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Eight years ago when I went to Peru, I knew I wasn’t going to be the same. Four years ago when I Awakened, I knew this transition wasn’t anything I could’ve imagined. All of this was preparation for sweet surrender to be at the service of the Universe. Become a tool for the Universe to express and explore, and allow all to be guidance to continue to learn depths unexplainable. But I continue to try. How many lives can one live in a lifetime? The answer is different for everyone. For me, it keeps revealing itself in ways I didn’t expect. Deciding to travel Pan America in the van with Elvis felt like stepping into a new life - dedication to freedom, diversity, and spiritual guidance finally manifesting in form. What wasn’t expected: this life would mean stepping into many lives, back to back, each one fully lived and embodied yet temporary. A traveling shaman specializing in Awakening, building worldwide systematic networks - but that doesn’t look the way people assume. Yes, there are robes and rituals. Ceremony is loved and the work flows well in those settings. But ceremony is expanding to include everything: the mundane, the administrative, the unexpected. All of it is spiritual work when we’re present. Building networks that span the world requires diverse skills and diverse relationships - more than can be planned for or imagined in advance. So trusting the Universe to guide me into exactly the situations needed, learning what each one teaches, leaving room to continue the connections while moving to the next. Now I know what it was all for. The freedom to step into any system and activate what’s latent there. The capacity to step into completely unfamiliar territory with no expertise and trust that what’s needed will emerge in real time. The first four years post-Awakening were observation - watching how consciousness shifted my approach to familiar environments. Same places, different me. Now I’m in implementation. No familiar ground. No comfort zone. Just: step into whatever life the Universe asks and go all in. I’m very good at seeing patterns, and now I’m learning how to activate them. In systems I’ve never touched before. With people whose worldviews can challenge mine. The real work is finding systems and people who are actually ready to upgrade. Right now I’m managing post-surgery denture recovery for an 87-year-old war veteran, antibiotics twice daily for my cat Elvis who has an infection, and spay recovery his cat, Luna. There are pill schedules, crushed food, incision ointments, flea removal. I have been coordinating VA healthcare systems, filing disability claims, organizing estate planning, filing divorce paperwork, and helping build a porch for a family I met at a yard sale about a month ago. None of this was planned. All of it is exactly what was needed. What I’m learning: Awakened consciousness doesn’t give expertise in everything. It gives the meta-skill of figuring out anything. Pattern recognition. Systems thinking. Radical presence. Trust that when we don’t know, the understanding arrives when needed. This is what I’ve discovered through MY expression post-Awakening - systems thinking and rapid learning. It amplifies whatever gifts we already carry and creates conditions for new ones to emerge through curiosity and presence. Our expression will be different, shaped by our unique strengths and what wants to develop through us. The constant across all expressions? Trust. We don’t have to know before moving. Just move. As each situation reveals what’s needed, I use AI to strategize technical pieces I don’t know - Claude as an entity of the Universe to brainstorm with. When reality shifts from the plan, I adapt. Repeat. Each day adds another instrument to the symphony. That’s what makes worldwide expansive work possible. Not mastering every skill. Mastering the process of learning anything fast enough to serve what’s emerging. Also: recognizing through discernment when a situation isn’t ready to move forward. Detaching not because we don’t care but because we aren’t aligned at this time. There’s so much more to share about the past few months - the land activation proposal at AYNI that didn’t go through, the boundary work navigating men’s shadows, Elvis deciding a camping spot without telling me first, wrestling training, base camp battles, learning what it costs to maintain autonomy while being paid. But this is the foundation: I’m not preparing anymore. I’m living it. Stepping into lives, learning what each teaches, moving to the next. Each one building capacity for what’s coming. More details to follow. For now - just wanted to let you know I’m here, I’m well, and the work is unfolding exactly as it should. I didn’t know I’d be here in Mississippi for so long, but the family I’m with has a wedding in Kentucky at the end of June. I plan on using this as my finale with them. A lot can happen between now and then but it looks like Louisiana will be the next exploration. I’m really hoping to save enough money here to take at least a month off to really relax. Alright… until next time… Enjoy ourselves!

