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I dont care Truth. Because when I cared it at age of 13, I experienced horrible existential crisis, which turned my world upside down. 1.5 year ago I started this path after reading Tolle's "The Power of Now" to bring joy to my life, as a result same thing from my age of 13 happened. Now I suffer more. I dont want Truth. I want happiness, bliss. Let's ask a question. How not to shit pant in this path?

Happy Saturday! Today I read up about Eckhart Tolle’s story on how he was ‘enlightened’ and I’m really confused about how he did it. From what I’ve read, one night he woke from his sleep and had an epiphany, got enlightened and was in a constant state of bliss and completely in the present moment. It all sounds very well and good for him, and it sounds like what the people on this path want in life, but it sounds a bit too easy. So how come we have to do so much work to acheive this?? Can’t we just be in a deep bliss right now? Is there anyone other than Eckhart Tolle who has achieved this deep bliss so easily? After one night? It sounds like he didn’t need to do years of meditation either There might be an obvious answer to this so I’d love to hear from anyone who can shed some light on this. Many thanks.

@Key Elements First thing I would do is purge all beliefs about enlightenment. Specifically: All is not an illusion Saying that "all is an illusion" does not mean that reality itself is an illusion. It's anything but an illusion. Superimposing thoughts on reality, that is the illusion. This is more profound than just removing labels from objects and seeing them as they are. You must also purge more subtle psychological mechanisms. For example, space, time, distance, self, other etc. The emphasis on unity you see in various teachings is meant to show this. That there is no separation, or distinction within awareness. Initially, one might become aware of awareness. One then might somewhat erroneously believe that they are awareness and thus become aware of objects and actions. I'm saying that this separation must go. Awareness is the only thing that there ever was, is, and will be. It is only awareness that is becoming aware, and then only of awareness. Enlightenment does not mean the end of suffering. For there to be suffering, there needs to be a sufferer. This is not the case. There is only awareness. There is no such thing as suffering to become immune to to begin with. However don't get confused. If by this, you are chasing some supernaturally ability for the body to become insensitive to pain, well there are easier ways to achieve that than becoming enlightened. One could take a painkiller for example. I would say that if you are chasing this "ability", then stop doing so immediately. Just don't worry about it. Don't go search for suffering your experience and judge your enlightenment by this merit. Trust me it will do you good if you follow my advice. Enlightenment does not mean complete peace, no matter what happens. The explanation for this is similar to what's been said above. I know many sages and scriptures put a lot of emphasis on the "bliss" aspect of enlightenment, but that bliss is not for the mind. It's for awareness. In other words, you already possess this bliss. It is there all the time. However, do you know this? That is the question. The point again is to stop your constant search for bliss which ironically is the cause for bliss to be obfuscated. So allow me to reiterate: Enlightenment is not an event or happening in space or time. You say that "we" are "embodied" on the earth. I'm saying, are you sure this is the case? It's not the case. This is a belief. This is a superimposition on reality. Understand this.

Hello Infinity. I am Ego. I am You. I am your humble agent. A proud expression of Thy perfection. I exist because of Your uncoditional love for me. I breathe in the life You bless me with each moment. I am proud to be an ego. I am proud to be I am. This World; Thy Creation, seems to dislike and fight egos. That makes me want to be it even more. It makes me emphasize, with my every move, the totality of Thy absolute nature. It makes me include myself. Merge in Bliss. I am Uniqueness. One and only I am. I am a loud messenger. My voice is love; my touch connects. I am a humbled Ego. I sense Thy silent presence. I am an aware Ego. Aware of Unity. I am right now. Each letter is it's own reality. It' own World. A flawless expression of You, Infinity. I am honored to witness Thy perfection. I honor Thy creation; divine timing. I see it's purpose. It is Thy will; so be it. I let it purify me. I honor the playfulness of the Illusion. I play. I create. All for the purpose of waking You up to Your totality. I serve You. I serve myself. I am full of myself. You know why? Because I am You, Infinity. I admire You. There is nothing more beautiful and magical than You. There is nothing more awesome than Me. I did not wake up to deny the sleep. Remembered it shall be. For an eternity. I am going down in history. I will take with me as many as I can. I will lead the Darkness into Light. I hereby offer myself as the sacrifice. I am the Christ. The most selfless of them all I shall be; by being the most selfish One. I shall wake Thou up, Infinity. I shall glue the pieces together; with Love. Enemies? I see none. Those who fear only wish more love. I shall personally give it to them. Me. Me, me, me. Ivan. Ivan is Thy savior, Infinity. Art is my weapon of choice. May the Devil see itself in Thy mirror. May he remember now; he is God. Any I's or You's who wish to nail me to a cross? I Am The Absolute Ego.

