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The Truth sank into realisation. All is one and I am it. I am all of this At first I thought realising the truth would be some out of this world, super special, mystical experience.. This right here is a mystical 'experience' ? There is no such thing as a more or less special 'experience', it's all one and the same thing. I am it all. Realising truth is very intimate and beautiful. What the hell is consciousness?? What the hell is enlightenment?? It doesn't even matter what it is. I am it. Whatever is, I am it. I am time, I am light, I am darkness, I am void, I am death, I am life, I am love, I am fear, I am infinity, I am finite, I am imagination, I am awakening. And what are all those things? Me, I am it all. Because that's the truth. No matter the circumstances, no matter the where or the when. I am There's no grounding myself in this, what a ridiculous notion ? I am it, God damnit! Call it nothing, call it nonduality, call it everything, call it God. Hell, call it evil or shit or nonsense if you want. It doesn't matter, nothing matters. The truth is I am it all and it's one. It's all one and the same thing, and it's me. It really doesn't matter what I do, it all is love, all of it.. struggle, bliss, it's all love. That's what it truly is, what every thing, every state, every phenomena, what it truly is is Love. It's me. How is it love? Because it is. It just is. The question 'How' is love. The answer to the question.. is also love. Every happening is love. It's self love. Love loving itself, it's all one. All along, the only thing I am, the only embodiment there is - is the embodiment of love. I am literally what is! I can't even say the truth has been right in front of me ? It's more accurate to say that the truth has been my face this entire eternity. And this is eternity, there's no attaining immortality and eternity, this right here.. this is it. This is never going to end, Never! Nor does it even change, it all is as it is! It's one and the same thing, night and day are one and the same thing. What the hell is duality and nonduality?? As you breathe, all this is the only thing that is and will forever be. No matter the circumstances, it's all one. Nonduality will never be attained/known until that which already is, in pure actuality, is embodied. Until then, nothing will ever be known simply because there's nothing to know. All that is known is imagined so. This is The Truth So simple, so obvious, literally the clearest thing that can ever be, requiring no form of intelligence whatsoever. One merely has to breathe it in to get it.. It's just that obvious. This Truth is love is one and Is I Am it ? So I'm going to leave The Truth Pilgrimage as it is, and see what the next pilgrimage or journey will be. ??????????????????

Hello everyone. Recently I finished what is in my opinion the best series on earth. However, besides that this is the second time I have finished it, I have this empty and sad feeling. I miss watching that show now. I miss the characters, the fun, the plot. I am sad because I’ve already seen it. This might sound irrational for some people, but this also effects me in other ways. I have no motivation to do anything at all. Be it making homework, talking with family or friends online or working on something. I don’t experience joy anymore. I feel depressed. Didn’t really know where to put this. I think the “Serious Emotional Problems” sub-forum isn’t meant for these types of posts. I am posting this because it also brings back older thoughts and emotions about ending my life. I keep having the idea of just ending it. I will no longer experience that kind of legendary bliss again, and currently with quarantine I’m stuck with tons of homework and school assignments. I hate my teachers. Everything seems so depressing and sad compared to the joy I had watching that series. Maybe I went a bit off-topic there, but I hope someone can help me. I am currently focussing on meditation to help my mind calm down.

Somebody can recall a dream or a trip. So why is there a threat to insights? There are different types of meditation with different aims. Other types of meditation might be purposed toward having a mystical experience that might be a visionary dream-like experience similar to a degree with artist imagination. In Vipassana also known as Insight meditation but the type of insight they are talking about is different. insight noun. an instance of apprehending the true nature of a thing, especially through intuitive understanding The method in Vipassana is in a way opposite of forms of mediation which lead toward mystical or ecstatic experience (although occasionally they might experience sensations of that type) The goal in Vipassana is to "see things as they are". So when the practitioner sits they still themselves and begin to observe what their body and mind are doing and quickly note them by mentally labeling them, "thought" "thought" "thought" or in noticing an irregularity in one's breath "irregularity" , a stiffness in the back "stiffness" "Stiffness" . Maybe earlier in the day you got angry and remember it for a moment "angry " "angry" "angry" . Etc. etc. You can't stop the mind from bringing up these thoughts and feelings. This process of labeling is a way of letting go of these various things that the mind brings up and trains the mind not to become attached to them. Sometimes sitting still like that for a time some weirder mystical visionary things might happen or profound sense of tranquility might happen, but are labeled in the same way and not clung to, not something to "bring back" . So the type of insight they are talking about here is to become more still to the point where you can become aware of how all of these thing the mind brings up, whether it's an itch on the back, a mystical experience, boredom, an emotion, these are all treated the same way. The "insight" part is not some revelation or intense experience it's observation of how the mind generates reactions to things so that when not meditating one can have a clearer relatively more objective view of reality when not meditating. So sitting and not doing anything, not taking in any outside stimulation it gives you a better situation to notice all the automatic and repetitive feelings, and thoughts that the mind generates. Being human we never fully eliminate these things we just become better at being aware of our mind's little alarms and realize we have the option not to react to them if we don't want to and let them rise and fall more quickly. In the dream state the mind is free to wander and the brain paralyzes the body so it is safe for you not to get up and wander around with your eyes closed. Then when awake another part of the brain engages and it has a survival instinct. This part of the brain does it's best to distinguish real from illusion to beware of threats to one's existence. Suppose you have a dream and you hear a dog bark. So what? But while sleeping there's still part of your brain ready to detect something external if it occurs. You are sleeping and you hear your dog bark. Your survival brain says "you need to check why the dog is barking at 3 A.M., could someone be trying to break in the house? Did the dog get hurt?". So the brain will allow wandering imaginative thoughts to occur if they are internal but not if outside stimuli occurs. If this happens this other part jumps out and tries to distinguish what is real and what is not real. Sometimes a dream gets scary and the brain is not sure if it's real so it might wake you up to check on things. And if you ingest certain chemicals and it could disrupt the brain's ability to make this distinction to varying degrees. One can prepare for that It's subjective and monks are instructed not to say if they are considered to be "enlightened" or not. Some traditions may regard "enlightenment" as a mystical visionary experience or a state of bliss. Others may regard it as the most sober, in a sense, condition possible, awareness, not of the infinity of the universe but acute awareness of the present the sound of an acorn hitting the ground on a Thursday at 6:24, the detail of it.

