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Here I want to give a trip report of my mushroom trip recently, as well as discuss a mystical expeirence I had while completely sober a couple months ago which somewhat ties into this. I'll start with the trip report. My Intention was: I want to see the true nature of reality and of myself. Show me where I am wrong about reality, and show me the truth about what reality is, and what I am. Trip Report: I cooked a vegan pizza and used about 3.5g shrooms, maybe a little more, as topping. I got in my hot tub to relax before they kicked in, and I was in a good mood. When I started feeling the shrooms I was looking at pictures of my family in the room. Particularly I was looking at pictures of myself when I was younger. I remembered how much self hate I had for myself in those days, and I recognized that a lot of that is still deep inside me. I could see that certain behavior patterns, like subtly avoiding interacting with people while going on a walk, are still present. I realized that the younger me was innocent and deserved to be happier, and that I need to heal the child within me and let him go. Then I started to reflect on my identity. I asked myself if the child inside of me was me. I looked at the picture of my younger self and asked myself if that was me. I came to the conclusion that the child is not me. It was a set of beliefs about myself that I held onto to protect myself. I can let that all go. I tried to ask myself who is the one that is aware? I watched as I was contemplating and writing words down in my notebook. I tried to become conscious that I was not the one writing the words, but I was the one watching myself writing the words. I was able to realize that to a small extent, but more so I realized that I take for granted the perfection that my body operates with. The fine motor skills needed to write the words coming into my mind. The fact that I can eat and drink basically whatever I want and the body can process it just fine. I realize I take for granted the beauty in all of this, and that in some manner I disrespect this by feeing my body toxins. I eat relatively clean but still, I realized that the way I eat and treat the body is not in full alignment with the beauty of the body, and that I need to take better care of it. I then realized it's not just the body that I take for granted, that I take for granted reality itself. I realized that I'm blind to the ultimate perfection of reality, although I've been waking up to this more and more. I then started to contemplate death. I became aware that I'm going to leave this world with nothing. So what is there to worry about? Fear is irrelevant in the face of death. I might as well enjoy the time between my birth and my death. I might as well spread as much love as possible while I'm here. Around this time, I started to peak and stopped writing things in my notebook. I just wanted to bliss out and meditate, but I was having a real hard time being still in the mind. I would close my eyes for maybe 10 or 20 sec then open them. There was a feeling as though it was too intense, and also my awareness would go to a rather painful stomach ache when I closed my eyes. Part of that may have just been digesting the shrooms, but I'm sure part of it was the pizza as well. I realized that I'm not normally conscious of how what I eat makes me feel, and that the pizza made me feel like shit. I committed to listen to my body more and to take better care of both my body and psyche. Once I started to come down a bit I was able to bliss out more, but I still had trouble meditating for any period of time. After relaxing for a bit, I decided to write my dad a letter for father's day, although it was really for both of my parents. I won't share what I wrote there, but they were both very happy with the letter. As I really started to come down, I listened to some music, and then attempted to go to sleep. It was late, but I was still wide awake. I was feeling rather peaceful, then I became aware of just how much seemingly insignificant events can get stored in the psyche for years and decades. I recently reread the book "The Untethered Soul" by Michael Singer. He talks about samskaras in the book, and how impressions get left on your psyche by any event that you were unable to accept and release in the moment. He talks about how if you open these will come back up. I started to notice some pain in my heart while lying in bed, and remembered an event from over a decade ago in my childhood. When I was younger I used to collect a lot of pokemon cards. I had amassed a collection of binders full of them over the years. I started to get a little older and stopped buying them as much, but I'd still look at them every once in a while, and I still had an attachment to them. One day my mom, probably figuring that I was too old to care about the cards anymore, gave all of them away to a kid without asking me. This hurt me more than I was willing to admit at the time. I never told my mom I was upset about it, and I suppressed that negative energy inside of me. I realized how absurd it was to be holding onto this event for over a decade, and I was able to let it go completely. I then laid there waiting for other things to come up, and some more things did. I actually felt my heart burning, but I knew that it was a good thing and my heart was releasing pain it had stored inside for many years. I think the biggest insights I got from this trip are that I am taking for granted the perfection of myself and reality, and that I need to take better care of myself and respect reality more. I also realized the importance of cleaning out my psyche - finding a way to let go of my samskaras. Lastly I reaffirmed to myself how important it is to contemplate death on a regular basis. Death is what makes life so precious, and contemplating death can help fear melt away. Now for the mystical experience. Interestingly, I would say that this mystical experience was definitely more powerful than anything I experienced on this trip, or any trip I've done for that matter, despite being 100% sober. I was on a road trip, driving to visit my Aunt next. I was listening to Michael Singer's podcast series for the 2nd time through. In the episode I was listening to he was talking about how you're too lost in your own mind to actually live your life. He explained how you are not actually experiencing the event in front of you, you are experiencing the neurosis of the mind. He gave a couple examples, one of which being that you've never actually driven your car in your entire life, you've been too lost in thought. After he went through those examples, something clicked for me. I paused the episode, and I was brought to tears. It was as if I was actually living for the first time in my life. I was able to see what was going on around me with almost complete detachment from the ego. I just started crying at how beautiful it all was. Everything was just more sublime. After a while I put on some music and it was like I was listening to it for the first time. I became filled with a great sense of gratefullness and joy. For the next couple weeks, I was able to go through solid chunks of time where I was living like this. I was able to go sometimes hours at a time with very few thoughts crossing my mind, just living in the moment, feeling fantastic. It wasn't all day, but I was practicing becoming conscious enough to realize when I lost my awareness and bring myself back to it. After a couple more weeks, I returned home from my road trip. I was still in a great state of mind, however, then I started to get some ego backlash and backsliding. I started to play a little bit of video games, although I was still maintaining a great state of mind at that point. I convinced myself that I should pick up some weed to supercharge my meditations. I've had an addictive personality, especially with weed in the past, but I convinced myself that I was now conscious enough to use it in moderation, just for occasional meditation and sleep. However, this was not the case - pretty quickly I turned into a zombie for a few weeks. I was meditating daily but besides that I wasn't doing much productive. I just started watching youtube and sports all day. I lost that great state of mind that I had due to the dopamine toxification. My recent mushroom trip gave me back some of this amazing awareness, and I'm now more committed to this work than ever, because I see what is possible with this work, even though I'm just scratching the surface. I'm still able to tap into that great state of mind, or mindlessness if you will from time to time, and I'm confident that I can live my life like that permanently if I work hard enough. One last thing I was wondering is where do we draw the line between mystical experience and awakening. That mystical expirience was so powerful, and had such a profound impact on me during that time that I was tempted to call it an awakening. However I know that I still have much much deeper to go, so I came to the conclusion that this was just a very powerful mystical experience.

