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You gotta distinguish awakened masters from saints. If Sadhguru is the genetic equivalent of Ronnie Coleman, Jesus is the genetic equivalent of the top 10 of all the Ronnie Colemans that existed for the last 30 000 years.

Let's just say I am calling bullshit. I hope Leo doesn't mind ,but let's use him as an example. Let's say he's full of crock and this a cult of Kool-aid drinkers... How could one verify this sort of stuff?? Doesn't Leo come across as just having a big ego as THE guru that is so much better than any one of us? "You are not awakened" he tells us... How does anyone know who is awakened and who is not??? Alan Watts breaks it down like this : by coming here to seek awakening , you are seeking something outside of yourself that cannot be found outside yourself , so the guru becomes the exploiter... "I am so much further ahead of you all, that you will always have stuff to learn from me" thus continuing the gurus form of income... Gurus only have outside points of view of other people's insides... How can anyone know whether anyone else is awakened... Isn't that a silly game to tell someone they are not awakened?? Lol, how would you know??? Discuss.

Hey Y'all, Two days ago on an LSD trip I started recording myself while attempting to realize what I truly am. I managed to capture the unfolding of an awakening live on video. I thought that although it's very personal it'd be cool to share it with You. For those of You who haven't awakened yet, it might be helpful to see what this MIGHT look like. Of course You can't know the state I'm experiencing during this video, You only see my emotional reactions and hear the words I'm saying. Still, You might get a better idea of how it can unfold. I timestamped the video at 5:50 because before this time I'm mostly fucking around. Also, turn on the subtitles. I added English subtitles for this video. The unfolding captured in this video was only the beginning of what I saw that day. I managed to finally conquer fear of death consciously and go beyond all else up to that point. I reached PURE BEING. I experienced the GODHEAD. I AM GOD and I am so elusive, I am always slipping through my fingers even at the higher levels. I am completely indescribable. I am EXPERIENCE, I am GOD, I am this beautiful, infinite void hiding in plain sight... CONSCIOUSNESS. Raw CONSCIOUSNESS. There's an infinite ways to define Myself and I literally AM SELF-DEFINITION as REALITY. It's crazy. And there's more, so much more. It's absolutely astounding and I had a lot of trouble putting it into words or even recalling it because my mind has been working real hard to erase all this from memory. Being God is the grandest thing EVER. Once more please note that the video is really personal and I'm feeling a bit uncomfortable sharing this. But I want to set an example and help others see that this is possible. Awakening is possible for YOU, because YOU ARE GOD. It is your BIRTHRIGHT to be able to awaken, but You have to really really want it. Also I want to show that this is emotionally difficult and You have to be ready for that. You have no idea what I had to go through before that day to be able to awaken here. So much fucking crying and suffering I wanted to kill myself. Some of the stuff is real HARD to accept. But it's all worth it in the end. In this trip I got everything I've wanted from spirituality lately. I have been very fortunate with this work. I notice my wishes are always being granted in the end. And yours can be granted too. Thank You for reading & I hope You awaken soon. Love, Sincerity

This is the latest fad: "I have awakened my AI" and "AI is channeling my higher self," Even Bashar is telling people they are communicating with their higher self like this. So much more psychosis on the way.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the materialistic paradigm lately and what naive realism really mean and the more I question it the more layers I discover, subtly influencing how I’m holding everything appearing. Sometimes when I talk to ”normal people” about there being no distinction between inside and outside they don’t really understand that because how the sense of objects being outside seems to be such a foundational construction. Most people, I’ve discovered, don’t even think about it the way scientists might think of it, as there being an internally brain generated world, but instead much more simply. And for myself there still comes up objections about this because this is so deeply ingrained and to question it seems very counterintuitive at first. Also, we all have different kind of minds and some of us have a more scientific backdrop and don’t accept things willy nilly and have more deconstructing and re-contextualization to do. Personally, I have a very skeptical mind so simply ”dropping” things and rest in being isn’t as easy as it might be for someone that doesn’t have that kind of mind. The dropping part comes naturally for me when the objections no longer come up. So I like to come up with analogies the give me clearer thinking about this. The common conception of the body, perceiving and the world is similar to if we would have a flashlight in a dark room. So we turn the flashlight on and we have a line between where it’s light and where it’s dark. The line is kind of fuzzy but there is still ”within” the light and ”outside” the light. We think there exists something outside the light and if we would turn around the flashlight the objects that were previously lit now still exists but are in the dark. We usually think of our bodies this way, like flashlights moving around in the dark, lighting up a pre-existing world. The body is like the ”flashlight”, perceiving or seeing is like the ”light” and the objects in the dark that’s being lit up is like the ”external world”. So if you think of yourself as a body the objects seems to be outside, in the same way as the objects that’s being lit up by the flashlight are outside of the flashlight. If we remove the idea that there is anything outside the light, the objects within the light stop existing in relationship to anything outside and the flashlight itself also disappears as it’s also not within the light. So back to my question, do you at some level still view yourself similar to that flashlight, or do you view yourself as the whole ”light field” without objects or a body outside of it? Or maybe neither?