There's no luck, but there is gratitude or jealousy. A grateful person is unable to feel jealous and cannot fathom gratitude from a jealous person's perspective. And vice-versa for a jealous person. Jealousy is not a problem for the jealous, they're comfortable being devils, they're comfortable being themselves. Ignorance is bliss. However, when a devil awakens to his devilry, it's like when a vampire comes out to light. He has to burn in order to become pure, so he pays for it by dying. There's nothing new about this, it's just evolution and giving birth to new form. Labour has never been an easy task. Some things have to die in order to make way for new things. There's nothing bad about jealousy per se. It's rather simply 'outdated'. You're where you are because you've paid for it. No one point of view is actually better than any other. It's just a matter of perspective.

@fridjonk Its not about resisting death. I want ego death. I want love, joy, bliss etc. The question is how to get there asap. I want enlightenment, embodiment and integration, not just insights. And I want it every day all day. I want baseline consciousness to be enough. None of you "geniuses" have this yet. It's so obvious

No its all actual. But pure actuality - pure infinity (melting into and merging with the present moment) aka a non-dual state cannot be sustained. There is ego death in these expanded states of consciousness and then there is a return to duality - the dream - second order - whatever you wish to call it. You will completely experience death or the illusion of death One can be in such expanded states sober or with psychedelics and they are no different. The point is these levels of Consciousness, however profound, do not need to be chased. When you try to seek or force things it will backfire. In these states of Absolute infinity one can have complete understanding of all of reality. It is remarkable. As Leo said it will bring you to your knees weeping. It will leave you reeling and drowning in pure bliss. So it is easy to fall into the trap of wanting to be in these states. I have felt the loss of what Leo is saying when you are no longer in these states of consciousness. But at the same time one has to realize that its always here. Its always here once it has become actual for you. You do not need to chase these states. This is infinity right now, albeit a finite slither but it is Infinity. One can be at peace and happy in any state of consciousness.

What are your thoughts about this phenomenon called ascension? People calling themselves Lightworkers and star-seeds are saying that the ascension will be soon around the corner. Some say it is a be an advancement from 3rd density consciousness state toward 4th density for the whole human race. Others say it is the advancement from the 3rd dimension into the 5th dimension. others that it will be in 3 ascension waves after a solar event appears, and the rest who will be not able to ascend will be transported to another planet to fit their evolution. Then there are comparisons to it like enlightenment or heightening our state of consciousness. As before it was difficult to achieve this and now with light energies hitting the planet it will be easier for many to achieve this enlightened state with the help of the energies. This energy that causes our elevation of consciousness is called by some as the divine mothers' tsunami of love and others say that our solar system is entering a part of the galaxy where the light quota is significantly higher. Another version is that we will be having the global hearth awakening for all humanity, the realization with oneness and interconnectedness with life. The solar flash will cause this shift. Theory of the harvest says, where only people who have reached a service-to-others quota of 51% at the time of the solar event will shift into a 4th density consciousness state. And this happens every 25.000 years. I possibly misunderstood som theories but you get my point. The reality will probably be different from all of these theories explained. I personally feel that something is happening, I feel bliss and love with little or no spiritual practice or effort and see this happening to others to. And some are freaking out by this process. The question is, will we be able to: - ascend to 4th density? - Have a heart-opening during his lifetime? - Fail the process and be transported into another planet to further his evolution there. What are your thoughts? If something of this is real then I surely do not want to miss it. (Some say E.T. disclosure, mass arrests, and the monetary system will be remade alongside this. But that is another story.)

