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Friday: August 28th, 2026. Believing a lie on purpose is distinct from ignorant bliss.

This is very interesting I did a lot of stuff right, if this includes nutrtion and I can finally build on that, on the video with the jews, I watched this last year already IIRC I posted it here or even with an old account, here but I saw the video on conformity to inform ya'll I am learning more depth about my personality, most stuff I found was shallow, my systems are also improving, killing more distractions will be intersting, but I am glad I swore of alcohol, this has robbed me of creative work capacity, I get a spiritual intoxicant high, but I can use my tongue taste and inspiration for different things, I keep going through this now, I have to test and validate all of these new systems, the stuff I did was very advanced at my masters program, and talking to A.I they evaluate my depth differently, as I see some stuff is being taken over, but I have some doubts, due to these chinese models becoming ever more present in U.S tech being to tech conferences myself etc. But more importantly my health and food! I am looking for better ways to deal with that and still enjoy stuff, it's better to eat some ice cream sometimes and some stupid snack food, then to go for alcohol and wine on the weekend, I was pretty close to live as a pure model, and before I meet the ex I would've dated a model, but she had some issues with drug addiction prior, but was into Urban planning and more holism, not the fun & adventure calculus statistics type of girl, but someone who actually went through something and just knows LEBEN as a phiolosophy with and without a gateway, anyhow I stop I don't think most can relate. I am studying more of the design part, and then take up the new experiements with the note-taking thing I found another pen, ideally this works now to take notes on this pad, but idfk if I can test everything, I still require some help with coffee, I am absolutely coffee addicted, but it helps me to get things done, if I eat how I would be required to life, my enviroment turns very odd, I can't be to "spiritual" around normies, especially when I can push my practice back to 1h, but I have to see I might go for a walk and buy some ice cream I really enjoy nature, but now I have to go through this period of b.s with the hostility of scientific fake feminist women, who have a very deep underbelly of jealousy, something about their D.N.A is partially fked in contrast to seeing 5's of the enneagram and more true intutive scientists, I often hooked them, but they became partially so jealous to belond to the elite, and I saw that stage purple shadow pull, it's at best just smash and pass, there is no value in such a human, if there is a lack of integration of wilbers work, and these people never faced serious issues of death and anihilation. I have to be careful now after i realized I could'Ve gone into mahasamadhi based on state alone, that what I do is very dangerous at times, and my D.N.A does not need a psychdelic to go that deep, anyhow most issues are points about health, I can't live to clean, also I should invest more into foods, I was so depressed after the death of a loved on I could not cook, now I can eat like a good, but I require a calm enviroment or a silently stimulating one, I tested mindful eating at the university it was insane how people eat for survival a couple of days ago with the b.s of the arrogant nobillity and people who experienced eduaction, but are not truly elite, I can sense how the snobishness kicks-in or through wealth, idk I had a different experience as it was more related with death, legacy and the depth of the man of 0, imo these people don't understand and intellectualize their experience of legacy, and don't quite get the legacy I intuit with white light type of experience, the casual, ananda and bliss, there is a very deep jealousy with spiritual seekers, and just a way to be stupid about it, I have to look where I eventualyl find a better place integral had some issues with some nazi stuff with corey at times, I feel and notice something is just f*ed, and I know my f*ed parts anyhow I stop here.