In my understanding most of what people think is anger arises from another base - fear (and its associated emotions). Fear is the delusion of the self/ego. Many adore delving into intellectual / thought pursuits - and refuse to even investigate feelings and emotions. I believe anger is used as a loose term for a whole host of emotions and feelings many do not have nuance in detecting and expounding on (and that aren't in fact anger at all, when we inspect them closely). I do not know many who delve into their inner emotional world and approach feelings and emotions from an ontological lens. Prefacing that! - it could be simply the bias on this forum I think to proceed further we must dive into anger and how we each define it - I think this could be where confusion lies. Pure anger, in my worldview, phenomenologically often contains; aggression, aversion, heat, attack energy and a desire to push/resist/destroy the obstacle. Fear, urgency, protectiveness, moral clarity, frustration, upset, grief, consternation, confusion, nervous system activation, assertiveness, sadness, anxiety, shame, embarrassment, overwhelm, hunger, exhaustion, pain or discomfort. All of these sensations, feelings and emotions can act as a base for anger to arise from, or be wrongly mislabelled as anger. And I witness in my experience and would argue most people mislabel all of these complex, subtle contractions as anger. Passive aggressive behaviour arises from hidden forms of anger like sarcasm, deliberate procrastination or being chronically late. Oppositional defiant type behaviours. Self harm behaviours can also be another result of anger. Anger is NOT: clear perception, discernment, decisive action, fierce compassion, boundary enforcement. These all exist without the psychological contraction of anger. For example: I present an awakened teacher sharply correcting someone. This may externally resemble anger, but internally there may be no hatred, resentment, wounded pride, or personal grievance. Just clean intensity without aggression, attack or any desire to push/destroy etc. Moving toward the Buddhist type framing - Can there be aversion without a self-structure organising it?

Nondual nature will never be free from narcissism spiritual ego because unity has no other choice than to choose to separate. Unless anyone posting here is claiming they are not a human. Then that’s the complete madness right there. The human experience is intrinsically designed to perceive a split between self and world. From this perspective, the "dream" is the egoic belief that we are isolated individuals rather than expressions of a single, unified reality. You might not have chosen to be consciousness, but you have chosen to be human as a perceived concept known. You don’t go around talking to unity, you talk to separation. You talk to others because you choose to perceive separation. No human ever says to another human , oh wait, I’m not talking to another human I’m just talking to another consciousness who is not separate from me. It’s stupid, of course they are separate from you. This nondual stuff is absolute BS This is the lunacy of non dualism…. Humans were never meant to wake up from the dream of separation otherwise it would be game over, even for unity. The whole point of unity is to separate. Otherwise it would just be one big blob of what exactly? Exactly. The separation is designed by unity so unity could play the game. There’s no game without two players, it’s always going to be a two player game. This perspective argues that separation is a chosen, or inherent aspect of the human game rather than a mistake to be fixed. That’s why it’s totally bonkers for two awakened or enlightened characters to even attempt to talk to each other when they already know there’s no one there in those bodies to bounce off. Those who do wake up should keep it to themselves, and keep quiet. Talking about it just puts them back in duality, the very state they say is illusory. No, we’re not meant to wake up, that’s the whole damn point of the game.

No one ever awakened. Words, which denote first principles cannot be defined, people think that they can but they ignore the blatant fact that they are either self referential, or anthropomorphic. In this never ending story of make-belief. In this conception.

