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I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

@Leo Gura I disagree with your blog Post about Jesus Non Existence (if you meant it that way) I once had a vision of Jesus Christ after a rather failed 5 Meo DMT experience, where I couldnt resist and just got a terrible short trip. Right afgter that trip I saw Jesus Christ in the sky for only 5 seconds. Even if it was only 5 seconds it was the deepest reassurement of his existence, I knew immediately it is him, allthough I never had anything to do with Christianity and dont even celebrate Christmas, I had nothing to do with faith at all. Also I have watched alot of Near Death Experience Videos until now and what is most recurring in those Experiences of absolute bliss for the people is that they meet Jesus Christ in what they call Heaven or Paradise. And it doesnt even matter if they are Atheists, Jews Christians or Muslims, the majority meets Jesus Christ. So regarding these two points I do believe that Jesus has some special kind of mission here on earth what a longer meeting with him would actually be like in the afterlife is also probably a total mistery. I dont think that Death is simply ending up in nothingness because the Game needs to go on and we keep "living" in a place thats paradisical, according to Near Death Experiencers that place is totally real even though its not bound to time or space.

More random stuff from @LastThursday please bear with me, loading... Tom boy A-Ha on CD repeat Out of Blue Comes Green Auburn hair Lulu Short hair Excitable Stripey Tights Stick insect Milton Keynes Bowl Was Not Was Big watches Sexual exploration Innocent love Jealousy Crying Kabooey Gillygogs Running round and round Weightlifting In bed kissing all day T'Pau: China in Your Hand 1988 Wet T-shirt, yikes Summer high jinx Shooting GF's brother with air gun (oops) Soul II Soul Crow (Lindsey!) Kissin' on a bench Empty tube trains home The Venue: clubbing and dry ice Fool's Gold Barrowboy (f**k him) Garry (f**k him) KFC Chicken Burger ... South Kensington Sick (original) parquet flooring Encyclopedia Brittanica (Fourier Transforms!) Fish tanks Curry and Coca Cola (bliss) Frisky Bull Dogs Glow in the Dark Stars Gladiators The Twilight Zone The Nuns of Monza (!) The Lost Boys 9.5 Weeks St Etienne: Only can love break your heart Gladiators Go! Apple IIgs Airheart Bard's Tale (mega printout colouring in felt tip forever) Spinning 8-bit wireframes A-ha cubes Jangling keys opening schools at six o'clock (nearly killed me) Mopping floors Hydrochloric Acid + urinals Super Dodgy Woodpecker council estates Drunken taxis Getting mugged Getting to know my mugger Walking home for two miles Getting away from home Network 7 The James Whale Show Get Stuffed! Impromptu naked duvet discovery (and nearly misapproriating an illegal cherry) Nosey sisters Officious ginger brother The Dew Drop Inn Close to Me: Cure 15 going on 16 Unbearable holiday wait Will you go out with me? Green chequed shirts Drainpipe grey jeans Basketball shoes Have my cherised calculator (supernerd) New girlfriend meet old girlfriend Baggy happy acid hoodies Paisley shirts!! (I loved them) Hi Tec Badminton

the realization is Bliss for sure, no argument there, once Your just here and one with life that is Bliss, but how to surrender he never really explains that, because not all are in the same place or experience (he deny's experience too which is a misnomer)

It is, yes, and it’s very easy to let go, and that’s true liberation, the freedom from the fear of truly letting go. Maybe some don’t understand this radical freedom, but I do, and you do too James, I see it. It’s pure beauty because it’s giving everything back to God. It’s pure bliss.

You won't get it from a book. After You finish the book more questions will arise, more seeking intellectual knowledge.. Intellectual knowledge is good for survival, how to make more money, get more stuff and security of finances, but that is all it can do.. All the real answers are within You. But first admit you do not know, then naturally You will seek to know, then Your innate intelligence (the thing that makes Your heart beat when Your in deep sleep) will be fully Alive and Active, but don't look for knowing in a book, just find out why you are not peaceful of your own nature right now and then a method to take that obstruction away, then Your at Peace, via that You will have a certain amount of Clarity and Knowing, but it is not book knowing, its experiential knowing, from there things naturally go on, from peace to joy from joy to Bliss, then Your really on Your way to Spiritual Enlightenment, but if Peace is not natural for You, then don't talk about Spirituality or Enlightenment, fix the peace part first...