Yes, some could, most cannot because their not very Conscious/Aware, which is a huge problem in and of itself, so its all a matter of that, how Conscious/Aware one is of their true nature, then most all identities drop, unless You Consciously want to adapt an Identity of sorts to play the game of life, but with this one can drop it in an instant, most ppl today are creating Unconscious Identities, they are not Aware of it, or in Perception of it, and therefore cannot drop it at will, so this is a form of slavery and taps into our Ego and other situations that bind us, this is all Karma in play, Karma is the residual effects of all the actions that are happening. Action is in 4 areas of our life generally, Body, Mind, Emotions and Energy actions, if Your Aware 100% of all the actions taking place in those 4 areas then Your Destiny is in Your hands, if not then your living by accident mostly...Spirituality or Beingness is about becoming more Aware in all these areas and then creating Your own Experience at Will, if its Bliss You want then You can have it, if its Misery You want you can have it, or whatever else in-between. imo this is what it basically means to be Human... If You choose the be in Bliss/Love as your Base Experience, then You can walk into any culture or situation, enjoy it fully and then walk away from it and not be drawn back or wanting to revisit it, needing it to make an experience happen or wanting to experience something since You already have that within You. But its still nice to taste an ice cream cone, or visit a place and enjoy the culture, it depends on what someone wants to do, how they want to play this game of life, some want to be alone, others want to go out and see the world...

