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I don’t want to get off topic , but how do you mean?

I was taking a quick 5 minute meditation break and felt a desire/(“intuition”) to text someone but didn’t. I didn’t want to be reactive to my emotions/intuition. After meditation ended I lost the desire & didn’t text back for over an hour. It’s been over 4 hours now and the person hasn’t replied back. Did I do the right thing? This is someone I respect and trying to be friends with. I feel I live in a city where the flow is fast. To many this may come off as I’m not interested. If this would have been one of my longer strong determination sittings, then I would certainly have not answered. What do you think? P.S. How can you tell the difference between impulse, desire and intuition?

@Leo Gura I’m curious to hear your take on this please..

Hmm thanks. It did feel like more of an inspiration than a compulsion. I know in the grand scheme of things I can’t do no wrong thing, but I’m still in the matrix playing by its rules

The soul is happy no matter what ? I think you are confusing the mind with the soul maybe? The mind is cunning man. It’ll make you think it’s the soul, but it’s really just the mind playing more tricks on you. As others have said already. Work on getting better in this life (examples of how to: talk therapy, emotional & physical healing, some psychedelics every once in a while, plant medicine retreats in Peru, Wim Hof breathing and cold showers, reiki, accupuncture, healthy eating, think everything organic, your career, financial freedom, YOGA /any kind/, friends, FRIENDS *self affirmations is good for this*, even if you don’t have friends or not as many as you’d like, every night before bed and upon waking say to your self at least 5 times “I have so many great friends”, *and feel it as if it were true*, and the subconscious will eventually believe it and then this will start to manifest in your realty *this is another way to create btw*,,,, do everything and anything to heal your self brother.... then you can seek true relaxation. Then when we have mastered everything in this material world we can truly become relaxed and can pursue enlightenment and break from this dream. But we gotta work on this life first! If you hate life as you say then figure out why the fuck you do and work on fixing that! The universe is giving you an opportunity to prove yourself. As Adyashanti says. Spirit will bring you face to face with your innermost demons. Don’t shy away from them! Spirit wants you to work on that. It’s the hero’s journey brother! Now man up. Best.

Like not meditating and doing your morning routine first thing when you wake up in the morning and instead just watch a movie lying on bed while vegging out? Gets a bit monotonous sometimes.

@IAmTheHolySpirit well did you read my post? For example watching movies and vegging out on a lazy Sunday... or having a bbq with some friends, maybe a beer or 2 (although I wouldn’t drink beer anymore cuz not good for the brain and makes me feel weird after since my accident, but I do desire it sometimes) or some weed, and some reggae music ?? Heck not going to lie feel like chasing women sometimes (kinda lost that skill, my communication skills have been improving though), it’s like the old me is trying to find it’s way back... I feel it’s energy, it’s quite nostalgic.

Thanks

@James123 Good point

@rlc ???

Thanks for your reply

Boom! I think you pinned the tail on the donkey with this one. I’ve gotten better with discipline but definitely still struggle with getting work done when I’m not motivated, especially work that I find boring. Are there any tips and strategies to overcome this? Or is it basically just pushing through it, getting comfortable with being uncomfortable, and eventually it’ll get easier with time? And thanks for your long answer! Very helpful. I’ve seen some of your posts in the business forum. I’ve been wanting to get start a business myself. I’m recovering from a head injury and it takes a lot of money to heal a brain! I’m not sure yet what but I tend to lean towards affiliate marketing. I’ve done a lot of research and I think this is the best way to make money online nowadays. Thing is people say AM is boring as shit balls. Then I also always remember what Osho said. Be conscious and life will bring you what you need. Working on a business isn’t really being conscious. And sorry for my rant!

not following you...

do you have any unconscious habits like the ones I mentioned? btw Osho said discipline is good... It doesn't come easy for me either but I'm working on getting better. I still have work to do in this material world before going full awakening. ?

@IndigoGeminiWolf What was the intention that helped with his concussion? Thanks.

@joeyi99 it's been over a year.... how's it going?

@Victor Mgazi This makes a lot of sense ?