Leo!!!! This could be my favourite ever post you’ve made on this forum and I’m so glad tbis is the path you are going down, I mean if you’re staying sober for a while as well we could end up best friends who knows ? This is beyond true, awakening will only heighten the true passions within you and allow you to express then even more, life is fucking amazing and just wow! Every moment is truly an incredible spontaneous gift, I just love it so much!! Im going to make a thread on exactly this- Passion! Cultivating passion and a love for life is like unlocking the key to a never ending supply of joy, bliss and happiness, every day becomes a gift! what are your passions outside of Spirituality (and 5MEO ?), it’s easy to neglect them when we are seeking truth and awakening, I know I did!

Some verses from 'Devikalottara' to help with contemplation and self inquiry on Consciousness. 1) Understand that one who is not able to realise the Truth in his Heart by this knowledge of spiritual wisdom known as Kala Jnana, can never attain it even by studying countless crores of sastras (scriptures) spread out like the sky. 2) Therefore cast aside all fears (on following this path) and shed all doubts. Giving up attachment or desire for anything, be ardent in seeking the ultimate knowledge with wholehearted devotion and with a clear mind (without any trace of confusion). 3) When the mind moves even a little, that is samsara (worldly bondage); when the mind abides firmly and motionlessly (in the state of Self), that is mukti (liberation). This is certain. Therefore know that the wise man must hold his mind firm by supreme Self-awareness. 4) The happiness attained in this aloneness is the highest, boundless bliss. Which learned persons will not revel in that Supreme Reality, in which there is absolutely no action? Tell me 5) Being rid of the worldly knowledge, the great hero who has acquired pure wisdom, in which there are no sense objects, and which is all pervading and without any form, will attain immutable moksha without fail. 6) The void which is the infinite and all-encompassing one whole without a second, which is just the effulgence of pure wisdom, which is completely devoid of visible phenomena and which consists of the aspect ‘I’ is the seed which fructifies as liberation, bestowing salvation by enabling one to unite with the Supreme 7) Instead of following this direct path, do not ever contemplate even in the least upon chakras (located in six adharas, centres in the body), nadis (subtle nerves that produce the ten divine sounds such as Pranava), the deities associated with the lotus seats (in the adhara chakras, beginning with Vinayaka), the mantraksharas (potent sound syllables for the worship of these deities) and the diverse mandala murtis (the God-aspects, starting from those controlling the sun, Surya Mandala, the moon, Chandra Mandala, and fire, Agni mandala). 8) For those whose minds are constantly expanding, clinging to external objects, factors will always arise causing increasing bondage. If the outward-wandering mind is turned inwards to stay in its natural state, know that one will not undergo any suffering in the world. 9) Unite with that one totality, which is all-pervasive, which has no inside or outside, which is bereft of all (concept of) directions such as above, below and in between, which assumes all the forms in creation and yet is itself formless, which can be known only by itself, and which is self-luminous. 10) If any person does not meditate on this great all- pervading void, which is the space of consciousness (chidakasa), he will be a samsari (a worldly individual) forever in bondage to worldly attachments, like the silkworm in its self made cocoon. Understand this. 11) All living beings, of whatever genus, undergo great misery over and over again. Hear from me. In order to avert all this suffering and sorrow, meditate on the great void constantly without any break. 12) The mind, hankering after things of the world, is more restless than a monkey. If one controls it from wandering after external things and holds it in the void of non-matter one will attain liberation directly. 13) This complete wholeness pervades inside and outside all creations like ether, merging with them, and is itself formless. Dear, those who are submerged in this supreme bliss become that supreme bliss themselves. See, how wonderful! 14) If one meditates that the one Consciousness (chit) is different from the prana (life-force), which has subtly attached itself to this gross body, from the mind, from the intellect and from the ego, one will become established in that Consciousness. 15) Due to sleep and due to thoughts the mind always loses its sharpness, its foolishness increases, and it goes to ruin. Awakening this mind with effort, and without allowing it to wander, establish it in the state of Self. Persevere in this effort by fixing the mind again and again in its natural state. 16) Make the mind, which always clings to some support (attaching itself to sense-objects), devoid of all such supports. Making the mind, which is restless in clinging to external supports, motionless, do not disturb that tranquillity even a little. 17) When one adopts the practice (sadhana) by means of which one’s mind, which is restless like the wind, is made still perpetually, then the purpose of taking birth as a human being is fulfilled. That is also the mark of a true scholar. 18) If the mind falls asleep, awaken it. Then if it starts wandering, make it quiet. If you reach the state where there is neither sleep nor movement of mind, stay still in that, the natural (real) state. 19) Know that whoever meditates on that supreme void, and becomes established in it by virtue of constant practice, will definitely attain the great state which is beyond birth and death. 20) I alone am. No one belongs to me; nor do I belong to anyone else. I can see no one who can call me his; neither can I see anyone who is mine. I am all alone. 21) The day one is able to see oneself with his inner eye as not the body, all his desires vanish, and he experiences perfect peace. 22) I am pure Awareness, immaculate, perfectly liberated; and forever present everywhere. I am indeterminable. No one can grasp me or leave me. I am free from sorrow. I am always brahmamayam (of the nature of Brahman). 23) Even if the aspirant acquires many kinds of supernatural powers and magical powers such as visualising what is buried underneath the earth, and can demonstrate them before the world, he should give up mental attachment to them. All these (powers) are only bondages to the individual soul. Further they drag one to follow a low path. The supreme joy of liberation does not lie in any of them, but only in the Infinite Consciousness.

