Truth Addict

Whoever said that is lying to you.

@Fairy Keep an open mind and learn. You have a lot of misconceptions. You are aware of the pain. Pain is happening to your body. Are you the body? Or the one that is aware of the body? Who am I? This is the deepest question you could possibly ask yourself, at least for now.

So what?

@How to be wise You don't know what you're talking about. There's a reason why it's called 'mastery'. You don't develop mastery over the course of months or even years, a few decades of grinding work, sweat and tears, are required to achieve mastery. Does it make sense that I could win the formula 1 after a couple of years of driving?

Okay, the Truth is what is. Synonymously, the Truth is the present moment, whatever the content is. So what? What is so special about this? What is so spiritual about it? And how does it match with God, Nothingness etc..? I'm a pretty decent human being, and I care about the Truth. I understand that 'subject-object' duality is just an assumption and it must collapse, I don't suffer anymore (90% of the time), I enjoy life more, I go out in nature A LOT! I care a little about the dream character, and I don't really have much desires. I enjoy being alone. I still have some addictions, but they're working their selves out, and I believe they're going to end soon. Insight: addiction is just a way (better put: natural mechanism) of maintaining survival. I could get angry or sad rarely and it ends so fast. I'm comfortable with ego backlashes as I notice them happening every now and then. I don't view the so-called 'bad emotions' as bad anymore. Rather, I find them necessary. I'm an introvert, and I'm comfortable with that. And I could indulge myself into low consciousness talks if I felt like it, which is a cool new feature I discovered recently, I became a pretty laid-back guy recently. I mean, yes, the magic of life, I glimpse it. The sight and hearing and all that, how's it possible?! Amazing! Wonderful! I still have some doubts about death and the afterlife. Zero mystical experiences so far, and psychedelics are not on my radar. I feel like there's a lot more for me to learn, and I don't feel fully satisfied with my metaphysics yet. But I know I'm on the right path. You and other enlightenment people talk about 'nothingness, void, emptiness, etc..' which is something I can't relate to yet. What is your advice ? What should I do? Is it only time that I need? I believe you guys can read between the lines and know exactly what I need to hear. Because you always did! Love you all ? And thanks in advance.

Lol! So, I just need to shut up and that's it. The thing that you're questioning me for doing is the very same thing that you're doing. There's no point of me doubting every belief here. I do that on a specific time on my own. I'm here to communicate ideas with you and others. And I'm not sure there are other ways to do that. I think I get what you're pointing me to. I also think you have to make a clear distinction between being skeptical and being practical.

You make it feel wrong to ask questions. I'm not after liberation. I'm after the Truth. They might possibly be the same ultimately, but I'm seeking one and not the other. And I don't mind if I suffer for it. Have a good time. Would you please point out to me some of the many basic assumptions that I left without noticing? I'm here to learn. Maybe I was bad at expressing what I meant. For you, you might be satisfied with not-knowing. For me, not-knowing and stopping right there is just sweeping it under the rug. I want to know. Hope we're on the same page.

Good point! That's why I'm here. There's nothing better to do.

I just love how your words motivate me Leo! ? I would love to do some psychedelics at any given chance. But from my place, it's far ahead. Maybe a couple of years when I get a handle on my financial situation, and when I move to another country. Of course I'm planning to do so. It's good to know the ways that won't work. I'm very grateful for you, and I admire your work. Right now, I'm going to go hardcore with the practices. Thank you ? Dude, I'm not a native speaker. Pardon me.

Thanks for your generous response. I lack concentration, I think you gave it to me directly: Concentration meditation. ?? Consider it a hobby! Digging into reality to find the Absolute. Not every act stems from suffering. Some stem from love. That's exactly what I'm asking about. What is the present moment existentially? I gotta go hardcore, I guess. Thank you. I don't mind not-knowing. But I don't get it. I'm trying to do that as much as I can. No, I have never been. I'm not fully satisfied with my answers. I acknowledge that. That's why I'm asking. There is something more to reality than I think I know. And I want to know. But by all means, thank you for your beautifully written post, and your innocent laughter. And moreover, thank you for your time.

