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I wanted to share this awesome older video of Adyashanti and Loch Kelly describing their everyday state of consciousness after extensive spiritual practice and transformation has occurred. I feel like this type of description is not easy to find for whatever reason. It has lined up very well with a bunch of experiences I've had using 5-MeO-DMT, and even bits of my sober experience get the occasional taste of the picture they paint. It's really valuable imo to hear what a matured version of conscious awakening would be like. It sounds liberating indeed.

I've found inner body awareness practices to be the most powerful both during and outside of psychedelic trips. More specific than experiencing the feeling of your physical body, it's more so a continuous connection and alignment with the more subtle feeling of your own literal vital energy. I've known about this practice for many years, but it wasn't until I had a bunch of 5meo experiences that I could suddenly feel the real thing even when sober, which was quite a revelation. I'm sure it's related to the kundalini energetic aspects of 5meo. The power of this practice is in its simplicity. It's non-conceptual, experiential, and in the moment. You make the initial intention to feel it, and then from there you simply just continuously feel it by way of awareness rather than mind. When done correctly, it's effortless. Consistency in practice at all times is the key to meaningful transformation and growth. The sensation of the energy is like a guiding light that can instantly point a chaotic and wayward trip in the proper direction towards a state of being and presence. And of course, it has the same effect when sober. Like anything else though, it gets more familiar and easy the more you do it. If you get too lax in your attention and efforts, the full sensation can be difficult to find again for a time. Here's some lines from Eckhart Tolle's book, "Practicing the Power of Now": "To stay present in everyday life, it helps to be deeply rooted within yourself; otherwise, the mind, which has incredible momentum, will drag you along like a wild river. It means to inhabit your body fully. To always have some of your attention in the inner energy field of your body. To feel the body from within, so to speak. Body awareness keeps you present. It anchors you in the Now. The body that you can see and touch cannot take you into Being. But that visible and tangible body is only an outer shell, or rather a limited and distorted perception of a deeper reality. In your natural state of connectedness with Being, this deeper reality can be felt every moment as the invisible inner body, the ani­mating presence within you. So to "inhabit the body" is to feel the body from within, to feel the life inside the body and thereby come to know that you are beyond the outer form. You are cut off from Being as long as your mind takes up all your attention. When this happens - and it happens continuously for most people - you are not in your body. The mind absorbs all your consciousness and transforms it into mind stuff. You cannot stop thinking. To become conscious of Being, you need to reclaim consciousness from the mind. This is one of the most essential tasks on your spiritual journey. It will free vast amounts of consciousness that previously had been trapped in useless and compulsive thinking. A very effective way of doing this is simply to take the focus of your attention away from thinking and direct it into the body, where Being can be felt in the first instance as the invisible energy field that gives life to what you perceive as the physical body."

Right, I understand you know. In my experience you only need to focus and work on building regular habits, attitudes and actions that go against the "ghosting patters". For example, one of my clear ghosting patters in using drugs, I don´t have a physical dependency in the sense I need a drug to be funcional, like your brother might need, but I can clearly see from time to time I use drugs to numb and create a fake comfort chemical atmosphere. This type of pattern slows down progress and reduces clarity on where one is in life. But mind picks up this ghosting patterns because mind Is usually about homeostasis, comfort, cyclical nature. Is not about expansion and transformation. Is something 'natural' for the mind. What I have done that has improved my relationship with this 'ghosting patters' is that instead of judging them and try to avoid them, reject them, completely Focus my attention, focus, and energy on the things that are anti-ghosting, in my case, last year which I was trying to improve my social circle, going out 3 days a week for a full year. While this year ghosting patters where there but I accept them as rain in the sky, what I made sure is to focus on going out, and even though there were ghosting patters through the whole year while doing this, there was a certain transformation and expansion going on. Another example would be this current year, where I am focusing and going deep in Yoga practice. Is another example of anti-ghosting actions because it not only improves awareness and clarity of mind it kinda automatically has made easier to let go certain addictive or compulsive tendencies such as using drugs. So even though the mind still feels the desire to scratch the itch with the ghosting pattern, I don´t pay it much attention. I just keep myself focused. In other words, focus on Consciousness instead of compulsiveness, whatever turns out that to be in your situation. And compulsiveness and avoidance patters will slowly being to fall or be reduced on their own. If you focus on trying to reduce or eliminate the compulsive or cyclical patters you are just feeding more on to them. Where your focus is, is where your life will grow. Hope that helps-