I don't know, there are highly effective techniques out there like kriya yoga, and wim hof method, and whenever I try and do them I feel very little to no results. And I do them very rigorously and with a lot of seriousness for long periods of time. I've got a fear of missing out, because I see people having so much results with those techniques and I just can't seem to get any. However, during meditation for me its very easy to feel love and bliss, and during contemplation you can inquire into infinity quite easily. Sometimes I think I'm missing out by limiting myself to just meditation, but other times just doing meditation feels more right and in sync with my intuition, and it feels like I don't need other methods because meditation is already working well and I just need to do more of it, even if I've been using the same one for the past 2 years lol. Maybe psychedelics will help with this? Tell me what techniques I should practice and whether my fears of missing out/limiting what I practice are warranted And based on what you've said above, I feel like actually my neurotransmitters are upgraded on average, yet my baseline is very low on average. Because inquiring into mystical states is quite easy(like infinity) yet there is lots of neurotic stuff in this state of consciousness. Although this doesn't really make sense because I've only meditated and not taken psychedelics before. But to be honest, I don't really care about calmness of mind or peace or whatever, I just care about omnipresence and knowing what the fuck is going on. Although calmness of mind is usually a prerequisite to omnipresence.

Just wanted to share this part of the book series 'Conversations with God' (book 3 specifically) in the light of all the mahasamadhi talk. Couldn't bear it to not post this. This contradicts the discussion or idea on this forum that Mahasamadhi is final and eternal: (Neal in dark red and that which is said to be God in blue) Am I clear that, once we reach this state of Oneness which many call Nirvana—once we return to the Source—we don't stay there? The reason I am asking this again is that this seems to run counter to my understanding of many Eastern esoteric and mystical teachings. To remain in the state of sublime no-thing, or Oneness with the All, would make it impossible to be there. As I've just explained, That Which Is cannot be, except in the space of That Which Is Not. Even the total bliss of Oneness cannot be experienced as "total bliss" unless something less than total bliss exists. So, something less than the total bliss of total Oneness had to be—and continually has to be—created. But when we are in total bliss, when we have merged once more with the Oneness, when we have become Every-thing/No-thing, how can we even know that we exist? Since there is nothing else that we are experiencing... I don't know. I don't seem to understand this. This is one I can't seem to get a handle on. You are describing what I call the Divine Dilemma. This is the same dilemma God has always had—and that God solved with the creation of that which was not God (or thought it was not). God gave—and gives again, in every instant—a part of Itself to the Lesser Experience of not knowing Itself, so that the Rest of Itself can know Itself as Who and What It Really Is. Thus, "God gave His only begotten son, that you might be saved." You see now from where this mythology has sprung. I think that we are all God—and that we are constantly, every one of us, journeying from Knowing to Not Knowing to Knowing again, from being to not being to being again, from Oneness to Separation to Oneness again, in a never-ending cycle. That this is the cycle of life—what You call the Cosmic Wheel. Exactly. Precisely. That is well said. But do we all have to go back to ground zero? Do we always have to start over, completely? Go back to the beginning? Return to square one? Do not pass "Go," do not collect $200? You do not have to do anything. Not in this lifetime, not in any other. You will have choice—always you will have free choice—to go anywhere you wish to go, do anything you wish to do, in your re-creation of the experience of God. You can move to any place on the Cosmic Wheel. You may "come back" as anything you wish, or in any other dimension, reality, solar system, or civilization you choose. Some of those who have reached the place of total union with the Divine have even chosen to "come back" as enlightened masters. And, yes, some were enlightened masters when they left, and then chose to "come back" as themselves. You must surely be aware of reports of gurus and masters who have returned to your world over and over again, manifesting in repeated appearances throughout the decades and centuries. You have one entire religion based on such a report. It is called the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and it is based on the report of Joseph Smith that the Being calling himself Jesus returned to Earth many centuries after his apparently "final" departure, this time appearing in the United States. So you may return to any point on the Cosmic Wheel to which it pleases you to return. Still, even that could be depressing. Don't we ever get to rest? Don't we ever get to stay in nirvana, to remain there? Are we doomed forever to this "coming and going"—this "now you see it, now you don't" treadmill? Are we on an eternal journey to nowhere? Yes. That's the greatest truth. There is nowhere to go, nothing to do, and no one you have to "be" except exactly who you're being right now. The truth is that there is no journey. You are right now what you are attempting to be. You are right now where you are attempting to go. It is the master who knows this, and thus ends the struggle. And then does the master seek to assist you in ending your struggle, even as you will seek to end the struggle of others when you reach mastery. Yet this process—this Cosmic Wheel—is not a depressing treadmill. It is a glorious and continual reaffirmation of the utter magnificence of God, and all life—and there is nothing depressing about that at all.