There are paradoxes in Life and Reality, this is why our Mind and using Logic won't work, You cannot live to your highest Potential via the Intellect or Logic or trying to fit it all together in a straight line... Yes, there is only the living Now, that is where Life exists, Past is just Your Memory, Future is just Your imagination, neither exists in physical reality, but they exist in Your Mind, and with the past this is Karma, all the actions You performed in the past (Body, Mind, Emotion, Energy action) has a residual affect, its like an impression, deny this all You want, but all of existence/Creation is like this, if there was no Big Bang or whatever, no creation would exist, no planet earth, no invention of the internet, no forum, no You posting on it.. So even thought the past does not exist, it has an affect on us, especially if Your an Human Being and Unconscious! Free Will lies in the fact that You can dissolve this personal Karma that You have, You can be Aware, which is another form of intelligence I would say, via this Your actually living in the NOW moment, this is reflected in Your Experience as Peace, Joy, Bliss, via that foundation You can see with Clarity (the future per say) and play this physical game of duality, karma, materialism here on Earth while Embodied.. There paradox is just this, life is only Now, but we can use the past experience to be wise from and plan for future but live now totally...This applies to Human Existence only... Your Body is full of the Past, but live Now.. Your Mind is past/future orientated, but Awareness can override the mind...Just play the game, don't analyze it too death...

It's been like 5 years since I started tripping, ever since I've been doing it consistently, the longest I would go without tripping was 6 months or so. Now, I reached the point where I noticed that I actually avoid life with spirituality and psychedelics. Ultimately, survival won't ever fulfill you. Life purpose is an ego construction and will never satisfy you, neither will you get satisfaction from chasing money, having family or becoming famous, because these things have hidden negative sides of duality and they are impermanent. It only looks that these things are designed to fulfill you, but the only thing that can do it is God. That's why I have developed some sort of an addiction to 5MeO-DMT. Nothing in life that I had experienced would ever make me as joyful and satisfied as breaking into infinity of Love, pure ones and awe, magical bliss. On the other hand, every time I would breakthrough, I would always choose to come back. And believe me, ego doesn't make that decision it's God. So basically when you're identified as Ego you want to get God but when you become God you want to come back as ego. I verified it in my direct experience multiple times. Ultimately, since God is so god damn good and one, it want to experience how to crave things and need something or someone. See the only reason you pursue awakening is because you want God, but God has always wanted to be you (small ego). Anyways, I am 28 and I reached the point where I don't know what is going on. All I know is that I can't be playing this games with 5MeO-DMT trying to chase God but ultimately coming back. My plan for now is to forget about psychedelics for 10 years and then we shall see.

Hey y'all This is going to be my new journal on my new account. I left the old acc because I didn't like my username. Let me introduce myself first. My name is Sincerity and I'm from Poland. [image removed] ^ This is me! I'm currently ??? years old. I'm admittedly young but I hope you can see me beyond my age, for what I am I've been on this forum for more than 3 years and until now I've (kinda) held my identity a secret. But lately I've had some realizations in regard to expressing myself more honestly and yeah. Here I am, being more open with you. Now you have a slightly better idea of who's behind the account. (Edit: Ironic haha. But it has to be this way. Everything ends.) I've been on the spiritual path for roughly 4-5 years now and I feel like I've had much progress. I definitely have many insights to share. But I'm still pretty much a beginner and I'm on the journey along with you. Try to keep up, because I feel like I'm growing pretty fast (this year has been insane for me so far, seriously!) I've been mulling over my important values for years and this is where I stand right now: I am primarily about goodness. I am about love. I am about bliss, wisdom, appreciation, responsibility, sincerity, curiosity, discipline and humility. I also really value humor and laughter. You might notice I'm often tongue-in-cheek in my posts I don't like posting very frequently and I'm still not sure what I will even be posting here but tell you what, it's going to come from a place of sincerity Love and have a great day ❤️

As a child this was quite often for me, so now as an adult its experienced the opposite way, I feel calm, bliss full, peace, all at home and alone within myself, divine comfort, warm bliss, like I am swimming in dark chocolate I was born sane, the world was insane, that's not my problem. And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music ~

Good question! I think it depends on One's intentions which we will never really know.. Goggins for example I would say has a big ego, his achievements of going thru suffering triumphantly sounds and looks like a big ego too me, Ralston seems a bit egoic but not like Googins, but with Spiritual teachers they may just have a calling to share the Bliss or Experience they feel since it is so empowering overall, Googins stuff not so much imo.. Ego is needed to do anything in this world, we need personalities/identities for ourselves to help other personalities or to use them, if Your doing something that is empowering for others and that is the primary reason Your doing it, then Your ego is in check, if your doing it to make Yourself feel good then your ego is big...

