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I'm grateful for your graciousness in trying to understand women's issues so thanks for opening such a sensitive issue that is rarely discussed. A better relationship with period is quite difficult. I have heard a lot of men resent their girlfriends or wives when they're on their period. An empathetic approach might help. Understanding why some women act hostile and aggressive on period days might help. The aggression comes from experiencing constant physical pain and that pain leads to a low mood, extra sensitivity and mild to severe aggression. It varies a lot among women. Some women are quite lucky if their period is painless. I wish I had that luck. Thanks for trying to understand. However this is not the case with most men. They cannot be patient around their girlfriends on their periods. I understand the frustration. Men want the picture perfect girlfriend or wife and I wish life was that beautiful for us women to be able to give that happiness, joy and perfection to men too. Reality comes in the way though. Mother nature perhaps wanted it that way. I don't expect men to understand much because it's beyond their scope unless they have to experience it themselves. So I get the anger a man might feel if his girl is acting weird on her period. I don't know why I feel aggression towards men on my period. They didn't cause it. But maybe it's some form of envy that men don't have to suffer like this. Or that female sexuality exists to pleasure men. Sometimes I wonder if my life would be great if I were born a man. Then I wouldn't need to suffer physical pain. Also the aggression could be a biological response as in resistance to sex, so converted to resistance to men. Because sex and men are attached in the female psyche as much as sex and women are correlated in the male psyche. I mean I have heard men hate women if they don't wanna have sex with them. Let's say they don't want to submit to sex or feel some aversion to it and a woman begins to grind on them, I think the man is going to hate her for doing that because he is resisting the idea of sex in his mind so he doesn't want the temptation. Probably something similar happens in the female psyche when she doesn't want or need sex, she wants to be resistant to it, in turn she might be resistant to male attention or male glances or attempts to flirt with her. This is how I can best explain the aggression felt against men. Because sex needs equal participation and when that's not the case, the attraction can feel stolen, if you get my idea. I don't think a man will ever understand it. I don't even expect him too. In this sense I have empathy for men because it cannot be imposed on to them to understand something that they never had to experience. I similarly do not comprehend male horniness either. So I don't blame men. And consequently, I don't find it fair to share such things with a man because it's really not his territory. Ironically a lot of women don't understand either especially if they didn't have painful periods themselves. Trust me on this. I had a lot of women shame me haha. They would say things like — it's just a period. It hurts when a woman does it. Slut shaming and period shaming is done 100× more by women than men. If I wear a sexy dress, it will be a woman who will point it out first that there's a problem with it. I remember my sister thrashing and beating me when I was on my period laying in bed. I kept screaming in pain and she violently dragged me out. That was also my first suicide attempt because I was in unbearable pain. My mom confessed to me one day that my grandmother did not even teach her period hygiene. All that aside. I generally look up to women who are more sympathetic and kind and who give me the sense of true company. So they don't judge and offer a shoulder. In this sense my husband has been my biggest blessing. He almost acts like a nurse on my period, always gives me space and speaks comforting words to make me feel better. That's a great gift. I wish all boyfriends and husbands would do that. I appreciate you being supportive. My periods are very regular, almost to a perfection. There's something (I don't know if there exists a medical term for this) like an anticipatory anxiety that I experience with every period, right before the period, I know the date when it's approaching, so my body begins to tighten up or tense up a bit in anticipation and my mind gets nervous knowing it would be coming. I think women have a lot of period related anxiety, especially women who suffer difficult periods, these anxieties can be about the length of the period, socially embarrassing situations (hard to express this one but I have this fear that my clothes might get stained in public and the anticipatory anxiety of this embarrassing situation makes me avoid public outing on my period so I cancel doctor's appointments or events in advance.) I canceled many of my zumba classes before my period just out of fear of not being able to attend due to the stain problem. So there's that. A lot of men don't understand that women wish to stay absent on their period days and they assume it to be an excuse. I hate it when it's misconstrued like that. It's also partially women's fault too, because women make it sound like a taboo when such things are discussed openly. There is no disgust in explaining things that need to be understood especially by the opposite gender. Men shame this as well. I recently saw a thread in which I read this on this forum Overly feminist people. Too much of gender equality related content. Too many of shorts in which people are saving girls. Too many of sex and periods related talks using the excuse, "we are progressives", "we are liberals", "we are a cool generation ". I guess that's the difference between eastern and western men. Eastern men consider it a taboo to discuss period related stuff. Not trying to attack the user but just trying to make a point. In Eastern cultures, female sexuality is suppressed very badly and anything related to sex, women, period is shamed and tabooed. It's definitely progressive to openly discuss such topics and there's no shame or taboo or overly feministic about it. So such opposition of feminism is quite regressive Yea with time it gives me an idea when to expect my period. As well as what to expect. They have a strong correlation to how women react to sexual urges toward men at least in my perspective. I can't account for all women. But if you are asking for my individual opinion then my sexuality is definitely tied to how I feel hormonally. I'm grateful you opened this topic. Very few men care to understand the woman side of things so cheers for being the man to take the lead. Thanks to you too.