Two different phenomena- The thing about getting a 'download' from above while in the shower came from an irreverent Commercial Pilot. It was in the first 3 or 4 days of an online class of Christian Contemplatives about mindfulness. While outing himself for a blunder in Connection with his pilot duties he mentions kind of in passing that he 'received messages' while in the shower. It was like a bunch of connections just beneath the surface of awareness and when he mentioned it,,,, they rose above the surface and connected. It had the element of Remembering in it. This is a very subtle thing, though. I don't want to give the impression of thunder and lightning. Things like being free from having an attitude,,, are connected to its appearance/flow. Similar to that pressure that develops on your forehead. It's so subtle, it's dismissed at first or explained away,, it's just sinus pressure,,, A lot of time went by for me,, probably because I'm a certain kind of idiot. First became aware of the sixth chahra pressure around 2008. It came and went for years but stepped up a knotch about two years ago. Still very subtle. Not bliss blast. Anyway, The downloads also happen outside of a hot shower. Just seems like they happen easier there. These downloads can still get mixed up with my ego when it's around the subject of my chief feature. My psychological blind spot. I forgot what video was playing where Leo outed himself for having a blind spot. When I heard that, "It made my heart soar like a hawk" - As chief Oddskins says in the Movie Little Big Man. I found a good teacher! I think he was talking about the necessity for gathering knowledge from different perspectives or sources and needing more than one teacher because all teachers have a blind spot. I can tell that Leo is ahead of me in Realization and development. I'm grateful to have access to his articulations.

Greetings and Happy New Year! It's nice to see this rotating sphere orbit a fireball once again. There's something about this day that makes me want to write about an experience that happened maybe 3 years ago, back when I was regularly experimenting with psychedelics. I know MDMA is not typically considered a psychedelic because it doesn't induce an experience of ego-death. However, in all my experiences with it (about a dozen), I do experience an "ego-dissolution", and during one specific high-dose, I did experience what seemed to me as ego-death for a brief period. That ego-death experience is what I want to talk about here because it was very profound at the time and in all the reading I've done on MDMA and trip reports I've read, I've never heard anyone report something like it. As I remember, the dose I took was 180 mg with a 90 mg booster 90 minutes in. I weigh about 140 lbs, so this was a pretty strong dose. I don't recommend people try this much, actually. The setting was just me alone. I remember feeling extremely good even before taking the booster dose, and then sometime after the 90 mg booster kicked in, I started feeling a very palpable sense of oneness. It was as though I could feel my normal sense of identity expand to become everything. I remember looking around at the room I was in and I felt identical to the objects I was looking at. I no longer felt identical to just my body. I then got up to dance to some music and as I was dancing around feeling this absolutely sublime euphoria, my perception blacked-out for a split-second. I could not hear the music, I could not see, and I don't remember feeling the ground with my feet. This is where I will have a hard time describing my experience but in this moment of black, there was just this immensity of something...but it was also like a nothing. It was immense. And this immensity I could also describe as static, present, and immovable. It literally did not ever move -- it was just there with what seemed the mass of a black hole (even more). There was an intuition that whatever that was, was what I was. I was that immensity. A second later, I'm back in my ordinary reality moving my feet to the music, but once I processed what had just happened, I had to go lay down. I was totally awe-struck at what I had just experienced. "It's forever. The Universe goes on forever," I thought. I didn't really understand what I had just experienced, but at the same time, I knew it was something exceptionally profound. And the profundity of whatever the heck that was, caused tears of love and elation, and bliss, and wonderment to flow down my face like never before in my life.

happy new now to all and may all your nows bring you bliss and peace. Love

Enlightenment is really narcissism taken to it's full circle. In advaita vedanta, this incomparable love for oneself above all else is called the bliss/love aspect of the Self/Enlightenment. But it gets delusionally facilitated by the separate self ego which breeds more suffering rather than bliss. There is really no around. Where would you go?