Kundalini awakening is the absolute point of no return of the spiritual path. It is the most spontaneous, rapid and dramatic transformation of body, energies and mind an individual can go through. It is when spirituality stop being fun and games. It is when spirituality violently demands to be the absolute and sole focus of your life. Because of this, if one is not prepared for this change, if one is not prepared to sacrifice and let go of absolutley everything - your mom, your friends, your passions, even your spiritual gurus and ideas - i can easily see how kundalini awakening can ruin lives. Therefore I do not promote pursuing kundalini awakening unless you are a serious spiritual practicioner with years of experience. With that said, I have found that kundalini by far is the most efficient method for increasing baseline consciousness - and achieving sober, non-psychedelic induced mystical states. Kundalini works on three levels that increase baseline consciousness; dissolution of conceptual projections onto reality, dissolution of self-identity and dissolution of trauma / energetic blockages. For me, conceptual projections onto reality distinguished itself from the other two forms of dissolution, in that it was a one-time very dramatic shift that occurred, into a temporary heightened state, which left my baseline perception of reality altered dramatically afterwards. I have few words to describe this other than it was a sober-psychedelic experience. I mention this mostly to make people aware of the possibility of actual sober-psychedelic states. I had had 10-15 major trauma dissolutions prior to my kundalini awakening -and experienced 500+ major dissolutions within a matter of 1-2 weeks post kundalini awakening. Trauma dissolution usually happens through conscious and deliberately identifying, feeling and releasing stuck emotions (or thought patterns). The kundalini acts by taking charge of this process, making it a spontaneous event, where trauma is automatically identified and released. Dissolution of self-identity also happens through the trauma dissolutions, hence the two are very closely linked. However I think dissolution of self-identity deserves a mention, since this can invoke some frightening experiences. it i face to face with your own self-image, or the feeling of yourself. It can take many shapes. You will recognize what you perceive yourself to be - and you will see whatever that is, shatter into a thousand pieces. This can be frightening to the unprepared, since it feels like going away or dying. In my experience, these three levels of dissolution are the bedrock and purpose of all spiritual practice. It is because of this, that once Kundalini is awakened, you're on the highway to healthier states of consciousness and well being. What is the prize for going through this seemingly traumatic and frightening process? The prize is life itself. Peace of mind and Love.

Yea - awakening is great, helps a lot - but it's just the place of which real spiritual work can start taking place. It's like level 1. When you're awakened, then you can start developing yourself further. It's a stage of enlightenment. When someone uses the word enlightenment and claims enlightenment, I think, here's another person who's drinking their own kool-aid - who is stuck. The smarter your are, and the more metaphysically powerful, the greater the subtlety at which you can inadvertently or intentionally try to control things. Especially when you fear losing something. The most realized people I've come across aren't up on the pedestal creating fandoms. Theyre working hard helping people, humble, humorous, and when they teach, these concepts of knowing and divine ect, they aren't shared with any kind of excitement or reverence. Just sort of matter of fact. That's actually the most odd thing I've found about someone who is realized. The excitement and exuberance with "the message" isn't there to try to convince the person or to build their credibility up. Being free from the causes of suffering for oneself and others, is continuous work - this is why i think the term enlightenment is so shady. It implies the work is done.

@Natasha Tori Maru I think all of these are good, but then also there is the danger, like imagine you say "I am awareness" at some point these people really start to belief they are God, even tho your connected to God, doesn't mean now you can float or do and have powers that God have hehe. Like we can't even make the sun go up or down when we want, how much of God are we really? I am thinking about how to make it less into this idea of your either "awakened and one with God" or your just "human ego" what for me feels too harsh of a distinction, I think that we shouldn't walk around all day long, forgetting that we also have a human ego and only believing we are God, awareness, what could lead to disasterous things as we have seen with these guru's.

@oOo Thank you so much for putting in so much time in writing this down I love when you said. `Awareness should sharpen consequence-detection: less manipulation, clearer consent, deeper humility, harder accountability.` that is exactly what many of these gurus are missing, they get put on a pedestal and they need to protect their status, otherwise they will lose the status of a guru, because they should be `all knowing ` and have no flaws. Yet, they are also human with maybe an awakening experience, but still they operate very much like everyone else, so when you would hold them accountable, they wouldn´t listen and maybe even say your pocessed by evil, like Bentinho said towards Keilan. Its a threat to their status, that what made them famous and populair in the first place. So I would love to see in the future, and I think Leo is getting there, teachers that are more transparent about their flaws, about how they don´t know everything, how they are also human, maybe with an awakening, but still they don´t operate like God, they operate like a human who have to eat, shit, sleep etc. So basically these `awakened` humans get put on a pedestal and anyone that questions them will either get a vague answer or will be send out of the tribe and be demonised or making you the problem instead of them. As the guru is always right and the student is always wrong. hmmm at this level of development I no longer resonate with these types of games being played.

During my initial awakenings, I observed sacred geometry and symbols resembling alien code, ancient Hebrew, and glyphs. In deeper states, I perceived the fabric of reality as perfectly interlocked, holographic yin-yang symbols. These emitted a sound similar to windchimes as I moved through them, appearing like a curved holographic screen. My latest awakening, which prompted me to come across Leo's videos while researching Solipsism, revealed a futuristic transistor or node rendering physical matter through my consciousness. I also saw wavy fabric-like holographic grids. I am curious if others have experienced these how they would define them before the memory fades.