Why is philosophy so important? First lets discuss common misconceptions. Philosophy, like education has transformed into a bastardized version of what it truly is. When I was young, I was reading many books on philosophy, Bertrand Russell mostly, and others. While they were enjoyable and edifying, it was so far from the style of philosophy that I saw as important. When I first discovered actualized.org, I realized what I had been searching for. The seeker finally arrives to the place he was seeking. It felt like I stumbled on a gold mine that I always knew existed. I may have stumbled upon it, but I was no stranger to this land. The simple topics, such as "what is perception" "the counter-intuitive nature of life" "65 core principles to live the good life" is what constitutes as the core of philosophy for me. Current and modern philosophers alike, while their work was still impressive and interesting, they fell into the classic trap of not seeing the forest for the trees. Their work is dense, complicated, rambling, and in the end, leaves one with a feeling of being purely inside one's head. In other words, mental masturbation. After ejaculation, you kinda feel like "that was nice I guess". A funny story I read in a book was that a philosopher was looking into the sky and thinking deeply while walking, and someone tripped him to teach him the lesson not to let thinking distract him for being. Alain de Button, although he has problems, was the first to introduce to Michele de Montaigne, who unlike many other philosophers spoke of the relevant problems of what it means to be human. This is what I was looking for. The conception of what is a philosopher in our culture is the bearded old man, endlessly pontificating on questions which are irrelevant to the "real world". While some of this judgment is misplaced, I can totally understand why. It is somewhat true. Philosophy is not only relevant to the real world, I just don't see any other way you can even understand what the real world is without it. Let alone what isn't or is relevant to it. Philosophy is the antidote to so many of what ails us as a culture. To the most relevant problems of today. Such as not falling for misinformation, of understanding oneself, of living the good life, of what to value, how to find your life purpose, etc. Is it the only thing you need? Of course not. But it is a great foundation to have. In my own life, when I started thinking like a philosopher by questioning things like my religion and trying to understand what truth is, a radical transformation in my psychology ensued. Philosophy changed my psychology more than reading about psychology did. Powerful stuff. I got so many things wrong at first, but that only added to my understanding of what truth IS NOT, hence what truth IS. Not just theoretical understanding, but also experiential understanding of how I thought this was true when it was not. Like I said, it's not the only tool. Philosophy, psychology, self-help and spirituality synergize greatly. Add on top of that understanding health/nutrition, business, and sprinkle some basic understanding of general science, politics, history, etc. You have a potent formula for success. Your mind becomes multi-dimensional, you can feel how different your thought process is now compared to before you embarked on this journey. Night and day. Now it is not simply "philosophy", it is literally how your mind work. Its modus operandi. Philosophy isn't a subject matter but a way of being, thinking, and living.

Do not ignore the effect of right action saying, "This will come to nothing." Just as by the gradual fall of raindrops the water jar is filled, so in time the wise become replete with good.~ Buddha, Dhammapada Verse 122 'The transformation, though overnight, was never an overnight process. In Chemistry classes we do the acid-base titration experiments. The final drop from the pipette changes the colour of the solution in the beaker. But were not the earlier drops significant? Similarly, righteous living all through life purified me and enabled the overnight transformation.' ~ Rajini Menon

Most of us has spend plenty to time slandering communism and crusading against it. But at the end of day, communism has elevated millions of people from poverty, provided a hedge for countries who were bullied by the western governments, developed nuclear weapons and never used them, literally won the space race, made immense personal sacrifice for others, and they went through suffering, pain and tragedy that a human mind can hardly tolerate. Their art had so much depth since engrained in their in souls were desperately longing for expression and love they deserved but couldn't get due to their circumstances. They are people too who were stuck with the decisions made by a few assholes and that doesn't make them our enemy. Here you can post anything you find intriguing or positive about the great powers of the East and the radical transformation they have made.

