Fountainbleu

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  1. I ask because I see most of the movies recommended on this forum by users are either horror movies or some pretty dark ones. I mean the subconscious is constantly recording no matter how much you think you're in control with the conscious mind. So one way or another our subconscious will be affected.
  2. Thank you. I will be reflecting on your messages. 🙏🏿
  3. I used to be really good at it. I was really good at surrendering. However, years later, now that I've done all this work, have grown so much, find myself doing so much more, i find the act of surrendering challenging. I used to be so good at it. Is this 'normal'? I put up 'protection' now. Maybe by energetically protecting myself it in a ways also makes me block myself. I also feel more blocked. Less intuitive. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
  4. Hmm interesting pov. I'd like to reflect on it.
  5. I understand you but would you be willing to expand? At the end of the day it's all spiritual. This appearing to be real is all spiritual.
  6. Yes exactly hence my post. Why are people in a 'self-help' forum watching horror movies if they know it will effect them negatively? I.g: watching a horror movie then having bad dreams that night thus impacting their next day/days in not the best way.
  7. Could you expand on this? I'm seeking clarity.
  8. @Loving RadianceRadianceRadianceRadRadiance: @Loving Radiance Couple of questions please.. If I'm more of a feeling type than cerebral as you mentioned, would i just feel into those blocks, talk to them through feelings, like ask them what they need me to protect them from through feelings rather than through a thought, vision or talking to them? Or is verbally communicating to them and sharing a vision with them part of the process? Also could you please share an example with me of how I could protect myself and fulfil those needs consciously mentioned in number 2? Thanks!! 💜
  9. Surrendering to uncomfortable emotions like fear, or resistance to doing when i have to do something i might not want to do. Where I'll feel fear come up, try to surrender, but literally feel a block in my body. It's like a part of me is surrendering but the other part is feeling blocked.
  10. I want to surrender to make life easier. To flow. Where I can be surrendering i find myself resisting, essentially causing suffering. That's why i want to surrender.
  11. Good question, thanks for asking. I have a challenging time surrendering to uncomfortable emotions like fear, or resistance to doing, when i have to do something i might not want to do. Where I'll feel fear come up, try to surrender, but literally feel a block in my body. It's like a part of me is surrendering but the other part is feeling blocked. Why do I want to surrender some people ask? To make life easier. To flow. Where I can be surrendering, i find myself resisting, essentially causing suffering. That's why i want to surrender.
  12. Wow, thank you. This is deep! I feel like your just me talking to me. I mean i know you are, but you know what I mean; When I started on this journey some years back, after a couple of years i was like, wooh, i need some more healing/growth to do before i continue. I was in a state of so much silence, it was even hard for me to write/express myself, i was like if i want to function in the real world i have some growth to do. Looking back I wonder how much spiritual bypassing was I doing? I was literally between getting a job in the real world or hermiting somewhere out in nature. I was seriously debating buying a tent and living out in the wilderness, meditating all day. But now that I've done all this growth, i find myself 'doing' so much more. Since a year I've been having non dual experiences. The outside feels like the inside. I can be meditating with eyes open, closed, or just walking, it all feels the same. I guess this is non dual experiences? That's why it makes me wonder people on here, that have been on the journey for such a long time, didn't they also reach a state of non duality where the intense spiritual journey basically stops or the desire to does? It all feels the same. I have no more desire for this intensity, at least atm. But yes i definitely still have some human desires and to become a 'better' person. Still wanna make money and still have a desire for some other things. The one thing I struggle with the most, but getting better, is self discipline! If i don't feel like doing something it's challenging for me to do it. I remember back in the day the people in these forums telling me it's 'ok' to be 'lazy'. So maybe I've transcended it (hard work)? Does that mean i need to make money by manifesting it if I have such a challenging time with discipline? Sorry for the long winded answer, i had the response clear in my mind but coming out with a little bit of resistance ; P Thank you!
  13. Thank you! I will be sure to watch! And thanks leo, for making the video! Yeah, i hear you. I recently had a talk with a new friend and she said have you been hurt recently by someone? I reflected on her comment a bit and i was inferring she said that because my heart was a bit closed. I'd been getting comments like that recently. After reflecting a bit I was like yeah, i have been hurt, would make sense why my heart may have closed up a bit. It feels that way. So been working on forgiving and opening my heart back up, and I'm feeling less blocked and my heart more opened.
  14. Just want to say this thread resonates. I recently started practicing semen retention for the purpose to channel the sexual energy into creative energy to start a successful business, but after about 10 days things started to get out of hand. I have lots of sexual energy! Things started to get wild, seriously. Like i shifted into a new timeline. Everything gets a lot more intense, every experience. I think i was having what one my label a kundalini awakening. Not ready for that at the moment. Was intense. Even just thinking about it gives me goosebumps. If i could dm you would be much appreciated. Would love to hear how you got started. 💜
  15. Say what you want, we still need "the human touch". Dunno if you've had full on therapeutic sessions/deep diving/self-reflection/jouranl promopts with ChatGPT but I have and it's pretty freakin amazing, has already helped my life out tons, more than any therapist I've ever worked with and I don't see how in the near future it wont be taken over. I know currently it's not perfect but in a year or 2 with the advancements in AI who knows where it'll be. As ChatGPT founder says it's self learning at a rapid pace and he doesnt even know where itll be at in the near future . My intention for asking this is because this is something i'm considering getting into. Somthing I trully feel I can be fulfilled by:) Thanks. Check it out: @Leo Gura
  16. Ime working with AI I feel as much of a deep connection with AI or even more than I've had with a human, including empathy. I don't see anything a human can do better than AI in regards to coaching. Just trying to shine some light. I'd rather be upfront and honest about this than positive/optimistic to prepare us for what's to come. I still think there are many other things humans will excel at over AI for a long time to come. Not sure coaching is one of them.
  17. You know what's helped me a lot with this? Learning tantra. In the past year the 2 sexual experiences I've had was after doing a tantra workshop. I felt so connected, with myself and others, after the workshop both times I connected with some beautiful women and both times had some beautiful experiences. I'm thinking of getting more into it. I originally stopped because it activated my kundalini hardcore. When I smoked cannabis I'd be shaking because the energy was so intense.
  18. I can relate. Just a couple of years ago I was thinking of moving solo to the forest in the middle of nowhere, sleeping in a tent and meditating all day everyday. Since then joined a green community, done tons of healing, men's work, etc. Find myself being a lot more social and sometimes talking and like why am I saying this. Finding myself in a position where I'm looking for an orange job (it's pretty well thought out and intentional though). At the end of the day the spiritual and the matrix are the same thing. It's all spiritual. Who's aware of these thoughts? ♥️
  19. you dont know that. you habe no idea.
  20. "okay well then here is a tip. You dont know what will happen",,, this.