One of the most widely misunderstood terms in all of spirituality is the Buddhist notion of "shunyata", which is commonly translated as or at least closely associated with words like emptiness, voidness, groundlessness, nothingness and no-self (which is also known as "anatta"). It is often (mis)interpreted as a kind of nihilistic denial of any inherent substance or meaning of reality; but once you become directly conscious of what it actually points to, you realize that it simply means the following: There is no particular way that reality is. Shunyata points to the fact that there is no such thing as a specific definable ultimate truth that can be fully cognized, conceptualized and communicated through language; it therefore implies that all definitions (aka. conceptual limitations) of reality are nothing but relative perspectives which are partially true at best and downright delusional at worst. Simply put: Whatever you say about reality isn't it - and also it is, but so is the opposite of whatever you are saying. (Of course, the irony here is that the statement "all perspectives are relative" is itself a relative perspective; this is why Nagarjuna, the famous founder of the Madhyamaka school of Buddhist philosophy, pointed out that "even emptiness itself is empty" and therefore cannot be absolutized.) So while shunyata should not be mistaken for an affirmation of existential nihilism (which erroneously tries to attach absolute meaning and validity to the relative concept of meaninglessness), it certainly refutes the notion of a concrete ground or essence of reality that you somehow safely "land on" upon enlightenment. Assuming the existence of such a specific definable essence is in fact a rather clear-cut logical fallacy, since it assumes the existence of something which is both absolute and definable. The simple fact of the matter is that the absolute (= undefinable) essence or nature of reality cannot be different from (all of) reality itself, as should be obvious to anyone who is capable of and genuinely open to coherent (meta)logical reasoning. (Note: When you say that Being is the essence of reality, then that is NOT a definition. Being does not and cannot have an opposite since it is all that there is, meaning that it must include and transcend all possible opposites such as form/formlessness, time/timelessness, oneness/multiplicity, nothing/everything etc. Being is therefore synonymous with the totality of reality. Again, this is not so much an arbitrary opinion as it is a patently self-evident and tautological assessment based on very simple and obvious logic, and I would sincerely invite anyone who somehow feels compelled to argue against it to question their own underlying motives for doing so.) Of course, the inherently attachment-based ego mind doesn't like to hear any of this. It craves and demands ideological safety, reliability and stability, or in other words: a solid, unshakeable ground that it can build a strong and rigid identity on and thereby keep itself stuck in the treacherous comfort of delusion. And so it will compulsively attack, deflect, distort and/or deny anything that threatens to pull out the rug from under its feet and try at all cost to maintain its dogmatic conviction that "reality is XYZ" and definitely not "not XYZ". You will almost certainly see this play itself out in the replies to this post; there will be plenty of people trying to convince me as well as themselves that I am (absolutely) wrong and they are (absolutely) right and argue until they are blue in the face for the validity of relative positions such as "I am a person", "I am not a person", "I am God", "I am not God", "I exist", "I don't exist", "there is a doer", "there is no doer", "all is one", "all is not one", "there are other minds", "there are no other minds", "reality is physical", "reality is a dream", "reality is logical", "reality is not logical" or whatever other perspectives/beliefs they have built their identity on. Now, am I saying that I myself am totally free of this kind of argumentative pigheadedness? No, of course not. I assure you that I can be just as gleefully opinionated as the next guy; denying any such tendencies on my part would be just another dogmatic assertion and expression of deep egoic delusion. Besides, as long as reality is being observed and experienced from a certain first-person perspective, there is never going to be a 100% complete absence of attachment to that perspective, however faint and imperceptible it may be. But once this perspective is clearly "seen through" and recognized for what it actually is, there is now an opening where the gradual transcendence of all rigid ego identity becomes possible; where all relative perspectives are perceived as different sides of the same all-encompassing coin; where energetic contractions begin to soften, expand and dissolve, and where you start to taste the indescribable boundless bliss and freedom of tapping into and merging with the ineffable Divine, which is All That Is. But of course, that's just my perspective. 😘

It’s really two different directions, and it depends on what your goals and priorities are. If the goal is to understand God intellectually, then thinking and deep contemplation are necessary. But if the goal is to experience peace, stillness, and bliss, then quieting the thinking mind through meditation may be more beneficial. Neither approach is necessarily better..it depends on what someone is seeking . For example, my mother is at an age where intense intellectual exploration may not be as suitable or necessary for her. Meditation and cultivating a sense of inner peace might serve her much better.

I first went into a week long meditation retreat when I was 8 with my family into a place called osho dhara in Chitwan Nepal (I just spent the day wondering around the place not meditating lol). Then I went into a day long retreat alone when I was 14. Then I went into a week long retreat with my family at Manokranti Pokhara again at 15. Then senior high school started and I had to study a shit ton of shit. Then Now Im 18 and prolly gonna go to Manokranti within 2.5 months. I started watching actualized.org since I was 13. After all this stuff my life is still full of stress and pain. I did have brief moments of Tranquility and Bliss In these past 5 years that I took spirituality more seriously. But I always come back to the same problem; my mind. I have noticed that after 1 problem is concluded my brain searches for another one and honestly its so fucking frustrating.

Saturday: August 22nd, 2026. Epistemic not-knowing of the truth is distinct from ignorant bliss.

Thank you too. How could we not appreciate. The feminine & masculine are each the other. We split into two just for the bliss and lovejoy of coming together again. If only we all recognised this. That’s why very young children suffer separation anxiety when are apart from their parents because their bond is unbreakable. Eventually the child lets go of the bond, as it matures only to seek the bond once again with an intimate partner. Or, the mature adult might just choose to stay solo in solitude as they awaken from the illusion of separation to the natural sense of wholeness and completeness in themself.