- Prior to the first intifada the population was so passive to the constant abuse that israel barely used anyone to guard it, when they finally reacted in the first intifada israel responded with mass violence, that is when Hamas was formed and when the terror increase. That’s like saying if I am beating you and you hit me back if I start stabbing you it’s your fault. https://btselem.org/statistics/first_intifada_tables These are the casualties of the first intifada, note the amount of Israelis killed by Palestinians in the first and second year compared to the amount of Palestinians killed. - Then why are there hundreds of thousands of settlers in the west bank if they want to give it back? And the settlements increased under liberal Zionist administrations. Even the two state deals offered by Israel, aside from their many other issues, required leaving settlement blocks. - They haven’t done a suicide bombing in years (prior to the attempted one after Oct 7) and hamas was expelled from the West Bank, yet the situation just gets worse. - The Arab peace initiative was offered and still is, and Israel rejected it.

2025 January 1st - A tower, a spire, red and yellow ball creatures. Bad portent as "The Tower" tarot card, but more towards neutrality or positivity in potential. Year of upheaval and yellow (caution) and red (danger) thoughtforms in the collective psyche. A painting on a house, owned by a 'doctor' (possibly a negatively oriented Carl Jung) and a Minecraft pig. This suggests a message about what Leo calls epistemic pigs or an intelligence of malfeasance manipulating this New Year's day. A cardinal, representative of flight but also of the Catholic Church and rigidity, which will be a side character such as Squidward from Spongebob. Bubbles, jellyfish, Sandy, Spongebob. Significance of this day is that it is like a reef under water representative of the subconscious, leading to fields and rainbows of potential but with blackbirds portentous of trickery. Celebration and potentiality backdrop context for the upcoming year, characters preparing with this context as background. January 2nd - Black bird, yellow bird, birdbox, nails, camp, summercamp, temporal hyper-interconnection, eternity, The Sun, baby, wealth, happy. Geopolitical events related to money, religion, and Cairo. Trump will say something related to death, red for blood and box for coffins. Fixation on possibility of war negative but overall positive, like Snape. Accuracy of war possibility not happening associated with positive vibrations and well-built, but with minimally good objects, accuracy of it happening associated with aesthetically acceptable men with boots, but mostly paucity. Car crash deadly. Incidents related to Twitter, Bluesky, and SCOTUS. January 3rd - Piracy, crime, sex crimes, kinks, Michelle Wu (mayor of Boston), mountains, rivers, Mulan (androgyny?), buildings, family, chastisement, specific events related to frugalness of economy (so high spending but low prices or high prices and low spending), lions, girls dressed as lions, girl dressed as lion saying "I have a lot of money" where money is a metaphor for subtle energy expenditure, lions represent bravery and beauty / decorativeness. January 4th - Darker day, leadup to Jan 6. Trump on phone, making aggressive or neutrally confused call. Picnic on one hand. One woman and one male as well as me and one other person have some cosmic and planetary importance. There is a dark manipulator behind the scenes even as people try to use positivity as a context for the upcoming event-perspectives. The manipulator is associated with snakes. Leo will disbelieve the prophecy but believe as he reads on. It is too much for it to simply be random. It needs symbolic associative significance. January 5th - Pyramid shaped mountains. Suggesting energetic working upon Iran. Weakening of the IRGC. Ali's inevitable conversion to intuitive sufiism. Iran on path to become social democracy by 2050. On this day mountains of evidence of this inevitability or necessity in 89,000,000 Iranians. January 6th - Earth pleasurably massaged (like a prostate). Orion constellation triangle-shaped craft. Desert. Function. Nickelodeon playing frequencies that hush. Ra Egyptian related to human sexuality. Manipulator may be related to kundalini or root chakra. Images associated with manipulator: Trump, Vaush, my parrot, Jar-Jar, assassinated IRGC General Soleimani and assassinated Hamas leader Soleimani. On January 6th earth has special cosmic alignment, blackness behind sun, green happy and gleeful snake emerging from it. Word for certification of the vote: "Orionic". Big yellow bird, associated with ending of infinite intelligence descending into Israel on this day. No terrorist attack attempted on this day, though significant tension over possibility in collective zeitgeist. Small gathering outside Capitol. January 7th - White snakes. Fourth density positive birds. Snakes, juvenile playthings of gods. Swords. River running with blood, suggesting sexual connotation rather than literal violence. Extreme wealth and sexuality on this day for earth. January 8th - Darkness sopping. From Ukraine-Russia. Crayons suggesting creative diversity of events besides that. Trump losing weight, checking weight on scale to prolong lifespan and reign. The nature of the manipulator is a fourth density being, Gonzo from The Muppets (mental image form), which has attached itself to Trump, to me and my thoughts or paranoia, and through various emanations to the world. The only way to stop it is through violence