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Yey more psychic pollution ! Lets all continue to insert foreign images into a persons mind and make them want things they don't need that gradually weaken focus and distract them from their soul purpose. We must keep them asleep and in cycles. No critical thinkers, no awakened ones. I have add-blockers everywhere, ghostery and duckduckgo to name a few, there is also an app called 'brave' if you want to watch utube on your phone without adds. I am glad i found this because i enjoy listening to long tracks or podcasts while driving, and I am not paying a dime for some premium bs, we're already paying for enough. Whats next we have to pay to breathe and think? Its so off-putting, always having to find a work-around things. RIP the good old days, when things were simple. And trying to make profit out of every little hole they can find is one of the biggest diseases man faces today. A psychological parasite at its finest.

I never used A.I , my mind just tells me it's a robotic non human post. Then i decided to use a tool to check for a.i text and it was all the time accurate. The words that you type are energy and information, everything is connected so it is possible to see the source where it is coming from. But my kundalini is awakened and i'm not fully human so yeah... My mind even scared me a bit because it feels like i'm merging with god more and more. The human mind isn't actually your "mind" it's a tool and not actually who you are.

This is a beautiful question and it is possible to awaken from this dream. Not just our sleeping dream, but the waking dream. What is your current experience of this inquiry? Have you fully awakened from the dream of survival and life?

There are infinite facets to awaken to - don’t get cocky thinking you’ve explored them all and that you’re done. Today I awakened to horror. Watched myself spiral down into it, which ultimately led to exposing what was eating me alive and ending that part of me.

Ever got punched in the face, still accepted life, became aware that you still accept and embrace life and realized you can take lifes challenges which actually awakened a deeper, more alive love for life in you? That you could still love and be tender despite brutal challenges? That wounds make it all the more sweeter as it becomes more real? Blood and glitter That would be the theme of a fashion collection which would try to artistically express this feeling for life. ... My mind is a mysterie to me.

Shamans aren't avoiding "pure chemicals." They're working with whole systems, plant, spirit, psyche, body, and the environment. A chemical gives you the signal. The plant gives you the signal + the intelligence + the direction + the integration. Nature didn't just make a chemical; it made a whole ecosystem of intelligence, guidance, and integration. Plants like ayahuasca, psilocybin mushrooms, Peyote, or San Pedro aren't isolated molecules, they're living teachers. They carry energetic signatures tuned to human biology and consciousness. They have built-in safety mechanisms (slow onset, body cues, purges, nausea, shaking) that guide the nervous system to release what's stuck. That provides emotional and spiritual scaffolding, they show you what's inside in a symbolic, integrative way, thus a natural rhythm for processing trauma, energy, and emotion. Synthetic versions, even if chemically identical, lack this intelligence. They hit the nervous system like a hammer, there's no guidance, no subtle messaging, no slow, integrative unfolding. That's why people can get overwhelmed, dissociated, or falsely "enlightened" with lab-made molecules. When we overload the system with such intense psychedelics like 5‑MeO, the nervous system cannot integrate the experiences. That overwhelm cause parts of the emotional and psychological self to disconnect, often leaving one cold, dissociated, and mentally inflated. Instead of becoming more whole, one splits further, and the ego grabs the 'peak experiences' and builds a superiority identity around them. So what looks like enlightenment, is actually a fragmented and ungrounded nervous system trying to appear awakened and hold itself together. Nature has been perfecting this stuff for billions of years... its probably wise to recognize this.

As for Jesus eating meat, if we’re being honest and historically realistic: The Essenes ate no flesh. They practiced strict raw food diets. They believed in subtle bodies and purification. They taught breathwork, fasting, and living foods. They called the body "the temple of God." These passages match Essene tradition almost perfectly. And the Essenes are the group Jesus was most shaped by. So yes, these teachings are far closer to the kind of thing a fully awakened Jewish mystic of that lineage would teach than the modern Christian church’s teachings. And if Christ had full realization, he absolutely would: Teach harmlessness Teach purification Reject unnecessary killing Align with oneness Teach diet as part of spiritual transmutation Because a fully realized being sees every creature as themselves.

