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Right that is why there are many angry people otherwise they would be depressed and thinking about suicide. Hate is sometimes the last tool in the toolbox.

The most valuable people in one´s life use to be: -The ones who have a long history timeline with you. -The ones you find while doing your way in life, like taking courses, hanging out around the same places, working, etc. I have reached a point in my life now, in which I have only 2 real available friends for the day-to-day meetings, one of them is now in the psychiatric for a suicide attempt. I have a cousin too, with whom I work out in the gym, and a bikers group for sporadic motorcycle routes. Everyone else lives out of my city. And I have about three to five more people for WhatsApp conversations, but I don´t meet them. My meetings are currently 1v1, or 3 total. No groups, no big meetings. That´s it. In my opinion, the ideal situation would be up to four intimate friends for 2 to 4 people meetings, 1 intimate partner, and 1 or 2 groups for big meetings. This sounds like a very rich and fulfilling social life.

One guy asked me... Why the world is so unfair, why there is so much prejudice, hypocrisy even on Leo's blog. Why we can't observe without a judgement, and all the negative judgement for me, why so unfair? He sounded very much like joker to me, who is drowning in his victimness not realising he is only victim of his own victimhood, and such people God keeps in the world for his destruction purposes. Me: The more you feel like that, and it's true, world is full of bullshit, human has limited itself to a crap. The problem is he thinks everyone else a crap but himself. So people who are closest to God feel like they are being treated worst, people are giving into their natural desires, and it is taking them into the hell. That's why God has made the heaven for people like you, you are there for a reason, for God, for true you, so recognize yourself. Don't fall in the trap of ego, it will eventually die after some time, so kill it now, don't wait me to kill it. Commit suicide, you will find that the nature, the desires I have given to you, I was in those people as maya. I was the whole time the ego which dies, everything dies only I remain, I and you are the same.

Hey, I’m really really desperate. A year ago I underwent circumcision to fix my phimosis. The surgeon cut off too much skin, which results in pain and uncomfortable erections. Even while flaccid it’s extremely annoying and disallows me to do a lot of stuff. The overall experience really sucks beyond words. I consulted several urologists already, but none of them could help me. I was searching the internet for months, but there simply is no technique to reverse the damage. I could wait for regenerative medicine, but that‘s still extremely far away. The only way would be regenerating it by myself. Abraham Hicks speaks a lot about these things. There‘s a guy named Joe Dispenza who speaks about the achievement of such miraculous healing. I mean Jesus reportedly walked on water, transformed water into wine, healed the lepers, attached an ear that has been cut off. I just don’t trust all of it really .. I‘m 22 and I just can‘t deal with it. Everyday I‘m on the verge of suicide because I can‘t take it anymore. I don‘t want no more.. @Leo Gura please help me .. You’re my last hope

