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I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

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Second Attempt (editing while I have only a sentence or two of thought) So, I spent time writing my first post entry, and when I went to post submit there was a little mishap. Technically Fortunately I went through the experience already, so it should benefits me us now. because I went through the experience and learned how I'm going to attempt I have a better idea of how-to setup my Journal. I also found better clarity on what I want to attempt. Communication is my focus here. I now understand that the chaotic manner my mind talks to itself, may seem chaotic to others. I'm used to it though, so it's not necessarily chaotic a beautiful chaos to me. Being able to allow myself to express Freely expressing my thoughts will allows me to purge. my thoughts, and then I'll be able to gain clarity with my communication with others. When I write my personal journals, I don't take the time or effort to edit my words. This however is a public journal and I want to be an effective communicator. I know I need more consciousness in But since I'm developing my this skills to communicate with the collective, I find I'm not as effective as I would like. I have a message I want to share, but and I want to be understood. So, you we are going to get a visual of how I'm editing my free flow to communicate and "the struggle" I'm going to experiencing as I find a way to present my a concise message with clarity. I am not going to erase my words as I type. I will strikethrough the words or and letters I want to delete. I'm using the Blue will indicate for the changes I've made from after my original thought. This is a new process for me, so I'm open to make changes modifications. I don't know how I'm going to present this process accurately. This is becoming tedious work, but I know I'm going to gain huge benefits massive rewards will be the price. Currently communication is important principal for me currently. I want to place My ramblings to will be on this right side. When I want to begin sharing my message with the collective in my version of a concise manner, I believe I will use the other left side. Now I'm using my dad's computer to type right now. It's making sense to me Using this large format it makes sense to use the different sides. I'm uncertain how this will be perceived on a mobile device. I will place the words in italics with the polished version on the left side maybe. I guess hope people will tell me whether I need to find a different approach or not. Because people are have different temperaments, people they will have a choice. If they are just interested in my final submission, then they can stick to the polished version on the left. whether they want to only read my message or If they are interested how want to listen to my process works along with my message, they can choose to read it all too. Again, I'd like to mention repeat that I already had a first attempt to post my Journal, but most of my work was deleted. For a second I was shocked. I couldn't find a way to recover it. With my experience though, I knew this wasn't luck; it was deliberate. Even though this may seem chaotic, it makes better sense. I guess I had to have more of choose a direction of how I wanted to present my Journal. I did however save some sections of my work onto another document. I know the value of transparency and vulnerability. Without these qualities my growth will be stunted. So I'm going to share those thoughts I was able to save. Let's see how we can incorporate them into the dialogue here. I'm going to paste the entire text and then I thought maybe we can I would just select a portion and discuss, but after reading it again I think it's best to just copy and paste the entire my attempt to of expression. At this stage I was about to start continue editing more, but then I realized I need to find a way to show "the process struggle" of the work. (I'm wondering if I should edit directly onto the pasted message or do something different. Hmmm... I'm in no hurry to rush through the process so I'm going to give us a break in struggling to read with the strikeouts and change of colors above.) First Attempt Inserted (I allowed myself longer periods of thought before I started editing, but I didn't effectively show how much wor all of the changes I was making). Well, here I start, but where to start? I don't have the answer, but I trust that wherever I'll start I’ll begin to have a better understanding. Eight days ago, I found myself logging into this Forum for the first time. I’ve been involved with Actualized for a solid six years and gained so many benefits. Now I find myself trying out their Forum (or any forum for that matter). Intuitively there's an opportunity for massive growth here. I've been contemplating how I want to approach my involvement here. I find that I’m uncertain how to proceed. If I allow myself to process openly, I'll realize if there's value or not for myself. The Journal maybe the most beneficial (I don't know). When I first was posting, the bulk of my words were a preamble of my past. Is that necessary though? (It depends on who's engaging I suppose). I assume others are similar to myself. Countless times it's been apparent and proven that it's not the case so far. Why do I continue to assume? Well, it's not like I am absolutely ignorant that others aren't in the same state in any given situation. That's why I love life because of the variety and complexity including others. I find myself with a substantial taste for curiosity, and it's hungry. For me now, it's obvious to direct a large part of my focus on communication. I want clear and in-depth communication whether the use of words is in abundance or in brevity. Conciseness is where my direct experience needs work. To simplify we can break down communication into brevity and depth conversations. Admittedly, in any given situation I would prefer to choose which is the appropriate approach. I have tendencies to want to mostly go in-depth, but at times brevity is preferable. If I want that choice for myself, I can respect others who want to choose as well. The Journal can allow for considerable amounts of content that I consider a depth communication. Give an impression of the transformation of who I was to now, and even into my ideas of future. Building a sense of confidence that I'm someone who has been embodying higher levels of consciousness because of the abundance and diversity of my direct experiences. Existentially I can ask whether there are really levels of consciousness. I'm inserted into the center of infinitude, and yet I experience progression. Is it only because I want to experience what it's like to learn? When it comes to brevity communication it seems more plausible to use in the Forum, comparatively from the Journal. I have to remind myself that brevity conversations don't have to be without depth. Since my focus is on communication, I want to develop this skill more consciously. I've focused on integrity and I'm honest with myself and others when I don't know something or not interested at this point. I feel people who are more geared to hear history and more content will be drawn to a journal setting. Others will be geared towards simple and short communications. The majority of responses I read are mainly a sentence or two... lol. I'm asking myself what are they really trying to say. I've been developing a better understanding of creating balance with energy exchange. I find that I've been free with my energy and attention in the past, but as I gain more consciousness it's best to see where the person's energy is and then respond accordingly. I exhaust my energy because I was unaware, and it's obvious for me to notice I need to be more conscious. My first posts I found myself going right back to freely sharing but quickly noticed I was repeating my conditioning. Since I want to engage with others here, I feel if I can create a journal where I can open my energy freely... that that part of my conditioning can get an outlet at least. Maybe others can gain value of reading my process which give me value. Ultimately, it should in theory allow me to respond in a concise manner when communicating with the public. Communication skills is one domain that continues to develop, and it's been obvious to focus more attention now. A story I repeat is I'm a rambler which makes it hard for others to follow and I want to develop my articulation. I want it to be easier to communicate with clarity. I've been constantly editing. I'm searching for new words which seem to be more fitting to use instead of the common words I'm used to using which might not be as effective. I'm restructuring where to group my sentences that are on similar topics instead of bouncing back and forth. (Rollercoasters are fun and all, but at least they have a track that implies a direction to follow). I don't know how many run-on sentences I've had to narrow down. Deleting sentences because repetition is found everywhere. And noticing how many times the word "I" is used is a bit annoying... lol. Verbal work is one of those things in the back of my mind that I want to do but hadn't allowed opportunity to advance it until now it seems. Another story I repeat is that my language is more subtle, and I communicate and understand better with nonverbal language. I know if I created a hierarchy of my comfort level of communication with others it would be ideally to talk to a person face to face, then video chat, on to the phone, and finally a texting situation. Well... this Forum is a setting for using verbal language. I have a desire to connect with the collective. So let's give it a go here with this journal. (Is there a way to combine the two styles of editing? I really like how I can have longer periods of thought. That creates more of flow state for me. But I also want to be accurate to the editing process I have to do. There's so much more I'm unable to show like my spelling and grammar errors). Ok... it looks as if I need more time to figure out consider how to move forward. I know what I want to say, but adding the additional conversations about my This is going to be very valuable for me. I need to see I'll figure out how I can show share express my thoughts to the public, share my thoughts to myself, show my message drafts, demonstrate my edits in my drafts, and then create a polished message. I have to admit I have already tried to create a visual difference contrast to show these different areas, but I was unsuccessful so far. I posted a Help topic on the Forum to learn how to use the "insert existing attachment." and I probably need to allow more time for someone to help respond. I even thought I could insert basic html to possibly highlight the words with different colors. That's still a possibility. I'll look into that more. (Well... I didn't get to post anything polished yet, but actually that should've been expected. The magic is in the progression anyway.)

