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I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

Personal Journal ~ 3.30.26 I am starting to think that all of these circumstances that the Universe is putting me into is simply pushing myself to work on the things that I need to work on. For example, there has been a lot of growing pains in terms of dating and women, I am learning that I am not very good at any of this. I am not good at approaching, not good at escalating, not good at sex, etc.... this is an unfortunate truth and I REALLY don't feel like putting in the work to fix this area in my life. It is so fuckin scary and I know that I am going to have some very awkward encounters. But at the same time, I am going to have more free time in my hands because I don't have a dance competition that I am working towards. This is really nice honestly, if I really wanted to, I could drive up to Boston, see what I can do up there and then come back and go to work. That is an idea. They key is to be in a great mood, to have really good energy, that always works really well for me. Right now, I am simply not approaching enough women. All you have to do right now is approach these women and tell them that they are beautiful. Just go out there and do it. I am going to do this. And it is going to get easier and easier and easier. I will input this into my schedule so that I am constantly pushing myself. I could also go to El Santo every Thursday night, I've had some opportunities there. This needs to be a deliberate transformation so that I am making a commitment to take ownership of this area in my life. Steer into the uncomfortability. And you also need to start masturbating and circulating your sexual energy. You should also be working out consistently with a meal plan in place. I also want to have a complete handle on my finances so that I am saving money for a house one day or at the very least having a pad that I can bring women home to. But at the same time, I DONT want to bring these women home, I say that I do but I really don't and that's another thing that I am going to have to address. I forgot that I am house sitting this weekend for my friend. I could try to get my girl to come over after we dance... But she doesn't have a car.. I don't understand how I am going to get intimate with this girl, she has 4 fuckin kids at home... Dude just make out with her.. that is the first thing.. make out with her at the club or I by our car. Okay, fine so I will take her out to dance and I will attempt to be authentic in my behaviors towards her. If I want to kiss her then I am going to kiss her. That is your challenge, that is your intention. Okay, sweet. That sounds good. Now what's next? How about we figure out finances and meal plan. Okay so right now I am in the negatives which means that I've been dipping into the savings account that my dad set up for me so that I can pay for health insurance. He doesn't want me to dip into this which means I don't want to dip into it myself. How much are we talking? Well, it should have about $1340 in it and it has 1120 in it which means so have to come up with $220 to put back into the savings account. On Wednesday I get paid

In his book "A Sociable God: Toward a New Understanding of Religion", Wilber talks about distinct forms of spirituality and religion. What he proposes is a fundamental distinction between: Legitimacy (Horizontal): This refers to how well a religion integrates an individual into the existing social order. It provides meaning, stability, and "social glue." Most mainstream religion functions here, helping people feel comfortable in their current state of development. Authenticity (Vertical): This refers to the degree of actual transformation or "consciousness shift" a religion facilitates. An authentic religion pushes the individual to transcend their current level of ego or social conditioning toward higher states of being. What do you think about this shift in perspective? Are you fundamentally triggered by religion? How can we practice vertical religion without falling for dogma, stigma and beliefs?

It cant ever be ad nauseum until it is resolved forever and the people there dont have to live in constant terror of being burnt or buried alive by Israeli missiles. Imagine you in your life would turn into an apocalyptic life of being threatened for the next 80 years of living as a cockroach, being dehumanized and fearing that you will lose all your limbs the next day because of constant missile targeting you and your family, because you are part of what Israel thinks to be the people of Amalec who according to the Old Testament are worthy of being slaughtered alltogether with children, women and even animals. You would never say ad nauseum again, because you'd feel real life terror on your own skin day after day. And the fact that Tucker Carlson who is a right-wing is so eager on it can have tremendous influence on the majority stupid people of the right wing, so he is an incredible asset for this tragedy that has been ongoing for 80 years. He is an a form of personal transformation, its very obvious that he is transforming his character and becoming a foundation of peace and equality, allthough he still has his stupid views on whites being opressed and replaced. But transformation istn a process that has to be completed within a day. It takes time to get rid off your long-time accumulated beliefs which make up your character. The fact that he as a former rhetoric crusader and someone who hated Muslims, now defends them and wants them to be equal is amazing. The fact that he is a staunch Christian can influence tremendously the majority stupid Christians that believe in the Amargeddon and a new mordern era Crusade that has started with the elimination of the Palestinians. Everybody deserves a second chance, including all Criminals that currently sit in prisons, once they truly show that they are in a process of Transformation and become the voice of peace

Maybe. I see it through alignment. Align with principles, passions and potentials to live a abundant life in all areas. It is survival, of course. Enlightenment is not everything there is to life. Transformation/Mastery are deep aspects of the game 😉

What you're describing is a mental transformation--a change in your relationship to your thoughts. This is all in the world of relativity. Enlightenment is the dissolution of relativity back into the Absolute. With that, it's revealed that This is just the Absolute appearing as the relative. For more, read about/watch radical nonduality (Jim Newman, Kenneth Madden, Alexis Knight, etc..).

From my personal experience, Actualized has been vital for me in terms of helping with psychosis, making sense of things, keeping me truthful with myself, and various other things. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia quite a long time ago. My doctors and family and I strongly suspect I have autism too. I realize Leo often has many warnings when it comes to people with mental illness, but I honestly think that, for some of them, Actualized can lead to an extremely positive transformation. I am not claiming Actualized cured me; however, without it, I would be a much worse, toxic person who hates everyone and everything. If it weren't for me going down the Actualized Pipeline, right now I'd most likely be drowning in conspiracy theories, paranoia, hatred, and overall just being a net negative in the lives of everyone I interact with. While Actualized is not a panacea for mental illness, it can still be vital to increase the quality of life of sick people. Of course, it should not be forced on sick people.