Perfection of Material Science by Siddharameshwar Maharaj Temporal life or worldliness (Sansara) means an attempt to make oneself happy at the cost and sacrifice of others (total indifference to other’s welfare and miseries). Parmartha means (1) to realise the Origin of the whole Universe (2) to enjoy one’s own natural happiness (i.e. happiness not acquired by any efforts or means – happiness of Self) and (3) to make all people similarly and equally happy and (4) Perfection of Material Science. Material researches are always imperfect and imperfect things cannot bring happiness to anyone. Parmartha is nothing but bringing material researches to perfection. Perfection brings happiness to all. Raw food or not properly cooked food causes pain while ripe food is wholesome. Even bitter ‘Nimb fruit’ when completely ripe gives sweet taste. Material researches when brought to perfection reach the stage of Parmartha which means nothing but God or Brahma. Temporal life (Sansara) or Spiritual life (Parmartha) both have only one goal in view viz: to attain happiness. But material life or material researches bring only temporary happiness whereas the Parmartha means perfect Eternal Happiness which is unexcelled by any other happiness. Material life (sansara) and spiritual life (parmartha) both aim at one thing but results are quite the reverse. In one there is endless misery while in the other there is boundless and unexcelled Eternal joy. Material science has determined that the Origin of the Universe is Ether (imperceptible matter supposed to pervade all space) and what is beyond it is not perceivable. The material scientists observe through the instrumentality of eyes, microscopes, glasses and such others which being themselves objective and inanimate only help with the knowledge of material objects but not in the knowledge of imperceptible Reality beyond Ether. That Reality can only be known by ‘Jnana’ i.e. Truth Consciousness. Objects which are quite near, are felt by the skin and further than those are seen by eyes and still further are known by ears. The inner properties of things such as sweetness, pungency, sourness etc, are however known by the tongue. Such inner properties cannot be known by skin, eyes or ears. Still more subtle and imperceptible substance is known alone by mind (mana) or intellect (buddhi) but it is only the ‘Jnana’ (consciousness) which knows everything. The said Jnana which is the Origin of everything is impossible to be realised by lifeless and inanimate objects like microscopes. Moreover, the inner invisible properties of things viz. sweetness in sweet things, sourness in sour things and pungency in chillies are impossible to be perceived by any instrument or glass. These material instruments go as far as the outward form of objects but they cannot penetrate into their inner properties. If they cannot penetrate into the inner properties of inanimate objects, then how is it possible for them to realise the imperceptible Reality which is the Origin of all things visible or invisible known as Jnana? For realization of the said 2 Origin that is Jnana (Truth Consciousness) it is necessary to have such means which can realise the same. No wonder therefore that the scientists and agnostics who investigate only by material and inanimate instruments, have not been able to know anything of the said Jnana. The ancient Rishis in India first studied the material science but when they could not find the Real happiness therein, they progressed in the study of mental science. Here they made many wonderful discoveries, such as reading the minds of others, knowing things and events happening at a great distance, making one’s own form invisible to others, entering into another’s body, leaving his own, curing diseases both mental and physical by rechanting Mantras and moving through the sky and attained many other supernatural powers (siddhis); but ultimately they having found that these powers would not help them in the attainment of the Real and Eternal Happiness, directed their attention to know and realise the Soul. In this, they attained perfect Spiritual Content – they attained supreme felicity. Here they experienced unexcelled and boundless joy and happiness and in this state every one of them ejaculated “Blessed am I!” “Blessed am I!” The Sublime Truth which they realised in this Knowledge was denominated as Ishwar (God) Deva – i.e. the enlightening Spirit of all or Brahma (than whom nothing is greater) and this they propounded as the Origin of the whole Universe. Material scientists could not approach the Reality or could not realise the said Origin and stopped at a point which is nullity. They are therefore called materialists or agnostics, but the Vedantists (Vedic philosophers) or scholars of similar other religions who propound the same Truth as the Vedas realised the real existence of the Sublime Truth, therefore they are called the propounders or believers of Jnana, the Reality or Truth. It is the said Jnana or the said Reality which is known as Brahma or Ishwara. The same is also known as Deva (div = to shine) because the same is the source of Knowledge of everything or because everything is known of Him and therefore He is the enlightenment of everything i.e. Deva. In Him there is the creation of everything and the whole Universe is created of Him. In fact He is the origin (Father) of everything. Jesus preached that God is beyond sky, and sky means nothing i.e. nullity. Beyond this nullity or sky what really exists is known as Deva (God or Father). Sky or nullity is the complete ignorance (Ajnana) because nothing existing is known. What exists beyond this sky is the Jnana or the Reality which knows even the sky or nullity and this Jnana or the Reality is described by all religions as God. Amongst such religions the Hindu religion has given a vivid and very clear description of God by giving various attributes such as Drishta (seer of all – origin of sight), Chaitanya (i.e. moving Spirit of all), Sakshi (Omnipresent-witnessing everything), Paripurna (the Perfect One), Nirantar (one without distance), Ananta (one having no end in any other as opposed to other things which would ultimately end in Him). He is known as Brahma or Ishwara who is the Origin of the whole universe having all the above attributes. Only by one attribute of Nirantar i.e. having no distance, the hollowness of all material researches so far made is exposed. The Origin of this Universe is Brahma which is nir-antar (without distance). Therefore the experiments of radio, wireless etc. have been successful. With the help of a telescope, things at a distance appear nearer. This is of course not on account of the instrument. The instrument does not drag the thing nearer from a distance. All things are in fact from the beginning situated without any distance but they appear at a distance to the material eye. If the objectiveness of the eye is removed by some means, then everything will appear within you and without any distance. Radio does not bring the word nearer but the word itself is within you without any distance whatsoever. Radio etc. does nothing but only help you in the experience of the words which are within you without any distance. Just see that the words uttered by us do not scatter away in the wind like parched rice and the sentence uttered is not broken away in disorderly manner, but all words are heard at one time by several people in all directions! On careful consideration of this point everything becomes intelligible. One must come to the conclusion that whatever is in existence today was in existence from the commencement. The rule is that what exists can only be experienced and nothing else. Hence the modern scientists have not discovered anything new nor have they made any new things. What exists today is or what appears to be discovered today was already in existence from the commencement but it is only this that it became intelligible to us only now, the same being not known to us before. Is this to be called discovery? What was not in existence before, cannot be created, or discovered by any instrument, nor by any means whatsoever. The Vedas are the repositories of many truths. The infiniteness of Vedic knowledge can be imagined if even one of these truths is tried to be understood. Along with this knowledge one would also be convinced of the hollowness and falsity of modern discoveries. The modern researchers ought not to get inflated by vanity for their so called inventions and discoveries. Because truly speaking they have not yet known anything about the Real Truth. These people not having realised the true state of the Universe are under a delusion from the start. It will not therefore be improper if we make this subject clear from further exposition. A microscope gives appearance to a small object as having a big volume. The same appears smaller to the eye without the help of any instrument. Then what is the real state? Does the glass enlarge the volume of the thing or the eye make it smaller? Only one thing appears larger at one time and smaller at another. Then what is the fact? Is the thing really small or large? What is the true state of the thing? The thing which is in fact small, can never be made larger by any instrument. No instrument can make it bigger and if the thing is in fact large then it can never appear smaller to the eye. The reason is neither the machine nor the eye can make the thing large or small. Then what is the cause for one thing appearing smaller or larger by different means (viz. by the eye or by the glass). Deeper thinking on this point would convince us that the glass does not make the thing bigger nor the eye make it smaller. The power of cognizance coming out of the eye being weak, the thing appears smaller. The glass instrument intensifies the power of the eye (that cognizes the objects in the world) and on account of the intensified power, the same thing appears larger. Thus with the help of external instruments we increase the power of cognizance and the thing appears in a larger form. If we extend this process of increasing the cognizing power, the object goes on assuming a larger and larger form until it becomes so large that it would become rarified and would become invisible like sky (vacant space) and would appear as if there is nothing and in the end the thing would not be visible at all. It is common experience that if the power of the light is intensified to a very great degree, the light becomes invisible or blinding. An object appearing at a distance, if seen by the physical eye alone, would appear very near if seen with the assistance of a telescope. Then, whether the telescope dragged that object nearer or the eye took the same further off it would be neither of the two. The reason for the object appearing nearer with the help of a telescope is that the telescope increases the cognizing power of the eye. Similarly if the cognizing power is intensified further and further by more and more powerful means, then the object would appear nearer and nearer and would appear so near that it would appear within us and in the end would become invisible and would disappear altogether. If our eyes were as powerful as telescope would we have experienced the distance between things as we experience now? No. Following the same line of argument one would be faced with the question whether the things that appear nearer or at a distance, or that assume any size or volume whatsoever really exist at all. One must come to the conclusion that nothing appearing really exists and what appears as existing is only an illusion. Does it therefore amount to this that the whole fault lies with the 3 4 cognizing power of the eye or intellect, in the experience of (1) the distance between things (2) the difference in the smaller and bigger volume and size of things and (3) in the existence and non-existence of things. Then people who only believe their experience of what they see and feel as true on account of their weak eyes and intellect must be convinced that the discoveries such as flying by aeroplanes, travelling by railways, driving in motor cars or hearing sound by radios are all nothing but an illusion. Thus in reality there being no distance at all where did you fly and where did you run? Is this not all due to the ignorance of the true state of things? If in reality, there was any distance in the universe, then no radio or any other powerful instrument could have made the sound heard nearer. Just see the sound which is heard through the instrumentality of radio! It is heard as spoken very near. Just see how near is the object which is seen through the instrumentality of a telescope! From all these it is proved that all things are without any distance. There is no distance whatever in anything. There is no difference in size or volume. In fact there is nothing like size or volume. Similarly things which appear to exist have no existence at all. The conclusion which we have shown here is only a fraction of one of the many principles contained in the Vedas. If only this one