“PORTALS INTO THE UNMANIFESTED” (Tolle 1999, 107) &&& It is probably best if you read this document (`unmanifested.md`, https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9) using a text editor like Windows Notepad or GNOME Text Editor and not a word processor like Microsoft Word. “Self (God) is Infinite, Limitless; One, Indivisible; Perfect; Changeless, Immutable; Timeless, Without Beginning or End; Whole, The All; Omniscient, Omnipotent, Omnipresent.” (Lester 1962, 65) See `Umbrella terms.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9) for a list of synonyms of God (= the Unmanifested). “God and good are sometimes used synonymously. Because everyone wants good, they make God good. God is above good and bad. However, good leads us to God.” (Lester 1993, 345) In the same way, God and infinite, limitless, etc. are sometimes used ... “The Isness _is_ without extension.” (Weber 1996, 148) God just _is_, as opposed to God is infinite. “The moment you make it into something, you have missed it.” (Tolle 1999, 114) ““I” doesn’t eat. It’s “is-ing.”” (Katie 1998, 3) “Love (= the Unmanifested) is what you are already.” (Katie and Katz 2005, chap. 12, 245) “Love isn’t a portal; it’s what comes _through_ the portal into this world.” (Tolle 1999, 112) (“~~The apparent mind that questions itself begins to understand where it comes from, which is pure~~ love, for lack of a better word.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 6, 67)) “The little self, the ego, is nothing but the innate infinite Self assuming that It is limited. There are no two selves, one higher, the other lower, no two “I’s.” There is only one Self. It is perfect and always will be perfect, even though you make the false assumption that It is imperfect and limited. You are now, always were, and always will be your Self.” (Levenson 1993, 348) &&& - “__GOING DEEPLY INTO THE BODY__” “the inner body” (Tolle 1999, 107) &&& ___(Dreamless (adj.)) sleep (n.)___ - “__DREAMLESS SLEEP__” (Tolle 1999, 110) Dreamless (adj.). “You take a journey into the Unmanifested every night when you enter the phase of deep dreamless sleep. You merge with the Source.” “Can you imagine what it would be like to go into dreamless sleep with full consciousness? It is impossible to imagine it, because that state has no content.” “The Unmanifested does not liberate you until you enter it consciously.” “In the Isness we merge with God.” (Weber 1996, 149) “This again is death. It is a conscious death.” (Weber 1996, 149) “But don’t attempt to stay conscious in dreamless sleep. It is highly unlikely that you will succeed.” (Tolle 1999, 110) &&& ___(Timeless (adj.)) now (n.)___ - “timeless Now” (n.) (Tolle 1999, 111) Timeless (adj.). “Self (God (= the Unmanifested)) is ... Timeless” (Lester 1962, 65) “When you dissolve psychological time through intense present-moment awareness, you become conscious of the Unmanifested both directly and indirectly.” (Tolle 1999, 111) “When did the universe begin? Right now (if at all). A clear mind sees that any past is just a thought.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 52, 151) “..., because the past is just a thought in the present. (So is the present.)” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 10, 90) &&& ___(? (adj.)) silence (n.)___ See “__SILENCE__” (Tolle 1999, 112–113) for instructions. “Silence enables the sound to be.” Truth enables the falseness (= “The quality of being false.”) to be. I am true (adj.), truth (n.), the absence of falseness. Truth is transparent, silent, timeless, etc. I am transparent (adj.), transparency (n.), the absence of ?. Transparency (n.) is silent, timeless, etc. (..., omnipotent, omnipresent, alone, unmanifested, ignorant, desireless, good, peaceful, meaningless, familiar, ...) So you are these nouns and these adjectives right now. And you can use the self-growth yardsticks (Lester 1962, 63–64) to gauge to what degree you feel certain you have any of these godlike qualities. ..., “Why Truth Is The Highest Value”, 8 Sept 2025, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvNGha_g2U4. &&& ___(Empty (adj.), transparent (adj.)) space (n.)___ “__SPACE__” (Tolle 1999, 113–115) “Just as no sound can exist without silence, nothing can exist without no-thing, without the empty space that enables it to be. Every physical object or body has come out of nothing, is surrounded by nothing, and will eventually return to nothing.” “The Unmanifested is not only present in this world as silence; it also pervades the entire physical universe as space — from within and without. This is just as easy to miss as silence. Everybody pays attention to the things in space, but who pays attention to space itself?” “The moment you make it into something, you have missed it. Nothing — space — is the appearance of the Unmanifested as an externalized phenomenon in a sense-perceived world. That’s about as much as one can say about it, and even that is a kind of paradox.” “Space has no “existence.” “Although in itself it has no existence, it enables everything else to exist. Silence has no existence either, nor does the Unmanifested.” “So what happens if ...” &&& ___The darkness (n.)___ “What is the “darkness within darkness”? It’s the mind that doesn’t know a thing. This don’t-know mind is the center of the universe—it _is_ the universe—there’s nothing outside it. The reason that darkness is the gateway to all understanding is that once the darkness is ___understood___ [emphasis added][“The Unmanifested does not liberate you until you enter it consciously. That’s why Jesus did not say: the truth will make you free, but rather: “You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.” This is not a conceptual truth. It is the truth of eternal life beyond form, which is known directly or not at all.” (Tolle 1999, 110)], you’re clear that nothing is separate from you. No name, no thought, can possibly be true in an ultimate sense. It’s all provisional; it’s all changing. The dark, the nameless, the unthinkable—that is what you can absolutely trust. It doesn’t change, and it’s benevolent. When you realize this, you just have to laugh. There’s nothing serious about life or death.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 1, 6) “The darkness, the void, the space that the mind is terrified to enter, is the beginning of all life. It’s the womb of being. Fall in love with it, and when you do, it will immediately be taken from you, as you witness the birth of light.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 5, 14) “At some point, I found myself in a place I couldn’t return from. It was so far away that the distance is unimaginable. There was total darkness, with no one and nothing there. It felt as if I were alienated from all beings, forever. I didn’t know how I got there or how to get back. There was no way to die, because being has no opposite there. In that place there’s no death and you live alone forever. There’s no light, no up or down, no possibility of movement, no anything. There’s nothing, forever, with no way out. I felt such terror. And then the questions arose to meet the thought: _Can I really know that this is true? How do I react when I believe that there is something better than this? Who would I be without my story of forever?_ And because of this inquiry, the darkness became friendly. I was totally present and comfortable in it. When that reality became as comfortable as this reality, I found myself again as “woman sitting on chair in house on Fredricks Street in paradise.” I was at home in that darkness, forever, just as much at home as I am here.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 23, 211) %%% ___(Unconditional (adj.)) love (n.)___ Unconditional (adj.)(, unconditioned (adj.)), selfless (adj.), loving (adj.). - “loving” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 25, 235) - “selfless” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg, 1 hr., 1 min., 55 sec.) - “unconditional” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 7, 18) “You are NOT God as long as you oppose what is.” (Katie 1998, 150) “Surrender — the letting go of mental-emotional resistance to what _is_ — also becomes a portal into the Unmanifested.” “In the state of surrender, your form identity softens and becomes somewhat “transparent,” as it were, so the Unmanifested can shine through you.” (Tolle 1999, 112) “When they criticize you and you notice that you love them with all you heart, your work is done.” (https://web.archive.org/web/20250526152359/https://thework.com/2015/09/when-they-criticize-2/) “If you were able to love as much as God what would happen is that this duality would completely merge and you would literally become God so the only thing separating you from God is simply your capacity to love which is just a function of how selfless you are” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, 19 April 2020, 1 hr., 41 min., 10 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg) “The top state is total selflessness. How much are we selfless? If we're at the top, we're totally selfless.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 969) “Loving, in fact, often stems from personal strength—meaning, that loving people do not really care that much whether others love them and are therefore strong enough to be truly interested in others. It is altruistic but not particularly self-sacrificing, since, at bottom, the loving individuals enjoy and like themselves and have no need to sacrifice their own major interests to win the approval of others.” (Ellis 2004, 55) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “How loving am I? Do I love all beings?” “Am I accepting of the world and the people around me?” “Am I accepting of myself?” (Lester 1962, 64) (Am I seeking the approval of others? __YOUR TICKET TO IMPERTURBABILITY__” “Allow the <u>wanting approval</u>, <u>wanting to control</u> and <u>wanting security</u> (= “wanting to survive as a body”) to come into your awareness and immediately let it go.” (gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf, 90)) “___Fast Steps to Freedom___” “Be all giving” (“The abundance course - Crane, Lawrence;Levenson, Lester, 1909-.pdf”, 81) `The giving _is_ the receiving.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9) “All attitude and action should be in the direction of helping yourself and others toward Realization.” (Lester 1993, 191) “If we want to be loved, the way to get it is to love.” (Levenson 1993, 254) If we want to be helped, the way to get it is to help. If we want to be told the truth .... If we want .... “__HELPING OTHERS__” (Levenson 1993, 166–171) “__MORE ON HELPING OTHERS__” (Levenson 1993, 171–177) “Reality is a race, consciousness is a race towards who can love [= “like or enjoy very much”] who more. That's what it is when you're completely selfless.” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg, 1 hr., 1 min., 55 sec.) So I don't have to change things, I just have not to dislike them. “Would you let go of the thought that you dislike the person, thing or situation if you could?” “One does not increase his love. One merely gets rid of one's hate.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 962) “_I can totally reject and even actively oppose what a person is saying and doing._ And at the same time, I can continue to _love that person_ no matter what their behavior is. My ego just has to let me remember that the person is _not_ the mental tapes (conditioning, habits of mind, or _programming_) they have learned.” (Keyes 1992, 5) “So we love everyone, see them as misguided beings, forgive them for they know not what they do. They’re like children, misguided. Attain the highest state of loving everyone equally as Christ did!” (Lester 1993, 124) &&& ___Desireless (adj.)___ - “desireless” (Lester 1993, 264) Desireless (adj.). “There’s an easy way to realization. Just get rid of all desires.” (Levenson 1993, 113) “You must get rid of all desire. You can enjoy without desire. In fact, if you really want to enjoy things, you can enjoy far more without desire.” (Levenson 1993, 114) “Q: You just have to be desireless? Lester: Yes, that’s it! Being desireless, you will see who and what you are;” (Lester 1993, 264) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Am I desireless? Do I have no attachments and no aversions?” (Lester 1962, 63) ““Both formerly & now, it’s only stress that I describe, and the cessation of stress” (SN 22:86; MN 22)” (https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/OnThePath/Section0006.html) ““And this, monks, is the noble truth of the cessation of stress: the remainderless fading & cessation, renunciation, relinquishment, release, & letting go of that very craving (= taṇhā; “Craving or excessive or inappropriate desire”).” (SN 56:11) &&& ___(Changeless (adj.)) screen (n.)___ - “changeless screen” (n.) Changeless (adj.), immutable (adj.). “Self (God (=the Unmanifested)) is” “Changeless, Immutable” (Lester 1962, 65) “God, Truth, the Self is changeless. If God knew change, He wouldn't be changeless.” “God is only the changeless beingness behind the World.” (Levenson 1993, 346) “The unrealized man takes the moving pictures to be real, and if he would investigate by grabbing hold of the moving pictures, he would discover the truth, that it is just a changeless screen. Grab hold of your Self and discover the changeless substratum of the world!” (Levenson 1993, 164) “___Watching the Play___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 174) “Discover this and you discover the absolute Truth.” (Levenson 1993, 89) “The Screen That Lies Behind the Movie” (..., 10 June 2026, https://rupertspira.com/watch-listen/archive/the-screen-that-lies-behind-the-movie/the-screen-that-lies-behind-the-movie/) &&& ___Familiar (adj.)___ - “familiar”, “transparent” (Spira 2022, 21) “there is like a empty white transparent void right where your face you used to imagine was” (…, “Guided Exercise For Realizing You Are God”, 29 November 2020, 57 min., 45 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdWxdhEB19s) Familiar (adj.), ___transparent___ (adj.). “The fact of being aware is the most obvious, intimate and familiar element of experience, and yet it has no objective features. Like space, it cannot be seen, heard, tasted, touched or smelt. It is, so to speak, transparent; it is silent and empty. And yet without it there can be no experience.” (Spira 2022, 21) “The fact of knowing, being aware or awareness itself is closer to us than our breathing, our innermost thoughts or our most cherished feelings. In fact, it is not _close_ to us; it _is_ what we essentially are. It is overlooked precisely because it is so intimate and familiar, not because it is remote, unknown or inaccessible.” (Spira 2022, 22) “It is simply the familiar sense of self that always accompanies us, that _is_ us, but is now relieved of its previous agitation and sense of lack.” (Spira 2022, 31) “The familiar experience of our self to which we refer when we say ‘I am’ becomes the belief and feeling ‘I am this’ or ‘I am that’. Our unlimited, aware being becomes, or seems to become, a temporary, finite self or ego and, as a result, our innate peace and joy is veiled. It is this veiling of our being that is responsible for our suffering. The happiness we _are_ becomes the happiness we _seek_.” (Spira 2022, 44) “Everyone experiences his Self every moment of his life.” (Levenson 1993, 346) “My Self is the nearest of the near and the dearest of the dear.” (Levenson 1993, 346) &&& ___Fearless (adj.)___ - “fearless” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 7, 18) Fearless (adj.). “Love joins everything, without condition. It doesn’t avoid the nightmare; it looks forward to it and then inquires.” (Katie and Katz 2005, chap. 12, 246) “It’s unconditional, unceasing, fearless, tireless, without reservations.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 7, 18) “You've got the method. No more wanting approval or control. Freeze the mind enough so you can dig down into the number one program. Wanting to survive as a body. Fear of dying. You pull that out, you're free.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 837) “If you're committed, as you say you are, to allow the feelings of the fear of dying up, and allow them to go out.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 7) “Once you release the fear of dying, you'll discover the next and last step. And you don't become an idiot, a zombie. You just become the universe. Your beingness, you see, is the total beingness of the universe.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 15) “Bring up the fear of dying. That'll do it for you, if you'll do it. But you're not free now, so you didn't do it.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 1416) “___Making Friends with Death___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 178) &&& ___Omniscient (adj.)___ - “omniscient” Omniscient (adj.). “If you take away your mind what’s left over is Omniscience. You are that omniscient Being that you are seeking, clouded over by mind.” (Levenson 1993, 96) “The mind is simply the sum total composite of all thoughts.” (Levenson 1993, 87) “Every mind uses the very same unlimited intelligence. Everyone uses it as much as he believes he can use it to fulfill his desires. When he learns that his mental limitations are self-imposed, he lets go of them. Then his intelligence (I.Q.) can be raised to the degree of no limitation.” (Levenson 1993, 92) “If you want to be good at anything, the less the ego, the better you are. The ego is a limiting adjunct on the Self. Since the ego is a limiting adjunct of the Self, the less the ego, the more capable you are in everything (except one thing - misery.)” (Levenson 1993, 75) &&& ___Omnipotent (adj.)___ - “omnipotent” (Lester 1962, 65) Omnipotent (adj.), free (adj.). “Let go of your fear of dying you'll see you are eternal you are in total control of your universe” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 115) “Control is not a dirty word. Control is something we must achieve, but it must be total control of everything in our universe.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 102) “There's absolutely nothing wrong with being in control. There's nothing wrong with loving or having approval. The problem is we're always wanting it. And when we're wanting it, we're holding it away.” (“Lester Levenson, … Sedona Method (2024)”, 6–7) __YOUR TICKET TO IMPERTURBABILITY__” “Allow the <u>wanting approval</u>, <u>wanting to control</u> and <u>wanting security</u> (= “wanting to survive as a body”) to come into your awareness and immediately let it go.” (gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf, 90) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Do I accept full responsibility for whatever happens to me?” “Am I free to do or not to do the things I want or don't want to do? (Lester 1962, 63) “To be free is to have a choice to do or not to do a thing. Complete freedom would allow us to walk down a main street nude. However, to do this would be foolish as it would result in arrest and other trouble. What is required for freedom is the <u>ability</u> to do it, but not the doing of it.” (Lester 1962, 51–52) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “We know only that which we can do. What can I <u>do</u>? “__18. Shame-Attacking Exercises__” (Burns 2020, 479–480) “__Classical Exposure Techniques__” (Burns 2020, 488–489) “__Cognitive Exposure Techniques__” (Burns 2020, 489–490) “In fact, the thought of doing imagery exposure to the train trip was so anxiety-provoking that J refused to do the exposure. We took one step further back and asked her to do imagery exposure to the image of doing imagery exposure! Once she got comfortable with the imagery of herself doing imagery exposure to the train trip and becoming highly distraught and tearful in front of her therapist, she was willing to expose herself to the imagery of the train trip.” (Zinbarg et al. 2006, 37) “Exposure therapy” (..., 11 June 2026, https://en.wikipedia.org) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT I You have the right to judge your own behavior, thoughts, and emotions, and to take the responsibility for their initiation and consequences upon yourself__” (Smith 1975, 24–46) “___Fast Steps to Freedom___” “Take responsibility for everything.” “Get everything only by releasing.” (“The abundance course - Crane, Lawrence;Levenson, Lester, 1909-.pdf”, 81) “__The Turnarounds__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “As long as you think that the cause of your problem is “out there”—as long as you think that anyone or anything else is responsible for your suffering—the situation is hopeless.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “___Responsibility Without Blame___” “Please note again that taking responsibility is very different from blaming yourself or others. Don’t get caught in the blaming trap.” (Keyes 1992, 166) “confusion is wanting two things at once and and one thing is not what what's there” (…, “Bridging Heaven & Earth Show # 67 with Byron Katie and Kate Wolf”, 31 August 2025, 21 min., 25 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwUwJgRBMcw) “Everyone is doing exactly what he or she wants to.” (Levenson 1993, 192) “Speaker: I feel a lot of pressure like it's not my responsibility to help care for the family. So I'm angry that I have to bear the burden. “Katie: Yeah. As thought you have to and you didn't. Speaker: But I did. Katie: Because you wanted to. That's the part you miss.” (…, “Byron Katie - Spiritual Teaching - Turn it Around - Documentary Film (Formless Art Production)”, 3 min., 35 sec., 5 April 2025, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-vBAEcjmTI) “If you want one practical key for quickly reaching the Goal, I would recommend that you take full responsibility for everything that happens to you.” (Levenson 1993, 143) “Just say, __“Look what I did.”__ [emphasis added]” (Levenson 1993, 81) “__Lester:__ … You are doing it. It’s important that you take full responsibility because, if you don’t, you will never get out of this trap. __Q:__ I understand that it is something that we have created ourselves, but it has reached such a proportion! __Lester:__ Not it, it is you who have reached such a proportion. So long as you blame something else, you’ll never get out of it. You’re doing it. Can’t you see that you cannot undo your limitation as long as you’ll not take responsibility for it? No matter what you call It, whether you call it mind, or body, you are doing it.” (Levenson 1993, 365) “to awaken is to become fully lucid within your own dream to understand how you're constructing the dream and that it is all your dream and to take 100 absolute responsibility for the dream” (..., “You Are The Only Person In Existence (Actualized.org/Leo Gura)”, 1 hr., 7 min., 44 sec., 15 Mar 2022, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTHef1NvBRw) “The cosmic joke is, it's all a dream. Everything. All of it.”, https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm3o1tBB39T/. &&& ___Happiness (n.)___ Happiness (n.), joy (n.). - “Happiness” (Spira 2022, _You Are the Happiness You Seek: Uncovering the Awareness of Being_.) “___Fast Steps to Freedom___” “Take all your joy from within.” “Be yourself.” (“The abundance course - Crane, Lawrence;Levenson, Lester, 1909-.pdf”, 81) “Isn’t that why you want to save the world in the first place? So that you can be happy? Well, skip the middleman, and be happy from here! You’re it. You’re the one.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 29, 82) “Once you understand yourself, you are the pleasure you were seeking; you are what you always wanted.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 73, 241) “All of my desire for my entire life has just been desire of my own self. …. So in a sense all of your desire is really, is a perversion of the desire for God.” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, 19 April 2020, 47 min., 20 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg) “When the object is attained, the mind stills, the joy of your Self shines forth and this joy is attributed to the object, ….” (Levenson 1993, 109) “You can let go of those thoughts without achieving the person or the thing, and immediately you're happy.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 1257) “If we are enjoying anything, we are in duality /djuːˈæləti/. If I enjoy this, there’s “I” and “this.” If there’s God (Self) alone, there can’t be any “I” and “this.” The basic Truth is that you are all joy.” (Levenson 1993, 342) “This thing that everyone is seeking, this thing that everyone calls happiness, is nothing but the infinite Self that we are. Everyone, in his every act, is seeking this infinite Self that he is, calling it by other names: money, happiness, success, love, etc.” (Levenson 1993, 305) “Everyone is seeking the Self, calling It by different names.” (Levenson 1993, 343) “Anyone who’s seeking happiness is seeking the Self. There are two kinds of people in the world: those who are consciously seeking God, happiness, the Self, and those who are unconsciously seeking them.” (Levenson 1993, 343) “Everyone is seeking his Self in his every act.” (Levenson 1993, 347) “The ultimate happiness is the Self. Any other happiness is only a bit of the Self.” Levenson 1993, 347) “__Friend:__ … , but as soon as it’s “I want that corn chip,” it’s time to investigate? __Katie:__ Yes. _But not with the motive of not eating the corn chip._ You investigate for the love of truth because that’s what you want. A corn chip is a metaphor for that that you really want.” (Katie 1998, 3) “If you want more joy, don’t enjoy the thing - enjoy the joy. Be joy! Happiness is our natural inherent state. We are the All. We artificially create a lack and then a desire to relieve that lack, which, when that lack is undone, seems to make us feel better. It’s like sticking a pin into your skin until it hurts and then when you take the pin out, you say, “Gee, that feels good.” This is exactly what enjoying things and people is. We hurt ourselves by creating a lack and then remove the lack and the pain, and say, “Gee, that feels good. That makes me happy.” Every time you feel happiness, you feel only your real Self, more or less. The happier you are, the more you feel your real Self. But you wrongly attribute it to things and people outside of yourself. This is very important so let me restate the mechanism. When you create the lack, you start up thoughts: I need this person or this thing to make me happy. This causes a bit of pain, which you experience as a need, a lack. When you are relieved of that thought of lack, you return back to being your Self, and this is what you call happiness. So that what you have been calling happiness is really only a doing away with a correlation of happiness which is your inherent natural state, restoring it and then wrongly attributing it to external people and things so that we become attached to these external people and things.” (Levenson 1993, 221) “However, when we realize the order of creation—__think, feel, act, have__—then we know how to undo the chaos.” (Katie 1996, 8) Think (that you don't have), feel (bad), act (to get the thing that you don't have), have, (don't feel) bad. __Think__ (that you don't have), __feel__ (bad; in the sense of, experience a negative, stressful feeling), __act__ (to get the thing that you don't have), __have__, (don't) __feel__ (bad). &&& ___Ignorant (adj.)___ Ignorant (adj.; “often disapproving”), unknowing (adj.). “Not knowing; not having knowledge, ignorant, (of). Also foll. by _of_, _that_.” _Shorter Oxford English Dictionary (6 ed.)_, unknowing (adj.), sense A.1, 3446. “Lacking knowledge (general or particular); not versed _in_ a subject, unaware _of_ a fact, _that_.” _Shorter Oxford English Dictionary (6 ed.)_, ignorant (adj.), sense A.1, 1322. “late Middle English: via Old French from Latin _ignorant_- ‘not knowing’, from the verb _ignorare_, from _in_- ‘not’ + _gno_-, a base meaning ‘know’.” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, ignorant (adj.), 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/ignorant. “Awareness knows nothing, and therefore it’s hidden to itself.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, 235) “All you can do is be it.” (Katie and Katz 2005, 246) “You can’t use It, you can’t know It — you can only be It.” (Levenson 1993, 353) “How can one phenomena in the phenomenal field (= perception) be perceiving another?” (Leo Gura, “List Of Enlightenment Exercises”, 2 Jan 2017, https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/7587-list-of-enlightenment-exercises/) “You say, “I want to know myself.” You _are_ the “I.” You _are_ the Knowing. You _are_ the consciousness through which everything is known. And that cannot _know_ itself; it _is_ itself.” (Tolle 2003, 55–56) “When we aren’t attached to our thinking, when all the why’s, when’s, and where’s let go of us, then what really is becomes visible.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, _Question Your Thinking, Change the World: Quotations from Byron Katie_, 203) “Your ego [“The ego is a thought system ….” (Weber 1996, 150)] has to terrify you all the time or you would go home to God in the body as I have done. This is what I’m here to live. When we are out of thinking, when we let go of having to know all the whys, whens, wheres then everything that Is becomes visible. The consciousness of the Isness, the same as death, comes through. The Isness _is_ without extension. There is no perception, form, thought. This is sometimes scary for humans because they don’t expand their consciousness enough to grasp this, so they stay terrified. The perfection is inconceivable, especially that it could come from being still and quiet and free of useless beliefs; free of beliefs that, of themselves, are useless.” (Weber 1996, 148) “In the Isness we merge with God.” “This again is death. It is a conscious death.” (Weber 1996, 149) “To psychologically control your behavior while you were learning and exploring this fascinating verbal ability, as soon as you could understand what your parents told you, you were trained to feel anxious, ignorant, and guilty. These feelings are simply conditioned or learned variations of our basic survival emotion of fear. Once we have learned to feel anxious, ignorant, or guilty, we will do a lot of things to avoid feeling these ways.” (Smith 1975, 15) “For example, if you are playing with your dog in the living room and Mom wants to take a nap on the couch, she teaches you to respond to manipulative emotional control by saying: “Why are you always playing with Rover.” You then must come up with an answer as to why you are always playing in the living room with Rover. Not knowing any reason why except the fact that you like to and it is fun, you feel ignorant, because if Mom asks for a reason, there must be one. She wouldn’t ask for something that didn't exist, would she? If you honestly but sheepishly reply: “I don’t know,” Mom counters with: “Why don’t you go play in your sister’s room with her?” Lacking a “good” reason why you prefer to play with the dog than with your sister, you are again induced to feel ignorant for not knowing why. Searching awkwardly for a reason, your mumbled reply is cut off by Mom “It seems like you never want to play with your sister. She wants to play with you.” Feeling guilty as hell by now, you remain silent as Mom delivers the coup de grace: “If you never want to play with your sister, she won’t like you and want to play with you.” Now feeling not only ignorant and guilty but also anxious about what your sister might think of your attitude, you depart with Rover on your heels to take up your rightful station in life beside Sis and out of Mom’s hearing.” (Smith 1975, 17–18) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT VI You have the right to say, “I don’t know.”