Diary: Medical School Journal. Chapter: Life in Experiential Recursion (chapter entries seem like a smart idea). Date: November 22nd entry. Type: Consciousness stream. Part/s: 1 of 2. Ran out of time. Entry number: #3. 0----------0----------0----------0 Title: Sleeping attractions to Awakened Catharsis. Recursion. Continuous learning. Replaying the moment. The ability to replay a feeling and experience it, hides the architecture of my control over every other consciousness state. When I am able to replay the moment, not as some perfect digital object but for all its natural contours, the present moment experiences juxtaposition. As I look around myself, it is obvious that most people experience their consciousness in exhalation. Mediation with awareness from A to B does not characterise the spectrum, it is the meta-awareness and its scalability of experience, or rather, its individual experiences, which opens the doors from inhalation to digestion to memory, to exhalation that has truly tasted something we may sublimate as "the fruit of life". Understanding this as a temporal span that biases the energy of my own experience forces the question in me, am I paying enough attention and what are the anchors that create the gestalt we refer to as our embodied whole for me to properly understand how I should be governing my attention? Most experiences I have are as good as gone in the next moment rendering my recollection of them in the next, beautifully granulised, an impossible task. Analogous to AI's attempts at recreating one's visions through shallow linguistic prompts, selections are made in the same way selections are made among the minds interpretations of the past, followed by a pairing phase between memory relived and the respective identity whether it’s ourselves or the narrative, artwork or larger project we’re working on. The described juxtaposition in my consciousness I notice happens in a number of ways. I may be attracted by a woman, wonder why she's still on my mind an hour later, only to have the memory of attraction refreshed to noise by another woman in the next moment as she steals my gaze with a stare that forces an imbalanced circulation of hormones. This gives rise to thinking about state through a kind of hyper-lens, something I may call the hyper-state-temporal, which is a different infatuation than with purely the construct of time itself. That is, instead of becoming preoccupied with any one state-experience external pairing, its utility in understanding the internal mechanisms that self-govern the "governance and release" valve. Helping me differentiate where my power lays versus the power of a woman and where the absence in analogous awareness is a description of not only my own powerlessness, but that of the general population concerning nearly any pull from consciousness they have especially to those wills externalised, potentially corrupted by them too. Outside of course, consideration of those pulls to make love with another, pulls that are inept when it comes to differentiating the purity of intent versus its obscuring. The myopia of choice by attraction sharing the same chasm as the modus operandi of all billion-dollar capitalistic investment scandals of course. It's interesting, the regeneration of time following the movement of one attraction to the next I see, greatly impacts the temporal context viewed and how people are revealed. The instancy of beauty noticed hides the beauty of another that takes longer to realise, returning my gaze out towards the world into something that mirrors infancy more than the maturity they may superimpose on any words relayed towards an attraction. There were after all, several other women within one reach that instead of being noticed, felt like props on a stage in which my consciousness attempts to deny its own selfhood by revealing itself through the vines of attraction wrapping around any meaningful tie to reason my subjective reality has over understanding itself through its self-generated smoke, vines it instead anthropomorphises as its chance for unity through 'biological interfacing' of spirit. It’s the amplification of otherwise neutral stimuli by dual biological intersection between gender and sexual orientation meeting future dissolution after reading Ayn Rand. More meaningfully though, for any distortions that occur the two-and-throw between hyper-temporalization of states of consciousness and the hyper-indexing that follows from granulized self-insight on their existence, opens the gates to a funnel that filters for preferential sanity amidst otherwise a hopeless decay of foresight that sees its own self-denial from the future looking back, a future self warning me of the costs of divorce court and an unplanned pregnancy? Impregnating for depth, I know I need to reach for maturity in understanding my own consciousness reactions beneath the hood. Hyper-indexing simply means the insight thats forged between one or more hyper-temporalised experiential spaces, say in relation to the temporal contrast forged by comparing one attraction to another and how by one (or the memory of one) silencing for little reason outside of the beauty of another they both cancel one another out The lesson in realising one's own self-deceit and the folly of self-persuasion of potential future fatherhood based on choiceless reactions depending on fleeting attractions, apparently ultimately fails the Turing test for genuine consciousness. A self-insight to personal growth which changes the homologous category of ‘attraction to potential ineffable posturing' after reason of course eventually fails after the intellectual transformation and nature, or just present evolution, takes its rightful place, evolving my consciousness through the dual program of insight and hormonal rebellion, and therefore chaos to unexpected ordered synthesized memory. This leaves me to wonder, has this shifting between attraction - temporal indexing - insight revealed the very mechanism that complete impeturbability is achieved, or is impeturbability merely an unmistably illusory resolve as a psychoanalyst may say? The imperturbability is only an outcome of dual cognitive shadowing though where processing balances any conclusion towards stress by managing expectations, beliefs and desires, along with locus of control, or just its absence often felt as loss. If I have only realised this now, why only now? I suppose the only conclusion was that the underlying mechanisms were saturated by not only the experiences themselves but the philosophies curated around them. I was not questioning experience enough, I was free-styling with the skateboard I was given rather than inventing the ski's. Producing an unawavering blindness proportional to the lack of genuine insight regarding. I can add more to this nomenclature of blind-freddy. But gosh when am I going to fully recover from the effects of these seizures. I feel like I'm consistently choosing the shortest straw of the variations of myself with nothing else to reach for, with a future self reaching into the mud in which I dwell to pull me out with straw to become stick. That said, let me get back to the drawing board. Reward based consciousness is a paradoxical virtue, I know I've gotta have it at the seams of consciousness independence, the heel of the boot of agency. For what other power is there to yield that is not free from the over-consumption of power other than the awareness agency subsubes? This independence creates the arch by which the rest of the world enters, that creates chemical dissolution of the effects of the worlds stagnancies. A place of coming and going of the world's effects that mirrors what are some archtypes of the described imperturbability, at least in some of their appearances. Agency is the only real definition of both reward, power and independence; not to mention consciousness that has any business at all with the ups and downs of doing's and "Something or other's". This is admirable reward seeking behaviour that I have been seeking in the past, however without the sophistication on how to upgrade the vehicle of self with some extra subwoofers and spoilers that gave the appearance of agency. A stronger voice, bicep (s) and the raging hormones. A partial product of injected partial views from "how to be a man" by something or other author, argumentation no longer or intricate other than "You here my voice don't you? That's a man. I am man. We are man. Done". It breaks ice without knowing how to carve it, and that's the reason I am looking for in the intricacy of discovering my own manly consciousness. As it should be and as a man should be doing, curating his own design of himself and much more as to me, and perhaps I will end the claim further