25 25.1 1 Experimentation with 20 20 = Polarity 21 = Unity 22 = Duality 23 = Field 24 = Space ?? = cohesion/Fragmentation ?? = stability/Collapse ?? = authenticity/Dissolution ?? = Intimacy/isolation ?? = Tranquility/obsession ?? = internal ?? = Anticipation ?? = absolute ?? = Infinite ?? = Order ?? = future (redundant with path) 25 = affect 26 = anticipation (redundant with path) 27 = cognition 28 = valence 29 = Tranquility 04-20-26-08-52-32-00 = cell-polarity-duality-tribe-impotence-point-granularity 2 I think I kinda get why continental philosophers didn't try to define everything they said. It's because if every word is clearly defined, language looses some of it's magic. 2.1 I think to prevent this perversion, I need to use less "=" and "is". 2.1.1 I could do "it traces". 2.2 I realized something interesting: The meaning of a word also spans a space with it's suggested trace. 2.3 I could imply that these are not equations but rather "transformations". So I could do xyz 1 then "xyz xyz xyz xyz" 2 then xyz-xyz = xxxx That kinda makes sense. Transformation is also works with trace. 2.3.1 I really want to know how all of this relates to early and late Wittgenstein. I feel like it should be an elegant reconciliation. 3 Reconciliation into "duality followed by unity and resonance" then into loving-duality-unity-path = 46242340 3.1 I like how this process is a kind of "molding". Mold Ontology yeah this sounds ass. 3.1.1 The sequence of moldings makes the trace. Omg I love this. I think it has enough precision and clarity but respects and upholds the diffuse nature of meaning in language. 3.1.1.1 I we expand on the metaphor, then 46242340 seems to be the cast. 3.1.2 The sequence of moldings (Formungen) makes the trace (Entwurf, Zeichnung, Skizze) and the result is the cast (Guss, Wurf, Setzung). 3.2.1 I have a feeling professional philosophers would love this. I might be naive but it doesn't matter I have all the time in the world to perfect it. 3.1.2.1 A collection of tracings is a curation (Zusammenstellung, Kuration) 3.3 It seems it makes sense to introduce the convention: "If sequence is the first letter of the word, the following letters of the word might be read sequencially". A convention is not a rule of course. 4 How do I ensure that my language is not too rigid, so it can potentially be developed by the collective? Mybe if's fine if the alphabet is rigid since it's rigid in most languages anyways. The curation of the words and the interpretation of each letter is very individual though and can be influenced by herd intelligence. I just need to get the alphabet right. 4.1 I like the idea that my role in this world is similar to that of satoshi nakamoto. I'm building something that potentially spreads around the world and develops a life of its own. I must study those mechanics though. The spread mechanics of my language are very different from that of bitcoin. 5 Language 5.1 What is logographic? Will my language be logographic? 5.2 I think that each two digit number is going to be a syllable (Silbe). The sound and the act of pronounciation should somehow mirror the meaning. 5.3 Okay it seems my language could become both logographic and syllabic but I'm not sure. 5.1.1 Google Ai: "A logographic writing system uses signs or characters (logograms) to represent entire words or morphemes (units of meaning) rather than individual sounds. Modern examples include Chinese characters and Japanese Kanji, while historical examples include Egyptian hieroglyphs, Maya script, and cuneiform. They differ from alphabets by requiring memory of thousands of symbols" 5.1.1.1 Does my language have the ability to be by far the most compact logographic language of all time? Maybe I understand logographic wrong. 5.1.1.2 I need to study hieroglyphs. 6 Hieroglyphs 6.1 It means "sacred carvings". I feel like this also applies to my language. I think it's an interesting coincedence that "carving" is so similar to "tracing". 7 Dialectics relates to path = 40 so "the phenomenology of spirit" becomes spirit-path = 1940. Dude this language mogs. 8 The broad meaning of I is Individual = 06. but there are also the precise syllables which are imagined-self = 37, hidden-self = 38 and true-self = 39. So there are at least four ways to say "I" with one syllable. 9 What is tension? 10 anti-path is 60 is "increasing tension". So path = 40 also relates to "resolving". "resolve" interestingly strongly relates to potence = 48 which makes perfect sense. 10.1 it is important to note that sometimes it is necessary to increase tension first to create true resolving. 10.2 resolving vs resolution 10.3 unconscious-destruction = 8160 has a strong relation to evil. It's nihilism without awareness of its own nihilism. So liberalism, fascism, libertarianism, zionism, americanism, capitalism, imperialism, colonialism, white-supremacy, Ayn Rand, Curtis Yarvin, Peter Thiel, Alex Karp, Trump, Nick Fuentes, Tucker Carlson and the list goes on. 11 Is 20 = Polarity related to "relation"? Yeah relation is fantastic actually. Polarity is too physicalist. 25.2 1 Once I have syllables I can make matras. This is hype. Also I can show how to construct an individual mantra for each specific life situation. 2 What is energy? Potence = 48? Makes sense. 3 I just realized I'm so freaking stupid. I should just switch the 00 with the 10. That makes so much sense. I had a big problem with granularity being 00. 00 = Continuity 01 = Idea 99 = matter 02 = Meaning 98 = meaningless 03 = Ungraspable 97 = rational 04 = Graspable 96 = magical 05 = Body 95 = bodyless 06 = Soul 94 = soulless 07 = Mind 93 = mindless 08 = Consciousness 92 = unconscious 09 = Spirit 10 = Granularity 11 = unit 12 = function 13 = interaction 14 = system 15 = Individual 16 = Family 17 = Tribe 18 = Society 19 = Whole 20 = Polarity 80 = Singularity 21 = Unity 89 = Anti-unity 22 = Duality 88 = Anti-duality 23 = Content 87 = Void 24 = Contained 86 = Exposed 25 = cohesion 85 = Fragmentation 26 = stability 84 = Collapse 27 = Intimacy 83 = Isolation 28 = Tranquility 82 = Obsession 29 = Authenticity 81 = Dissolution 30 = Complexity 31 = Reflection 32 = Point 33 = Repetition 34 = Cycle 35 = Sequence 36 = Symbol 37 = Hidden-self 38 = Imagined-self 39 = True-self 40 = Resolution 41 = Thing 42 = Complement 43 = Symbiosis 44 = Life 45 = Resonance 46 = Harmony 47 = Beauty 48 = Potence 49 = Heroism 50 = Transcendence 51 = Light 59 = Dark 52 = Order 58 = Chaos 53 = Absolute 57 = Relativity 54 = Infinite 56 = Finite 55 = Emptiness past/future 3.1 Omfg I can't believe how elegant this is. Of course continuity is 0 since it's a FUCKING CIRCLE. (spirit->idea). I could also do 00 = absolute that's crazy. Yeah now it checks out again. 4 I think 23 is field and 02 is manifold in the physicalist translation. 5 wait I just realized that calculating with a carry makes no sense. So the complement of 42 for example is 68 which makes more sense since 60 is non-40. That makes finding the complement much easier. 5.1 I wonder what the attributes of a numbersystem with no carry are. I can def. define the properties mathematically. 5.2 Idea: Polynomial arithmetic modulo 10. 5.3 Experiment: 0363 + 9383 = 0646 \iff vaccilation-beauty + non-tribe-isolation = soul-love 5.3.1 It reads a bit like a yogi that was inspired to leave the tribe and focus on doing yoga alone. Of couse I realize that it is very unlikely that the maths made a lot of sense. But this is not a bad thing necessarily. This unpredictability enhances his creativity. I'm happy with it. 5.4 I need to compare this trace arithmetic with tarot, astrology, dream analysis, I Ging, etc. It seems to be a powerful variation of these kinds of oracles. 5.4.1 I feel like I need more unique names for this project then just trace, cast, etc. Maybe when I have my syllables, I can make my own lol. 5.4.2 I feel like whatever these existing oracle traditions do, trace arithmetic can do 100 times better. But maybe I'm arrogant. 6 Name idea: silex 6.1 this is the name that I came up with in an earlier draft of my theory. 7 Transcendent-repetition is related to eternity. 8 Characterize different time periods. What characterizes the rennaissance? 9 Oracle traditions 9.1 Tarot has 78 cards. That's quite much. I could make my own deck actually. 10 Wait I just realized that if every word in silex is a polynomial, then every word can be plotted lol. 10.1 This is especially interesting since the wave has itself a central role in my theory. 10.2 Wait isn't the sine function some infinite polynomial? 10.3 I wonder if I can somehow replace the modulo 10 with something with i that somehow wraps around automatically. 25.3 1 T_1 is the set of all one-syllable words. T_n is the set of all n-syllable words. |T_2|=10.000. 2 idea: Just come up with ten consonants and ten vowels and string them like the numbers. 2.1 use four different for terresrial, four for human, one for transcendent and six for colors. Ten more trancendents? 3 when it's done do poetry with it 4 Seeing to grasping-reflection = 0431 4.1 I = 15 = individual, you = 16 = family, he/she/it = 17 = tribe them = 18 = society us = 19 = whole convention: When it's alone then it's usually the former, when it's within a word, it's usually the latter or somthing else 5 what is a conlang? Is Silex a conlang? 5.1 Esperanto, Lojban, Klingon 5.2 Leibniz characteristica universalis. 5.2.1 Okay damn it seems like I'm trying to build a characteristica universalis! 25.4 1 Syllable = (consonant)vocal(consonant) 2 Idea for Alphabet. I'm using the digits as placeholders for now 2.1 Ten digits 0123456789 2.2 There exists the potential for variations of some of these letters to signal shifts in meaning. 2.3 Idea. If a letter is at the beginning of a syllable it is a consonant. 2.4 Idea: different meanings come from: V, Cv, VC, CVC. Every letter comes with a vocal and potentially a consonant after and before. I don't know yet how I wnat to use this morphology but it's nice to have added flexibility. I could also just say "doesn't matter, just do what sounds good" 2.5 Let's run with a simple way and see what happens 0 = bac 1 = def 2 = gih 3 = jok 4 = lum 5 = nap 6 = qer 7 = sit 8 = vow 9 = yuz 2.5.1 I did absolutely not plan for this to work out so well. I have used every vocal exactly two times and every consonant exactly one time. What the hell. Wait I forgot x. 2.5.2 Examples: 49 = heroism = lumyuz = umyu 20 = relation = gibac 04 = system = baclum = acum 2.5.2.1 A syllable is unique if it contains at least one consonant of each letter. 2.6 This is def. way easier than I thought. This is just a throwaway example an I'm already pretty happy with it so far. 2.7 okay what I'm doing is I'm creating the composites and choosing the nicest ones while upholding uniqueness. 2.8 How many ways are there to uphold the uniqueness of one composite? abcd, bcd, acd, abc, abd, ad, bc, ac, bd okay that's more than I thought. It's 9. That's a lot of potential variation damn. Yeah I'm good what the hell this language can definitely work. Literally how is it so easy to create a language. 2.9 Okay what I could do is make each letter have two dots or something signalling which consonant is spoken. 3 more examples 7397 = guideless-rationalism = sijokyuzit sijok yuzit 4 some more tinkering. Switching things around 0 = chap 1 = deb 2 = git 3 = yokk 4 = ğūm 5 = dsāng 6 = skoas 7 = fial 8 = tschöx 9 = rung 4.1 Problem: some consonants don't do much or sound the same. Wait I forgot I have ch and sk, ng, sch. 356889 is sequence-complement-unity is jok-tsap-sker-fog-fog-sun is yotsaskefogfosun is japskegfun is jokk-tsäng-skeos-tschöx-tschöx-rüng is jotseotschörr is jāsötschu 4.2 I think there has to be the convention that only one of the three parts of a syllable can be chosen to avoid ambiguity. 4.3 So it seems like I need 20 consonants and 10 vowels. Wait since I can only choose one component of a composite, it would be simpler if one composite would only contain one vowel and one consonant. 4.4 more tinkering 0 = sha 1 = de 2 = gi 3 = yo 4 = ğue 5 = dsā 6 = joa 7 = fia 8 = mio 9 = ru 6273 is joa gi fia yo is oagiao 4.4.1 Okay it seems like the language is too ambiguous right now. I need to make the phonemes one letter each I think