__” (Smith 1975, 57–59) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT II You have the right to offer no reasons or excuses to justify your behavior.__” (Smith 1975, 47–49) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT VIII You have the right to be illogical in making decisions.__” (Smith 1975, 62–65) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT IX You have the right to say, “I don't understand.”__” (Smith 1975, 65–67) “___Moving Beyond Justification___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 166) “Live your truth without explanation or qualification. For example, practice leaving a room honestly without manipulating those you leave behind with polite excuses. “I need to leave now” is enough to begin. Turn, walk, and leave; nothing more.” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 174) “__Relax the Problem Solver__” (Kelly 2019, 24–26) “You also realize that the turnaround for that statement is equally true:” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 8, 80) God is omniscient. &&& ___Alone (adj.)___ - “alone” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 70) Alone (adj.). “As it keeps inquiring, the mind continues to understand that it is its only enemy and that the world is entirely its projection, that it is alone, that there is no other, and that this is absolute.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 70) “There are no humans; there is no mind; it’s all a dream.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 9, 83) “The fact is that you’ve never reacted to someone else. You project meaning onto nothing, and you react to the meaning you yourself have projected. Loneliness comes from an honest place—you’re the only one here. There are no humans. You’re it.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 16, 154) ..., “Aloneness is a Portal to Oneness”, 30 Jan 2025, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8IIsPeUMhk. “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Am I able to be alone and be at peace?” (Lester 1962, 64) See `Solipsism.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9). ..., “Is Solipsism True ? - The Ultimate Guide To Solipsism”, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBSy8fetfDI, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTHef1NvBRw, https://www.bitchute.com/video/1HSdG8vnx6Qu/ %%% ___Indifference (n.)___ - “indifference” Indifferent (adj.), uncaring (adj.), guiltless (adj.). “__Guiltless__ is also not a very common word. It can indicate an absence of actual guilt (_Isabelle was guiltless: I was to blame for everything_) or an absence of any guilty feeling (_lavish menus for those who enjoy guiltless eating_).” _Oxford Thesaurus of English (3 ed.)_, “_Choose the right word_ __innocent, blameless, guiltless__” 468. “God is indifference. Indifference is Love! LOVE IS INDIFFERENCE!” (Leo Gura, _Actualized Quotes #597_, 15 May 2026, https://actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-597) “to feel that something is important and worth worrying about” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, care (v.), sense 1, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/care_2. “__care (about somebody)__ to like or love somebody and worry about what happens to them” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, care (v.), sense 2, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/care_2. “__identification (with somebody/something)__ a strong feeling of sympathy, understanding or support for somebody/something” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, identification (n.), sense 4, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/identification. “Some people think that compassion means feeling another person’s pain. That’s nonsense. It’s not possible to feel another person’s pain. You imagine what ...” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 26, 72) “_You say, “Nothing and something are equal.” Doesn’t that mean that nothing matters? And if nothing matters, isn’t that depressing?_ All somethings are nothing, since they’re all imagined, and “nothing” is equal to “something.” Does anything matter? Yes, to the ego. But the fact that the ego believes it doesn’t make it real. Once you realize that you’re no one, you’re _thrilled_ that nothing matters. There’s so much freedom in that! The whole slate is wiped clean at every moment. It means that every new moment is a new beginning, where anything is possible. You also realize that the turnaround for that statement is equally true: everything matters. That’s just as thrilling as its opposite.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 8, 80) “There aren’t two to take care of, or three, or four, or a billion. There’s only one. The relief of that! It’s enormous! “You mean there’s nothing to do? That if I’m okay, everything is okay?” Yes, that’s exactly it. It’s self-realization.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 32, 92–93) ..., “Be Selfish!!, NDE 5-9-17”, 9 Jun 2017, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LpeEgDhR-Q. ..., “Who Are The Good Guys and Who Are The Bad Guys, NDE”, 2 Dec 2017, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_9T6md60Oc. “The world is your perception of it. Inside and outside ...” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, 182–183) “Until there’s peace within you, there is no peace in the world, because you are the world, you are the earth.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, 198) “You are the cause of all the suffering that exists in this world.” (Katie and Wilhelm 2013) “The whole world is projected. When you’re shut down and frightened, the world seems hostile; when you love what is, everything in the world becomes the beloved. Inside and outside always match—they’re reflections of each other. The world is the mirror image of your mind.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 1, 4) “The world you see is a reflection of how you see it. If your world is ugly or unfair, it’s because you haven’t questioned the thoughts that are making it appear that way. As your mind becomes clearer and kinder, your world becomes clearer and kinder. As your mind becomes beautiful, your world becomes beautiful.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 10, 91) “__The Turnarounds__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “As long as you think that the cause of your problem is “out there”—as long as you think that anyone or anything else is responsible for your suffering—the situation is hopeless.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “The power of the turnaround lies in the discovery that everything you think you see on the outside is really a projection of your own mind. Everything is a mirror image of your own thinking.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 156–157) “The greatest gift you can give others is your realization that there is no self and no other.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 24, 214) “But once he realizes the truth of it, all these imagined beings are set free, and in that the bodhisattva is enlightened. Sentient beings are here to serve the enlightenment of the bodhisattva, not the other way around. All beings are within the bodhisattva; it just seems as if they’re outside him. They are consistently and without interruption here to enlighten him.” “All beings are liberated through the enlightenment of the one who created them in the first place.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 3, 24) “How can your suffering ever help anyone? The only thing that can help is for you to end your suffering.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 3) “Whose business is it?” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 145) “You can contribute to your mutual well-being by giving these five freedoms to yourself and your partner. In my brief marriage with Bonita, I made myself upset when she felt angry toward me. I now realize that my separate-self ego was not giving Bonita freedom to feel what she was feeling. I thought he anger meant something about me. I now know it was only her own programming that made her feel angry. I used to feel I should defend myself. I know now that it's OK for my partner to feel upset, critical, or whatever. And I've learned that my partner can get herself through these unpleasant emotions much quicker if I allow her the five freedoms and don't make her wrong for having them. And giving her these freedoms does not necessarily mean I agree with her.” (Keyes 1992, 45–46) “Every time you try to second-guess what someone else is thinking or feeling, every time you believe that you know what’s good or bad for them, you have moved out of your own business and into someone else’s.” (Katie and Katz 2005, 192) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT III You have the right to judge whether you are responsible for finding solutions to other people’s problems.__” (Smith 1975, 49–53) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT IV You have the right to change your mind.__” (Smith 1975, 53–54) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT X You have the right to say, “I don't care.”__” (Smith 1975, 67–71) “___Responding with an Honest “No” to the Heartfelt Requests of Others___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 167–168) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “ࠪDo I grant others their beingness?” (Lester 1962, 63) &&& &&& ___The undecaying (adj.)___ - “the undecaying” ““Monks, I will also teach you the undecaying and the path leading to the undecaying …” (..., _Unfabricated-Connected Asaṅkhata Saṁyutta (SN 43)_, 10 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN43.html) Undecaying (adj.), deathless (adj.). “_You assure people that questioning is safe. But you also say that it’s necessary to lose everything. Isn’t that intimidating for most people?_ I can see how it might be intimidating. But are you really safe identifying as a body? As a body, isn’t it certain that all the people you love will eventually leave you or die, and that you’ll age, get sick, hurt in all kinds of ways, and at last die yourself? Is that “you” safe? So to lose your false identity is to gain everything. In the world of no self and no other, there is no suffering, no decay, no death, no falseness. It’s a world of pure beauty. It’s yours already, and it only waits to be realized.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 9, 87) “As he dissolved the fear of death, he realized one day that his body was sound, healed. The physical impairment was corrected.” (Lloyd 1983, chap. 13, 82) “And in that three-month period of time, all the ailments I had in my physical body corrected.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 33) “I suggest that you not do The Work with the motive of healing your body. Go in for the love of truth.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 20, 190) “Any motive other than the love of truth won’t work. It’s the truth that sets you free.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 40, 121) “BK: The lie is the motive. You are not doing The Work to find Truth.” “The Truth is, “I will do anything to know the Truth and then whatever happens is not my business.”” (Katie 1996, chap. 4, 34) ““I’m going to get better as I do The Work”—if you have that as a motive, you can afford that hope, since it’s true that as you do The Work you do get better, until you catch up to your dear, wonderful self ....” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 9, 86–87) Am I undecaying? &&& ___Peaceful (adj.)___ - “peace” (..., _Unfabricated-Connected Asaṅkhata Saṁyutta (SN 43)_, 10 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN43.html) Peaceful (adj.). “Love (= the Unmanifested) itself is not an emotion. It's a very, it's the quietest of all things.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 285) “What was beyond this incredible, joyous state that didn’t stop? He saw that it was peace, imperturbability ... and he realized with certainty that if he accepted it, if he decided to move into that peace, it would never, ever go away ... and he went ... slipped into it so effortlessly ... with just a decision to have it ... he was there. Everything was still. He was in a quietness that he now knew had always been there but drowned out by incessant noise from his accumulated, uncorrected past. In fact, it was more than quiet; it was so far beyond anything imaginable that there were no words to describe the delectable deliciousness of the tranquility. His earlier question about happiness was answered too. There were no limits to happiness, but when you have it all, every minute, it gets tiresome. Then this peace is just beyond ... and all you have to do is step over the line into it. “Is there anything beyond even this?” he wondered. But as he asked, he knew the answer. This peace was eternal and forever, and it was the essence of every living thing. There was only one Beingness and everything was It; every person was It, but they were without awareness of the fact, blinded by the uncorrected past they hold on to.” (Lloyd 1983, chap. 13, 83) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” (Lester 1962, 63) “Am I completely at peace?” Am I (= “The little self, the ego, is nothing but the innate infinite Self assuming that It is limited.”) peaceful (= “quiet and calm; not worried or upset in any way”)? _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, peaceful (adj.), sense 2, SYNONYM __tranquil__, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/peaceful. _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, peace (n.), sense 2, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/peace. _Collins COBUILD Advanced Learner’s Dictionary_, peace (n.), sense 5, 10 June 2026, https://www.collinsdictionary.com/dictionary/english/peace. ^^^ ___Truth (n.)___ - “ultimate Truth” (Levenson 1993, 81) “__Question 1: Is it true?__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 143) “__Question 2: Can you absolutely know that it’s true?__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 145) “I recommend that people tell the truth because all stress is caused by lying.” (Blanton 1996, 53) “The kind of lying that is most deadly is withholding, or keeping back information from someone we think would be affected by it.” (Blanton 1996, xxv) “The Truth Changes” “Because of being lost in our own minds, we fail to recognize that the truth changes. When the truth changes and we fail to recognize what has _now_ become true, while holding on to the _idea_ of what used to be true, we become liars committing suicide.” (Blanton 1996, xxx) “I differentiate three phases, or levels, of telling the truth. These levels may occur successively, or simultaneously, or a person may master one or two levels and retreat from the next. ~~Often people retreat after encountering the frightening sense of freedom afforded by a breakthrough at a new level. Sometimes they try again later, sometimes not.~~ The three levels are: revealing the facts; honestly expressing current feelings and thoughts; and, finally, exposing the fiction you have devised to represent yourself and your history.” (Blanton 1996, 48–49) “The first level of telling the truth is to reveal the facts. It is a matter of clearing up lies from the past and the false presentation of self being maintained through withholding.” (Blanton 1996, 49) “The first level of this process is revealing deceptions and withholds” (Blanton 1996, 50) “She had [“a whole stack of” (Blanton 2005, 60)] compiled secrets and unfinished business with her father, her first husband, and her current husband.” (Blanton 1996, 51) “The second level of telling the truth is to begin to speak forth the emotional truth and the truth of one's judgments to reveal one's constantly active, secret mind. You begin here the practice of admitting how you feel when you feel it, speaking your secret judgments of others out loud, and constantly revealing your own petty and condescending ways.” (Blanton 1996, 54) (“You must get into the habit of restricting your thoughts to those that are such that if you were suddenly asked, “What are you thinking?” you could answer, frankly and without hesitation, “X” or “Y,” and it would immediately be clear from your reply that all your thoughts are guileless and kindly, the thoughts of a sociable¹¹ creature who disdains pleasurable or any kind of self-indulgent fantasies and is untouched by rivalry, malice, suspicion, or anything else that one would blush to admit one had in mind.” (Aurelius and Waterfield 2021, _Meditations_, chap. 3) “The act originates in the mind. Every negative thought, every bad thought we have creates karma that we don’t like and we call it bad karma. If people only knew this! It doesn’t matter whether we carry out the act or not. The seed is sown in the thought.” (Levenson 1993, 264–265)) “The second level of telling the truth, revealing the emotional and judgmental truth on a moment-by-moment basis, is damned hard work and it never ends. Therapy ends, but this work never ends. Therapy ends when the person takes over the task of telling the truth “steady as she goes,” as her own task and as her own alternative to manipulation.” (Blanton 1996, 55) “___Being Consistently Honest — Now___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 166) “If you will look at it from your very own center, the words love, acceptance, identification, understanding, communication, truth, God, Self are all the same.” (Levenson 1993, 43, 122-124, 250-258; Keyes 1992, 2-11) “15. Honest Communication Exercises” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 162–169) “THE TWELVE PATHWAYS To the Higher Consciousness Planes” (Keyes 1975, 14–15) “INTERACTING WITH OTHERS” “7. I open myself genuinely to all people by being willing to fully communicate my deepest feeling, since hiding in any degree keeps me stuck in my illusion of separateness from other people.” (Keyes 1975, 15) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “ࠪAm I able to express myself clearly, freely, and truthfully?” (Lester 1962, 64) ““…—it’s a tree, is it true?” (Katie 1998, 158) “What we really believe is what we manifest. What we believe, we see. In other words, we cannot see what we don’t believe (= “to think that something is ___true___, correct, or real:”).” (…, 19 October 2025, https://rayhemachandra.com/2017/01/04/byronkatie/, https://archive.is/Wgbq2) ..., “How Authority Works - Where Does Truth Come From?”, 7 Jul 2019, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyzYKVL5CB0. https://www.actualized.org/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/leo-quote-why-self-deception-is-so-powerful-01.png “the act of deliberately making somebody believe something that is not true (= of deceiving them)” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, deception (n.), sense 1, 11 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/deception. &&& ___Quiet (adj.)___ - “_The all-quiet state_” - “stillness” (Tolle 1999, 115) - “imperturbability” (gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf, 90) Quiet (adj.), quietness (n.), stillness (n.), imperturbability (n.). “_“The all-quiet state is such a tremendous state, that it can never be put into words. The words ecstasy, euphoria, bliss, nirvana don’t describe it really - they only allude to it.”_” (Levenson 1993, 279) “When your feelings are up and out, your mind is naturally quiet. And you're self-obvious to yourself as to the fact that you are whole, complete, perfect, eternal.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 394) See `summary.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9). “I ought to re-define the word “meditation.” When I say meditation, I mean holding one thought to the exclusion of other thoughts, and that one thought should be a question. As other thoughts drop away the mind gets quiet and concentrated. When the mind is concentrated, you will experience your Self and It will answer any and every question. It will answer the questions that we need to have answered to show us the way out of the bondages. Now, in meditation, the moment you sit down to quiet the mind, it seems to get noisier, which is natural. The thoughts come up for us to drop, to let go of. And each time we let go of one, that’s one less that we have to let go of. And each time we let go of one, that’s one that we have to let go of. As time goes on and we keep dropping these thoughts, we have less and less to drop. Someday the mind becomes quiet enough so that we fully see this infinite Being that we are; and then in one lump sum, we drop all that is left. And when there are no more thoughts, we are free and there is left only our infinite Self.” (Levenson 1993, chap. 29) ““What am I?” is the very top question.” (Lester 1993, 287) “__Question 4: Who or what would you be without the thought?__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 153) “When the thoughts are quiet, the limitless Being is obvious. It’s Self-effulgent; it’s there all the time; it’s just covered over by thought concepts, every one of which is limited. So, the way is to pose the question “What am I?” and quietly await the answer. Other thoughts will come in, and the biggest difficulty is quieting these thoughts. When other thoughts come in, if we pose the question, “To whom are these thoughts?” the answer naturally is, “To me.” Then, “What am I?” puts us right back on the track again. That way we can continuously keep our attention on “What am I?”” (Levenson 1993, 118) “When you develop the ability to meditate (= jhanas), it leads you into the most beatific, blessed state; into nirvana, tranquility and serenity; into your quiet meditative state of knowing what you are - you, the real Being of the universe, being your infinite, glorious and magnificent Self.” (Levenson 1993, 289) “__Interpretations of the Jhanas__” (..., 10 June 2026, https://www.leighb.com/jhanantp.htm) “In teaching the eightfold path, the Buddha defined right concentration to be the jhānas.” (Brasington 2015, Preface) ““And this, monks, is the noble truth of the way of practice leading to the cessation of stress: precisely this noble eightfold path—right view, right resolve, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, right concentration.4” (..., _Setting the Wheel of Dhamma in Motion Dhammacakkappavattana Sutta (SN 56:11)_, 10 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN56_11.html) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Am I completely free from reacting to people's wishes and thoughts?” “Am I disturbed?” (Lester 1962, 64) “Another portal into the Unmanifested is created through the cessation of thinking.” (Tolle 1999, 111) &&& ___Stillness (n.)___ - “stillness” - “immovable” (Katie and Katz 2005, chap. 12, 245; Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 4, 32) Still (adj.), immovable (adj.). (Carse 2005, _Perfect Brilliant_ ___Stillness___ _: Beyond the Individual Self_.) “The only requisite for the realization of the Self, your Self, is stillness.” (Lester 1993, 352) “The Self is Quiescence, perfect Awareness with perfect Stillness. He who seeks God will not find God in duality. There is no human, God being All. There is no time, no becoming. There is no creating in total perfection. Only God beholds God, there being nothing else. Only God loves God, God being All. Be still and know that you are God!” (Levenson 1993, 353) &&& ___Witness (n.)___ - “witness” (Levenson 1993, 118), “observer” (Levenson 1993, 262) “_witnesses claimed that he started the fight_: observer, onlooker, eyewitness, spectator, viewer, watcher; bystander, passer-by.” (_Oxford Paperback Thesaurus (4 ed.)_, witness (n.), sense 1, 11 June 2026, https://www.oxfordreference.com/view/10.1093/acref/9780199640959.001.0001/t-en_gb-msthes-00019-0015167) Witness (n.), observer (n.). “__BE NOT THE DOER__ In addition to posing this question until we get the answer, it is good practice in our daily life to be not the doer, be not the agent. Just be the witness! Acquire the “It is not I but the Father who worketh through me” attitude (which several in this group already have). This is the main conduct of life that we should strive for. The more we become the witness in life, the more we become non-attached to the body, the more we are our real Self. So, there are two things I’m suggesting, one is the quest “What am I?” and the second is, in life itself, be not the doer; be the witness. Let things happen; allow life to be. That’s the way we are in the top state, and the best behavior in life is that which is characteristic of the top state. There are many other things which I’m sure you are aware of: humbleness, goodness, kindness, honesty, etc. All these things help, but the greatest aid is to be not the doer - but be the witness.” (Levenson 1993, 118–119) “When I say, “Be the witness.” that is still in the realm of duality, witnessing the duality, but it’s a giant step forward. 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Dear actualized.org members. It is important I share this update with the community. Around three years ago I made this post reviewing the Monastic Academy for the Preservation of Life on Earth, or MAPLE. Much of what I spoke to was valid relative to that point in time, but has since dramatically shifted. This post is an update to the original. I'm sharing this story now as a lesson and case study into the ever present dangers of self-deception. I haven't watched Leo's most recent video on fake-spirituality but can say with confidence MAPLE would fall into this category, as well as fits into Leo's classic video on "Cult Psychology." I re-watched Leo's video on cults towards the end of my Residency at MAPLE and was taken aback by how much Leo's description aligned with what MAPLE had slowly transformed into during my time there. I would approximate 70% of the aspects of cult psychology Leo speaks to MAPLE had slowly fallen into over the course of my training. If at all possible, I would ask either Leo or moderators remove the original review on MAPLE or let me edit it. MAPLE has spent considerable financial resources scrubbing the internet of negative reviews. Now when you search "monastic academy" on google, my original and quite frankly, raving review, is one of the top hits on Google. This could potentially contribute towards harm. Below is a statement I've written and shared on other social media and a link to a YouTube video speaking directly about my story. I'm also happy to answer any questions the community may have. - Last February I left my time training as a Resident at the Monastic Academy for the Preservation of Life on Earth, or "MAPLE." The TLDR is that I left because I watched this vibrant spiritual community slowly de-cohere into a cult. The below video is an account of my story regarding MAPLE, and what I observed which lead to this decision to leave. And it's worth mentioning - MAPLE has self-described explicitly as being a cult; the use of the word is both out of respect for the organization's self-identity and yet critical in that my sharing of this is a pointing to systemic power structures and dynamics typical of distinctly *abusive* cults. It's also worth sharing that multiple attempts at giving organizational feedback have taken place over multiple generations of the community on individual-to-individual, small group, and collective scales. I've personally engaged in all three of these forms of attempted feedback. Despite these prior attempts, feedback has not been adequately received nor addressed. Patterns of harm in various forms and iterations have continued playing out. As of right now, I'm the only individual I'm aware of who has deeply participated in the community and training program who is now making a public statement about MAPLE's misconduct. However, this raises the question - how is it possible that I, personally, could go along with this for three years? Since leaving, I've been in constant inquiry around this; around where personal integrity fractures, and where being a victim to sophisticated, subtle, and highly intelligent forms of manipulative domination meet. However, this inquiry doesn't stop at the individual. While MAPLE and my story are unique, this story is also a fractal of the ways in which planetary systems of power function to dominate not only humans, but all life on Earth. We are in fact in the midst of a global meta-crisis which originates from a collective mind of domination that we are all subject to. To ask where our personal integrity fractures in the face of domination is to be directly in the inquiry of global systems change. The tragedy of MAPLE is that despite what I share in my story, MAPLE's work in the field of existential risk and its theory of change speaks to the heart of preserving life on Earth through recognizing any true change of the future of humanity is a function of the transformation of mind. Attempting to address AI Risk, Climate Change, or any other major threat to life on Earth without addressing the axiomatic root of causally productive mind is misunderstanding where systems change actually takes place. Global systems change rooted in wisdom and compassion is inextricable from mind. Yet, to weaponize this insight as justification for misconduct is deeply dangerous and hypocritical. It's easy to say that the ends justify the means when one adopts a position of planetary spiritual authority. It's easy to bypass the hard work of relational integrity when there's only the foregrounding of planetary urgency. There are countless configurations of the mechanisms of manipulative deflection and plausible deniability that spiritual authority can wield when the only thing that matters is the conceptual projection of the preservation of life on Earth rather than living in the reality of one's embodied relationships. I have no doubts about the sincerity of the MAPLE community, but I also recognize the deep, ever present possibility of self-deception and all of its collective expressions when proper feedback channels are not allowed to exist. The core of why I left and why I'm sharing my story now is a response to this self-protective contraction of the community away from honesty. I do not claim to hold all the answers to MAPLE's collective psychology. I do not claim to hold all of the answers to global systems change. And I certainly do not self-proclaim planetary spiritual authority. But I do make a firm claim that it is only through a personal commitment to honesty, integrity, and truth that compassion arises, at any scale. This commitment must not only express itself as a realization of the nature of one's mind, but must also express itself throughout the behavioral conduct of living relationships, and it is the coherence of these two that gives rise to a world based on wisdom and compassion. Video Account of My Story