principle is wholly treated, then people will have altogether a different experience about the true state of things and will at once perceive what a huge difference there is in the knowledge and experience of a Jnani i.e. a person who has realised the Truth and in the knowledge experience of those who have not realised the Truth. But what is the use of explaining the said principles in full to persons who are wholly and solely after materialism? At present we would like to stop at the preliminary exposition only. This is however to give some idea about the infinite and sublime philosophy of the Vedas. The origin of all things in this Universe is known as Ishwara (Lord of all i.e. the controlling Power) Brahma (Infinite Being) or Deva (i.e. enlightening Spirit of all). This Sublime Truth can never be realised by fasts, bodily austerities or various forms of discipline enjoined by various sects of religions but the same is only realised by Jnana (Self Realization) by the teachings of a Spiritual preceptor. The Reality which gives Supreme and Infinite Joy and which can only be realised by the Spiritual thinking is present everywhere and at all times. Then why should not intelligent people make efforts to know it? It is our advice to all again and again to make efforts to realise the said Truth. Without it the world will never have the real happiness or peace. It is the only source of real peace or happiness. The same is the natural Happiness of all and is also known as Samadhana or Religion. The same is the goal of all religions. Religion therefore means realization of the Origin of the whole Universe viz: God or ‘Jnana’ and that alone is called true religion. The present followers of converts to Hinduism, Mahomedanism, Christianity or any other religion have not realised the true religion described above. A Hindu may be asked “What have you known by following Hinduism? Have you realised God, Brahma, or Rama, Krishna and Shiva? No. Then what have you known? Wearing Dhoti, putting on turban and speaking ‘touch me not’ ‘touch me not’, are these the only and real principles of Hindu Religion? Similarly a Mahomedan may be asked what have you known by following Mahomedanism? Have you known “Khuda” or “Allah”? No. Then what have you known? You allow beard to grow, circumcise and rejoice in cow-slaughter-Kurbani. Is the Mahomedan Religion confined to these acts only? A Christian may also be asked what have you known as a Christian? Have you known the Father in Heaven? No. Then what have you done? You have put on boots, pant, collar, necktie and moved in society with wife hand in hand and put on Cross. Is this the religion of Christianity? Where do the Hindus, Mahomedans, Christians etc. know the origin of their own respective religion which is known as God? Of course there might be some exception. In short no one has really known or realised any religion in its real sense and therefore no one belongs to any religion. If that is so, how can any person be converted to another religion or how can one lose his former religion? If change in religion or conversion is to be confined only to change in dress and food and outward appearance then many Hindus dress like Europeans or Mahomedans and many Mahomedans dress like Hindus. If change in dress and food is to be understood as change in religion, then one shall have to admit that many people become converts every day from one religion to another. Therefore change in dress and food is no criterion of conversion. It is the realisation of the root principle of any religion, that is call the real following of or conversion to the said religion, and the root of every religion is one, viz: the Soul. Therefore there can be no two religions and similarly there can be no conversion. Therefore nobody becomes a convert and nobody can convert another. It is also not correct to say, that the body becomes a convert because there is no change in the body or complexion of a convert, nor in his bones, flesh, blood etc. nor are his mother, father, brother etc. changed. His dead relations do not return to him nor the living die. If we say it is only a change in the mental belief, then, it is alright. It comes to this that the mere mental belief of a Hindu that he has become a Christian would make him a Christian and again when he changes his belief and believes him to be following Hindu religion, then again he is a Hindu. The same is the case with all religions. It is the belief that alone works. Where is then the multiplicity of religions and where is conversion? Where is the loss of a religion? What is all this humbug? Many people say that their religion is better than all other religions. Such people may be asked what is the superiority or inferiority in religion? Is it not confined to certain kind of dress, accepting or rejecting certain food or eating many times in a day or fasting? If this is the meaning of religion, it can be observed in any religion and at any place. If however realization of God is the criterion of real religion as stated above, then is there any true lover of any religion who can solemnly declare that immediately on accepting his religion, anybody would be able to realise God in no time? If there is any person to make such a declaration, then all the present followers of his religion must have realised God. But experience tells us that it is not so. In a big conference at Chicago, Swami Vivekanand had stated that many persons propounding the cardinal principles on religion do not know God themselves, then what about their followers? Such people only talk much but when some point blank question is put to them about God they become tongue-tied. The Vedas have boldly propounded that by following the path led by the Sadguru (one who has realised the Eternal Truth which is God) who alone is the guide and Saviour, one can realise God in this very body. All religions and scriptures propound the same thing. The seekers of Parmartha are therefore warned to be very careful not to allow themselves to be led astray about the Parmartha laid down in the Vedas by the pseudo teachings of the inexperienced imposters. It is on account of association with such people that parmartha has become a difficult problem. It is however not difficult for those who come into touch with true guides who have realised the Self. It is stated in a Sanskrit verse that there is some trouble in withering a fully blossomed flower but there is not the least trouble in the attainment of Parmartha. At present the Parmartha has become very difficult because inexperienced imposters have thrust into the Parmartha path many false and misleading principles and therefore various sorts of beliefs, superstitions, sentiments and usages are to be found which have caused great confusion in Religion. For the 5 6 removal of such superstitions and confusion some followers of our Sadguru Shri Sidha Rameshwar Maharaj have published a book in Marathi, Gujarati and Canerese languages called “Parmarth Marga Pradeep” which may be gone through with advantage. It many a time happens that people of other countries, desirous of knowing Vedic philosophy fall into the hands of inexperienced pandits who disappoint them. Such people conclude that there is not much in Vedant. Therefore all people are hereby warned from making hasty judgement by merely listening to incapable and inexperienced pandits but they should wait for their decision until they hear the Vedic philosophy from Shri Sidha Rameshwar Maharaj. Those who emphasise the superiority of their own religion and underrate that of others have not understood the root principle of any religion, not only so but in fact they do not even understand what is Religion. The main object of all religions is one and the same viz: realisation of God who is the Origin of the whole Universe. He is otherwise known as the Samadhan or the perfect Natural Happiness described above in the beginning hereof. The whole Universe depends upon Him and the life of all beings is preserved on account of Him. Every living being requires as of necessity Samadhana. It is the final goal of every one and the whole world is striving for it. What is the principal need of life? On what does it depend? It depends principally on Samadhana. Which food is taken most? By what is the life really preserved? This is a point for careful consideration. Does happiness depend on wife? No. In which case people would have carried their wives with them everywhere. Does it depend on a son? No. Son is sent to school. If it depends on food, people do not fasten a bag of food to their mouth. All these things are done for mental happiness i.e. for samadhana. When this samadhana (happiness) is disturbed, people get tired of the very things which were once pleasing to them and throw them off. Why that is done? Because otherwise the samadhana would be disturbed. Nobody says “enough of samadhana” or that he is tired of it. The whole substance is that samadhana is required as principal food in every morsel and at every step in every walk of life. It is required in every work every minute and in every word. It is for the sake of this samadhana that people, eat, drink or go and sit in latrines. People do not know what their wants i.e. necessities of life are. They require space, air, water, light, and earth. They also require respect and honour and desire to be addressed as Sir, Lord, Rao, Sahib etc. Why all these? It is all for samadhana, i.e. (eternal) joy and (eternal) happiness. Some people beg of God, death, why is that? It is for samadhana. When a man thinks he cannot get happiness in this life, he desires death and sometimes commits suicide. Throughout life people live only for samadhana. Desire for heaven, prayer to God for happiness or blessings or begging of the spiritual preceptor for the removal of miseries or giving salvation (Moksha) – all these are for samadhana. Thus every living being requires samadhana as a necessity. It is clear that renunciation, rejection or acceptance of anything including even body, is for samadhana and samadhana alone. What does religion mean? Parmartha (Self realisation) or attainment of Supreme Bliss. What is its object? Freedom or salvation. Samadhana means to be free from all and every misery and to obtain Eternal and Supreme Happiness. The Samadhana described in the above paragraphs is only temporary because it relates to temporal life. The Pleasure from material objects is temporary or for the time being, but the attainment of Perfect and Supreme or Eternal Bliss (samadhana) is the real Parmartha or Moksha i.e. freedom from all miseries, anxieties, toils and labours &c. It gives Supreme Bliss. The very life depends on happiness. To make happiness Eternal and perfect and supreme is Parmartha. People have come to this world to attain this Eternal and Natural Happiness. How can this Eternal and Natural Happiness be secured? It is only possible to be attained by the grace of a Sadguru (Spiritual preceptor). It is now clear that Real and true Happiness means Parmartha (Perfect, Eternal and Natural). It is the duty of all to secure the same. Everyone is striving for it. Body, wife, son etc. all are for that Ananda. The Parmartha giving Eternal happiness is not confined to any particular sect or religion. It is the religion and birth right of everybody. It is impossible to live without it. Even death is for the attainment of the said Happiness, i.e. Parmartha. Knowingly or unknowingly everyone attempts for it. One striving for it knowingly and willingly with a mind and zeal gets it permanently. But one who does not understand what is the Parmartha and does not know the path for its attainment makes useless and futile efforts day and night to get happiness. For happiness he at times takes a dose of opium or wine or indulges in politics or in making new discoveries and inventions or does a number of other things. But he does not find real happiness in any of them and ultimately he gets tired of them. In the end everyone will have to take a dose of Parmartha knowingly and with a will for it. Such Parmartha which is Ananda (Perfect Happiness) is the religion of all. It does not belong to nor is confined to any sect or religion. Those who say they do not want Anand or Parmartha should rather unhesitatingly and loudly cry “We are not alive” “We are dead”. Even death is also for that Parmartha or Samadhan-Annand or Happiness. Where will you go leaving Parmartha? How can you live without it? What humbug? The world is hankering for happiness. Everyone is striving hard only for happiness, if this is so, then how is it that instead of happiness, unhappiness and misery result. In these days from peasant to the prince everyone is found to be unhappy. On careful consideration on the point one must come to the conclusion that the methods adopted to gain happiness are wrong and defective and there is some serious blunder at the bottom of the said methods. In all civilized countries nothing but misery is found. As new discoveries are being made by the modern civilisation, miseries and terror also keep pace with them. By