What I’m about to tell you has been very concerning to me for sometime now. About a year. So this post has been in the making for that long now. It’s a little bit long so please bear with me. - To make a long story short, quite some time ago, I got a nasty concussion in a car accident and was knocked out cold for a few hours. After that, I started to experience a lot of anxiety, insomnia, personality changes, and quite a few other emotional disturbances. Fast forward many years later and I discovered Eckhart Tolle and the Power of Now ? Wow o wow. Practicing the pain body as explained in The Power of Now was truly transforming. I was basically meditating every waking hour, because my anxiety was 24/7. When I was conscious of my painbody, I felt pure bliss and ecstasy. Now fast forward about a year later. I started doing Reiki with this wonderful lady. She would do a little Reiki on me and then run her hands hovering around my body and I could literally feel her energy, this warmth I had never been able to perceive from someone before. I always felt really comfortable and calm when she was finished, actually so calm I’d usually fall asleep when she did it. It was the 2nd meeting when she said she found an energy in my body that wasn’t mine (i had told her on our first visit that for the past few months I had this very weird energy in me that didn’t belong to me and that it wouldn’t go away.) So on the 2nd appointment she said she located the energy and just started yawning. Straight up yawning for like 10 minutes. I said what the heck are you doing? She said she located the energy and is extracting it from me (mind you I didn’t believe in any of this stuff before I met her). I kid you not. When I got out of there that energy was completely gone for me. This is when I started to realize there is something special about this lady. I kept seeing her for months and loved it. She would do these angel meditations that were truly remarkable. Turned me into a believer. I’m convinced that she could read minds. She would know stuff about me before me even telling her (I never experienced this before with someone and just in case you're thinking, I’m not schizo or anything like that). I even mentioned that about her and she had a smirk on her face. So going forward, I had told her in 1 meeting that recently I had been experiencing a lot of anger and aggression lately, even towards strangers I didn’t know. In the next appointment we had gotten into a kind of heated discussion about something and I kinda snapped at her. I just remembered the way she looked at me, thinking like, ok this guys concussion has really done some bad to him. So the next appointment she said she was going to work on my head (brain). She looked like she had been thinking long and hard about this. For like 20 minutes she was hovering her hands around my head and speaking these incantations (dunno if Spanish or what. She is from South America, indignant background, FYI). When I got out of there I felt like my emotions were completely numb. My anger was gone. My good feelings were gone. I couldn’t feel my pain body anymore. I used to take these long baths every night, in a low lit bathroom with some nice music and just feel pure bliss. I would just feel my being. That all went away. I used to love connecting to the earth. Just five minutes of being barefoot in the grass and I would feel ecstatic for hours after ward. That also went away. I love dogs. There was this dog that lived in the same building as me and knew me well and really liked me. When he saw me after that the first time he ran up to me, barked at me, and ran away. SUPER strange as I am a really big dog lover. Same thing with a cat one day. I walked into a friend's house (that I’d been before), and the cat hissed at me and acted all weird (never did that before). My friend even mentioned it and got a little worried. Also my intuition. It’s like my inner compass is gone. My answers used to come from my being, not anymore. I can sense that it’s there (my intuition and being), but there’s like a wall there not letting me access it. Acceptance. Acceptance was a really big learning for me from the Power of Now. It really was huge. I just learned how to accept my new difficulties and any challenges I faced. I can’t feel my acceptance anymore. It’s like I just can’t accept things anymore. My intellectualism is gone. My answers used to come from my being and I would just speak so elaborately and passionately about something. That’s gone. My burning desire and passion for learning is gone. I’m like a sponge absorbing new information. I remember watching many of Leo advanced videos on Enlightenment (i.e: Why brains don’t exist), and I would just understand and eat up everything the first time I heard it. Not anymore. Not so interested and don’t really grasp it. Same thing for reading. My passion for reading is gone. When people ask me questions now it’s like my desire to answer them is gone (I used to like to entertain peoples thought provoking questions). Dunno if you believe in the fifth dimension and all that? But after I would be done grounding outside I would just be absolutely beaming with energy. My pupils would dilate. Other people also noticed this about me. But I don’t feel these ecstatic energies anymore. Mind you, this all started immediately after she worked on my head. It was as clear as day to me. I remember the first week following that session and me thinking what the hell is wrong with me?? I started wondering if this lady put a curse on me or what? My reasoning at the moment was that she was doing for the better of mankind (I guess so I don’t get angry with other people and hurt them). When I had mentioned this to her all she told me was that she leveled my energies out. That I was really intense (my anxiety, my energy, everything). That all she did was work with light from the angels. I did feel more balanced, but I didn’t like this new me. I told her to please undo whatever she did that I was feeling horrible. So she worked on my head again. I felt considerably better (a lot less numb) but not like I was previous to the first time she worked on my head. To this day, I still can’t really feel my painbody My inner compass is gone. I don’t get that feeling when I connect with nature anymore. I don’t get that spiritual bliss anymore. It’s been almost a year. What the hell is wrong with me? Did she do something that left me permanently emotionally and spiritually blocked? I must mention that the 1 good thing that came out of that was that I don’t feel this really bad anger that I would get (not frequently) after my concussion (it was a scary anger though, not so much intense, but like a deep and dark anger). But I don’t care. I want to feel again. Someone, please, help!

I’m not quite sure I understand what you mean by purification being in the feeling...

Can you please explain to me what you mean by that nothing is permanent? Do you mean that I’ll eventually go back to how I was before this happened? And you said I can change that state I’m in, How would I go about doing that? Thanks

Anymore feedback from anyone would be much appreciated.

@Victor Mgazi yes, thank you.

@hamedsf thanks for the advice.

@Nahm Thank you. Let me sit on that for a bit ??

@Nahm Thanks for your long post Nahm. But in regards to my problem, what do you think she did to me or happened to me? P.S. I am not near her anymore, but I know this kind of work can be done remotely (from a long distance from each other, like different countries).