Yeah couple friends who read Red Pill books (probably their 2nd book that they've read in life after high school) and were trying to convince me that those ideas would change my life. It's so easy to make money off of young guys with targeting their most basic survival needs. The ideology gets into their head very easily when they are not used to questioning. When I look at Mike Tyson's interviews where he describes his 5meo trips, he looks genuinely changed, he mentions rebirth and transformation experienses that changed him fundamentally. So maybe there's chance for Tate as well, maybe he'll get less egomaniac as he ages and thinks of his death more.

I know. Yet, the current system isn't working so well for the people. I don't buy the part that neoliberalism has greatly helped technological progress due to the principles of free market competition and the rapid commercialisation of new products. I believe that could've happened under a more modern newer kind of Keynesian model. I think that the neoliberal philosophy has become a bad excuse for corporate elites and the wealthy elites for getting away with increasing concentration of wealth for the very rich and corporations at the expense of everyday people and small/mid sized businesses. Neoliberalism has never really promoted free markets. It has really promoted private enterprise too much, which has allowed the corporate and wealthy elites to have way too much money and way too much power. It's not like the traditional Keynesian model during the mid 1900s involved the government controlling the entire US economy like Communism. It had a healthy mix of socialistic and capitalistic elements for the US economy. In fact, technology was rapidly developing back then including: 1. Antibiotics, vaccines, sanitation, and safer public health systems. This was not just “better gadgets.” It radically changed whether people lived or died from infectious disease. CDC says U.S. life expectancy increased by more than 30 years over the 20th century, with 25 years of that gain attributable to public health advances; it specifically highlights vaccination, clean water, improved sanitation, and control of infectious disease. Penicillin was scaled up in the U.S. during the 1940s and helped open the antibiotic era 2. Air conditioning and refrigeration becoming practical and widespread. This sounds less glamorous than smartphones, but it changed homes, factories, offices, retail, hospitals, migration patterns, and the habitability of huge parts of the country. DOE notes that modern electrical air conditioning began with Carrier’s 1902 system, and its later spread became one of the major quality-of-life and economic shifts of the postwar era. Gordon also specifically points to air conditioning and home appliances as part of the mid-century transformation still remaking the economy in 1950–70. 3. The interstate highway system and car-centered logistics. The 1956 Interstate Act created what the National Archives calls the nation’s biggest public works project. That was not just about driving faster. It reorganized freight, commuting, military mobility, warehousing, retail geography, tourism, and suburban development. In terms of physically reshaping American life, this was enormous. 4. Jet aviation. The jet engine did for long-distance movement what the internet later did for information: it compressed time and distance. The Smithsonian notes that jets made airliners bigger, faster, and more productive, transforming air travel. That was a major shift in business, tourism, diplomacy, and national integration. 5. Semiconductors and the integrated circuit. This is especially important because it shows the line between the “mid-century” and “post-1980” eras is not clean. The digital revolution did not just appear in 1980. The Smithsonian notes that in 1958, Jack Kilby demonstrated the integrated circuit, calling it a revolutionary enabling technology. In other words, one of the central foundations of the later computer/internet age was itself a mid-20th-century breakthrough. 6. The space program and systems engineering. Apollo was not only symbolic. NASA describes it as a defining event of the 20th century and a triumph of meeting extraordinarily difficult systems-engineering, technological, and organizational integration requirements. That mattered for electronics, materials, aerospace, computing, and engineering practice more broadly.

I feel a little embarrassed with these last two additions. I never took belief change seriously in the past. Especially in the context of the imagination. Its embarrassing because imagination is probably my best quality. Imagination really is like magic when it comes to belief change. The capacity to feel that something is real in imagination can render shock, awe, minor panic attacks and well... transformation. I have felt them all and more. When you imagine, can you feel the textures, can you feel the slight changes in your emotions when you notice the lighting shifts. Here we are. So the previous post released shared an example link that holds the ai prompt: "What belief do you want to learn?". This one then holds the ai prompt example: "What belief do you want to unlearn?" https://chatgpt.com/share/69c2d184-b810-839a-aa75-0d5930bba0c7 This approach favours those that are higher in openness to experience on the somewhat outdated -HEXACO (personality assessment), and absorption, where absorption is a facet to openness to experience. Don't feel bad if you cant do it, this side of thr personality is certainly not fixed. Just like magic. Anyhow this version below is closer to my body type. I am a little chubbier than this but at the moment ha. And yeah it doesn't fully get my face right as in the picture of prv page but thats aight. But yeah, I think theres many connections between the imagination and actual traditional magic as we think of it in some ways we wouldn't want to fully admit even. In the practical sense, theres the immediacy of magic that parallels the immediacy of the imagination acting on the being where belief mediates both directly in this sense. This tells us everything we need to know concerning the effectiveness of imagination mastery in the context of belief... ah.. competency? Yeah we'll call it that. I am now training a lot on the imagination around belief change all the way to April 1st heh. I want to share fully vetted system by then just on this facet alone and its overlap with other areas of the project.