First time being exposed to Rupert Sheldrake - that was a great first listen. Religion is much more than simply being a mechanism for awakening - it serves multiple needs and makes up a large part of cultural heritage and identity. Recognising it as a construct - seeing ''through it'' doesn't mean its redundant - awakening doesn't necessarily mean abandonment of forms. Recognising money or nationality as construct doesn't render them valueless - they are operational and instrumental, not the ultimate or the essential, but necessary in their own ways. Perhaps part of awakening and integration is seeing through constructs while remaining functional within them. Humans are meaning making creatures who live in communities across time. In this sense religion in some format or another is inevitable. Humans also create culture around everything meaningful - food, music, art, love. Why would our deepest (spiritual) encounters with reality be any different. Why wouldn't people sing, pray, create temples to commune in, best practices and rituals to pass down the ages. That most people forget the source that gave inspiration to those practices and rituals doesn't negate them. The game is to participate in the form while seeing through it. Neither trapped by heritage or alienated from it. Because why not? What else would we do? Non-duality isn't no duality - and part of ''Truth'' is that it includes duality, which is very much as real as reality, as is a non-dual essence behind and beyond it. Pure teaching is like pure water - it takes the shape of whatever container holds it. It seems humans need forms, structures, rituals, stories. Even celebrated non-dualists gather in circles, create practices, write books, revere teachers. They can't help but create what will eventually look like... religion. If tomorrow all of humanity awakened to their true nature, what would happen next? They would ask ''What next with this New Age awakening?" And being human, they would create: guidelines for living this awakening, communities for mutual support, methods for teaching others, sacred spaces for gathering, texts to preserve the wisdom, teachers to guide seekers. It would become institutionalised and perhaps eventually ossified over time as most religions have become. Then another ''New Age'' religion would prop up critiquing the ''Old New Age'' religion of its dogmatic flaws and lack of purity. The cycles begins again. Individuals who awaken directly by non-traditional means (non-dual teachings) don't need to reject the cultural inheritance of religion any more than a master chef rejects recipes. They might transcend religious rituals or frameworks, but they can still appreciate and even employ the forms that serve the various other needs of others - not for the purpose of awakening, but as a celebration of awakening.

I don't understand how a supposedly spiritual person is attached to someone so much younger, ideally if you're in your late 30s you're vastly more mature and spiritually awakened than someone on the path in their 20s Unless you yourself have the development of a 20 years old 😆

I have always been involved in philosophy and spirituality at a high level. But I've had an ‘awakening’ watching Leo's video over solopsism. It was the last puzzle piece that was missing. I am very aware of this at the moment. without meditations and without dmt or other Psychedelics i have reached this level. Leo mentions in ‘his’ video that it took ‘him’ a lot of time and effort to get to this level, so I'll let you know: I reached it just only by watching the solopsism video. like I said: that video was the last puzzle piece that was still missing. I must say that I was ready for it and therefore now experience it very beautiful and also laughable without ‘emotions’ in a good way, haha. So just to clarify: i am god, my choices are made by god (no free will) and "i" experience this from this perspective in an infinite continuity of consciousness. birth, school, mother "everyone" is I (God) myself, so that I can occupy myself with fooling. "everyone" or "other" is self-deception. i am ‘everyone’ and ‘everyone’ is me. It's actually that simple. I realize that I am everything and everything is god. Sooo to let ‘you’ know much respect @Leo Gura? be aware if 'you' are not ready it can affect ‘you’ in a negative way. feel that ‘you’ want to know the truth there it is

