Search the Community

Holy scriptures are not just concepts and theories and interpretations. It's about Grace and the Words of Truth that carry a certain influence that is way beyond just the intelectual entertainment. Such books have metaphysical properties that stimulate the opening and healing of the heart. It plants seeds of awakening. It purifies the mind. And it is a way, a portal so to speak, through which one can tap into certain states of consciouness, and make a connection with certain beings to receive their grace, support and guidence. Such tools for transformation deserve to be honored and not pissed on.

I re-listened to the audibook integral transformation by Wilber and what was fascinating to me is how he and Leo intuit the samething about advaita and buddhism that they lack love that is so heavily emphasised by christian mystics and a lot of that very deep empathy is missing in todays culture, as it's to compassion focused or just very distant. Also what was fascinating is that the identification shifts and I was legit on the way to beign stage indigo/universal or w/e the scientific term was for this on cook-greuters paper as I started to identify with the higher subtle of love/joy etc. These are sort of imo the experience you have ad turqouise/construct aware -> indigo/beyond construct aware. Also that emptiness is sort of a lame interpretation even as an idea instead of infinity, as you can already see the christian background of love and empathy I wondered, by far also christian nations or judeo-christian nations are the least racist etc. When I contemplate how toxic China, Turkey or other countries are and this is sort of the positive remanent of our unknown mystics. That was certainly fascinated, also how shadow elements appear less in higher developed structure-stages from individuals at these stages, they are less prone to evoke them and accquire them, while they are not free of them, as well as people who even do smth. as basic as journaling have a better toolset to spot and handle shadow elements. For example the one with beign an expert and power and control at blue/red right now I notice is a huge regional emotional shadow I inherited as this is how "good power" was dealt with at very early stages of the beginnings of civilizations.... the irony of what I think about at the gym.... Yeah, I did not finish it entirely as I listend in 1x and was very tired. So yeah right now I am just chilling and enjoying my saturday gym today was very good in terms of meeting up and socializing a bit, and getting away especially in the early mornings from the gym sonication of loud blaring hip-hop music (trance would be good as it's more stage 3 inclined). The level of materalism sold within this as a "pure desire" can evoke some very competitive drives, I don't need at the morning. (Stage 3 higher development masculine & feminine) -> This was also interesting as it entailed the reality that higher stage men embody masculine and feminine aspects more and higher staged women also, also how wave 1 feminism was wrong about we are all equal and denied the biological differences and that wave 2 feminists admitted these differences, hence why there is the high acknowledgement of differences, yet now we have this stage 3 living without talking about it partially, some girls are very open to it and you have an extrem dark masculine shadow and to some extend dark feminine shadow collectively about material power at a purple/red and blue/orange level and some green stuff also. I bet there is more to write about this already took a lot of time to write, and to even read and connect all of the dots, many are arrogantly envious about things here and these are all shadows. I don't know if Wilber as the new integral life has already a topic on this psychdelics and shadow work, yet "keeping up-to-date" with the newest innovations in the psycho-spiritual sphere has become one of the most interesting things to me. Also the level of falseness of perspective of many spiritual people here is crass, many are materalist sex seekers, while others are living out there karma. Some people who are very liked by mods etc. Don't deserve it in my eyes, as they don't see the pain of the subtle extrem levels of materalism, especially shared with a partner etc. There is no love, only lust imo, so I will dismiss such people also in my personal life, they even lack compassion etc. They just evoke the notion of good without truely beign that intutive good so many humans love, that stems from a deep creative place of love, that is why you're fake to me, and it's triggering old patterns of my mother, and it's painful to deal with people who unconsciously traumatize you for your own gain, as they are money hungry power hungry weak dogs. That is the truth, weak dogs that hunt for the smallest piece of advantage, as long as these people don't admitt his fear I don't trust it. Anyhow this is more a reflection as I could also be like this, yet I never behaved and or thought like a weak dog, as I have to deal with the shadows mostly of beign the big dog, naive and likeable, gullible, trustable, faithful, loyal, strong etc. -> stupid, (rarely clumsy), forgetful, not caring etc. Some of this stuff more. Uhm yeah, more Wilber and Love -> Infinity etc. I see Leo's bias as to what works, yet the guy also is a maniac when it comes to work. I lost a lot of ambition if I channel it spiritually to such an extrem I will become like him which I don't want to and I am sure of this. A more subtler maturing is more painful, yet I could benefit more. Mostly I am here for spiritual work, shadow work and game, relationship advice, in case it works out with this girl I might do the course the advice here is so low and adopted for survival, I could puke and I get slightly triggered by the copy-cating of it. It's odd ohhh also!!! This idea caused me massive exellence in my life Wilber mentioning that aggression and hostility are different in it's essence -> anger is to move forward I had this inner behavioural ... adoption for quiet some time and it brought me massive exellence and the recent hostility is mostly due to the inadequat feeling of inner weakness that is abused and vulnerabillity that can be abused and the fear of it. Anyhow this is it I would analyze more, as this is new to me I was mostly non-caring yet it was mostly these type of social dominating type 8's who are very dumb in seeking god, they seek outside but it's inside. Anyhow it's a different matter some of these get it way way more intutively as they don't deny the creative drive of -> love -> surrender etc. Also the distinction between eros and agape that eros in the drive towards a great whole and including more of the whole which can have a phobos -> and hence turn pathological and agape including the smaller the involution drive towards the wholness of integrating the lower, which can lead to thantatos (death drive) in it's pathological form due to to much deconstruction instead of inclusion IIRC, and if my interpretation of the last part is correct. This 41:19 sounds extremely whole to me and I feel more whole, but yeah I dunno when I game to this music I ironically loose. It's to trippy .

