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eww, chomsky gives me "bad vibes".

Also I just feel space now. The outside feels like the inside. "Contemplating god" seems dualistic. In this i state I describe i see no difference. So what's the difference with working and contemplating god. Just feel space all the time no matter what doing.

Thanks! You think I can do it while doing a online marketing (copywriting,...) job?

will one just be surviving or have a little more to do something fun or have a nice meal, eat good food? How does one have shelter and food taken care of if not working?

Just hearing that feels good.

Remember that study they did like a decade ago, NYU or the times or something like that, after like 70k the happiness to income ratio aren't in alignment anymore and one works more where happiness doesn't really increase much.

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Nice insight.

wheres this?

I like Rupert's method of self inquiry which he says to ask, "what is aware of this thought/sensation?" Where Ramana says to whom has this thought arisen. To me. Then you ask who am I? Then from there you'll go to the source. Rupert's way with one question on takes you straight to the source. With repeated practice the mind will develop the power to stay in it's source. ChatGPT in regards to Maharishis method says when inquiring who am I one is inquiring into the limited self and thus never finds it showing you it's illusury bringing you back to the self. I tried it and it goes deep. So in self inquiry, is the idea to go straight to the self with Rupert's method for example, or maharishi's method with a few questions that will take you to the self or inquiring into the illusury self like chatGPT says? It took me 6 years to warm up to the idea of self inquiry. Can one still function in the world if continuously abiding in the self? Will we lose our thoughts needed to be identified and function in this world? Do we need to have a deep rooted understanding of the self first before losing identity with thoughts? If so is self inquiry advised? Do we need to be deeply rooted in this world before becoming identified with the self? -on another note: the self will always take care of us. Provide us home and shelter and whatever else we need. But what if we want to eat good organic food and buy natural detergent, shampoo, etc. Because that's what's best for us, that's how we'll function best in this world. If we're not working or preoccupied with money will the self provide us all that? Thank you.

Thank you! This is where I currently find myself. I feel a strong inclination towards non-duality but I'm also focused on finding my path in life, which makes me wonder if I should be practicing self-inquiry.

Besides scientific and conventional wisdom, through direct experience it's what makes me feel best. I've eaten gluten, simple/high carb, processed, foods with pesticides/GMO's, and I know the way they make me feel.

all natural chamomile, the actual plant. i just discivered it, and wow, remarkably similar to benzodiazepines. I use it in tea.

Not sure I'm following you. Are you saying none of this exists? But your saying there's an ego? Doesn't implying there's an ego imply there's something besides it/the self?

@Razard86?

I took part in a wachuma (san pedro cactus) ceremony while traveling in Latin America. It was a very powerful and intense ceremony. For context, partaking in the ceremony was a group of eastern europeans and someone from North America. Once I started to really feel the medicines effects I started to feel the energies of some of the people there were infiltrating mine. I started to get paranoid thoughts. One of the space holders for the ceremony, a younger guy, when I asked for help he seemed to get energized by my distress rather than helping me. The main shaman, who I silently called upon for assistance, seemed unresponsive to my apparent inner turmoil. Then later we took a walk out into some sacred ruins and the facilitator said we were going to make prayers at this sacred temple where supposedly the first humans were born. At this point I was feeling pretty paranoid. The people I felt were infiltrating my energy kept looking at me and laughing that felt dark. I felt they were the grey's aliens and infiltrating my mind when I was about to go into the temple to make these very important prayers. I thought they were changing the future of humanity by messing with me. I thought I was paving the way for humanity through my prayers. Even though I had these fears I went into the temple with my best intentions and made prayers of gratitude, peace, love, and joy, for myself and humanity. I was in the temple for a while and when I came out only the shaman was there. The others went on a hike. Still feeling fear, I asked the shaman what he thought about those people and he said they were "bad people". I felt more fear when he shared this but didn't want to say they were bad people so stayed quite. When I asked him again what he meant they were bad people (still feeling fear) he seemed to get upset. Like I disappointed him. Then he asked me what my profession was. I currently not sure of my purpose/aligning with highest excitement (in between jobs) and in that state didn't feel called to answer a question about work. I asked him why he wanted to know and he said to connect. I answered I work in love. He seemed to be really disappointed by my answer. At that moment I felt this curandero, a seer, was creating realities based off my fears. I thought I was doomed and the next morning my life was going to be changed. Things spirled 'down' after that. The rest of the night I was experiencing a lot of fear and thought I was being psyhychly attacked by these people. I was afraid to go to sleep that night thinking I was going to wake up into a new reality. Since the ceremony life has been great actually. I've grown a lot since it and expericing more joy and harmony. I know to focus on the now, but an aspect of me fears there's a parallel version of me expericing this reality the Russians and shaman brought onto me. And the me now actually is a new me that shifted into a new reality.