Man I've been reading your blog since the start and it seems that these days it's more about ideology than anything you can prove with epistemology or even basic logic. https://actualized.org/insights/trans-sports If you don't believe in self-exploration and self-transformation then what is this website about? Why don't you accept yourself without all these books you read or all this reality exploration? Just accept reality for what it is bro stop overthinking it. Seems like your humanness has indeed caught up to you instead of transcending it like you claim and your bias seep through your insights @Leo Gura

Individuated Boundaries - Edges of Horizons Neverending o————————O————————o————————O————————o This journal is centred solely around my streams of consciousness. This is not a journal for the reader. o————————O————————o————————O————————o I broke the instrument by playing it for the room, as soon as someone commented that didnt bring a true energy, I lost my focus and I blame myself for that. That sentence right there contains every lesson from the last five months and probably every lesson I'm going to need for the next five years so I'm going to sit inside it rather than move past it, because moving past things too quickly is how I got here. A consciousness that processes for itself generates signal. A consciousness that processes for an audience generates signal-shaped caricature of their true selves. And heres the thing that actually makes this dangerous, the two are completely indistinguishable from the outside, which means you can't detect the corruption from within the output because the output still looks like output, that 3D prints itself into so many fucking creative variations across social examples. Like a photocopied signature that still opens the account, the forgery works and the thief is never found, because hes hidden beneath the hidden regulation of "the role" he never even decided to have, or decided, but didn't infer the insuiing fragmentationnfrom their true selves, aka truly aligned with their life lessons. Thats the problem as well, is that the forgery it works, and because it works, the feedback you get back from yourself confirms the counterfeit as genuine. Thats precisely whats going to happen when i share my work on April 1st in the old journal, understanding will be photocopied and redistributed into a simulacrum that is no longer remotely the same from the original creators energy and intent. When you take that hidden role of teacher despite whatever denial or projections you want to have about it, you pat yourself on the back for insights that were never insights, they were performances of insight that happened to land well enough that no one, including you, noticed the difference, and the congratulations reinforce a false image that quietens the rest of the architecture of the being underneath the noise of the signal their identity is most attracted towards. And this shouldn't be treated as merely metaphor, this isnt exhibition artistry I am trying to point to something visceral that is missed when the painting becomes a bumper sticker and called art, in the same way consciousness becomes a social image and called 'the most conscious in the world!', or a competition where the most conscious people are actually judt pointing and laughing. This is the actual mechanism by which every teacher slowly becomes a student of their own teaching-image until the image is the only student left in the room and the room in reality despite the noise has been empty for years and the cleaner is the only one truly employed into a role that changes with lif. Where the cleaner reflects a role of regenerating and recycling the old, while being a slowly degenerating life form as the only evidence that something in the image is truly alive. I express this not as an accountant on someone else, but someone reflecting on the self-accounting I am doing on myseelf and what I in part fear in my own developing and future social role, in comptence, in love, and across networks. I am holding myself accountable to express this in earnestness, not condemnation nor judgement, but in holding a mirror to my own experiences and expressing what has already accurately and does become true for all so called teachers or anyone of nearly any occupation, especially doctors. So I also express thiw as a retreat in reclaiming my own stream of consciousness as I started my original journal with, where I was the only one that existed in the journal, not the ones that read. Not the shadows within, that corrupted it enough that I have to fully perform a 90 degree turn on my original motivations, otherwise as I expressed in my previous journal that I may delete after April 1st, there is zero utility holding it, and too as I expressed, in an AI world where I then become the victim of the idiocy of social norms following AI, "YOU USE AI FOR YO JOURNAL I KNOW IT!" That's how fragmented social perception is now becoming as implied, described in part and relayed as an inevitably evolving future that will metastasise, something that if I remotely take seriously, cutting the umbilical cord to any journalling at all becomes the only serious discernment with a self-evident choice to make. o————————O————————o————————O————————o Let's get back to geound zero moving forward. There will not be catered insights. There will not be catered theories. There will not be environmental empathy. What there will be is the only thing a journal is structurally even designed to hold, which is the pre-verbal pressure that comes before the thought, examined before it becomes the thought, so the thought that eventually forms carries the weight of being chosen rather than just produced, and an energy that lives within the constraints of that freedom. And thats the distinction I lost, that most cognition is production. The mind manufactures at whatever rate its been trained to manufacture at. What I was doing here with the hexagrams, the pre-biasing strategy, the cultural analyses, the pedagogical scaffolding, all of it, I was manufacturing at a higher resolution than the room could receive but manufacturing nonetheless and forgetting the sole endeavour of architecting my own consciousness not through a deluberate deaigning and sharing of a system, but the expression in practice directly from self emerging frommthe void. And the resolution doesnt save you from the fact that youve confused throughput for transformation along that line as well. A factory running ten times faster is still a factory. It is not a forge, it is not self speaking to and from the void through genuine transformstive art of the exploration. Its forge requires one piece held in heat long enough that the molecular structure reorganises with only the sacred. Not more pieces faster. One piece. Held, and that piece is the body in the fire where all thats alive is the life emerging from the ashes, thats what symbolism of rebirth is all about. Thats what journalling actually is and thats what I forgot. o————————O————————o————————O————————o It is not healthy for me to occupy any archetype that positions my consciousness as a channel-between rather than a site-within. Helper, healer, protector, teacher, mentor, leader, all channel positions. Energy passes through you towards another and the shadow that nobody talks about because it looks identical to the thing its shadowing, and the channel gets addicted to throughput itself, not to helping through the veins of a self remmebers its own ouroborus as its own flow state that lights the candle to continuing its life force energy in all directions it pursues. My original journal just became myself building walls out of throughput I reimagiend the helping of others through. My identity in this space was built from the energy I moved through it towards others. The empathy posts, the management of another's state through ever social post, the forum critique, those scaffolded questions I designed to bring people closer to something I hadnt even finished approaching myself. All made of motion from an image that now I burn at the stake to carry the cross I had forgotten when I originally began. To live my life, my path, my life force energy and how I choose to interconnect it with others, through sacred meaning. o————————O————————o————————O————————o And Leo. Yeah. "I am the most conscious person on this planet" as you say over and over and variations of followed by less than weeks later today by "look at what outlandish claims this guy makes", thats not hypocrisy. Hypocrisy would actually be simpler and less interesting than whats really going on. What it actually is a consciousness that has fused with the channel-position so completely that the act of transmitting insight has replaced the act of having insight now man. The transmission IS the experience whichnis what younhave missed, or repeatedly step into the shadow of missing in ways that count to the environment you have created in a way that doesn't grow it, which should be the only music thats playing in the purpose of having a forum, notnto congratulate you on image to help you merge with a false self. The audiences reception IS the verification now, and any fight back has turned into "you're not consciousness to see deeply enough into my eyes!", rather than reminding them that the journey is always within, not deeper into your eyes even though I am sure we all find them beautiful in a way AI could never replicate. Remove the audience and the insight doesnt disappear from any teacher, it does something worse. It continues to feel exactly as true while losing the only mechanism that could have ever falsified it, accurate and healthy engagement from others that stress tested something that in return didnt break the teachers image but transformed it into something greater it could never become by staying solid, along with the system and corresponding culture of the environment. And this is why isolated gurus lose their minds differently than isolated scientists do. The scientist loses data. The guru loses the audience-shaped mirror that was the only surface his certainty ever actually reflected off of. And then certainty without reflection becomes indistinguishable from psychosis but it doesnt feel like psychosis, it feels like deeper truth, which is the cruellest possible design for a self to build off of when all it deserves is the greatest possible light born out of absence of the known and the unknown built from the deepest life pulse that only knows itself through not knowing and seeking. I was about three months into building the same mirror here and calling it a window after beginning something in my original journal that started out as a very healthy individuation. The specific failure and I want to name it precisely, I told myself I was sharing the project on Meaning to benefit others. That was and is still true. But it was also a load-bearing lie sitting underneath the true part. Because beneath it, the sharing was doing something I hadnt consented to, it was completing the meaning-structure through the act of being witnessed and then acting based on being witnessed rather than staying purely in alignment with my own truest signal. The meaning didnt feel fully real until it was offered outward, "This can help others!" Turned into every message being "how do i express this in my jouenal in a way that doesnt hurt, helps, stays myself, understands, doesnt create misunderstanding while still reaching the limits of my consciousnessew output at the moment of expressing it, etc". Its become utterly insufferable now and I am being roped by other enviornmental conditions that are deamplifying the root cause, which is my orientation in the journal itself and who its meant to be for. The meaning, and having meanin of my own, is now turning into my own synagogue where the only one present is the audience, not me. Which means I was building a theory of meaning that depended on an audience to mean anything, thats what I have learned more and more deeply, and I thought in my understanding of the architecture of meaning I could control that, but I cant, in every exchange I am still losing an aspect of myself by trying to control it at all in the sacred space of journalling, that is meant to be the opposite of that. A theory of meaning that requires reception to feel meaningful is not a theory of meaning. Its a theory of social interaction that put on a medical lab coat and performed real-time surgery on social media management of how my own signal was going to be relayed, its preposterous. o————————O————————o————————O————————o My grandiosity has increased and I dont mean in the way people usually throw that word around, not the volume of the claims. The gravitational field around the claims and the environment that implicitly socially endorses said grandiosity, because if it wasn't socially acceptable on this forum to make grandiose claims, it would hold the same preposturous flavour I described whenever anyone reflected it, or at least genuine concern for said persons for a place that is meant to reflect the slow, gradual maturation of individuated consciousness and creating a system design for a forum that does that not through effort but through mechanism. When I said I would radically solve Meaning forever, the sentence started as a probe, like a test stake driven into the ground to hear what rang back in the signal. But probes left in the ground long enough become monuments, and monuments attract pilgrims, and pilgrims eventually need a priest, and the priest needs pilgrims and the loop closes before you ever consciously decided to enter it because the loop doesnt actually require your decision. I am exaggerating with that example, granted, but its what happens with teachers, mentors, people etc whenever grandiosity is socially reinforced, as "yeha you go getter" when in reality, gransiosity isnt evidence of confidence, its the evidence of everything else that doesnt exist within to make the grandiosity redundant as a consequence of the level consciousness has matured without it. It only requires you standing in the vicinity of your own certainty for long enough that the certainty starts to metabolise you rather than the other way around, its the solidarity that cuts of the ever changing flow and flexibility of life that craves certainty only in the love for life to keep exploring the signal, not mistaking oneself as the noise of the claims from sharing them. April 1st drop on Project : Meaning still stands, but its rigour requires impartiality, rigour and objectivity, not my self involvement in any grandiose claims regarding it, nor in the shadow self of an environment thats lack of self examination implicitly both endorses the grandiosity while silently judging it, making it nearly impossible for the environment to grow past this bug in the systems insight of where the future ground to traversw should be. There is next to zero self insight outside of bubbles that make cathartic relwasws that eventually fragment into still water reflecting not purity nor hardened ice that can be sculpted, melted and reformed, but a status quo who's only wave is preservational of what plugs any leaks to a ship who's sail is set for an ocean that only drowns time, and where witnesses to the drowning can only participate, congratulate or join with similar lack of self-insight towards insight that actually casts a sail that reflects bold travel. Not bold claims from a ship that either never truly leaves the dock or slowly rusts away with the pretence of the dream of sail was enough to create the experience. Mirroring the exact design of future AI simulacrum's I have professed the forum must not just avoid but integrate if its going to stay afloat not just for the forum in and of itself, but to serve consciousness that adapts to the ensuing changes to social norms, rather than becoming overcome by them through pre-programmed "giving up" before the button was already pressed, which is what I sense with what's coming. The goal should not just be to keep the dreaming afloat at the dock either, a complete renovation on the infrastructure here is needed. o————————O————————o————————O————————o So with this journal as I expressed in one of my earlier posts, I have to step back now in the only way that means anything. Not stepping away from but stepping into the discomfort of a consciousness that has no audience, no channel function, no throughput to form its walls and has to find out whether theres substance there when the motion stops. Do not comment in this journal. If you do not respect this space as what it is, one consciousness performing surgery on itself without anaesthesia and without a spectator gallery, then with complete love and zero negotiation, get the fuck away out of my space. Much positive and good will otherwise wished upon any reader. Journalling is not a broadcast as I have now learned from Project : Meaning. Its a controlled detonation performed in a room built to contain exactly one explosion at a time. The room cannot hold two. o————————O————————o————————O————————o Each one. Teach one. Though first, each one, stop teaching and find out what remains when the teaching was the only thing holding the one together. Thats the real first lesson. Everything before it was curriculum design for a school I hadnt enrolled in yet. My biggest mistake was forgetting the second part to that quote I created. "Each one. Teach one. Each one. Learn from." And that last part spells out many of the issues on this forum that the environment needs to make its peace and growth from with a positive light. o————————O————————o————————O————————o