by the end of this entry, it is man's agency, his choice, his self, his will, that by design he is meant to wield this power into designing the architecture of his being, and that is his sole differentiation and his soul yearning. The very definition of a beta-male versus an alpha-male is not that its too simplistic of a dichotomy and we should throw it out, it is to the degree that he wields his own choice as his own choice. Maturity of that choice is an overlapping voice, however a man must start with choice discernment to graduate that maturity and he will not truly start that developmental phase until he has started to truly wield those powers on his own behalf. This becomes the reward of being a man, and this is precisely how a man chases the reward of being himself and the degree to which he becomes embroiled in the illusions of the rewards externalised to his senses tricking him into the belief they're instead an internal resolve, is by that degree precisely that energy will be taken away from his purpose here. A man is an architect, and so when he falls into the reward architectures of the world, his will becomes programmable and his soul always feels like something is missing. Creating a loop between the programmed belief that relieving this yearning is found in the external apparitions of reward, chasing, perhaps momentary satiation, finalised by a continued unmet yearning that lay deeper beneath the architecture of his will that upon reaching the end of his tongue, becomes the figurative voice that architects the world. Men build to create structures from the physical to the meta-physical, a place in which people can safely dwell within those confines. Those structures can be outgrown and those structures can be reached as the next step. By men, I can say "masculine principle" if that moves better however the point is still the same, the persons trying to be a man so let them be as there are plenty of men that have forgotten their path, and that is the definition of a beta male. The beta male is not less in design, however the truth that he has forgotten makes him less in the meaning of who he is meant to be underneath. Moreover this truth does not weaken even when we consider people that are merely struggling to function at these limits, in fact to me, that is taking away their dignity of at the very least what they were destined to become and so they shouldn't be lessened by any weaker categories or just anything that follows with definitions that presuppose they were meant for anything less other than to wield the power of their god given sentience, something that is undoubtedly mirrored by over-capability, with our stretching towards extending these powers and something that as we know is pioneered by those that have embraced this masculine. This over-reaching, is calculated immaturity, and the weight of maturiy its possessed by, take the interests of Neuralink as just one simple but meaningful example, are only relative to the protection and genuine growth it affords the rest of the tribe, which in this case is not only yet to be determined and hardly to the level of the companies ambition, which includes close to the whole of humanity. Moreover, man's (principle of the masculine - why not use them analogously now) imperturbability as I contemplated, is the calm in the storm that's achieved once he wields this from narrative to bearing the fruits of the practical causes that follow. There is no secret recipe as some have assumed, and as I initially pondered, "Have the thing of nature do the thing it is meant to do and you will see it splended". Anxiety, neurosis and these things in men, are when he is afflicted with the demons of paralysis, an affliction that we should not wish upon even our worst enemies or evil men if we have a choice between this and instead steering the masculine's role to its soverign respect for the natural world from which it spawned. To myself and something that is undoubtedly symptomatic to this greater cause when culturally applied, the first realisation is in realising your existence is not only taking part in a social contract, it is a social contract, and power differentials are the sole medium and balance by which all social contracts are formed. The masculine must understand that its first social contract is between itself and its respective society, if not its tribe and or family which bares the same characteristics so for now I will not elaborate more than the category of society as an informal practical use, even though in some arguably many instances depending on the demographic, the family can be denoted as its own social contract separate to the respective larger society simply because of the larger influence of family than society. The masculines second social contract is between itself and its conscience, the latter which has great influence from the first contract and is the first symbiotic contract, at least the one that is most felt. The third social contract is between itself and all of creation (i.e. analogous to God, mother nature or however one wishes to denote), and this is where now two symbiotic contracts are now built with the fourth social contract, beween its identity and its essence. Each contract is interesting in its own right, with the first contract descriptive of so much that the individual compares themselves to and it is by this comparison that they're easily unknowingly used to their disrepair relative to the lack of health of a given society, of which ours if we parse it as 'the western world' is at its all-time worst stage. Most minds do not eagerly divide themselves to the extent of transforming this noise of the pairing between societal comparison and identity formation to quicken the pathway towards personal individuation, and in todays times this is more than ever a threat to the masculine principles development, directly harming the sovereignty of choice that leads to healthy governance. A bubble that becomes even larger and closets the self even further when their social influences are equally non-divisional therefore living an equivalent unconscious state of comparison. Becoming the source of non-individuating competition among friends and uniquely, stretching to romantic relationships when its states are determined by comparison over joint social division towards an individuated harmony curated in a romantic relationship that mutually determines growth parameters. In fact arguably, one could say every non-equal dimension between two otherwise compatible partners is by equal measure descriptive of the depth and breadth of unhealthy comparison emergent from the first social contract that now the symbiosis defines over two individuated partners. Todays lack of depth in our society is mirrored in the relationhsips of most demographics, revealing the widespread issue of individual selves and the self they're meant to uniquely find jointly through relationships unethered through the constraints of being defined by unhealthy comparison, with the shallowness of societies architectures unsurprisingly correlated with the short-term nature of relationships, monkey branching from one to the next with shallowly defined ease as illusory 'empowered choice', never realising that this 'choice' is being extrinsically defined right beneath the noise that cloacks it. We require the mirror of our given society to provide the individual who's healthy response to their society is that yes, they're just a "cog in the wheel" as its misguidedly usually stated in the negative, but the reason for this negative is that its derivative of the given society demanding conformity while forgetting that it is merely "the sum of its parts". To the extent that a given society is healthy, it does not demand anything of the individual but instead demands itself to require the mirror of the individual towards growth, built upon a healthy foundation leading to a healthy feedback loop of individuation no different to any other relationship. The reason why this demand works of course is that it contains the hidden premise that any given society is made in the individuals own image, by comparisons within the tribe that are together meant to forge 'collective reason' which is meant to be emblematic of a given society, defining itself through this collective synthesis which leads to genuine reinvention also reflected in the individual on their natural path of metamorphosis, not just the compression of noise which perpetuates maladaptive stagnation and resulting decay. The second mechanism at play here in the deterioration of the masculine principle through this first social contract is where shallowness is made in great supply through the efficiency of production creating boundless choice among equally