https://youtu.be/88_A-cg2PY8?si=GZyR-ahJMIFdXRfL Humans will destroy themselves for a long time before nature does have fun humans. The jokes are on you creedy little humans nature always finds a way. And your answer little monkey mind would be yes the planet can take it so what's the problem? Well, pinhead yes the planet can take it but by the same token, I doubt you will be humans if you keep going down this path of greed. And all your precious little human fancy cars fancy lives, and all that bullshit shit you feed your little minds and all your infantile silly human platitudes and attachments will mean naught. Overfishing overpopulation and greedy little humans are just some of the problems. None of you donkey minds know what real fear is so don't try to act as if you do. Listening to the egos at play saying it makes you more mature because you believe you are enlightened. You wouldn't have the balls nor guts to stand up to your own shadow that's for sure. I Love how you humans talk about wars why don't you grow a pair and get out there on the front line? You lily-livered little Kretins the lot of you. Just the idea alone would have you poltroons quaking shaking and quivering convulsing in your pusillanimous bull shit. Ignorance is bliss and it can also be hell. "I am not surprised that some members should disrelish your exposition " The word impossible does not exist for God just like non-existent. A very subtle way of jailbreaking your mind-expanding. How do you know there is something that said nothing? Mind is just an infinite thought away. Nothing didn't know it was something until it became something. For nothing to ever have happened something had to have happened. Wake up to the fact you are dreaming The same substance infinite arrangements flavors it can reinvent redefine regiment regionalize reogment all within itself forever. It creates the elusion of an elusion Infinity was always possible just made impossible. Yes, something that has unlimited power can be deduced the most efficient way, but all ways would be just as efficient because you are limitless in everything. If one can dream up a flee just as easily as the universe you see where I am going with this. What has it been using too much brain power? Infinite thought energy infinite imagination everything. Why would it have to conserve power? Yes, it can create the most efficient way but it's a dream. Every way is possible. It sounds like a robotic linear way of thinking. Maximizing minimizing? These are human concepts See it needs to put more output in than input. It's infinitely unlimited. But you see you already are the most efficient mind why would you worry about any of these things if one is infinite. It's already infinite input and output. What is too literal in thinking way too logical. You're limiting yourself why? Conservation of what thought? This would be a self-imposed limitation. Nothing can beat the raw power of infinite thought/imagination. You have to have some balance of goodwill and rascality to you. More Beneficence I would say. Even if an Alien race invented a supercomputer as big as the known present Universe it still could never be as expansive as Infinite intelligence. For that computer, one would need a whole universe full of Suns to run it. A billion Suns a second just to power it most probably would take decades to fully power it up. Nothing can beat infinite pure thought imagination is the only reality. Stem cell therapy, What are the pros and cons, the legality and ethical reasons, and so forth and so on? It should not only be available for the rich and powerful but for all humanity. Stem cell transplantation has revolutionized the treatment of various life-threatening diseases, offering hope and healing to patients worldwide, and is still very much in its infancy. The choice of the best country for this life-saving procedure depends on many factors, including medical expertise, healthcare infrastructure, success rates, and regulatory frameworks. With that said the United States, Mexico, Japan Panama, India Germany, Singapore, etc are some at the forefront of this research, as for moral and ethical ramifications that is for you to decide for yourselves. And one really has to come from an unbiased frame of reference. How many terminations of pregnancy are in a year worldwide? I will leave it there. I think I wrote this 3 years ago. From the top down this could be infinity dividing infinity by Infinity. Every fragment keeps dividing itself and it becomes an infinite self-replicating process of subdividing itself forever and ever. How does pure nothingness create from an empty void? How can one imagine all things and everything from a blank slate? if there is only a blank slate to work from? Into infinite complex shapes worlds everything you could ever imagine and things you could not even begin to comprehend as a finite mind? Was it always omnipotent before it was? omnipresent Can I answer this now after 3 years of course I can. Or it is whatever you want it to be Infinite imagination can create anything because it is so infinitely malleable that there is no meaning to anything but whatever meaning you give becomes a reality of infinite realities. In other words, it is pure infinite magic of unlimited imagination. Cross-platform gaming comes to mind. .

I see a lot of back and forth and disagreement between “non dualists” and Leo and what he’s doing/teaching. It seems Leo has dropped non dual study and teachings and is much more interested in exploring consciousness for its own sake. The non dualists like Water By The River and Osaid are saying this is going deeper into Maya, Illusion and is thus pointless while Leo is saying they are lost in non dual brainwashing. I see it like this; the spiritual path of awakening has been laid out and mapped by many mystics and traditions. Many can follow this and realize it (to various degrees) and awaken as much as possible in this life (awakening just being how deeply they are in the infinite stillness or nothingness) This is the original wisdom and spiritual path. This is what I and others here (the “non dualists” resonate with) Then you have these powerful psychedelics which can show you aspects of infinite mind never before seen or available. 5MEO and other psychedelics are relatively new. And what Leo is doing is basically being a pioneer in this study. He’s like the Lewis and Clark of consciousness. A very cool and courageous exploration. I admire that. But it’s still mind, it’s still “Maya” albeit fascinating and mind blowing aspects of it. The question is not whether one is right or wrong but what you are interested in. Why is non duality more “right” than consciousness exploration? Personally I have no interest in exploring all the nooks and crannies of mind, I’d rather kick it on the beach and soak in the bliss of Being and Master that, and teach it. But that’s my preference. So let’s appreciate Leo’s exploration and bear the fruits of his insights rather than throw tomatoes at him. One Love BlessedLion