I have something to say about that. Nietzsche spoke about the importance of YES. Getting to a point where you not only accept what is but say YES to Life and EVERYTHING that it entails, even if it meant repeating it into all of Eternity. That's a possibility. I'm working on a technique that involves going into the deepest darkest shadows of your psyche – essentially voluntarily visiting hell. It's made easier by doing it through a musical story, so you're able to distance yourself from your personal attachments and assume the reality of the fiction, experiencing it as a character that you may leave at any time if it gets too much. This is - as you may have guessed - supported and intensified through the use of psychedelics. It is ultimately supposed to be done in a group setting, but can also be carried out alone. Now, the goal is of course not to stay in hell, but to pass through it and leaving everything human behind for one night. This is possible because your fears and negativity work like an anchor tying you to the physical. It's like dying together in a more or less controlled and repeatable manner. That first part is like a cleansing and opening of your emotional system. The second part of the event then is about Ascension and Gnosis. Essentially connecting with the Divine in that elevated and loosened state creating a direct experience of GOD. What's great about it is that it will be possible to conduct it with as many people as you'd like, leading to not only a personal GOD awakening but a collective one. Anyway, in my experience by going consciously through what we would call hell it ceases to be that. You realize that even there, you can find nothing but LOVE. That's the great power of undergoing such a thing deliberately. You come back way more open and with less fear each time. Of course it may happen that you encounter something that's so deeply buried that it's not possible to overcome it in the moment. But that can be worked through aside from the ceremony and then you come back to try it again. But why? you may ask.. What are the benefits of doing something like that in the first place? Possible positive outcomes may be (if and how much of a success it becomes depends on the ceremony and the people that attend): Collective GOD-consciousness CATHARSIS of suppressed emotions Loosening or even permanent dissolving of certain emotional attachments – SHADOW WORK Advancing Evolution on this planet by working through the unconscious mind of humanity Creating our own future that's not just a repetition of the past by connecting to the Great Unknown Personal and collective transformation Coming together with like-minded people for the purpose of our Advancement as a species Finding and strengthening your life purpose by becoming conscious of what your highest values are Connecting to LIFE itself and starting to live more from your authentic self Cutting through all the bullshit of human ideas and concepts Notice: It's not about teaching anything specific, but just about connecting to the highest principle itself. Everything else is what you make of it. Essentially, it's a technology. There's much more to say but I'll leave it at that for now. Feel free to share your thoughts

Funny. Suddenly, Awakenings n+1 sound like more insights into the various facets/angles of the frog/God/Absolute Reality. And God Realization sound like Full Enlightenment. With Full Enlightenment having the benefit of sobre and permanent deep identity transformation, and its resulting access to the bliss of Absolute Reality. For divine/celestial perception after Enlightenement (or, understanding more of the relative facets of the frog), see for example Harri Aalto, David Buckland, David Spangler, and many others. In all Traditions.