Same, most people are fine with me or being raw, I am just done with the snobs and vanity, and this gaslighting of global humanist who think they do good for the world, while they are the same pest, and have no evidence of actually giving back monetary value, foods or built something to truly help people in need, and I also don't care that deeply, as I have more problems with people in power and leadership generally speaking, especially if I am conscious and can go on purpose, I just hate these lucifer souls fanboying and fangirling when I have success to me there is nothing noble to it. Joy, bliss etc. are more god-like experiences to me, so idk you can help me to understand, but I will not most likely budge as I see that help as misguided already. If you'd actually do something to heal the world and not people I would be happy, but I am partially so fked with my experiences, I am not always the best person to talk to, I am to direct and honest for most to take. Just never take anything I say serious, having a meaningful conversation is pointless with me after having been in nirodahkalphi samadhi or whatever that was for a period of time, I am also done with the superior man, I periodically reinvent myself, but the cultural obstructions just causes massiv backlashes with their fake empathy to extract needs, I have to create myself, as they are not even there or a few pockets have them.

Uhh, yeahh, uhhh Its late in the morning yeah I wanted to night game but, but im so exhausted and stressed, and logistics and all local avenues are closed, post covid i guess, every business close, I wanna socialize again and find a sexy bitch and make her squirt like a hose Yeah, uhhh Uhh, yeahh Life is bliss and life is magical And if u don't feel it deep within then u need to travel and get the capital Yeah I need more capital And yeah im in pain Grinding out for shallow needs again just to stay sain Empty sex nothing compares to that, to that one that never left my brain Yeah i lied to myself for years i lowered myself thought i wanted dirty sex and sluts until I saw her and realized what it feels like to fall in love, holy shit my head was spinning but she looked quite young, it got to my head then i saw her mum Yeah maybe only ever once or twice i ever fell in love, and it was always at first site, sorry 6s and 7s your just a convivence service while i bid my time. Yeah i only ever wanna see women that are fine, no divinely fine When you're poor and in the dirt sometimes, for every fine wine you see 50 disgusting ass broken vines Uh no make that shit 500, its rough out heere, yeah its rough, everything so tough, had to grind just get basic stuff, fuck, fuck i gotta go fuck, uber i guess good luck Ah no fuck this shit im exhausted and this heatwave and 4 hours sleep wave and oh fuck And i dont even feel that sexual right now i guess my bodys physically burnt and once again i fap too much, once a week more than enough, helps to have that force to go fuck Lack of infrastructure fucking sucks Leverage is a law of the universe, and that lever is like a big bully that decides are fait and luck But u just grind so much and a little lever builds bigger ones and life just becomes "luck" I'm done with this life i only wanna meet rich people, unless its a profoundly beautiful girl who gives me goosebumps Hey rich people, i'm your friend! I'm married to the fucking money,and i will cement this into myslef and brainwash myself and orgasm myself into this, if i took psycheldeics id jsut think about money Money my highest value. Money and success Isle and no stress, freedom and children divinely blessed YEAH BITCH I wanna masssive garden and design all of that shit in its entirety whlie making 100gs a month no stress, every fucking month no i wont stop and i never lose motivation even after a fucking blunt, im fucking relentless and i wont hide myself or run, beauty riches art impact and fun, business and leverage and connections made in the sun, no golf yeah resorts i socialize my way up 1 single big connection can wiegh a ton, to power and wealth and freedom energy and fun, bilingual boy 4 languages im an alien, fuck a fucking alien, I need a mythacil and legendary alias, i need a bullet train through the atlas, to a beautiful bitches matress, immaculate I got immaculate taste but i back authenticity no copy and paste, but humility follow your mentor with grace, best mentors arent just in it for the money they really wanna see their students succed and change, and that deeply matters int heir brain

"Ignorance is not bliss. Ignorance is poverty. Ignorance is devastation. Ignorance is tragedy. And ignorance is illness." Jim Rohn You guys are armchair speculating how happy people here in the Muslim world, some people are happy but most people are living a miserable life, poverty misery health issues, some people in Egypt are living life more hellish than the hell description in the Islamic literature the happy people are he one that has very stable family and very successful and stable marriages and a great health most people here are too foolish to have all of that at the same time lol

“The enlightened fool is the one who sees the ego trips of society and can still find joy and laughter in its midst. The fool is often the enlightened one, the one with crazy wisdom, with laughter and jokes as their weapon, they cut through the mundane conformity and bring to light the latent child like bliss bubbling just beneath the surface of all seriousness. The fool possesses a wisdom that is out of reach of the conformist. A playful attitude in touch with enormous amounts of creativity.“

The core issue of a 4 presented by an 8 My core issue is the excessive curiosity and social conditioning I have, my life would be bliss without any intoxicants but even food is an intoxicant

That's true ignorance is bliss!