bad options. Shallowness however that is marketed through techniques designed to leverage the knowledge of our biologies evolutionary engineered reward-systems. This information is used against the individual and a society that is defined more by its commerce than by its art is inevariably going to turn 'individual' into sellable ether and 'home-grown business' into a machine that sells the ether as efficiently as possible as the solution to the loss of the individual via comparative driven purchases from equally shallow sources that become weaker in supply at each iterative cycle towards cultural degeneracy. However what's important to note is that once the individual salvages the return of their soul an interesting transformation emerges. Once the first contract between self and society which previously threatened the individuals existential growth via boundary obstruction is discovered as the contract violation that it is, threat transforms back into self-knowledge. Self-knowledge of what one is still yet to become no longer through unhealthy comparison but revelation from what their respective society still lacks in its prevailing collective-knowledge and therefore societal image. As the self moves further back into its status as a genuine individual and stronger along its path towards individuation, one that contradicts all mirrors including demographic ties which is a choice by necessity rather than idealism, increased insight on the contract violation combined with sustained maturity leads individual to often redefine its role as someone that helps restore the health of the contract itself. Aka, restoration of the masculine principle back into the individual to carry out its rightful purpose in aiding the design and passage of their respective tribe and or society. Masculine anxiety, gone. Masculine neurosis, gone. Masculine perturbability, gone. Masculine calm, returned. Masculine purpose, returned. Masculine solidarity, returned. And ready to be put back into realities legal clause governing the reasonability of the masculines continued existence following this restoration of its sovereign identity. A sovereign identity which is symbiotic to its relationship with reality, as will be further defined in the third social contract. As shallow comparison meets the obstruction of meaningful choice and therefore the decay of sovereign will, so too then the obvious path between self and society, and with that, a conscience that often leads to neurosis as expressed in todays modern mental health epidemic. All things being equal, a healthy conscience is the bedrock of a healthy functioning masculine principle as it provides the fuel to the fire of an already aligned and engaged purpose driven existence in as much as the individual is already aligned with its path of individuation. Obstruct the conscience through shallow societal reason and 'the self' will equally misweigh the balance between its wants and needs with the needs of a given societ. Continually informing the self's essence that not only what it wants as programmed by society is out of alignment with its needs but that what society says its needs are totally out of alignment with the intrinsic desires of what the self wants to truly give. The mirror image of socities wants in the western world is that of more commerce, less nature, more problems in relationships as that leads to more isolation which equals more digitized selves and therefore more likes and subscriptions which it also wants, more trauma as that leads to more diagnoses which is also good as that leads to more medications that can be sold, more people on welfare because that leads to more mindlessness which also leads to more internet use and further deterioration of relationships and all for one thing. The accumulation of immature power born out of the mismatch between the conscience of self and the conscience of society. Society has done great damage to its conscience through the recursive lost of individual conscience, and together, they have eroded one another towards the world we are all a collective part of today. The person now born out of the image of society rather than its symbiotic relationship in the growth of its individuality, with little conscience happily erodes another as its societally reinforced via the dichotomy between the objectification of the individual which the persons conscience mirrors combined with the corruption vs the dual objectification of any meaningful security governance within a given society like that of the police force, CIA and FBI. Their erosion, erodes not just the society, but the erosion of the individual that gets injured by the person that's been programmed by the death and decay of their moral structures. Further too then, when the persons programming is influenced by demographics that denounce morality due to the weaknesses in its reason rather than seeing morality that follows a path of evolution equal to the evolution path followed by maturity as opposed to a failure of reasoning itself as many social media influences misguidedly believe and in return, spread in their social following. Thereby making it an even stronger virus that infects the sustenance that protects any mature resolve towards the sanctity of life beyond merely being a philosophical bumper sticker that gets repackaged and re-sold as cheap as culturally possible. Perpetuating the **game theoretic mismatch** between the individuals knowledge of the societal contract and society itself through pedastallised ignorance masquerading as leadership. Game theory being a very important lens by which many conflict vs cooperative situations between society and the individual can be defined, encompassing too the outgrowth of respective demographics taking a non-reducible part in a game-theoretic feedback loop of systems level growth vs degeneration in that contract en masse. Because demographics create a very interesting juxtaposition between the first contract between self and society, self and conscience. Given how in one instance where there is the decay of a given societies conscience and as examined the conscience of the individual, the negative impacts of this which can often lead to neurosis followed by mental disorder, as made very visible in some cases demographics can often, if not contributive, be a salvation point for the individual where that contract between self and society is at risk to the individuals development. Personal growth groups unsaturated by meaninglessness often occupied by economically biased self-help is an example of this. That said however, just having the space whereby an individual can express themselves as themselves like in therapy groups similar to variations of "12 steps (i.e. alcoholic recovery groups)" can be its own form of healing as the individual begins to mirror itself through smaller tribes rather than a failed societal self-image it weakly compares itself to. Something that is crucial in a given society in as much as there has been an indirectly favoured breakdown and fracturing of the family unit such as in our own, that otherwise, the individual previously relied upon as the strength and backbone of its self-differentiation over the society in which it dwelled in preparation for taking part in the building of societies image rather than being controlled by it. As families have however become increasingly more traumatised by the economic mismatch between tradition and family rituals as simple as turninng Christmas into an economic opportunity, the trauma has followed on the individual as families increasingly fail to learn the tools that govern healthy development of their offspring, furthering the fracturing that not only can lead to relying on demographics that are positive outgrowths but falling into the hands of negative demographics that led to the inherent need for those positive demographics to begin the individual on the path towards the return to him or herself. When the conscience within a society, its prevailing demographics and therefore the majority of individuals is degraded enough, "All is fair in naievty and power" becomes an incredibly haunting game-theoretic differential between those with the knowledge of power and those without. Well, I still have more to unravel. But time won't allow it. Hopefully will have recovered slightly more by next week. This free-styled journal is a good measurement of progress of said seizure recovery. Attention still fades in and out sometimes, but the solidarity of my sense of identity in the biological sense is mostly restored. Will have a mixture of completing this in the next entry combined with catharsis towards its next outgrowth. Heh, it’s all just imperturbable reps and sets. When aligned, yes. Best regards.

