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Ey guys (first, sorry for my english, i'm from Spain), just wanna start a new topic to help people like me on guidance for this situation: I recently had a huge spiritual awakening (6-7 months ago). From my point of view, a person who has no idea about personal development and has never known nothing about spiritually or truth, it feel like I rested in the ''awakened state'' for two or three weeks. During that time I feel like i knew what my path in life was going to be, i feel like everyone around me was completely asleep and cried for days seeing how my loved ones were not going to have the dream life I was going to have. I feel my soul when i looked my self in the mirror and cried because I was perfect, life was perfect, and I could see perfectly how people around me were just wasting this beutiful present of ''god''. During this time I found Leo's channel, so I thought my life was going to be great.Now, 6 months later, and after passing a hard identity crisis, I had a super huge ego backlash, anxiety in my chest, feel like I waste the opportunity of living a meaningful life, feel like I'm deeply back asleep, don't know what to do and I think I have some depression going on. During the first months nobody understood me and feel very very alone, insecurities started to kick in and i feel like I sold my soul to feel better during that time. Please tell me what do you think about this.

A couple of important notes with regard to the "pdf". The document is extensive, and I've only been practicing the main Kriya, labeled FIRST LESSON:Technique of Kriya Pranayama as it was explained by Sri Mukherjee I have not began practicing the quite extensive "preparatory " techniques he discusses along with it. That is of course aside from the Nadi Shodana, Yoni Mudra Kambhaka, and Maha Mudra that is a natural part of doing Kriya. YMK and Maha Mudra are powerful,so it's best to proceed with caution. My practice (if interested) is: 1. 5-10 minute preliminary asana set. Two Maha Mudra's, as part of the set. 2.Nadi Shodana for 8-12 rounds. 3. Main technique of Kriya (described in PDF). Usually 15-20 minutes or so, or until "profound peace and stillness" or "the peace and the bliss originating from the practice of Kriya" manifests. 4. One YMK, after doing the main Kriya. 5.Awareness japa meditation for 25-40 minutes. The effortless awareness meditation is probably,and just imo, the best stand alone meditation technique I've practiced,outside of doing Kriya. After trying various meditation techniques for years,including mindfulness,breath and "object" based "hard" concentration techniques, It has been, from my experience, the most powerful stand alone meditation technique I've done. Kriya works on the "ecstatic energy/kudalini" as well as producing the stillness. The awareness japa meditation continues to carry one from that stillness, deep into different samahdi states, Kevalya samahdi being where awakening or "self realization" happens. Sahaja samahdi, is the permanent abiding of that self realized natural state. It needs to be said,at least in my experience,that the samahdi states don't necessarily happen only during meditation. I awakened, Kevalya samadhi, when I was wide awake. While grocery shopping no less, lol. I never quite understood the bible verse "the lord will come like a thief in the night" until this,then it was perfectly understood. And from talking to many others who have awakened/self realized, it came upon them suddenly as well. This is of course through doing months or even years of doing spiritual work ,and not the use of psychedelics. I've never tried psychedelics,so I'm not sure how effectively abiding, the awakening shift is on the nervous system.

When you arrive to the conclusion that "thoughts" cannot know anything, you will begin to get awakened and there will be no more questions. @Ether

@Faceless Have you awakened? Whats your current state of counsciousness?

Why do you think you havent awakened then? I realize I dont really control how I feel.

I've had life partners like this and I've been one to some. If both are awakened, the sharing is mostly positive and quite blissful. An awakened partner doesn't spend their time pointing out your hang ups directly or your ego would choke on that (you'd want to end the relationship fast, screaming "abuse"). They mostly see the good side and trust you to draw your own conclusions about your shortcomings. Anyway, predictably ended up breaking each other in pieces as one can only get that close to another until it gets under your skin. In my experience, as one develops a deeper understanding of the self liberation path we're on, they at the same time lose their interest in small talk, "fun" but time wasting activities, sharing on different levels of negativity, complaining without taking action or responsibility and so on. The kind of activities unawakened people usually engage in. So, as we filter those out, we also learn to enjoy being alone, because it comes handy as we approach the finish line. Contrary to popular belief, one can only pass through the self inquiry gate alone. Thus learning how to be alone is a requirement. On the path we start with lots of company, books, videos, dead and alive gurus, mentors, teachers, everyone's assisting. They can only help us up to a point. Then we slowly drop the help as we move into the self inquiry phase, which is to be done alone.