@Terell Kirby Yes, read all You want, delve deeply into all the Conceptual Ideologies out there (thousands of them), continue this process all Your Life.. But if Your daily experience is Depression, Sadness, Anxiety etc, then it won't mean Shit! You have to have a stable base of pleasantness, Peacefulness at the minimum then and only then does what all the concepts talk about, Sat Chit Ananda (Truth, Consciousness, Bliss) come as a Reality for YOU.. It doesn't matter what anyone says, if You don't Experience it Yourself it is not a Reality.. What You don't Perceive/Experience does not exist for You!

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Boring experiences are normal. When you're mastering a skill or something else, or simply have nothing better to do and wander around not knowing what to do. This is all normal. On the contrary, it's during boredom that plans and ideas are born. You have to get through this difficult, tedious moment; good things don't come easy. Those who flee boredom in search of mountains of gold and eternal happiness are making a mistake; they are perpetually unhappy, and they don't understand that their dream of eternal bliss will never come true—this is a failed strategy. It's just Reality. Or do you disagree? Well, you don't have an ego, so you have to accept it. Or do you? Ahahahaha And don't forget that any closed system is doomed to degradation due to the constant increase in entropy. Entropy can only be reduced if you're an open system. There's an immediate parallel here. But is it possible to help yourself? Introspection or something, without outside help? Really, no? You won't gain anything other than self-destruction if you simply delve into your thoughts? Do you really need a guru or a psychologist for this? Yes and no. Your surroundings also provide you with feedback. If you disagree, then go on, develop yourself, engage in self-examination, and purify and expand your chakras.Maybe it will help. (in parentheses is questionable). Even Leo, when he says he's just imagining things, is actually unconsciously using an open system. Otherwise, he would be so shallow in his ideas and this forum wouldn't exist. Live with it now, haha And if we speak in terms of Spiral Dynamics, there is its lowest stage – Beige. The Animal stage, where chaos and lawlessness reign. But it is precisely in this chaos that resources are most active and true creative fire is born. In Spiral Dynamics, you can't say that the Turquoise stage is better and the Red stage is not, for example. They all have the same right to exist. It's like with the chakarma – you develop the seventh chakra, but not the lower one. It would be more correct to also engage the lower one, and the others, but the most important and only chakra is still the heart; there are no other chakras. COMPLETENESS

Nothing would Exist without Karma! Karma is not reward or punishment system, Karma is memory of all sorts.. When Leo say Genetics plays a role in Awakening, he is saying Karma plays a role as Genes are just a form of memory... So all forms that are around, stones, planets, stars, suns, apes, humans have Karma, living and non living things. For Humans it is more complex, we have evolved thru maybe thousands of cycles of forms, from rocks to plants to insects to animals to a Human, and probably many forms/cycles of being Human, all of that comes with You when YOU are born, Your playing it all out now as we speak and it reflects in Your personality, your dreams, what You think about and wish for, but most are completely unaware of this and the processes of Karma. For Us Humans we can bypass Karma completely via Living Now Totally, Accepting Now Totally, raising our Consciousness to a very high degree, etc etc... When Your present body dies, the other bodies with Your karmic substance intact go on (we all have 5 bodies, food, mental, energy, astral, bliss bodies), when Your body dies, the karma is still in the energy body and such and it and the astral/bliss body go on to find another host per say, this can be done consciously or unconsciously, ultimately You can choose which body to incarnate into, most are not conscious enough so their tendencies, basic core of their being (were they acting living like a pig while alive, a saint, a murder, an almost enlightened being) directs them thru this process, there is no discretion in this realm of afterlife, just tendencies/karma guides it all.. Then Your born again to do it all over again, If Your Spiritually inclined for some reason today, it probably means You were a bit in the last life, so keep up with it and maybe end the cycle.. They also say that what Your State of Being is at the moment of death will go on in the after life, if Your in fear and scared, suffering in anyway at death, You will experience that there too, if Your Blissful and at Peace with death, that will be Your experience there they say!

They say the moment of Enlightenment and the moment of physical death is the same moment, most cannot keep within the Body when Enlightenment happens since the energy surge and nervous system and others things are too intense for the connection between Body and Atman for lack of a better word to stay on. Only qualified Masters, masters of Energy and Karma can stay on, they conscious create more Karma to keep intact the various Bodies and Atman! Karmic substance keeps us glued to our Bodies and such (5 bodies, food, mental, energy, astral, bliss body) karma keeps it together, when Enlightenment happens Karma is dissolved, Atman is released from these Bodies and merges with Absolute, no more individualization is present, no more birth/death/rebirth samsara cycle happens, liberation is complete!