It’s not ‘the one’, it’s ‘oneness’. I understand what you are referencing here and I’ve experienced it both with and without another person. The state itself is certainly, energetically orgasmic but it is not god itself. it’s a likeness of a god state. Mystical unity is an experience of consciousness, and consciousness does not suddenly depend on genital dimorphism to reach non-duality. If that were true, intersex people, queer people, trans people, celibates, mystics, and entire traditions of monks would be metaphysically barred from God. This clearly isn’t the case. Sex can express unity — it is not the source of unity. People contain both masculine and feminine potentials within their own psyche.Jung, Tantra, Taoism, Hermeticism, and even the Platonic tradition all make this explicit.No external partner is required to complete an internal polarity. After years of deliberately avoiding anything to do with sex because I was born with a DSD, I went from hating anything to do with it to unconsciously exploring it out of desire. On the run up to my awakening, I was celibate for several years and certainly very peaceful and had a God realisation during that time. on the return journey I realised I’d made the mistake most Buddhists make by completely dismissing reality as an illusion and bypassing the experience of everything I had deconstructed to get a glimpse of the source. After reintegrating and understanding the facets of reality and that it is there literally for the infinite exploration of conscious experience, I understood ‘meaning and purpose’ in a reality with no inherent meaning or purpose. My choice to explore and be and that path for each person is personal. What is sacred to me is not to someone else. God doesn’t need to explore the same thing through every being. men going their own way and feminism in its own right is not deluded, but extremes of them are, due to extreme polarity bias separating from its opposite instead of realising it exists in contrast ( the whole). From personal experience, when I stopped projecting need for attention and intimacy onto my wife and instead turned the energetic flow of ‘love’ back into myself, it became a healing self love that completed and fulfilled me without the need of another. My wife did not need to do or be anything for me to love her because I was already in that state. It opened my heart and overflowed meaning there was love there for whoever came into my space. There’s a difference in love as projection and love as being. When I realised that state, my wife became more attracted to me. She felt safe and actually loved because she wasn’t being ‘needed’ or expected of. That made me, my personality and mood more stable and confident which was perceived as a strength to her. It also fully awakened my sexuality which in contrast before was completely shut down. It gave me an animation and vitality I’d never had before. However it is a very volatile energy that can not only create but destroy and too many gurus fall into manipulation to satisfy themselves. I am now a very sexual, sensual and intimate person ( that energy is there with or without others, male, female, anything in between, doesn’t matter) but it takes remaining conscious of internal psychological mechanism to not fall back into projection. The one thing that doesn’t happen is that even if I have moments of very strong urge, desire or desperation to experience intimacy with someone, my conscience won’t allow me to carry out any act of manipulation for my own satisfaction purely because I would never want to experience a unity with someone that didn’t genuinely want to connect at a deeper level with me. To me it is sacred, to me it’s god loving itself but that doesn’t mean it is to someone else. sex can mean very different things to different people. Many people do not obsess over sex. Trauma, conditioning, developmental stage, culture, and personal lived experience all drastically shift the role sex plays in someone’s psyche. It might be god to someone and absolute hell leading to suicide for someone else… Sex and intimacy can be sacred but only when approached consciously.They are not intrinsically sacred by default. People can experience unity through, meditation, contemplation, breath, stillness, creativity, service, psychedelic states, mystical encounters, emotional intimacy or through sex. Sex is one path among many.Beautiful, powerful, transformative — yes. Ontologically necessary — no.The danger is when something deeply meaningful to one person is assumed to be a cosmic law for everyone else.