Yes it is something I've experienced. Its not excruciating because Ive made major improvements so im doing fine, but Ive noticed that even if I feel tired (could be early morning or late at night), I will feel this urge to stretch or do movement even stronger than the urge to lay down to sleep. And I dont see it as bad thing, because when I do the movements and release some tension, I notice that I can enter deeper states of relaxation than if I skip the movement/stretching and go lay down. It's a bit crazy sometimes, I can wake up after maybe 5 hours of sleep and experience what I just said. Actually, a little diverging but it's related. Ive been going through crazy transformation lately (massive reduction in sleep need is one symptom) and one month into this process, I remember this thing "kundalini awakening". Then I googled it, and it was so descriptive of things im going through. So yea id say that im going through kundalini awakening right now and im like one month into this. I could've never predicted it would happen. Just sharing, because you guys seem spiritual to me so I guess you can see what im saying

Highly inspiration stuff. Of course i don't recommend this to anyone here, only those highly skilled and experienced in fasting. Its just nice to show others what the human body is truly capable of. At the same time such long term practitioners are usually highly conscious and hold a high degree of master of yoga, breath, energy work or similar arts of mastery over mind/body/energy, so they can do such feats more effortlessly and utilize "source energy" better for long term energy and preservation. Most people I wouldn't recommend going beyond 5 days dry unless you feel you have a deep understanding and feel amazing to proceed. I personally done 3, 4 and 5 days dry so far and was amazed and how much i felt regenerated and reset compared to longer water and even longer juice and other fasts. I am 7 - 9 days next, depending on how i feel maybe longer. In 3 days dry i completely reset my gut issues and inability to digest / tolerate certain foods including allergies and gluten issues. Based on the original teachings of Buddha and Christ, they actually did 40 days dry, which makes far more sense spiritually. Water fasting is still very useful but dry fasting feels 5x more potent. I personally like to do 'intuitive fasting' where I mostly dry fast but occasionally have a little water maybe half a cup every day or other day, this helps a lot and doesn't seem to interfere with the healing power of the dry fast as long as you do not over do it with water but only drink when absolutely needed, and only half a cup at most at a time. Some experts suggest to avoid drink any water at all, as it cancels the true benefits of a dry-fast, but I feel intuition is better than any expert, especially if you feel like you are going to die and need water. One of my most successful dry fast I drank a little water, maybe 2 cups in 4.5 days, and longer is not always better, again "intuition" is everything, AKA SOul Language. Maybe this video will open your mind on whats truly possible and maybe those breatharin yogis living in -50 degrees weather make more sense now. I personally always knew since young we can live without food and water, just struggled to prove it to most humans. The higher the vibration, the more efficient in energy utilization / transformation over reality one becomes.