Feel really called to share this amazing, beautiful late 70's gentleman living off grid on a beautiful mountain property in north carolina. It's amazing what he's done. He's looking to start a community to live on the property. Text book green with maybe some yellow.

Thank you. I get you but reading it it kind of feels like wishful thinking. How about the whole parallel reality thing?

I recently went to a festival where I took about ⅓ LSD the first night, and a couple of hours later microdosed mushrooms throughout the night. The first night I had a profound experience listening to a DJ/show. I for the first time ever experienced what I think is no-self? It’s like I was watching the show but didn’t see my body (nose/face/feet..), it was just like a screen of the show. The next day I continued microdosing mushrooms and later at night smoked some cannabis. Then it happened. I saw everyone as if it was me. I was like what’s the point of even talking to you if you are me. It started to get pretty intense. I started to comb through every little detail in my life and saw it was all me. I felt very alone. I saw a picture of Jesus and said it was me. I started thinking about the dinosaurs and all the history we were taught and thought it was me. Then I started to think of my parents and siblings and thought it was me. All my negative emotions were me. I started to question all my beliefs and wondering if anything was real because it was made up by me. Even stuff learned here on actualized. Eckhart Tolle, Buddha, why should I even listen to their teachings if it’s all me? Then I started wondering wtf!? If all this is made up then wtf is going on and wtf am I, wtf is all this? The universe, the “void”, “enlightment”, is all this made up? Wtf is real? I became obsessed with it. Everywhere I walked and everyone I ran into I kept walking away because I said it’s all me. Even things that comforted me like taking a shower and going to sleep was just me. What’s the point? Nothing made sense. I thought I was losing it and I didn’t know how I was going to function in the world. Some of my housemates were in the kitchen and I was like there they go playing their role, so typical, it felt like a movie set or something. The more I started to ignore these people the more they were seemingly trying to get my attention. Like they didn’t want to stop existing. Like in the movie the Truman show at the end when people started taking desperate measures to keep his attention because they still wanted to exist. What happened to me? Was this a non-dual experience? Did I experience oneness for the first time? Should I not take any psychedelics or smoke cannabis (I get really deep when I smoke and start deconstructing everything) for a while? All I could think about was Adyashantis title the end of your world, that’s what it felt like to me. When I was taking a shower I thought if all this is made up I can live till whatever age I want and manifest any reality in the world that I want. I thought that I could immediately imagine myself in a 5 star hotel taking a pampered bath. This feeling persisted the next day (although not as intense) but the following day I had a bad night of sleep and when I woke up it went away. Back to my old self. What happened to me please? Any help and guidance would be greatly appreciated. Much love y’all

Thanks everyone @Serotoninluv I hear you about your State of mind changing depending on where you are... @DrewNows I know what you mean

So I have ADD (attention deficit disorder) up the ass and it really helps me to concentrate on something when I have to work. However, it's been 4 days since I've taken it and my nerves are still paying the price for it. I also feel a bit of dissassociation, I'm here but my mind is elsewhere. I take a low dose of 50 mg, 3 times a week. Is it worth it?

@Serotoninluv whaddya think do the side effects outweigh the benefits in my case?

@Serotoninluv thanks for responding. I'm definitely hyper sensitive to all stimulants. Can't even drink green tea honestly

@7thLetter I hear you. I'm in the same boat. Although it's often said you need to fix your inside first before the outside gets better; or your outter is a reflection of your inner... so it's kinda like a catch 22. *Check out this angel number that came to me today in the attached image. Getting these angel messages ALL THE FRICKIN TIME. And yes i feel the same about 5MEODMT. I'm trying to get my financial straighten out but I'm afraid I just won't care after doing it.

Hi, why do you say the 5-Meo-DMT ceremony comes after getting your financial situation handled? Just curious...