The scale of consciousness is infinite and I don’t really include enlightenment ( realisation of solipsism) on that scale. Enlightenment, source realisation or a full awakening of the source is the complete cessation of all consciousness and dream. It’s the stilling of all motion, frequency, thought and condensing of the scattered awareness back into a singularity. There is absolutely ‘no thing’ there. It’s not emptiness, it’s full of potential waiting to burst into manifestation. There is nothing to learn there, there is nothing to do there. It’s just a dim awareness sitting in bliss before it turns back on itself in a feedback loop creating consciousness ( a first knowing or ‘I am’) , within consciousness, everything is a fractal iteration, exploration of consciousness and form without ever exceeding that initial boundary. When you realise the truth, you remember there was nothing so you come back and explore the infinite dimensions and states of consciousness and slap yourself in the head as you remember that is what you set out to do in the first place and you’ve gone full circle. Then Buddha sits up and starts laughing as he is back and remembers the absurdity of his infinite mind 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Leo the Blackpiller. On a project called "Actualized". A drama in in five acts. Oh my. Act 1: Narrator: What in my view is genetics/Karma is being psychic, seeing Auras, subtle beings, OBEs, and all that stuff. That can't be trained by normies. One either has it or not. Buuuuut training to rest in nondual awakened states? No. Many had to train a lot to get there (called meditation). Sure, some woke up spontaneously. It is called True Being. Every being has it, or better IS it. There are proven ways to access and stabilize that. Meditation for example. Not for every Karma-variant "delivered", but for many achieveable if training in earnest. Yours truly for sure was not extraordinarily gifted and needed over 10 years to get anywhere near anything nondual. But was lucky using a meditation system that got pleasurable quite soon and enabled racking up the 1000s of hours of cutting off the "I/me/mine-bla-bla" sufficiently (many of that in daily life) to get anywhere near awakened nondual impersonal states. Act 2: Narrator: What can be heard in the last weeks from our respected host are frequent expression of suffering, and also being annoyed by being human. If that attitude is not a dissociation (sick form of non-growth/aborted transcendence) and not an differentiation & integration (healthy form of growth/transcendence in Wilber speech), I don't know what is. Wilber, The Religion of the Future. All ways how transcendence/growth can go wrong, and how one can get addicted to 7th haven realms, and how to avoid and correct these, laid on a platter. And now limiting believes and justifications why one can not practice letting go of the separate-self and shutting it off (aka meditation), because... rationalizations like genetics, prodigies, creativity and artistic and other stuff instead of boring meditation and annoying and what not. https://www.actualized.org/insights/profound-quotes-032 https://www.actualized.org/insights/werewolf-boy Leo Gura: "Exceptionally spiritually gifted people are born just like this werewolf boy. And no amount of spiritual practice will give you their abilities. But because all that happens on the inside, people do not see it. So they end up spending their lives trying to emulate someone who is a genetic freak, and of course they end up disappoint with their lack of results or unhappiness in life. Because a werewolf boy has to live differently than normies. And if you as a normie try to live like werewolf boy, you will not be happy because it is not the right fit. This is why above all else in this work you must be true to yourself, to your genetics. Your destiny is in your genetics. But you need to discover what that means, which is no trivial matter." Narrator: Got blackpilled? Got blackpilled! Act 3: Al Swearengen: "That's what life is one vile task after another. Don't get aggravated then the enemy has you by the short hairs." . WbtR: Sorry my friend. https://actualized.org/insights/profound-quotes-032 Narrator: Profound indeed. The Buddha not-en-vogue-long-dead-probably-never-historicaly-existing-gentleman called it dukha. Unsatisfying. A closet-Buddhist in the making? And so much happiness & compassion that there are even dreams of nondual crocodiles biting fellow expressions of his True Infinite Being. Ken Wilber: "Ken Wilber: The downside comes with people that only use psychedelics or drugs and I found that over the years they just become mean. It's somehow just kind of closes them down it's like you keep doing it and you keep doing it you keep doing it it doesn't quite cause the transformation. It can cause a peak experience but generally not a transformative experience and some people like David Deida will say that in order for altered changes of state to contribute to transformation a permanent transformation it has to be basically endogenous and not a exogenous it has to be has your own source People who do that (Psychedelics) the people that do use both (Meditation and Psychedelics) and use it as a sacrament i think an enormous bit out of it." Posted over a year ago: Act 4: Narrator: So, my proposal would be either to rebrand the thing as spiritual-blackpilled.org instead of actualized.org. Or, as alternative, at least not giving the poor folks consuming all of that uncritically limiting believes just because one highflyer got hung up in the seventh-heaventh-with-you-know-what-substances without a way of getting to that blissful estate sobre and in daily life. Leo, sorry for the rant. I wish you really the best, but that self-defeating blackpilling trend (probably generated by severly missing seaventh-heaventh-bliss - which I can understand), pushing it mostly on genetics and prodigy and what not (I would call that at least a bit "Karma" and not only genetics )... I have to testify against it, because for many that "could make it" that constitutes black-pilling & installing limitting believes. And even if a being does not reach Enlightenment in this life, the soul (relative manifestation, but still appearing/same "reality" as everthing else, lasting longer than one life) will carry the transcendence-propensity generated by simply witnessing the mindstream (aka meditation). Same with compassion. Act 5: WbtR: Actualized? Actualized! Selling the drama (5 acts) "Actualized! by the River & throwing the backpills back into the River where the came from" Music while lowering the curtain:

I think following moral rules is good when you are at a low level of consciousness to improve your life but I am not sure that it help you increase your consciousness that effectively for most people. If you meditate, contemplate, and get life experience surround yourself with higher consciousness people, it becomes the obvious choice to act in ways that other people will view as moral. it isn't that you should follow moral rules strictly to avoid going to hell after death, it is just that you act in a moral way based on what you see will give you a life with as much bliss and satisfaction as possible.

Buddhism aims with the study of the mind and using right approaches ( right speech, right livelihood, right effort and so on ) to minimize psychological suffering and ensure a disciplined mind that is conducive to the intrinsic bliss and joy in human nature or the Buddha nature within. I find Buddhism clinical and coherent without the emotions of devotion based practices of other religions.