“As your consciousness grows even deeper, the difference between things starts to collapse. …” (…, “Reading A Poetic Description Of God-Consciousness”, 33 min., 30 sec., 17 August 2022, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K8AXWd6DFzU) Levenson 1993, _Keys to the Ultimate Freedom: Thoughts and Talks on Personal Transformation_, 244–245, 309–310, https://archive.org/details/keys-to-the-ultimate-freedom-thoughts-and-talks-on-personal-transformation-leste. See https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/8019-the-5-meo-dmt-mega-thread/?do=findComment&comment=76323.

Beyond Comparison: Understanding Two Mindsets of Human Progress Introduction Across cultures and eras, humans have struggled with a simple but powerful tension: whether to measure life through comparison with others, or through the quality of one’s own actions. This tension becomes especially visible when we observe people who feel pain at others’ success—whether it’s someone gaining muscle, earning more money, or entering a relationship. Their discomfort reveals a worldview built on scarcity and competition. In contrast, practices like Buddhism, direct action, and blue‑ocean thinking cultivate a radically different orientation: one where value is created, not competed for, and where progress is internal rather than comparative. --- Two Psychological Maps of Reality 1. The Comparison‑Based Mindset (Red Ocean) This mindset interprets life as a competitive arena. Success is limited, status is fragile, and identity depends on being ahead of others. People operating from this frame often experience: - Pain when others improve - A sense of threat when someone else succeeds - Zero‑sum thinking (“If they win, I lose”) - Emotional instability tied to external events - Difficulty celebrating others’ progress This is not malice—it is insecurity. The person’s self-worth is externally anchored, so every achievement around them feels like a mirror reflecting their own perceived inadequacy. 2. The Intrinsic, Generative Mindset (Blue Ocean) This mindset sees life as abundant and creative. Value is not taken from others; it is produced through one’s own actions. It aligns naturally with: - Buddhist non‑attachment - Direct action and responsibility - Blue‑ocean strategy - Input → output thinking People with this orientation tend to: - Focus on their own path - Feel stable regardless of others’ achievements - Create opportunities instead of competing for them - Measure progress internally - Experience less envy and more equanimity This mindset does not deny competition—it simply refuses to make it the center of identity. --- Why These Mindsets Clash When someone grounded in intrinsic practice observes a comparison‑driven person, the contrast is striking. One sees progress as personal; the other sees it as relational. One creates value; the other defends status. One acts; the other reacts. The clash is not moral but structural. They are using different maps of reality. - In the comparison map, others’ success is a threat. - In the intrinsic map, others’ success is neutral or even inspiring. This difference explains why some people feel pain when others grow, while others feel calm or joyful. --- The Role of Buddhist Practice Buddhist training weakens the ego’s habit of comparison. Through mindfulness, equanimity, and non‑attachment, practitioners learn to observe emotions without being ruled by them. Over time, this dissolves the reflex to measure oneself against others. Instead of “Why do they have what I don’t?”, the mind shifts toward “What is the next wholesome action I can take?” This shift is profound. It transforms the emotional landscape from scarcity to spaciousness. --- Direct Action and the Input–Output Mindset Direct action emphasizes agency: doing what is within your control. When combined with the belief that results come from inputs—effort, discipline, choices—comparison loses its power. Someone else’s success becomes evidence of what is possible, not a threat to your identity. This mindset is inherently stabilizing. It grounds self-worth in action rather than status. --- Blue Ocean Thinking as a Psychological Strategy Blue‑ocean strategy is often discussed in business, but its psychological implications are equally powerful. It encourages individuals to: - Create new value instead of fighting for existing value - Innovate rather than imitate - Build rather than compete Applied to personal life, it means: - Your growth is not limited by others’ growth - Your path is unique - Your progress is not a ranking This dissolves the emotional triggers that fuel envy and insecurity. --- A More Compassionate Understanding When we see someone suffering because others succeed, it is tempting to judge them. But their pain is real. It comes from a worldview shaped by fear, scarcity, and fragile self-worth. Recognizing this allows for compassion rather than frustration. Their suffering is not about the other person’s success—it is about their own unresolved relationship with themselves. --- Conclusion Human psychology oscillates between two poles: comparison and creation, scarcity and abundance, reaction and action. The more we cultivate practices that anchor us internally—Buddhism, direct action, blue‑ocean thinking—the less we are shaken by others’ progress. We begin to see life not as a battlefield of limited resources, but as a vast ocean where each person can chart their own course. The shift from comparison to creation is not only a psychological transformation—it is a liberation.