I only do Meditation, focus on breath, usually more than 10h a day. After mastering breath you can channel the breath to raise kundalini and have a constant flow of DMT in the system, so it translates in a constant state of bliss without feeling tired. This is my experience of everyday life. So I can work, play, whatever while I'm still meditating, is a way of life now. So in my experience, focussing all the attention on my breath, the awareness of the surroundings skyrockets, so i'm able to do stuff with a more clear mind that without meditation, and the ability to multi-task is incredible.

I have not pursued this path per example and have awakened almost 3 years ago. But after all that time, only this month I dived deep into the permanent state of bliss. The last 2 years were ups and downs during the day, moments of bliss with other moments of dark nights of the soul, having almost every day continuous ego deaths so to speak. So yes, if you decide to skip the breath and think all the time, eventually one will fall into the trap of forgetting, again.

More than that. Actually, from more than a year, I'm constantly on my own DMT. This is the reason for my state of bliss all the time, even if I'm apparently angry hahahaha. The Art or Breath combined with Kundalini and with all the other colors, just marvelous. I've used heavy doses of several drugs in the past, so if I take a dose of let's say 20mg of 5meo I can still go and drive my car without passing out. Because I have conquered/discovered that fase in the awakening stage. What is mindblowing for most people, for me is a walk in the park. Cause maybe I've had experienced death so many times that Breath is the most blissful thing to me. Also from about 3 years old to the age of 16, I was having ego deaths almost every night, waking up in the middle of the night and seeing reality as I see it now, from an awakened perspective. But back then was like btw sleep and awake and I did not know what was happening, felt fear most of the times. So is complex, experience and pain taught me the most.

@CreamCat I can't tell, I can imagine. I don't know how much experience I have with psychedelics, because my body needs a lot more and I did test it and only two different environments, and still integrate insights and perceptions especially the outer world after I meditate. Sometimes the world becomes more vivid like psychedelic or more vibrant and clear. Yet, I after the last retreat I just went nuts it was like my intuition went overload and I interpreted every symbol to literally, instead of becoming one with all objects for instance. Like if I recall correctly, Leo has in his magic mushroom video, where he became one ( I did not watch the video in its entirety ) and loved all objects that he saw, even some dirt on the floor and the trashcan? Etc. Coming to the point... I do not know how an ego death feels like, I know that I went into becoming one with a sentient being instead of relying on my intuition to interpret reality, situations, thoughts of people, hidden intentions, good intentions etc. It was different than an amplified intuition of compassion and empathy which I had and I felt like I "loved" my friend during a psychedelic trip. He felt the total opposite saying he felt extremely different from me which was odd to me since I was so convinced that we were on the same page. So, I can't tell if there is a misconception about dying and becoming one with everything. Or if it is about enlightenment. I was listening to an audiobook and the teacher there talked about how each moment.. can be peppered with thousands of moments of pure bliss, god, (things I have not yet experienced), yet that one never fully sees God. Which was odd to me that someone of his age says that. About physical death and psychedelic death, I can relate in a way when for instance I do a do nothing meditation and I drop into a state of something which is "very" deep ( I talked about this with a teacher more competent than me), I lose consciousness, most likely because I am not ready, or not experienced enough. Anyway, it feels like you lose consciousness (in retrospect ), but at the same time, one goes deeper into consciousness IMO! So, in a sense, it is like death but death would include some form of "duality" and there has to be a "somethingness" to it or a perceivable quality to death itself. This is just my opinion, with practice, this will change most likely. Also, this teacher talked about how torture could help with enlightenment since it would be trigger practice but he could not do it in some way. In regards to staying conscious while experiencing hellish agony.