against it, red (color of grounding and root chakra), purple (color of higher consciousness and unity and sight), mixtures of these colors, the root chakra and the chakra above the head. January 9th - Hot, heat, Ripley and Noot from Aliens, screaming, xenomorphs, attack, reality system difference or divergence, Trump embarrassed but not so too too much less emboldened by reality, manipulator has been on earth for 64+ years, manipulator has morbid associations with reptiles in relation to death and stagnation and unencumbered darkness, high-vibration birds and electromagnetic highness are "concluding" counterbalance. January 10th - Basket of naan. I will probably eat Indian food that day. January 11th - Road, operation of "the devil" entity from my dream, phallic imagery. Dark day for the world. Emergence of warring entities upon the earth (attempt deflected). Entities that are so evil it's impossible for them to physically exist; that level of negativity could not physically have a body or be compatible with our physical reality. January 12th - "sick" January 13th - Ra, good guys hiding undercover, like Lando at Jabba's Palace. Manipulator in silly ridiculous form. January 14th - Good guys infighting. January 15th - Patterns and habits continue much as usual across the globe. Dark aliens energize and power above the glove but don't do and can't do and don't know about doing much. Progress with Iran and The White House in preparation for Trump. January 16th - Actualized.org becomes bastion of beauty. Randomness in relation to entities, needs extrication from bad reality systems and uptick towards beauty, protecting beautiful entities from poor environments, beautifying environments and entities. January 17th - Squirrels, representative of vital beings and parasite and buggers from the nervous world or the astral plane, clowns like cotton candy, rainbow curly hair, rainbow suggesting LGBTQ renewal in face of mockery or adversity, bridge to vital world, vital buggers stale tickets, meaning, meaning changes according to retrocausality and which year the meaning is selected according to. Trickster archetype. Anakin saying, "You underestimate my [WOER AAAAAAA" January 18th - Joaquin Phoenix shutting his eyes in scientological-esque auditing. Joaquin is symbol of actor, good actor, where good acting is realistic replication of personal and situational energy patterns. Negative side he retreats inward (shutting eyes situation). Positive side he exists in action-laden and -upcoming situation but with "conclusion" of sexual assault (a la Joker Volie a Deaux) leading down into the negative path (eyes shut). This transforms extreme energy and meaning to the negative path, extreme power. This is related to the archetype across the world in the form the trickster [or joker, if you will]. January 19th - As to whether Luigi would get jury nullification, image of shovels and spades. As to no, large pyramids. This is a contrast of local small tools moving versus nonlocal large tools stationary. Clarification: He will not get jury nullification. Likely will get mistrial, due to intensity of probability in meaning. Jan 19th melting glittery furnace light and lava. January 20th - Luigi will not be assaulted in prison, as this is not a full repeat of Volie a Deaux, or Volie a Deaux is not a direct oracular comparison, Luigi is more positive and Arthur Fleck is more negative. Jan 20ths curtains, theater, the show beginning, people in seats, Thomas Campbell physicist appears on JRE, Trump inaugurated, experiments with crystals continue above the earth. Infinite intelligence having casually restarted descending into Israel slows before stopping when Trump touches the Bible. January 21st - Obnoxious Trump speech, incompetent bumbling, nonsensical ineffectual transition as all competent people file out or do nothing. High schoolers' lives continue with new background. Image of soup with eyeballs, suggesting "Kronos" the Greek god eating eggs and sperm (eyeballs = eggs, soup = sperm). Humorous. I really can't figure out what that means either. It suggests a corruption or ridiculous-ification of reproduction and production in society due to Trump corrupting the human race's context (for the next four years). Positive souls make positive humorous use of it. Manipulator less powerful than deviations from truth due to Trump. There are two bowls of soup, a larger one for those who either duped or sardonically-satirically accept the nonsense and a smaller more sensible one for those who don't, who are serious and can't really handle it that much. January 22nd - Crucified Columbia angel. Recognition of Trump's foolishness sets in. January 23rd - Goldengate Bridge, represents suicide. January 24th - Looting, theft, burglary themes. January 25th - Trashy angels, clock, alarm clock, improvised biological alarm clock, injections and veins, RFK Jr., melting, Big Ben, Uri Geller telekinesis and foolishness, Uri Geller telekinesis despite delusional belief in Trump, grassy knolls, teletubbies (media?), The Sun. Connection to 2017. January 26th - Telekinesis, telekinetic practitioners, tele-whatever hills, telepathy and telekinesis baked right into the environment of a specific location in Himalayas. January 27th - Croc or alligator on Trump golf course. January 28th - Swimming pool seemingly abandoned but clean. January 29th - Trophy on end of pencil presented to girl for academic achievement. January 30th - Teen suicide, overdoses. January 31st - Candace Owens, pervertry, stupidity, goldengate zero (cosmic intelligence).