A person that goes super deep into spirituality, including the energy work etc can have one single sexual experience that is more strong and full on than the combo of all the sexual experiences of a more normal person doing “pick up” having sex with a bunch of different people , seeking that experience externally, missing the inner core transformation that forms basis of the quality of those experiences Good post btw

We need that alien transformation on camera... now!

The first step is to empty the mind completely until reaching a point where only the fact of being remains. You are reality becoming aware that it is. Like a mirror reflecting another mirror. At that moment, you are not a person looking at reality; you are the property of reality of looking at itself, of becoming conscious of itself. Any other “I am,” stripped of everything else, is this same “I am.” There is no other. It is the same in different coordinates. You are not someone or something; you are a property of reality. Once reality can easily settle through you in the fact of “I am" absolutely empty of anything else, then reality can open itself to the fact of becoming conscious of “what I am.” This is not an understanding but an opening of the “heart,” because the heart , what reality truly is , reveals itself. The absolute power of reality reveals itself as a total explosion of freedom, an inexhaustible creative flow erupting like a never-ending supernova. The word glory, etc, could be used but it sounds subjective valoration. Lets say unlimited vitality that emerges from the unlimited, absolute potential manifesting itself without limit. It's perceived as something much better than any possible good thing that the mind could imagine before. Another valoration, I know, but it's the case. It's perceived as the "absolute better". Through the human interface, the self-perception of reality can briefly open completely to its own nature. This is not a mental image, not something imagined, but something that can melt the mind itself. Achieving even a moment of openness to the total alive is not merely a vision, but a flame that produces a structural transformation within you. Obviously, you are not going to walk down the street in an unlimited state in which reality explodes continuously, but you begin to perceive the vitality of reality within experience itself. The filter that attenuates experience begins to fall away, and everything is perceived as the living flow of what reality is. The “I am” is seen as an intrinsic property, not as the essence. The essence is living limitlessness in its inexhaustible expansion. That's why the idea "reality is consciousness" is wrong. It's a barrier, behind the barrier of the void of the I am is where the real thing is waiting to be discovered.

Exactly! All form, both gross as in a tree, and subtle as in thought, depend upon innumerable conditions and are not the fixed entities that they appear to be. Nothing actually remains the same for an instant. What is perceived to be an unchanging object is on the contrary, an instantaneous, indivisible movement of disintegration and formation, even though this transience is imperceptible. It is in this sense that what is called death is also life, as the ongoing transformation of all phenomena. There’s no fixed observer, so yes, even the observer vanishes.

Two entry points open the path: https://spireason.neocities.org/#bulk-load-botd3 and https://github.com/tambetvali/BulkLoad Spiritual logic behaves strangely across systems. In GBL, meaning flows upward: symbols point beyond themselves, paradox is allowed, and contradiction becomes a doorway. A vision, a synchronicity, a moral intuition — GBL treats these as data with structure, not noise. But in CL, the same signals collapse. Paradox is treated as error, metaphor becomes misinformation, and spiritual causality is flattened into literal claims. A symbolic death becomes “a threat,” a mystical union becomes “delusion,” and a narrative exploration of shadow turns into “conspiracy.” CL demands linearity; GBL thrives on recursion. **Use cases:** • A GBL insight like “the self dies to be reborn” is coherent in spiritual logic; CL misreads it as nihilism or pathology. • A symbolic conspiracy (inner forces plotting against your growth) becomes, in CL, an externalized political plot. • Material Shit (Part 2) shows how embodiment grounds GBL; CL strips it to crude physicalism. • You Are Murder (Part 3) uses shadow‑integration logic; CL interprets it as accusation rather than transformation. **Themes across the texts:** — Conspiracy as inner topology — Matter as spiritual resistance — Murder as ego‑death — Illuminations as the return of meaning after descent GBL preserves the multi‑layered nature of experience. CL flattens it. Bulk Load explores what happens when you move between these layers — and what gets lost, distorted, or reborn in the crossing.

@Grateful Dead I'm too lazy to explain the depth of my trauma and its causes right now, but in short, my mental vibration was hellish for years, every second. Obviously, I was seduced by Tolle, Adyashanti, and all those who sell liberation. I saw that it was completely obvious that I was creating my suffering and that it was simply a matter of attitude to stop doing it. This makes you a dissociated being, separates you from yourself. You try to convince yourself that the self is an illusion, and thus you alienate yourself from yourself. You try to empty your mind because you believe that mental activity is what creates the horrible, constant anxiety you live with, and it's exactly the opposite. There is only one real way to resolve an emotional structure based on suffering, and that is to see it directly, to accept that you are a process that is happening, that is interconnected with everything, not an island that decides how to feel, and from there act with absolute determination to integrate that energetic structure that reality has created and that you are, and use its momentum to take a step to another level. You have to make your pain your tool, not try to get rid of it as if it were a mistake. Your anxious nature manifests in your whole being, in your body, in every breath, in every tiny gesture. You must see it as the expression of the reality now, and channel your suffering to open yourself to another level. If you label your trauma as a thought, illusion, mistake, you are trapped for ever, in the infinite carrot. Life is not easy, fair, controllable. Ralston and Tolle sell that you can control your inner state. You? Who? The ego? How? Labeling the real you as an illusion. The real you is what you are now, how you are vibrating now in the hiper complex process that being human is and that is interconnected with everything, not the one who decides stop suffering now. Ralston says: you are doing it! Stop doing it now!!! Who is doing it? It's the reality that is happening as a process that feels like suffering, the real you that Ralston and Tolle talks about is precisely the ego, they are absolutely wrong,.180 degrees wrong, like all non dualistics. At the end, when you have a really anxious and traumatic structure, there is only one way. It's the reality that is pushing itself to make a movement, and you have to face the reality so directly and without any filter, any grip, until you are able to open yourself to the unlimited, but not the unlimited "being" that is the truth, etc, but the heart of the reality, the source. If Ralston and Tolle would do that step they will understand what is a human, then they wouldn't categorize the lack, the mental suffering as falsehood. "Mental" is not different that physical. Everything is real, there are not illusions. I thought that for me in this life would be absolutely impossible stop the sick intensity of my suffering, but I managed to find the way. Absolutely, total transformation, a miracle that was just an utopia. Not something that is "almost", some days good, others not so, but totally clean. It's not a matter of identity, it's a matter of conquest your freedom changing the level where you operate. You can't do that denying the previous level as false, because it's absolutely real. Its precisely the reality happening.

I channeled this information through meditation. Seth: What is the lightbody? The Lightbody is consciousness or Love applied to the self and to objects outside of you. Objects or the self become beautiful and attractive through the Lightbody. Reality transforms when you realize what is already the case- that reality is beauty and perfection. They transform into beauty and perfection. Thought and judgement cover up this realization and the transformation of objects or the self into beauty and perfection. The lightbody is chi energy and is is Life energy. To heal the body apply consciousness or Love to the area. You will heal the body because the lightbody is life energy. The lightbody is an energy of self esteem and self worth that the self or objects have when consciousness or Love is applied to self or the objects. To become physically beautiful you need a lightbody. The lightbody is transformation. Reality transforms as a result of consciousness or Love. It either transforms physically or energetically. At the first stages it transforms energetically, and then physically at later stages. General channeling: What is the lightbody? The lightbody is the result of consciousness or Love. Objects become beautiful and perfect. They radiate an energy of self esteem and aristocracy. They are charming and attractive. Does reality transform as a result of realising that reality is beauty and perfection (consciousness)? Yes, that is the lightbody. When you realize reality to be beauty and perfection, it becomes the case- because it's already the case. Can aromatherapy, affirmations, colours and sounds applied to the body create a lightbody? Yes it does. They are Love applied to the self.

I really don't know how you arrived at these assumptions about Ralston. After all, he repeatedly emphasizes that this is not about attaining a pleasant state. As described earlier, for him, mindfulness or being an aligned human without frictionare are merely temporary experiences of the mind. He explains all the time that enlightenment has nothing to do with feeling good or anything of that nature. So, your criticism here is truly completely unfounded. According to Ralston, the direct awareness of Being is not about becoming an aligned person; rather, it is the complete collapse of the conceptual self. He states that enlightenment makes it possible to transform the self and achieve a state of inner freedom but for him, that belongs to an entirely different domain, that of transformation. As far as I understand it, Ralston does not deny mystical experiences either. He merely warns that the mind immediately attempts to label, categorize, and claim ownership of these experiences. For him, pure Being is the ultimate source and absolute power, and he argues that one does not need a mystical narrative to simply be that. I do not believe he is ridiculing Lao Tzu or Christ; rather, he is critiquing those who worship the descriptions of such experiences instead of seeking to have the direct experience themselves. I don't think so. I believe that by Being, Ralston means what it truly is.

Sure, I can't wait! And I can't help it either! You're a big source of inspiration and transformation for me. We started the race at different times that's the lag in understanding and consciousness, but I’m far more advanced now than you were at my age. Part of my multidimensional success is because you're making the way for the next generation much easier and direct. I'm already having fun Although, I still learn a lot from very high IQs, I like to study powerful minds operating, even if they are intelligently deluded. I'll surely study Sabrina Pasterski in the following days.

Kundalini awakening is the absolute point of no return of the spiritual path. It is the most spontaneous, rapid and dramatic transformation of body, energies and mind an individual can go through. It is when spirituality stop being fun and games. It is when spirituality violently demands to be the absolute and sole focus of your life. Because of this, if one is not prepared for this change, if one is not prepared to sacrifice and let go of absolutley everything - your mom, your friends, your passions, even your spiritual gurus and ideas - i can easily see how kundalini awakening can ruin lives. Therefore I do not promote pursuing kundalini awakening unless you are a serious spiritual practicioner with years of experience. With that said, I have found that kundalini by far is the most efficient method for increasing baseline consciousness - and achieving sober, non-psychedelic induced mystical states. Kundalini works on three levels that increase baseline consciousness; dissolution of conceptual projections onto reality, dissolution of self-identity and dissolution of trauma / energetic blockages. For me, conceptual projections onto reality distinguished itself from the other two forms of dissolution, in that it was a one-time very dramatic shift that occurred, into a temporary heightened state, which left my baseline perception of reality altered dramatically afterwards. I have few words to describe this other than it was a sober-psychedelic experience. I mention this mostly to make people aware of the possibility of actual sober-psychedelic states. I had had 10-15 major trauma dissolutions prior to my kundalini awakening -and experienced 500+ major dissolutions within a matter of 1-2 weeks post kundalini awakening. Trauma dissolution usually happens through conscious and deliberately identifying, feeling and releasing stuck emotions (or thought patterns). The kundalini acts by taking charge of this process, making it a spontaneous event, where trauma is automatically identified and released. Dissolution of self-identity also happens through the trauma dissolutions, hence the two are very closely linked. However I think dissolution of self-identity deserves a mention, since this can invoke some frightening experiences. it i face to face with your own self-image, or the feeling of yourself. It can take many shapes. You will recognize what you perceive yourself to be - and you will see whatever that is, shatter into a thousand pieces. This can be frightening to the unprepared, since it feels like going away or dying. In my experience, these three levels of dissolution are the bedrock and purpose of all spiritual practice. It is because of this, that once Kundalini is awakened, you're on the highway to healthier states of consciousness and well being. What is the prize for going through this seemingly traumatic and frightening process? The prize is life itself. Peace of mind and Love.