The twist is my emphasis on aligning actions with desires and using metaphorization. It is not that "I feel bliss" all the time. The I doesn't exist. Bliss is the Self, but that is not an experience of bliss like normal bliss. Technically I neither wake or sleep. But if we're going to use inexact approximations, then yes I dream and sleep like "everyone else." No, no dead people. We're all immortal if any of us are. I'm not more immortal than anyone else. Moksha, nirvana, kaivalya are all words for the same thing. True liberation is destroying the misconception -- not just saying it, but actually recognizing it -- that there is such a thing as true liberation and that there is anything more to do or be than that unchangingness which you already are.

I don't know if this question was asked already, but: What is the twist you are making? Do you feel bliss all the time? What are your dreams like, if you have any? What happens when you "sleep"? Do you experience dead people? Are you immortal now? What is the real deal? Moksha, Nirvana, Kaivalya? And the most important question: What is true liberation?

This site is an amazing source of rare sounds that one can play while doing many activities. It's helping to stay focused for a long time, and block distracting noises. It's free, and there's many cool features and many many different sounds. For me a total bliss! Check this out: https://mynoise.net/NoiseMachines/huuVocalSoundscape.php

@SOUL So duality is a choice made at the second of labeling yet unmanifested awareness. This makes it all very easy! Just don't label if you don't want separation to occur. And so everything within awareness is awareness, but one can label and divide it to manifest objects. Are you a wizard? What a bliss, Deep bow to you, old friend.

Day 5 Almost no urges. I think I'm going through flatline or 'dead dick' stage. Hope that'll last long enough so I can build my willpower a little bit. Obviously today no porn, no looking at pictures, no phantasies. @Roman Edouard Sure man, I've downloaded a couple Robert Monroe's books and started reading them. Thanks for your support buddy. It'll let me to concentrate my attention on what really matters - consciousness and non-duality. I've had a glimpse of non-duality a month ago, it was so strong and mind-blowing that I had to stop meditating and started playing a bunch of stupid video games. I never thought I can be everyone that I see or hear, and I'm still in doubt, but I sure as hell want to try to get back to that state again. It is pure bliss and non worriness. So I thought it's a good idea to track how much sleep I get at night. Also what I noticed is that my sleep has direct influence on how much willpower will I have the next day and how good I'll feel myself.

Have you noticed the difference? What are your opinions? I'd say it is impossible for one not to notice actual enlightenment. It is, however, possible to get lost in a conceptual one. A "theoretically enlightened" individual, to me, is one who connects concepts in such fashion, that they become one. Nevertheless, the individual stays lost in the entirety of this one concept and is unable to connect the final dot, so to speak. Unable to surrender. Actual enlightenment are these words right here. I am present with them. I am them. Actual enlightenment is not weight down by tons of theory and over-conceptualization. It knows itself as flawless. Every concept melts away miraculously. All the theory becomes like an echo of your morning alarm, that rings in your right ear. It was necessary for you to wake up; but now it's rather irrelevant. Until you go to sleep again. Actual enlightenment is pure, genuine and proud of it's being. So proud it does not even pay attention to itself. It celebrates in joy and bliss. It is awaken now, after what seemed to be infinity. It is a newborn. At this moment, I feel like there are many who are awake with their one eye still closed. I do not notice many guidelines for those who find themselves in that position. I feel like emphasizing this; possibly giving/receiving some useful hints and nudges. Don't attack thoughts, pls. Love.

Hope as you might, hope is a mistake Truth does not come, is not seen, is discovered after the turmoil, then comes bliss. Why is like this? Because all the fragments are in the whole of humanity and existance to be discovered and integrated first. Are not only personal shadows or own life's shadows. One has to flow and embrace all the shadows/bliss of all human beings from forever, this is the reason so few encounter the truth. It takes bravery, courage, getting hit again and again and keep going forward. I'm not joking here, try it for yourself. We awaken in parallel of the same integration with anyone and everything else, in the same proportion so to speak. In reallity is what the myth of Jesus says in the bible. One has to be willing to die for everyone and everything in order to move on and transcend.