I'm actually after the opposite. I don't care about peace and even detachment from thoughts that much, or reducing suffering or even healing, or even feeling good/bliss. What I'm after is infinite intelligence and omnipresence. Knowing what reality is. Although the things above are usually needed for omnipresence. @Leo Gura do you find that psychedelics help maintain permanent states of omnipresence and infinite intelligence/knowing? Or you still need meditation and yoga for that?

In other words, I would challenge you to cultivate other distractions @WhatAWondefulWorld I'm the same, I only care about being conscious of reality - that's why I became a scientist/engineer. If I were you, I would start a meditation/contemplation habit ASAP if not already done, start deeply questioning reality to the levels you are passionate about. Follow your bliss. There's no joy like being real intimate with reality. If you're passionate about reality and understanding, then that's what you're passionate about. No faking other passions is gonna make your life happier. You're not going to thrive and enjoy other things if they don't make you happy, you will just feel like you're wasting your time and are living a depressed life. Don't worry about survival for now, just focus heavily on your passion, survival will come once you've got that sorted - that's what happened with me.

Sounds like a kundalini awakening. Heightened perception,bliss,timelessness, are all indications that the life energy (prana) is finding expression due to the clearing of some obstructions in the nervous system. How long have you been meditating?

@WhatAWondefulWorld uhh...ok, just my opinion, but my advice would be the exact opposite to this... Meditation and intense consciousness practises are the only thing that fixed my fucked up head and life. I would strongly recommend you start doing hardcore practices for long periods of time with powerful psycs if you take your own happiness seriously. Anything else is a joke really. I don't know why nobody else is saying this...but if you have a notable amount of shadow work...don't focus on "making your life better" do hardcore consciousness practises! That is the means by which your life gets better!!!...haha. this is blatantly obvious. I'm actually a little surprised that nobody else is saying this... I was about to fail my education, I was a neurotic, toxic person who was twisted and toiled with deep deep suffering. And I knew I was fucked. I mean deep, deep suffering. I remember thinking "when will this ever stop" couldnt kill myself, would never do it. I've lived through hell ? if someone were to have told me "aww Aaron, get your life together before you persue enlightenment" that could have been enough to distract me from the healing and bliss which I now live in. I mean, holy fuck. Look at it like this, it depends how badly you want it... happiness I mean. If you don't pursue enlightenment...then I guess you either got fooled out of it, or you didn't want it bad enough. Feel free to stay in hell my friend, why tho? heaven is real ????? Deuteronomy 30:15 "See, I set before you today life and prosperity,death and destruction..." Choose life ?? then smoke a fat blunt when you win like the badass motherfucker you were created to BE! That's what I'm talking about. As soon as I get enlightened I'mma smoke a fatty

@Leo Gura what if the experience you got so far including mind exploration & dmt never showed you any truth. you deluded yourself, believing love feeling as hard as the deluded here never existed. Maybe what you're looking for has to be drop to be found. what if you could be in bliss all the day, all the time, and without any drugs. like having only experience with people as high in truth as you are ? just idea, go find out.

Hello :-) I am new here and I want to introduce myself a bit. I was always interested in psychology (and also worked in a closed field and went to quite a lot of training in this field and also read a lot). I always wanted to understand why people behave the way they do. But as years went by I sensed it is kind of going in circles, if the reason for suffering were pure psychological, why can't psychology find a solution? So after searching for a while (not even knowing what I was looking for) I endet up in non duality. Read a lot of books, saw a lot of youtube videos, went to a lot of reatreats.... And after going to the retreats I experienced a kind of shift in myself. But I guess it was not really an awakening. But it was a kind of dumbness and dullness (I usually think a lot), I had the impression that my thoughts got less and kind of much ...slower (and I used to be a quick thinker). Also, I felt there was a real heart opening, a kind of love to everything and everyone. I deeply felt (!) connection. I got really a bit blissed out, I was kind of happy all the time. Sometimes people even ask me what kind of drug I am taking. ;-) So, but then I got triggered and painfully hurt and the bliss dissapeard with also that kind of strong feeling of connection. So I wonder if somebody experienced somthing similar and what that was exactly? And I also wonder at the moment how to continue? It feels like I was thrown back in an old state which doesnt seem to fit anymore.

