful state , the sleep, the quick zero-durarion-esq blurp of sleep which is infinitely better than a deep massage or a hit of heroin. Now I feel I understand why it cannot be explained, the state/Non-dual experience I mean. It's because there is no content appearing during that for us to explain or talk about. So that's how the experience of enlightenment / NON-DUALITY would feel like I am sure. Yet it's way way more unimaginably powerful as one is somehow "conscious/aware" in that state vs how we normally are "unconscious" during our sleep/deep-sleep. Boom

Let's spice things up! * Death ≠ suicide in the context of this thread , by Death I mean Enlightenment AKA EGO DEATH Where would you like to die? Most people die randomly on a random day or they kill themselves at home without any depth to it. They end up in an overcrowded hospital and die with a number tag attached to their toe and then they are buried. No Depth whatsoever. Well here i suggest that we make our deaths more deep and that we actually enjoy the dying process & dying and our location and that we actually plan our deaths. This is what true masters do, they plan their deaths in advance and die in a chosen location and actually die in full bliss & peace. This can't be done in groups, this has to be something very personal, this is very intimate. One way to consciously die is to go deep into nature and die with 5-MeO-DMT. Let the image below inspire you. Can you feel the vibration of the entire forest go through you? Your last moments will be so magical that you will be crying at the depth of the beauty, you will physically merge with the entire fabric of reality and become the forest. The cold wind will blow at you as you are sitting in a deep meditative state, and at that moment you will fully surrender your ego and you will transcend reality and become God. There will no more seeking as you will be IT. Peace & Love will be eternal. The trees will become magical , the leaves falling, the wet muddy ground full of life, the sky covered with clouds forming a greenish tint, it is at that moment that you will realize that Reality was truly magical and that you toke it for granted by doing mundane tasks everyday just to survive. At that moment you will truly become alive and enlightenment will be realized. Here below is an illustration / stock photo of how the average person in a civilized country gets to experience death. Full of regrets, regulations & rules , doctor and nurses running around and overall fear, negativity. Your family, if you have one will all come and they will all be sad seeing you in such a state. Everyone will be crying out of fear, the love will not vibrate at the same level and you will die without experiencing God.

@Jack River Again, if by 'self' you mean anything other than your true nature (existence, consciousness, bliss) then I would have to disagree. Also I'm not really sure what is meant by "holistic movement of self."

@Jack River Being immersed in the Self. It means that you recognize your true self to exist, to be intelligent, and to be in bliss. This awareness is constant without there being someone (I) who is aware.

I’ve had active kundalini for about 2 years and I’ve come to know what this divine love is about, bit by bit. It’s been quite slow and a lot of hard realisations but it’s worth it. Major aniexty, depression, feeling insane is a part of the process to heaven. So is heavenly bliss and mania... The more you surrender the easier life becomes, but the less it is your life. @Misagh you got learn about balancing energy and delveloping more healthy habbits when kundalini is active. If you don’t then kundalini will just teach you the lesson the hard way

To me, it feels like seeking energy here. You will not find true bliss in the timeline. It can only be found here and now - in whatever is happening in this moment. That’s just one perspective from an empathic Green. You’ll get many different perspectives here.

I feel like I’m motivated for other things which takes up most of my day..I think the problem is I haven’t found any sort of higher quality “release” or “play” type of activity I can easily do everyday that has no goals attached to it and is purely for the bliss of doing it, allows me to stay in a higher consciousness level..maybe I’ve just been using lower consciousness releases (mainstream media) but now am looking for better options. I have a project I’ve been working on in alignment with my life purpose but a lot of the work I’m doing rn for it is mundane gritty type of work.

@who chit It should be clear that Nisargadatta Maharaj never identified himself with the I AM. He clearly states that this I AM arises 'spontaneously' on the Absolute. So he, as the Absolute, does not control or exert volition on whether this I AM should arise or not. He remains absolutely unconcerned because he knows perfectly well that this I AM is an illusion and can never taint him a bit. And also nothing can be said about Para-brahman 'state'. It is beyond bliss, union etc whatever you try to impose on it. Nagarjuna's 8 negations of Absolute come here. It is called a state because the lack of a better term. Maybe the only thing you can say about Para-Brahman is that it is! It is the only real thing that is. Even that statement falls short to describe it. It's really futile to philosophize about it.

Luckily there is no overdosing on bliss...