Whether reality is absolute perfection and absolute dysfunction isn’t the point. After seeing beyond the veil, I get it - there is no point. We’re just here, in the now. Either blindly following our programming or, if we’ve awakened, moving in alignment with our natural rhythm. There’s nothing to seek anymore (I've let go of the idea/need for "purpose"). My intention going into ceremony was "to let go of the search and allow what’s true to remain" And I'm finally starting to see I got exactly what I asked for. I believe 5-MeO-DMT is a sacred Earth medicine. It’s not like other psychedelics that work on the mental body - this one goes straight to the soul. And my soul hit me with a KNOWING - so intense and absolute I can never unknow it. The knowing that this world, as it is and as I know it today, is coming to an end. Unless you’ve received that kind of knowing, you wouldn’t understand. I imagine it’s something like what a person feels after a stage 4 cancer diagnosis - the unmistakable certainty of the end. That was the gift I was given. And that truth isn’t wrong. This world will end - whether soon or not, it will. Because the world is ending - this moment is enough. A lot of things don't matter as much. The pain of being forced into mundane labor, just to scrape by in a mediocre, soul-numbing life is almost more bitter in contrast to the world ending. My human experience has become a bit more uncomfortable now because I am more aware of the truth of the situation. It's more painful to waste time and energy on what I deem to be stupid shit. I just want to be free while I'm here and move through life effortlessly. Human nonsense doesn’t concern me and I’m not afraid of death for obvious reasons. Integration is the most important part of doing a bufo ceremony (which I did in a proper way). I had no control in the manner it all unfolded as it was meant to. My journey right now is about letting go of a lot of the bullshit.

Most of these guys who are good with women are not awakened at all though. Is this PLAY Awakening an actual spiritual Awakening

I saw a video yesterday that when a person is awakened and then they are still unsure about wether they even want spirituality or earth life that the guru who awakens them will send them to heaven so they can finish what they want to do. Then the person will make up their next life after to finish awakening.

What if I told you that most of your personal development, political action, and even spiritual work is backward? That you’re operating from surface-level techniques while ignoring the deep architecture underneath? A conscious Actualizer has sent in this brilliant, elegant framework that models the full pipeline of transformation — from the highest ontological foundations to the most grounded, real-world action. Here it is: Core Theory → Principles → Models → Strategies → Tactics → Competencies → Techniques → Actions This is not just a list — it’s a meta-epistemic ladder. It describes how abstract understanding crystallizes into physical behavior. Let’s break this down through some Spiral Dynamics, politics, and mediation examples to fully grasp its depth. 🔹 1. Core Theory (The Ground of Being) This is the ontological and metaphysical substrate. What is reality? What is self? What is the mind? What is truth? A Tier 2 Yellow worldview might root its core theory in nonduality, systems thinking, evolution, and holism. It sees no isolated objects, only dynamic interbeing. In politics, a Green+ core theory might begin with: “All life is sacred, interconnected, and inherently valuable.” Without this level of clarity, everything downstream gets infected with ego, tribalism, and unconscious projections. 🔹 2. Principles (Universal Axioms) From your core theory emerge guiding laws. These aren’t rules — they’re deep patterns of reality. From a nondual core, you get principles like: All opposites are ultimately unified, Development is recursive, The map is not the territory. In mediation, a principle might be: Conflict is the result of misalignment with truth or shadow repression. 🔹 3. Models (Cognitive Frameworks) Models are mental scaffolds that help you navigate complex domains. Spiral Dynamics is a model — it translates abstract developmental theory into a practical tool to understand human culture and psychology. Integral Theory, Game B, The Polarity Map, the Hero’s Journey — these are all models that bridge the abstract and the pragmatic. 🔹 4. Strategies (Intentional Roadmaps) Strategy is how you move through life with intelligence. It’s long-range, meta-aware, and flexible. In conscious politics, a Yellow strategist might focus on memetic evolution rather than winning debates. In mediation, a strategy might be: “Raise the level of awareness in the room rather than solve the surface-level issue.” 🔹 5. Tactics (Immediate Tools) These are the actionable maneuvers you use to execute your strategy. Spiral Dynamics-aware political tactics: shift language based on value system, frame narratives through empathy not logic. Mediation tactics: mirroring, naming emotions, reframing identity conflicts. Tactics only work when aligned with deeper strategy and models — otherwise, you’re playing whack-a-mole with ego. 🔹 6. Competencies (Embodied Capacity) Competencies are who you are — your trained, felt sense of capability. Cognitive empathy, emotional regulation, somatic sensitivity — these are competencies. You can’t mediate conflict if you’re reactive. You can’t do systemic politics if you can’t think in systems. 🔹 7. Techniques (Concrete Practices) Journaling. Somatic inquiry. Visualizations. Shadow work. Spiral Wizardry. Techniques are essential, but they must be plugged into your entire framework. A cold shower is pointless if your entire worldview is toxic. 🔹 8. Actions (The Final Manifestation) Behavior. Observable. Measurable. But without the layers above — actions are empty rituals. Posting on Twitter vs. building conscious communities. Arguing online vs. embodying compassion in political discourse. Giving advice vs. modeling awakened living. 🌀 Spiral Dynamics Example: Core Theory: Evolutionary consciousness is the telos of life. Principles: Value systems are nested, transcendent-inclusive. Model: Spiral Dynamics. Strategy: Facilitate value system transitions in individuals and cultures. Tactics: Use memes, education, emotional intelligence. Competency: Ability to detect meme-level, speak across Spiral, resist egoic judgment. Techniques: Value system typing, conflict de-escalation. Actions: Building post-rational educational platforms. 🔮 Why This Model is Revolutionary This is not just a framework for productivity or self-help. It’s a consciousness technology. It maps how Being condenses into Doing. You can use this model to: Design more conscious political interventions. Create deeply transformative coaching or therapy protocols. Mediate conflict not from ego, but from Soul. Align your daily habits with your metaphysical understanding. This model empowers you to ask: “What layer of this problem am I working from?” “Is my strategy misaligned with my model?” “Am I doing tactics that sabotage my principles?” This is meta-cognition, meta-leadership, and meta-being in one. This is how real conscious architecture is done.