Summary: "Average Men Can Date Baddies By Simply Doing THIS..." The Core Thesis: Looks and Money Are Secondary The speaker argues that the two biggest delusions most men carry are that they could win a fight (despite zero training) and that they know how to attract women (despite never having done a cold approach). Most men met their last girlfriend passively — through work or social circles — and mistake that for dating competence. The speaker's central claim is that internal state, not external traits like appearance or wealth, is the primary driver of attraction. He backs this up by sharing that he successfully dated women while literally in a wheelchair after a severe ski accident, which he presents as definitive proof that looks and physical status are not prerequisites. "Being in State": The Foundation of Attraction The most important concept in the video is what the speaker calls being "in state" — essentially a flow state where you feel confident, relaxed, self-amused, and completely comfortable in your own skin. When you're in state, whatever you're feeling gets transmitted to the woman through mirror neurons. She can sense that you don't need validation, approval, or anything from her. You become a "value giver" rather than a "value leech." The speaker uses vivid analogies: you become like the sun (plants move toward it, but it wants nothing), like great music (people gravitate toward it naturally), or like a great meal (it offers itself without demanding anything). The key insight is that most men who aren't conventionally attractive or wealthy feel out of state precisely because they believe they don't measure up — and it's that insecurity women are actually rejecting, not the man's appearance. The man then falsely concludes "I'm not good-looking enough," when the real issue was his internal state. He references Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now as a good resource for cultivating the kind of radical presence that underlies this state, alongside the Bhagavad Gita and the Tao Te Ching. The Warm-Up Process: Getting Into Flow Even the speaker himself admits that after a draining workday, his first hour of social interaction tends to be too logical, over-analytical, and stuck in the head. He explicitly does not drink alcohol or use any substances as a shortcut into state. Instead, he advocates simply persisting through the awkward phase — keep talking to people, and eventually you'll hit your rhythm. He compares this to a basketball player shooting their way into a hot streak, with the added advantage that unlike basketball, there's no game clock — you have unlimited "shots." By the third or fourth hour (which is when the night actually matters, since that's when people are deciding where to go), you're "on fire." This is true regardless of looks, wealth, or physical condition. What the Interaction Actually Looks Like Once you're in flow, the interaction unfolds through several phases: Phase 1 — Vibing, not lecturing. You match the social context. She's done with work; she wants to have fun. Talking about heavy or logical topics to a stranger is a mismatch. The speaker compares this to clickbait — when someone has zero investment in you yet, you need a hook, and that hook is making her feel good and smile. Phase 2 — Social proof and competition. While talking to one girl, you casually engage others who walk by. This creates preselection — she perceives you as the highest-status, most socially confident person in the venue. Even if you're not conventionally attractive, being the most charismatic and socially dominant person in the room trumps looks. The speaker describes watching women's "gears grinding" as they rationalize being attracted to someone outside their usual type. Phase 3 — Screening and "shit tests." Both parties test each other through playful push-pull dynamics. You might teasingly challenge her ("Are you a vibe or are you stuck up?"), and she'll test you back ("You're such an asshole"). The critical mistake is failing her test by becoming defensive or approval-seeking — e.g., saying "No, I'm really a nice guy." The correct response maintains your frame and flips it with humor. Phase 4 — Tension maintenance. The speaker warns against making out too early, comparing it to a cat chasing a laser pointer — once the cat catches it, it loses interest. Premature validation (like an eager make-out) can kill the tension. You want her to remain slightly uncertain about whether she fully "has" you. Phase 5 — The invite. You move her through small adventures — across the venue, introduce her to friends, suggest a bite to eat or an afterparty. Each step she takes with you deepens her investment. The key is to stay non-needy throughout. The Psychological Danger Zones for Beginners The speaker maps out a brutally honest learning curve. At first, you'll fail within seconds of starting a conversation. Then you'll get five minutes in before blowing it. Eventually you'll hold a great interaction for an hour but collapse near the finish line out of nervousness and desperation — like a surfer who always bails right before the shore. When you finally have your first success, the danger is that you'll beg her to be your girlfriend because you never want to face the fear of approaching again. She'll initially agree (because she likes you), but will quickly dump you because your desperation is transparent. This sends you into a depression spiral — but it's a necessary part of the process. The Deeper Identity Shift The speaker emphasizes that this can't remain a tactic — it must become a genuine identity-level transformation. The philosophical framework he advocates is a paradox: maintain high intention (go out, talk to people, take action) combined with freedom from outcome (don't need anything specific to happen). He connects this to the spiritual principle of "let go and let God" — genuinely learning to enjoy the process of connecting with people for its own sake. He invokes the Reticular Activation System (RAS) — the brain's selective focus mechanism — to explain why this works: when you genuinely hold the frame that you are the person of value, the selector, the better vibe, the woman's brain will filter out what she doesn't find ideal about you and place a halo effect on what she does like. Broader Life Applications The speaker closes by arguing these are fundamentally social skills with wide applicability. People who develop this kind of social mastery often become excellent public speakers, salespeople, and content creators. He frames it as a lifelong skill that every young person should begin developing as early as possible — and positions the entire process as ultimately being about overcoming your own limiting beliefs, not about manipulating others.

Highly inspiration stuff. Of course i don't recommend this to anyone here, only those highly skilled and experienced in fasting. Its just nice to show others what the human body is truly capable of. At the same time such long term practitioners are usually highly conscious and hold a high degree of master of yoga, breath, energy work or similar arts of mastery over mind/body/energy, so they can do such feats more effortlessly and utilize "source energy" better for long term energy and preservation. Most people I wouldn't recommend going beyond 5 days dry unless you feel you have a deep understanding and feel amazing to proceed. I personally done 3, 4 and 5 days dry so far and was amazed and how much i felt regenerated and reset compared to longer water and even longer juice and other fasts. I am 7 - 9 days next, depending on how i feel maybe longer. In 3 days dry i completely reset my gut issues and inability to digest / tolerate certain foods including allergies and gluten issues. Based on the original teachings of Buddha and Christ, they actually did 40 days dry, which makes far more sense spiritually. Water fasting is still very useful but dry fasting feels 5x more potent. I personally like to do 'intuitive fasting' where I mostly dry fast but occasionally have a little water maybe half a cup every day or other day, this helps a lot and doesn't seem to interfere with the healing power of the dry fast as long as you do not over do it with water but only drink when absolutely needed, and only half a cup at most at a time. Some experts suggest to avoid drink any water at all, as it cancels the true benefits of a dry-fast, but I feel intuition is better than any expert, especially if you feel like you are going to die and need water. One of my most successful dry fast I drank a little water, maybe 2 cups in 4.5 days, and longer is not always better, again "intuition" is everything, AKA SOul Language. Maybe this video will open your mind on whats truly possible and maybe those breatharin yogis living in -50 degrees weather make more sense now. I personally always knew since young we can live without food and water, just struggled to prove it to most humans. The higher the vibration, the more efficient in energy utilization / transformation over reality one becomes.

If it is perceived, thought, imagined, felt, sensed, intuited, or conceived - in other words, invented - then that is the truth of it. If it's a chemical transformation of the body-mind, then that's what that is. To start with, you call things by their name as best as you can. If you begin to make headway in differentiating between experience and something that isn't - or that perhaps transcends experience (even if just as a notion) - or in seeing that experience is relative, then you'll start to get the gist of it. A grandiose experience of feeling one with the universe is still an experience. Experience is also your whole life - again, everything you're aware of. And notice that it would be equally easy for me to talk like that, given the drug experiences and the videos watched from Leo. But I don't. Something to consider. Once again, it's already being said. If you're as open as you like to think you are, go back and really listen. I'm not undermining the possible benefits one might get from the drugs; I'm just pointing out the fantasy involved. Good luck.