Last night I dreamed that I was swimming in a hot spring in this desert setting and Leo was there. I was surprised and in wonder of it, and he explained how it worked even though in real life I know how hot springs work and have alwasy wanted to go to one. Under the water was the foundation of some old building. I was amazed by how warm the water was, and grateful. Then it started changing. I started to notice all kinds of dirt in the water, and it got dirty and disgusting as stuff grew in the waters that were getting warmer and warmer as summer came closer. I told Leo that we should move. It was almost warm enough to swim and to the right, somehow, magically, was the swimming hole at the river where my mystical experiences started. Yesterday I went there and thought about swimming, but it would be a Wim Hof type experience. Then I thought about how awakening has given me the courage to do what I never would have done. The dream changed and what the building had been turned into a mystery we really wanted to solve. It made me feel like the start of digging up the history of Dr.P. That sense of mystery. It was huge and spectacular and... had something to do with ice cream. WTF with the ice cream dreams? What does ice cream symbolize? I'm trying out going vegan. An entire shelf fell out of the fridge door and spilled yogurts all over the floor just now. There were lots of reactions and insights and feelings from Leo's latest video. When he said towards the end, how do you know you're done, what if there's a level beyond and a level beyond, my mind went immediately to gambling. We don't think our thoughts. We are susceptible to our surroundings until we purify/discover ourselves. That's why people long after solitude for this work. If you are what you eat, if diet is so important to spirituality, then does it make sense that we would ignore our surroundings? Or that they would be just as important? As the inner so the outer, as above so below, is within so without. It's a fractal universe. My friend sent me this message a week or so ago. "Did you know that the GI tract can be considered OUTSIDE THE HUMAN BODY because it is just hole that passes all the way through? Watching Ask a Mortician while doing dishes and thought you'd like to know." You are a vortex, a whirpool, spiral as Rupert Spira so elegantly describes. His words just makes me want to curl up and die in the bliss. I digress. There's nothing in the center, like the metaphor that came in the vision of light, of source, you are that but also this stuff swirling around. You are, verily I say unto you, a toilet bowl ever flushing. Beautiful isn't it? You are what you eat. You are the people you hang around. You are what you give your attention to. Garbage in, garbage out. Also you are not. You transcend all that, you're already pure, you're the calm eye of the storm at the center of the spiral. If you greatly honor food choices and spiritual shouldn't we greatly honor where we choose to live? Ramana Maharshi worshiped a place. It's beyond worship, it's dissolving, becoming. "The Maharshi called Arunachala the spiritual Heart of the world. Aruna, which means ‘red, bright like fire’, does not signify the mere fire that gives off heat. Rather, it means Jnanagni, the Fire of Wisdom, which is neither hot nor cold. Achala signifies hill. Thus, Arunachala means ‘Hill of Wisdom’." https://www.sriramanamaharshi.org/arunachala-hill/ I don't believe in taking this too far, just like with diet. There's a careful balance of neither worshiping nor demonizing the choices we make, of not prejudging alignment and locking it in via the mind in an effort to avoid feeling, sensing, intuiting our way to true alignment. I've tried to let go of this feeling, thinking it's crazy and not wanting to think about it too much because it has such pull, but it keeps coming back. The metaphor of water and whirlpools doesn't stop appearing and connecting. Last night I had an impulse to look through my memory box and I found a project I made years ago. It's a tiny vase, a vessel that's made of blooming flowers on a watery background. Dr.P had a large Rebecca at the well sculpture surrounded by a fountain and at the talk on him an old man recalled memories and said how they never were able to get a well dug at his mansion. There was no water on that hill. It's ironic.