Do you experience that? I am totally me, but I'm also grounded in the Absolute. I'm aware of the absoluteness of the Absolute, but I don't feel less myself, I feel MORE connected to this experience and body. It's kind of like lucid dreaming and it's amazing. I don't know if someday I wake up and think "oh, there's nobody there" but that sounds so silly. I can see the possibility but why would I want that? Why should I have an interest in disappearing? It makes no sense to me. Let's say that my current form is like a mask for the Absolute. Yeah, I WANT to play, and feel, and cry and laugh AS that character. I want to experience all the pain, pleasure, despair and ecstasy that comes with that. That's the whole point, isn't it? I CHOOSE so. And besides, that still would be a relative experience: You're there, then you're not, but experience continues anyway, so what's really the difference? The way I see it what's WAY more important is LOVE. A thorough and total YES to Life, ALL of it. In wanting to disappear there's still this death wish going on. It's about Becoming LOVE, but that won't happen in this human realm. Here we can only connect as much as possible with that, but that's also absolutely perfect already. But that doesn't mean there's nothing to change, in the contrary! Life is Eternal Change. We have to overcome our fear of death, that is also a fear of Life. It's about Transformation, a kind of alchemy that turns Darkness into Ecstasy.

Oh wonderful, thank you so much. I'm currently facing old fears from a completely different angle and from much higher consiousness than before. What it comes down to is I'm seeing a huge vision for myself and not taking the fear too seriously, which allows me to accept the hero's call. Transformation seems to happen in my most challenging periods, but this is different than before, this time it's consious. This morning I was worried about my situation and then I just started laughing and laughing because I recognized the feeling that something big was about to happen. I recognized it because it's happened before, but this time I'm so self aware, consious of my manifesting.

You maybe have completed one heroes journey but then in another area of life you will start a new one or you are already in the middle of it. Or you have multiple heroes journey throughout different stages of your life. The heroes journey is all about transformation and the way in which humans usually deal with it. It's also very much tied into story telling and culture. And you will find it in movies like -Matrix -Lion King -Star Wars -Lord of the Rings Watch this video, it will make it easier to asses in which chapter you are in right now.

After re-watching Leo's video I got this recommendation which I also found very interesting I was wondering if you could always tell which stage you're in? For example I'm not sure if I'm in the "finding a mentor" stage (#4) or the "transformation" stage (#8). It kinda depends on how you look at it in my situation. If you count online mentors or not also changes it a little, and if you're pursuing multiple things in your life.

It felt like that, I did not know it was possible to experience it with shrooms, though DMT was required to go that deep. Now I feel a lot less insecure, anxious and overall more calm. My goal is to try to integrate what I felt in my daily life and work towards achieving similar things (although way weaker) through my daily meditation practice. We will see in the future. I am reading that butterfly is a spirit animal that is about "transformation", which is interesting because I am trying to expand my personality and work towards finding my true authentic self. I assume this is "been here done that" for you at this point but wanted to thank you for opening me up to the possibility of experiencing these things. Thank you

Transformation.

@Schizophonia For to the one who has, more will be given, and he will have an abundance, but from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away. If you haven't received a lot of love in your life your body-mind is programmed to that. You don't have to be trapped within this prison. The hack to break out of it is to use your mind to imagine love just like you explained. The real work is to be done in the subconscious where the real work is done for transformation. Leo doesn't have any content on this.

Death destruction war exhaustion love peace hope planet evil good trouble panic survival evolution change transformation reunion renunciation personification growth substance character..... We're one.