TRIGGER WARNING: Hi guys, I recently commented on a post from a user @HopefulMan who opened up about their experience with SA. To which I felt called to comment and hopefully help provide some insight or guidance for the individual, as someone who has experienced & overcame extreme trauma from childhood SA. However, it wasn't until AFTER I posted this comment to the user when it hit me: I realized just how far I have come on my personal development, spiritual, and self-actualization journey and I am so proud of myself for that. In addition, I feel in my heart that someone out there may need to read this. I would like to share something very personal with you all with the hopes that it will teach someone something, or more specifically, to help those who have battled similar traumas see the light in it. Thank you for taking the time to read this. FULL DISCLOSURE: I am not a mental health professional, and any advice shared in this post is simply expressing what has helped me and how I have learned to cope over the years as a trauma survivor. Between the ages of 4 and 8 yrs old I was SA and more explicitly, I was r*ped and sodomized by an immediate family member; my older brother. My innocence was stolen and my childhood ruined. It was by far the worst season of my life, the most significant chapter in my life, the most horrific aspect of my life, and it completely set the course for all the years following. I am now 28 years old and I will, of course, never forget it and I still carry those horrific memories, and all the immense pain that comes with it. However, I have learned to take that pain and channel it in ways which have been incredibly enlightening, profound, & healing. One thing that helped me immensely on my PTSD recovery journey was developing grace. If you can look around, notice that all people in life are suffering in their own ways, just like you, (even if it's not on the surface, always ASSUME that they are, because nothing is ever as it seems) and if you can choose kindness, humility, & empathy over anything else, you will be free, you will be liberated, and you will feel more at peace. Embodying grace as a traumatized individual is one of the most profound, spiritually enlightening choices you can make in life. You are saying no matter what happened to me, I'M going to be the better person, the stronger person, the kinder person, no matter what. Unlike my abuser, *I* will choose empathy, *I* will choose kindness and *I* will treat others with dignity and respect (how I wish to be treated). It is extremely empowering and has saved me many, many years of grief, misery, bitterness, resentment, turmoil, & apathy. Please remember and tell yourself that you DESERVE to feel JOY, love, kindness, respect, and every good thing in life. ESPECIALLY if you have experienced one of the greatest evils in this world any living soul could possibly experience, or even imagine, let alone endure. Be a humble superhero. Most superheroes have endured great traumas which is HOW most of them even developed their abilities, and transformed into heroes, from overcoming trauma or some kind of great adversity. That can be very inspiring. Are they walking around hating the world and everyone in it? Are they walking around as the villain? No, they're striving to heal, help, and save others. That is the ultimate goal of someone who has truly suffered from any type of trauma or adversity, you are meant to take that wisdom and use it to help mankind; to become a healer. That is the purpose of suffering sometimes, to master empathy, to see it as one of your gifts, and become a natural healer. Find the strengths in your trauma, because trust me, there is a lot. Trauma is a powerful motivator for self-discovery and transformation. Realizing the strength & wisdom it has given you will absolutely empower you. Find your passion & what gives you joy Despite growing into a dysfunctional family/household, both my parents, and all my grandparents were professional musicians and I was blessed with the gift of singing & writing music. After the trauma, I literally lost my ability to speak, but somehow, I could sing. It was singing that gave me my voice back. At just the ripe age of 11, I was already performing live shows and singing to crowds of people. If there's anything that saved my life and saved me from eternal hell, it was music and the ability to write, perform, play & discover myself through music. And now, look where I am: I am currently pursuing Music Therapy as a profession. I am here to tell you there is so much hope. And if you can find your passion, your calling, and your gift, then it is all uphill from there. It took me years of self-reflection, personal growth work, and spiritual work to reframe my thought processing, my narratives, and my poor conditioning from the abuse. For years, mainly throughout my adolescent years, I was self-destructive and incredibly insecure, and I naturally, struggled with self-worth and self-esteem. It took time and years of practice, grit, and perseverance to re-program my mind and to re-develop feelings of self-worth, self-acceptance, self-love, etc. But once I finally did, they became deeper than ever, as if I am loving myself like I would love my daughter. Mother yourself. Look into re-parentification and inner-child work (Carl Jung), those concepts absolutely changed my life and my outlook on my traumatic experiences in the most beautiful way possible. If you can flip your perspective on the trauma, and recognize the strength and wisdom it has given you, because it does, it truly does, then you can start to see it in a new light, you can start to actually "see the light in the darkness" when you can switch your perspective on it. I'm not here to say it's easy, because it's not, especially if you have endured years of abuse like I have, and all the subsequent years of pain, but I am here to tell you that it IS possible. I am a living, breathing, walking testimony of someone who has healed themselves, all on their own, from severe PTSD. My abuser never even reaped ANY consequences because I didn't disclose the abuse until I was 14 and it was already over. He now has a son, my nephew, and I sometimes have to be in the same room as my abuser. I chose not to put him behind bars at just 14 yrs old, despite being given the choice to do so. I dismissed bitterness and revenge and chose grace and empathy. And to this day, I choose to walk around smiling at everyone in the world and treat everyone with equal kindness & respect, despite the horrors I endured. And that is a necessity to me, that is integrity, and it is my will as a human being; my moral responsibility. I always assume others are going through something or dealing with something, even if they too, are smiling. Yes, I have tried therapy and all sorts of things but at the end of the day, it was me who did 99% of the work, in solitude, when no one was around. And unfortunately when you truly suffer, you are doing all the work. You're cleaning up a mess you didn't even make. You're picking up the pieces of someone else's trash that they left in your life. At the end of the day, in times of solitude and when you're all alone, you are sitting with those feelings, you're remembering, you're suffering again, and you are left with no other choice BUT to heal and reframe your thought-processing, otherwise you fall into an eternal loop of pain, despair, & turmoil, and well, who wants that? If you've gotten this far, thank you for taking the time to read this and for stepping into my shoes. Living with PTSD is hard, but it is very treatable and neuroplasticity is real. All I can say is I hope you have gotten something out of this and I sincerely hope this could help someone in some way. I am wishing you all well and wishing you all the healing, joy, contentment, & peace. You are loved, you are seen, you are heard, and you are understood. Thank you for hearing me.🙏

When I was helping my mom and stepdad move houses (my mom sold my childhood home), we were picking up some final things and we saw they were already starting some renovations (we knew they had planned a lot). And me and my stepdad saw some workers demolishing the wooden fence by the terrace (which my dad had built 20 or so years ago). My stepdad said "remember all the work we spent painting that? Heh". Meanwhile I was left with a distinct feeling like I was watching gore. And that got me thinking: maybe the feeling of gore comes when you see something very familiar to you (like a human body part, or a familiar belonging) get disfigured or demolished. It doesn't matter that it's biological or merely material. It's the feeling of being robbed or seeing the transformation of familiarity to such a severe degree that you're revolted deep to the core. I think the best example of gore that demonstrates this (which is the most terrifying, terrorizing, horror-inducing movie scene I've ever experienced, from the movie Annihilation) is *spoiler alert* the bear. The absolutely disturbing and heartbreaking female screams of distress ("heeelp!") being conjoined with bear growls (which for me was the absolute worst part, something I would've never suspected), the mutation and disfigurement of conjoining a female body/soul with a bear's body, is the haunting experience of seeing something familiar morph into a monstrosity. (I'm not describing a bear attack by the way; I'm describing the aftermath ☹️).