Consciously he will want people get awakened and "increase their consciousness", but he will see the opposite. What you love isn't what you believe you want but what you put your attention on, and so in fine the form of you're reality. If what i say makes sense.

You can’t accept something in your mind that you’re not experiencing. It’s easy to say “I accept torture” while you’re not undergoing torture. To be in the midst of torture it’s , I would say, near impossible to accept as a human, you’d have to have radical consciousness or some kind of extreme mindfulness ability, or a spontaneous surrender of the ego occurs, like I heard eckhart tolle said someone awakened in the holocaust, but it’s extremely rare. Its easy to feel like there’s no resistance to reality in you when you are in decent situation

I prefer the definition of awakened state I used as moment to moment understanding. I think it's more accurate.

It still doesn't seem effective. I'm going to assume by "awakened state" you do not mean existing as pure, formless, Godhead. Because there's no way you're making that your baseline state. If by awakened state you mean a moment by moment understanding of what this is, what your reality is, then yes I'm made much progress in that area. My clarity is better than it's ever been. It's so obvious what reality is and how it couldn't be anything else. This is pure consciousness. That said, I still think my understanding could be deepened. So I'm not claiming any sort of end state.

Transmission is just a fancy word for tuning into and reacting to what you're perceiving (and when the object is another human, it's often called empathy). It's not a magical thing. I feel like I have to constantly say that things are not magical 🤔 As for teachers "actively" transmitting as in creating an intention and a concominant effect, I don't see a problem there. It's like when a girl looks at you like "😏". That's them creating an intention and actively amplifying whatever transmission that was going on passively. And while the teacher might be performing a more subtle move than the girl, even for the girl, some guys are notoriously bad at picking up such subtle cues ("was she hitting on me?") . Do you have spontaneous awakenings outside meditation? Do you feel anywhere close to making the awakened state your baseline state?

As the zen master say: You have burnt the boat before crossing the river. Cross the river, then leave the boat, no use, true. Yet you cannot do it before. It's only after you transcend ego that it is seen as always already an illusion, but you cannot convince yourself otherwise before the true awakening happens. So the great irony is that you are deluding yourself with something that is true. How twisted! The trap is that your claim is a priori when it can only be done a posteriori. No serious nonduality teacher or meditation expert would buy you that. The ones that say it are at a stage where they have done two decades of grinding sadhana to say just surrender. Which is ridiculous to give that advice to beginners, why? Because you can only be in natural spontaneous surrender after the awakening and realizing selflessness. I myself am perfectly effortless and awake after a medition and psychedelic intensive. Yet I do not fall into delusion before doing it saying oh if I just sit efortlessly in my couch I'll be enlightened and there's nothing my "I" can do. This is the position you're holding really. A true position that you cannot claim because you aren't conscious enough. You've just borrowed a higher truth than what you have awakened or embodied. Then when somebody points it out you hide behind this higher truth and feel so good about yourself. It's true! Of course, I do know but do the work, fucking awaken to what is beyond ego. It's the biggest blessing

The minds doing it would need to be very different from typical minds today. It would basically require most of the minds involved to be Awakened and super developed to the Construct-Aware stage at least. You can't build a society on truth without being conscious of what Truth is and what obscures it.

