Truth Addict

So this is the meal that's not on the menu? Still, beliefs are not false necessarily, I prefer treating them as irrelevant from Truth. Otherwise you shouldn't be here using your PC or whatever to tell me about it. You're here because you believe in something (it might be about me or about you or anyone else). ?

It actually makes perfect sense to me. Like when you play video games, what's loading on the screen plus the sounds (what's loaded on the RAM) are what's -you could say- real in the game. But I don't feel any different, life is magical, it always felt that way to me. Nevertheless, I'm glad to see the true nature of existence.

Oh my God, this is very profound. And thus I have to become enlightened. Thank you so much ?

Why dropping all beliefs? Are they all bad? I get your point, but again isn't that a belief too? Or just me doing mental masturbation? This is what makes the world a meaningless place. It is what it is, utterly meaningless. It's cool btw, confusing too. @Joseph Maynor Thanks for the pic and the vids, I'll watch them later.

Oh I see. Thanks.

I encountered many "sleep paralysis" attacks throughout my life. Last time I had one, I completely surrendered and said 'I can do nothing about it, so why fight it, accept it.' Fortunately, I never had them anymore since then. My question is; was that ego death?

Everything you want Is on the other side of fear ??

@Shin Maybe your ego wants to develop more ego. This is homeostasis trying to pull you back probably. I suggest you stop listening to feelings. Just keep seeking the Truth no matter what. Best of luck. ?

How do you know that reality is the whole? What if there's someone aka God not ruled by the laws of reality, not needing to be inside of it and Who also created this reality. Why are you treating God like other material things? After all, God is, by definition, beyond mind, science, logic, experience, etc.. If He can't be then He isn't God. God is infinitely infinite, nor the mind neither "direct experience" can grasp the absolute infinity.

Sorry I'm not arguing for religion here. I was just asking some authentic questions.

Actually there's another possibility that I don't know if we can verify, which is that God can't be accessed or experienced by any means. This means that everything in reality including "Consciousness" is a creature created by God, and God is someone else that we can't reach. What if this reality was the devil? And non-duality was in fact a way to connect with the devil deceiving us that he's God? The fact that we can't know anything for sure suggests strongly that we need a guidance. Which will be definitely some prophet sent by God Himself. What if there are no other teachings that we can trust? What if physical death is the only way to reach God? Where was your consciousness before it habits your body? What if it will keep its memories after you die? What if everything is really an exam? What if religion is true? Non-duality doesn't answer these metaphysical questions: "How do you know if you're experiencing God or someone else?" "What about before birth and after death?" "Will consciousness stay after we die?" Non-duality only cares about the "NOW" which is not the same as religions do. I don't know if what I said was related to your post. But these questions always give me insomnia. P.S. I don't know if these questions are valid.

Very funny ?

@egoless I'm by no means more experienced than you are but I think this might help. If you ever ask a preacher or a religion man: If God created everything then who created God? They will answer you simply that this logic doesn't apply here because it's like asking: "Who cooked the cook?" I think it's quite normal to question everything, but also we should know the limits of logic. Though the question here is not valid, you should find out for yourself. All the best ?

Dude, just chill and check your grammar. No, I don't comprehend you. Actually I have no clue about what you said.

Lol, me too before only two months.

@egoless Of course, that's why I ask myself after meditating. Thanks again ?

Alright. I've been meditating for a while, and also trying to get to enlightenment. My problem is that it doesn't click. Conceptually: I understand that I'm not my mind, nor my thoughts. I understand that I have no clue about me, nor about reality. I understand that I'm not the brain, nor the body. I am the observer of the observation aka consciousness. So what am I and who am I? I still think of the answer conceptually, it doesn't work. And in fact it's quite annoying that oneday I felt like I was about to get hit by the truth, it felt overwhelming, came from every corner, was about to hit me, then all of sudden disappeared and left me wandering. What have I missed that day? And what am I missing all the way? Please help.

I never knew this fact. But no, I think it's not possible for enlightened people to do what he did. If he was into this work, he probably must had half-assed it and become a zen-devil.

Yes I think I need to do some long retreat, but it's not possible right now because I have my college and my job and I need money. As for conceptualizing everything, that's the only way I used to look at things through, it might take some time to break this addiction. Psychedelics are not an option for me (at least right now), I want this process to happen naturally and I'm not in a rush, though I'm dying to know the Truth. Eventually I will use some of them, but for now I'm not ready yet. Thank you Leo ? Actually it doesn't work on me anymore, it used to work many times before because I was searching for how to become enlightened. Now I use to conceptualize the answer automatically. This situation sucks, but thanks anyways. Okay thanks I'll try mindfulness meditation for a week and see the difference. Every time I self-inquire I discover some new obstacles to knowing the Truth, it'll be useful to list them, so yeah I agree. Most of my beliefs about reality have collapsed after I watched the "Self-Deception" series for Leo. Still I fall back from time to time, but generally I understand that it's just a deception, it's not real, it's only happening in my mind, which enlightened people say it doesn't even exist, and I can relate to that possibility too because I know there's no proof of the brains either. This series helped me to break many many addictions. It's good to know the Truth. So I think it's a matter of time. Thanks for your help ?

@Nahm I'm not sure when I started meditating, probably nearly two months. I don't do any specific technique, I just let go and focus my attention on my sensations (mostly breathing) and when I get the complete no chatter phase I turn my focus on nothing. Actually I started to feel more relaxed and rational in my ordinary life. Also I started to have more control over my behaviors and decisions. And yes I think that the mind is trying to push it's agenda. But at the same time I'm burning inside to get enlightened. I want to experience the truth that all of you folks talk about. I appreciate your opinion.

The ego is not about hunger at all, it's all about greed. And in fact your true self needs to survive for a purpose, just like your ego has to die for you to achieve your purpose.