It's impossible to compare practices given by a guru and those from a book. There is no book in the universe that could give you what a guru plants in a student energetically. So there's nothing to compare. And practices given by a guru are not the important part. It is the seed planted that is the important part, and the practices are there just to nurture that seed. And as the seed grows, transformation happens of a very profound levels. On book yoga you have no such seed to nurture. But it's still useful in a way. There are things you can achieve with it aswell. But it's impossible to compare these two forms of practice. The nature of practice is very different. Although there could be some common elements.

@Leo Gura You can say that many who initially supported or joined the Nazi party might have identified with conservative values. However, the Nazi ideology itself, as it unfolded, was far from conservative in the traditional sense. It sought radical transformation of society. This radicalism far exceeded any conservative inclination toward preserving existing social orders.

From my research everything started as a Spiritual Practice or path of sorts, then it got organized and become more about Belief than One's personal Experience, then with Organization and Belief as the standard things get political and Religion is born. Now some may say that the larger Spiritual Org's look exactly the same, in some ways they are, but those places maybe more about popularity and bringing in more $$ than Spirituality in its truest form... With practices and yoga and such, in my experience it not about faith, I don't have faith in the practices, I just use them and see what happens, of course for all of this too happen I have to have an Interest and motivation, this is similar to learning good Martial Arts, if you look from the outside it all looks like crap and useless, but when You go indepth with it, and learn from a qualified master then practice it, it works like magic, its the same with High Quality Sadhana and Yoga methods, this is not the same as rituals where the ppl just go in, do something with no mindfulness or intention and then leave the place/ritual and no transformation is taking place, its like ppl driving to work on the same route everyday they lose focus and awareness of what is going on around them...

Time for Healing and The Justice of Love I felt a bit hesitant making cacao this morning after enduring an all night run to the bathroom the night before, but I took the risk. And now I feel amazing, it’s time to receive the gifts of love, joy and healing. Maestra gave me four plants this morning, after I drank cacao and told me to prepare them, by pounding and crushing, and then mixing them up in a big jar of water to drink during the entire day. These four plants are – pachamamita, piñon blanco, albaca blanca and albaca brasileña. I have been drinking this concoction and feeling these plants working on and healing my body, especially around the solar plexus area. I feel like cacao, being the connector and heart opening medicine, is working in synergy with these plants, connecting me to them on a deeper and amplified level. I am crying tears of joy and gratitude as i feel these plants working on my body. I am also feeling immense gratitude for Maestra, she genuinely wants to help me and I feel respected and cared by her. I finally have my strategic alliance that I have been looking for in the USA for about 21 months since I came out of hell. That I wasn’t able to find, despite my best efforts, because people aren’t ready for the kind of power, life, love, joy, light and Truth that I embody. Well, I am definitely in the right place now, where I feel respected, supported, loved and genuinely cared for. When I came here to AyaMadre, about three weeks ago, I roared like a lion and bear during the Ayahuasca ceremony, laughed ecstatically, and crowed like a rooster, I expressed and showed my power unapologetically, without holding back. Maestra approached me, when I was outside of the Maloka growling, crowing and singing Ayahuasca icaros and told me I am scaring two of the women pasajeros. She recommended that I don’t force anything and that I take a more gentle approach. I told her that I am working with this energy with mastery and demonstrated to her, with my body language, that my mind is very centered. She left me alone after that brief interaction, and I continued with my liberating energetic expression for a few more minutes. What made this ceremony difficult is, I was already sick with the flu, and I tried to heal this sick sensation that I was feeling in my throat by expressing myself energetically during the entire ceremony. Before the ceremony, I was contemplating if I should even drink Ayahuasca while feeling sick and wanted to ask Maestra if I should, but ultimately decided to make my own decision about it to drink and see if Ayahuasca could help me heal this virus I was feeling. I did the best that I could to purge it out, by working with it energetically, and at times it felt like I was purging the sickness and getting better, but in the end I wasn’t able to get rid of it in this way. What I am immensely grateful for is Maestra’s genuine willingness to help me and her faith and courage in the goodness of me and my power, after that ceremony. I have endured much disrespect, fear, envy, games, lies and manipulations trying to forge a strategic alliance with people in the USA, being the best that I could, given the circumstances of me being in a sacred process of transformation of embodying the power of love and waking up to the greatness and Truth of who I am as Jesus Christ. People in the United States, chose their survival game over love and Truth. People are horrified of the power of love and Truth because they are mostly dead. So now that I am embodying the power of love, all the gratitude and love goes to Maestra Estella, her entire family and AyaMadre. It takes a woman as powerful and experienced as her, the only known woman to have her own Ayahuasca healing center among shipibo, to trust and have courage in the power of love that I am embodying. She is the one that I have been looking for who will help me in this delicate and sacred process of embodying love, life, light, joy, Truth, alchemizing all darkness of death that I have endured back into the light. We finally figured out how to send my payment to Maestra’s bank account so the construction of my house with the kitchen, bathroom and shower should begin soon, which will take an estimated 25 days to construct. I have one full year to heal and embody the Truth that I know here at AyaMadre with Maestra’s and her family’s help and the help of mother nature, plants and Ayahuasca.