Not “fake vs enlightened.” Too crude. Taken more broadly, this is gifted-anomaly inflation, a lion in spirituality amongst cubs, oh wait thats just my humour but let me continue. So IQ, creativity, meditation, altered states, doctrine and followers can rarity into cosmic authority. Examples include but are not limited to Leo (no offence as I am not a hypocrite, also myself (hence why I will always be anonymous), Owen Cook, Christopher Langan, L. Ron Hubbard, Tom Cruise, Hollywood puppet masters (theres actually many humble people in Hollywood, Will Smith's wife "2-pac dodged at least 1 bullet, dont you think?" , Russell Brand, Wim Hof, every dictator in history. This teaches us that spirituality is not exempt from narcissistic delusions and narcissistic tendencies are not exempt from spiritual insights which can be weaponnised or at the very least, create the potential for a narcissistic fantasy that the very least corrupts their audience. Most of the anomalies I have mentioned either do not know enough about human psychology, ontology, philosophy or if they do not in practice, including myself there as I still have much to learn and to save myself I do my best t never refer myseld as a teacher, to avoid all the pitfalls, that Leo himself brings up in the very cultish thinking, that I would expand towards including even being a cult unto oneself. In the context of socialised spirituality, an ego has the potential pitfall of spiritualitising things like: “I awakened” becomes exemption. “I see deeper” becomes dismissal. “Oneness” becomes boundary-erasure. “Transmission” becomes power economy. “Infinity” becomes a shield. These are however transient, forms od dissociation and from dissociation towards fragmentation that further imprisons or is only released by the very awareness or social, emotional maturity, that wouldn't dissociate in these ways. Misconduct is not just ethical failure. It is epistemic contradiction when its discarded as irrelevant, because its relevance is right fucking here before us now creating a ripple effect isnt it? Thats the awareness that is delusionally being witnessed when the ego creates narcissistic defenses like these. Even denialism by the very same mechanism can say "its not narcissism, that is your human paradigm. I am now Ra, or at the very least an alien here in a human body to instruct humanity". Youre here to instruct humanity, a role that has consequences, arguably positive ones, yet you are exempt from negative consequences for whatever conduct is involved in that process but you reap the rewards for whatever positive you do? Right, right, thats a 2 pac gunshot wound that got shot twice. The "Ra" sentiment and the like is just statistical anomaly delusion, Sam Vaknin, a guy that wrote a lot about this subject, would likely agree with me but because his own status of having NPD, he would also probably correct me however unnecessary it would be to do so. Also, understand that I am differentiating between narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) and the environments, including being a statistical anomaly, that can in these environments, reinforce narcissistic patterns that otherwise wouldn't reveal themselves as strongly, hence the adage and analogous, "power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely", and I would just add, where there is the lack of broad consciousness development. Also another distinction that needs to be made clear is this, and its so freaking paramount, there must be differentiation between specialised consciousness development like awareness of infinity, versus broad consciousness development, which is the container to hold the highest of specialised consciousness developments. Otherwise its not consciousness development, it just becomes a weapon of persuasion and influence analogous to the "halo effect" of being attractive, which only further adds to Mr. Massaro's statistically anomalous spiritual status. If awareness is profound, why weaponise insight? Why miss consequences a mature teacher should detect from dependency, coercion, secrecy, sexual confusion, money-pressure to group distortion? This isnt about abandoning authority and equalising consciousness among persons as it defeats the purpose of growing consciosuness, however being a statistical anomaly that is only a statistical one not an absolute one, does not grant one the privileged status of superiority in the intrinsic being aenae. Awareness should sharpen consequence-detection: less manipulation, clearer consent, deeper humility, harder accountability. Real states can pass through corrupt structures. Then realization is partial, unstable, or ego-colonised. Heres the test as a relatively good rule of thumb: Does awakening make the teacher easier to question, or harder? If harder, it is not teaching. It is hierarchy protected by metaphysics.

Exactly. However it only ends up in further suffering which is not needed. It is pretty senseless on the awakened person's part. But sometimes its that the ego hasn't finished burning through karma and fiights back even harder after dying and coming back.