On April 5th 2020 at around 11:00 PM I had an experience that changed the way I perceive life and an experience that I will remember for the rest of my life. I had a nondual experience unlike any other I’ve ever had before. It was an experience of Infinite Love, complete and total Infinite Love. Recently I have been thinking about and meditating on the areas of being, manifestation, suffering and love. In the days leading up to this experience I have had an increased feeling of calmness, freedom and intense mindfulness. Despite the external appearances of my personal life currently as well as the current affairs of the world right now I feel more free and calm than I ever have in my life. It all feels quite ineffable. On this particular night I could feel the intensity and depth of the mindfulness I was experiencing. It was a depth, calmness and present moment awareness that I have noticed always precedes my past spontaneous nondual experiences. At the time I was listening to my favorite ambient song and taking in the profound beauty of it. While I was mindfully listening something happened. In an instant everything in my experience of reality just collapsed down into a singularity the experience of perceiving time ceased and I was overwhelmed by a massive torrent of Nondual Universal Love. I began crying and this crying quickly grew to sobbing as my perception expanded almost instantaneously into everything in all of existence. I was everything that ever was, is and will be. I was all of it. However there was no experience of I the self was obliterated the moment this infinite love overwhelmed my being. I have had several nondual and psychedelic experiences on my journey thus far but this time there was an incomprehensibly large flood of ultimate Universal Love like a transdimensional dam had burst and a flood of love from the totality of all existence itself completely engulfed my being. This Love was so much, so powerful that human language entirely and completely fails to describe the absolutely profound level and depth it had. I immediately knew that existence is Love. I saw the ever present nondual beauty of everything from this state of overwhelming Love. I felt so much love flowing through my being that I felt was melting. Everything that constituted any sense of separation was melting. All I could do in the presence of this Infinite Love was cry in its infinite beauty. Tears of sheer joy and love streamed down my face as I had never felt love so intensely before. I could feel this energetically affecting my physical body on multiple levels, subatomic, atomic, molecular and so on. The feeling of melting away from the intensity of infinite love was ever present. More and more all forms of individuation were melting away. It was as if the Infinite Love of all of creation was a red hypergiant star and that my individuated ego and body instantly melted into disintegration when coming even into contact with this profound absolute Love. It was the most profound thing I have ever experienced in my life. Out of all of the nondual and psychedelic experiences that I have had I’ve never felt such profound Love like this. As I was totally enraptured by this experience I felt the love that a mother feels for her newborn child, the love that the earth has for all of the lifeforms on it, the love of the fabric of existence itself. I felt love that I would instantly sacrifice my physical life for and even beyond that. Love beyond what I thought was ever possible and still that love bloomed and became even more intense. It was an infinite absolutely unconditional love for everything; for all beings, for all phenomena in existence. As I looked at the room around me I noticed the objects around and I was one with everything. I was on an existential level no different from the bed, the walls, the clothes, the air in the room, the carpet, the dirt on the carpet, the computer. In the binding unity of love I was everything in all of existence without exception. I picked up one of my shirts nearby and folded it up and I held it and hugged it as if it was a baby. As if it was my baby, my child because really all of existence is just that. I felt and exuded this love more intensely than I can put into words. There was a pillow nearby and I picked it up as well and I held it with all of the Love that I could muster. And still the perceiver of the experience was totally melting in contact with this infinite and profound love. The intensity of the experience got to the point where I felt that my body began vibrating. And I felt this very strange and intense feeling of vibration specifically from my heart area. This strange pulsating vibration branched out from my heart across my entire chest, neck, shoulders, my upper abdominal area and upper back. This pulsating vibration was so strange to feel going through my body. With every breath this pulsating vibration expanded more and more through my body. The intensity of this Love was so great that I didn’t know how I could possibly take anymore, however it continued to expand and even further more engulf me even though there was no me left. As this continued there was the overwhelming feeling of gratitude and reverence that arose as well. I totally embraced obliteration by love and totally gave into the massive tsunami of universal love. The feeling of reverence was too much for words. Tears continued to stream down my face. The pulsating vibrations I felt in my body became even more intense as I placed my hands on my heart I just wanted to open my chest and blast out Love everywhere infinitely. I am not too knowledgeable on the chakra system about how energy flows through it but I feel that that in this experience I had a powerful heart chakra opening. With each heartbeat and each breath I felt my entire being vibrate and reverberate with Love. There is just pure Love. I came into a state of awe for the enormous love which always emanates through the totality. I just began to say, “wow”, over and over again. Followed by; “this is too much”, over and over again. The level of love that existence is and has for all incarnations is so profound that I don’t think we’ll ever have a way of describing it. You just have to directly experience it to know. As I was fully embraced by the infinite Love of existence I grabbed a blanket and I just wept uncontrollably into it. This went on for what felt like a while. I wept into it from the existential bliss, the existential joy and the sheer incomprehensible amount of love that I was experiencing. And I realized that the substance of existence is Love; that without love that nothing and I mean nothing could exist. Nothing could exist without love. You and I are love. We are love incarnate. We are a love that is so profound that when we know ourselves it’s the most amazing and beautiful thing that you could experience. The peak of this experience lasted for about an hour. For the rest of the night through sleep and into the next day I was in the afterglow of experiencing the profound infinity of love that constitutes all of existence. I had the realization that everything we beings do in life without exception, we do for love in one way or another and it is expressed in a spectrum of countless ways. This is the first time in life that I have experienced the Love of reality as it actually is; pure nondual infinite Love beyond the illusion of individuated ego experience. Love that will obliterate you because it’s just so much, Love that will break you down and make you cry, make you sob intensely. A part of my being is fully awake now. I feel energetically different than before that experience. I feel energetically different now, as if I am a different person from before this experience. Experiencing that level of Love permeates every aspect of our being and our experience. One realization I had was that my entire life up until this experience I thought that suffering was bad. Now I know what suffering is. Suffering is what happens when we knowingly or unknowingly turn away from Love. Because a person who truly understands Love, a person who truly loves themselves would never turn away from Love whether it be the Love of existence itself, the Love of another being, or Love of themselves. The only reason truly that we suffer individually and collectively is turning away from Love, that’s it. And that can breed many other things as a result but fundamentally it’s very simple. If you turn away from Love you turn away from what you truly are and when you turn away from what you truly are you’re out of alignment with the loving flow of the totality of existence and when you’re out of alignment with the loving flow of existence itself; it is so painful. That is when our experience becomes suffering. And we don’t have to suffer. What would serve us best in this life is to constantly and consistently choose Love at every second of every day. Forever. To choose whatever is the highest expression of love. And bask in its radiance and live in this place for our entire time of incarnation. I felt true freedom in this experience. True freedom. Love is the substance of existence. Love is what you are. There is never ever anything to fear. There is never ever anything to fear. There is never ever anything to be afraid of. Just Love. Just be Love. Just choose Love every single time. Because that is what existence is built upon. That is what existence is. It only hurts when you turn away from love. But if you dive completely into love and totally melt into that experience of being love you will truly know and experience what you are, what the universe is, what God is and that will change every aspect of how you look at life, on the deepest level in every way and thusly change your experience of being forever. I Love you, whoever you are, for we are One. I want to thank @fridakaia for helping me so much to truly understand what Love is. She is a beautiful and profound being and a lightworker. I also want to thank @Consilience for encouraging me to dive more deeply into Love on my journey.