Tired of chasing myself! Well, it isn't 100% peaceful. I'm not fully satisfied yet. Whoa! That was orgasmic! I like it. I think that's exactly what I needed to hear. Imma dig here. Thank you @Nahm ? I just am. Yes, I lack focus. And maybe I'm confusing some terms with others. That's why I'm asking. Thank you. But I don't know what the Truth is existentially. And I want to know.

Which is prior? Experience or the explanation of experience? In other words, which is first? The story itself or the telling of it?

Life is death. Your life depends on the death of others'.

I could give you infinite opinions and ideas, but that'll get you nowhere. The things you're asking about are not to be answered by someone else but yourself. It's just the way they are. I can only point you to that, not do it for you. I can't drink your water to quench your thirst.

@EternalForest There is no enlightenment. No heaven, no hell. What really is there is just the present moment which 'you' are experiencing. Remove all the labels that you've been taught to put on the present moment, even the labels: 'me' and 'present' and 'moment'. What is left? You are enlightened by default. Why do you want to believe enlightenment (heaven) to be something needs to be chased and obtained? Why do you want to believe that it's the highest ideal goal? You believe that there's enlightenment. Stop believing that. Stop taking things for granted. Everyone is lying to you, even myself as I'm saying this to you. Believing that there's enlightenment is a potential suffering. But on the other hand, suffering and not knowing how to break out of it sucks. So ask yourself: -Am I suffering? (probably the answer is yes). -Do I want to end it? (if yes, then take the actions required, look for solutions, and here is when you start your spiritual journey. If no, then go back to normal life as if nothing happened). "Enlightenment is the end of suffering." it's very important to remember that. All we can provide you with is just ideas, another layer of illusion on top of others, it's only you who can know. Don't give me your answers. Keep them for yourself.

@Matteo My advice for you is to search for beauty! Beauty can cure your depression, find out whatever you think is beautiful and look closely at it. Keep looking until it penetrates you and heal you from the inside. You will eventually see the beauty of your depression and it will stop looking like depression anymore, it will turn into Beauty! Good luck there, much love.

Yes, but you won't if you don't.

@kieranperez Think of it as an itch. You could easily ignore it and let it be however it is, or you could put your attention on it and let it distract you. Ask yourself; why am I making a big deal out of nothing significant? What happens if I let my saliva pour out of my mouth? I know it sounds silly, but have you ever considered that angle before?

@Bauer1977 More stories and nonsense. Another layer of illusion on top of others. What does my or others opinions matter? Why do you want us to give you an answer? I could tell you a lie, an affirmation or a negation to your thoughts. What does it mean to you? I think you should ask yourself more and others less.

Drop your theory and stories. What is death? What is life? You see the relativity there? The absolute is beyond life and death. So when you say ego death, you're talking relatively about something illusory. Soul death cannot possibly occur, because the Soul cannot die, because it is not even alive. It's just being.

Love doesn't understand mathematics. Love doesn't wait. It just happens when it happens. Do you love everyone and everything? Don't think, because you already know the answer.

Quoted from jed mckenna?

I don't know. But theoretically speaking, it could be infinite, never non being, so it didn't came from anywhere, because there's nowhere else to be but itself. Being is just what it is, it's being, it's itself. Everything else is an assumption (which is a part of being). P.S. Zero mystical experiences here.

I don't do shamanic breathing usually, but when I do, I do like two minutes, and then what happens is that nothing matters to me anymore for like one minute, then everything goes back to normal. It's nice exercise for relaxation, and raising your sensitivity.

@Roman Edouard Don't laugh at me. I used to believe in that same stuff that you read on YouTube for almost my whole life until only 3 months ago.