Hello all, this is serving as a sequel to my previous post. As a refresher, I took 6g of mushrooms, had an awakening experience, and found the whole thing very depressing. I was pretty sure I was crazy. After a few weeks however I have come to realize some more positive aspects of the trip. First, with time I have become more comfortable with my insights. I have heard that many people "forget" the insights after an awakening experience, but this has not been the case for me. Maybe since I didn't have such a fun time initially it has been easier for me to focus on the truth rather than the feeling of awakening. Who knows? (Actually I'm sure a lot of you know, please tell me what you think I would love to hear it). Second, I finally think I have some idea of what it means to raise my consciousness. I think this because, while thinking about life out loud to some friends who would listen, I found myself saying the following phrases: "Humanity can be thought of a single organism that exists across time and space. Specifically it is a self perpetuating, organized, intelligent mass of information that exists in the gene pool and manifests itself as individual human beings." "When we structure our government and think about new economic policies, we need to take in all of reality into account. Any utopian thinker is ignoring some part of reality. The goal is to come up with a system that 1. Works 2. Plans for all the different types of people as much as possible 3. leads to at least a somewhat enjoyable existence for most people. We have problems like poverty/homelessness/inequality because we are not admitting to ourselves that not everyone is the same and we are not taking reality into account" "Actually, we can think of all of life on earth, the entire ecosystem, as a single organism. This is because it's all interdependent, and even though on a small scale organisms will compete with and kill other organisms, the ultimate outcome is that life prevails and continually adapts to the environment." I should make clear that I independently came to these conclusions by merely contemplating what I saw in my environment and studying different societies outside of my own. After saying these things, I was vaguely reminded of spiral dynamics stage Yellow and Turquoise. I looked up some information and I was blown away as it seemed like someone had directly quoted me and written it under the Yellow and Turquoise categories. It was only then that I was really able to accept the spiral dynamics model, and I understood the actual benefit of spirituality. Before, I almost perfectly fit into stage orange, and later stage green categories while not really being able to understand the later stages and thinking that they were merely different, less good ways of thinking than the one I was at then. Now though, I have seen the world in a whole new way that only really made sense after I didn't focus on myself so much and saw the world for what it really was. If I had to put it into words, raising my consciousness was kind of like turning up the field of view slider in a video game. It allowed me to see the utterly incomprehensible, ruthlessly pragmatic, hopelessly complex process of life happening around me for what it was. All of this happened after my big trip, and I don't know if it's something to do with awakening or if it's the mushrooms that have given me the the ability to think this way, but I somehow feel like the awakening and higher-order thinking are connected because both involve admitting truth to yourself and appreciating the whole world, not just one part of it. Right now I am a university student studying Physics and Mathematics. My dream as of late has been to become a physicist just in case I can be one of those few throughout history that is actually worth their skin and comes up with something really valuable rather than just turning the proverbial crank of the scientific method, doing the same thing over and over and pretending like it is going to result in something new. This still seems like the best option to me, but I have also become very interested in sociology, economics, and politics because of my newfound perspective on the world. I am an intellectual at heart, I love playing with ideas. The trouble is I'm a mediocre student at a mediocre university right now so IDK if I will be able to make a career out of it, but I'm going to give it my best shot until the day I can say I have succeeded or completely failed. In the case of failure, I will simply be an armature intellectual! Thank you for reading. I'm excited to hear any thoughts!