such discoveries there is a growing increase in the needs of people and to meet the same people must toil and labour more and more. The demand upon the resources of people for satisfying their fresh and new wants is growing everyday with the new invention. Every new invention would make only the inventor rich but the pockets of millions of other people are emptied because of the new and fresh wants created by his invention. It is better to suffer from a serpent bite than to increase a single want. A serpent’s poison can be cured by its remedy once only but the want is required to be satisfied for the whole life. Once a new invention is out then the same is widely advertised and all sorts of tactics are used to create a demand for the same only to make moneys thereout by exploiting the ignorance. Very often Governments also have to make use of their powers and resort to oppression, intrigues or politics. Sometimes Governments go to the length of waging wars with other countries to force such inventions upon other countries. Thus with the progress in invention, peoples’ wants are increased and various tactics are in progress to extort moneys. In such circumstances how can you expect real fraternity or unity? This is nothing but open enmity. Such robbery and extortion are however described as the great progress in civilization and as increasing universal brotherhood and fraternity in the world. Let those who say so rejoice in such fraternity but it is certain that the world will not be happy by such discoveries. These discoveries are dragging the people to hell. The world is galloping towards hell. If the world will continue to proceed in the same manner and in the same direction, the result would be cruelty, bloodshed, and horrible warfare. Nobody can deny that these new manufacturers of the modern science have only increased risks and dangers to life. Why in ancient times people could maintain strict morality and the virtues of truth, honesty and compassion? The reason is obvious. Peoples’ wants were few and they could secure their necessities with a slight labour. There was therefore no reason for people to addict to immorality. Now the wants are so 7 8 immensely increased that they cannot be satisfied even by hard work, hence rogueries, intrigues, immorality are rampant and people have gone to the length of committing thefts. People are inclined to vices on account of wants. They would supply their needs by any foul means. Need is the mother of all vices. It causes anxiety and worry. People have no trust in one another and they adopt unscrupulous and unlawful means and fear, unrest and violence prevail everywhere. Bravo! Oh! Need! Such is thy power! The whole universe is being dragged into a deep valley on account of you. In short, the immortality which is rampant in the whole world at present, is the result of the ever growing wants. It is on account of the said wants that a man labours. A man having no need would flatly refuse to work. “What do I care for” is the expression often used by un-needy persons. The substance is, it is the need which compels one to labour and to stoop to do immoral acts. It is for the sake of sheer want that a man suffers the humiliation and indignity. It is said that when times are adverse, even fools are adored. Necessity knows no law nor dignity and nobody can preserve self-restraint or respect with their needs staring at them. In these days of modern civilization people are always in need and surrounded with difficulties to satisfy their wants. As for law! For the due observance of one principle of law people have to do several unlawful things secretly. The more the restraint the more the immorality. When the straight path becomes impossible a man has to resort to any crooked ways and means. This rule applies to all beings equally. To say that the world is being made happy by such reforms and inventions which are productive of constant wants is equivalent to saying that a house on fire can be extinguished by rock oil. What is the present social life also? It is nothing but dramatic and artificial! It is not that the ancient sages in India were incapable of making such reforms, inventions etc. as are now made by the modern scientists which push down the world into the deep valley of misery. They were quite competent to make such discoveries but the reason why those scientists (sages) kept aloof and abandoned such reforms and inventions is that they knew full well that the same were not meant for any happiness to the world but were for total destruction of the peace and tranquillity of the whole world. It was their firm conviction that such reforms and inventions of the present day type would produce endless miseries and worldwide anxieties and worries as are now being experienced. The natural peace and joy enjoyed by the world before the times of modern civilization has now completely disappeared. People of modern civilization cannot have any idea about it by any stretch of the imagination. In those days peace and joy reigned supreme everywhere and people could live with ease and pleasure with a little labour. The whole family was easily maintained by the slight labour of only one member. Not only that but even guests were welcomed and entertained cheerfully as if in Diwali (holiday) festivals. Now-a-days however, the guests are unwelcome like Yama i.e. God of Death. Are the Nations who are topmost in modern civilization really happy? Only some might appear happy outwardly but inwardly the majority of people in the world are drowned in miseries and have to struggle hard out of proportion for bare maintenance, so much so that one day without work means fast certain. Many cannot afford to keep a house and lie in the streets like vagabonds on account of their incapacity to provide maintenance and residence to the whole family. They cannot find maintenance for one, then, why think of family or guests? In these circumstances how do you expect true love, fraternity and universal brotherhood? This is only hypocracy and outward sham appearance. God alone knows what is passing within! The revered Great men have proclaimed that it is alone the Parmartha (Vedic philosophy) which would bring Supreme Bliss, natural happiness, mutual love and universal brotherhood. Without it the world will never be happy. Without the modern reforms and inventions the world did enjoy complete happiness. India’s wealth 8 9 was boundless and India acquired the name of “Land of Gold”! This was not because of the modern up-to-date fashionable living but it was so on account of the simple living with very few wants. It was the result of enjoying merrily the natural resources supplied by Nature. The modern civilization has produced only articles of luxury and tremendously increased the wants of people and consequently made them unhappy and miserable. Modern researchers cannot discover the useful and nutritious articles necessary for life but how the same could be produced was the discovery made by the ancient sages. The Rishis made discoveries of things necessary for the preservation of life but simultaneously enjoined renunciation in the highest degree restricting the use of and enjoyment thereof in the minimum. The reason is that one should not worry too much after such material objects otherwise one will not be able to find time and energy to think of Eternal Happiness. The measure of happiness derived from worldly objects is out of proportion to the immense labour and trouble required for their attainment. From the view of real happiness, therefore, this is not a profitable bargain, for happiness, is like an atom and the misery is of a mountain in dimension. Providence has arranged that what is required for real happiness can be had everywhere without any cost or effort. He has also arranged for the automatic and natural production from the earth of the articles required for food and drink. These natural products were enjoyed with great delight by the ancient sages and they are still being enjoyed with the greatest delight by birds, beasts and such other creatures who have no sense of discrimination. Only the mankind who are endowed with all senses and faculties and who believe themselves to be wise and superior to all others do not enjoy the same with delight and pleasure and by reason of their foolishness not only themselves suffer great hardships but along with them also cause most unbearable hardships to the dumb animals like horses, oxen, elephants, camels and others who would have otherwise enjoyed independently this natural bliss with pleasure and delight. All other ignorant creatures who have no sense of discrimination enjoy the natural resources with the utmost joy and pleasure and move as free and independent as monarchs. They never think of service, commerce, or labour even in their dream. O! Wise men! This wife (Creation-Prakriti-nature) has created and kept ready what may be required as of necessity, for the happiness of her Lord. Only the husband (mankind) has to enjoy the natural happiness always produced by Nature without any effort or anxiety. But this husband who is ‘no vara’ i.e. regardless of this natural happiness on account of his overwiseness becomes a cook like a fool and labours hard to make discoveries and inventions to find out new forms and means of happiness which however always result in extreme misery. The nature of creation is full of all resources and has in abundance all necessities of life required by all beings. Only men who are best of all creatures labour day and night like a donkey others die of worries and anxieties while other creatures enjoy the food drink and other necessities of life provided by nature with utmost delight and pleasure. There is a Marathi proverb which literally means that wise men eat cow-dung and fools eat sweetmeats. Will you try to see through the meaning of this proverb? Are you not still convinced that the natural products are more than sufficient for maintenance? Are you not still disgusted with the constant drudgery? Has not the time yet come to know from Spiritual Preceptors the means of removing the burning worries of people? Be it so! It is therefore that the ancient sages and the founders of all religions enjoined the renunciation of the material objects and realization of the Origin of the Universe viz: God or Brahma. This is what is meant by Parmartha herein. All nations are therefore hereby warned that the path chosen by them for their progress will bring them the most dreadful and terrible catastrophes. Therefore they should leave aside the idea of rejoicing in perishable material objects which are full of bitter poison and follow the path laid down in the Vedas which alone would bring them natural and Eternal happiness and create the feeling of universal fraternity. They should start immediately the system of enjoying equally and independently the natural assets of the Creation and avail themselves of the benefit of endless powers which are hidden behind the curtain of mind. Is it not the real duty of men of best talents in this world to find out ways and means so that the happiness and joy may be universal, the anxiety for work and need for income and accumulation might be put an end to, and warfare, crooked policies, politics and intrigues may disappear and peace may reign supreme all over the world? Everyday new discoveries are made and people are made to toil and labour for them and various tactics are used to increase the needs of people. How long the world is going to continue this course of life? Is not the world still tired of it? Now enough of this! Let all this be put an end to. At present all countries are after the discoveries of only material objects and people are led to materialism. The result is that the whole world has been unhappy and miserable. There will however be one day which will be the GOLDEN DAY for the whole world when a real SAVIOUR will come forward who will find out ways and means to remove the misery of all people and make them happy. Oh! Inventors therefore find out at least one such invention whereby nobody will be required to toil, exert or labour at any time and under any circumstances. O! Leaders find out at least one such movement which would remove all anxieties and wants from people so that there may not be any want to any one for anything whatsoever. What is the utility of your present inventions, reforms and movements which only increase drudgery and hard labour and ever create worry and killing anxiety? Why exert unnecessarily? In the present times, the anxiety and worry of “must work” “must work” like a ghost has taken the grip of everyone. That will be the GOLDEN DAY therefore when some inventor or reformer will come forward, who will do away with all the modern civilization, reforms, inventions, intrigues, and politics. Such a person will be known as a real Saviour! There is no doubt that such a Saintly Person will be remembered and worshipped forever! Never think that this is not possible. If this is not clear to you, please seek the advice of His Holiness Shri Sidha Rameshwar Maharaj