If this is true, then he is a true sexual predator. I don't know if he is still the same man after his alleged "spiritual transformation". I knew from the unhinged video he posted initially that something is not right.

Very true. What Leo doesn't get - and will not get until he is truly fully enlightened (which will probably need some major humbling down/character change and meditation practice, and for starting that probably some really major suffering): In Full Enlightenment: it is understood (or available all the time) how the complete(-!-, each and any possible) illusion is constructed and what its essence is (oneself, Suchness). What the essence of each and any illusion-mechanism is. He thinks the enlightened beings "tell" themselves the story that they are enlightened, or have thought arisings like that.. and are still deluded doing that. Which of course is a joke for an enlightened being, because all of that blabla is seen as object-thoughts floating in ones Infinite True Self, besides which nothing can exist. Exactly that is the pre-requisite for Full Enlightenment. That all concepts, I-thoughts, I-feeling float in ones True Self, and is not who one really is. Not as idea, but as actual deep realization & reality, that holds in daily life and sobre states. INCLUDING that realization/understanding and its elaboration (if the thought-elaboration of that realization/understanding) happens. It comes with actual nondual states in which the boundlessness/infinite nature of Reality, and its character as mere appearance of any possible object/arising/thought/feeling/world is vividly clear as arisings/manifestations in ones True Infinite Self. Which is ones own TRUE BEING, which is realized by first BEING it (impersonal,nondual, infinite, mere appearance), and then asking/Koan what is "beyond" that/what is that/what is aware of that/what is constant in all of that. But Leo can't understand that, because he doesn't have these states sobre with impersonal empty awareness, but only with psychedelics where remnants of the separate-self are still active as lenses/filters/centers/identities. These prevent Full Enlightenment. On the classic path of meditation one only gets to these nondual states by already severely emptying out the separate-self/identity towards being largely impersonal/empty. And the rest gets kicked and emptied out in these nondual infinite awakened states. That doesn't happen in psychedelic nondual states to the same high degree (magnitudes lower), and that is why the true (nondual and so on) Awakenings later get hijacked by ego. One gets the nondual states for free without paying the empty/impersonal/ego-transcendence price. And that backfires... He truly believes that a full enlightened being has falling for the delusion of identifying/thinking of himself as enlightened. Which indeed would be a delusion, and that often happens after some smaller enlightenments. Thats the true part to the story (nobody is smart enough to be wrong all the time). With Full Enlightenment, it is absolutely clear that this move is one more idiotic delusion-mechanism ("the enlightened person") on top, and even that has to go. Together with each and all mistaken identity/I-thought/I-feeling arisings. And THAT understanding/realization is final. It brings bliss, peace and freedom from fear. It shows ones true immortality, and the essence of each and any (alien-, n+1) realm. And that essence is Ones True Self. There is no other, in any and each realm, never possibly could be. That is all manifestation/relative stuff/mechanisms/realms. There also was no one really confused and ignorant, just the illusion-arising of that happening. There CAN'T be any other higher Awakenings/Realizations than that. Only more Awakenings/Insights into more understanding of manifestation mechanisms of various realms, or these (alien for example) realms themselves. Of which there is (the bummer) an Infinity of them. Which God is exploring. Forever and ever and ever. And Leo has hijacked Gods job of doing that (as a mere mortal), has become addicted to it to ease his suffering, and is now suffering for ever more of that wonderful blissful Awakenings (they are beautiful, but still passing) in a grasping way. And selling this as path to salvation. Bravo, well done! Instead of chasing Porsches, Yachts and Villas, we chase AWAKENED STATES and understandings into Alien Realms, N+1. I would have no problem with him doing that for himself until wising up. But he is promoting and selling this to partly young & vulnerable beings which risk crashing their life on a relative level (education/professional career/friends/relationships) by doing unhealthy transdence (grasp for the higher + dislike/disassociate/neglect from the lower levels of being = opposite of healthy development which is defined as transcend and include and integrate, and not transcend and disassociate/dislike/hate (the relative, including humanity) and no integration - anybody seen this with Leo?!). That is the direct path to sick development, instead of healthy development/growth. So, then some little predictions from my side: The enlightened ones will never change their position on these points of Full Enlightenment. Because a) self-evident and b) final. And apparently a few ones are already haunting this lovely forum. Leo will probably not accept that until he himself is fully enlightened, or being severly humbled by suffering. Since he is not even aspiring or keeping the possibility of Full Enlightenment in an open-minded way (which is the cardinal sin in spirituality), he will go chasing higher Awakenings until being severely humbled up, probably by severe suffering & crash burn. Or he will just continue in grasping, seeking and suffering ways for ever higher Awakenings, and act the "lovely" way he does as ONLY AWAKE BEING on the planet. And just act more or less narcissistic and inflate his Ego as God. Like in ONLY ONE AWAKE ON THE PLANET, instead of the less insane (but also illusory) MOST AWAKE of everyone he knows of. He needs to belittle Full Enlightenment to keep his perspective of the superiority of ever more AWAKENINGS n+1 going. Which is a fulminant cul-de-sac preventing further growth towards real impersonal (non-narcicisstic, non-ego) Full Enlightenment. And its not the first time that the psychedelic-only path has been tried. It never worked. Here is Ken Wilbers comment on it: "The downside comes with people that only use psychedelics or drugs and I found that over the years they just become mean. That if somehow it just kind of closes them down. It's like you keep doing it and you keep doing it you keep doing it doesn't quite cause the transformation it can cause a peak experience but generally not a transformative experience". Sounds familiar? Water by the .... River!