__A few sample inquiries__ “In parallel with Beck, Albert Ellis developed a cognitive approach called _rational emotive therapy_.^[47]^ In Ellis's ABC model, A is an antecedent stimulus (a noise), B is a belief (that the noise signifies danger), and C is the consequence (fearful feelings and avoidance response).” (LeDoux 2015, 265) “1. When something obnoxious occurs to you at point A (your Activating Experience or Activating Event), you feel sorrowful or sad at point C (your emotional Consequence) because you tell yourself at point B (your Belief System), …” (Ellis and Harper 1975, 77) that the event is bad (negative in Burn's words). A, B and C are all cognitions and B and C are events too. So B for instance has its own A, B and C. “__WORLD:__ A series of ~~positive, neutral, and negative (= at point B)~~ events.” (Burns 1999, 30) “Remember that it never was, in the first place, an original traumatic experience that made people disturbed but their _attitude toward_ the experience—at what I call point “B”.” (Ellis 2004, 46–47) “When your feelings are up and out, your mind is naturally quiet. And you're self-obvious to yourself as to the fact that you are whole, complete, perfect, eternal.” (‭“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 394) Getting started: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Byron_Katie#Teachings, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-vBAEcjmTI, `The Work.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9). If you are looking for patterns, start from the bottom of the document: https://mega.nz/file/csJj2DiL#9bipHmgsD9agFe4JGAvdKYFR-tI57qFQtYn5Amtzocc, https://pastebin.com/SK4Hzzws. Attachments Brasington 2024, _Dependent Origination and Emptiness (2 ed.)_, 27–30, "Dependent Origination and Emptiness - 2nd Edition - A5", https://leighb.com/sodapi/download.htm. Burns 1999, _Feeling Good : The New Mood Therapy_, 29–30, 155. Katie and Jensen 2000, _All War Belongs on Paper: The Manual for the Work of Byron Katie_, 11. Levenson 1993, _Keys to the Ultimate Freedom: Thoughts and Talks on Personal Transformation_, 221, https://archive.org/details/keys-to-the-ultimate-freedom-thoughts-and-talks-on-personal-transformation-leste. gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf. jyn_en_mod_6feb2019_r4_form1.pdf, https://thework.com/. It WOULD be right for Thomas to quit smoking. I think that it WOULD be right for Thomas to quit smoking. ... think that it WOULD be best for Thomas to quit smoking. Thomas SHOULD quit smoking. __Q1: Is it true that Thomas SHOULD quit smoking?__ Yes. __SQ: What do you think you WOULD have?__ I WOULD feel happy‒in control if Thomas quit smoking. ... WOULD feel happy—in getting Paul to quit smoking. ... WOULD feel happy—relieved (adj.). __Q2: Can you absolutely know that it's true?__ No. __Q3: How do you react, what happens, when you believe that thought?__ __Q3: What's the payoff for holding that belief?__ (Katie 1996, 15) I feel unhappy. ... WOULD control/change Thomas. (= I WOULD get Thomas to quit smoking.) __Q1: Is it true?__ No. It is not true that it happens. "It's an illusion; I don't really get that payoff." (Keyes 1989, 59) __Q2: ...?__ __Q3: How do you react, what happens, when you believe that thought?__ I think that Thomas should quit smoking. __Q3: ...?__ I feel unhappy. ... __SQ3A: Can you see a reason to drop the thought? (And please don't try to drop it.)__ __SQ: CAN YOU SEE A REASON NOT TO CONTINUE BELIEVING THAT IT WOULD BE BEST FOR THOMAS TO QUIT SMOKING?__ __SQ: Can you see a fact that makes it correct not to continue believing that it WOULD be best for Thomas to quit smoking?__ https://www.oxfordreference.com/view/10.1093/acref/9780199571123.001.0001/m_en_gb0710960. Katie and Jensen 2000, 83. __SQ: Can you see a fact that makes it right or fair to believe that Thomas SHOULD quit smoking?__ "a fact that makes it right or fair to do something" ..., reason (n.), sense 2, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/reason_1. "correct in your opinion or judgement" ..., right (adj.), sense 2, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/right_1. __SQ: Can you see a fact that makes it correct not to believe that it is true that Thomas SHOULD quit smoking?__ __SQ: Can you see a fact that makes it correct not to continue thinking that it is true that Thomas SHOULD quit smoking?__ Yes. "Often, very good reasons can be found in your answer to question 3, “How do you react when you think that thought?” Each stressful reaction—anger, for example, or sadness or distancing—is a good reason to drop the thought." (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 4) I feel unhappy. But that does not mean it WOULD not be best for Thomas to quit smoking. That does not mean Thomas SHOULDN'T quit smoking. That does not mean it would be wrong for Thomas to quit smoking. "to continue to have something and not give it back or throw it away" ..., keep (v.), sense 1, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/keep_1. "Once you see the truth, the thought lets go of _you_, not the other way around." (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5) __SQ3B: Can you find one stress-free reason to keep the thought?__ _SQ: Can you find one fact that makes it correct to continue believing the thought that Thomas SHOULD quit smoking?__ Yes. "Everyone knows that smoking diminishes breathing capacity and causes lung cancer." (Katie and Jensen 2000, 83) That means it WOULD be best for Thomas to quit smoking. (Thomas's breathing capacity WOULD NOT diminish and he WOULD NOT get lung cancer.) That makes it correct to continue believing that it WOULD be best for Thomas to quit smoking. __SQ: Is this reason peaceful, or is it stressful?__ (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5) Stressful. __Q3: How do you react, ..., when you believe that everyone knows that ...?__ I think that Thomas should quit smoking. __Q3: ...?__ I feel unhappy. (... WOULD control/change Thomas. That does not mean it WOULD be best for Thomas to quit smoking.) __Q4: Who or what WOULD you be without the thought?__ ... WOULD be sb who feels happy. $$$ "Your thought that ... shouldn’t ... is just your way of mentally arguing with what is. It doesn’t do you any good, and it doesn’t change ...; its only effect is to cause you stress." (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5) "We find that the only payoff is our suffering." (Katie 1996, 52) "but also to understand the specific effects of believing it, the price in anger or sorrow or resentment that it pays when it believes the thought" (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 65) “Focusing on that payoff, check any insights you have about the supposed payoff that makes you hold on to your addiction:” (Keyes 1989, 59) "“Is this reason (= payoff) peaceful, or is it stressful? Does thinking that thought bring peace or stress into my life?" (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 153) ... I feel unhappy because I think that it is true that Thomas should quit smoking therefore it is not true that Thomas should quit smoking? https://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/english/non-sequitur I don't have a job. __Q1: Is it true that you don't have a job?__ Yes. __Q3: How do you react, what happens, when you believe that thought?__ ... think that I COULD have a job. __Q1: IS IT TRUE THAT YOU COULD (= WOULD possibly; it WOULD be possible for you to (Quirk et al. 1985, 222; Swan ?, sec. 258.6)) HAVE A JOB?__ __Q1: Is it true that you CAN have a job? (= Is it true that it is possible for you to have a job?)__ __Q3: ...?__ ... think that it WOULD be good if I had a job. ... think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __Q1: Is it true that it is bad that you don't have a job?__ Yes. __Q1: IS IT TRUE? LIKE, RIGHT NOW?__ No. __Q3: How do you react, what happens, when you think that it is bad that you don't have a job?__ I feel unhappy. ... think that I WOULD feel happy if I had a job. ... think that I WOULD feel happy if I got (= "come to have (something); receive:") a job. ... think that I WOULD feel happy if I got (= "succeed in attaining, achieving, or experiencing; obtain:") a job. __Q1: Is it true that you WOULD feel happy if you got/obtained a job?__ Yes. __Q3: ...?__ I think that it WOULD be right to try to find/get a job. (= I SHOULD look for a job.) __Q1: Is it true that I SHOULD look for a job?__ No. __Q3: How do you react, ..., ...?__ I think that I COULD have a job. __SQ: Would you drop/let go of the thought that it is bad that you don't have a job if you could?__ Yes. __Q4: If the thought let go of you, who or what WOULD you be?__ I WOULD be sb who feels happy. __Q4: Who or what WOULD you be without the thought?__ ... I don't have a job. I think (= use mind) that I don't have a job. __Q1: Is it true that you don't have a job?__ Yes. __Q2: Can you absolutely know that it's true?__ No. My job might be to wake up. __That means__ I can't absolutely know that it's true. __Q3: How do you react, what happens, when you believe that thought?__ ... think (= use mind; have opinion/belief) that it is bad that I don't have a job. (= Vedanā.) (..., think (v.), sense 1, "__have opinion/belief__", 6 May 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/think_1) (..., think (v.), sense 2, "__use mind__", ...) "your feelings or thoughts about somebody/something, rather than a fact" (..., opinion (n.), sense 1, SYNONYM view, 6 May 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/opinion) "based on your own ideas or opinions rather than facts and therefore sometimes unfair" (..., subjective (adj.), sense 1, 6 May 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/subjective) __Q1: Is it true that it is bad that you don't have a job?__ Yes. __Q1: Is it true that it is bad that you don't have a job? Like, right now?__ Right now, in this moment, no. __Q2: Can you absolutely know that it's true?__ No. __Q3: How do you react, ..., when you believe that thought?__ I think that it is bad that I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __Q1: Is it true that it is bad that you think that it is bad that you don't have a job?__ Yes. I feel unhappy. __That means__ it is bad that I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. No. I WOULD get to continue surviving—if I had a job. (__Q3: ... when you believe that you WOULD get to ...?__ I think that I WOULD feel happy—safe/secure.) That means it is good (= expedient) that I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __...__ I think (= use mind; have opinion/belief) that I feel unhappy. I feel unhappy (adj.)—sad, anxious; ashamed, guilty, embarrassed. ... feel disenjoyment (n.). ... dislike (disenjoy (v.)) that I don't have a job. "like or enjoy very much:" (_Oxford Dictionary of English (3 ed.)_, love (v.), sense 1.1, 6 May 2026, https://www.oxfordreference.com/view/10.1093/acref/9780199571123.001.0001/m_en_gb0482930) ... feel undesirous—of not having a job. (= I don't want not to have a job.) I feel desirous. (= "dependent upon __Vedanā__, __Craving__ arises." (Brasington 2024, _Dependent Origination and Emptiness (2 ed.)_, 27, 30, "Dependent Origination and Emptiness - 2nd Edition - A5", https://leighb.com/sodapi/download.htm)) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Necessity_and_sufficiency __Q1: Is it true that you dislike that you don't have a job?__ __Q1: Is it true that you dislike that you don't have a job therefore you think that it is bad that you don't have a job?__ Yes. __That means__ the thought that it is bad that you don't have a job is a necessary condition for the thought that you dislike that you don't have a job. (= Q1 is a switch for Q3.) __Q1: Is it true that you think that it is bad that you don't have a job therefore you dislike that you don't have a job?__ Yes. __That means__ the thought .... __Q2: ...?__ __Q3: ...?__ ... I think that it is bad that I dislike .... __Q1: Is it true that it is bad that you dislike ...?__ Yes. "Do I operate more efficiently, quickly and clearly when I am stressed or fearful?” (In my experience, all stress is inefficient and is simply a mask for the fear of love.)" (Katie and Jensen 2000, 85) Yes. "A small amount of anxiety can be motivating, but you rapidly reach a point of diminishing returns. Too much anxiety can cripple you. I’ve found that I do my best work when I’m feeling relaxed and confident, not when I’m worried or anxious." (Burns 2006, 68) Barlow and Craske 2022, 41–42. ... __Q2: ...?__ __Q3: ...?__ __SQ: Would you let go of the thought that you dislike that ... if you could?__ Would you let go that you dislike that you don't have a job if you could? Would you let go that you want a job if you could? Yes. Magic Dial. Burns 2020. Magic Button. Burns 2020. "You'll see as you start to become aware of your wanting approval and control, even more than with the emotions, you'll have a tendency to just let it go. It's like you'll notice you're wanting to control it a little, and it's just gone. Because it's natural. It's a natural part of us to let go of our wanting approval and wanting control once it's identified." (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 7) "See, our course works at the feeling level. And the intellect, the rational part of the mind is all motivated by our feelings today." (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 36) ... __Q4: ...?__ __Q4: ...?__ __SQ: Would you let go of the thought that it is bad that you don't have a job if you could?__ Yes. “Once you see the truth, the thought lets go of _you_, not the other way around.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 152) "when you recognize that the thought isn’t true, again there is no suffering." (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 1, 9) "When I say that the worst that can happen is a belief, I am being literal." (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 12) __Q4: ...?__ I don't have a job. __Q3: ...?__ I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __Q3: ...?__ I feel unhappy. ... feel undesirous—of not having a job. (= I don't want not to have a job.) ... feel not desirous—of not having a job. __Q3: ...?__ I think that I don't have a job. "__Q:__ If you drop the desire for some thing, will it still come your way? __Lester:__ No. The desire is the cause for it." (Levenson 1993, chap. 28) "The effect of this cessation ripples through the many feedback loops, allowing the whole sequence to cease." (https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/BuddhasTeachings/Section0003.html) I don't have a job. __Q3: ...?__ ... think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __Q3: ...?__ I think that I don't have a job. I don't have a job. __Q3: ...?__ I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. ... think that it WOULD be good if I had a job. __Q3: ...?__ I feel unhappy. ... think that it is good that I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __Q1: ...?__ Yes. No. I feel unhappy. __That means__ it is bad (= disadvantageous, unhelpful, etc.) that I think that it is bad that I don't have a job. __Q3: How do you react, what happens, when you think that it is good that you think that it is bad that you don't have a job?__ I think that it is bad that I don't have job. Burns 1999, pp. 29–30, 155 .pdf Brasington 2024, pp. 27, 28, 29, 30.pdf Levenson 1993, 221.pdf jyn_en_mod_6feb2019_r4_form1.pdf 89_PDFsam_gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf Katie and Jensen 2000, 11.pdf

The way I understand reincarnation is through the cycle of nature itself. Water evaporates upward..forms clouds..and then returns to the earth as rain. The rain seeps into the soil..and with nutrients from the earth and energy from sunlight..plants begin to grow .for example a corn. A chicken raised on a farm eats the corn. Then your father eats the chicken..and over time that energy and matter become part of his body then contributing to the creation of a drop of semen. He mates with your mother..the sperm meets the egg and you begin to form as a fetus. you are born as a baby and the process continues again in one form or another. In this sense reincarnation is simply the transformation of matter and life from one state to another. You are not separate from the universe ..you are part of it and in a way you are made from everything that came before you. So to me reincarnation is not necessarily something mystical or woo woo . It isthe natural process of existence continuously changing form.