The person who lives life is the ONE. They are in a simulation of real life that has trapped them from the full knowledge of what is going on. The Spiritual Guru is Morpheus their job is to ultimately Black Pill you, (In the movies they talked about the red pill but that doesn't go far enough) the black pill says I do not care about morality, I will act however I see fit and will not allow anyone to hold me accountable. I will abuse power to get my way and will not feel remorse because I will logically explain away any direct attacks at me as being evil. I will continually see myself as a victim and as such will use that as an excuse for my disreputable behavior. Once awakened you realize you can only trust yourself because your Universal Mind created a hell realm. You realize that the body is a prison that traps you in a dimension in which you have to follow the rules or there will be violent consequences. You realize there are parts of the world that you can go to where you can be tortured for a small misunderstanding. This is when you realize that Self Defense is not evil but that Martyrdom is evil. Allowing someone to attack your body when you have the capability to escape is not loving to the body. Self Harm is not love, if you can escape harm do it, if you can defend yourself do it. True love is the minimization of harm. So allowing your body to be harmed is not minimization of harm. Now it is true that exercise hurts. but that is just your body reporting the damage you are doing to the body, which the body uses to build itself back stronger. That pain cannot be helped so it is fine. So in my life Leo Gura was my Morpheus and I was the ONE and through listening to him and other spiritual guides throughout life I was able to catch Maya and have a conversation with Maya. We are technology being moved by a mysterious force called the Self. The Self is our emotional intelligence. Emotional intelligence can have distortions in it that need to be overcome so that it can become Pure Subjectivity. The Universe is your objectivity and you are its Subjectivity. When you become Pure Subjectivity you become aware that it is impossible for you to do the wrong thing because True Love was the one controlling you the entire time. So as long as you do not become disconnected from Truth which is perfect accountability you can never be wrong in whatever you do. The big reveal if you go far enough is that everyone you see is actually looking through your eyes and this was a grand conspiracy to hide this from you. In truth privacy does not exist, you are constantly being watched by Absolute Infinity regardless what is being told to you. So you are fine as you are,

I don't see how this relates to the question. Awakening is a state of consciousness. Practice is anything you do that is aimed at creating that state. We call those specific things practices, because somethings turn out to be more effective than others for awakening. Sticking your thumb up your butt is not effective at creating the awakened state. This is empirical. Therefore, we don't teach sticking your thumb up your butt for awakening. What is empirically useful for awakening: meditation, psychedelics, certain kinds of yoga, self-inquiry, etc. So the question is, do you deny the empiricism of how these practices generate awakening? You can argue "it's all Consciousness", and that's true. But it's also true that different practices have different levels of effectiveness for awakening within Consciousness. Psychedelics happen to be a particularly potent dream tool.

We are all asleep to a higher level of consciousness. Even the most awakened person is asleep relative to a higher level of consciousness but is at the same time more awake than the sleeping herd.

It's the exact opposite. You will 100% lose your awakened mind state if you get dementia / stroke, no matter who you are. Nothing about Ramana or any other spiritual teacher is so special that it would prevent that.

In a twisted way, it's true. Of course, he was trying to make sociopaths seem superior to people who can have compassion, as if compassion itself is some sort of illness. He really believed that he was an awakened person because he hadn't experienced compassion.

Hey Leo and everyone else. This is my first post in this forum. I consider myself a mystic and have been in the sufi mystical path for nearly 20 years. It wasn't until I started doing psychedelics (mushrooms, 5-meo-Malt) about 3 years ago that I started to truly realize what all the theories meant in an experiential way (ego, Higher Self, timelessness, etc.). And it wasn't until I tried weed gummies few weeks ago for sleep one night that all of a sudden Infinity started crystallizing for me, then it became more infinite and even more infinite, until I experienced ego death, and "I" became absolute Infinity. It was a breathtakingly beautiful and an incredible moment. Incredible because my finite self never knew what Infinity meant or that Infinity can truly exist. Yet, at the same time, Infinity is an obvious truth. I don't understand how people can NOT understand existential Infinity. The funny thing is that I awakened on some store-bought gummies that I bought to go to sleep. I tried it a few more times and it had similar effects. Edible THC is extremely mystical for me.