@Tristan12 You are probably the type who likes to overthink. Don't worry so much. You will probably be able to survive with the resources you have. Just be disciplined and do the work required. One purpose of doing meditation is actually to bring back control of your mind. The mind seems to overthink a lot. You can try to drown yourself with work or activities. The other way is to gain back control of your mind. If you think about it, people who committed suicide are mostly people who have lost control of their mind. Stop overthinking. Another way is to practice letting go.

The thing in another words is that you realized that the form is just form, with nothing else behind. It's transparent, like an hologram, has not meaning. You were totally attached to the meaning, same than me or anything else. When you perceive the absence of meaning you perceive the absence of everything, but that's the vision of a drug addict that is in the paradise and there is not cocaine, then he perceive that there is nothing. There is no meaning, but there is substance. The substance is the reality, it's real, exist. It's you. You are not a person, are the substance of the reality, the person is form, and you already saw that the form is empty, then only the substance remains. Open yourself to it and that's it. What prevents the realization of the true nature is the form. If the form reveals as empty loose it's strength Why not commit suicide? Because seems that it's a path that we have to follow, it's not just form, it's the flow of the reality

@Breakingthewall Is actually crazy dude. I get what ur telling. But now i dont understand why being alive instead of committing suicide

@Leo GuraHow to defeat the devil? Right now I have no other solution on how to kill the devil than to commit suicide! This in my limited perspective would be the end all solution to beating the devil, since I am the devil the only way to kill the devil is to kill myself. I would never do that because I'm not suicidal but in my skewed logic that could be the only solution at my level of development. I'm curious how you handle the devil? What tools do you use to triumph over the Devil without becoming the Devil you yourself. My life purpose is to annihilate the devil out of this world. I will become the candle that destroys the cloak of darkness under which the Devil hides.

The distinction between physical and emotional abuse isn't that clear. For example, punching me in the face could cause me to fear you thus abusing both physically and emotionally. It is a manipulation and control tactic. In some cases emotional abuse can manifest as physical symptoms. For example after being repeatedly abused verbally and emotionally, it could create a situation where you are bottling up your emotions seems like the safest option. This can lead to muscle tightness, muscle spasms, and physical pain. There can also be various chemical reactions in your brain and body due to the fear and anger created. This is why I heard a psychologist argue that emotional violence in a sense is indirect physical violence. I'll let you decide if you agree or not. In my case emotional abuse has complicated my medical treatment. I was prescribed an anti psychotic because I was ruminating on my family situation which made me want to kill myself along with antidepressants which consistently made me feel worse. The medication damaged my liver and didn't solve the problem anyway. I came to realize that the systems around medicine and therapy had failed me by giving me medicine that worsened my condition while therapists treated me as if my lack of coping skills was the problem. I was treated as if there was something wrong with me even though most of attachments were developed as a survival strategy for a challenging situation I was forced to endure. With the threat of continued abuse, no amount books, spirituality, personal development, pills, and coping skills would be enough to give me peace of mind. The answer is for me to get away from the people who refuse to change like my mother and sister. Suicide could be a trauma response to various forms of abuse. My suicidal thoughts stopped when I learned My sister was moving out and I wouldn't have to live with her anymore. The threat of continuing to live with her impacted my decision to commute to college because I would be stuck in the same situation for 6 years of be forced to make an enormous financial sacrifice by living on campus or by spending my life savings on a down payment. Maybe I was spending all this time trying to fix myself, but I wasn't the problem. I also don't like the therapists who sent me back to live with these people due to my history of suicidal thoughts assuming my family would be helpful.