This is True, and never ending/infinity/endless Potential cannot be expressed via logic, via words, communication so that the one receiving the communication is instantly transformed, it can only inspire, maybe create a temp change,, Shit even ppl that take dmt/5 meo after having what they say is "God" like experience and come back proclaiming they are GOD, soon after go back to bad habits and old patterns, so Karma Rules, as You say it is all in our Genes, well Genes are one aspect of Karma, there are other forms of memory and conditioning being applied upon Us daily, so being Super Aware is key, that brings Clarity as a natural by product, via Clarity we transform, Bliss is normal, "What about Me" drops aside and then we can really explore this Infinity Possibility making machine we call Absolute!

First most Everybody is Selfish.. The Mother that doesn't want her Child to Suffer is Selfish because if her Child suffers She Suffers too, and she does not want or like that, so she does what she can to make sure her child does not suffer (generally). Every act we do is Selfish, when You open the door for a senior citizen, it helps them and makes You feel good, that is why You do it, if opening the door brought Suffering too You then You wouldn't do it! The Solution to it all is to make Yourself what You want to Experience.. All of Us want Pleasantness as our Experience, the Sadist tortures another person because it makes them feel pleasure! But we can determine our inner Experience, its within our power, if You take that Responsibility on and actually do it, so that Pleasurable Experience (Peace, Happiness, Joy, Bliss) is Your natural Experience, then Selfishness is no longer an issue for You, every act will be for the "other" because "What about Me" or Ego is now dissolved and no longer an issue for You!

Hi, Leo, I’m trying to understand a subtle metaphysical point you’ve talked about. You’ve said that no illusion can be permanent, because any imagined state eventually collapses into a deeper truth. In your own words: "Truth cannot be hidden, denied, or avoided indefinitely. Falsehood and illusion are always a finite game. Falsehood and illusion are unsustainable because they are self-contradictory. God must be itself. God cannot not be God. Because Truth is itself. If Truth was not itself, it would be falsehood, which is absolutely impossible." At the same time, God can imagine any state or dream, even one that seems endless. For example, God could imagine an eternal-feeling dream of pure stillness or bliss. Does this mean God can dream an experience that APPEARS to last forever in linear time (the same way a human can dream something that feels endless) even though it still ultimately collapses? In other words, how does the impossibility of true permanence reconcile with the possibility of imagining a dream-state that feels eternal? I’d really appreciate any clarity on this — I’m genuinely curious about how these pieces fit together.

The key is always raising of Your Awareness or Consciousness level, the side benefit to that is Bliss, once You have Bliss as a natural experience then all the other pleasures don't compare, that doesn't mean that while Blissed out you don't still have Your fav ice cream cone or eat Your fav meal, watch you fav tv show, etc... It just means those things are no longer an attachment for You, as Your Bliss is in your control and pleasure is always there for You.. Karma or Conditioning/Tendencies/Past will rule You if the past is dominate in you, we can dissolve Karma via Living Now absolutely, that doesn't mean ignoring past or future, we just use it when we need it and don't live in those places that's all.. Acceptance too dissolves Karma, if Your totally in Acceptance of What Is, then nothing will rule You..

Ignorance is bliss .🤟

Drinking coffee with cigs rn. Pure bliss 🙌 all day to myself. couldn’t be better — ate some golden teachers yesterday as well, which was pure serendipity. Just found some when I was walking around my neighbourhood 😤 I know you’re Australian (I’ve been lurking on this forum for ages). I’m in Brisbane. You’re in Melbourne if I remember correctly?

I’ve had many awakening experiences induced by self inquiry. My question is-when is the fun part? Every time it happens, I just feel myself disappearing and it is rather frightening, as everyone I love disappears too and it feels like there is no one else in any of my loved ones bodies. I just don't like the solipsistic part of it. Any tips on how to get over this so I can go deeper and fully experience my awakening without fear? I always cut it off before it goes to deep.

The moment you realize just about everything you've been taught in spirituality is wrong or is upside down or it's opposite is what's the case. Perfect example: Happiness is the default feeling of the true self. Your true nature is happiness and bliss. So far from the truth. It's opposite is so true that we have to keep chasing what's out of reach. Suffering, sadness and anguish is the default mode of humans. The moment a child is born, is the beginning of it's suffering. The deluded will come up with stories saying bliss and happiness is our true nature but we're blinded by society's this and that and the mind's this and that and unconscious thinking of this and that. Happiness is just the relief of the default mode. Life is pain and suffering because that's just how it sustains itself for survival. Imagine being complacent your whole life; no motivation there to change or move on.

Who are the others you are talking to? Don't belive what your minds tells you bro. I had this experience on LSD multiple times. It is not true. To say that life is X, weather it is suffering or bliss is a limitation to reality. You can make heaven or hell out of your experience it is up to you. LIFE IS. IT IS. And it is absolute extascy and bliss because IT IS the I AM. IT IS YOU. It's not suffering, it's not bliss, it is so amazing that it is beyond that.