My I-Ching reading today. A part of it anyway. Hexagram 3 Line 5. Difficulties in blessing. A little perseverance brings good fortune. Great perseverance brings misfortune. Here, the difficulties encountered refer to the retreat of the Sage that occurs when the ego takes over a person's work on developing himself. The ego hopes, through ambitious and pious work, to be recognized by the Sage as "spiritual." The meaning of "a little perseverance" is to approach liberating the true self with modesty. This means not to forget to live one's life joyfully. The ego, in its striving, would drive the person to ascetic extremes and deprivations. This is the meaning of "great perseverance brings misfortune." The problem with the idea of "being spiritual" is that it contains all the self-flattery that maintains the ego as leader of the personality.It further divides a person's true nature into a higher and lower self, splitting his wholeness and placing spells on what is believed to be his"lower,"" or animal nature. Accepting this idea creates a fate, which is usually that of illness. This line can also indicate a person whose progress is blocked due to mistaken beliefs about the purpose of human life. It can refer to human-centered beliefs such as: "I have to do it all, "humans are the representatives of heaven on earth, "humans are responsible for making everything work," and "for creating order in the world." Such difficulties in blessing can be erased if he asks the Sage to help him rid himself of these mistaken beliefs. This will engage the Helper of Transformation to remove the blocks created by these phrases in his inner program.

The end-goal isn't a materialistic outcome though. It isn't making more of a difference to promote an intellect-oriented focus on non-duality and 100s of videos repeating the same things. Having a profound crown level experience of reality, talking about it for 1000s of hours and reversing the experience of formlessness to form due to the nature of substances is not a more holistic approach, it is reversing the nature of spiritual progress because stimulants still limit things outside of the experiences they induce (they're not sattvic) After experiencing Isha's practices and 5-MeO-DMT years prior it is very clear to me that substances come with detrimental, limiting effects. Holistic transformation requires activity on all levels, physical yoga is a means to an end and you have to cater to materialism to some degree in a relative, materialistic world If you stepped outside of this and attended any Isha event you would easily grasp any of what Isha, or what Sadhguru subtly imparts into the world asides from any experiential realizations wrought by 5-MeO-DMT This article propounds upon the place that non-duality and a crown level of spirituality has in the world, there are realizations to be had outside of this which are related to purifying grosser aspects so that your progress is grounded and not limited to the "highest" levels of experience Instead of sharing an opinion just for the sake of having one, it would be helpful to experience some of what Isha has taught outside of any first impressions from videos or articles. Through classical Hatha yoga or any of the yoga that Isha teaches you'd experience something similar, your sleep quota going down is related to how at ease your body is and its connection to the larger body, Hatha yoga is about aligning yourself with the sun and the moon and achieving a level of physical rapport with the rest of existence. Hatha yoga is not exclusive to Isha either, but it isn't unexpected that this community has a limited understanding of the importance of yoga in our day and age There is an exhaustive list of things that this forum do not understand due to the nature of spiritual progress through substances, crystallizing yourself here is a mistake and I'd urge every single one of you to experience anything that Isha has to offer first and foremost. One easy topic to extrapolate with is sex, if you're experiencing a level of subtlety of body by working at and purifying things through any potent Hatha yoga or any requiring initiation such as in Isha's, you'd connect the dots in articles like this - https://isha.sadhguru.org/en/wisdom/article/body-memories-washing-of-runanubandha, explaining the body's accumulation of memory and the detrimental effects of promiscuity There are many dimensions to spirituality outside of non-dual experiences of oneness, love and God, and we require the grounding of purificatory practices that deal with very real aspects of our subtle physiology like the five elements (bhuta shuddhi), the pranic/genetic body (hatha yoga) and further to nothingness or shoonya, to apply our non-dual experiences and understandings to the rest of the world in a holistic light