My Rheinforce is also not working properly, idk why it's not instructed and we're still not testing enough..., even when health is holy we have that issue, and I found mistakes that are serious to the fire illness that fire is generally sick, just to let you know... but somehow my body likes it I don't get it, as the sex was good, but it had to be holy not faith-akin, fuck faith. Fuck lucifer if it does not give light, and fuck healing if there is a break in unity. I post it twice, there is an issue, but the core issue was the involvment of work, and the lack of integration Leo is right with a lot of stuff, but I can't integrate it in one day, if people don't follow my command, as I follow my intuition irregardless if it's right or wrong, it's right 99.9% of the time, but I also require some time to get away from technology, fuck vacation and fuck the independent women this is a huge issue still with modernity and it's ignorance of unshared bliss, leading blind sheep might require Jesus at the mount of olives and zen, someone truly send from God, like I said my chart has god-consciousness give me my health back and stop critiquing and speculating about my health, my day pillar causes already so much envy in others, due to it's sheer existence, that counts for others too. 29 is pure paradox worse than you think, and better than believe as it's a gift of GOD and also noble, I also have Geng-Chen consciousness, but as .3 we're fighting about this since years, while China attenuates, we talked about more stuff on Jews with the guy I meet, but I stop here... I started listening to the Qaballah, he said the Torah is an issue. Qaballah is fine. 没事 = It's fine not the other interprations, the I-Ching book I bought years ago is very powerful.

ignorance is bliss. And I don´t think they are so happy. The just cope with life by getting together and keeping themsleves busy with nonsense. That is like me saying how well I smell because I put perfume on all my clothes and deodorant under ampits instead of having a shower.

Yeah i can feel chronic anxiety coming back But i ride this wave, deep breath away and loosen my back I will fight my own mind until I win and no fight persists, just being in the abyss, Yeah I dont want stress and I dont want pain, just ecstasy and bliss Yeah I do want impact I will be real, first i have to get rich And thats some stressful shit So much pain I was down in the ditch Just work with what I got, accept the shit Thats why you have to dream, its 1 of a few means in which you never quit Have to invest daily even if you're never perfect, which u never will be People terrify from petty negatives , but they cant see Men terrify rejection, they reject themselves Its a projection, delusional world collect the appreciating assets every day no matter what And It's about breaking thresholds, within your own mind, u fill the pot Confidence is an accumulation of breaking meaningful personal thresholds Until then u never stop, no matter what Yeah I guess the way im wired, I only ever wanna feel inspired Even when im tired Yeah I guess i always got the fire Yeah my English teacher used to get so frustrated, I was like 16 and I i was always late and my eyes were jaded, and i still got as but i didn't even try and barely finished my assignments, I was in too much pain I just did in one take, a scribble of sloppy notes and i just saw his face, look of disgrace, but looking back its kinda funny in a way And looking back im grateful he saw something in me, and he had charisma too and wasn't a boring guy, even if in his wage he struggles to survive, and in this way I can mature because i realize, not all teachers were sociopathic and tyrannical and evil in the eyes People call rap conformity and I'm not tryna argue or deny But u have to always focus on the gold and keep an open mind Lyricism is an art and the music too And they make beats and have vision and orchestrate to the producers they oversee, And that isnt easyy i call it masteree But business and life in general is my passion music just an extention I'm an interconnected guy there's no severance in my mind, some things irrelevant but most things human connect, i dont need no niche interest about cars I got bigger fish to fry, firstly living a good life and thrive not just survive, only success is on my mind, and hard work is divine, the blocks star heavy then u build a ville an pyramid in no time

The most common issues I see with moderners, they use capitalism as an excuse or materalism for anything: Just leave the country Just buy something new that will fix your soul I don't have a soul I am atheist (while they yearn to see yours very often) Making fun of the history and anger of black history (it's mostly saddening then anything I cry most of it out nowadays, because this level of ignorance is not bliss) The tendencies to use face and having a clean-slate which can also be an integral or tealish tendency imo, but more out of TIER II security reasons to secure knowledge and the priviledge of learning, but the exact narcissistic greedy tendencies of the modern consciousness attacks this The hatred of diversification of interest and money and networks The lonliness that can start at this stage The level of clarity required to make some dense people break-up where psychdelics often are the gateway towards looking into the intereoception of this level of consciousness There are many positive aspects to this also, but it requires the establishment of fundamental goodness, and after this the COMPASSION OF GOD, or at least the serenity of a GODDESS. More about my ex now...

