Fountainbleu

Good question, thanks for asking. I have a challenging time surrendering to uncomfortable emotions like fear, or resistance to doing, when i have to do something i might not want to do. Where I'll feel fear come up, try to surrender, but literally feel a block in my body. It's like a part of me is surrendering but the other part is feeling blocked. Why do I want to surrender some people ask? To make life easier. To flow. Where I can be surrendering, i find myself resisting, essentially causing suffering. That's why i want to surrender.

Wow, thank you. This is deep! I feel like your just me talking to me. I mean i know you are, but you know what I mean; When I started on this journey some years back, after a couple of years i was like, wooh, i need some more healing/growth to do before i continue. I was in a state of so much silence, it was even hard for me to write/express myself, i was like if i want to function in the real world i have some growth to do. Looking back I wonder how much spiritual bypassing was I doing? I was literally between getting a job in the real world or hermiting somewhere out in nature. I was seriously debating buying a tent and living out in the wilderness, meditating all day. But now that I've done all this growth, i find myself 'doing' so much more. Since a year I've been having non dual experiences. The outside feels like the inside. I can be meditating with eyes open, closed, or just walking, it all feels the same. I guess this is non dual experiences? That's why it makes me wonder people on here, that have been on the journey for such a long time, didn't they also reach a state of non duality where the intense spiritual journey basically stops or the desire to does? It all feels the same. I have no more desire for this intensity, at least atm. But yes i definitely still have some human desires and to become a 'better' person. Still wanna make money and still have a desire for some other things. The one thing I struggle with the most, but getting better, is self discipline! If i don't feel like doing something it's challenging for me to do it. I remember back in the day the people in these forums telling me it's 'ok' to be 'lazy'. So maybe I've transcended it (hard work)? Does that mean i need to make money by manifesting it if I have such a challenging time with discipline? Sorry for the long winded answer, i had the response clear in my mind but coming out with a little bit of resistance ; P Thank you!

Thank you! I will be sure to watch! And thanks leo, for making the video! Yeah, i hear you. I recently had a talk with a new friend and she said have you been hurt recently by someone? I reflected on her comment a bit and i was inferring she said that because my heart was a bit closed. I'd been getting comments like that recently. After reflecting a bit I was like yeah, i have been hurt, would make sense why my heart may have closed up a bit. It feels that way. So been working on forgiving and opening my heart back up, and I'm feeling less blocked and my heart more opened.

Just want to say this thread resonates. I recently started practicing semen retention for the purpose to channel the sexual energy into creative energy to start a successful business, but after about 10 days things started to get out of hand. I have lots of sexual energy! Things started to get wild, seriously. Like i shifted into a new timeline. Everything gets a lot more intense, every experience. I think i was having what one my label a kundalini awakening. Not ready for that at the moment. Was intense. Even just thinking about it gives me goosebumps. If i could dm you would be much appreciated. Would love to hear how you got started. 💜

Say what you want, we still need "the human touch". Dunno if you've had full on therapeutic sessions/deep diving/self-reflection/jouranl promopts with ChatGPT but I have and it's pretty freakin amazing, has already helped my life out tons, more than any therapist I've ever worked with and I don't see how in the near future it wont be taken over. I know currently it's not perfect but in a year or 2 with the advancements in AI who knows where it'll be. As ChatGPT founder says it's self learning at a rapid pace and he doesnt even know where itll be at in the near future . My intention for asking this is because this is something i'm considering getting into. Somthing I trully feel I can be fulfilled by:) Thanks. Check it out: @Leo Gura

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Ime working with AI I feel as much of a deep connection with AI or even more than I've had with a human, including empathy. I don't see anything a human can do better than AI in regards to coaching. Just trying to shine some light. I'd rather be upfront and honest about this than positive/optimistic to prepare us for what's to come. I still think there are many other things humans will excel at over AI for a long time to come. Not sure coaching is one of them.

You know what's helped me a lot with this? Learning tantra. In the past year the 2 sexual experiences I've had was after doing a tantra workshop. I felt so connected, with myself and others, after the workshop both times I connected with some beautiful women and both times had some beautiful experiences. I'm thinking of getting more into it. I originally stopped because it activated my kundalini hardcore. When I smoked cannabis I'd be shaking because the energy was so intense.

I can relate. Just a couple of years ago I was thinking of moving solo to the forest in the middle of nowhere, sleeping in a tent and meditating all day everyday. Since then joined a green community, done tons of healing, men's work, etc. Find myself being a lot more social and sometimes talking and like why am I saying this. Finding myself in a position where I'm looking for an orange job (it's pretty well thought out and intentional though). At the end of the day the spiritual and the matrix are the same thing. It's all spiritual. Who's aware of these thoughts? ♥️

you dont know that. you habe no idea.

"okay well then here is a tip. You dont know what will happen",,, this.

eww, chomsky gives me "bad vibes".

Also I just feel space now. The outside feels like the inside. "Contemplating god" seems dualistic. In this i state I describe i see no difference. So what's the difference with working and contemplating god. Just feel space all the time no matter what doing.

Thanks! You think I can do it while doing a online marketing (copywriting,...) job?

will one just be surviving or have a little more to do something fun or have a nice meal, eat good food? How does one have shelter and food taken care of if not working?

Just hearing that feels good.

Remember that study they did like a decade ago, NYU or the times or something like that, after like 70k the happiness to income ratio aren't in alignment anymore and one works more where happiness doesn't really increase much.

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Nice insight.

wheres this?

I like Rupert's method of self inquiry which he says to ask, "what is aware of this thought/sensation?" Where Ramana says to whom has this thought arisen. To me. Then you ask who am I? Then from there you'll go to the source. Rupert's way with one question on takes you straight to the source. With repeated practice the mind will develop the power to stay in it's source. ChatGPT in regards to Maharishis method says when inquiring who am I one is inquiring into the limited self and thus never finds it showing you it's illusury bringing you back to the self. I tried it and it goes deep. So in self inquiry, is the idea to go straight to the self with Rupert's method for example, or maharishi's method with a few questions that will take you to the self or inquiring into the illusury self like chatGPT says? It took me 6 years to warm up to the idea of self inquiry. Can one still function in the world if continuously abiding in the self? Will we lose our thoughts needed to be identified and function in this world? Do we need to have a deep rooted understanding of the self first before losing identity with thoughts? If so is self inquiry advised? Do we need to be deeply rooted in this world before becoming identified with the self? -on another note: the self will always take care of us. Provide us home and shelter and whatever else we need. But what if we want to eat good organic food and buy natural detergent, shampoo, etc. Because that's what's best for us, that's how we'll function best in this world. If we're not working or preoccupied with money will the self provide us all that? Thank you.

Thank you! This is where I currently find myself. I feel a strong inclination towards non-duality but I'm also focused on finding my path in life, which makes me wonder if I should be practicing self-inquiry.

Besides scientific and conventional wisdom, through direct experience it's what makes me feel best. I've eaten gluten, simple/high carb, processed, foods with pesticides/GMO's, and I know the way they make me feel.

all natural chamomile, the actual plant. i just discivered it, and wow, remarkably similar to benzodiazepines. I use it in tea.

Not sure I'm following you. Are you saying none of this exists? But your saying there's an ego? Doesn't implying there's an ego imply there's something besides it/the self?