I love to just be, pure be-ing. Doing is a distraction from this pure being, doing is a distraction from resting in infinite consciousness. My awareness goes into a contemplative and a meditative mode without any effort when I don't do anything at all. To just be is beautiful. Concentration and doing is a distraction from the truth and the love I feel when I let the spontaneous contemplation just happens, as it always does when resting in pure being with nothing else to do. My dad on the other hand loves doing, i don't think he has anything going on in his inner being other then the satisfaction over something he does in the outer world. The arrangement of the outer world, like working, cleaning, house keeping, pay bills, wash the cars etcetera, gives him satisfaction. He view me as lazy and I view him as a closed minded person with no access to divine consciousness. I would like him to have the taste of Godly awareness, but that will never happens. Anyway, it's tricky with my dad, but other people who are "doers" that I don't know personally, those people I love, they don't bother me(because they don't know me, hence they don't know we are different) and I love the sounds of people working, the discussions they have, the sound of construction working in action. But I love it only when I'm not part of it my self. I like to blissfully witness it all from a distance, with a cup of coffee in my hand and love in my heart. Those "working-bees" do so much things for me, they build my house, they build my car, they construct all the roads I love to travel. They transport and manufacture all the delicious foods and goods to my local store for me to pick whatever I like. I can't help but feeling some trace guilt in the middle of all the bliss. I obviously like to consume the fruits of society, but clearly, I don't contribute anything myself(I'm lucky regarding economy). The only thing I provide for others are an open mind, kindness, happiness, but no real goods, nothing tangible. Aren't those working-bees right about us to some degree, we are somewhat lazy, we don't help the wheels of society to spin that much, do we? After all, teaching non duality which many of us realised do, has no value for those who can't pick it up, which are most people, nor do they desire it. Only like 0.02% of people both desire AND are able to pick it up and transform themselves from the non duality teachings. And there are by far enough teachers out there to supply the non dual teaching demands from those tiny 0.02 % who wants it. You see what I'm saying here? Elaborate.

Jeez I'm infinitely happy!! It's over overwhelming sometimes, I'm so empty and so fucking full at the same time . ? Let's all drown in loving awareness.

I decided to sit down, get clear and write everything out. Working as my own business has got me all over the place (I recently made this leap). I love the freedom but it's also challenging because I must spend my time wisely, be good at managing myself and be a professional. Here's my new daily routine that incorporates everything. I'm going to use this as a default template of how my day should run. 4:00 - 6:00 AM Fitness 6:00 - 8:00 AM Accomplishment Project 8:00 AM - 2:00 PM Income Main Source *If I am going out, Get Ready 2:00 - 4:00 PM Income 3rd long-term source 4:00 PM - 8:00 PM Income 2nd source or Bliss project Right now I have 3 sources of income named by most to least (immediately) important. The 3rd source is a more long-term strategy. Each one of them is considered part-time and again I plan to stick to this schedule 7 days a week. I also have a project I called the "Accomplishment Project" which is driven by my need for accomplishment and my love for learning. The "Bliss Project" is my life-purpose project.

@Ingit I understand, we all have things pop up in our mind from our subconscious, face them or don't face them it doesn't really matter which but sure they feel hella real and hurt. That's your state of being right now and it's rough, I get it but it doesn't have to always be that way. The ego self will have seemingly endless energy in keeping us in that distressed state suffering but don't give it the attachment, like don't agree this is 'me' and 'mine'. Just observe without identifying and keep doing it. Sure, we have to do stuff in life to keep living but on the inside, stay observer mode. It may take days or months or years, I don't know, everyone is different it took me years but eventually the ego self will quiet up, lose it's energy and intensity then fade away like smoke. Some might be able to shut ego self down instantaneously but that wasn't my experience, it echoed for some time. Being at peace or joy, fulfilled, happiness, bliss, glee lol whatever you call it will happen if you allow it. It took me awhile but now it be present. Or don't, go ahead, feed the ego self and suffer forever. I can't be it for you, you got to be it for it to be.