@Buck EdwardsYou also have to realize that just about everything in life is that way. It's all about perception. Anything that is perceivable will have it's challenges and differences of opinions. We are all looking at Reality through different lenses and it depends on the type of lens you're looking through. If you're looking through tainted lens, you will view what you're looking at as tainted. Yes, these lens can change their colors but it still depends on the state of consciousness one is in that will determine the transformation. You are like a projector and are projecting from within unto without. That's how consciousness and awareness works. It's impossible to be any other way. If you change what's within, what's without has no choice but to also change. That change is also going to be interpreted by a limited mind blinded by it's conditionings and programming. There are going to be upsides and downsides TO EVERYTHING. Yin and yang. What you focus on you expand so if you're focused on the downsides, you'll become aware of more downsides, not forgetting that it's the mind that is determining either sides and not the truth. We cannot escape these polarities as long as we see ourselves as a separate entity who is in a world that is apart from us. Everywhere you go you're there and there's nothing on the outside that determines what you see when you look, it is always coming from the lens you're viewing from.

How could we approach real personal transformation or change? Can your attempts at "resolving" yourself, or life, ever be effective? For instance, feeling inadequate, you might pursue strength, popularity, or wealth to pacify inner lack - hoping these will "fix" you. I’m not disparaging such efforts but pointing us toward investigating their motives. Don’t use doubt to undermine action; instead, do what you want, but clarify why. It’s like being blind and - wanting to recover your sight - going about changing your surroundings. This analogy reveals how we address only superficial manifestations, leaving intact the very conditions that source our struggles. What recurring challenges do I encounter? What’s the root of this condition?

Coaching is all about transformation. If you can do the transformation yourself you don't need a coach. Sometimes something else might be necessary for that transformation other than coaching. Or coaching can be an additional aspects in your transformation. Coaches tend to cater to people with higher income. Just because those people will pay more for the same coaching as someone who is unemployed for example. So in that regard they could be seen as overpriced.

6 Million views in 12 hrs, Powerful Event, Powerful people, Powerful Time for Transformation...Last Years Event some 140 million+ viewed and/or participated, one of the largest Spiritual Events in history...MahaShivRatri 2024 Livestream with Sadhguru @ Isha Yoga Center | 8 Mar, 6 PM 11+hrs of footage, Enjoy!!