No this is not what Seeking is about, Seeking is knowing "I do not Know", but our nature is too know, so You seek to Know. Yes everything that we "want" is already there waiting for Us to find it, but is it really in Your experience, if Your depressed all the time, where is this Bliss? You have to seek it, you have to find a way to experience it, that is partially why we have the ability to Experience it can guide us, intuition is a sort of Experience, use it wisely and you will find it what you want.. Yes Infinity has all the emotions and states included, what ppl around her forget is that we also have Free Will, or the Ability to Respond, and choose which emotion or state we want to be in, this is partially what it means to be Human, we are not like sail boats in the lake ruled by the wind and what direction it wants us to go, we can develop rudders to allow us to direct the boat where we want it too go, it is the same for our life direction and destiny, as Human Beings we should be 100% in control of this aspect of our Lives...

This is interesting to think about. If one does manage to get to a state where everything is undifferentiated bliss, then in a way they'd be losing something, which is the ability to see distinctions. Now how you regard that is up to you, but it is a tradeoff to consider.

The seeking perpetuates the notion that bliss is somewhere else, and needs to be found(lack) in order to enjoy reality. But nothing is actually lacking or missing. Its already full and complete. Remember there cant be a sweet without a sour. Infinity has all emotions included 🙏 ❤️

Mastery vs the Ordinary I've been reflecting on the concept of mastery and the 10,000 hour rule where in order to be amazing in something, you need to put 10,000 hours towards it. I've mainly been contemplating this because I have been feeling aimless in the way that I feel like I'm not working towards a compelling goal careerwise at this time. I've also caught myself comparing myself to the other people in my life who appear to be working towards a compelling goal and really clocking in the 10,000 hours in the form of high education by going to law school or medical school or by working crazy long work hours in consulting, research, and accounting. And I caught myself feeling mediocre in the face of that thus resulting in an existential crisis where I clock into work wonder wtf I'm doing with my Sisyphean life and old insecurities to crop up. One of the insecurities that has shown up for me is my inability to work crazy long hours. Hell, sometimes I find myself tired after a 40 hour work week much less 60-80. Not to mention as a student in college that I wasn't exactly the type of person who had 2 jobs, was involved on campus, was going out every weekend from Thursday to Sunday, while still managing to maintain a 4.0 GPA. And as a result, I do have a bit of a chip on my shoulder. But I think it really helped that in my current job, everyone is doing things at their own pace and I'm not in a hyper competitive bubble of my own peers. I was able to slow down and still manage to pick up on the skills I need to do well in my role. Eventually, I came to the realization that my friends who are putting in crazy long work hours or pursuing a specialized professional degree aren't necessary special or superior to me rather they're putting in their 10,000 at a faster rate or they are more structured in clocking in those hours because they aren't as aimless in clocking in those hours. Another thing that I recall from the forum is that there is a good chance that you have already started clocking in your 10,000 hours without realizing it solely from engaging with hobbies and interests you have. And that makes sense in my context because I feel like even though my friends are super accomplished on paper, the ways that I stand out are in the ways I give good advice on relationships, mental health, and over all a sense of guidance, how I have pretty on point takes politically and culturally, and my sense of media literacy. Sure, the things I have just listed aren't coming in the form of a degree nor are they things I'm clocking in hours for at my job but it's still work that I have put in, even if it didn't feel like work as I've been clocking in my 10,000 hours. I think we also have this view of mastery that with being a master comes money or fame of some sorts. I think the first people that comes to mind for me personally in terms of mastery are talented actors, singers, artists, entrepreneurs, professional athletes, video essayists, public speakers etc. But what about the regular masters who aren't in the limelight making millions? I have encountered a few of these in my life often in academia given that I was in college for a decent chunk of time. I also feel like I encounter this in my corporate job as well since it does take some time to accumulate the skills to troubleshoot and help clients with the software well enough to where you can also teach people in the company as well. I say this to say that you don't have to be exceptional in the sense of being larger than life in order to have valuable skills that you have mastered. That is a realization I had to have in order to deal with my mundane life and acknowledge that even though I feel aimless at times, that doesn't mean that I'm not working towards mastering things I care about. I might not have a super lofty goal like getting through law school, training for a marathon, trying to travel through every country in the world, or building a business or following on social media with a specific niche but that doesn't mean that my work is not going to amount to any thing. Here are some ways that I've put in work towards my purpose of understanding and improving the human condition: Understanding the human condition on a personal level: journalling therapy + self help self reflection meditation Understanding the human condition on an individual level: reviewing various social dynamics in my social circle and reviewing research that comes out on various topics helping my friends through their issues while taking their specific situation and tendencies into context listening to other people's life situations and applying them to my own or drawing parallels with what other individuals are encountering regularly socializing with my friends and understanding them on a deeper level taking things I learn about the human condition on a personal and societal level and applying it to individuals and their specific situations Understanding the human condition on a societal and global level: getting a social science degree and taking classes ranging from sociology, political science, history, religion, and anthropology watching various video essays on politics and social/human rights issues + staying updated on current events reading books on various things I'm interested in such as policy, history, and international relations learning about different cultures and watching documentaries about different places travelling + exposing myself to different experiences and ways of doing things (especially in regards to trying new foods and cooking) trying to learn other langauages even if it's me just doing 5 min daily duolingo lessons lol I came to a lot of this not by being super structured in my purpose but by either following my bliss