Entry: #006 Date: 16.09.2023 Time: 04:18 AM Journal: Insights Subject: The Key I really don't know how many times did I got this kind of insight, and always I would feel it to the core of my being as it's very true from my subjective perspective. It's not even overkill to say that anything is solvable in this life just by engaging in spiritual transformation. Many many times I have said that "Meditation" alone is the key to peace, problem solving, clear mind etc..Yes, many things will definately raise out of this journey, from my deep work, life purpose work, professional work, family, love, relationships, life in general. But behind it all, it will be spirituality and spiritual solutions to practically ever problem on this earth. I know what I was in the past and it's not even remothly close to what Im today. But I will change this with peace, freedom and clarity. I do not want to stagnate in life, I want to grow so badly but I think Im doing everything oposite. Im really disconected from myself deeply. I stopped doing many things that I loved and enjoyed doing. I feel like Im living some kind of mediocre or even below mediocre life and the potential for me is great, and thats the most painful thing to realize. You are capeable of doing many things but you are doing none of it. Beauty, intelligience, character and Im doing nothing with it. Im not doing everything I can and everything thats in my power. Im just on a stand by, waiting for the perfect moment and indulging in self-deception that Im doing something just by being huge information consumer. Definately, I must shift the table upside down and become highly pragmatic as I belive that I have enough knowledge for 3 life times of average human being. Just start putting it to the practice and start with spiritual stuff as it is the most powerfull one. In the next time period, I will poste a challenge for me to integrate my pragmatic self-side. The list will consits of few little projects that I need to get done within the deadline and I will prove myself that I can build self-discipline in order to build freedom. The list is integrated in commonplace book as "Smart Goals" in a form of small/big tasks or projects that I will need to achieve and to keep going and working hard.