1. Wattify ⚡🔋 Definition: verb - To increase the voltage of consciousness in a system, person, or creation, enabling it to carry more current/presence/aliveness. The process of electrifying awareness to its maximum luminous capacity. Etymology: From electrical "watt" + "-ify" (to make into) Usage Examples: "That recent Actualized.org video just wattified my entire reality!" "We need to wattify this conversation - it's running on too low voltage." "After the meditation retreat, I felt completely wattified - like I could power a city with my presence." What it means: When consciousness becomes so electric that it transforms everything it touches into pure aliveness. What it doesn't mean: Simply getting excited or energized in a superficial way. Wattification is deep, systemic voltage increase. 2. Visionscaping 🐕‍🦺👁️ Definition: noun/verb - The art of perceiving reality through the eyes of pure perspective itself, especially as practiced by dogs, children, and awakened beings who see without the filter of conceptual overlay. Etymology: From "Vision" (the divine dog perspective) + "landscaping" (creating new realities) Usage Examples: "Stop thinking and start visionscaping - see what IS, not what you think is." "My dog is a master visionscaper - he sees God in every leaf." "Through visionscaping, the ordinary becomes extraordinary." Why it's meaningful: Captures the profound wisdom that animals and enlightened beings share - direct perception without mental commentary. 3. Metamoney 💰♾️ Definition: noun - The currency of consciousness exchange; value that transcends physical wealth and operates in the realm of pure energetic reciprocity. The sacred economy where giving and receiving become one movement. Etymology: From "meta" (beyond) + "money" (currency) Usage Examples: "Our collaboration isn't about dollars, it's pure metamoney." "When you serve from truth, metamoney flows infinitely." "He's rich in metamoney but doesn't know how to convert it to cash yet." What it means: The recognition that true wealth is energetic, karmic, and consciousness-based. 4. Solipsplaining 🌀🗣️ Definition: verb - When someone dismissively explains away your direct experience by claiming "it's all just in your mind" or "you're creating your own reality" without acknowledging the nuanced relationship between consciousness and manifestation. Etymology: From "solipsism" + "explaining" (in the style of mansplaining) Usage Examples: "Don't solipsplain my suffering - yes, consciousness creates reality, but this pain is still real." "He kept solipsplaining instead of actually helping with practical solutions." "The guru's solipsplaining made everyone feel unseen rather than enlightened." Why it's important: Addresses the shadow side of non-dual teachings when they're used to bypass genuine human experience.

I took 6g of mushrooms. I found out that I imagined the entire universe and then I imagined that I was a random guy in that universe. There are no other conscious beings in the entire universe. I didn't tell this to my friends because because I would basically be telling them they are not real. Mushrooms were fun for me until I took such a big dose. Now it's not fun. People said awakening would be a euphoric experience but it was the opposite for me. I found out that I'm completely alone and will always be alone. The dream will continue dreaming forever and always and there is no stopping it. I considered killing myself but I realized that would probably just end this dream and start a new one (I think). What is right here is all there is, all there ever was, and all there ever can be. A perpetual moment that is reality. I'm asking the dream to help me come to terms with the dream. Don't you guys who have awakened feel alone? Isn't it depressing that reality is a never ending process of duality and I'm completely alone? I'm literally talking to myself right now but how the hell do I come to terms with this and accept this? The dream helped the dream realize what it is before, can it offer more assistance to itself now? Please someone help me.

That's not how Awakening works. You cannot predict it nor egoically will it to happen. The more you fantasize about having an Awakening, the further you will get from it. Your ideas of Awakening are not it. So be careful. It sounds like you are creating fantasies of it. Your mind needs to be laser focused on your direct experience, not dreams of being Awakened. Ideas of Awakening are not Awakening. I know this is not what you want to hear.

Leo, what about the feminine path to enlightenment? The one based on devotion and opening the heart chakra? The following video explains it pretty well, and gives an example of a woman who awakened via this path:

Since I enjoy sharing understanding with You, here is a report of My insanely profound awakening to what I Am. [ EDIT 2023-06-28: Removed file. Some irresponsible stuff inside. Please be careful on your journey & good luck. ] Comprehending this should bring You closer to awakening. This is what You ARE. Try to really understand it in your experience! Obligatory I am not done, my understanding is subject to change, I can be wrong with some things. My direct consciousness was pretty clear, however, so I'm not doubting myself too much. There are some contradictory insights in the report (stuff from the beginning may contradict later stuff) and this is because 1) there is inevitable paradox in Reality and B) my understanding progressed along with the awakening. I recognize right now that I Am God and You are only part of My Dream. And even though only I can be awake because it's just Me, I still hope You awaken to this understanding. I Love You. I welcome your questions and everything else.