2CB is a psychedelic. That's all you need to know. Fuck what noobs on reddit use psychedelics for. Haha. Like it matters. Mescaline is a traditional psychedelic that has been used for centuries to awaken humanity. While 2CB is a synthetic - i.e. it doesn't appear to be around in nature - it's molecular structure is strikingly similar to mescaline. To go a little more in-depth, I'd say 2C-B is a very "nice" psychedelic, in the sense that I feel the risk of bad trips are less on it compared to LSD for example. 2C-B feels veeeeeeeery clean. So fucking clean. It just widens your consciousness in mind and body. It doesn't distort like LSD maybe does. And that's also probably why many party-goers like 2CB. It's clean. But you can use it for spiritual purposes instead of partying on it :-) Leo has one video on his YT-channel where he talks about one of his 2CB-trips. He used a small dosage and died, he said :-) Find it yourself, if you aren't already aware of it. "My past unconscious life was negative, pessimistic and somehow victim-minded." Yes. I can relate. A lot. Mine has been too. In that sense, if you get a full-blown awakening during a time in yor life where your ego is in victim-mindset, then I think enlightenment = hell. :-) I think I maybe have tried that a bit on LSD for 4 years ago, actually. I wanted to commit suicide. I didn't, luckily. Or maybe I did. Yet the Now is all that matters, I'm here Now, happy, writing meaningless words to you. <3 That's also why I try to "preach" : Practice Self-Love first. Then awaken. Cos then it's the opposite of Hell: It's Heaven on Earth. <3 "How do you transform your life into abundance and amazing experiences from awakening? Awaken simultaneously with having love in your life (love to your self/ego and love to the world/people around you) and then it happens by itself. <3 "Is it a matter of putting out positive vibes/energies which get back at you in form of positive experiences?" Yes. Good. You are wise.