If you call a spontaneous knee-jerking suicide scare exciting and fun and having people concerned about you, then maybe you might want to reconsider your ideas of fun. This is why I said nothing other than I love you. I tire of all these suicide scares and will treat them like the boy that cried wolf from now on. None will get my attention anymore other than maybe a "you are loved" comment.

I think you're underrating your ability to handle high doses mate, the integration is just as important as the trip. Yes those doses would break many, like dialling emergency numbers, destroying things physically, trying to hurt themselves or others. After all the trip is just what you put in *your* body. 25 ug is gonna put some humans into psychosis that lasts days/weeks. If you've hit a point where it got troublesome, real and scary and direct it's just the summit of what these substances can do to someone, it isn't to do with dosage or frequency Objective supporter of psychedelic use here for the foreseeable future and had the knife of hell/evil/fear right up to my throat from them (metaphorically, i never put a knife to my throat on psychs, they scared me enough where i thought i had irrevocably put myself into hell) Objective none believer in internal/external religion or spirituality. That's just calling 1s and 0s a detailed mosaic Just make sure you do it right the first time, cos nothing is worse than a suicide chump :((((((((

@Nivsch There's a lot of errors in your chatgpt prompt. In Iraq for example, a lot of civilian deaths were from the anarchy, trauma, and sectarian hysteria that ensued. Suicide bombings alone account for 20-40% of civilian deaths, according to the same AI you used. That's not even taking into account roadside bombs. For afghanistan you have to account for these things too, and according to the same AI you used, roadside and suicide bombing accounts for 50-60% of civilian deaths. It also didn't account for the indirect deaths from sanctions, decreased infrastructure and resources for basic needs, care, increased poverty, and all these other sorts of things. Which raises the death toll and accounts for a lot of preventable deaths. Which is another thing that can be compared, and one where the U.S. did terribly in.

@Leo Gura I see what you mean by keeping these discussions separate. Unfortunately, my fear and avoidance of relationships stems from my attempts to escape deep pain and suffering caused by being trapped in abusive situations. My suicidal ideation and attempts were accompanied by me thinking about the hopelessness of being stuck with my family. This is actually a common trauma response to abusive relationships. I'd rather die then end up in a situation like my girlfriend committing suicide to leave me a single father with a child who hates me and blames me for her death and therefore develops severe behavioral problems leading to criminal activity like mass shootings. My attitude toward relationships needs to come from a place of reduced fear and avoidance. They prevent me from giving and accepting love. I remember I told you I was deeply wrong in terms of my attitude and approach to relationships in general. My family has shaped this attitude in a deeply negative way while on the surface pushing love out of social conditioning. I'll consider dating like my therapists recommended next year after I meet my current goals. Where did you learn about relationships and what is your general attitude? Will you make videos on building healthy relationships in the future?