or dealing with things in my life that were pressing enough to develop certain skills. I think I started off more with the category of understanding the human condition on a personal level as I was working through a lot of trauma and difficulties of my upbringing which gave me a lot of purpose until that came to more of a resolution in the last year or so. I might not have something I can physically point to or flex regarding the work I have poured into myself since much of it was internal, but that doesn't mean that I didn't put in the work in the first place. And it shows in the way that I move through the world, evaluate situations, and the type of life I have built for myself. I also think nowadays, i find myself gravitating towards the 3rd category and that is the category that I'm thinking that I want to focus my career and hobbies towards. I know the life purpose talks about finding your purple cow or finding a niche that causes your form of mastery to stand out amongst the rest and there is merit to that. But I don't think that in every case that it has to do with being exeptional and larger than life. Sometimes it's you specializing something in your field like being an immigration lawyer for people with specific life circumstances, or maybe it's the specific way or the personality that shows through your technique like for example if you were to be a master in being a teacher in early childhood education. I guess I'm saying this to help bring the notion of finding your niche or purple cow down to earth to something more tangible as it doesn't always manifest in a clean cut way in situations outside of art or entrepreneurship. This is a video that I find myself resonating with lately: The video starts out with the creator talking about how she tended to feel emotions in a very big way growing up and how she would feel really intensely in love with people but since she perceived herself to be incredibly average, she had a hard time imagining that someone would feel this way towards her thus leading her to eventually start trying to overcompensate for her self perceived averageness by trying to be exceptional in something, in her case it was music. She goes on to explain how in the early days of social media when people were mainly just following people in their inner circle and influencers weren't as much of a thing, that having a talent and being really good at something felt like a rare, exceptional thing. There wasn't as much exposure to how much talent that was actually out there because usually the image you had consisted of a certain celebrity or a kid in the school talent show. And because we didn't have as much exposure and access to celebrities compared to what we have now in social media, it was easier to deify them and put them in a pedestal because that type of curated image and attention was more rare back then. And this creator took that notion that talent is scarce and that she needs to be exceptional to be loved and just ran with it in her teens and early twenties But as time went on and as we have gotten to the age of short form content and specialized algorithms, it feels like everyone and their mother is really exceptional at something. Which isn't a bad thing because it lets us acknoweldge the extraordinaryness in otherwise ordinary people which can be beautiful, but it also makes it seem that being exception isn't enough or that it isn't all that. She also goes on to talk about how we tend to value outward facing talents like being really good at painting for example over inward facing talents such as being exceptionally kind. The later tends to be more frequently overlooked by others and even by ourselves. I guess after being on social media for a while, I found myself feeling the same way about mastery and celebrity culture. I found myself feeling the same way towards acknowledging my more inward facing talents that I have built up over the years and how that corresponds to a more external form of mastery that my friend circle engages in more. And while I didn't feel the need to be exceptional in order to get validation from others, I think there has been a part of me throughout my years in the education system that made feel like I needed to be exceptional to myself to access a certain type of self love. That is something that I've been trying to unlearn while acknowledging that I'm not this aimless blob that has nothing going on, that I do have things that I'm working towards even if it doesn't seem like the typical image we have when we picture mastery. Mastery isn't as uncommon as our egos would like us to believe but that doesn't mean that it isn't worth pursuing or that it doesn't amount to much to be in the 1% of something, even when that means that there are still millions of people at the same level as you or better. I think it's important to pursue mastery for it's own sake when it comes to pursuing your life purpose regardless if this is a hobby you have or something that manifests in your career path. And that also means taking things at your own pace and not trying to rush clocking in the 10,000 hours by working unsustainable hours. Not to sound cliche, it's about the journey and if you genuinely enjoy it, you're not going to be counting down on those 10,000 hours to be done and over with so you can have that sense of glory at the end of the journey. And honestly, in most cases of mastery unless it's in a glamorous field, the end of the journey when you become a master at something after clocking in the 10,000 hours is going to be anticlimactic (or hell for all I know the glamorous fields also have this sense of things being anticlimactic once you actually experience certain things instead of just building it up and idealizing it in your head). Like for example, as a teacher, maybe the end destination of mastery is retiring modestly and occasionally having your former students get back to you on how impactful you have been on their lives rather than becoming famous and being this larger than life figure. Maybe all I know for now is that I'm pursuing my interests and I don't know where it will lead in the end, if it leads any fixed destination at all in terms of being exceptional. I guess at the end of me contemplating this, I've been learning to come to terms with my own ordinaryness and mediocity and how performing well and being exceptional isn't always going to be a by product in my journey to mastery nor does mastery gurantee a career or something grand. Nevertheless, it is still something that can give me a sense of purpose for doing something for it's own sake.

Well by Potential and Possibility that is synonyms for Spectrum I think, we can live and experience ourselves as absolute Savages, below Animal nature, totally cruel and disconnected with everything around Us, no concern for others only absolute concern for individual self, or we can be in the experience of God/Absolute and complete oneness of everything around us, via this experience a natural sort of expression of Love comes out, no attempt is being made to make it happen, it just happens, one is super kind and offering and of service to other as a natural consequence, so this is the spectrum, total none connectedness lead to narcissism, total connectedness leads to Natural Bliss within and Giving nature on the outside...