Question: I am unable to sleep due to excess Kundalini energy when I lay down despite being tired, how can I get some rest? Answer: The reason the energy is coursing more through the body right when you lay down is because the body mind is relaxed. When one is in this semi sleep relaxation state, kundalini flows most efficiently. The flow further excites the whole nervous system and there is excessive prana, which implies a speeding up and increase of hormonal production, or a susequent fatique of hormonal glands and decrease in production of both hormones and neurochemicals. The awakening of kundalini often disrupts the production of melatonin or creates excess in some cases, the intense inner fire and the light generated from the charged kundalini often disrupt sleep cycle and circadian rhythm. To assist the nervous sytem to calm down and produce ample melatonin, one should sit for meditation during the early morning as well as evening twilight phases. This circulates the energy so it wont attempt to charge up when you are relaxing for sleep, give it enough time to circulate as well as ground during the day instead. Other factors would be to use herbs that help calm the nervous sytem and help in production of melatonin. Below is a list of plants that can be used. Ashwagandha, Brahmi, Chamomile, Tagara, Valerian, Jatamansi Sarpagandha, shankhpushpi, Ashitaba. One must also understand the shakti will possibly keep one on fire burning many nights, such is this force of transformation, it demands absolute surrender and even letting go sleep sometimes. It should be seen as a complete rewiring of the entire being, and what may eventually emerge is a bodymind that does not require long hours of sleep. Hope u find something useful

Maybe Leo should finally capture his alien mice transformation on camera to give them some proof lol

1. The view of heaven after death is a common belief not only in Christianity but in many other religions as well. It is not a "con," but a faith structure intended to guide moral/ethical behavior in this life. The church should not be controlling but guiding, supporting, and inspiring its congregation towards a higher moral and ethical life. 2. Awakening is quite a personal experience. While it may not be communicable in typical terms, its effects on one's life are often visible - increased peace, compassion, understanding, and so on. It doesn't mean it's a scam; it merely means it's something deeply personal and individual. 3. While it's true that some people have reported spiritual experiences using psychedelics, these substances are certainly not a requirement for a spiritual journey. Also, it's important to differentiate between a transient drug-induced experience and a sustained awakening or enlightenment, which typically arises from consistent practice, moral living, and inner transformation. 4. Indeed, humility is a cornerstone of any genuine path. In Buddhism, the understanding of interbeing and interconnectedness allows us to see our place in a larger whole, not as an isolated or superior entity. In Christianity, the idea of 'carrying one's cross' is a metaphor for the humility and selflessness required in spiritual life.

Hello, Regardless of your beliefs on the topics of Astrology, Human Design and Gene Keys... I study all 3 of these modalities on a deep level, as this is what I do for a living. I also study many other metaphysical type topics and philosophy. I am writing this because I want feedback on a particular aspect of Human Design that I have come across. Don't worry, you don't need to believe in it or take part in it in order to chime in on this conversation. I do however, feel like I need to give a bit of background information in order to ask my question. So, Human Design is a combination of the zodiac wheel with all of the 64 I-ching laid out across the zodiac. Ra (the creator of human design) also took the whole wheel and split it into 4 pieces. These pieces represent how a person can awaken. I found mine to be very true. I am in the first quarter of the "Mind" and I would say that watching Leo's videos 5 years ago and on, was a huge part of my awakening process... I know this was helpful to me, because I needed someone to play mental gymnastics with my mind until it broke into an orgasmic splendor of everythingness and nothingness at the same time. Haha. But in my work, I have noticed that the same mental gymnastics that I enjoy playing around in, pushes others away from the truth. Anywho... here are the 4 quarters. Which quarter do you feel best describes how you awoken? If you want to give me your birth date too for data research, that would be cool, but totally not required. YANG/YIN In the Quarter of Initiation (Gates 13-24), we have the theme of Purpose fulfilled through Mind. The foundation here is set by the Gate of the Listener, “the Fellowship of Man”—Yang (spirit) pushing upward into Yin (form). When we activate all the gates of this Quarter we see that the only definition in the bodygraph would be the Channel of Initiation. Those whose Personality Sun is in the Quarter of Initiation are here to wake up first. They are initiated through the development of Mind, and, in turn, initiate others according to the nature of their particular Cross and Profile. YIN/YIN In the Quarter of Civilization (Gates 2-33), we have the theme of Purpose fulfilled through Form—through manifesting. The foundation here is set by the most Yin hexagram of all, the Gate of the Direction of the Self, “the Receptive”—therefore it is Yin over Yin. When we activate all the gates of this Quarter we see that there would be no definition in the bodygraph and that all 11 Throat gates are present. This is the world of manifestation, where mind is concretized into form. YIN/YANG In the Quarter of Duality (Gates 7-44), we have the theme of Purpose fulfilled through Bonding. The foundation here is set by the Gate of the Role of the Self in Interaction, “the Army”—the Yin/Yang. When we activate all of the gates in this Quarter we see that this forms three channels bringing definition to the bodygraph, creating the only pure emotional Generator through the Channel of Mating, along with the Channel of Discovery and the Channel of Abstraction. This is the world of fertility and bonding—your relationships with others. YANG/YANG In the Quarter of Mutation (Gates 1-19), we have the theme of Purpose fulfilled through Transformation. The foundation here is set by the Gate of the Expression of the Self “the Creative”—of course, Yang/Yang. When we activate all the gates in this Quarter we have only one definition, the pure Generator with the Channel of Exploration. This is the world where anything can happen—it’s about the process of living (like the rest of the wheel is) but here it is also about the process of transformation and accepting death.