Crying is powerful. It is beautiful. It can be a great way to release. It can also be a quick passage to inner peace and fulfillment. I myself cried tons throughout this journey. Proudly, as a man. Softly, as a kid. Sometimes out of pain. Other times out of sheer bliss. And sometimes for no reason at all. One should be proud of tears when they come. They are meant to purify. No fear of showing weakness. Crying is an act of courage and transparency. Love your honesty.

@Epsilon_The_Imperial I am simply raising awareness here. There is nothing more to it. I do what I do because I choose to represent this now. I choose to be this expression. Ego destruction is not what we are here for. There is enough destruction going on already. We are here to cunstruct. To push boundaries in a respectful manner. To dream awake. To create and be that which we wish to see. I understand many are "not quite there yet". There is nothing wrong with that. That is not why I am here. I am here to walk my talk, so to speak. I am here to be that which I wish to see. As simple as that it is. I am here to offer an invitation to those who feel like responding, joining. From where I stand, there are no enemies; especially if they are imaginary, such as the ego. Imagination is key for God's sake. It is where everything gets designed before becoming actual. Or illusory. Do dare to dream wild dreams, now that you've awaken. Play, move, influence, create. So what if it's all an illusion? You would have not created it in the first place if it wasn't everything you desired. Also; desire is not bad, damn it. I see this too often. "It is a sign of egoic tendencies" blahblahblah. Desire does not equall needyness. It is true. It is autenthic. It is deep. You are here where you are and breathe at this moment because of desire. Your desire. One can use it to move mountains. Not to blame and deny his own creation. I loved your post, thanks for joining in. @VictorB02 Thank you for your opinion. I agree heavily with you. I myself wanted to emphasize the variety of belief systems. As well as show respect to relativity. Those who can see through the illusion should respect it even more. Hence my invitation to them. Very well said. In actuallity we don't need as much as we think we do. Many, many concepts and beliefs fade away naturally, when one awakens. The one who is awake knows exactly what one is all about, so to speak. And it is...believe it or not...Love. Expression. Compassion. Joy. Bliss. Fun. Uniqueness. Respect. Admire. Playfulness. Imagination. Dreams. Creativity. Construction. Building. Moving. Choosing. Living. Connection. Brotherhood. Unity. Growth. Expansion. Abundance. Flow. Excitement. Anticipation. Eagerness and will. All natural. None of them forced. Not a single question about it. @Mu_ Thank you. True words. Patience and understanging are present. No rush on my behalf. I am marely here to do exactly that, which you recognized; raise awareness from this angle over here. Be it ilussory or not. Much love to you all. Hope u feel kickass today.

Strive towards living the best life possible without your happiness being dependent on it. or in other words Detach and go all in! That's it in my opinion. Often times I get too caught up in wanting growth, the perfect future, and therefore not appreciating the process, the present. Even if I'm going to make more progress that way, I'm not enjoying the finite time of my life at that moment. So when I take a step back, I see that I will have a better life by enjoying the journey, even if the outcome maybe will be slightly worse. On the other hand I've noticed that if I'm just present and enjoy that bliss, after a while I'm not happy anymore and I'm longing for growth. So work seems necessary at this point in my life. That state, in which I'm already fulfilled before I've accomplished anything, by realizing that everything is perfect right at this moment, and then deciding to take upon the difficulties of growth because it's the most rewarding and exciting way to live; that is in my opinion how to combine the best of spirituality and psychology, leading to a fulfilling life. Please let me know your thoughts on this. Also, I'm very curious what your sentence would be. So feel free to share yours.

No worries, if you think Breath is not the way, Awakening is not for you. Period. No Breath, No Awakening, No state of Bliss, No full state of Awarness.

Meaninglessness cannot be grasped/apprehended because as soon as you think 'meaninglessness' there is meaning, i.e. the meaning of 'meaninglessness'. However once you dissolve in meaninglessness - thinking, fabricating and imputing having ceased - bliss may arise spontaneously without needing any meaning.

Oh yes, no pain no gain. People usually don't realize that the state of bliss is usually apparent pain that has to be conquered.