I would say in the end everything is Subjective Experience, everything happens within You, all experience only happens within You, in this yes Solipsism is True, but we are Embodied Life right now, we are not the Body/Mind complex, that is there for us to experience Basic Dual Life here on this planet via our 5 senses, but we can go beyond this, close Your eyes and dream that is not 5 senses in play in this moment, that is our brains recycling data and making a movie, but we can go beyond that too, and realize beyond our 5 senses and Body/Mind complex, to feel and experience complete Inclusiveness and Oneness that has nothing to do with our Body or Mind, that is the whole Sadhana of Eastern Methods, but its a stepping up process, don't think Absolute/God/Life realization when you can't even make Yourself Peaceful at will, its too big a step, baby steps first.. Hey the Guy just admitted he still Suffers in his last video, yes he has a high level of Awareness and such but I think its mostly Intellectual, he's like a jnana yogi "Jnana yoga, also known as the jnana marga, is one of the three classical paths for moksha in Hinduism, which emphasizes the "path of knowledge", he's on a Knowledge/Knowing hunt, that is part of the process but not the complete process imo, he's missing the Ananda/Bliss part which is the Inclusiveness/Oneness aspect, its not in his everyday experience for sure...

If Your Intouch with Truth, by product is Happiness, how could it be any other way? This is why in India they say Truth is Ananda or Bliss, you can't explain Truth/Reality, but if Your in it and experience it, then Bliss is what the baseline of Your Experience is. Intellect Identification destroys all of this, because Intellect divides and separates, not unites and brings together as one which is the Absolute isn't it? The base problem is that people today are brought up via their intellects as the primary form of Intelligence, which in reality it is just a tool, but its gotten us so much in the form of comforts & conveniences, scientific discovery and higher quality of life, so we think it is the be all end all, but it just the beginning of what our true Potential is...

@Psychedelic seeker Once leo wakes up he becomes God of us all. When you wake up you become God of us all. So from perspective of dream characters its true. God is infinitely waking up all its dream characters waking up at the same time forever creating this infinite bliss. Leo is talking from his perspective like he is God but hes not right now he is in a lower dimension then Top Dog God and is Top Dog God right now at the same time. It is kind of egoic but he is just speaking the truth and he sees that he is God of the universe. You are too Everything is visual hallucination from inside a machine. But the brain is tuned somewhere and we see eachother and God did that.

@NilsiSome food for thought , from different perspectives : Even if you were to spend every single second of your life working, getting minimal sleep and optimizing your productivity to your maximim, working your ass off to the very fullest, you would barely move an inch towards solving " humanities pain and misery " . I dont share this for you to get depressed and unmotivated. It's a truth of life that is actually freeing you to choose WHAT DO YOU PERSONALLY FIND MEANINGFUL Consider that unless you consciously choose it, it is not your job as a human being to save others from suffering and pain. And if so, choose a specific niche problem that you find meaningful solving, that aligns with your personal strenghts , values, prefered medium, domain of mastery and zone of genious ( yeah a Life Purpose ) and make your life's work about solving it. You triangulate all of this so that the time of your life that you spend on it is as meaningful , fulfilling and rewarding as possible . Remember that a Life Purpose is your career, your life's impact and contribution to the world. It is a big part of your Life , but it's not the entirety. Chronically spending more than about two chunks of 4 hours per day on your Career, no matter how much you love it, will most likely end up being counter-productive . It will end up negatively affecting the other areas of your life . Work-life balance is real. The balance looks differently at different chapters of your life . A Human being has more needs besides a Career and Life Purpose. You have social needs, sexual needs, physiological needs, finantial needs, cognitive needs, biological needs, curiosity for life, etc Identify what are your needs and work on fulfilling them consciously rather than unconsciously. In what way is your career not fulfilling ? Work on that. In what way do you find meaningful connecting with others? Architect your social life so you can meet this need in that specific way. More food for thought : Empathy is self manipulation. You don't have access to others suffering. You imagine it. And mostly it's less acurrate than it actually is . Your negative emotions and suffering is manually generated by your mind, in an unconscious way. I see that you are aware that if you "stop looking" and imagining others emotions and difficult situations, your suffering dissapears . And you say you want to feel deeper, which is a noble desire, but I advise to learn how to turn "empathy and that negative imagination" on and off on command . You already have it partially turned off. You are not connected to the suffering of the current 8.000,000.000 people. you are not connected to the suffering of the 100,000,000,000 human beings that have stepped on this planed, and not to talk about all the animals, insects, vegetation and so on, currently alive and throughout all of time . Not being able to turn off empathy and disconnect imagining others suffering would be acertain OCD in my opition, and is a recipe for unnecesary suffering . More food for thought : Desire is an unconscious contract we make with ourselves to be unhappy untill we archive what we want. Over and over . It allows you to leverage negative emotions for extra fuel you wouldn't have if you knew how to be satisfied with less. It is absolutely useful- but for a certain stage of your life. Think deeply before letting go of it . I have spent my early twenties deconstructing my motivational systems and have access to " unconditional happiness " and " bliss on command" states. It's great, but on the other hand this doesn't fit my personallity since im very creative and have yet to establish a fulfilling career as a finantial backbone for my life . I have accidentaly unraveled it at the wrong stage of my life, because I didn't know better . Now I'm spending the second part of my twenties manually reconstructing my reward and motivational mechanisms from the ground up. Unconditional happiness to that extreme degree makes you a lazy sloth and ends up backfiring in multiple ways, as you have correctly intuited. It's very counter productive to what the mechanics of being a part of society requiere of you. Unless you have nailed your LP or have enough income for a lifetime, I'd think twice about letting go of that mechanism . But let's not get stuck in black and white thinking here . What I advise you here is to be more open to your intuition rather than relying on negative feelings and drudgery. You can find motivation, meaning, happiness and guidance in other ways : What do you love doing ? what do you find beautiful ? what sparks your curiosity and interest ? What absorbs you so much you want to master it ? What inspires you ? What kind of contribution or impact on the world / humanity / others do you find meaningful ? How can you leverage your values, strenghts and interests to build a meaningful career ? If you follow that intuition, unless you have serious health issues, you will still be productive without having to rely on negative motivation and suffering. I'm happy to elaborate more if any of this has sparked your curiosity .