I met a lot of people at a free tour who said is transformation mastery program helped them a lot. I also liked seeing him live, he was pretty insightful. He uses a lot of material from Frederick Dodsons level of energy book and David Hawkins work. I do kinda agree with this. When he does the live trauma healings, he can give people a starting point to where to look and begin to heal, but yeah its pretty rare to release a shit ton of trauma when theres 100+ people looking at you on a stage Yeah he barely talked about any dating stuff when i saw him. Just overall general principles to charisma and non neediness. He has a wife and a kid now, and probably wants to try and get away from the controversy in his past

Do a 4 week natural, honest Signalz, or unlimited man project bootcamp, they are better because they cover a longer period. If they are too expensive you can try a bootcamp with squattincasanova, ag hayden, or Karisma king, they are cheaper. do you have a pet dog? If so try walking him when you approach. Follow a program like hot seat at home, the system or Austen Summers game transformation, do the exercises, try different styles and keep track of the responses, write field reports, if possible record yourself and send clips to competent coaches to explain what mistakes you are making. https://www.girlschase.com/article/why-cold-approach-isnt-social-beginners https://www.girlschase.com/article/chases-14-basic-approaching-rules-pickup-newbies https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hOwNudcVgI https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1XCPnFSoqWQ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IIx-MfnA358 Are you doing some sort of trauma release and meditation to get into flow? If you have a lot of internal blockages and are stuck in your head your results will be bad. how is your voice and tonality? If it’s not good do vocal exercises

I didn't have anything in particular in mind. Many schools of yoga/kriya/and even some qiqong offer practices to stabalize the system. It's a big and very important part of any authentic energy path. True. Very valid and good method indeed. Cultivating self-awareness is the most important part for any spiritual path and life in general. Oh gosh... if you wish to follow the path of transformation/alchemy. The most fundamental and important thing is learning to abide in the presence of the heart which is different from the usual presence of stillness. It has a different quality of glory and grandness and love as opposed to peace and silent zen presence. "A course in miracles" is a good place to start and learn about this presence of the heart which is fundamental to all tantric practices. Once you become familiar with the heart's energy of downward flowing grace and light and love, then I can introduce you to few teachers that I personally can vouch for who offer certain attunements, energetic empowerments and transmittions that open certain channels, energy gates, psychic centers to take things to another level.