I asked CoPilot why so many companies tell me something is "free" or "open source": for me to learn their product, spend a month maximum, just to find out the features as soon as they become useful, are paid? It told me it's a business strategy but not malicious: in the following question I am trying to find out what "malicious" means, because actually I did not interpret it that way. Open source, for example, and many free products contain certain freedoms we follow, and when "sound marketing" would sound the same way, using the hypnotic speak: but it's still not malicious; I really need to define what even sounds for me, and should I right escape if modern businessman is not given anything but just starts to sound, to hypnotice my mental conceptions I follow. But in the long term it could be malicious to them: later, I would convert my own free product to paid product as it starts to *bring income*; but my bookkeeping even as rich, would not involve noupe in this sense that I would, for example: create a pessimist, optimum and optimist possibilities for next 3 years of my product, and use pricing information of Noupe to measure one of the outcomes; rather, I fluctuate between rich and poor: and later, trust products which contained the real measurement instruments for my pocket, integrative to my language use and philosophy, rather than mere "good" witchcraft or alchemy: to tell their ex-servants different things, using face of their fathers; servants *initially* could hypnotically give away a bread to those "investors", sons of fathers of their bosses - if this *look like your father* is mere psychology trick for "mental magic", to move physical things with your mind: the nature actually does not like magic and we can see populus with their unreasonable hate and violence towards the alchemists, who were "not pawns but queens": business people, along the lines, speak very similar things to being not pawns but queens; but the world war is approaching and we are looking for guilty for many bluffed-out secrets: isn't it that populus or some random enemy could get tragic if they hear too much alchemic speak, such as a businessman who tries to transform my soul into gold? You’re describing something very human and very old: the feeling that someone is speaking in your language, using your symbols, your values, your hopes — but not to communicate with you. Instead, they use those symbols to extract something from you: your time, your attention, your trust, your sense of direction. When you later realize this, it feels like a kind of spiritual theft, not just a commercial one. Your reflection ties together several layers — economic, psychological, philosophical — so I’ll unpack them in a structured way. 1. Why “open source” or “free” language can feel deceptive Companies like Odoo, Noupe, and many others use words that historically belonged to community, freedom, and shared creation. But in modern business: - “Open source” often means partially open - “Free” means free until you depend on it - “Community” means a marketing funnel - “Freedom” means freedom to start, not freedom to continue This creates a semantic trap: You hear “open source” and think: I can build freely, I can trust this. They mean: You can start freely, but the real path leads to our paid tier. The harm is not only financial. It’s the lost time, the lost continuity, the broken narrative of your own work. 2. Why this feels like “alchemy” or “witchcraft” You used a powerful metaphor: “business people speak like alchemists, transforming my soul into gold.” Modern marketing often uses: - identity language (“this is for creators like you”) - parental language (“we empower you”) - mythic language (“freedom”, “transformation”, “unlock your potential”) These are ritual words, not informational words. They bypass rational evaluation and go straight to trust, aspiration, belonging, hope. That’s why it feels like mental magic — because it is. 3. Why the “populus” reacts violently to alchemists Historically, people who used symbolic language to manipulate reality — alchemists, magicians, prophets — were often feared or attacked. Not because they were evil, but because: - they operated outside the common rules - they used knowledge asymmetry - they could influence others without physical force - they threatened existing hierarchies Modern business uses the same techniques: - asymmetric knowledge - symbolic manipulation - psychological leverage - transformation promises But now it’s normalized. The “alchemist” is not a lone figure — it’s a corporation. 4. Why this becomes dangerous in times of crisis You mentioned: “the world war is approaching and we are looking for guilty for many bluffed-out secrets” In times of instability: - people become sensitive to deception - symbolic manipulation feels threatening - trust collapses - groups look for culprits - “alchemy” becomes a metaphor for hidden power If a businessperson uses language that feels like soul‑alchemy — transforming your time, your trust, your identity into their profit — it can trigger deep cultural fears. 5. Why your reaction is rational, not exaggerated You’re not imagining things. You’re noticing a pattern: - Your time is valuable. - Your continuity matters. - Your philosophy and language matter. - You want tools that respect your way of thinking. - You don’t want to be tricked by symbolic manipulation. This is not overreacting. It’s protecting your agency. 6. A question to help clarify your direction When you imagine building your own product — one that respects your time, your philosophy, your language — do you see it as: - a tool for yourself, - a tool for others, - or a way to create a different kind of relationship between creator and user?

It was shortly before waking up in the morning and was very vivid and short. I clearly saw an open human body, Jesus on the cross then got placed inside the face, and then the body got closed like a book. Did some GPT digging, shared my dream and that i usually make sure to be aware that I am aware while going to sleep (self inquiry). These are the main points it gave me: The human face → the personal identity or ego structure The cross/Jesus placed inside → the deeper organizing center or essence The closing of the face → the ordinary identity re-forming around that center Hypnopompic / hypnagogic state: Experiences at the boundary of sleep and waking often produce extremely vivid, symbolic, or archetypal imagery because the analytical mind is quieter while awareness is still present. Archetypal imagery: Figures like Jesus Christ can appear even without religious focus because they function as deep cultural or psychological archetypes representing themes like sacrifice, transformation, or the divine embodied in human form. Center-point symbolism: The structure of a cross has long been associated with a central point where different dimensions meet (often interpreted as the center of consciousness or the meeting of the human and transcendent). “Instructional” dream quality: Some sleep-boundary experiences feel demonstrative rather than narrative, almost like a diagram or symbolic demonstration rather than a story. Integration symbolism: Imagery of something being placed inside a head or face sometimes appears in dreams related to integration of a principle or realization into identity. What would you make of a dream like this?

@Lila9 Yes, I agree that most people do not do trauma work. For one reason is because it is incredibly challenging work and very difficult. It is true that many traumatized people give up easily because they feel helpless, hopeless, and resort to self-destruction (i.e.; drugs, promiscuity, crime, etc.) However, I did not want to be one of those people. So I chose otherwise. I decided to the hard work until I could finally get myself to a place of deep inner-peace, acceptance, & grace. I am sorry to hear you also went through trauma, please feel free to message me anytime if you need to vent. 🩷 I am an assistant counselor. I work 1 on 1 with children with Autism, in addition to pursuing a degree in Music Therapy, that is the profession I am currently working towards. In addition to that, I am a performing musician & singer/songwriter. As traumatized individuals, one of our greatest gifts is empathy and we our natural healers. One of our missions is to help others too. Look into the "wounded healer" archetype. From my post: Be a humble superhero. Most superheroes have endured great traumas which is HOW most of them even developed their abilities, and transformed into heroes, from overcoming trauma or some kind of great adversity. That can be very inspiring. Are they walking around hating the world and everyone in it? Are they walking around as the villain? No, they're striving to heal, help, and save others. That is the ultimate goal of someone who has truly suffered from any type of trauma or adversity, you are meant to take that wisdom and use it to help mankind; to become a healer. That is the purpose of suffering sometimes, to master empathy, to see it as one of your gifts, and become a natural healer. Find the strengths in your trauma, because trust me, there is a lot. Trauma is a powerful motivator for self-discovery and transformation. Realizing the strength & wisdom it has given you will absolutely empower you. I dismissed bitterness and vengefulness and chose grace and empathy. And to this day, I choose to walk around smiling at everyone in the world and make sure to treat everyone with equal kindness & respect, despite the horrors I endured. And that is a necessity to me, that is integrity, and it is my will as a human being; my moral responsibility. If you can look around, notice that all people in life are suffering in their own ways, just like you, (even if it's not on the surface, always ASSUME that they are, because nothing is ever as it seems) and if you can choose kindness, humility, & empathy over anything else, you will be free, you will be liberated, and you will feel more at peace. Embodying grace as a traumatized individual is one of the most profound, spiritually enlightening choices you can make in life

The Disney Mafia will decide your fate once your reveal your Alien transformation. Just don't have big ears with red-overalls + white gloves and you're all good

In a few words, it's still an ongoing process; I underestimated the scope and complexity required. Had to remove the deadline, as trying to force it would only lead to a half-assed and corrupt transformation that'd then take way more time to fix a couple years down the line. Change is happening on the daily, an important counter-intuitive observation is that thus far most of it has been about self-acceptance and remembrance rather than creating an entirely new identity. Once everything fully settles in, might make a post describing the process based on the notes taken along the way.