Sometimes you invest your energy into wrong sources. There's nothing inherently evil. Just what I believe. ................................. Samadhi works but through the gateway of good and evil. ................................ I'm looking forward to integrating purity into my practice. Also I want to stay away from the world in general. I think that spiritual communities can cause a ton of harm. ................................. I don't know what made me write this. But I write it with a heavy heart. Like any other thing that comes with it's own set of pros and cons, spiritual communities aren't exempt from drawbacks either. I'm not specifically talking about forums although forums are a fraction of it. I'm just saying communities in general. I have reached a point where I'm seriously contemplating whether being a part of a larger community is really worth it if the results aren't really there and if things are just getting worse with the illusion that you're on a spiritual path and you are achieving something when in reality millions of people with mental and physical problems turn to spirituality only for bypassing their real issues, are barely able to cope through life and end up being and doing worse when they get on the spiritual path. They start to rot and lose interest in life and daily activities once they begin to live in a solipsistic bubble. Instead of thriving, they start rapidly degrading. The consequences can be anywhere from suicide to mental illness to death or just living like a zombie. I'm sure people in the past have also expressed such a sentiment on this forum before. It's a routine thing, not to mention the problem of false teachings. Things that degrade your mental well being or just take you on a path of disillusionment. You gotta do the math yourself. Are you in this for the better or are things genuinely not turning out to be the way they should. I was barely 9 years old when I first started with spirituality. I haven't come very far because life came in between. I devoted a significant portion of my life in chasing delusions (let's put it that way). I suffered autism at a young age and in my preteens I was obsessed with spirituality and religion. I always thought I was looking for something, searching for something, there was this existential crisis like thing going on with me. I was often at my wits end. Don't get me wrong. I derived a lot of benefit from this forum itself. Leo's teachings, his videos on personal development were a great starting point. But there's a problem. Everything is not so hunky dory. I still think that I suffered a bit in the process and not in a good way. It's like "invited" suffering. I don't know if this is the inherent nature of spiritual work. But I went through phases of insanity. But so far not so stellar results. I have significant mental illness. I don't know if that's interfering with my spiritual stuff. One thing I casually noticed in spiritual communities is the huge problem of spiritual ego. People fight a lot over what's right or wrong. There's a certain dogmatism that accompanies it. This downgrades the whole spiritual process significantly. This is not alien to any community, it's to be found in every spiritual community. Be careful with what you decide to put your energy into. I have suffered significantly. What principles should an ideal spiritual community adhere to? I think these are the principles I came up with that in my opinion a spiritual community should be able to reflect. Uplifting each other Keeping harmony Polite behavior Reduction in negativity Encouraging open mindedness Healing each other Non judgement attitude Peace keeping Thoughtful debating No one-upping No cult like rules Respect for everyone Working on behaviors Video conferencing and meet ups. Face to face interactions are better Flattened hierarchies No us versus them narrative No messiah complex Discouraging gaslighting Encouraging extensive communication Discouraging dogmatism Fostering understanding and mutual harmony Showing love Embodying values Working on integrity and character Fostering forgiveness Fostering mercy Fostering kindness Raising each other's vibration Encouraging emotional maturity Keeping community tight knit Cutting down spiritual ego Providing a safe space Not preying on vulnerability Extending support to people who suffer more Having a judgement free zone Fostering compassion Dissolution of separation Fostering Unity Empathetic environment Minimum use of power Encouraging free expression Valuing one another Not demonizing Embodiment of love One of the key foundations for life is self-awareness. Understanding ourselves, our strengths, weaknesses, values, and motivations – is crucial for personal growth and development. Self-awareness allows us to make informed choices that align with our authentic selves, rather than being swayed by external influences or societal expectations. It provides us with the clarity and insight needed to pursue our passions, set meaningful goals, and cultivate healthy relationships. Another essential foundation for life is resilience. Life is filled with challenges, setbacks, and disappointments, and resilience is what enables us to bounce back from adversity and continue moving forward. Resilience is the ability to adapt to change, overcome obstacles, and persevere in the face of adversity. It is a mindset that embraces challenges as opportunities for growth and learning, rather than insurmountable barriers. gratitude is a foundational value too, that enriches our lives and enhances our well-being. and define our purpose.. A small insignificant model I can follow everyday is the principle->action->outcome. Everything starts with a principle. Have a morning ritual or a morning habit. One thing that really gives me a kick