An insightful article by Anthony Strano of the Prajapita Brahmakumaris on the cyclical nature of time as emphasized by the ancient Greek, Roman and Indian philosophies. Anthony Strano was the Director of the Prajapita Brahmakumaris in Greece, and studied religion and philosophy at the University of Sydney. https://aboutbrahmakumaris.org/time-and-transformation/ One of the core teachings of the Prajapita Brahmakumaris is the reality of eternal recurrence. What has happened will continue to happen an infinite number of times, due to the cyclical nature of time. This is also echoed in the ancient Indian, Roman, Greek, Egyptian, Hebrew (Ecclesiastes),Mayan and Aztec philosophies as well. The nineteenth century philosophy Friedrich Nietzche also held this concept of "eternal recurrence" central in his writings. Hindu philosophy states that there are four yugas or ages in nature charecterising human civilization as well. They are the Satya Yuga (Golden Age), Treta Yuga (silver age), Dwapara Yuga (Bronze Age) and Kali Yuga (Iron Age). The Roman Ovid (43 BC – 17/18AD), in his poem “Metamorphoses”, wrote of the four ages of human civilization. Similarly the Greek writer Hesiod in his 800 line epic poem called Works and Days, tells about the five ages of man(Golden, Silver, Bronze, Heroic and Iron Age). In Europe, the concept fell into disuse until it reemerged with the Italian Renaissance which rediscovered ancient Roman and Greek thought and was further invigorated by Nietzche's own writings based on it.

@StarStruck It really just depends on if you're a good fit for what the coach can offer and what kind of results a particular coach can help you get.... and if those results are worth the money to you. I'm a coach, and many of my clients have told me that I've totally changed their lives. Lots of times this is intangible stuff... like getting rid of anxiety or letting go of certain hang-ups or shifting paradigms. But I've had more tangible results too... including one client who transformed his business into a multi-million dollar business after I helped him face the core reasons why he was self-sabotaging his success. And I've (as a coaching client) taken business coaching courses that have made me back SIGNIFICANTLY more than what I've paid. For example, I paid $3k for one business coaching course... which I've turned around to make around $70k (and counting) from. And I recently completed a coaching course that I paid a little over a grand for, and upon completing it, I was able to make about twice that much immediately upon implementing it. So, it's already paid for itself. I've also attended Somatic Healing group coaching events (which weren't too expensive) that have created a lot of inner transformation for me in terms of feeling and understanding my feelings... and having insights come to the surface that I was previously unaware of. And that was priceless.

My First Shaktipat Poem My guru is unknown my guru is one of my own I look for answers. I pray for understanding My guru's energy is what I look up to Here my heart is fully open to receive Your sacred transmission Waiting when my soul takes flight On a beautiful journey of transformation I might stumble, I might fall But Guru's energy is what keeps me going on Life is full of twists and turns But Guru's energy can never let me burn Your energy is my light, my fire Talk to me through your eyes Send me your thoughts and prayers Give me your mantra, awaken my Kundalini my guru You're the only one that is always true Give me tivra tivra saktipata my loving guru So I'm purified and united with the divine

The transformation has been pretty incredible. I think many in the west or EU look at some of his tactics as strongman or “dictator”, which there are some arguments for, and would not work in most countries… but citizens seem to love him (85% approval) and he was just elected to second term. Most media seems to dislike him. im interested to see how he shapes policy now that they have the violence under control. Time will tell.

One of the wisest insights about Islam is the concept of "Tawhid," which refers to the oneness of God. Tawhid is not merely a theological abstraction but a profound philosophical and spiritual principle that underlies the entire Islamic worldview. It encapsulates several layers of wisdom: Absolute Oneness: Tawhid asserts the absolute oneness and uniqueness of God. This principle is a foundation of Islamic monotheism, emphasizing that there is no deity worthy of worship except Allah. It goes beyond a mere acknowledgment of a singular God and encompasses the idea that God is indivisible, incomparable, and beyond human comprehension. Unity in Diversity: Tawhid teaches that everything in the universe is connected to the divine and originates from the same source. It fosters a sense of unity among all of creation, transcending divisions based on race, ethnicity, and nationality. The wisdom lies in recognizing diversity as part of a unified creation and understanding that all are equal before the one God. Personal Transformation: Tawhid is not just a theological concept but a transformative principle that shapes the believer's worldview and behavior. It inspires ethical conduct, justice, and compassion, reminding believers that their actions should reflect the oneness of God. The wisdom lies in the idea that understanding Tawhid leads to a profound transformation of character and moral consciousness. Unity of Knowledge and Faith: Tawhid harmonizes knowledge and faith. It encourages Muslims to seek knowledge and understanding of the world while maintaining a strong connection with their faith. This integration of intellectual curiosity and spiritual grounding reflects a holistic approach to life, fostering a balanced and enlightened worldview. Humility and Submission: Tawhid instills a sense of humility and submission to the divine will. Recognizing the oneness of God implies acknowledging human limitations and submitting to God's wisdom. The wisdom lies in understanding that true success and fulfillment come through surrendering to the greater purpose of life. In essence, the concept of Tawhid encapsulates profound insights that extend beyond theology into the realms of philosophy, ethics, and personal development. It serves as a guiding principle for Muslims, emphasizing a holistic understanding of existence and encouraging a life that reflects the unity and oneness of God. sourced from ai