@Ether You can feel it in your heart. You feel like something just isn't right when in conversation with a person who has an ego mask on. You'll understand if you spend a few hours with someone who is awakened, and then spend some quality time with someone who is deep in ego. Inauthenticity becomes obvious, but without any reference points it may seem "normal" from your perspective. it creates a barrier between you and the other person, at least in my experience. I hope that all barriers of the ego, to feel that it is not ok to share your emotions non-judgementally with another person for fear of deeper intimacy and what shadows it will reveal in themselves that they have suppressed for years, can one day be broken. For us to be the first ones to meet our emotions like a child in pain who just wants our attention, and then to be able to share those authentically with our loved ones without a mask. This is what I'm meaning. The heart never lies, it is the evidence. It is free from all programming, all cultural beliefs all memories, and childhood traumas. It is our guiding light. For years I have ignored this feeling that arises in me when speaking to other people which makes me think, just how much more I am unaware of, how much more is left to be discovered and realised. We are truly a fish in water, and unconditional love is what makes us realise that imo.

Leo is continuing walking on the circles. He has already awakened but what he calls infinite awakening is just going on the same circles. And he is right you can awaken to infinite truths but all of them are ONE! It is the addictive side of this search for the Truth. He already has truth but he can find new and new ones but at the same time all of them will be the same truths - that's the paradox of reality... He is in the circle going full circle infinitely. And he is aware of that. Only he can get himself outside this infinite loop. It's a choice really. you can word it infinitely differently but the truth is that there is not such thing as existence or truth or any thing. But real trick here is to continue living after this realization and not get stuck in the infinite loop. If I was Leo I would end the search, get wife and kids and life happily.

Among of all the awakened ones. Both past and modern enlightened masters. Who do you think has reached the highest forms of realization and why do you think so? For me it's Jesus. I don't know Gautama's life that well to assume anything.

Humn, if you were awakened, youd knew "narcissist" people dont exist. But yeah, I forgot, you arent. Do you feel resistance on your body? That also means you arent awakened.

@egoless I didnt say I was awakened. Read it, I didnt say I was at peace. Its just that for almost a month now, I feel calm eryday

first step. Now start post awakening sadhana. If you claim that you are awakened and due to that you feel calmness...

I would probably have the same life, only that I would enjoy it to the fullest. Playing videogames...to the fullest. Enjoying the night...to the fullest. Making songs...to the fullest. Being alone...to the fullest.

My opinion: From what i hear and see, i can say maybe he is "egoic" enlightened. True awakening will bring your voice to singer level, and if you are male, one will be able to go very low with the voice, to a bass stage (similar to a radio speaker human being). Even females have a deeper voice after awakening. Yes folks, singers are not born, are awakened. Anyone has the potential. So no, he is only playing with the 6th chakra in my view. <3

@Prabhaker Oh, thank you. But if he had awakened, why would he still meditate' How do you know so much about Buddha, did you study his life?

Just because you give up Ego doesn't mean your life has to become like some kind of monk. You will still do lots of things after you become awakened. You just won't be striving after them for egoic reasons. You'll be much more grounded and calm with life. You won't be neurotic about things. You're not gonna fall off the face of the earth after awakening.

Warning! Yoga comes natural to the Awakened ones, no need to learn it. Who does yoga and is not awakened has the possibility to block themselves. <3

You could astral project into Ajna and Akasha and see it for yourself as happened in real-time feeling space/time. No need of reading or learning if you awakened. <3

Only the Awakened Being can only know Love. Other sleepy heads have concepts of love. <3

There is not wrong or good in killing a mosquito or any biological creature. A rock in reality has the same value as human being. One can see this after being awake. There are only consequences in the un-awakened state or in the society we are living. <3

@Prabhaker Yeah, thanks But what about after he had awakened?

"Man exists as if in sleep. Man is alseep. Whatever is known as waking is also sleep. Initiation (Gurus) means to be in intimate contact with one who is awakened. Unless you are in intimate contact with one who is awakened it is impossible to come out your sleep, because the mind is even capable of dreaming that it is awake. The mind can dream that now there is no more sleep. By initiation is meant that you have surrendered to someone who is awakened. You say "I do not understand, I cannot understand. I am part of the world that is mad and asleep. I am dreaming all the time." This feeling can come even from a sleepy person, because the sleep is not always deep. It wavers, becoming very deep at times and then coming up and becoming very shallow. Just like ordinary sleep is a fluctuation of so many levels, so many planes, the metaphysical sleep that I am talking about also fluctuates. Sometimes you are just on the border line, very near to Buddha; then you can understand something of what Buddha is talking about, what he is saying. It will never be exactly what was said, but at least you have had a glimpse of the truth. On part of the initiated, initiation is a total letting go: a complete trust, a complete surrender. It can be never partial . If you surrender partially, you are not surrendering, you are deceiving yourself. There can be no partial surrender, because in partial surrender you are withholding something, and that withholding may push you again into deep sleep. That non surrendering part will prove fatal; any moment you may again be in deep sleep" - OSHO - The Art of Esctacy We have surrendered to a Materialist Paradigm and our guru is the collective society and you partially surrendered to Leo or other teachers when you realized the deep sleep we are in. Leo does a great job of laying down the foundations of epistemic patterns of the mind now it is your job not to cling to ideologies and become aware of how you're alone in this Universe.