There are a lot of complex things going on in reality I guess, but you don't have to understand all of them to be, at least not yet. It's quite simple, really, you haven't erased the "I". Suicide is not an option, not just morally or whatever because I'm nobody to juzge anybody if if wants to end his life, but rather that it's not an option because your survival conditioning won't allow it. That's what one of the turning points for me. My ego would complain about how life or this or that is an illusion, nonsense or whatever. But then I realized that this ego actually the problem. Also that this ego prefers to stay the same before actually changing and finding peace. Basically I saw clearly that the only problem in reality was my "I". From that moment it was crystal clear what I needed to do. I guess until you see this you won't have this realization. It doesn't take only suffering but also wisdow/observation. Really observing if the problem is reality or is your "I"

If you have broken off contact with your fiance then no wonder you have suicidal thoughts. Breakup is the most potent suicide-inducing factor

God cannot die. Suicide is imaginary.

@Leo Gura are you talking about mahasamdi? how do you know it won’t just be suicide

That’s too loosey-goosey for me. First, because schizophrenia has so many factors, any one factor is going to be very difficult to detect because the effect will likely be small. Previous anectodal reports may give a hint if there is a correlation, yet more formal studies would be needed to investigate deeper. . . . For example, if someone experiences some type of mental instability / depression sometime after tripping it’s very common to blame it on the psychedelic. People look for something unique that happened in their life and attribute causation to it. . . Yet recent clinical studies showed that participants that underwent psychedelic therapy did not have higher instances of mental instability, depression, suicide attempts etc. than the control group that went through traditional therapy without psychedelics. The clinical studies are still relatively new and they wanted to be extra cautious about possible risks and screened out anyone with a family history with schizophrenia. At this point, I would give more weight to animal studies than anecdotal self-reports and self diagnoses.

I told you to not confuse the lower death drive with the higher death drive. I do care that people don't commit suicide. Which is why I always say, don't harm the body. Suicide is no done out of consciousness and love, it is done out of fear and suffering. I am only talking about actions taken out of the highest consciousness and love.

Somebody considering suicide might be inspired to do it in reading this. but do you care? And you are saying this but retreated from it yourself in your Outrageous Experiments video where you were virtually crying in part of it. You didn't go through with the death experiment so why are you encouraging others to? Would it be fascinating to watch someone else do it? That's love?

Hello guys, I need your help with a relationship. I'm confused. This is a long post but I'm writing this so you might read this and be able to give me some good advice. Short about me: I am 17 years old, been on this path for 3 years full time, taking a break from school. Meditation every day, getting rid of addictions, working on life purpose & self-love. I'm currently studying at home in high school in Sweden. How the relationship started: It all started about 6 months ago, I met this girl and we had a special connection She is 30 years old, I'm 17... We had met once before and we clicked, and now we met once again 6 months ago at a stage green hippie indoor event. Before I met her, I had been in a needy place, looking for girls as a way to distract myself, realizing my mistakes and trying to get onto the path again. But after this event, she invited me to her place which is about 100km's away from my home, she lives alone in this house and we clicked enough to have sex, and after that, I couldn't get her out of my mind. I was new to this, so I didn't place any boundaries on myself, but after we had sex the first time, as I laid there in bed with her, I kind of got sad and depressed, I don't know why. She is a yoga teacher, she has tripped on LSD a lot of times (mostly on festivals) she claims to have has several ego-death experiences, she has traveled the world, meditated for 7 years, done a lot of yoga, and now she has this wonderful yoga studio. She is full of love, she is quite happy, but not enlightened. Some traumas, being anorexic in her childhood, her father died when she was 11~ (suicide) and she didn't have a good relationship with her mom. She moved out when she was 16, independent from that point, to travel the world. Problems (Prelude): Basically, I thought about her all the time and I forgot about myself. I couldn't place boundaries on what I really wanted to do, and I used the relationship as a distraction and I enjoyed it. All moments with her was amazing, we clicked amazingly, it felt like we were going somewhere, ever deeper into our true selves, our emotions, etc. I really liked being able to get to know her more, being honest with her about my emotions, etc. But problems started arising as soon as I expressed my raw emotions to her, and that expressing those hurt her. Sometimes when I try to express my emotions, when I go into this process of just getting insights about my emotions, telling those insights to her without thinking, something with that really triggers her. It feels like I can't express my emotions to her! Like, being radically honest about my emotions in that very moment - wherever they come from, be it my traumas or something, it feels like she can't fully accept that from me, because it insults her, sometimes when I feel this bad emotion I just want to talk it out and I cant listen to her (its as if I have an unresolved trauma which I gotta get out of myself). She had many things she perceived in me that she glossed over, that was the thing that made her stay, maybe also the great sex. ------- Problems (Main): So, after like 2 months, she just wanted to push me away. We took a break for a couple of weeks, she had a dream about me, I wrote to her about how much I loved her, and so we got together again. 2 more months, I wrote an email to her that was based on stuff I fabricated out of my mind about who she is and why she does some things she does. She didnt like that. We had some phone calls where she really reflected upon me where all of this came from, and I just saw how much I have used her as a distraction. We took a break, more like a breakup, to love ourselves. These were a couple of really productive months for me and I feel more independent from that, I wrote many more things to her, but she was in her mindset that she is not gonna be with me. Then she took some LSD in the woods, and calls me a couple of days before the day we would meet - where I would get my stuff back and it would be over -, That she admits that there has been a lot of things within her that she didnt want to deal with that caused her to look away from me. I went to her place that weekend, and it was extraordinary. No sex. Now, we had a phone call where she hinted that she cant really invalidate all the strong feelings she have had about us not being together, that it is nice but that she cant give me any promises "so that we might get hurt". We talked on, and from being happy and having a nice day, I was overwhelmed with this same feeling of dread and sadness, as if I had some unresolved trauma just knocking at my insides, I dont know where this came from, but as soon as I tried being honest about my emotions, just being in the process or expressing everything that came by, I said something that insulted her, she got frustrated, it feels like this triggered the same stuff about how we dont click, as if her whole mindset about the relationship hinged on that very insult. What I feel (now after having talked to my mother): I do have my flaws, I probably have some emotions I have not dealt with, but it feels like she cant respect this. As if she wants to have only my good sides, and not myh bad sides. It feels like she has some ideal in her head about how a right man for her should be, she has mentioned how she just wants one who looks up to her. When my pain body comes along, it feels like it triggers her pain body which I assume is the source of her "Ideals", and as soon as try to go deeper into emotions and radical honesty, it doenst go well. I Have not given up on her because I can see how sweet it is on the other side if we just work sorting through our traumas and getting to know eachother much more. But it feels like the pattern will keep repeating itself, the triggers come back, I mean, who would wanna look at their traumas? It feels like she sweeps them under the rug. I also do this to a certain extent. But this is my first relationship, I just want to know more, learn more, go deeper, take those hits, learn the lessons, work on myself. But I cant be with her if I cannot express myself unconditionally and not be respected for that. My mother, she told me that it seems like she doesn't want to commit but because im 17 and I wanna go deep and all, she is too afraid to say no. Who am I to say no when this is my first relationship when I can see how sweet it can become? Who am I to say no when I have learned so much, when I have so much love to give? Read this: I just want to grow with her, be radically honest with her, getting to know her, celebrating life, and passion with her. But this rocky path we have in our relationship right now takes some introspection from both sides. I have this pain body, she has this pain body. I don't know if she is willing to go through this. We can live together if we are willing to make it work, but it takes some work. Please wake me up with something! I have no reference experience, I feel like I don't know anything other than my emotions. Help me. It feels like there is an elephant in the room which I'm not seeing.