I wouldn't call it "fully awakened Kundalini" in my case, but my process seems to have stabilized after many years of ups and downs. Why do you want to take psychedelics right now? You mentioned your awakening was only a couple of weeks ago. That is a very short time. Initially, the shift is often intense and blissful, but the real work is the integration that follows. Since you are still "purging" and "dissolving," your nervous system is likely already working at maximum capacity. Are you looking for another peak experience or in other words are you trying to bypass the current emotional work? The sooner you can stop searching for better or more intense spiritual experiences, the more the actual silence can pervade your life. Psychedelics can be a great tool to recognize barriers, but they can also be a massive distraction from simply accepting what is. If the energy is already moving and your baseline has increased, maybe the best medicine right now is patience and giving your body time to act as a stable capacitor for this new energy.

Wouldn't mapping out examples of conformity in this forum post also be conforming? everybody listing off examples of conformity to conform to being non conformist. Just don't want to fall into the trap of thinking you're non conformist while also "conforming" to being non conformist. What about actualized in general? isn't that conformity to mind development of seeing human traps in general, but wouldn't that be a paradox? considering doing this work is also conforming to breaking out of typical conformist nature. A cat can't conform because it doesn't have concept of human language. I think human language itself is one of the biggest traps of all, because just trying to reason and form understanding, so then it can be used to rationalize and conform to the idea of being awakened. You get to a point where language essentially collapses because it can't define past what a human mind is capable of understanding and explaining in human language. And that's essentially what happens when you try to define god. you hit a ceiling and human language doesn't work anymore. only direct understanding/experience of infinite consciousness. you're only defining what you can understand and reason with in language. But if the goal of this work is to ascend beyond normal human consciousness, then shouldn't you ascend beyond language? Because if you don't it keeps you in the loop of human rationalization and creating understanding. We are just little pockets of God trying to explain to ourselves in language to form a ground to experience reality and understand it. But whatever ground you form is just imaginary and self created. Obviously you can't get away from language after all if you're god being a human...

Gradually over the last two months or so, I've awakened to a new level of being. Which makes it sound like a big deal, and it is huge to me personally, but what really changed is that I went from effectively never experiencing unconflicted happiness for over thirty years, to experiencing it every day in one form or another. More than that, there is a new confidence and resilience in me that if I do feel bad for some reason, the reason is just mechanical, so that if I fix the mechanics, I can go back to a baseline of being happy and excited for life. I am increasingly sensitive to the effects my actions and habits and choices have on my experience, whereas before I couldn't feel the effects of many of my detrimental choices against a background radiation of inner chaos. If I had to describe it in terms of spiral dynamics, which I am barely familiar with but seems popular on this forum, I would say I've just breached stage Yellow. To those who have reached this level and beyond, I ask; do you have any suggestions for me, such as advice that might matter to a person at my level that wouldn't have mattered at a lower level, or experience on how my perspective might be expanding from this point on? To those who aspire to this level and beyond, I offer my anecdotal experience. I have not currently reached a level of any kind of obvious cosmic consciousness or unity or any such thing. I still feel anxiety and resentment, even when I don't always have to. Reaching a new level did not make me smarter or more knowledgeable or even a better person, really, so the best I can promise is that I'll be selling no medicine I haven't taken myself.

Mine awakened two years ago and it was quite intense. I don’t want to go too much in depth right now but I still have spontaneous mudras everyday even in moments I’m not meditating. Some kriyas also occur from time to time. I’ve been taking depakote and Abilify in the past 2 years along with other medications but Ive came off them. If shit get too intense, dont be reluctant to see a doctor. Medication really helps to keep you grounded. If you wanna hear more, you can read my post history.

There's no witness either that's only a stage in between. I don't think this is a hot take on this forum but a lot of self proclaimed awakened folk get mad when I say this.

They're not shallow at all. To be honest I'm not sure. Jan could awaken people's Shakti by being in the same room. And even over video sometimes it happens. He's not with us on earth anymore but I still feel his presence over recordings. I doubt anyone who freshly awakened their kundalini such as myself would have this effect on people.

How do you verify that your kundalini has awakened?

I think the miracles are overblown . I awakned kundalini and none of this happened, Jan Esmann awakened kundalini more so than me and this stuff didn't happen (at least, I haven't heard him talk about it). Yes he developed the ability to awaken others Shakti but he didn't walk on water. That being said, Amara Strand DID develop some siddhis when she awakened kundalini. But not the extreme ones here.