Your work is truly remarkable and you are hundreds of years ahead of your time. So is Ralston..and others. But I disagree with the premise that that there are ever deeper awakenings. Maybe mine was "natural:. But that's it man. Omniscience. All of it. What you are doing now is making up reasons to make the dream more interesting because if you admit to yourself that you have beaten the game and awakened - what else would there be left here. You would have left that day in the bathtub as God. It's an attachment to the dream.

Of course compassion extends to all life, but it's not the same thing I'm speaking to here. A tree or plant does not "resist death" in the same way an animal does, nor does it express the same intensity of will to live. Universal compassion doesn’t flatten everything into sameness; it deepens sensitivity. There's a clear difference between taking the life of a being that actively resists death and harvesting something that doesn’t operate through pain-avoidance, fear-response, or a survival drive in the same way. Awakening isn't about intellectualizing sentience at every possible layer, rather it’s about feeling, more deeply and directly, what causes harm and what doesn't. Dream figures, phantom limbs, subtle forms… they're interesting, but they're not the same as a living animal with a nervous system, emotional bonds, trauma imprinting, and a will to survive. My point is simply that when the heart opens, you naturally stop causing avoidable suffering in the places where you do have a choice. And that's why awakened beings tend to gravitate toward non-harm in their everyday lives. No, and we don't need numbers, because historically and cross-culturally, the vast majority of spiritual masters, mystics, monks, yogis, sadhus, rishis, daoist adepts, Jain saints, buddhist monks, and contemplatives naturally gravitated toward vegetarian or vegan diets. It's the norm, not the exception. It's simply observable, the pattern speaks for itself.