Individuated Boundaries - Edges of Horizons Neverending o————————O————————o————————O————————o This journal is centred solely around my streams of consciousness. This is not a journal for the reader. o————————O————————o————————O————————o I broke the instrument by playing it for the room, as soon as someone commented that didnt bring a true energy, I lost my focus and I blame myself for that. That sentence right there contains every lesson from the last five months and probably every lesson I'm going to need for the next five years so I'm going to sit inside it rather than move past it, because moving past things too quickly is how I got here. A consciousness that processes for itself generates signal. A consciousness that processes for an audience generates signal-shaped caricature of their true selves. And heres the thing that actually makes this dangerous, the two are completely indistinguishable from the outside, which means you can't detect the corruption from within the output because the output still looks like output, that 3D prints itself into so many fucking creative variations across social examples. Like a photocopied signature that still opens the account, the forgery works and the thief is never found, because hes hidden beneath the hidden regulation of "the role" he never even decided to have, or decided, but didn't infer the insuiing fragmentationnfrom their true selves, aka truly aligned with their life lessons. Thats the problem as well, is that the forgery it works, and because it works, the feedback you get back from yourself confirms the counterfeit as genuine. Thats precisely whats going to happen when i share my work on April 1st in the old journal, understanding will be photocopied and redistributed into a simulacrum that is no longer remotely the same from the original creators energy and intent. When you take that hidden role of teacher despite whatever denial or projections you want to have about it, you pat yourself on the back for insights that were never insights, they were performances of insight that happened to land well enough that no one, including you, noticed the difference, and the congratulations reinforce a false image that quietens the rest of the architecture of the being underneath the noise of the signal their identity is most attracted towards. And this shouldn't be treated as merely metaphor, this isnt exhibition artistry I am trying to point to something visceral that is missed when the painting becomes a bumper sticker and called art, in the same way consciousness becomes a social image and called 'the most conscious in the world!', or a competition where the most conscious people are actually judt pointing and laughing. This is the actual mechanism by which every teacher slowly becomes a student of their own teaching-image until the image is the only student left in the room and the room in reality despite the noise has been empty for years and the cleaner is the only one truly employed into a role that changes with lif. Where the cleaner reflects a role of regenerating and recycling the old, while being a slowly degenerating life form as the only evidence that something in the image is truly alive. I express this not as an accountant on someone else, but someone reflecting on the self-accounting I am doing on myseelf and what I in part fear in my own developing and future social role, in comptence, in love, and across networks. I am holding myself accountable to express this in earnestness, not condemnation nor judgement, but in holding a mirror to my own experiences and expressing what has already accurately and does become true for all so called teachers or anyone of nearly any occupation, especially doctors. So I also express thiw as a retreat in reclaiming my own stream of consciousness as I started my original journal with, where I was the only one that existed in the journal, not the ones that read. Not the shadows within, that corrupted it enough that I have to fully perform a 90 degree turn on my original motivations, otherwise as I expressed in my previous journal that I may delete after April 1st, there is zero utility holding it, and too as I expressed, in an AI world where I then become the victim of the idiocy of social norms following AI, "YOU USE AI FOR YO JOURNAL I KNOW IT!" That's how fragmented social perception is now becoming as implied, described in part and relayed as an inevitably evolving future that will metastasise, something that if I remotely take seriously, cutting the umbilical cord to any journalling at all becomes the only serious discernment with a self-evident choice to make. o————————O————————o————————O————————o Let's get back to geound zero moving forward. There will not be catered insights. There will not be catered theories. There will not be environmental empathy. What there will be is the only thing a journal is structurally even designed to hold, which is the pre-verbal pressure that comes before the thought, examined before it becomes the thought, so the thought that eventually forms carries the weight of being chosen rather than just produced, and an energy that lives within the constraints of that freedom. And thats the distinction I lost, that most cognition is production. The mind manufactures at whatever rate its been trained to manufacture at. What I was doing here with the hexagrams, the pre-biasing strategy, the cultural analyses, the pedagogical scaffolding, all of it, I was manufacturing at a higher resolution than the room could receive but manufacturing nonetheless and forgetting the sole endeavour of architecting my own consciousness not through a deluberate deaigning and sharing of a system, but the expression in practice directly from self emerging frommthe void. And the resolution doesnt save you from the fact that youve confused throughput for transformation along that line as well. A factory running ten times faster is still a factory. It is not a forge, it is not self speaking to and from the void through genuine transformstive art of the exploration. Its forge requires one piece held in heat long enough that the molecular structure reorganises with only the sacred. Not more pieces faster. One piece. Held, and that piece is the body in the fire where all thats alive is the life emerging from the ashes, thats what symbolism of rebirth is all about. Thats what journalling actually is and thats what I forgot. o————————O————————o————————O————————o It is not healthy for me to occupy any archetype that positions my consciousness as a channel-between rather than a site-within. Helper, healer, protector, teacher, mentor, leader, all channel positions. Energy passes through you towards another and the shadow that nobody talks about because it looks identical to the thing its shadowing, and the channel gets addicted to throughput itself, not to helping through the veins of a self remmebers its own ouroborus as its own flow state that lights the candle to continuing its life force energy in all directions it pursues. My original journal just became myself building walls out of throughput I reimagiend the helping of others through. My identity in this space was built from the energy I moved through it towards others. The empathy posts, the management of another's state through ever social post, the forum critique, those scaffolded questions I designed to bring people closer to something I hadnt even finished approaching myself. All made of motion from an image that now I burn at the stake to carry the cross I had forgotten when I originally began. To live my life, my path, my life force energy and how I choose to interconnect it with others, through sacred meaning. o————————O————————o————————O————————o And Leo. Yeah. "I am the most conscious person on this planet" as you say over and over and variations of followed by less than weeks later today by "look at what outlandish claims this guy makes", thats not hypocrisy. Hypocrisy would actually be simpler and less interesting than whats really going on. What it actually is a consciousness that has fused with the channel-position so completely that the act of transmitting insight has replaced the act of having insight now man. The transmission IS the experience whichnis what younhave missed, or repeatedly step into the shadow of missing in ways that count to the environment you have created in a way that doesn't grow it, which should be the only music thats playing in the purpose of having a forum, notnto congratulate you on image to help you merge with a false self. The audiences reception IS the verification now, and any fight back has turned into "you're not consciousness to see deeply enough into my eyes!", rather than reminding them that the journey is always within, not deeper into your eyes even though I am sure we all find them beautiful in a way AI could never replicate. Remove the audience and the insight doesnt disappear from any teacher, it does something worse. It continues to feel exactly as true while losing the only mechanism that could have ever falsified it, accurate and healthy engagement from others that stress tested something that in return didnt break the teachers image but transformed it into something greater it could never become by staying solid, along with the system and corresponding culture of the environment. And this is why isolated gurus lose their minds differently than isolated scientists do. The scientist loses data. The guru loses the audience-shaped mirror that was the only surface his certainty ever actually reflected off of. And then certainty without reflection becomes indistinguishable from psychosis but it doesnt feel like psychosis, it feels like deeper truth, which is the cruellest possible design for a self to build off of when all it deserves is the greatest possible light born out of absence of the known and the unknown built from the deepest life pulse that only knows itself through not knowing and seeking. I was about three months into building the same mirror here and calling it a window after beginning something in my original journal that started out as a very healthy individuation. The specific failure and I want to name it precisely, I told myself I was sharing the project on Meaning to benefit others. That was and is still true. But it was also a load-bearing lie sitting underneath the true part. Because beneath it, the sharing was doing something I hadnt consented to, it was completing the meaning-structure through the act of being witnessed and then acting based on being witnessed rather than staying purely in alignment with my own truest signal. The meaning didnt feel fully real until it was offered outward, "This can help others!" Turned into every message being "how do i express this in my jouenal in a way that doesnt hurt, helps, stays myself, understands, doesnt create misunderstanding while still reaching the limits of my consciousnessew output at the moment of expressing it, etc". Its become utterly insufferable now and I am being roped by other enviornmental conditions that are deamplifying the root cause, which is my orientation in the journal itself and who its meant to be for. The meaning, and having meanin of my own, is now turning into my own synagogue where the only one present is the audience, not me. Which means I was building a theory of meaning that depended on an audience to mean anything, thats what I have learned more and more deeply, and I thought in my understanding of the architecture of meaning I could control that, but I cant, in every exchange I am still losing an aspect of myself by trying to control it at all in the sacred space of journalling, that is meant to be the opposite of that. A theory of meaning that requires reception to feel meaningful is not a theory of meaning. Its a theory of social interaction that put on a medical lab coat and performed real-time surgery on social media management of how my own signal was going to be relayed, its preposterous. o————————O————————o————————O————————o My grandiosity has increased and I dont mean in the way people usually throw that word around, not the volume of the claims. The gravitational field around the claims and the environment that implicitly socially endorses said grandiosity, because if it wasn't socially acceptable on this forum to make grandiose claims, it would hold the same preposturous flavour I described whenever anyone reflected it, or at least genuine concern for said persons for a place that is meant to reflect the slow, gradual maturation of individuated consciousness and creating a system design for a forum that does that not through effort but through mechanism. When I said I would radically solve Meaning forever, the sentence started as a probe, like a test stake driven into the ground to hear what rang back in the signal. But probes left in the ground long enough become monuments, and monuments attract pilgrims, and pilgrims eventually need a priest, and the priest needs pilgrims and the loop closes before you ever consciously decided to enter it because the loop doesnt actually require your decision. I am exaggerating with that example, granted, but its what happens with teachers, mentors, people etc whenever grandiosity is socially reinforced, as "yeha you go getter" when in reality, gransiosity isnt evidence of confidence, its the evidence of everything else that doesnt exist within to make the grandiosity redundant as a consequence of the level consciousness has matured without it. It only requires you standing in the vicinity of your own certainty for long enough that the certainty starts to metabolise you rather than the other way around, its the solidarity that cuts of the ever changing flow and flexibility of life that craves certainty only in the love for life to keep exploring the signal, not mistaking oneself as the noise of the claims from sharing them. April 1st drop on Project : Meaning still stands, but its rigour requires impartiality, rigour and objectivity, not my self involvement in any grandiose claims regarding it, nor in the shadow self of an environment thats lack of self examination implicitly both endorses the grandiosity while silently judging it, making it nearly impossible for the environment to grow past this bug in the systems insight of where the future ground to traversw should be. There is next to zero self insight outside of bubbles that make cathartic relwasws that eventually fragment into still water reflecting not purity nor hardened ice that can be sculpted, melted and reformed, but a status quo who's only wave is preservational of what plugs any leaks to a ship who's sail is set for an ocean that only drowns time, and where witnesses to the drowning can only participate, congratulate or join with similar lack of self-insight towards insight that actually casts a sail that reflects bold travel. Not bold claims from a ship that either never truly leaves the dock or slowly rusts away with the pretence of the dream of sail was enough to create the experience. Mirroring the exact design of future AI simulacrum's I have professed the forum must not just avoid but integrate if its going to stay afloat not just for the forum in and of itself, but to serve consciousness that adapts to the ensuing changes to social norms, rather than becoming overcome by them through pre-programmed "giving up" before the button was already pressed, which is what I sense with what's coming. The goal should not just be to keep the dreaming afloat at the dock either, a complete renovation on the infrastructure here is needed. o————————O————————o————————O————————o So with this journal as I expressed in one of my earlier posts, I have to step back now in the only way that means anything. Not stepping away from but stepping into the discomfort of a consciousness that has no audience, no channel function, no throughput to form its walls and has to find out whether theres substance there when the motion stops. Do not comment in this journal. If you do not respect this space as what it is, one consciousness performing surgery on itself without anaesthesia and without a spectator gallery, then with complete love and zero negotiation, get the fuck away out of my space. Much positive and good will otherwise wished upon any reader. Journalling is not a broadcast as I have now learned from Project : Meaning. Its a controlled detonation performed in a room built to contain exactly one explosion at a time. The room cannot hold two. o————————O————————o————————O————————o Each one. Teach one. Though first, each one, stop teaching and find out what remains when the teaching was the only thing holding the one together. Thats the real first lesson. Everything before it was curriculum design for a school I hadnt enrolled in yet. My biggest mistake was forgetting the second part to that quote I created. "Each one. Teach one. Each one. Learn from." And that last part spells out many of the issues on this forum that the environment needs to make its peace and growth from with a positive light. o————————O————————o————————O————————o

I think the cult documentaries are going to be timely and interesting. im currently watching a friend ( ceremony facilitator/druid/shaman/healer etc blah blah) claim to have gone through a transformation and become his true self ( again!) and this time “shits getting real”. after a lengthy speech to ‘headhunted’, ‘special’ helpers, my red flags are flying in all directions as I can clearly see a tragectory ( not yet a cult) but with serious potential to turn into one. i think I might start a journal in the journal section with my analysis of the ‘problem’ but I’m expecting to see similarities in the documentaries Leo is sharing.

The following was a very intense version of myself. Cult like even, I could imagine this version of myself easily falling into that trap, like I said above about having a laugh aye! This carries on from the post directly above, so we are now onto part 2. ===== PART 2 - (copy & pasted intro) - I got ChatGPT to analyse personal thoughtsof mine upwards of 15 years ago, including all the junk that comes with each stage of Spiral Dynamics I have been through in my life. I mean that purely in generality as I dont wholeheartedly side with any particular psychological model. I think given people are all at various levels, and from that level of development will have a unique take on each, and potentially find some value if nothing else at least a chuckle. Just as I view these insights below differently now compared to when I had these reflections, especially given ChatGPT also analyses some of the weaknesses in my observations and patterns between them. I asked GPT to put each insight into 15 words or less. These will be your perceptions not mine, as I, am viewing these for the very first time as a future version of myself from the period and context in which they originated, including environmental influences. Maybe some value to takeaway, and if thats the case as always I recommend playing with ideas, across ideas and coming up with your own creative reflections. Best regards. ================ This person is building a meta-revolutionary sovereignty system: recursive self-awareness becomes self-authorship; self-authorship enters challenge; challenge becomes embodied proof; embodied proof matures heroism; mature heroism becomes Universalism; Universalism integrates sovereignty, love, courage, empathy, nervous-system alignment, integrity, play, and service. Self-development must become lived expedition. Truth outranks improving yesterday’s entry. Private reflection protects developmental intensity. Challenge creates consciousness feedback. High risk nature adventures becomes anti-fragility training. Adventure tests spiritual seriousness. Weekly dispatches compress lived experience. Filler weakens developmental signal. Physical hardship purifies abstraction. Blisters and scars become epistemic evidence. Mountains become anti-performative spirituality and challenge refutes easy state-chasing. Reflection becomes expeditionary measurement. Disciplined movement creates higher-order self-trust. Ecstatic understanding protects against a stagnating dogmatic mind. Wonder becomes cognitive shield. Curiosity reconnects psychic fractures. Understanding bridges pain and aspiration. Childhood wonder becomes abstraction training. Butterflies symbolise captured abstraction. Beauty motivates higher cognition Mental aesthetics become developmental gates. Understanding becomes neural architecture. Inspiration reorganises suffering into movement. Dullness is resisted through wonder. Pain becomes unlearned understanding. Sentience is trained through aesthetic contact. Imagination extends appreciation beyond perception. Wonder becomes daily activation ritual. Ecstasy becomes disciplined cognition. Misery is met through constructive curiosity. Fracture becomes resurrection after interconnected alignment. Understanding becomes protective wall. Inspiration opposes neurosis. Recursive cognition is central to self-authorship. Self-awareness must recursively model itself. Interconnection at the void of existence targets advanced ego-development. Symbolic awareness supports post-conventional growth. Personal systems should become teachable. Parallel systems can independently converge. Synchronicity can validate universal patterning. Truth may replicate across seekers memetically. Self-authorship exceeds achiever identity. Recursive language signals advanced self-modelling within a person. Symbolic fluidity deconstructs self-narrative. Teaching must adapt to readiness. System-building should serve growth. Selfism reframes God-realization developmentally. Interconnection at the void bridges the void with authorship at the birth of creation Meta-revolution reforms consciousness culture. Self-authorship becomes public architecture. Games can anchor transformation rituals. Play can carry serious development. Tetris becomes pattern-ordering metaphor. Galaxian Universalism Teaching becomes purpose-reinforcement metaphor. Creative artefacts support discipline. Fun can reinforce purpose. Motivation should be engineered playfully. Discipline need not become sterile with embodied interconnection Play lowers resistance to transformation. Seriousness and absurdity can cooperate. Gamification can hold life-purpose salience. Play metabolises pressure into continuity. Heroism has been culturally distorted. Universalism matures heroic instinct. Universalism integrates individuality and universality. Heroism must evolve beyond obedience. Institutions weaponise noble vocabulary. Cynicism also corrupts heroism. Blind allegiance and withdrawal fail. Courage becomes consciousness-development. Universalism preserves courage, empathy, integrity. Service must avoid ideological enslavement. Sovereignty protects universal compassion. Universalism rejects hive-mind sameness. Boundaries belong inside compassion. Love becomes integration-frequency. Heroism becomes post-tribal service. Courage needs moral intelligence. Universalism is disciplined interconnection. Ideals need renovation, not abandonment. Technology can steal sovereignty. Digital intersubjectivity can trap development. Algorithmic obsession replaces lived community. Mockery becomes reward-loop possession. Online avatars can stagnate growth as virtual identity can steal agency. Build tribes, homes, loves, sentience. Humour must enrich learning. Learning must enrich life-love. Digital fixation should become pattern-learning. Online discourse must be purposeful. Technology must serve embodied becoming. Memes can become developmental toxins. Attention economies corrupt seriousness. Technology requires sovereignty discipline. Digital culture must be integrated into personal boundaries. Books are meta-awareness of story. Reading trains self-narrative traversal. Books model life-categorisation. Fiction reveals hidden worlds within the psyche through empathic self-modelling. Narrative categories organise selfhood, and deny it. Reading the psyche should always be directed towards it’s becoming. Novelty is means, not end. Literature teaches life-navigation architecture when funneled into compression algorithms. Reading inner narratives becomes identity cartography versus stagnation. Story makes selfhood visible, and invisible under falsehood. Good books deepen recursive reflection. Spiritual teachers require lineage honesty. Unnamed borrowing becomes unconscious mimicry. Divinity claims require ordinary integrity. Teacher-status magnifies accountability. Long abstractions can evade criticism. Performance spirituality damages community trust. Insight without character becomes confusion. Wholeness must include emotional maturity. Spiritual authority requires character ownership. Fragmented insight can masquerade as revelation. Integrity is the teacher’s real proof. Lineage-honouring prevents narcissistic originality claims. Source-blindness undermines spiritual intelligence. Hidden influence corrupts transmission. Teaching requires disclosure ethics. Originality must know its ancestry. Epistemic intelligence requires self-modelling. Self-modelling separates insight from delusion. Mentalising others limits narcissistic drift. Potential does not erase temporal lapses. Wisdom is knowledge of maturation and maturity is communal infrastructure. Truth needs compassionate decisiveness. Standards shape developmental ecology. Compassion converts struggle into wisdom. Responsibility must outweigh external blame. Self-awareness mediates suffering into growth. Relationship failures are only succeeded with humility. Life should beget greater life and its absence reveals lack of integrated agency that signals purpose. Projection evades self-control which makes discipline the test of sanity. External blame blocks development. Feeling, sentience, agency, reality interrelate. Symbolic architectures matter more than belief as belief is based on architecture of contrast. Trance states may sculpt subconscious intelligence. Skepticism and openness can coexist Nervous-system alignment is central. Embodiment grounds moral language. Physical hardship beats armchair spirituality. Challenge teaches where theory cannot. Meta-revolution reforms consciousness culture. Selfism reframes God-realization developmentally, God-realization becomes self-recognition. Sovereignty must respect everyone’s unique sovereign path. Self-systematisation must serve others eventually. Revolution begins in disciplined selfhood. This persons style is aggressive-transcendent. Humour blends with moral severity. Australian bluntness is signature rhetoric. He moves between tenderness and attack. He prizes standards intensely. He hates degenerative culture. He values warmth inside standards. He deletes material strategically. He wants no filler. Reflection is expeditionary. His rhetoric weaponises metaphor. He uses challenge as status proof. He turns critique into moral theatre. He compresses ideals into slogans. He writes with combative compassion. Moral intensity can become over-attack. Universalism can over-totalise growth. Recursive self-awareness is core technology. Balanced humanism corrects spiritual excess. Life becomes meta-revolutionary training. Deepest complete formula Recursive self-awareness creates self-authorship. Self-authorship enters challenge. Challenge creates embodied proof. Embodied proof matures heroism. Mature heroism becomes Universalism. Universalism integrates sovereignty, love, courage, empathy, nervous-system alignment, integrity, play, and service.