Do all people who die go to Infinite Love/Source/God?Then shouldn't the death of somebody`s body be a celebration and not a tragedy that people believe it to be? Can you imagine the radicalness of this truth? All those who committed suicide, all those who were killed as a punishment, all those who died tragically, all this in fact was a gift and not a reason to be sad, it sure damn would be pretty radical for people to accept this. That even the most despicable of humans who lived their lives only serving their selfish desires and even the holiest of people who spent their lives living serving others... from the most extreme example to the opposite extreme example, all of them end up in the same place when the physical body dies, they end up in Infinite Love.

Proper preparation / studying is probably of uttermost importance if you want to waken up through psychedelics. Just taking a psychedelic alone is not gonna work for most people. I have listened to many teachers: Leo, Spira, Watts to name 3. I have read a good deal of books on spirituality. All this has helped a lot in attuning me. No doubt. I think suffering is nessecary too. I for sure have suffered a lot these last 5 years. I think if you are so "unlucky/lucky" to get a full-blown enlightenment without having an ego ready to "ground" it, then you'll probably lose it like that youtuber did. Losing it as in wanting to do crazy things like commiting suicide. If you have a stage orange ego and get a full blown God-realization you either have to be really open to change yourself or you can do the easy thing: completely merge with God/yourself (that is: "losing it").

@Preety_India First, good stuff, appreciate the long winded response, it’s probably gonna take me a while to chip through it but fuck it From my life experience, deductive reasoning and the evidence that has been presented to me, I have what I believe to be the truth And who are they? The fucking borg lol These guys aren’t a hive mind There a collection of different people which are united under the red pill really just because that’s what they identify as, the red pill is a very ambiguous term that many people see differently Who doesn’t like to fuck the occasional lamppost? Not gonna lie, reading this pissed me off lol So I’ve just come back after writing what I’ve written below and it’s quite a fucking lot, if I can’t be bothered to continue, I think there’s enough on the bone of whats beneath to set you rabid so I’ll probably come back tomorrow and respond to what you’ve written Social conditioning comes from society’s needs, “society was constructed for what men wanted”. Is that why dozens of young men throughout history have thrown away there lives in the meat grinder of war for there mothers, sister, daughters. Men love and die for there women and put there women above them, and that’s the expectation of men, to throw away there lives and go down with the ship to save the women, save there women even at the expense of fucking children in some cases. Here’s very simple biology that you should be able to grasp easily Ill start with an example When youre in the boys scouts, and you're being led through a rural wooded area, by some sort of authority figure/adult, for a day out. You will be told if you get lost from the group, to sit down and wait. Why? Because the group will realise that you're missing and retrace their foot steps to find you. If you instead panic and walk to try and find them, you may drift further away from them, you'll expel important energy. You might get lost more so. Women historically, for biological reasons, as they are more important for the promulgation of the species, have been more likely to be in a position were someone will come back and look for them. Men historically for biological reasons, as they are less important for the promulgation of the species, have been less likely to be in a position were someone will look for them. Why? Because for the continuation of the species men are less important than women. 50 Women + 50 Men = 50 Babies every nine months 50 Women + 1 Man = 50 Babies every nine months 1 Woman + 50 Men = 1 Baby every nine months So, continuing with the boy scout, lost in the woods scenario. Women will evolve through selection to be more dependent, collective, submissive etc... Men will evolve through selection to be more independent, individualist, dominant etc... As the woman will rely more on the group for survival. As the man will rely more on himself for survival. Now tell me what deductively is wrong with this logic? Don’t ignore this question, and isn’t it logical to assume from this, that this is the reason we have different traits and behaviours. You want to know the reason why we actually have social conditioning, culture and societies, because of our collective striving to fulfil our own biological imperatives, meaning what we perceive to be in our best interest from the primordial brain. This is where our values come from and why we impose on others certain rules as to maximise our own self interests. Time marked below is this video which links to the my point by Actualised.org. 50:20 time mark The prime self interest is passing on our genes aka the Darwinian imperative, that’s why we have society, it’s not some evil cabal for men’s benefit, and to believe that shows such terms utter ignorance and lack of human empathy to men that it is just gross, but really I don’t expect any better. And you know how you best insure you pass on genes, you prioritise women, and women delude themselves into believing that they’re not prioritised to make it just that much easier to insure that they remain that way. Women are more important for the continuation of the species than men, therefore every society has prioritised them throughout all of fucking history. And women collectively have evolved an innate solipsism and stockholm syndrome, where they will never grasp how men break their backs for their benefit. And men should never expect them to have empathy, because they’re in cable of giving it. “Women think in their hearts that the man business is to make money and it is hers to spend it” - Arthur Schopenhauer Theres a reason I asked you to do that experiment, because maybe you’d see the imposed social contract, and see that men by fucking far get a shitter deal, but no, somehow society is built for our benefit at the expense of yours. That disconnect from reality and the inherent entitlement that comes with that is disgusting. When I originally posted this I intended to only talk about the relational and sexual aspects of the red pill. That why I put it in this section. Not all of society but fuck it. You know why women collectively haven’t ran society ever, in all of human history, in every single country on the face of the earth. Why it’s always us evil men that do everything solely for our benefit and at the expense of yours. Because women are in cable of running society. They lack the testicular fortitude, no matter how much fish bicycle and karate cop girl you’ll never, reach the standard of men. “If civilisation had been left in female hands, we would still be living in grass huts” - Camille Paglia Heres a link to a webpage on Vervent monkeys, if you’re still reading and not frothing at the mouth https://phys.org/news/2016-11-female-monkeys-wile-rally-troops.html Female vervet monkeys manipulate males into fighting battles by lavishing attention on brave soldiers while giving noncombatants the cold shoulder, researchers said. As in humans, it turns out, social incentives can be just as big a driver for male monkeys to go to war as the resources they stand to gain from fighting, whether it be territory or food. "Ours is the first study to demonstrate that any non-human species use manipulative tactics, such as punishment or rewards, to promote participation in intergroup fights," study co-author Jean Arseneau, a primate specialist of the University of Zurich, told AFP. It's all about sex, the researchers believe. "Receiving punishment" for not taking part in battles "could damage the... male's social relationship(s)" with females in the group, the researchers wrote. Now why don't female vervet monkeys fight themselves? Because female vervet monkeys are the weaker sex, given sexual dimorphism because of this basic divergence of sexual importance to who is more important in promulgation. Why do female monkeys use sex and affection as rewards to combative monkeys? Because a female monkeys primary asset is her sexuality to other male monkeys. Because the way a male monkey best fulfils his mating strategy is via capitulation to the females. Women are the selectors and men are the selected. Men compete for women. Ans that competition keeps the gears of society turning. But it’s all for women, because there more important to keep this shit show in motion, if you think the vervent monkeys are stupid example here’s a human comparison, a comparison that clearly shows how us evil men made society to oppress the sugar and spice all things nice women. The white feather campaign, where women and feminists would go up to any man not in uniform and hand them a white feather of cowardice. Many of these men who were given the white feather of cowardice and could not enlist killed themselves from the shame, such as men who could not join the war for their disabilities committed suicide for example. Young men collectively shamed by women into going to die, be mutilated and gassed in trenches and foxholes for years. Side note - even the men who could enlist and were shamed into in a sense were too committing suicide by joining a senseless war. Here is an article below relating to this https://www.theguardian.com/world/2008/nov/11/first-world-war-white-feather-cowardice Now why is this, because from a biological standpoint, for man to best fulfil his mating strategy, he needed to, like the vervet monkey, maintain high social standing to have receptive mates. He did this via capitulating to women's demands to kill threats and to gather resources. Because as mentioned previously, women are the selectors and men are the selected. This reminds me of a study which shows men's brains are shown to prioritise sex over food. https://www.independent.ie/life/health-wellbeing/health-features/revealed-is-a-mans-brain-programmed-to-prefer-sex-or-food-34111684.html This most likely being because males who had higher sex drives and were more willing to prioritise sex over other needs were more likely to copulate and pass on those similar genes. "Man strives in everything for a direct domination over things, either by comprehending or by subduing them. But woman is everywhere and always relegated to a merely indirect domination, which is achieved by means of man, who is consequently the only thing she has to dominate directly." - Arthur Schopenhauer Women are along for the ride, men are in the drivers seat, but where driving where women want to go. Not for fucking men, that’s why some men have a low opinion of women, because they don’t deserve our respect, you’re not entitled to our respect, men intuitively know that they’re not entiltled to respect, that’s why they earn it, I respect people on an individual level, person to person, you don’t automatically get a high opinion because you have a cu** In dare you to endure the remaining minutes of this youtube video, I doubt that you can Well I’m done with this shit today, it’s 11pm and I got shit to do tomorrow, when I get an opportunity tomorrow I’ll respond to what you’ve previously written