Yeah when you put it like that I agree. You can't really practice sex outside of a relationship outside of doing a bunch of hookups which don't tend to produce great sex anyway from my experience so working on the package is the day to day logical move. When you're with a girl then yeah make sure she cums often and in varied ways and she'll feel like you're irreplaceable. Also being really attracted to the girl you're fucking makes for better sex I find since you become an animal and ravish her and that comes from having a high SMV to be able to pull hotties. I've banged girls I was not really into and like sometimes I can't even stay hard cuz I don't actually wanna be there and start questioning my decisions in the middle of it and it makes the process even softer . Also it makes it so I really want them to leave where as if I'm really into the girl I can fuck 3-4 times and afterwards we just collapse into bliss and pass out together even if I barely know her.

Even among weirdos, I feel lonely. Nobody has any idea what it means to be in my shoes. To experience the paradoxes and contradictions that I do, the bliss and the suffering. To live through all of it, and still be here, fighting, hoping, falling down, getting up, getting knocked down again, and again, and again... My experience of life is so unique, it feels like a mistake, an error, an exception. Something that wasn't accounted for. Nobody should be allowed this much integration. It's just so many different parts that don't fit well together, but somehow do. I'm a monster. A Frankenstein. I shouldn't be allowed to exist.

@Natasha Tori Maru @Leo Gura ive never cried in bliss at an orgasm, but ive sure as shit have cried when I realized other is me. Being Her will always be better then fucking Her. ☺️

Not gonna lie - I have had such intense, single pointed focus meditation sessions where all is so married in union it was the bliss of orgasm. After I really considered orgasm; it is a pure state of absolute being. Total single pointed focus. Irrefutable. A total inability to seperate mind in that state. It makes sense the deepest state of focussed meditation feel like orgasm, somehow. I shit you not, the feeling was the same. And so utterly shocking. It is a practice to reach those states though. I cannot get there without a lot of dedicated time. A purge of modern life does it. Isolation. It is no wander sex and orgasm is a huge drive for humanity if this is what we touch on. Who knows ...

“Ignorance is bliss”. It’s when you start thinking about it that it becomes a burden. They don’t see it as anything to escape because they haven’t built the structures to bother them. “The ability to step back and see the bigger picture” only occurs if you have the preference and capacity. Without the preference and capacity, the ability never manifests. Sure, it’s a more sophisticated use of the mind, but I’m not sure calling it “advanced” is the best frame, as it seems to smuggle ego in while at the same time obfuscating the more important preference and capacity mechanisms. Maybe I’ve misread, but you seemed to have projected a problem a very specific cognitive architecture perceives onto the general population. Modern life has a way of wearing all of us down, but in different ways. For thinkers such as ourselves, it’s a different kind of burden with different challenges. The average person isn’t bothered by endless complexity, because they don’t perceive it.

Probably the contrast is what makes it special. Wouldn’t be nearly as meaningful to have it all if you hadn’t first been through a lifetime or more of deprivation. Although that still doesn’t explain why people go through unspeakably horrific waking nightmares. No individual would willingly subject themselves to things like gang rape, torture, etc. Even if the contrast once it’s eventually over is unlimited bliss in every way they ever wanted.

Some return to nothing and some go on to become self referencing nirvanic bliss and everything in between. If you have achieved full on sovereignty and sentience you will get to choose your next experience based solely on the experiences of this one. In other words, death is whatever the heck you want it to be. If you're just another flower that didn't bud death will be the end of the texture that is you but the good news is you won't be around to care. Sounds like a win/win to me.

@Miguel1 yes, you describe it very well. I don't know why, but I have always been this way. It is like some wicked cosmic joke to wake from the bliss of sleep. Once I have momentum for the day I am fine, I don't think and body just does it's thing. If I am suffering from a hardship, the morning is much worse. Waking from a nap also sometimes. Very discombobulating which compounds the overall malaise.