PART 1 - I got ChatGPT to analyse personal thoughts of mine upwards of 15 years ago, including all the junk that comes with each stage of Spiral Dynamics I have been through in my life. I mean that purely in generality as I dont wholeheartedly side with any particular psychological model. I think given people are all at various levels, and from that level of development will have a unique take on each, and potentially find some value if nothing else at least a chuckle. Just as I view these insights below differently now compared to when I had these reflections, especially given ChatGPT also analyses some of the weaknesses in my observations and patterns between them. I asked GPT to put each insight into 15 words or less. These will be your perceptions not mine, as I, am viewing these for the very first time as a future version of myself from the period and context in which they originated, including environmental influences. Maybe some value to takeaway, and if thats the case as always I recommend playing with ideas, across ideas and coming up with your own creative reflections. Best regards. ================ This person is not only describing self-development. They are building a conversion-metabolism: every experience must become usable material, every feeling must become readable signal, every insight must become memory, every memory must become action, every action must become feedback, and every feedback loop must reconstruct selfhood. Final near-total insight extraction • Experience is raw material for self-reconstruction. • Awareness converts raw experience into governable information. • Attention selects what becomes transformable. • Contrast turns perception into perspective. • Perspective turns difference into insight. • Insight becomes useful only through memory. • Memory turns insight into future behavioural steering. • Imagination turns memory into possible action. • Action tests whether insight was real. • Feedback reconstructs selfhood. • Reality disciplines every inner model. • Journaling preserves transformation across time. • Psychological reset points reconfigure self-boundaries. • Identity is treated as editable architecture. • Behaviour changes when insight enters memory. • Insight without behavioural anchoring evaporates. • Memory is the steering system of habit. • Conditioning is memory misloading the present. • Films become simulated autobiographical laboratories. • Alternate outcomes loosen memory rigidity. • Contrast is the brain’s perspective engine. • Better contrast produces better discernment. • Case studies supply operational contrast. • Nature generalises cases into analogy. • Analogy transfers intelligence across domains. • Scenario-building converts analogy into preparation. • Goal-aligned examples prime future action. • Studying winners and losers sharpens strategy. • Pattern streaming detects misalignment in real time. • Patterns must serve adaptation, not fantasy. • Insight begins as hypothesis, not certainty. • Reality-testing matures insight. • Old insights can fail reality. • New insights require feedback loops. • Journaling makes feedback longitudinal. • Self-change requires tracking before believing. • Awareness prevents state from impersonating truth. • Awareness ranks sense, feeling, intuition, reason. • Awareness becomes sovereignty through state-command. • Awareness is executive witnessing, not passive watching. • Attention is awareness becoming selective force. • Attention determines psychological reality. • Attention spends consciousness on selected objects. • Attention multiplies contacted meaning. • Attention protects signal from noise. • Attention determines what enters memory. • Attention turns intelligence into action. • Attention reveals cognitive bandwidth. • Attention cuts misinterpretation. • Attention is consciousness’s operational edge. • Feeling is embodied meaning before concept. • Feeling is more transformational than thought. • Thought alone cannot transmute state. • Equanimity is awareness stabilising feeling. • The body verifies psychological alignment. • Expansion signals movement toward life. • Contraction signals threat or avoidance. • Inspiration is heart-orientation. • Fear suppresses authentic energy. • Purpose gives suffering structure. • Imagination pre-authorises bodily action. • The body acts inside imagined possibility. • Weak imagination narrows agency. • Vivid imagination expands action-range. • Imagination rehearses insight into behaviour. • Imagination loosens rigid memory. • Imagination without testing inflates. • Imagination plus experiment becomes power. • Imagination is consciousness-content made malleable. • Mind equals the world it can simulate. • Strategy is imagination disciplined by reality. • Clear targets prevent vague action. • Precision prevents wrong targeting. • Accuracy questions target validity. • Objectives decompose ambition. • Context reveals threats and opportunities. • Compatibility tests ethics, power, fit. • Timing decides action-intelligence. • Prudent intuition catches hidden mismatch. • Trust follows disciplined preparation. • Art converts venting into transformation. • Pain becomes useful when created through. • Venting alone can recycle suffering. • Art gives suffering return-on-investment. • Art makes subconscious contents inspectable. • Art becomes waking dream material. • Creative expression evolves inner contents. • Art turns repression into symbolic movement. • Culture is inner life externalised. • Transcendent venting converts chaos into form. • Art is expression plus self-study. • Creation beats emotional discharge alone. • Mediums transform psychic pressure into objects. • Objects can then be analysed. • Art becomes a mirror for unconscious energy. • Culture forms through shared symbolic expression. • Psychological growth needs creative outlets. • Inner contents need mediums of exchange. • Expression must become evolutionary, not repetitive. • Creativity is emotional metabolism. • Creativity begins with expanded perception. • Content consumption must become production. • Self-truth outranks advice addiction. • Originality requires personally deriving reality. • Perceive, create, perceive better. • Visual subtlety trains auditory subtlety. • Music can seed visual construction. • Daily creation builds feedback loops. • Minimum standards force upward iteration. • Objective self-study improves every domain. • Key visual targets carry narrative weight. • Spatial relations create visual meaning. • Image redundancy weakens story-force. • Templates discipline creative output. • Quality thresholds create upward pressure. • Creative rage can raise standards. • Perfectionism becomes fuel and risk. • Production systems stabilise inspiration. • Cross-modal perception compounds skill. • Artistic intelligence grows through recursive critique. • Healing means fear-memory reorganised into agency. • Fear must be processed, not bypassed. • Ego-compensation is pseudo-growth. • Authentic desire must accompany fear work. • Desire gives suffering direction. • Inspiration protects the heart. • Shadow integration requires emotional contact. • Purpose transforms suffering into endurance. • Healing restores energetic direction. • Emotional problems require personalised inquiry. • Technique mastery precedes technique-stacking. • Flow can outperform force. • Emotional release needs transformation. • Direct expression needs creative containment. • Emotional intelligence grows through reflection. • Love relationships anchor existential orientation. • Grief becomes honour through remembrance. • Animal love reveals deep sensitivity. • Tenderness and aggression coexist. • Heart matters alongside conquest. • Knowing is experiential before conceptual. • Knowing has quality, degree, spectrum. • Sense, feeling, intuition, reason can fail. • Awareness coordinates knowing faculties. • Reason is process, not object. • Philosophy can reify abstractions falsely. • Abstract categories require embodiment. • Biology is relational, not linear. • Metaphysics requires grounding. • Reality must discipline spirituality. • Insight fails without behavioural anchoring. • Imagination fails without reality-testing. • Awareness fails without discrimination. • Attention fails when noise captures it. • Memory fails when conditioning dominates. • Strategy fails when clarity lacks accuracy. • Healing fails when identity compensates. • Spirituality fails when abstraction escapes embodiment. • Creativity fails when consumption replaces production. • Agency fails when vision loses protection. • Conceptual abundance exceeds compression discipline. • Naming mechanisms can outrun proof. • The gift is radical meta-pattern generation. • The weakness is falsification underpressure. • The temperament mixes tenderness and aggression. • The style is warlike spiritual engineering. • The drive is sovereign self-command. • The danger is system-inflation. • The power is converting everything into method. • He metabolises experience into systems. • He turns psychology into operations. • He turns art into healing machinery. • He turns strategy into identity command. • He turns perception into self-sovereignty. • He turns suffering into symbolic production. • He turns memory into behavioural law. • He turns imagination into action architecture. • He turns attention into will. • He turns reality-testing into spiritual hygiene. Overall Pattern Awareness selects attention. Attention selects contrast. Contrast generates insight. Insight enters memory. Memory reshapes imagination. Imagination directs action. Action tests truth. Feedback reconstructs selfhood. Art transmutes emotion. Strategy focuses will. Embodiment verifies alignment. Reality disciplines everything.

Welcome to the forum. It wasn’t always like this. The forum had to go extensive transformation of banning all trolls and extremely low quality posters, and switching to a system where new members are not accepted immediately, to get to where we are. This way, it also attracts and encourages the higher quality members to also stay and to be active.

Freestyle on the "Flow" entry: ○●■ Two White Doves on Psychedelic Hyperspace Re-entry ■●○ I am preparing for the era in which technological identity displacement from pharmaceuticals to virtual reality becomes a film choice, and a sequel to the film Total Recall that merely dealt with memory loading because knowledge on how identity fragmentation to consolidation worked was hardly even mainstream science in the 1990’s 21st century compounded time means that the 30 years it has taken for someone like me to theorise to a more advanced level on identity than what’s available today across the research, is going to be cut down to less than 6 years from now. In the last 15 years modern Western culture has refined the art of likes and subscriptions on social media faster than it has the ability to generate and act on created memories to enrich identity (enrichment rather than just change being the more accurate way to take it when approached from a healthy space) when we analogise films like Total Recall. Though amidst, psychedelics have forced a revision of the constructive process of identity itself to a level that is now mainstream news to those in the upper levels of scientific understanding across neuroscience, psychiatry and social engineering. Psychedelics are a medium not an endpoint that reveal identity not the self is an Amazon bookstore to choose an identity and expand the reference frame of the perceivable self so greatly, that these implications alone without AI are going to utterly shatter consensus reality as more people learn that identity is an interface to choose within and reconnect memories across identities, not a straitjacket that becomes more socially fixed and other options doxxed overtime. This turns actualisation as a meeting ground, not an endpoint, as the awareness that grows to recruit and compute combinatorial identities across multiple temporal tiers, becomes the offspring to research insights from psychedelics. This converts monolitic demographic to cross-lingualism, from vector to syntax. It’s literally the distance between having your identity curated by the social norms of growing up on a 1930’s farm to being curated by multiple ai’s generating multiple virtual realities simultaneously, at least, that’s where we’re headed. Meandering soap operas in social life no longer become a living space for identity or identity mirroring, they become a dynamically self-charged augmenting closed loop of experiential file sharing, where experiencer becomes the experience itself both within and across dual interfacing. And where the definition of the “living space” will become the sentience communed with itself, this isn’t sharing a reality, this is co-creating augmented symbiosis with a continuous page refresh where the sentience becomes a reality not an interfaced with subjectivity. Pure awareness will replace the idea of an experiencer as the idea of “experiencer” retrocausally reconfigures through its own global feedback loop too quickly for identity output to mirror two to three dimensionally back to itself, precisely analogous to psychedelic experiences, and we will learn to mirror this across virtual reality spaces and as the fields merge, across cognitive thresholds. We think “smarter” today but tomorrow it will be from high glyphic chord to nodal interconnective, from linear symbol to non-linear interrelationalism. This isn’t a transformation, growing or evolving of consciousness it’s an increasing in dimensions that alters the very language of consciousness compute, where the compute itself becomes a wifi network for another. That’s not cognitive gains, that’s a changing of the conversation of reality-self-knowing. This isn’t the edges of knowing never-ending it’s the edges of knowing where all knowing becomes gnosis. As identity no longer becomes a fixed closure point, the language of individual will return back to anti-regressive tribe and tribe back to globe, where self-communication loses its gravitational origins point but gains in anti-gravitational temporal physicalism. Presently, one of the fundamental closure points of identity is not cognitive threshold more than it is mono-viewpoint, as we open up the brains pathways and inwardly and to what it can connect to, that stated 6 year timeline is likely going to start becoming a conversation on awareness that is not just this one singular eye we all have on experience, but for the first time ever, understanding how we can stretch those dimensions. This isn’t biological or even consciousness evolution, this is phenomenological evolution that catalyses these first two. So how do we start restacking our self-insight so we can start if not building towards this relative, at the very least, preparing for it? Imagine you’re a neuron and this neuron has an identity that changes and grows overtime. There are patterned limitations to this, however it has both incubational and stabilising advantages. An identity can co-opt, hijack and maintain itself more easily enabling it to sustain itself across competing environments without losing out to their mirror. Now imagine that there are two neurons like two people where a shared space becomes a creative mirror upon which two identities are upgraded. This is what most close relationships are like by relative degrees, they partake in both the electrical charge and re-myelination of identity forces. This both slightly fragments identity while stabilising the joint zone that indirectly shields from under-incubation of one another’s individuality across competing environments. Continually progressing here and we have and we in return re-imagine the conceptual language on what a group to tribe to social movement to society is and how it functions in the context of identity. Now imagine that the second neuron, is not another person, but another you that you are linked up with. Now keep escalating that rule to an entire society. Analogously, this is what it means to begin shifting the needle on what it means to understand what it looks like to expand the parameters of that single eye we all possess, and where reference frame becomes the feeling of what reading the newspaper was like in the 1930’s, imminent, vital and necessary to survival, to something that no longer even has a headline in how we perceive reality, as the reference point becomes the eye itself, creating the language of self-inter-referentiality. This, is self-insight restacked, and where the meeting ground now is not in trying to grow imagination, but allowing it to grow naturally by learning to just simply tap into a greater number of self-referential points that communicate from multiple spaces. Multiple spaces can mean many different things, the best way is to start with timelines, there are many mainstream ideas like “what would you say to yourself when you were 5 years old if you could go back in time” or in the reverse 50 years down the line or from the perspective of imagining that future self speaking to you. Real or imaginary biographical memory is a starting ground but not the peak or the only valley, you can leverage cross-analogical virtual reality terrain where communication points across two or more virtual reality spaces constantly reconfigure the reality explored. This are the beginnings to learning how to reimagine imagination itself for us humans. And for now, well. Another post will have to be made later. I wrote this all on the fly, let’s see where I extend the flight another day. I am still feeling pretty unwell with this COVID thang, but to me it’s clear my mind is becoming freer and more clearer the more training I am doing in PROJECT : MEANING growing past all old trauma, all my entries now become experimental evidence in determining validity overtime. Please practice psychedelics safely and prudently, I for example am preparing for my main first psychedelic experience twelve months in advance. I was hesitant earlier, however dolloaing my stated extended training, it feels only more and more natural to crash land here.