are animal videos. Animals and predators in hot pursuit of prey. I work in a yarn factory but I need a better job with slightly more income. I don't plan on hoarding wealth, I don't want to. I want to spend a lot of my time doing spiritual stuff. But I sometimes wonder if developing a core foundation of my life will give me better prospects for higher stuff. Yesterday I gifted myself a diary so I can write a bit about my struggles with autism and foundational stuff. I'm thinking about going on a retreat in a log cabin. I just wish to shut off everything for a while. How would that life be? I want to maintain some early morning rituals. Focus music. I need to ask myself productivity based questions. One is achieving the flow state. I also need to consistently raise my standards on how I want things to be done and prioritize my mental state to always have an optimum state of mind and a state of flow. So the first thing definitely was principle>action>outcome. Entering flow states. Name 3 random positive actions I did today. Name 3 directed positive actions I did today. Name 3 powerful insights that you had today. Name 4 excuses that you gave today. If there's an outcome then there is success.. We do things because we want to see changes in ourselves. Sometimes we don't have the resources to do so. Sometimes we can't make good of the resources we already have. Some part of this forum is really esoteric. I don't understand some of the terms or should I say language. It can be confusing and sometimes misleading. You have to come down to the nitty gritty of things. I believe that reality is beyond our grasp. And if something is good for you, it will always be good for you. You won't have to regret it. Focus on what's traditional or basic. What works for you? It's your own greed that makes you chase your own tail? Don't be in the habit of always wanting more. Give more, take less. But take whatever is constructive. I'll contemplate on this. This forum is full of Spiritual Ego's and not in a healthy empowering way, if you notice the questions raised repeat themselves many times over, your not real, life is imaginary, God is all there is, sort of stuff, it really gets one nowhere, its someone just philosophizing in away, and philosophy is not so good to identify with since there are presently 8 billion different philosophies in the world today, everyone has one,, It basically our Intellects going out of control, this is rampant all over he world in many different areas of life, it will kill all of us eventually if we don't stop it, first within ourselves then world wide hopefully someday.. Just work on yourself, improve everyday in one area, drop a limitation every week, soon there will be none left... Just work on yourself, improve everyday in one area, drop a limitation every week, soon there will be none left... I can work on other areas of life. And i do a good a job at that. I don't want to lose my basics. But I'm looking for the cherry on top. Been looking for years now. Still a little destabilized while looking for it. Lucid dreaming does help me a shit ton. But I need something more rigid. If there's a 1% growth in my mental state, clarity, presence of mind, flow state, productivity, spiritual essence, minimalism, consciousness, infinite love, vibration and healing quantum that I'll admire that sort of an interaction. Positive affirmations for Foundations I have had a 3 % increase in my productivity in last 4 days. I have had a 1% increase in my productivity in last two days. I'm busy building my foundation. What are you naturally drawn to? What's your inner monologue? Cut down materialism completely You don't need anything at all.. Your mind is supreme. You need nothing material. Your mind doesn't cost money or any material possession at all. Your mind is a canvas. And this is the biggest advantage at your disposal, your own mind. It's like clay. You can shape it anyhow you want. Positive affirmations for Foundations I'm not broken. I'm a vessel of hope. The world tries to break you with its rules. Ironically this brings you closer to yourself. Reality cannot be controlled by humans or man made laws and so all these rules to discipline (especially without love) are futile. They will never work and they increasingly come from an egoic place. The world and it's contents don't help you discover the soul, it sabotages the soul and breaks the vessel mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. You're living the wrong way all your life. Saying thank you before eating. That helps because I'm feeding a vessel. Everything, everyday, eternally The purpose of the vessel is to connect with God. This doesn't require anything. I'm not sure if I'm going into esoteric blah blah. Anything that builds your vessel is good. Anything that breaks your vessel is bad. Kindness builds the vessel. It's simply surrendering to the absolute essence of peace. Nudging my ship forward bit by bit. Not trying to conquer anything. I don't want to go into paranoid states. It was literally the worst state of mind to be in. It made me become the worst version of myself. Literally. Posted on May 18. 2024. I want to build my foundations. I definitely want to. But at the same time I want an ardent spiritual practice to occupy a prominent position in my lifespace. I don't even call it life anymore. I call it lifespace. And heck I wanna do a lot of visualizations. This space wakes me up in a heartbeat. Nothing to worry. All chummy. I began living deep in the forests, high up in the mountains, somewhere in a log cabin. And suddenly I felt disconnected from all of reality. It was like eating dark chocolate. The lucidity of thought. The thoughtlessness of reality. Reality snowballs into a thick fog of meaningless traps that serve nobody's purpose.