ON MDMA MDMA has a psychedelic side, not in terms of visuals but in terms of lowering your default mode network and being an appropriate tool for self exploration and transformation, but unlike other substances that are likely to bring transformation even when you are just looking for fun, MDMA is very much at the service of your intention. If you just want to get wasted mdma will help you get wasted, if you just want to have fun you will have fun, if you want to heal trauma mdma will help you with that, if you want to do something that scares you (e.g. socializing as a shy and or socially anxious person). Also you have to be very deliberate with creating your set and setting for growth and you follow up is very important (well, this is actually relevant to psychedelics in general). Also, it does have a potential for addiction and hurting your brain if you use too much or too frequently. Read about dosage and frequency. Dosage is weight dependent (although people of the same weight might have differences in tolerance). For frequency try to wait at least 3 months but if you can wait more it's even better because even with proper use you will eventually lose the magic and by distancing mdma sessions you have more time for integration between uses and you can use it in different stages of your life. MDMA is quite useful for people with trauma and for socially anxious people. Recommendation for socially anxious people: spend the month before the trip(or more) trying to socialize as much as possible. It will probably be uncomfortable, you might not feel the progress but still do it. Take notes after returning home. Read your notes throughout the week before the mdma trip. Take your dose and go to a social setting, ideally an activity where you can find both people you know and people you don't know and that is moments for socializing, ideally an activity you like for example a concert or party with your kind of music. Socialize, take notes the days afterward. Reflect on the experience throughout the next days and try to go to social events sober again to integrate the process. The point of socializing on MDMA is not to depend on the MDMA but to carry the lessons to the next social events to integrate them and not lose them. By the way, you might still feel social anxiety during a social event if you are socially anxious... and this is actually good, this allows mdma to teach you better ways to handle that anxiety. What often happens if you feel the anxiety then the euphoria kind of pushes and fights the anxiety and you can sort of learn by "muscle" memory (emotional memory? brain usage memory? meta memory?) how to partially replicate that mental/emotional movement. Dont forget safety practices: -drinking appropiate amounts of water - eating and sleeping as well as possible the days before and after - Avoiding heat excess -Testing your substance with a reagent kit (if it's not mdma send it to the trash) - Counterintuitive: weed after the trip seems to be neuroprotective... but use strains that have more CBD than THC

People really need to want feedback and see it as constructive, it's similar to reinforcement learning and coopling this with compassion and empathy, this costs a lot of energy and often people rest to the default of though love, my way or the highway. Mindfully and empathically engaging with someone, instead of critical rationality takes mind, spirit & intuition into account. Also simply asking questions and good questions, also critical questions are a type of honesty, yet if it disrupts the entire process of making connections, I'd deter from doing it. Generally what is most effective in business is reflecting someones own words back at them, is the most strategic way to be "intellectualy honest" with many ignorant people. Also admitting not knowing, also what future evidence can bring, especially with inutition as well as what possibly has been burned and denied. I don't know if conscious communication also dovetails with intellectual honesty, as you'd in a tier 2 relationship IIRC, constantly speak your mind and do things that stage orange demonizes as needy, and many men will see this as weak. Still, when I did this with friends, especially female friends and best friends, there was a very natural intuitiveness to this. David Deida speaks about this. It has nothing to do with vulnerabillity, yet more with consciously leading & communication & beign also compassionate with masculine compassion and feminine compassion. Anyway, also a high level of non-judgement obviously. I did one or two workshops with this conscious communication for some it takes practice & I don't recall, anymore there is also a serious issue. I personally thought I was pretty good at it, yet ultimately I did not know as my partner talked a lot & we just practiced. Constructive criticism comes close to me with constructing a healthy ego and image at times, when I ask for it, I've felt I burnt out asking for constructive criticism sort of perfecting my persona & generally many did not care, they cared more about authentic in-depth character building & happening. I don't know if this is interesting in terms of intellectual honesty. Quote from a medium article: This also might be interesting, altough it's rather unrelated it's something I find very evident in intellectual people generally, a certain level of vanity, contempt and hatred, especially if they see themelves as though. https://integrallife.com/how-self-hatred-can-lead-to-self-transformation/

@k-ahmadzadeh When I'm stuck in my head and my thoughts are going in unproductive circles, I find it to be universally necessary to consider my emotions and relationships, which are very easy to ignore when I'm in that state. One of my guiding principles is that thoughts are how we live, emotions are why we keep living, and relationships are what directly or indirectly dictate our emotions. Do you have troubling relationships, particularly but not exclusively with formative authority figures? Is your resentment and hatred a transformation of a deeper emotional pain you don't want to admit? It's difficult to admit, particularly for men, that our feelings are hurt. It's much easier and more "masculine" to be hateful and vengeful. You won't get where you want by dismissing your past and ignoring your deeper emotions.