Hey guys, I need some assistance. Your feedback will be much appreciated. So, after about two month of depression (April and early May) I have decided to not go that far (here I mean self-inquiry) because I was very depressed. My normal perception had changed. I was scared that if my feelings stay the same, I will commit a suicide (which is very unusual for me). It felt like I was going insane. I was even considered to see a psychiatrist. I was scared and confused. I literally had anxiety and this heavy chest feeling out of nowhere all the time. Then I went on vacay with my friends, lost awareness and it resolved on its own. I kinda let it go...and.... NOW! I have this crazy energy coursing through my body, like I am high, almost on drug. I want to clean my house all the time, to move all the time, to run, dance, I don’t know. Basically, it feels as I am in love (with nobody). It is a bit overwhelming. Physical activity helps me to calm down and when I am tired (after running) I feel like I am at a peaceful state. I am not sure what I am experience. Has somebody experienced similar thing? What to do with this energy?

I also find this very curious. Here in Brazil we have trully barbaric cops BUT, at the same time, we also have barbaric criminals, i mean, the type that would rip your head off with a machete if they want to. This means the cops HAVE to be tougher than the forces they are fighting against. People just don't realize this, cops are just humans, they are afraid, they are ignorant, they are underpaid and they are fighting a literal war every day, this fucks people up. I know a lot of cops who just went nuts, developed psychosis, committed suicide etc. It's the nature of the job, people are just oblivious to this, all they see are "bad guys".

Damn, I wonder what happens to those people who commit suicide?

If you suicide they will remain there, other people have committed suicide but I'm still here. "But if I were to go to that location, the tree, of course, would be lying on the ground, as if it had fallen." Maybe you're underestimating how much of reality is being dreamed up.

Well, I would like to see that information. So far, most sources I've followed through lead back to some random blog post by internet nutcases and charlatans, not any credible sources. I would welcome with open arms anything that challenges my belief systems, I only ask you provide proper objective evidence which is third-party verifiable. UFO believers and suicide bombers have the same fundamental mentality - believing in something without properly thinking it through. That comparison seems perfectly valid - if you can convince someone of believing so strongly of space aliens flying around in UFOs, you can also convince them that it would be a good idea to blow themselves up for the reward of 72 virgins in heaven. It's only a matter of commitment and time. Why not take a neutral position on the matter till someone posts a livestream on Facebook of a real UFO in 1080p resolution? I'm not controlling anything, UFO believers have the right to post whatever they want, and I have the right to call it out. "not including evidence of a degree" - Why did you add that last part? I'm curious. So you don't actually believe he got a degree from MIT?

@outlandish You obviously didn't read Caffeine Blues. If you're a fan of hard scientific evidence, you'll want to give that a read. Just to get a good balanced view. I'd be curious to know if you'd still be recommending coffee as a "health habit" after that By the way, these associations found in meta-analyses don't mean there is a causal link. If you're going to say that coffee reduces risk of suicide, then you might as well say that it increases the risk of lung cancer, because that association was also found in the study you cited

@Leo Gura Problem with psychedelics is that they are not safe for everyone and even when you have no mental illness history in your family, you may still be predisposed to it, you never know. At this point, I've seen 8+ reports of people really fucking themselves up through the use of psychedelics and I'm not talking merely about some very bad trip but a real mental illness that either causes somebody to commit suicide or takes years to recover from and in some cases they never recover. Even something as light as weed can cause years of serious problems if you're unlucky.

I used to take Lexapro for anxiety. I took it for 8 months before realizing what I was getting into. Exercising was so fucking hard on it and I didn't enjoy doing anything. I think that maybe I got even more depressed than before trying them. I only thought about suicide while on antidepressants(lol). After all that, I discovered that the source of my anxiety was caffeine and I just cut it for good. My psychiatrist said I could just drink coffee and that there was no problem After I stopped taking it I had like zero motivation or sex drive for one year or so. If I could, I wouldn't even take the first pill. No regrets though. If I haven't done that I wouldn't find psychedelics. I only started recovering properly almost 2 years later. I juggled with some nootropics here and there but with low success. Currently I started microdosing LSD to see where it takes me.