@A Fellow Lighter I want to make it clear, with as much compassion as possible - you are not responsible for the actions she takes in her life. Most people who want to commit suicide don't actually want to die - they just want to end their current circumstances. Usually due to frantic, overwhelming, distress & pain. They see no other solution but to self delete. There is always another solution. I hope this knowledge releases you of some feelings of responsibility. You sound entangled with this women. We are each responsible only for our actions in life. We choose how to respond. No one else. You can let someone like this down gently by making them realize you are not qualified to help. Need a professional. <3

She is playing the suicide card. I had my ex do that to me that caused me to be with him twice. It caused me a lot of suffering. Don't fall for it. It's a huge red flag. When it's time to leave make it final.

I'm angry that she's playing the suicide card with me. She's so selfish. Her selfishness is the reason I want to leave her in the first place.

My .. the girl I'm with is hinting at committing suicide if I leave her. What do I do?

Serious chronic health problems that have no solution. Or very old age. I read about a case of an Iraq war veteran who got so badly wounded in battle that he could not walk, could not sleep, was in constant physical pain 24/7, had to be taken care of by a nurse every day, and had to shit in a bag because his intestines were too damaged. He lived in hell for several years, his girlfriend left him, no doctors or medicine could help him. His only realistic solution was suicide and so he killed himself. That to me is a legitimate case for suicide. Not getting laid is not. You don't even realize how good your life was until you have a woman to constantly deal with. You will be begging to be single after a while of girl drama. Sex with the same girl will soon get boring. And many other factors will diminish the quality of real-world sex: from problems with timing, to girls who are bad at sex, to condoms, to pregnancy scares, and more. Of course sex is nice, but it's not as nice as people make it out to be. Don't forget that sex ain't free. You'll be paying for it somehow. Usually with crazy drama. You will have to deal with all sorts of girl nonsense just to get that sex. Some degree of that is okay, but it does get old after a certain point. I'm not saying don't pursue sex or relationships. Pursue it. But don't exaggerate its importance to your happiness. A day will come when you will wish you were single and free. When you finally realize your need for girls was largely a fantasy of your own making you will finally find some peace and happiness. Don't confuse horny excitement and drama for peace and happiness.

Somewhat unrelated, but: What would be a reason to die? Is there a set of circumstances that would seem reasonable for suicide in your world view? And adjacent to that, I’d like to know how you reconciled yourself with all your physical health issues. Because you seem to do better now. I could listen to a lecture video about that topic.

Thank you for sharing, I used to be like you, I also wanted it all, suicide was a daily idea, but I realized the more I wanted the further away from that which I wanted I placed myself. The universe does not understand or respond to language as much as it does frequency. See when we say "I Want" we are letting the Universe know what we "don't have" and then because the Universe is your reflection, Creator > Creation, so to speak, It will give you more of that which you don't have because you are validating that which you don't have by saying "I want". See there comes a moment in life when we have to stop wanting and praying for god to help us because it rarely happens that way, rather god wants you do make the change within yourself and literally change to see the change around you and your life. We have to be the God/Goddess we are and make that first step, because the universe is simply a reflection of our inner-world. You can try create some daily affirmations and state them out loud daily and behave as if they are already true and exemplify them into actions. I Am, I have, I am grateful, I am worthy, My life is great, I am greatness, all the things you want, change the way you say and feel about them. Imagine you already have them and are them all, fake it till you make it, it works, but you gotta keep up the consistency. As above so below, as within so without.

This saddens me to hear so much...💛 It's heartbreaking that such a beautiful mind could feel this way. I’m so sorry. Keyro is amazing - or rather, the person behind this account is! You are awesome 💗💗💗 I’m certain many people in this community feel the same way about you. I really hope you find some light soon... We’re all here for you. Sending the biggest, most vibrant omniversal psychedelic hugs your way. This is just a random thought... but if your goal is to be formless yet retain memories, physical suicide might not be the path to take. Perhaps finding a way to make your life flexible enough to explore all kinds of psychedelic and mental planes would allow you to feel more free (?) Your mind is very creative and fluid - it’s no wonder this current reality with a human body feels limiting... Either way, please, please, please contact someone before doing anything irreversible, don't be too silly of a goose 💓🐥

Exactly. There wasn't a plan here. There was a helpless feeling of suffering and self deception. She stated that she wanted to commit suicide already right? But this was a way of going out that made more of a bang. It was selfishness but also it was lack of love and communication. Had this person received the proper guidance, love, and tutelage then she probably wouldn't have committed suicide in this manner and took others out with her. Suicide happens every day it's just then when they decide to take others with them it becomes a big story.

I wonder if he would say the same about suicide.

What is the number one thing repeated in all male suicide notes? "Useless". Men need to feel useful like how women need to feel included. If not they can't survive or reproduce. Its the only thing Andrew Tate is right about.

It’s not just western. Russia for example has a very high suicide rate even among young females i think. And not just attempts but success. And many European countries are very safe and have very low school/shootings/killings etc.