The most profound has been spoken. I have awakened via other means. And those that have need no books. Meditation does work in awakening so just adjust your existence and we are fine

Well question is he is really stage yellow or is he some bullshit. Certainly he's not awakened so that keeps him limited on the spiral.

It’s me that plays hide and seek with myself. I know all is God, but I’m aware of separation too. So it’s me that hides my knowledge from people who are not me, even though I secretly know others are me. It’s not like I can tell my friends and family that I am God. They’d just laugh and say no you’re not. That’s why I have to pretend I’m a human being just to fit in with the others who haven’t awakened yet to their sovereignty.

Yeah but it just gets your euphoria. It doesn't awkaen you. I'm already awakened it and it does tweak me nicely but its not gonna awaken you.

Just watched this YouTube and found it very insightful. Thought I would share it with you for those that may never have watched or heard of this channel called, "GOD WithIn." Here is the link: I copied the transcript for those that like to read instead of watching videos. You can meditate for 10 years, collect crystals, memorize spiritual quotes, and still never wake up. Because awakening has nothing to do with being spiritual. Most people don't realize this. They think awakening is about adding more, more practices, more rituals, more teachings. But real awakening isn't about addition. It's about subtraction. It's about removing everything that hides what's already true. You see, you don't need to become spiritual to wake up. You only need to see through what you've been pretending to be. But that's the tricky part because the ego is very clever. When it realizes it can't survive through material identity anymore, it puts on a new mask, the spiritual one. Suddenly it's not I'm successful or I'm smart. It becomes I'm awakened, I'm pure, I'm different from others. And that's how the spiritual ego is born. It's subtle but dangerous because it feels good. It feels peaceful, righteous, and even divine. But it's still ego just wearing white robes instead of designer clothes. You start comparing your peace to others chaos. You start feeling proud that you don't need anything while quietly judging those who still do. You say you're detached, but you're secretly attached to the idea of being detached, it's another game, another illusion. And the moment you realize that everything shifts because you see, the real awakening isn't about becoming anything. It's about ending the search completely. It's that quiet moment when the mind finally gets tired of chasing enlightenment and it just stops. It surrenders. And in that silence, something deeper begins to breathe through you. Something that was always there, hidden under all the spiritual noise. That's awakening. Not a lightning bolt, not a cosmic vision, not a new identity. It's the falling away of the old one. Let me tell you something most people won't say. Spirituality has become the ego's favorite hiding place. It's where the ego goes when it's tired of pretending to be worldly. It goes to temples and retreats and sacred spaces, but it takes itself with it. It becomes the one who knows the one who understands energy, the one who has awakened. And that's why so many seekers stay seekers forever because they're still someone, still a me that wants to become something more. But awakening is the death of that me. It's not glamorous. It's not about glowing chakras or manifesting things. It's about facing the raw truth that there never was a separate you to awaken. You see, the truth doesn't care whether you're spiritual or not. It doesn't care if you chant or pray or meditate. The truth simply is. It's right here, right now, waiting for you to stop searching long enough to see it. Let me ask you this. Who is the one trying to awaken? Who is chasing this idea of enlightenment? If you sit quietly with that question, something strange happens. The one who's been chasing suddenly disappears and what's left is peace. That peace doesn't belong to anyone. It's not personal. It's not something you achieve. It's what remains when the idea of me falls away. Most people don't reach that point because they're addicted to becoming. Even in spirituality, they want progress, status, something to hold on to. But awakening doesn't give you something to hold. It takes everything away, including the one who wanted to hold it. That's why it feels like dying before you die. When people say awakening is bliss, they forget to mention the part where your identity dissolves. Where the ground beneath your belief’s collapses, where everything you thought made you, you fade into nothingness. That nothingness is freedom. It's what you've been searching for disguised as emptiness. You see, true awakening doesn't make you special. It makes you simple. You stop trying to fix the world or fix yourself. You stop trying to be good or spiritual. You just are. There's no longer a you trying to live life. There's only life flowing effortlessly. You might still meditate, pray, or light candles, but not because you're trying to reach something. You do it because it flows naturally. Because the doing is the being. You can be fully awake and never call yourself spiritual. In fact, many awakened beings never use that word. They don't need to. They've seen through all labels, even spirituality itself. Because when you're truly awake, everything becomes sacred. The silence, the noise, the pain, the joy, the ordinary moments. Awakening doesn't divide the world into spiritual and unspiritual. It sees everything as one expression. The person meditating on a mountaintop and the person washing dishes in the city both are the same life playing different roles. And when you see that, judgment disappears. Comparison disappears. You stop looking down on those who haven't woken up because you realize there's no such thing as asleep or awake. There's only life experiencing itself in different stages of remembering. This realization humbles you. It softens you. You no longer need to prove you’re awakening. You no longer need to convince anyone of your peace. You no longer post about your vibration or your frequency because you've realized the most awakened thing you can do is be nobody. That's the paradox. The moment you stop trying to be spiritual, you naturally embody the deepest spirituality there is. Presence, authenticity, silence. You might look ordinary to others, but inside you're free. The spiritual ego wants to be seen as awakened. The true self doesn't care. It doesn't need attention. It doesn't need validation. It just quietly observes in stillness, in awareness, in love. You see, awakening isn't about reaching some higher realm. It's about seeing clearly this one without the filters of belief, identity, or judgment. The mind loves labels. It says this is spiritual, this is not. But awareness doesn't label anything. It just sees. When you wake up, you realize spirituality was just a bridge. A useful one maybe. But at some point, you have to step off it. Because truth isn't on the bridge. It's the ground you've been standing on the whole time. You don't need to be spiritual to wake up. You just need to be honest. Honest enough to admit you don't know anything. Honest enough to see how even your spiritual progress was just another story. Honest enough to let all of it go. That's when awakening happens. Not as an achievement, but as a falling away. You stop trying to become light and realize you already are. It's not something you learn. It's something you remember. And that remembrance doesn't come through effort. It comes through stillness, through exhaustion of all you're seeking, through the quiet moment when you finally stop trying to get it. That's when life whispers. You've been it all along and everything makes sense. You no longer care about being spiritual or unspiritual, awake or asleep, enlightened or lost. Those words lose their meaning because the truth was never hiding in your spiritual identity. It was hiding in your ordinary humanity. The laugh, the tears, the moments you thought were meaningless. Those were the doorway. The mind made it complicated. But reality has always been simple. You see, when you wake up, you realize there was never a seeker. There was only the seeking, moving through you like wind through an open window. And when the window realizes it's never been separate from the wind, that's awakening. So don't try to become spiritual. Don't force it. Don't wear the identity of it. Just be present. Because that's where the real awakening lives. In the silence beneath the trying, in the space between thoughts, in the deep acceptance of what is. And that's the funny thing. When you stop searching, when you stop labeling yourself as spiritual or not spiritual, you finally find what you were searching for all along. Peace. Not peace you create, but peace that's already here. So, the next time someone tells you to be more spiritual, smile gently because you'll know something they don't. That the real awakening has nothing to do with being spiritual. It's about being real, being raw, being free. You don't need crystals. You don't need mantras. You don't need fancy words. You just need to be willing to see what's true right here, right now, beyond all ideas of what awakening should look like. Because the truth doesn't fit inside an identity. It's bigger than that. It's who you already are before the story of spiritual ever began. So remember this, you don't wake up by being spiritual. You wake up from being spiritual. And when that happens, you finally stop trying to find the light because you realize that you are the light.

@Masterpiece IMO for a soul living 24 hours in God consciousness it makes no differences, as nothing can affect his consciousness,but if shifts back and forth I'd say solitude is the best situation to stabilize this level of consciousness in a profound levels then after, either in solitude or in social, you are home! But I totally understand you, a shining awakened soul spread his consciousness to 'others'. I do live alone by myself too and it's a blessing.

I’ve always had a passion for Truth. Living alone by myself for 5 years now, did bring me towards several awakenings (using no psychedelics). I’ve also been blessed to have a social job, interacting with people, teaching them English in a non English speaking country. The point is, I see how social life makes me more of a “Sleeping man” rather than an “Awakened one”. Distractions as they say come with social life. But the thing that I noticed is when me being in a social setting interacting with people, I try to force myself to be more Conscious, and SOMETIMES I really see the shift in a Reality, like people around are acting differently, while me being around them more Present. It’s like I make changes within them, as I try to be more Conscious around them (again it only happens occasionally, 1 out of 10 times, maybe even less). Being solo for a True Spiritual people, I assume, is not a problem, but being social is (in general). It’s a True Gift from God to experience both, to be ok with Solo as well as with Social life. But Being solo IN a social life - navigating it is a whole new challenge. Which I’m trying to figure out NOT TO MANIPULATE but to EXPLORE. God Bless all of YOU. The question is: “Do you understand?”