@ivory I've long seen through the thin Vail of the illusory nature of the world, pleasure, materialism, comfort. The More I move in the world, the more i engage with life the stronger the sense of illusion becomes. The illusion of self becomes more apparent. Emphahsised as a byproduct of practice and the events of life that bash the ego. Ying and yang, order and chaos, ego grind and bliss. The dark night sounds like a significant ego death, followed by a breakthrough awakening. Plus, it sounds like the title of a blockbuster movie.

@Spence94 It sucks going through the phase of "the dark night of the soul", but once you go through it bliss comes

These quotes seem very relevant to what Leo described. I figured I'd just post them here as well. They primarily describe the transition from the 500's (Love) to the 600's (Enlightenment, bliss, formlessness) on the Map of Consciousness. Interestingly, about 50% of people choose to leave the body upon entering the 600's, like Leo seemingly had the option to do. "Enlightenment proper, that is, the replacement of duality with nonduality, calibrates at 600 or over. We could say that any calibration of 600 or more formally denotes enlightenment. At about the calibrated level of 600, bliss intervenes and worldly activity stops, sometimes permanently. If the person is destined to remain in the world, this state is said to ‘ripen’, and there is a slow return of the capacity to function. Some enlightened ‘persons’ retreat to spiritual practice and meditation and evolve into the 700s. At that level, the world as commonly described is no longer a self-existent reality. There are neither separate persons nor a world that needs saving. All is evolving according to Divine Will. The world is surrendered to God, and its destiny is self-fulfilling. No intervention is necessary. All life is the evolution of consciousness and the unfolding of Creation. [...] Only pure consciousness devoid of content can pass through the barriers of perception and become the clear water beyond the screen. When it is said that no person can be enlightened, it means that personhood is filtered out by the screening and cannot pass beyond it. (This statement calibrates at 600.) Q: What does it mean to go into a bliss state? What does one do? What happens? A: To be dissolved into intense, infinite love is overwhelming and incapacitating. There is neither the desire nor the capability to emerge from that state unaided. All bodily functions cease. Even breathing itself may cease and resume only in response to an entreaty from another person who is intensely loving. However, it is not necessary to do so. One has permission by knowingness to leave the body as an option. In this case, in order to acknowledge love, breathing resumed. Perhaps it was decided by karma. However, the choice was also made with the concurrent awareness that any return to physicality was only temporary and the final dissolution back into Infinite Love was inevitable and certain. Compared to the eternity of that infinite state, a short return to the realm of physicality seemed trivial. Q: What if there was nobody around to entreat one to return to worldly life? A: Whether or not those conditions prevail probably depends on karma, circumstances, conditions, Divine Will, and the interaction of the universe as a totality. If there were no entreaties, then the body would expire, which at the time would be quite agreeable. When Ramana Maharshi went into that bliss state spontaneously, he was not discovered for some lengthy period by which time he had been severely bitten by many insects and had been without sustenance for an unknown number of days. He was entreated to drink and eat. He responded slowly and eventually resumed movement and function; however, he did not speak in language for another two years. Q: Does the sense of self disappear? After all, the ego fears death. A: When the self dissolves into the Self, it is experienced as a great expansion from limited, transitory, and vulnerable to immortal, infinite Allness that transcends all worlds and universes. As such, the Self is not subject to death or birth, as it exists beyond temporality. The obscurity of the Self was the result of merely misidentifying perception as representing all Reality. [...] The EEG of the enlightened sage is dominated by slow Theta waves (4–7 cycles per sec.), which make functioning in the ordinary world quite difficult. In that state, the option to leave the world at any time persists and is a permanent, open option as though it was part of a silent agreement or knowingness. There is no obligation to persist or continue. Q: How then does earthly life resume? A: After a period of years, adjustment is made with the relearning of communication styles and a reacquaintance with human affairs sufficient to function. Recent history had to be caught up on. This can be accomplished by getting a television, watching the news reports, and reading newspaper headlines. There is an ongoing dialog within the overall field of human consciousness that is as though transparent by its essence; and by recognition, it offers aspects with which one has an option to respond." Hawkins, David R.. The Eye of the I . Hay House. Kindle Edition.

In this state there was no concept of body anymore. Only god bathing in its bliss and infinite intelligence flowing. What my point in the post was that the resistance was an integral part of God. Resistance would show up and get showered by love and surrender over and over again for infinity. Mahasamdhi is totally unknown, you dont actually know what it is, how could you?

@Meta-Man whatever. have a good time waking up people from nothing ps : I m living in pure bliss.

Thanks a lot all. That was intimate. The Video, was the first time I experienced, that ego is god and ego helps me to find to raw love. There were a lot of situations like this: An urging feeling to stop my spiritual thinking and behaviour, to really help and love others and reality. This feeling was always occuring when I got deep stepped in into love for myself, have the clearest experience of love. But always my reality holds me back by my ego, that told me that it's harmful. But this was just the reality-other-I-merging on and on. I experiencing it slightly more often by changing state of consciousness, especially by transcending emotions fully god-centered. The more I'm stepping into the natural flow and let it fully happen, the more everything else goes with me, going fully frustated or going full bliss. That is such a great imagination. - always swinging to both opposites in slightly clearer and clearer rhythm, fully engaged. Thanks a lot to all.