Do you feel live while listening to this? Do you feel more connected? More joy, happiness, oneness, and bliss? Use direct experience always.

dear friend, we must keep our eyes to the stars and dreams, it serves no one to investigate what's unpleasant, our instinct is joyful expansion! yes life is easy,it needs no justification for that, the nature of life is bliss, that's a good thing really, I keep my visor on what I desire, peace, harmony, joy to that I dedicate all of myself, every single cell and every liter of imagination which is why I cannot partake in your exercise growth can only come in my opinion with acceptance of what is, then growth is revealed to be our true nature, infinity, we do not grow because we lack something, we grow out of abundance

it's this weird ego thing where people put a certain figure into positions of divinity then strip them and deny them of their sexuality, in order to dehumanize them and make them match the godly portrait "oh you be damned for not holding upto the divine standards onto which I hold you to!I'm a victim of your folly!" its just plain dehumanizing it clearly shows that ego always causes suffering, whether its when you put someone below yourself, or when you put someone to be better then yourself, it is always ugly all this stems from the very deep belief in spiritual community that you cannot be enlightened AND have fun sex representing the fun aspect, is sex not one of the highest in life? "you cannot have pleasure And enlightenment in the same life" "you cannot be the wise man or wise woman and have your wild sexual escapades and motorbikes and make-up, spa's and parties" well I raise you infinity I'll be damned if I'll end up as some castrated monk sitting all day in "bliss", no offense to the monks I'll have the heavenly wisdom, and I'll have the earthly pleasures, two for one, that will be my bliss, and I hope the same for everyone enlightenment is fun, it is not hard work, it is not serious work, it can be both if desired tho, its all for us to chose, I'll go for fun though, that is my view on it

Since the beginning of the year I have been experiencing some kind of shift of consciousness or at least that’s the term I can produce now. It propably started a bit earlier when I cleaned up my diet, started to consume supplements to decalcify my pineal gland (I had a theory that it would help my migraines). Anyway, then I started to watch a lot of videos about food, TED talks, psychology and I stumbled upon Leo. Then I started my meditation and after the first try I had a weird experience (I wrote about it here on the forum) and in fact it progressed I had my body vibrating in a strange way and then the energy (I suspect kundalini) was filling me up (I don’t think it is fully awake, there was no spectacular bliss or anything like this), I was feeling so big, like I had no boarders, but I had also troubles sleeping, brain fog, bit of nausea and I stopped with watching videos and meditation. I had a backlash and went back to my more regular life. Less Leo more Netflix Now it is back again, I am in my maniac stage and am watching his videos like crazy, the energy has taken over, is not as intense as after the vibration episode but quite constant. It got interesting after the shamanic Breathwork I tried, more intense. Now, my question is what I should do, persevere in meditation etc. or rather calm it down and integrate like the last time? What will happen if I continue? I have a family and job... My family does not know a thing and they would not understand. I am stage yellow mostly. Any advice?

OK so I've been using 4-ACO-DMT and 2C-B separately for quite a while. Both are good psychedelics, but oh man I was in for a surprise when I mixed the two. OK so I take both of them as it's been a while since I had a good trip. I take them and put on these two songs bellow. I get tried when I take 4-aco-dmt. So I take 15 mg of 4-aco-dmt, and 10 mg of 2-cb. I close my eyes and relax into being. I am melting into the couch. I became one with the music. And my mind was morphing a little. But most of all I felt love like I never felt before. I touched sublime bliss. It was very profound. Any negative thoughts were just washed away with love. My consciousness increased too to encompass a pretty big space. I experienced time dilation. The heart of the trip was only for about 3 hours, but it felt like 6 hours. It was so powerful that I was mesmerized coming down and talking about it with my family. Whiteout & One Half Bear - The Part In-Between (RNM) tyDi feat. Brianna Holan - Never Go Back (Tom Fall Remix)

Unfortunately, this is the exact spiritual bypassing that I was talking about. If a lion is running at you, just repeat these ideas and all the danger will melt away into spiritual bliss... OR you'll be mauled by a lion for not being properly aware of the goings-on within duality. Either way, it doesn't matter because "All is one." You never cared about your life because you're aware that death is an illusion. So, whenever you're being mauled, you will not feel any sense of terror or suffering. You're beyond that... right? Truth is not opinions or ideas. And if you are not abiding in Truth, then you will certainly be effected by negative life circumstances. The best thing that you can do now is be really honest with where you are, and stop deceiving yourself that you're so detached from outcomes. Anyone can repeat these ideas and believe in these ideas. But when the rubber meets the road, you will immediately become aware that these ideas don't keep you safe from harm and that you're not above pain and suffering. Ask yourself, have you ever experienced ego transcendence. If the answer is no, you don't know anything about it. Or truly, even if you have, you are not abiding in that state now. So, duality is likely very real to you.