sorry to hear you are despondent and your life seems rubbish what i would say to you is, life is nothing without the 3 b's: beauty, bliss, brain-power beauty means to see the divine each day whether it be in a child's face, a sunset, a hottie in a swimsuit, a painting or the waves of the ocean bliss means to experience your true nature and this can be accomplished through meditation, psychedelics or service to and love of mankind brain-power means to engage in self-betterment and smart usage of one's time and energy also i urge you to know the universe needs you and only you can carry out the difficult assignments that have your name on them you are essential to my destiny and to the destiny of millions like me

imagine reality to be two dimensional: one dimension is happiness, joy, ecstasy, bliss, fulfillment... and the other dimension is: pain, suffering, misery, torture, illness, depression... and you as God want to explore any of them truthfully. it's almost like you're exploring each dimension. given how many people experience the second dimension, i wouldn't say it's wise to want to only experience the first dimension. embrace your suffering and treat it as an exploration of the second dimension of reality, the dimension of misery and suffering. be completely unbiased about it. the goal of life isn't the good life. But to experience whatever comes as a growth opportunity and wise investment into your overall understanding of reality.

Both physically and mentally. Lots of potential for accidental abuse, misuse, overuse. You can really sour yourself on life and blackpill yourself psychologically if you go too deep. Humans are not meant to be that conscious. And you will not be able to hold on to that level of consciousness. So you will have to live knowning how much you're missing. The beauty of nondualists is that they just have no idea how little they understand Consciousness. So they can live in bliss.

Bliss is for the spiritual hedonist There are blissful states and non blissful states, that's the nature of Infinity What did those sages mean when talking about Ananda is probably Existential Love. I would translate Bliss to Amrita or Rasa, I think it's a more accurate description; from my knowledge of the scriptures and my current experience. I would take such lense when interpreting the vedic texts. Language is a tricky subject and sanskrit has many nuances to express spiritual experiences that aren't translatables to other languages. Furthermore what those terms encapsulate are different for every individual. This distinctions are crucial if we want to get clarity on the topic. Love on the other hands seem to be existence itself, a Love for everything that is, the infinite oneness & unity throughout eternity, it is ever present and therefore unattainable as it is beyond gain or loss, it is everpresently loving all that is because it is itself. It loves bliss so much as pain. It is unbiased and without preferences for one part over the other, it's perfect love. In this regard bliss for me is just a transcendental emotion. I also like this quote regarding God-Consciousness and happiness:

It is said that my experience is absolute and there's nothing outside my experience. That when I am not looking at my mom she doesn't exist. But also there's a "special way to be" (i.e. awake or enlightened) or that there is a see of infinite insects or aliens or trippy church stained glass visuals that is a higher truth or God itself. Where are all these cool visuals if I can't see them? Isn't it the same thing as when a Christian believes there's a heaven with infinite bliss and angles? Why or why not?

The person see itself trapped in the eternity alone and that's why it's scary. Who had that perception is the ego. For me, psychedelic trips are a way to make the mind flexible, the opening to infinity happens sober, or perhaps with a single hit of weed to soften the mind a little. openings with psychedelics are forced, and the ego always finds a way to get a hold (i have done hundreds of trips of 5meo and DMT). The surrender of the self must be voluntary, if it is forced by a substance 99% there will be a remainder of identification and confusion. To say that reality is pure love, pure bliss, total intelligence is not false, but it is still identification. Reality is the absence of limits, and that is the cause of love, etc. the openness must be absolute and the surrender of the self total. and no drug is going to do it for you, you have to do it yourself

Bliss is more like material bypassing

Feeling free and peace is possible. Go head man no one stops you try:) what you really are is nothing, not the bliss.