I used it as a way to meditate. When people are hungover they ususally get anxiety and go do something, like clean their house or go out to stop the anxiety but I would lay there looking behind my eyes. I started seeing shit behind my eyes like static moving images I would tell my friend I see shit moving behind my eyes. I would say I think our brain are dreaming all the time even while we are awake. Without alcohol I wouldnt have meditated. But with it I have meditated probably 1000s of hours like 16 hours at a time. I didnt even know I was doing it or what meditating is. Once I awakened I just stopped drinking. My soul or intelligence was doing it. WHATEVER it is you are doing your soul is doing it intelligently for a reason. Dont listen to other people about what is good and what is bad. I drink my self to death and I came back. That was the best thing I ever did cause I saw God. And it was THE key part to me awakening. If I didnt do that I wouldnt have seen God in my awakening. If someone came up to me and said hey dont drink yourself to death it would have been a detriment for my spiritual path to listen to them.

@Inliytened1 Well, I doubt it. I’m sure some here have had awakenings. Awakened is a nebulous term, likely state dependent. People here aren’t like a group or something. They are or should individual philosophers, seekers, students, budding sages and artists.

People don't ask the hard questions. What everyone is mostly looking for is.....what most people want is,,,we're all looking for the same thing.....etcetc not why is the wanting there in the first place, that's the question in my book. Why is everything so self-centered is my enquiry, why no one cares about the eye lids closing to reveal nothing, we sleep and all die. It's always about happiness, end of suffering, other people being dumb, mean, or stupid, who awakened to what, what retreat to go on for a better life experience, what's valuable and what can I get out of life....meanwhile life is just trucking away with no care in the world for your petty concerns and will throw a tornado, hurricane or tsunami on the way to enlighten you of this fact but you'll blow it off and say that's just life and give me a hard time about something silly I may have said.

The awakened.

But doesn't it hit differently to be awakened as God beyond the human state? I felt an immense difference between the human state and the God state. All of the survival instincts came back when I came back to being human. The difference between sleepiness and wakefulness was so vastly different. Since yesterday, when I remind myself of the trip, I notice that I am reactivating the trip. However, suddenly I start to have a mild trips during the day, even without reminding myself and without taking a psychedelic today.

@Breakingthewall Those mystics are the flowers of their respective traditions. The issue is that Westerners (not all jeez -don’t @ me) belittle or demote the religious or cultural soil they grew from. It’s one thing to criticize the dogmatism of religion, another to say that religion itself is rigid and silly beyond repair and must be left to the dustbin of history as a stage blue relic. Stage blue (and others) aren’t about form but orientation. The form of religion doesn’t just belong in stage blue but can have a stage blue orientation - which is dogmatic. There can be stage orange, green and yellow religious practitioners and mystics. I think the error is that Westerners secularise these mystics and saints into the “enlightened individual” who became liberated from the backward religious dogma and culture all around them. They’re trapped in their own historical narrative of rebellion (against the Church etc) and project it. They see eastern saint's radiating love and light - then jump to conclude the only way they could get that way was through rejection of the path and cultural soil that led them there. For example - did Sadhguru reject and shed his own cultural soil, language and metaphysics? Or is it possible that it in fact aided him, as it does others who he teaches it too? The shift in perspective is that Rumi wasn’t a rebel against Islam but was Islam’s flowering. Just like with the others. Maybe the error is we mistake transcendence within the form of religion for rebellion against it - because we can’t imagine total devotion within a religious framework leading to awakening. I think we need to separate awakening from understanding. For example - all kinds of people from different backgrounds and religions have had awakenings or are awakened - yet that doesn’t mean they understand it at the same level as say how Leo Gura does. This is where I appreciate the West’s approach to spirituality. We could say it’s a scientific one and that it using a technical / neutral language is what allows it to be a sort of lingua franca of spirituality for everyone. Eckhart Tolle did this really well by using words that purposely had no historic baggage or conflations ie presence instead of God. But that doesn’t and shouldn’t erase the localised expression of the spiritual through various cultures, traditions and religions. Those are like local dialects and accents that bring richness to life and allow people to engage with the spiritual in their own way, in their own tongue. We could say that’s the art of religion. I’ve seen some videos on meta-modernism that goes into meta-modern religion. There could be a world where both scientific (neutral) and artful (culturally colourful religious) spirituality co-exist as complementary to each other. Let’s say we all got enlightened one day - what would we do anyway? Before enlightenment chop wood carry water, after enlightenment chop wood carry water. People will still live and want to express and share awakening in various forms, traditions and religions. But it will be done at a different level “from above”. Then the next generations slowly become less enlightened and make the same mistakes of the religions of old - introducing dogmatism and fundamentalism - and the cycle begins again where later generations mock the old religions for being “untrue” lol

Yes I understand that. 👍 The weight is lifted when I consider there’s just indifferent impersonal “suffering happening” compared to “I am suffering “ Awakening doesn’t necessarily mean suffering ends though. Even an awakened one can experience suffering. Anyone who is conscious of knowing is able to reflect. So although trauma grounds itself deep within the mind/body mechanism, we can recognise that we can starve it of any more attention. Or, we can trauma bond with our own body. It doesn’t matter, it’s all just happening so there’s no need to repress or avoid, rather just allow and integrate, by surrender and to fully accept that nothing that is happening is ever personal. To recognise fully that I’m not my thoughts or mind, I am behind, Yes, and knowing the difference certainly lightens the burden when knowing you are conscious of all your projections and therefore the only one responsible for them.