Yes, I havent awakened but i do feel crazy... calm.

Buddha’s early life Greco-buddhist representation of Buddha Shakyamuni from the ancient region of Gandhara, eastern Afghanistan. Greek artists were most probably the authors of these early representations of the Buddha. India at the time of the Buddha was very spiritually open. Every major philosophical view was present in society, and people expected spirituality to influence their daily lives in positive ways. At this time of great potential, Siddhartha Gautama, the future Buddha, was born into a royal family in what is now Nepal, close to the border with India. Growing up, the Buddha was exceptionally intelligent and compassionate. Tall, strong, and handsome, the Buddha belonged to the Warrior caste. It was predicted that he would become either a great king or spiritual leader. Since his parents wanted a powerful ruler for their kingdom, they tried to prevent Siddharta from seeing the unsatisfactory nature of the world. They surrounded him with every kind of pleasure. He was given five hundred attractive ladies and every opportunity for sports and excitement. He completely mastered the important combat training, even winning his wife, Yasodhara, in an archery contest. Suddenly, at age 29, he was confronted with impermanence and suffering. On a rare outing from his luxurious palace, he saw someone desperately sick. The next day, he saw a decrepit old man, and finally a dead person. He was very upset to realize that old age, sickness and death would come to everyone he loved. Siddharta had no refuge to offer them. The next morning the prince walked past a meditator who sat in deep absorption. When their eyes met and their minds linked, Siddhartha stopped, mesmerized. In a flash, he realized that the perfection he had been seeking outside must be within mind itself. Meeting that man gave the future Buddha a first and enticing taste of mind, a true and lasting refuge, which he knew he had to experience himself for the good of all. Buddha’s enlightenment The Buddha decided he had to leave his royal responsibilities and his family in order to realize full enlightenment. He left the palace secretly, and set off alone into the forest. Over the next six years, he met many talented meditation teachers and mastered their techniques. Always he found that they showed him mind’s potential but not mind itself. Finally, at a place called Bodhgaya, the future Buddha decided to remain in meditation until he knew mind’s true nature and could benefit all beings. After spending six days and nights cutting through mind’s most subtle obstacles, he reached enlightenment on the full moon morning of May, a week before he turned thirty-five. At the moment of full realization, all veils of mixed feelings and stiff ideas dissolved and Buddha experienced the all-encompassing here and now. All separation in time and space disappeared. Past, present, and future, near and far, melted into one radiant state of intuitive bliss. He became timeless, all-pervading awareness. Through every cell in his body he knew and was everything. He became Buddha, the Awakened One. After his enlightenment, Buddha traveled on foot throughout northern India. He taught constantly for forty-five years. People of all castes and professions, from kings to courtesans, were drawn to him. He answered their questions, always pointing towards that which is ultimately real. Throughout his life, Buddha encouraged his students to question his teachings and confirm them through their own experience. This non-dogmatic attitude still characterizes Buddhism today. “I can die happily. I have not kept a single teaching hidden in a closed hand. Everything that is useful for you, I have already given. Be your own guiding light.” – The Buddha, while leaving his body at the age of eighty

Hi everyone, I'm new to the forum and to self-actualization. I hope this post can help provide some guidance to someone who's struggling. I also hope to receive some advice or guidance from others who have already had an awakening experience(s). Anyways, I think these were the most significant changes in my life leading up to this awakening experience: - Watched hours of Leo's newbie and advanced videos in a day (still watching regularly) - Watched content from other Spiritual Teachers - Shaved my head bald (used to have hair that I really loved) - Sold my iPhone and downgraded to a flip phone - I threw away my expensive watch (which I loved very much) - Started reading the New Testament (Bible) that I swore I'd never read again By the way, there are amazing insights in the New Testament (AMAZING) and I'd encourage everyone to read through it and really contemplate the teachings of Jesus and others like him. - Doubted every belief I had (especially the ones I held closest) - Accepted that I can't control my thoughts and sort of let them go wherever the would - Accepted that I can't force awakening experiences and enlightenment - Meditated several times per day, every day - Took a leap of faith Now the truth is, "I" didn't really do any of these things, but it sure felt like it, and even does now as I am no longer in that awakened state of consciousness. I think part of the reason these things led to this experience was because they were a huge blow to my sense of self, the ego that I am. I was, and continue to be at war with myself, literally. This is now the most important thing in my life and literally everything else is secondary. Everything I thought I knew about myself has changed completely and it is terrifying and beautiful at the same time. Thank you for reading and for being a part of this great community. Thank you Leo for your insightful content and dedication.