What you call delusional here are higher states of consciousness you never accessed. And with psychedelics it's also all about transformation. Yes psychedelics can make you delusional sometimes. However you cannot get deluded so strong with yoga as with psychedelics because yoga is weaker for most people. Weaker methods have weaker potential for delusions. If you don't want delusions, try 5 Meo DMT or 5 Meo malt. It's the purest one.

I plan to someday, but in the end its just an experience, its the drug causing a certain experience, not sure why you all here don't realize that, take one drug and it gives You this sort of experience, take another it changes, as Leo has described in his video..As well many have had just as intense experiences with a proper Yoga practice as with any psychedelic, your making a huge assumption... Sadhguru does share methods that work for the masses, but at the least its Real, not like here where You believe in imaginary this and that, its actually quite Delusional, and can lead to a unhealthy life and outlook...The further You go into it the more intense practices there are., plus its not about he practices, its about the Transformation that happens, Peaceful, Mindful, Conscious Human Beings are the result, not ideological and delusional ones...

Again, my contention isn't that the absolute isn't absolute. It can't be experienced as it isn't an experience, it's the word we use. Relative phenomenon appear to us in distinct forms, depending on what we're talking about. An experience of an emotion isn't the same as an experience of an object, for example. A hug isn't a hunch, etc. Absolute doesn't imply insight into the relative. That's why, if other things such as skill or transformation are desired, there's more work to do besides enlightenment. Gautama might have not been a masterful cook. Then grasp how it's being imagined, to what degree, and how it's done and lived. Acknowledge and master it as it is experienced. This is an answer about what's true. It's the same principle: self-survival. What drive is pushing you? What is surviving? Distinction isn't limited to language, though. It is that you experience what you do. Uniqueness may occur conceptually as self does. Given that, the self dynamic can also be said to operate similarly as any other distinction. Uniqueness is a subset of a perceived "self", entity or object. Is distinction conceptual, and viceversa, though? Have to look into it. Everything might be nothing, yet our experience of life is unlike that. Completely transcending self, suffering, life and death is unlikely and rare. Ultimately, we don't know anything and therefore must remain open. Enlightenment is a good first step. Tried to come up with an analogy: Electricity is foundational to a computer's operation. It sources and is present throughout all of the computer processes, hardware and software. The experience of using a PC (managing apps, writing, editing videos, playing games, customizing the GUI) are forms of electricity while at the same time they show up in particular ways which are experienced as different from each other. In this analogy, for example: What are hardware and software? What's writing a book? This would be the equivalent of investigating the relative. Something like that.

I don't harbor a specific or intellectual fear towards the experience. It's more about the sheer intensity of it all—there's an overwhelming amount of energy involved, accompanied by profound moments of astonishment and exhilaration. It's an experience filled with unexpected revelations and a rollercoaster of emotions that's hard to articulate. However, there's a nuanced fear related to the journey towards discovering my authentic self, especially after having built an entire life and family around what feels like an inauthentic version of me now. The prospect of embracing my true self holds the promise of greater joy and fulfillment for me personally. Yet, I'm acutely aware that this transformation might come at a cost to those around me, as they adjust to the changes it entails. This path of self-discovery and its impact on others is reminiscent of the journey undertaken by Martin Ball. It's a complex balance between personal evolution and the potential repercussions on my loved ones.